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Adultery Aashram

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Chapter 1: Diksha Ka Pehla Charan

Mera naam Anita Singh hai aur main Uttar Pradesh ke ek chhote se kasbe mein rehti hoon. Abhi meri umar battis saal hai, main vivahit hoon. Main pachaas saal ki thi jab meri shaadi Rajesh ke saath hui, jo ek dukaan maalik hai. Shuru shuru mein meri shaadi shuda zindagi bahut achhi thi aur main har cheez se khush thi. Rajesh aur mere beech bahut achha aur gehra sambandh tha. Hamari surat sambandh bhi kaafi niyamit aur santusht tha, har cheez theek chal rahi thi. Lekin zindagi mein kadwaahat tab shuru hui jab shaadi ke do saal baad Rajesh aur maine nirnaya kiya ki ab hum ek baccha paida karenge. Lekin ek saal tak bina kisi suraksha ke lagataar sambandh banane ke baad bhi jab main garbhavati nahi hui toh hum dono bahut pareshan ho gaye. Ghar walon taraf se bhi bahut dabav padne laga tha. Main sach mein samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki yeh kyun ho raha hai. Meri mahine ki aayein toh bilkul niyamit aati thi aur sharirik roop se main kishoravastha se hi bahut vikasit shareer wali thi. Kabhi socha bhi nahi tha ki main aisi samasya mein phas jaungi.


Us samay main sattayis saal ki thi, thodi gori, paanch feet do inch lambai, andaakar chehra aur bharpoor shareer. Jaise maine kaha, college ke dinon se hi mere stan battis size ke the aur kaksh bharpoor the. Main hamesha apne bhojan paan ka khayal rakhti thi taaki nitamb aur kati par adhik mans na chadh jaaye. Sadak par ya kisi bhi ikattha mein mujhe ladkon ki nazar achhi khasi lagti thi, main anubhav kar leti thi, halanki main kapde pahanne mein kaafi rakshatmak thi. Is mamle mein main bahut sharmili thi, jo meri palan poshan aur chhote shehar ki wajah se tha. Bhagwan ne mujhe jagah jagah achhi cheezein di thi, thodi bhari hui nichli hisse ke saath, lekin main kaafi sakriya aur swasth thi, mahine ki aayein bhi bilkul niyamit.


Rajesh mujhe kai vaidy ke paas le gaya. Shuru mein main bahut sharmili anubhav karti thi halanki hum stri rog visheshagya striyon ke paas hi jaate the. Lekin har baar parikshan ke samay mujhe bahut sharm aati thi jab mujhe apni sari, salwar kameez ya jo bhi pahna hota usko upar karna padta aur antarvastra neeche tak utaarne padte. Sach bataun toh jab vaidy meri niji angon ko chhuti thi parikshan ke liye, mujhe vaastavik mein uttejit ho jaata tha. Woh stri hi thi phir bhi jab woh mere stanon, chuchukon ya phir meri romil yoni ko jaanchti thi toh turant neeche drav nikalne lagta aur mera antarvastra geela ho jaata tha, jo mujhe bahut asukoon anubhav hota tha. Vaidyon ne aushadhiyan di, prayogshaala parikshan karwaye lekin koi parinaam nahi aaya.


Phir Rajesh mujhe nagar ke vaidy ke paas le gaya, lekin maine usse saaf saaf keh diya ki main sirf stri vaidy ke paas hi jaanch ke liye jaungi. Wahan bhi sab kuch vyarth hi gaya. Meri saas ne mujhe gharailu chikitsa visheshagyon ke paas bhi le jaakar dikhaya lekin wahan se bhi koi labh nahi hua. Is beech Rajesh aur mere beech ka sambandh bhi kharab hone laga tha. Saath hi main mahsoos kar rahi thi ki ab mujhe sambhog se koi anand nahi aa raha tha, lagta tha jaise sirf baccha utpann karne ka vyayam ho gaya hai. Din beete gaye aur ek aur saal guzar gaya, main athhaais saal ki ho chuki thi. Main din bhar udas rehti thi aur bahut kathinaai se samay nikaal rahi thi.


Phir ek din Rajesh ne mujhe bataya ki usne nagar mein ek purush stri rog visheshagya ke paas jaane ka nirnaya kar liya hai jo banjhpan mamlon ka nipun hai. Main is baat ko lekar bahut sakht thi ki main purush stri rog visheshagya ke paas nahi jaungi, meri sharmili pan ki wajah se. Lagta hai koi bhi saadhaaran stri aisa parhez karegi kyunki tathya yeh hai ki aapko apne stanon aur yoni ko ek purush ke saamne prakat karna padta hai, chahe woh parikshan hi kyun na ho.


So main apni baat par bahut sakht thi ki purush vaidy ke paas nahi jaungi, aur isse pehle yeh baat mere aur Rajesh ke beech koi badi jhagda tak pahunch jaati, tabhi hamare padosi Meera ne meri saas ke paas ek prastav rakh diya. Meera ne meri saas se kaha, “Aunty ji, aapne Anita ke liye itne saare vaidy prayas kar liye, koi parinaam nahi mila. Anita nagar tak jaanch karwa ke aayi, gharailu chikitsa bhi prayas ki, phir bhi uske god mein baccha nahi aaya. Dekho na uski sthiti, din bhar kitni udas aur udas rehti hai. Aunty ji, aap Anita ko Rampur le jaao Guru ji ke ashram mein. Meri do rishtedaaron ko chaar paanch saal tak baccha nahi hua tha, unhone Guru ji se diksha li aur unki jadi booti aushadhiyon ne unki poori zindagi badal di. Aur hamari Anita toh abhi sirf teen saal hi vivahit hai. Mamla aur kharab hone se pehle Guru ji ke paas le jaao, woh sach mein chamatkar karte hain.”


Humne is sanyasi baba ke baare mein pehle bhi suna tha Rampur ke ashram ka, lekin woh hamare kasbe se kaafi door tha. Usne kai gambhir rog aur kai santanheen dampatti ko theek kiya tha. Main toh purush stri rog visheshagya ke parikshan se bachne ka koi bhi rasta dhoondh rahi thi aur saath hi baccha hone ki aasha ne mujhe turant is prastav mein koodne pe majboor kar diya. Meri saas ne bhi Rajesh ko samjhaate hue kaha, “Rajesh, Meera jo keh rahi hai woh bilkul sahi lagta hai. Vaidya aur parikshan toh sab saadhaaran the, ab aur samay barbaad mat karo. Yeh sanyasi baba sach mein chamatkar karte hain aur jaise Meera bata rahi thi, unki rishtedaaron ko jo paanch saal se baccha nahi ho raha tha, unki jadi booti aushadhiyon ne kaam kar diya.”


Mere hriday mein Meera ke liye bahut aabhari thi ki usne itne uchit samay par yeh vichar diya. Us samay main sach mein poori tarah se prayas kar rahi thi ki kisi purush stri rog visheshagya ke haath se apni yoni aur shareer ko jaanch na karwana pade, lekin mujhe bilkul bhi anumaan nahi tha ki yeh ashram wala bhraman meri zindagi bhar ka sabse sharmnaak aur ganda smriti ban jaayega. Guru ji ke naam par “diksha”, “upchaar” aur “yagya” ke bahane mujhe jis tarah se shoshit kiya gaya, aaj bhi usey soch kar mujhe bahut sharm aati hai. Har star par bahut chaturai se aur zabardasti mujhe upayog kiya gaya, aur baccha paane ki ichchha itni prabal thi ki maine apni har seema paar kar di, maryada, sharm aur lajja sab kuch bhool gayi.


Woh Rampur mein Guru ji ke ashram mein ek saptah ka nivās tha aur uss poore samay mein mujhe kam se kam aadhe darjan purushon ko apni athhaais saal ki rasili, poori tarah pakki shareer ko har kon se anand lene dena pada – dekhna, chhoona, jaanch karna, sparsh karna, stanon ko dabana, aur jo bhi kuch socha ja sakta hai sab kuch, sirf sambandh ke alawa kyunki woh asli sambandh banane wala kaam Guru ji ne khud apne ling se kiya tha. Mujhe apni saari sharm chhodni padi aur upchaar ke naam par mujhe bilkul ek vesya ki tarah vyavahar kiya gaya. Aaj bhi jab main un saat dinon ko yaad karti hoon toh hairaan reh jaati hoon ki maine sab kuch kaise anumati de di. Shayad Guru ji ki manmohak vyaktitva aur baccha paane ki meri atoot ichchha ne mujhe ek sharmili maryadit grihini se itna gandi aur vasna poorna banane pe majboor kar diya.

Rampur. Guru ji ka ashram yahin tha, ek chhote se gaon mein jo charon taraf se pahadiyon se ghira hua tha. Ashram ke bilkul paas hi ek bada sa talab tha jiska paani bilkul saaf aur spasht tha, thandi hawa chalti rehti thi aur pradushan ka naam nishan bhi nahi tha – jaise koi swarg ho. Meri saas mere saath aayi thi, Rajesh aa nahi paaya tha isliye saas ne hi mujhe leke aane ka yojna kiya. Ashram mein Guru ji ke darshan ke liye kaafi bheed thi. Humne pehle se niyukti kar rakha tha taaki hum apni samasya ke baare mein unke saath ekant mein baat kar sakein. Guru ji ko dekh kar main kaafi dar gayi thi, woh bahut bade shareer wale the, lagbhag chhah feet lambai aur mazboot mota shareer wale. Unhone kesari rang ka vastra pahna hua tha aur unki awaaz bahut shaant aur gahri thi jo hriday tak utar jaati thi. Unhe dekh kar aur sun kar apne aap mein ek aagyakaari hone ka anubhav hone lagta tha.


