Update-39
“oh my goodness ! pardon me for being so rude… ab khush”
“yes.. mam.. aap hume bula rahi thi..?”Starbeans ki purple shirt aur purple cap pahne hue ek ladka waha humare paas aakar khada ho gaya aur Madhu us-se kuch kahti uske pahle hee main bola pada…
“paanch hot chocolate le aao… bas isi ke liye bulaya tha…”
“ok sir…”
“thank you sir…”
Riya aur main jaha agal-bagal baithe the wahi… Madhu aur apne sakhiyo ke sath humare saamne virajmaan thi… hospital me Riya ke dwara mera hath pakadne ke kaaran kuch der pahle jo lava mere andar foot pada tha… uska asar ab bhi thoda bahut mujhpar ho raha tha, jiske karan main Riya ki taraf thodi-thodi der me dekh kar bematlab hee muskura diya karta aur mujhe aise muskurata dekh wo bhi apne chehre me question mark ka expression liye muskura deti aur aksar kabhi hatho se toh kabhi aankho se ishara karke mere muskurane par sawaliya nishan khada karti… par apun ke andar bahut attitude tha, apun ne ek baar bhi nahi bataya ki apun kyun muskura rela hai. aisa bahut der tak chalta raha aur aage bhi bahut der tak chalta… par….
“toh Atharva , tu finally sunna chahta hai apne us sawal ka jawab , jo tune mujhse aaj school me puchha tha….”Madhu achanak se bol padi.
“kaisa jawaaaab… kaisa sawaaaaal…”meri taraf ekdum se dekh kar Riya puchhi…
Waise galti Riya ki nahi thi… Madhu ne aise lahje me sawal hee puchha tha ki kisi ko bhi bhram ho jaye ki wo … us sawal ki baat kar rahi hai….
“arey kuch nahi, Rosie… wo science quiz me participate karne ke liye is-se puchha tha… kisi ek bio wale ko lena hai na..”
“mujhse toh ek baar bhi nahi puchha… wow…”apne baal peechhe karke apne do-do earring wale kaan dikhate hue Riya boli…
“kyunki Atharva , mujhe like karta hai… isliye… aur Atharva jaanta hai ki meri bio bahut strong hai.. last year 75 me se 73 number the mere. mera aur Atharva ka saalo ka relation hai , kyun Atharva…”
Madhu ke itna bolte hee fir Riya meri taraf chauk kar dekhne lagi aur maine pahle apna sar peeta fir apne sar ko dono hatho se tikakar neeche kar liya
“koyi maar do na be mujhe, please… ab aur nahi saha jaata… ye aksar mere saath hee kyun hota hai…… main hee chutiya hoon, yaa fir meri kismet me C likha hai... ya fir dono...”
Main apna sar jhukaye wahi baitha raha aur fir jab hot chocolate aaya toh use grahan karke formality puri karne ke liye Riya & Co. ko bye bola aur Starbeans se bahar aa gaya…. Waise bhi Madhu ne chhoda hee kya tha ab… Khade lund pe hathoda toh maar hee chuki thi wo… anda-vanda sab fod diya.
“abki baar Rakshabandhan me is se rakhi badhwaunga…… saali , kutti... kamini... harjayi... ladchatt ”
Maine bike me sawar hua aur Madhu ko sharaap dete hue ki lawdi ka jaate samay accident ho jaye aur uski chut kat-kat ke kayi tukdo me vibhajit hokar beech road me gir jaye, jise kutta utha ke khaa jaaye. Starbeans ke andar Madhu ko dekhte hue use shraap dekar Main Sanjay Gandhi Hospital ki taraf chal diya…. Kyunki Sanjana ki maa se bhi milna tha naa, nahi toh yadi Mommy yadi ghar me puchh-pachh leti Sanjana se toh pela jaata main.
Mujhe Sanjana ki maa ko dhoondhane me itna problem nahi hua, kyunki mammi ne already ghar me hee a to z sab explain kar diya tha ki… hospital ke andar kaha se kaise mudna hai… kaha se kaise nahi mudna hai… lift lena hai ki nahi... seedhiyo se kaise aaram se jaana hai, jyada kud-fad nahi karni hai. Sanjana ki maa se milte hee Namaste karna hai aur jo paise wo mujhe de rahi hai us se unke liye sev-santare kharid kar unhe dena hai. lagbhag sabkuch… ek-ek chiz se lekar waha jaane wale raaste ke ek-ek inch tak... sab kuch explain kiya Mommy ne. aur mujhe sab samajh aa bhi gaya.. kabhi-kabhi toh lagta hai, main apni maa se hee puchh loon ki ladki kaise patau... matlab mujhe aisa lagne laga tha ki main ab Hospital ka blueprint taiyar kar sakta hu… mujhe lagbhag har jaroori details maloom thi jaise ki… Sanjay Gandhi me dialysis center kaha hai… dialysis center me kisi se milne ki procedure kya hai etc.etc. lagbhag sabhi detail mujhe maloom thi.
