Chapter - 16
Boards ab sirf kuch hafte door the.
Har taraf se pressure badh raha tha. School mein teachers roz assembly mein chillate the, “Last chance hai beta, ab serious ho jao.” Ghar mein Ammi subah-shaam yaad dilati thi. Abbu bhi kabhi-kabhi newspaper ke peeche se sirf itna bol dete, “Padh le Idris… ab bacha nahi hai tu.”
Main har roz ek naya plan banata tha. Aaj raat ko 2 ghante maths, 1 ghanta science, phir thoda revision. Table par saari books khol kar baithta, timer laga deta, paani ka glass side mein rakhta. Pehle 5-10 minute toh theek se padhta bhi tha. Phir aankhein bhari jaati. Dimag so jata. Kitab ke pages se sirf Akash ki purani tez awaaz sunai deti — “Arre yeh basic formula bhi nahi yaad?”
Aur phir haath apne aap mobile ki taraf badh jata.
Pehle bas 2 minute ke liye. Phir 10 minute. Phir pura ghanta. Kabhi-kabhi toh raat ke 2 baje tak mobile haath mein rehta. Normal porn, desi aunty, teacher-student, step-mom, college girl — har type ka. Kuch bhi chal raha tha. Padhai ki jagah raat bhar yahi chalta rehta. Subah uth kar aankhein soojhi hui hoti, sar bhari rehta aur phir wahi purana guilt.
Ek raat jab main aise hi scroll kar raha tha, ek naya video aaya — bully milf. School ka bully ghar aata hai, maa ko corner mein push karta hai, uski salwar khinchta hai aur zor-zor se chodta hai. Beta kamre ke darwaze ke peeche chhup kar sab dekh raha hota hai. Beta kuch nahi kar paata. Bas dekhta rehta hai aur uska lund khada ho jata hai.
Pehli baar jab maine woh scene dekha — bully maa ke peeche se dhakke maar raha tha aur maa moan kar rahi thi “Haan beta… aur zor se…” — mera dimag ek second ke liye freeze ho gaya.
Screen par maa ka chehra badal gaya. Woh Ammi ban gayi. Aur bully… Akash.
Maine jhat se mobile lock kar diya. Dil zor se dhadak raha tha. Haath kaanp rahe the. “Nahi… yeh galat hai… bahut galat hai,” maine khud se bola. Mobile side mein phenk diya aur bistar par let gaya. Lekin neend door thi. Dimag mein wohi scene baar-baar aa raha tha.
Us raat ke baad bhi porn ruk nahi paya. Har din padhai ka plan fail hota. 2 ghante ka target… sirf 5-10 minute sachchi padhai… baaki sab neend ya mobile. Confidence jo Akash ke time thoda sa jaga tha, woh phir se dheere-dheere mar raha tha. Main wapas usi purane Idris ban raha tha — 12 marks wala, corner seat wala, akela wala.
Ek shaam dimag bahut zyada bhari ho gaya.
“Bas… thoda sa fresh air le aata hoon,” maine khud se kaha. “Clear mind ho jayega, phir ghar aakar padhunga.”
Main utha aur bahar nikal gaya.
Pehle kuch din toh main akela hi park mein baitha rehta. Phir kabhi-kabhi Chand milne laga.
Kabhi main market se guzar raha hota, paan wale ke dukaan ke paas woh cigarette pi raha hota. Kabhi idhar-udhar ground ke kisi corner mein. Kabhi main baithta aur woh aata. Roz nahi, bas kabhi-kabhi. Har baar baatein normal rehti. School, boards, cricket. Chand koi ganda mazak nahi karta. Bas normal baatein. Woh kabhi kabhi hasa deta. Main bhi dheere-dheere khulne laga tha.
Lekin har baar ghar laut kar kamre mein lette hi woh purana lafz phir se aa jata — “Saali ka gaand dekh… mil jaye toh khod ke chhod dun.” Aur phir mobile uth jata. Porn. Har type ka.
Boards ke din nazdeek aate ja rahe the aur main padhai ki jagah roz bahar nikal raha tha. Ammi ko bahana achha lag raha tha. Woh khud bhi ab thodi busy rehti thi — ghar ka kaam, kabhi-kabhi phone par kisi se baat. Main notice karta tha ki uska chehra ab pehle jaisa nahi tha. Kabhi kabhi woh Akash ka naam bhi le leti thi… dheere se.
Ek shaam main market se guzar raha tha. Paan wale ke dukaan ke paas Chand khada tha. Usne mujhe dekh liya aur muskurate hue haath uthaya.
“Arre Idris! Idhar aa.”
Main ruk gaya. Uske paas chala gaya.
Chand ne mera kandha pakda aur dheere se bola, “Yaar tu itna akela kyun ghum raha hai? Chal ladkiyan tadte hain.”
Maine kuch nahi bola. Bas muskurane ki koshish ki.
Chand hans pada. Uski awaaz ab thodi alag thi — purana wahi chapri tone.
“Dekh saale, woh wali dekhi? Red top mein… kitni tight gaand hai be. Tad le properly.” Woh ek ladki ki taraf ishaara karta aur mujhe zor se dhakel deta. “Arre aankh mat jhuka… seedha dekh. Kitni mast hai yaar.”
Main chup raha. Dil zor se dhadak raha tha.
Chand ne aur kareeb aakar dheere se kaha, “Aur agar ladkiyan pasand nahi aa rahi toh bata… teri ammi jaisi mature maal bhi tad sakta hoon. Bahut tight aur garam hoti hai woh log. Tu bas dekhna chahega kya?”
Uske muh se “teri ammi jaisi” sunte hi mera pura badan sakht ho gaya. Woh purana ganda comment phir se kaanon mein goonj utha.
Main kuch bol nahi paya. Sirf sar jhuka liya.
Chand zor se hans pada aur mera kandha thapthapaya.
“Arre tension mat le yaar… mazak kar raha tha. Lekin sach bata… tu bhi toh apni ammi ko dekh ke kabhi sochta hoga na? Bol na… sach bol.”
Main wahan khada tha. Raat ka andhera cha gaya tha. Chand ki hansi door tak goonj rahi thi.
Aur main… kuch nahi bol pa raha tha.