Meri saas ne meri samasya poori tarah se bataayi aur Guru ji bahut dhyaan se sunte rahe. Kamre mein hum dono ke alawa Guru ji aur unke do shishya the, jinme se ek mera vivaran note kar raha tha. Guru ji ne kaha, “Mata ji, bahut achha kiya aap apni bahu ko mere paas laayi. Main ek baat saaf kar doon, main koi chamatkar nahi karta, lekin agar yeh ladki meri sharan mein ‘diksha’ leti hai aur jo main kehta hoon usey shraddha se karti hai toh woh khali haath nahi lautegi. Mata ji, is tarah ke mamalon mein upchaar ka raasta asaan nahi hota, agar aapki bahu us raaste par chal saki toh ek saal ke andar uske god mein baccha zaroor aayega, shart yeh ki upchaar ke baad maine jo din bataye un dinon woh apne pati ke saath mile.”


Unki baatein itni vishvasaniya thi ki main turant hi unke yahan ‘diksha’ lene aur upchaar shuru karne ke liye utsuk ho gayi. Meri saas ne bhi yahi abhivyakti kiya. Guru ji ne aage kaha, “Mata ji, pehle aap meri niyam jaan lo. Main kisi ko andhere mein nahi rakhta. Yahaan maa banne ka lakshya paane ke liye teen charan hain – ‘diksha’, ‘jadi booti upchaar’ aur ‘yagya’. Aapki bahu ko poornima ki raat se shuru karke lagataar paanch din yahan rehna hoga diksha aur jadi booti upchaar poora karne ke liye. Agar main anubhav kiya ki yeh kaafi hai toh woh chhathwe din jaa sakti hai, lekin agar uske mamle mein ‘yagya’ ki zaroorat padi toh do din aur rehna padega, kul saat din. Ushe mere ashram ke niyamon ko kathorta se palan karna hoga, jo mera shishya aapko bata dega.”


Hum unki manmohak awaaz sun rahe the, sach mein usme kuch sammohit jaise prabhav tha. Unhone jo kaha usme mujhe koi galat baat nahi lagi aur meri saas ko bhi nahi, isliye maine ‘diksha’ lene aur upchaar karwane ke liye haan kar di. Guru ji ne kaha, “Sanjeev, iski vyaktigat vivaran note kar lo aur isse ashram ke niyam aur vidhiyon ko vistrit roop se bata do. Beti, tum iske saath agle kamre mein jaao. Mata ji, aapko iske alawa aur koi prashn ya chinta ho toh pooch lo.”


Main zameen se uthi aur Guru ji ke shishya Sanjeev ke peeche peeche chali gayi. Hum bagal wale kamre mein gaye aur unhone mujhe wahan ke palang par baithne ko kaha. Woh khade rahe. Sanjeev meri umar ke aas paas tha, lagbhag paintees chalis saal, saadhaaran shareer aur shaant, muskurata chehra. Usne kaha, “Madam, mera naam Sanjeev hai. Aap bilkul chinta mat lo, Guru ji ke paas aa gayi ho. Maine kai striyon ko unke vishesh upchaar se labh lete dekha hai. Bas aapko unke har aadesh ko poora karna hoga.”


Main boli, “Haan bilkul, main prayas karungi. Ab yeh samasya mujhe lagbhag teen saal se pareshan kar rahi hai.” Sanjeev ne kaha, “Chinta mat karo Madam. Ab main aapko bataata hoon aapko kya karna hai. Aap agle somvaar ko shaam saat baje se pehle yahan pahunch jaana. Us din poornima ki raat hai, isliye ‘diksha’ hogi. Madam, apni sari aadi mat laana kyunki hamare ashram mein vastra niyam hai, aapko vishesh jadi booti dhuli kesari sariyan di jayengi. Aur Madam, koi alankar anumodit nahi hain. Asal mein hum yahan sab kuch pradaan karte hain, kuch laane ki zaroorat nahi.”


Mujhe “sari” wali baat par thoda sandeh hua kyunki maine abhi tak ashram mein kisi stri ko dekha nahi tha. Blouse aur petticoat ka kya? Sirf sari kaise pahni ja sakti hai? Sanjeev shayad samajh gaya ki main kya soch rahi hoon. Usne kaha, “Madam, aapne dhyan diya hoga ki Guru ji ne mujhe aapke vyaktigat vivaran note karne ko kaha tha, isliye blouse aadi ki chinta mat karo. Hamare ashram mein baal pin se lekar chappal tak sab pradaan hota hai.” Woh thoda hasa aur main bhi thodi rahat anubhav ki. Phir bhi mere dimag mein antarvastra ki baat ghum rahi thi ki kya ashram woh bhi dega?


Sanjeev ne kaha, “Madam, meri prashnon ka imandaari se jawab do. Aur ek baat, yahan sharmao mat aur andar mat raho kyunki aap ek lakshya ke liye aayi ho aur hum sirf aapki madad karne ke liye hain.” Sanjeev ki baaton se mujhe kaafi vishvas aaya, warna main thodi ghabraayi hui thi. Usne poocha, “Madam, aapki mahine ki aayein niyamit hain?” Main boli, “Haan, bahut kam hi chhooti hain.” “Antim aniyamit mahine ki aayein kab hui thi?” “Teen chaar mahine pehle shayad, aushadhi li thi toh theek ho gaya.” “Aapke lagbhag mahine ki aayein ki tarikh kya hai?” “Baisavi ya teisavi tarikh ke aas paas.” Sanjeev note karta raha aur meri taraf seedha dekhe bina, isliye mujhe itne vyaktigat prashnon ke jawab dene mein aasani ho rahi thi. Warna maine kabhi kisi se aisi baatein nahi ki thi sirf vaidy ke alawa.


Usne aage poocha, “Madam, mahine ki aayein bhari hoti hain ya madhyam? Koi adhik peeda ya asukoon?” Main boli, “Madhyam, do teen din. Saadharn hai, koi adhik nahi.” Sanjeev bola, “Theek hai Madam, baaki zyada antarang vivaran Guru ji khud ashram mein aane par lenge.”


Yeh sun kar main thodi rahat anubhav kar rahi thi halanki dimag mein yeh baat ghum rahi thi ki Guru ji mujhse kaunse “antarang vivaran” poochhenge. Sanjeev ne baat aage badhaayi aur jab usne agla prashn poocha toh main mushkil se hichkichaate hue jawab de paayi, itni sharm aa rahi thi ek anjaan purush ko aisi vyaktigat baatein batane mein.


Sanjeev ne kaha, “Madam, ab ashram ke vastra niyam ke baare mein. Hum aapko saat din ke liye chaar jadi booti dhuli kesari sariyan denge. Aam taur par itna kaafi hota hai lekin agar zaroorat padi toh adhik bhi hain. Aap kaunsa aakaar pahenti hain? Matlab blouse…” Main thoda hichkichaate hue boli, “Err… woh kyun chahiye?” Yeh poochna bewakoofi thi lekin muh se nikal gaya aur baat aur zyada asukoon ho gayi. Sanjeev bola, “Madam, hamare ashram mein diksha aur upchaar ke liye aane wali striyon ko sari, blouse aur petticoat hum hi pradaan karte hain. Isliye aakaar jaanna zaroori hai.” Main ne dheere se kaha, “Theek hai… battis.”


Main ne dhyan diya ki Sanjeev ne shareer note karte hue ek kshan ke liye seedha meri khadi chuchiyon ki taraf dekha, jaise apni aankhon se hi battis aakaar ko naap raha ho, mere blouse aur sari ke upar se. Usne aage kaha, “Madam, zyadatar striyan jo Guru ji ke paas diksha ke liye aati hain woh gaon ki hoti hain aur unme se bahut si stan bandhan aur antarvastra nahi pahenti, isliye humne unke liye koi vyavastha nahi rakhi. Lekin aap kasbe se aa rahi hain toh apne antarvastra laa sakti hain, bas diksha ke baad unhe yahan jadi booti se shuddhi karwa lena, kyunki ashuddh kuch bhi pahenne ki anumati nahi hai.”


Main muskurate hue sir hila di aur bahut rahat mehsoos kiya. Sanjeev ne kaha, “Dhanyavaad Madam. Ab aap jaa sakti hain, somvaar dopahar tak yahan pahunch jaana.” Main apni saas ke saath wapas aa gayi. Saas Guru ji se bahut aasha poorna thi kyunki jab main Sanjeev ke saath thi tab unki baat hui thi. Unhone mujhe vishvas dilaya ki akeli mat ghabraana, Guru ji jo bhi kahe shraddha se karna. Main samagra khush thi lekin mujhe bilkul anumaan nahi tha ki un saat dinon mein mere saath kya hone wala tha.


Agla somvaar aaya aur main phir apni saas ke saath Rampur Guru ji ke ashram pahunchi. Is baar maine thaili mein bilkul kam cheezein li thi kyunki Sanjeev ne kaha tha sab kuch wahan milega, sirf ek spare set sari blouse petticoat aur aapaatkaalin sthiti ke liye thoda dhan. Maine do set antarvastra liye aur ek set pahne bhi hua tha, socha saat din ke liye kaafi hoga.


Sanjeev ne humein muskurate hue swagat kiya. Hum Guru ji ke paas gaye, unhone hum dono ko ashirvaad diya. Kuch saamaanya baaton ke baad meri saas wapas chali gayi aur main ashram mein Guru ji aur unke shishyon ke saath akeli reh gayi. Aaj Sanjeev ke alawa do aur shishya dikhai diye – Rajkamal, Nirmal aur Uday.

Guru ji ne mujhse kaha, “Beti, yahan sukoon se raho. Kya main tumhe naam se bula sakta hoon?” Main boli, “Haan Guru ji, zaroor.” Paanch purushon ke saamne main thodi asukoon mehsoos kar rahi thi kyunki main wahan akeli stri thi. Sab meri taraf dekh rahe the. Main halke rang ki sooti sari aur matching blouse pahne hui thi. Meri chuchiyan hamesha ki tarah blouse ke andar se khadi dikhai de rahi thi lekin maine dhyan diya ki koi bhi un par ghoor ke nahi dekh raha tha jaise bahar ke purush pehli baar mein karte hain. Guru ji ki shaant aankhon aur unki sukoon dene wali awaaz sun kar dheere dheere main saadhaaran aur sukoon mehsoos karne lagi.