Sanjana ki maa ko hemodialysis treatment diya jaa raha tha, waha pahuchkar maine dekha ki Sanjana ki maa ka blood ek blooad pump ki help se artificial kidney me bheja jata , jaha se wo purify hokar wapas body me ghusta tha… unhone mujhe dekha toh ishare se mujhe apne paas aane ke liye kaha…. Par main waha akela nahi tha… waha Silky Sanjana aur Karan Naik bhi mauzood the… jab Sanjana ki maa ne mujhe ishara kiya toh wo dono peechhe meri taraf palte…
Main dheere-dheere , ahiste-ahiste Sanjana ki maa ki taraf badha aur simultaneously Karan Naik ki taraf bhi badha… jaha se yadi wo chahe toh mujhe uthakar teesari manzil se seedhe neeche fek sakta tha… lekin fir bhi maine ye risk liya aur Sanjana ki maa ki taraf badha… Sanjana ki maa pahle kabhi-kabhar humare ghar ghoomne aaya karti thi, isliye wo mujhe bahut hee achchhi tarah se jaanti thi infact unhone ek baar mujhe mere baapu se pitne se bhi bachaya tha…. isliye wo ahsaan toh chukana hee tha
“Namaste….”apne dono hath jodkar unke hath se jude hemodialysis ki system ki taraf dekh kar maine kaha
Iske baad unhone mujhe apne dusare hath se bagal me rakha ek sev khane ke liye diya, jise maine khane ke bajay hath me rakh liya ye soch kar ki yaha se jab Ved ke yaha jaunga .. tab uske sath khaunga. aur fir se hemodialysis ke pure arrangement ko dekhne laga, jise dekhkar mujhe ajeeb lagne laga… kyun..? pata nahi bas ajeeb laga… matlab kharab laga.. maine Sanjana ki maa ko is haalat me dekhne ki kalpana nahi ki thi. Pipes me se move karte hue unke khoon ko dekh mere khoon ne move karna band kar diya tha.jiska andaza shayad Sanjana ki maa ko bhi ho gaya tha.
“kitna bada ho gaya hai tu, Atrharva... do saal me…”mera dhyan bhatkane ke liye wo boli
“kya…”
“maine kaha, kitna bada ho gaya hai tu… kaise chal rahi hai padhai likhayi…”
“sab thik hee chal raha hai… aap batao…”
“bas dekh hee raha hai…”feeki muskan ke sath unhone jawab diya… “mere peechhe bekar hee pareshan hai, ye log… har ek insaan ki zindagi me ek samay aata hai jab use realize hota hai ki, uska samay aa chuka hai… mujhe ye realize ho chuka hai… kabhi-kabhi dar bhi lagta hai is-se… par ye machine ke jariya jinda rahna , fizool hai kyunki ant me toh Mrityu hee param satya hai, chahe uske liye tum taiyar ho ya na ho…”
Sanjana ki maa ke aisa bolte hee Sanjana ki haalat kharab ho gayi , Sanjana ki maa ki condition abhi bahut sahi thi… mera matlab yadi main unhe dialzer ke arrangement ke bina dekhu toh 1 % bhi nahi bata paunga ki wo bimar bhi hai aur jise dialysis suit kar jata hai toh fir wo saalo zinda bhi rahta hai… isliye unka ye kathan bahut hee wahiyaat tha… Sanjana ro toh nahi rahi thi par rone wali expression jaroor uske chehre par the….
“aise kaise…. Abhi toh aapko Sanjana ki shadi me dance bhi karna hai aur beshak Mrityu param satya hai, par abhi aapko us satya ko janne ki jaroorat nahi hai… abhi zindagi roopi asatya ko hee jaaniye bas aur jo aapko realize hua hai na ki aapka samay aa chuka hai… wo hospital me admit hone wale har ek mariz ko hota hai. mariz ko chhodo yaha unse jo milne aate hai.. unhe bhi yahi realize hota hai. ye sab bakwas baate hai aur kuch nahi…”
Iske baad Main waha jyada der tak nahi ruka aur raat hone ka bahana karke waha se nikal gaya… kyunki sach kahu toh waha rahte hue mujhe bhi dheere-dheere realize hone laga tha ki Mrityu hee param satya hai… isliye maine waha se nikalna hee behtar samjha…. Par main waha se akele nahi nikla… matlab main nikla toh akele hee tha, par thodi der baad mere peechhe-peechhe Karan Naik bhi nikla aur Dialysis center se main abhi bahar nikla hee tha ki usne mujhe peechhe se meri gardan daboch liya….
“really……? Is samay ye sujh raha hai aapko”jab Naik ne mujhe peechhe se pakda toh main bola…
“tu sale bahut dogla insaan hai… tujhe us raat dekhte hee maine andaza laga liya tha….”
“kahna toh nahi chahiye.. par jo jaisa hota hai, use sari duniya waisi hee dikhayi deti hai….”
even if it takes 4–5 years and I finish what I started.
.. atharva aur uska rishta kab bana jo keh rahi hai saalo se rishta hai ...
Poor Atharva must be wondering where he is stucked...
You are absolutely right that parents explain everything and then send childrens out.
Death and disease can happen at any time, many times our efforts are successful and sometimes we fail, the effort is always to be done and in the end I will say the same thing is that Accepting death is the ultimate truth and keep moving forward.