Guru ji ne kaha, “Achha Anita, ab main tumhe ashram ke sadasyon se parichay karata hoon. Sanjeev se toh pehle mil chuki ho, baaki hain Rajkamal, Nirmal aur Uday. Diksha ke samay Sanjeev tumhe marg darshan karega aur baaki log upchaar ke vibhinn charanon mein madad karenge, jo main baad mein spasht roop se bataunga. Ab tum vishraam karo, raat das baje main tumse diksha ke liye milunga. Sanjeev tumhe le jaayega.”


Sanjeev bola, “Kripya aaiye Madam.” Hum ek chhote sukhad kamre mein gaye jise woh ‘mera kamra’ bol raha tha, saath mein juda shauchalaya tha. Kamre mein ek bahut bada darpan tha jisme poora shareer lagbhag dikhta tha, jo mujhe thoda asaadhaaran laga kyunki ghar mein shauchalaya mein chhote darpan hote hain. Saaf safed aanchal, sabun, dant manjjan sab hotel shaili mein safai se rakha hua tha. Kamre mein khat, shringar table par kangi, baal pin, sindoor, bindiya, kursi aur almari thi. Sanjeev ne mujhe doodh ka pyala aur kuch khadya padarth diye.


Usne kaha, “Madam, aap vishraam karo. Agar kuch adhik chahiye jo yahan nahi hai toh bata dena. Ek ghante baad main aunga aur tumhe diksha ke liye le jaunga, jo asal mein tumhare mann aur shareer ki shuddhi prakriya hai. Yeh tumhare lakshya tak pahunchne ki shuruaat hai Madam. Baat yeh ki, apna thaila mujhe de do, main jaanch kar lunga aur sirf ashram niyamon ke anusaar cheezein rakhne dunga.”


Antim pankti sun kar main thodi chakit ho gayi, khas kar “main jaanch karunga” wali baat par. Main boli, “Main toh kuch nahi laayi hoon jaise aapne kaha tha.” Sanjeev bola, “Phir bhi Madam, mujhe jaanch karna padega. Yahan sharmao mat. Poore nivās ke dauran main tumhare saath hi rahunga.”


Usne bina meri anumati ke thaila le liya. Pehle usne dhan ki thaili nikali, phir jo do safed stan bandhan main laayi thi unhe khat par rakh diya. Main sharm se zameen ki taraf dekh rahi thi ki ek anjaan purush mere antar vastron ko haath laga raha tha. Ab usne ek neeli antarvastra nikali aur thodi der usey hawa mein latka ke rakha jaise soch raha ho ki yeh chhoti si cheez meri kaddu jaisi nitamb ko kaise sambhaal leti hogi. Phir usne kuch rumal, spare sari, blouse aur petticoat nikale. Sabse ant mein usne meri ek aur safed antarvastra nikali aur khat par rakh di.


Sanjeev bola, “Theek hai Madam, aapki adhik sari, blouse aur petticoat main karyalaya mein rakh deta hoon kyunki bahar ke vastra pahenne ki anumati nahi hai. Diksha ke samay main aapko ashram wali sari, blouse aur petticoat dunga, saath hi sone ke liye ratri vastra bhi. Aur yeh aapke antar vastra shuddhi ke liye le ja raha hoon, kal subah wapas kar dunga.”


Mujhe kuch kehne ko nahi tha, sirf sir hila diya. Usne mere antar vastra uthaye aur phir se meri antarvastra par thoda ruk gaya. Yeh mere liye bahut as awkward tha. Tab usne woh bhaari prashn poocha jo sun kar mera chehra turant laal ho gaya. “Madam, mujhe aapki… err… jo stan bandhan abhi aap pahne hui hain woh bhi shuddhi ke liye chahiye.”


Main hichkichaate hue boli, “Lekin… abhi kaise de sakti hoon…” Sanjeev bahut shaant awaaz mein bola, “Madam, mujhe jadi booti ghola ubaalna hai jo kaafi samay leta hai. Isliye abhi de do toh samay bach jaayega.” Woh itne saadhaaran swar mein bol raha tha jaise yeh roz ka kaam ho. Mere paas koi bahana nahi tha aur koi vikalp bhi nahi, isliye mujhe apni pahni hui stan bandhan aur antarvastra uske haath mein deni padi. Ek pal ke liye mujhe yeh bhi nahi soojha ki kal subah tak mujhe bina stan bandhan antarvastra ke rehna padega. Saare purush yeh jaan jaayenge aur main kamre mein nahi rahne wali thi, diksha ke liye bahar bhi jaana tha – bina stan bandhan ke, jisme meri chuchiyan swabhavik roop se hilengi aur har purush ke liye vasna poorna pradarshan ban jaayega.


Main ne kaha, “Theek hai, aap thodi der baad aana toh main de dungi.” Sanjeev muskuraya aur bola, “Koi chinta mat lo Madam, main yahin wait karunga. Kitna samay lagega…” Usne jaan bujh kar vakya adhura chhod diya, baat bilkul spasht thi. Main dheere se boli, “Theek hai… jaise aap chahein.”


Yeh keh kar main shauchalaya ke andar chali gayi aur Sanjeev kamre mein hi wait karne laga. Main ne dhyan diya ki shauchalaya ka darwaza aadha darwaza jaisa tha, upar se khali chhoda hua tha. Jaldi hi samajh aa gaya ki shauchalaya mein vastra latkaane ke liye ek bhi ankad nahi tha, isliye vastra darwaze ke upar rakhne padte the. Lekin turant hi yeh bhi soojh gaya ki Sanjeev kamre mein baitha hai aur woh andar se darwaze ke upar rakhne wale vastron ko spasht dekh sakta tha. Matlab woh bilkul anumaan laga lega ki main shauchalaya mein kitna nanga ho chuki hoon. Is baat se mere kaan garam hone lage, lekin phir socha ki shayad main zyada hi soch rahi hoon, woh log toh bhakt hain aur sanyasi jeevan jeete hain.


Main darwaze ki taraf muh karke khadi ho gayi aur jaldi se apni sari kholne lagi. Poori sari utaar kar darwaze ke upar rakh di, phir apni safed petticoat ki nada kholi aur thoda hilna pada kyunki woh meri moti nitamb se chipak rahi thi. Shauchalaya mein bada sa darpan tha, jisme maine dekha ki meri antarvastra toh meri badi badi nitamb ke goliyon ko cover karne ke bajaye aur zyada dikha rahi thi. Yeh mera sthayi samasya thi, kai prakar prayas kiye lekin har antarvastra meri nitamb khand mein ghus jaati thi aur nitamb ke kuch bhi cover nahi karti thi. Blouse pahne hue aur antarvastra nitamb khand mein fas kar main sach mein bahut ashleel lag rahi thi. Isliye maine jaldi se antarvastra bhi utaar di aur darwaze par rakhne hi wali thi lekin socha ki agar Sanjeev ne sari aur petticoat upar latka hua dekha hai toh antarvastra dekh kar woh samajh jaayega ki ab main bilkul nangi hoon. Isliye maine antarvastra zameen ke sukhe hisse par rakh di aur blouse ke button kholne lagi, stan bandhan bhi utaar kar poori tarah nangi ho gayi.


Sirf darwaze ki partition hum dono ke beech thi aur main yahan ekdum nangi khadi thi jabki woh sirf kuch feet door kamre mein tha. Mera chehra laal ho gaya aur yoni mein ekdum se drav ka pravah shuru ho gaya. Main blouse aur stan bandhan haath mein pakde khadi thi aur dhyan diya ki dono paseene se bilkul geele the, khas kar kaksh aur stan bandhan ke cup. Maine blouse darwaze ke upar rakh diya, antarvastra zameen se uthayi aur dekha uspar bhi geele nishan the. Socha ki pehle inhe dhoke Sanjeev ko shuddhi ke liye de dungi. Tabhi Sanjeev ne awaaz maari!


“Madam, kya main aapke baaki vastra dhoke le jaun? Aap apne spare set pahen lo. Is nam kin mausam mein yeh sab paseene se geele ho gaye honge.” Awaaz itni paas se aayi ki main chakit reh gayi. Woh shauchalaya ke darwaze ke bilkul kareeb khada hoga aur meri sari, petticoat aur blouse darwaze par latka hua dekh raha tha. Uske achanak awaaz se main thodi si hil gayi aur jaldi se aanchal lapet li apni bilkul nangi shareer par, halanki darwaza band tha. Main dheemi awaaz mein boli, “Nahi nahi, theek hai.”


Sanjeev bola, “Kya theek hai Madam, naye vastra pahen kar taaza mehsoos karogi. Lekin abhi nahana mat, diksha se pehle nahana hai.” Tab tak main thodi sambhal gayi thi aur socha ki Sanjeev ka vichar behtar hai kyunki paseena bahut nikla tha. Pehle main usko green signal deti usse pehle hi woh sakriya ho gaya. “Madam, main aapki sari, petticoat aur blouse dhone ke liye le ja raha hoon aur aapke laaye hue spare set rakh deta hoon.”


Mujhe pratikriya karne ka samay bhi nahi mila aur dekhte hi dekhte sari aur petticoat darwaze ke upar se gayab ho gaye. Ab mere paas sirf antar vastra ke alawa kuch bhi nahi bacha tha. Blouse bhi ek kshan mein chala gaya. Mujhe nahi pata usne unke saath kya kiya lekin uski agla tippani ne mujhe chakit kar diya. “Madam, lagta hai aapke kaksh mein bahut paseena aata hai, blouse wahan poora geela hai aur peeth bhi thodi geeli hai.”


Main sharm se mar hi ja rahi thi. Matlab woh mera blouse alag alag jagah jaanch raha tha – kaksh, peeth aur spasht roop se cup jahan meri dono chuchiyan rehti hain. Main battis saal ki vivahit, poori tarah pakki ghar ki stri hoon aur yeh anjaan aadmi mera utara hua blouse jaanch raha tha! Mujhe kuch toh bolna pada. “Haan… err… mujhe paseena bahut aata hai.”


Yeh bol kar maine aur samay barbaad nahi kiya aur jaldi se apni antar vastra dhone lagi taaki aur koi tricky prashn na aaye. Maine dhyan diya ki Sanjeev ne mere spare vastra darwaze ke upar rakh diye the lekin petticoat slide hokar meri taraf gir gaya kyunki usne blouse uske upar rakha tha. Sanjeev bola, “Kshama Madam, mujhe anumaan nahi tha ki aisa slide ho jaayega.”


Main dhone mein vyast thi isliye pakad bhi nahi paayi aur woh petticoat paani wale hisse par gir gaya, halki neeli petticoat turant gehra neela ho kar geela ho gaya. Sanjeev ne poocha, “Madam, ummeed hai sukha jagah giri hogi ya geeli ho gayi?” Main sach nahi bol saki kyunki usse aur gandi baatein shuru ho jaati. Maine kaha, “Theek hai, sukhe kshetra mein hi giri.”


Sanjeev bola, “Phir bhi mujhe aur savadhani hona chahiye tha.” Maine apne antar vastra dhoke khatam kar diye aur ab aanchal ko shareer se hata kar khud ko sukhaana tha. Jaise hi maine aanchal utara, meri nangi chuchiyan har harkat ke saath hilne lagi, jo darpan mein spasht dikhai de rahi thi. Jaise maine kaha, meri chuchiyan abhi tak bilkul nahi jhuki thi, woh khadi aur garam thi aur bina jaane mere chuchuk sakht ho kar ubhar aaye the, jaise do angoor khade ho.


Yeh keh kar maine darwaze ke upar se blouse uthaya aur pahenne lagi. Bahut lambi muddat baad aaj main stan bandhan ke bina blouse pahen rahi thi. Din mein toh main kabhi bhi bina stan bandhan ke nahi rehti aur raat ko ratri vastra ke neeche kuch nahi pahenti, lekin blouse ke andar kuch bhi na hone ka anubhav bahut durlabh aur alag tha. Pata nahi kyun, blouse ka woh patla kapda mujhe thoda sa kampit kar raha tha aur badkismati se yeh patla safed blouse tha. Darpan mein dekha toh meri chuchiyon ke khajane bilkul spasht dikh rahe the – dono chuchuk ke baharline saaf saaf nazar aa rahe the aur uske upar bhura areola bhi safed vastu ke through spasht dikhai de rahe the. Main apne aap ko shraap de rahi thi ki maine yeh blouse kyun laayi, lekin ab koi vikalp nahi tha.


Sanjeev ne awaaz maari, “Madam, ho gaya kya? Mujhe abhi Guru ji ke paas jaana hai.” Main jaldi se geeli petticoat pahen li kyunki aur koi chaara nahi tha, aur bina petticoat ke itni kamzor sari mein kisi purush ke saamne jaane ka sawal hi nahi tha. Maine apni chuchiyon ko achhe se sari ke pallu se cover karte hue sab samayojan kar li. Jab main shauchalaya ke darwaze se bahar aayi toh Sanjeev muskurate hue mujhe dekh raha tha. Shauchalaya se kamre mein aane ke liye ek chadhav tha, jaise hi main uspar se neeche utri, meri stan bandhan ke bina mukta chuchiyan blouse mein hil kar uchal gayi aur maine dhyan diya ki uski nazar us uchal ko miss nahi ki. Is sthiti mein uske saamne khade hona mere liye bahut asukoon tha, isliye maine jaldi jaldi cheezein samet li. Maine usse dhoyi hui stan bandhan aur antarvastra pakda di. Meri chikni nitamb aur janghon par geelapan mehsoos ho rahi thi kyunki petticoat aadha geela tha, khas kar nitamb wale hisse mein, jo mujhe aur zyada pareshan kar raha tha.


Sanjeev bola, “Theek hai Madam, aap vishraam karo.” Woh chala gaya aur main bahut rahat mehsoos ki. Maine jaldi se kamre ka darwaza band kiya aur geeli petticoat utaar di. Is baar maine sari nahi kholi, sirf kamar tak upar uthayi aur petticoat ki nada khol di. Woh geeli hone ki wajah se meri moti nitamb se chipak rahi thi, isliye gol nitamb goliyon par se use slide karne mein thoda sangharsh hua. Sari ke neeche kuch bhi na pahenne ka anubhav mujhe turant uttejit kar raha tha.


Lagbhag ek ghanta beet gaya lekin Sanjeev ka koi sanket nahi tha diksha ke liye le jaane ka. Meri petticoat ab lagbhag sukhi ho chuki thi aur main use pahenne hi wali thi ki darwaze par thap thap hui. Mujhe petticoat pahenne ke liye kuch toh bolna pada. Main boli, “Kripya wait kijiye, main ek minute mein kholti hoon.” Maine jaldi se petticoat pahna, sari ko theek se pravah kiya aur darwaza khola. Bahar Nirmal khada tha.


Nirmal bola, “Madam, Sanjeev ne kaha aapko diksha kaksha le jaaun. Guru ji wahan wait kar rahe hain.” Woh chhote kad ka aadmi tha, shayad sirf paanch feet, uski aankhein bilkul meri chuchiyon ke star par thi. Main dhyan rakh rahi thi ki meri mukta chuchiyon ka anavashyak uchal usko na dikhe. Main boli, “Theek hai, main taiyar hoon. Lekin Sanjeev toh keh raha tha ki diksha se pehle nahana hai…” Main poora nahi bol paayi ki Nirmal beech mein hi bol pada, “Haan Madam, sahi kaha, lekin woh nahana vishesh jadi booti jal se Guru ji ke saamne hoga.”


“Kyaa?” Yeh sun kar mera turant pratikriya tha aur lagta hai koi bhi stri aisa hi pratikriya karegi. Main boli, “Main unke saamne nahane kaise? Main koi chhoti bachchi thodi hoon?” Nirmal bola, “Nahi nahi Madam, aap galat samajh gayi. Matlab jadi booti jal Guru ji ne khud taiyar kiya hai aur uspar mantra uchchaar kiye hain, uske baad aap nahayengi. Diksha kaksha mein alag shauchalaya hai.”


Usse sun kar main shaant hui, lekin shayad meri pratikriya se woh anand le raha tha. Nirmal bola, “Madam, kaun kehta hai aap chhoti ladki ho? Woh toh andha gadha hoga.” Thoda ruk kar usne joda, “Lekin Madam, aap inkaar nahi kar sakti ki vidyalaya uniform pahen lo toh bilkul vidyalaya balika jaisi lagogi.” Woh muskuraya. Main samajh gayi ki Nirmal mujhse flirt kar raha tha, lekin hairani ki baat yeh thi ki mujhe uski baatein anand aa rahi thi! Uske tippani se mujhe chid nahi hui. Mere chuchuk phir se sakht hone lage aur chuchiyan tight mehsoos hone lagi jab yeh chhota sa purush mujhe vidyalaya uniform mein soch raha tha, jisme skirt shayad meri badi nitamb ko bhi uchit roop se cover na kar paaye. Nirmal ki aankhein seedhi meri tight chuchiyon par thi kyunki woh chhota tha.


Main bhi chhedne ke swar mein boli, “Sanjeev ne toh kaha tha ki ashram mujhe sari pradaan karega. Ummeed hai aap alag se vidyalaya vastra nahi laaoge.” Nirmal hasate hue bola, “Madam, ashram toh vidyalaya hi hai. Vidyalaya uniform pahenne mein kya harz hai? Lekin dosh mat dena agar aap pahen na paao.” Woh zor se hasa. Mujhe khud nahi samajh aa raha tha ki main yeh vyarth baatcheet kyun lambi kar rahi hoon aur anand le rahi hoon, lekin yeh chhota sa Nirmal mujhe amusit kar raha tha. Is baatcheet mein main poori tarah bhool gayi thi ki main asal mein baccha paane ke upchaar ke liye aayi hoon. Yeh koi anand yatra nahi tha.


Tab tak mere chuchuk poore aakaar mein ubhar aaye the, hriday tez dhadak raha tha aur saans bhi bhari hui thi. Shayad bina stan bandhan ke ek bilkul anjaan purush ke saamne khade hone ka anubhav bhi isme jod ho raha tha. Main boli, “Aapki baat mein dum hai ki ashram vidyalaya jaisa hi hai. Lekin main kyun nahi pahen sakti?” Usne jo jawab diya woh mere liye sabse uttejit vakya tha jo kisi purush ne kabhi kaha tha.


Nirmal bola, “Toh aap maanti hain ki ashram vidyalaya hai. Phir vidyalaya uniform pahenne mein koi samasya nahi honi chahiye. Lekin uniform vidyalaya balika ke aakaar ka hoga kyunki woh ‘vidyalaya uniform’ hai. Sahi hai na Madam?” Usne meri aankhon mein dekhte hue thoda viram kiya lekin uski nazar baar baar meri poori shareer par ghum rahi thi. “Maano main aapke liye vidyalaya vastra laaun – safed upari vastra aur pleated skirt. Main shart lagata hoon aap nahi pahen paaogi. Agar skirt mein taange daal bhi li toh woh aapki kati tak nahi chadhegi. Madam, aap wahan bahut moti ho. Aur upari vastra ki baat hi alag hai, stan bandhan ke bina bhi aap ek bhi button nahi band kar paaogi. To kya main galat tha jab maine kaha tha ‘dosha mat dena agar aap pahen na paao’?”


Main baatcheet se zaroor anand le rahi thi lekin jab usne seedhe bola ki usey pata hai main stan bandhan nahi pahne hui hoon, toh thoda chakit ho gayi. Lagta tha poora ashram jaan chuka tha! Main boli, “Umm… lekin main aap se sahmat nahi hoon. Skirt toh main zaroor pahen lungi, upari vastra mein samasya ho sakti hai. Lekin dhanyavaad bhagwan! Ashram vastra niyam mein vidyalaya uniform nahi hai.” Main hasi hui aur Nirmal bhi mere saath hasa.


Nirmal ab apni baaton mein vishvasi hota ja raha tha kyunki main uske chhedne ko pratikriya de rahi thi. Shayad woh sanyasi jeevan jeeta ho lekin jaise main besharm baat kar rahi thi, usne usey uttejit kar diya. Mujhe khud nahi pata tha main kya kar rahi thi, meri yoni pehle se hi geeli ho chuki thi aur chuchiyan tight ho rahi thi. Saans bhi ab bhari ho gayi thi. Khade rehna kathinaai ho raha tha, isliye maine bahana bana kar sari samayojit karte hue asal mein apni nitamb ko darwaze se ragadna shuru kar diya.


Nirmal bola, “Madam, ab der ho rahi hai, lekin diksha ke baad hum prayas kar lenge. Main aapke liye vidyalaya vastra laaunga aur aap meri baat maan logi.” Main samajh gayi ki Nirmal mujhe ashleel satr ke liye aamantrit kar raha tha. Main bhi is paanch feet ke baune purush ko chhedne mein utni hi aakarshit thi. Main boli, “Oh sach mein, ashram mein vidyalaya uniform hai? Kaise?” Nirmal ne kaha, “Madam, Guru ji ki ek bhakt apni beti ke saath aayi thi aur galti se kuch din pehle ek packet chhod gayi jisme uski beti ka vidyalaya uniform aur kuch vastra the. Woh wapas nahi aayi. Karyalaya ki almari mein pada hai. Ab chaliye Madam, aapki diksha ke liye, Guru ji wait kar rahe honge.”


Yeh baat thodi zyada ho rahi thi. Main kabhi soch bhi nahi sakti thi ki is ashram mein kisi ladki ka vidyalaya uniform hoga, lekin is baune ke mazak ka anand bahut aa raha tha.



Diksha wala kaksha mere rahne wale kamre se thoda bada tha. Wahan dev deviyaan ki chitr lagi hui thi. Ek singhasan jaisa dhancha tha jisme chhoti si murti phoolon aur patton ke haar se sajayi hui thi. Poora vatavaran dhuein se bhara hua tha kyunki kai saath saath agarbattiyaan jal rahi thi. Kaksha mein Sanjeev aur Guru ji the. Wahan pahunch kar main kaafi ghabraayi hui ho gayi. Nirmal ne darwaza band karke wahan se chala gaya.

Guru ji ne kaha, “Anita, ab tumhari diksha ka samay ho gaya hai. Main tumhe iske baare mein sankshep mein bataata hoon. Tum meri sharan mein diksha logi, lekin hum sab linga maharaj ki seva karte hain. Hum sab unke shishya hain aur jaldi hi tum bhi ban jaogi. Tumhari diksha thodi alag hogi kyunki tum isey baccha paane ke lakshya ke liye le rahi ho, isliye poore vidhan nahi honge. Jai linga maharaj.” Sanjeev ne bhi “Jai linga maharaj” uchchaar kiya aur mujhe bhi uchchaar karne ko kaha. Main ne bhi dheere se “Jai linga maharaj” bola lekin mujhe asal mein pata hi nahi tha main kya uchchaar kar rahi hoon.
Guru ji ne aage kaha, “Anita, linga maharaj ki diksha matlab tumhare shareer aur aatma ki safai. Isliye pehle main chahta hoon tum apna shareer saaf karo. Tum shauchalaya mein jaao, balti mein jo jadi booti jal hai usse nahao aur is linga ko apne shareer ke har hisse par ghumao.” Yeh keh kar unhone mujhe “linga” pakda diya. Main ne dekha woh kaala paththar ka bana chhah saat inch lamba aur ek inch mota dhancha tha, ek taraf thoda chauda aadhar ke saath. Yeh bilkul fast food wale egg roll jaisa lag raha tha jo aadhar par khada ho. Mere dimag mein toh egg roll hi ghum raha tha, kabhi socha bhi nahi ki Guru ji isey purush ling yani lund ke roop mein bata rahe the.

Guru ji ne samjhaaya, “Anita, pehle jadi booti jal se poora shareer geela karo, phir mug mein jo jhag hai usse sabun karo. Nahate samay zaroor dhyaan rakhna ki linga tumhare shareer ke har hisse ko chhue.” Main boli, “Ji Guru ji.” Unhone aage kaha, “Kyunki tum baccha paane ke liye diksha le rahi ho, isliye jab linga apne surat angon par chhuegi toh ‘Jai linga maharaj’ teen baar uchchaar karna.”

Main ne sir hila diya halanki ‘surat ang’ shabd sun kar thoda asukoon mehsoos ho raha tha, lekin jab Guru ji ne usey vistrit roop se samjhaaya toh mera chehra ek kishor ki tarah laal ho gaya. Guru ji bola, “Anita, aksar striyan sochti hain ki surat ang sirf yoni ya garbh dwar hota hai, lekin asal mein surat ang bahut kuch cover karte hain. Pehle tum batao tumhare hisaab se surat ang kaunsa hissa hai? Sharam mat karo, yahan apna mann khol kar baat karo.”
Mera dil tez dhadakne laga aise prashn sun kar. Main hichkichaate hue boli, “Matlab woh ang… jo sambandh mein sammilit hote hain.” Do purushon ke saamne apne surat angon ka naam lene se meri zubaan nahi khul rahi thi. Guru ji ne kaha, “Anita, tumhe khulna hoga, mann kholo, swatantra baat karo, koi rok mat rakho. Theek hai, ab batao kis kis jagah par tum mantra uchchaar karogi.”

Ab mujhe bolna hi pada. Saari sharm chhod kar maine kaha, “Main mantra uchchaar karungi apne… stanon aur meri yoni par.” Guru ji bola, “Theek hai Anita, tumhari sharm samajh sakta hoon. Tumne sirf do mukhya ang bataye. Tumne kaha stanon par linga chhute waqt uchchaar karogi, lekin chuchukon ka kya? Kya unka koi bhumika nahi hoti jab tum apne pati ke saath sambandh karti ho?”

Main sharm se sir jhukaye hue sirf sir hila di. Mujhe pyaas bhi lag rahi thi. Sirf kuch der pehle main Nirmal ko chhed rahi thi, lekin ab lag raha tha main bahut anubhavi haathon mein aa gayi hoon. Guru ji ne poocha, “Aur tumhari kati Anita? Kya tum unhe surat ang nahi maanti? Kya unhe chhune se tumhe uttejan nahi hoti?”

Phir se mere paas kuch nahi tha bolne ko, sirf sir hila diya. Main zameen ki taraf dekh rahi thi aur dil zor zor se dhadak raha tha. Lekin Guru ji ki awaaz bahut shaant thi aur ek baar bhi unhone meri stan bandhan rahit chuchiyon par nazar nahi daali, unki aankhein sirf mere chehre par sthir thi. Unhone kaha, “Isliye hum bahut si cheezein chhod dete hain. Toh jab sambandh karte samay jo bhi hissa tumhe uttejit kare, uspar linga chhu kar teen baar mantra uchchaar karna – tumhare stan, chuchuk, kati, yoni, janghen aur spasht roop se honth. Apne lakshya ko paane ke liye tumhe mujhe poori tarah aagyakaari hona hoga.”

Sanjeev ne aage badh kar kaha, “Madam, yeh lo aapke snaan ke baad pahenne ke vastra.” Usne mujhe kesari sari, blouse aur petticoat de diya. Is baar bhi koi antarvastra nahi tha. Main shauchalaya ki taraf chal padi aur achanak mere dimag mein aaya ki Guru ji zameen par baithe hain toh unko mere lehrayate mansal nitamb ka bahut bada drishya mil raha hoga jaise main shauchalaya ki taraf ja rahi hoon. Mere pati aksar kehte the ki bina antarvastra ke meri nitamb aur zyada aakarshak hilti hai. Main bhi jaanti thi ki meri nitamb thodi bhari hone ki wajah se antarvastra ki elastic pakad unhe thoda niyantran mein rakhti hai. Is baat ne mujhe apni chalne ke prati aur chetan kar diya aur main bahut asukoon mehsoos kar rahi thi.

Lekin turant hi mere mann ne mujhe shraap diya ki main Guru ji ke baare mein aisa soch rahi hoon. Unhe toh yeh sab moorakh cheezein paar kar chuke hain. Agle hi pal mujhe unke baare mein aisa sochne par aparadh mehsoos hone laga. Main shauchalaya mein ghusi aur wahan nahane ka jadi booti jal, jhag aur linga rakha hua mila. Maine darwaza band kiya aur turant hi khud ko ek chamakte hue samandar mein paa liya. Is shauchalaya ki roshni vyavastha dekh kar main chakit reh gayi. Wahan kam se kam do sau watt ke bulb jal rahe the jo itne chhote kshetra mein bahut asaadhaaran lag rahe the. Mujhe bulb ki garmi bhi mehsoos ho rahi thi. Is shauchalaya ka darwaza upar se khula nahi tha jaise mere kamre wala tha aur ankad bhi the, lekin itni tej roshni shauchalaya mein kyun thi, yeh soch kar main hairaan thi.

Main shauchalaya ke andar se apni sari utaarne lagi lekin us tez chamakti roshni mein bahut be awkward mehsoos kar rahi thi, jaise bilkul khule din ke prakash mein nahaa rahi hoon. Maine blouse ke button khole aur mere aam jaisi rasili chuchiyan turant azad ho kar khadi ho gayi. Agle hi pal main bilkul nangi ho gayi jab petticoat ne shauchalaya ke darwaze ke ankad par jagah pakad li. Jaise Guru ji ne kaha tha, maine jadi booti jal se nahana shuru kiya. Usme ek sammohit khushboo thi jo dimag mein ghus rahi thi. Maine khud ko achhe se jhag kiya aur phir linga haath mein liya. Paththar ka hone ke bawajood woh bhari nahi tha. Maine usey apni bayi stan par chhuya aur bola “Jai linga maharaj”. Jaise hi woh thanda linga meri nangi chuchiyon par laga, ek pal ke liye laga jaise kisi purush ka haath mere golak ko chhoo raha ho. Main thahar si gayi, phir dayi stan par bhi chhuya aur dobara “Jai linga maharaj” boli.

Mujhe kabhi bhi anumaan nahi tha ki meri yeh poori snaan satr – jisme main apni nangi, stano wali aur mansal athhaais saal ki shareer par linga ko har jagah ghuma rahi thi aur baar baar “Jai linga maharaj” bol rahi thi – asal mein record par bandh rahi thi. Isiliye shauchalaya mein itne uchch shakti bulb jalaye gaye the.

Maine apne poore shareer par linga kriya poori kar li, apni yoni aur nitamb ke goliyon par bhi achhe se ghumaya. Nahane ke baad bhi main garam mehsoos kar rahi thi. Maine aanchal se khud ko sukhaaya aur ab kesari ashram ke vastra pahenne lagi. Shuru se hi mujhe is baare mein sandeh tha aur ab pushti ho gaya. Blouse prayas karte hi pata chal gaya ki yeh kaafi tight tha. Mujhe shak tha ki yeh battis aakaar bhi nahi tha. Cutting toh bahut maryadit thi lekin mere dono golakon ko andar fit karne ke liye mujhe bahut sangharsh karna pada kyunki cup chhote the. Agar stan bandhan pahni hoti toh poora button karna asambhav hota. Kisi tarah maine blouse pahen liya lekin upar wala ankad bilkul nahi lag paaya. Wahan bahut tight tha aur meri gori, bhari chhed khuli hui dikhai de rahi thi. Maine pallu ko achhe se samayojit kiya taaki woh sab cover kar le aur shauchalaya se bahar aa gayi.

Guru ji ne kaha, “Achha, tumhara nahana ho gaya. Jaise maine kaha tha waise kiya na Anita?” Main boli, “Haan Guru ji, aapke kaha anusaar maine ‘Jai linga maharaj’ teen teen baar bola.” Guru ji bola, “Theek hai, ab yahan baitho aur linga maharaj ki pooja karo.”

Unhone pooja shuru ki, kai mantra uchchaar kiye, kabhi kabhi mera naam aur gotra bhi shaamil kiya. Main haath jod kar baithi rahi aur dil se maangi ki Guru ji ke upchaar se jaldi garbhavati ho jaaun. Sanjeev bhi wahan tha aur pooja mein Guru ji ki madad kar raha tha. Diksha ki pooja lagbhag aadhe ghante tak chali. Ant mein Guru ji mere paas aaye, mere maathe par laal tilak lagaya aur maine unke charan chhue. Jab main jhuki toh mera tight blouse aur zyada tan gaya, meri pakki chuchiyon par bilkul fit ho kar, laga ankad abhi toot jaayega. Kisi tarah nahi toota aur mujhe aur sharm se bach gaya.
Guru ji ne kaha, “Ab tumhari diksha poori ho gayi. Tum meri shishya ho aur linga maharaj ke prati samarpit. Jai linga maharaj!” Main ne bhi bola, “Jai linga maharaj!”

Guru ji ne kaha, “Kal subah chhah baje tees minute par hum milenge. Main tumhe ashram ke niyamit karyakram aur tumhare upchaar yojna ke baare mein bataunga. Ab jaa sakti ho Anita.” Main diksha kaksha se nikli aur Sanjeev ke saath apne kamre ki taraf chali.

Sanjeev bola, “Shubh ratri Madam, main aapko chhah baje pandrah minute par uthaunga aur aapke shuddh antarvastra bhi pradaan kar dunga. Nirmal aapka bhojan le aayega.” Pata nahi kyun, jadi booti jal ke nahane ke baad main bahut taaza mehsoos kar rahi thi aur Guru ji ki pooja se khush bhi thi. Main khat par let kar thodi der vishraam karne lagi.
Thap thap! Thap thap!

Mere darwaze par thap thap hui. Main akeli leti hui thi aur Sanjeev wala blouse itna tight tha ki maine uske ankad khol kar aaraam kar rahi thi. Jaldi se maine neeche ke teen ankad band kiye aur sari theek se lapet li. Upar ke do ankad ab bhi khule hue the, jisse meri bhari chuchiyon ka lagbhag aadha hissa kesari blouse ke upar se bahar jhaank raha tha. Main soch rahi thi ki Nirmal hi aaya hoga, raat ke das baj rahe the, zaroor bhojan le kar aaya hoga.
Mera anumaan sahi tha, woh chhota sa bauna shishya Nirmal hi tha, lekin bhojan wali anumaan galat nikli. Uske haath mein kuch nahi tha!
Nirmal muskurate hue bola, “Madam, diksha kaisi rahi?” Main boli, “Theek thi, Guru ji ki pooja sach mein bahut achhi lagi.” Nirmal ne kaha, “Jai linga maharaj. Guru ji par poora vishvas rakho, woh tumhari har rukavat door kar denge.”

Woh muskurate hue tha aur uski chhoti si shakal dekh kar mujhe phir se maza aa raha tha. Jadi booti snaan ke baad main bahut taaza mehsoos kar rahi thi aur garam bhi, har baar jab shauchalaya ki tej roshni mein nahate hue yaad aata, dil tez dhadakne lagta. Ab yeh bauna phir se saamne tha toh maine socha ise thoda chhed loon.

Nirmal bola, “Madam, bhojan laaun?” Main boli, “Nahi, abhi sirf das baje hain, main saamaanya taur par das baje tees ke baad khati hoon.” Thoda ruk kar maine bina usko bolne ka avsar diye aage kaha, “Lekin pehle wali baat par laut kar… Nirmal, baad mein socha toh tum bilkul sahi the! Meri shareer itni badi ho chuki hai ki vidyalaya uniform ki skirt main kabhi nahi pahen paungi. Toh main apni baat wapas leti hoon.”

Nirmal ka chehra dekhne layak tha – bilkul ‘haath aaya par muh na laga’ wala abhivyakti. Woh chhota sa aadmi itna atur lag raha tha aur ab aur bhi mazedaar. Usne socha bhi nahi tha ki main vidyalaya uniform vishay par usey avsar hi nahi dungi.

Nirmal bola, “Lekin Madam… aapne kaha tha prayas karengi ek baar.” Main boli, “Haan woh pehle socha tha, lekin ab tumhari baat maan li. Meri kaya ke liye woh skirt bahut tight pad jaayegi.”

Main ne seedhe shabdon jaise ‘janghen’ ya ‘nitamb’ se parhez kiya. Nirmal aisa dikhai de raha tha jaise usne koi amulya vastu kho di ho. Main usey poora niraash nahi karna chahti thi isliye vishay badal diya. “Lekin Nirmal, mujhe ek alag samasya hai. Kya tum hal kar sakte ho?”
Nirmal ka chehra ab bhi uda hua tha lekin usne upar dekha. Main boli, “Asal mein Sanjeev wala blouse mujhe bilkul fit nahi ho raha. Kya tum koi dusra laa sakte ho?”

Nirmal ki aankhein chamak uthi! Shayad usne socha ki meri dono rasili chuchiyon ko dekhna meri kaddu nitamb dekhne se zyada mazedaar hoga. Usne poocha, “Sanjeev ne battis aakaar nahi diya tha kya?” Mere bhroon upar chadh gaye! Matlab usey pata hai maine Sanjeev ko vyaktigat roop se aakaar bataya tha. Poore ashram ko meri chuchiyon ka aakaar battis pata hai!

Main boli, “Haan diya tha, lekin bahut tight hai. Lagta hai aakaar sahi nahi hai.” Nirmal bola, “Nahi Madam, aakaar bilkul sahi hai, hamare paas har aakaar ka alag group hota hai.” Main ne thoda sa uttejit karte hue apne haathon se apni bhari doodh wali chuchiyon ki taraf ishara kiya aur boli, “Ho nahi sakta Nirmal, main do saal se battis aakaar ki blouse pahen rahi hoon, phir yeh itna tight kyun hai yahan?”
Nirmal ka muh thoda sa khul gaya, chehra mazedaar ban gaya. Usne kaha, “Madam, yeh taiyar blouse hain isliye tightness mehsoos ho rahi hogi.” Is madhyavayask baune ke saath shabdon khelne mein mujhe ek alag anand aa raha tha. Pehle kabhi kisi purush se aisi baatein nahi ki thi aur na hi aise paristhiti mein thi.

Main boli, “Nirmal, itna tight hai ki upar wala ankad main band hi nahi kar paayi.” Ab Nirmal seedha meri jawan, stan bandhan rahit chuchiyon ko dekh raha tha aur shayad soch raha tha ki upar wala ankad khule hue main kaise khadi hoon. Asal mein agar main pallu neeche kar deti toh meri sthiti bahut gandi ho jaati. Bina stan bandhan ke atyant tight blouse mein mere chuchuk saaf dikh rahe the aur upar ka ankad khula hone se kaafi chhed pracharit ho rahi thi.
Nirmal bola, “Oh Madam, toh yeh toh samasya hai. Aise kaise rahogi? Main dusra laa dun kya?” Woh itna chintit lag raha tha jaise koi ghar ki stri ke liye pareshan ho.

Main boli, “Ab raat ho gayi hai Nirmal, main vastra badal kar ratri vastra pahen lungi. Abhi dusre blouse ki zaroorat nahi.” Main dekhna chahti thi uske pratikriya par. Uske chehre par hasya abhivyakti ke saath saath uske janghiya kshetra mein halka sa ubhaar bhi nazar aa raha tha. Usse dekh kar mera dil tez dhadakne laga.

Nirmal bola, “Theek hai Madam. Aap mere jaane ke baad parivartan kar lena, tab tak main bhojan le aata hoon.” Main samajh gayi ki yeh uski chatur soch thi drishya anand ke liye, kyunki usey pata tha mere paas antarvastra nahi hain aur ratri vastra mein main kaafi vasna poorna lagungi. Main ne sir hila diya aur socha agar ratri vastra mein maryadit nahi lagi toh uske saamne nahi pahenungi. Woh bhojan laane chala gaya.
Main ne darwaza band kiya aur almari se woh ratri vastra nikali jo Sanjeev ne di thi. Pehle maine dhyan nahi diya tha. Ab haath mein lekar mehsoos kiya toh thoda rahat hua – yeh kamzor nahi thi. Kesari rang ka mota vastu tha, chhoti ratri vastra shaili mein sila hua. Bazu bhi the, dhanyavaad bhagwan, aur lambai chhoti hone ke bawajood mujhe maryadit lagi.

Main shauchalaya nahi gayi kyunki kamre ka darwaza band tha. Seedhe parivartan karne lagi. Ek kshan mein main nangi ho gayi. Us tight blouse ko khol kar bahut rahat mili, halanki Nirmal ke saamne bhi upar ke do ankad khule hue the. Meri chuchiyan sach mein dard kar rahi thi kyunki cup bahut tight the mere jawan chuchukon par. Maine ratri vastra sir ke upar se pahni aur darpan mein dekha. Ratri vastra ka khurdura kapda mere chuchukon ko chhute hi unhe turant sakht kar gaya. Zindagi mein kabhi ek din mein itni baar uttejit nahi hui thi.

Tab mujhe kya pata tha ki yeh sab kuch bhi nahi tha… jo aage mere intezaar mein tha!
Yeh ratri vastra ka kapda kaafi pravahit tha aur vastu itna mota tha ki meri pakki kaya zyada saaf nahi dikhai de rahi thi. Yeh vastra mere ghutnon ke thoda neeche tak aa rahi thi, isliye main zyada prakat mehsoos nahi kar rahi thi. Maine alag alag kon se darpan mein apni ratri vastra wali kaya ko achhe se dekha aur vishvas ho gaya ki bina antarvastra ke bhi main ashleel nahi lag rahi hoon. Sirf ek samasya thi – mere suje hue chuchukon ke nishan jo bilkul saaf dikh rahe the, koi bhi mere saamne khada ho toh chhook nahi sakta, khas kar koi purush. Lekin socha chhodo, chhupane ka koi tareeka nahi hai aur Nirmal ka intezaar karne lagi.

Thodi hi der mein Nirmal wapas aa gaya. Uske haath mein thaal tha jisme roti, dal aur sabji thi. Main ne dhyan diya ki woh mujhe ghoor raha tha. Maine apni harkaton ko niyantran mein rakhne ki koshish ki taaki meri gol, swatantra latakti chuchiyan zyada na hilengi. Nirmal bola, “Main yahin wait kar sakta hoon, aap bhojan kar lo, agar kuch aur chahiye toh bata dena laa dunga.” Main boli, “Bahut dayalu ho tum Nirmal.”

Maine mej ko khat ke paas khinch liya aur khane ke liye khat par baith gayi. Lekin jaise hi baithi, ratri vastra upar chadh gayi aur mere ghutne poore prakat ho gaye. Upar dekhe bina bhi main nishchit thi ki Nirmal ki nazar meri khuli hui taangon aur ghutnon par atki hui hai. Nirmal bola, “Madam, aap kha lo, main yahan baithta hoon.” Yeh bol kar bina mujhe rokne ka avsar diye woh kuch feet door zameen par baith gaya. Pehle toh maine socha ki yeh log sanyasi jeevan jeete hain isliye zameen par baithne ke aadi honge aur kamre mein kursi bhi nahi thi. Lekin agle hi pal mujhe is baune ki durbuddhi samajh aa gayi. Chhote kad ka hone ki wajah se uski aankhein pehle se hi saadhaaran purushon se neeche thi aur ab zameen par baith kar woh asal mein upar se drishya anand le raha tha.

Main turant satark ho gayi kyunki main antarvastra bhi nahi pahni hui thi. Maine apni taangein jitna ho sake band kar li aur ratri vastra ka kapda neeche tanane ki koshish ki lekin meri moti nitamb usey anumati nahi kar rahi thi. Jab maine neeche Nirmal ki taraf dekha toh uski nazar meri taangon par thi lekin chehre par asantosh bhi tha kyunki maine taangein band kar li thi. Yeh dekh kar phir se mere hothon par muskurahat aa gayi, bahut hasyaaspad lag raha tha.
Maine jaldi jaldi bhojan khatam kiya aur haath dhone ke liye shauchalaya chali gayi. Nirmal ab bhi baitha tha, isliye usey mere chhoti ratri vastra mein dolte hue nitamb ka bahut aakarshak peechhe ka drishya mila, woh bhi nichle kon se. Sabse bura tab hua jab mujhe zameen se aanchal uthaana pada jo deewar ankad se gir gaya tha. Jhukte waqt ratri vastra ka vastu tan gaya aur us baune ko meri bhari, aamantrit nitamb ke goliyon ka poora unrestrictted drishya mil gaya. Vishvas karo, yeh maine jaan bujh kar nahi kiya tha, lekin woh chhota sa bhagyashali ho gaya.

Thodi der baad Nirmal thaal le kar chala gaya aur “shubh ratri” bola, lekin uski aankhein jaise mere jhuke hue mudra ko dimag mein punah chalaa rahi thi. Main stri hone ke naate bahut asukoon mehsoos kar rahi thi. Jab woh chala gaya toh main khat par let gayi lekin bechain thi. Baar baar soch rahi thi ki kya main Nirmal ke saamne seema paar kar gayi, usne asal mein kya dekha, kya main jhukte waqt bahut ashleel lag rahi thi? Aakhir mein uthi aur seedha shauchalaya gayi, poora shareer darpan ke saamne wohi drishya punah utpann kiya. Main ne jhuk kar geele floor ko chhua aur apni taangon ke beech se peeche darpan mein dekha. Oh bhagwan! Main us mudra mein kitni lubhanee lag rahi thi – meri poori gol nitamb poori tarah pradarshan par thi, ratri vastra upar chadh rahi thi aur gori taangein bhi achhe se dikh rahi thi. Koi bhi purush ek pakki stri ke is samajhauta mudra ko dekh kar paagal ho jaaye. Sabse chakit karne wali baat yeh thi ki ratri vastra ke through meri lambi nitamb khand ka halka sa sanket bhi dikh raha tha! Swabhavik hi tha kyunki antarvastra nahi thi. Main bahut sharminda aur doshi mehsoos kar rahi thi, khud ko shraap de rahi thi. Kuch der baad thodi udas hokar khat par let gayi aur agle dinon mein ‘zyada savadhan’ rehne ka mantra le kar soyi. Sone se pehle kai baar “Jai linga maharaj” boli apne asli lakshya – baccha paane – ke liye.
“Madam, Madam!”

Main us awaaz se uthi. Neend se bahar aane mein thoda samay laga, ratri vastra ko neeche khinch kar taangon par samayojit kiya aur khat se utri. Yeh ek stri ki awaaz thi! Main sach mein aascharya chakit thi kyunki kal maine yahan koi stri nahi dekhi thi. Darwaza khola toh ek madhyavayask moti stri muskurati hui khadi thi.

“Madam, mera naam Meenakshi hai. Main Guru ji ki shishya hoon. Kal mil nahi paayi kyunki main kuch dinon ke liye bahar gayi hui thi, aaj subah hi laut kar aayi hoon.” Main ne usey dhyaan se dekha. Meenakshi mujhse thodi badi umar ki thi, lagbhag paintees saal, thodi gori complexion, andaakar chehra aur bahut pramukh striyatva sampada. Woh ashram vastra niyam mein thi. Main ne usey andar aane ko kaha.

Main boli, “Oh! Yahan ek stri ko dekh kar thodi rahat mili.” Meenakshi boli, “Madam, yahan purush stri mein koi antar nahi. Guru ji har shishya ko samanta se vyavahar karte hain. Aap bilkul chinta mat lo. Jai linga maharaj.” Main ne bhi mantra bola aur usey wait karne ko kaha kyunki mujhe pehle shauchalaya jaana tha. Jab main wapas aayi toh dekha Meenakshi ne mera khat pehle se saaf aur set kar diya tha aur ab jhadoo se kamra saaf kar rahi thi.
Meenakshi boli, “Madam, jaldi taiyar ho jaaiye, chhah baje tees minute par Guru ji ke saamne hona hai. Yeh lo aapke shuddh antarvastra. Sanjeev ne mujhe de diye, ab sukhe ho chuke hain.” Main boli, “Bahut dhanyavaad. Kal poori shaam main in purushon ke saamne stan bandhan rahit thi, socho meri sthiti. Aur us blouse ne toh poora kathor samay diya.”

Yeh bol kar maine usey blouse dikhaya. Woh muskurayi aur boli, “Haan, Nirmal ne mujhe bataya tha ki uske cup aapke stan aakaar ke hisaab se chhote hain.” Ashram mein har cheez ki khulapan dekh kar main baar baar vishesh chakit ho jaati thi. Sabko mere baare mein sab kuch pata tha! Kya Nirmal ne yeh bhi sabko bataya hoga ki jhukte waqt meri nitamb ka kaisa bhavya drishya mila tha? Main soch mein pad gayi.
Meenakshi boli, “Koi samasya nahi Madam, Guru ji se anumati le lo, main theek kar dungi.” Main boli, “Blouse aakaar parivartan karne ke liye bhi Guru ji ko pareshan karna padega?” Usne kaha, “Haan Madam, ashram niyam hai – vastron se sambandhit koi bhi parivartan ho toh Guru ji ko suchit karna padta hai.”

Maine usey dikhaya ki mera sthan kitna asukoon tha kyunki upar ke do ankad main band hi nahi kar paa rahi thi. Meenakshi boli, “Madam, button khule hue aap bahut aakarshak lag rahi ho. Aapki chuchiyan bina stan bandhan ke bhi kitni khadi hain!” Main laal ho gayi lekin andar se garv bhi mehsoos hua. Aisa prashansa mujhe pehle bhi mila tha.

Main uski taraf peeth karke stan bandhan pahen li. Lag raha tha jaise kai saalon baad stan bandhan pahen rahi hoon halanki sirf kuch ghante pehle utari thi. Bahut surakshit mehsoos hua. Jaldi se dono haathon se antarvastra ko kati tak chadhaaya aur kuch hi minute mein sari pahen kar taiyar ho gayi.
Darwaza band kar, hum Guru ji ke paas chal diye. Meenakshi mere saamne chal rahi thi aur main apne mann mein uski sari ke neeche bhari latakti kati ko prashansa kar rahi thi. Uska shareer har jagah se gol tha – chehra, stan aur spasht roop se uski nitamb – phir bhi woh bahut chal mein thi aur tez kadam chala rahi thi. Main uske saath gati banaye rakhne ke liye jaldi jaldi chal rahi thi.

Guru ji dhyaan mudra mein baithe the aur muskurate hue mujhe swagat kiya. Us samay aur koi shishya wahan nahi tha. Agle kuch minute mein, Meenakshi ke jaane se pehle jo maine dekha woh meri aankhon ke liye bilkul avishvasniya tha. Main aisi cheezein kabhi itne khule roop se hote hue nahi dekhi thi!
Meenakshi ne kaha, “Guru ji, Anita se baat shuru karne se pehle meri ek samasya sun lijiye?” Guru ji bola, “Kya hai Meenakshi?” Meenakshi boli, “Guru ji, kal raat meri kamar mein bahut tez peeda hui thi. Ab peeda kam hai lekin ab bhi asukoon mehsoos ho raha hai.”

Guru ji ne kaha, “Hmm… shayad mans peshi peeda hoga, jab tak kahin chot lagi ho. Aao yahan, dikhao.” Guru ji zameen par baithe the aur hum kuch feet door khade the. Main wahin khadi rahi aur Meenakshi aage badh kar bilkul unke saamne khadi ho gayi. Sach bataun toh paristhiti aisi thi ki Guru ji ka muh seedha Meenakshi ki yoni ke saamne tha. Phir woh ghumi aur ab uski bhari nitamb Guru ji ke chehre ke bilkul paas thi!

Main ne dekha Guru ji ne baithe baithe dono haath aage badhaye aur pehle uski kamar par chhua aur peeda ke baare mein poocha. Meenakshi ne sir hila diya. Phir jo unhone kiya usse mere kaan garam ho gaye. Guru ji ne dono haathon se Meenakshi ki nitamb ko sari ke upar se hi seedhe sparsh karna shuru kar diya. Main kon par khadi thi isliye unke har movement ko spasht dekh rahi thi. Pehle halka sparsh tha, phir thodi der baad woh dono haathon se uski dono nitamb ke goliyon ko zor zor se malne lage – jaise aata gundh rahe hon. Guru ji baith kar yeh sab kar rahe the, isliye yeh drishya aur bhi uttejit lag raha tha. Meenakshi ki nitamb bahut gol aur adhik thi, isliye Guru ji ke poore failaaye haath bhi usey poori tarah cover nahi kar paa rahe the. Sabse aascharya ki baat yeh thi ki Meenakshi ka chehra bilkul saadhaaran tha. Yeh silsila kuch der chalta raha aur Guru ji ke rukne se pehle unhone ek antim dabav mein uski mazboot nitamb ko dono haathon se zor se masal diya. Meenakshi ab tak khadi thi lekin itni sakriya nitamb malish se usme tapish utpann ho gayi hogi, woh thoda sa hil kar Guru ji ki taraf muh karke khadi ho gayi.

Kya main Guru ji ke baare mein anavashyak gandi soch rahi thi? Mere mann ne mujhe samjhaya ki shayad yeh peeda ki jagah dhoondhne ka tareeka hai. Lekin jo bhi ho, yeh tareeka bahut seedha tha aur dusron ke saamne aisa karna bilkul nahi hona chahiye, kyunki galat vichar paida ho sakti hai.
Guru ji ne kaha, “Meenakshi, apni nitamb aur kamar par garam sek karna aur yeh aushadhi din mein do baar lena.” Yeh bol kar unhone bagal se ek dabba nikala, khola aur maine dekha usme chalis pachaas chhoti shishiyan thi jisme alag alag rang ki aushadhi ghola tha. Meenakshi aushadhi le kar kaksha se chali gayi. Ab Guru ji ne meri taraf mud kar kaha, “Baitho Anita.”

“Anita, khadi rakhne ke liye kshama. Ummeed hai ab antarvastra wapas milne ke baad tum bahut behtar mehsoos kar rahi ho.” Woh meri aankhon mein dekhte hue muskuraye. Main dheere se sir hila di, aisi baaton par swabhavik sharm mehsoos ho rahi thi, halanki dheere dheere main is sab se parichit hoti ja rahi thi.

Guru ji bola, “Anita, aaj se main tumhara upchaar shuru karunga. Jai linga maharaj.” Main ne bhi bola, “Jai linga maharaj.”
Guru ji ne kaha, “Pehle mujhe tumhari vivahit jeevan ke baare mein aur kuch vivaran chahiye. Sharam mat karo aur kuch mat chhupao. Mann ko kholna padega. Jo bhi tumhare dimag mein aaye, mujhe batao ya poochho. Tumhari samasya aisi hai ki agar tum nahi khologi toh upchaar poora nahi hoga.”
Main ne phir sir hila diya. Guru ji bola, “Jab maine antarvastra ka zikr kiya toh tumme sharm dikhi. Kyun Anita? Jab tak yeh sab tumhe swabhavik aur saadhaaran nahi lagenge, tumhari diksha adhuri hi hai. Jaise tum stan bandhan pahen rahi ho, waise hi main apne vastron ke neeche antarvastra pahenta hoon. Isme sharm kis baat ki hai, batao?”

Main boli, “Err… Haan Guru ji. Kuch nahi.” Guru ji ne poocha, “Achha. Saptah mein kitni baar tum log sambandh karte the?” Main boli, “Saamaanya taur par saptah mein do baar.” “Sambandh ke baad tumhe poora santosh milta tha?” Main ne sir hila diya.
Guru ji ne poocha, “Kya tumhe lagta tha ki tum poori tarah uttejit ho rahi ho ya kriya aur lamba hona chahiye tha, alag shaili hona chahiye tha ya kuch aur?” Main boli, “Nahi Guru ji. Aisa kabhi nahi mehsoos hua.”

Guru ji bola, “Theek hai, toh spasht roop se zyadatar cheezein saadhaaran hain aur mahine ki aayein bhi niyamit hain. Batao Anita, ek satr mein kitni baar sambandh karte the? Ek baar ya adhik?” Mere kaan garam hone lage the aur gaal laal ho rahe the, ek purush se itni vyaktigat baatein karte hue.
Main boli, “Shaadi ke pehle kuch mahine mein do baar, lekin pichhle ek saal se sirf ek baar.” Guru ji ne poocha, “Pehle dinon mein yoni se drav do baar hota tha? Dono baar barabar matra mein?” Main boli, “Haan, lekin sach bataun toh kuch dinon mein dusri baar mera drav nahi hota tha, sirf pati ka hota tha.”
Guru ji bola, “Hmm. Kya tum bahut bhari matra mein drav karti ho?” Main ghabraate hue boli, “Nahi, zyada nahi… matlab…” Meri ghabraahat mujhe aisi vyaktigat baatein bolne se rok rahi thi.

Guru ji ne kaha, “Bolo Anita. Apne shabdon ko samayojit karo aur mann kholo.” Main boli, “Asal mein ab bhi mujhe lagta hai ki kuch ‘garam’ cheez andar hi reh jaati hai aur kriya khatam hone ke baad bhi bahar nahi nikalti.”

Guru ji bola, “Theek hai Anita, shaant ho jao. Mujhe zaroori suchna mil gayi.” Kuch der tak sannata tha kyunki Guru ji aankhein band karke dhyaan kar rahe the.

Phir unhone kaha, “Jai linga maharaj. Dekho Anita, garbhavastha tabhi hogi jab sambandh ke dauran tumhara drav zyada ho. Jo maine samjha, lagta hai tum poori tarah uttejit nahi ho paati ho jisse tumhare dravon ka kul nikaas nahi hota. Yeh kai dampatti ke saath hota hai, bahut chintajanak nahi hai. Lekin agar uttejit hone ke bawajood bhi yoni drav kam ho toh woh samasya hai.”

Guru ji ne viram kiya jaise mujhse swabhavik prashn ki aasha kar rahe hon. Main boli, “Agar drav uchit nahi hai toh kya hota hai Guru ji?” Guru ji ne samjhaaya, “Dekho Anita, agar drav kam hai toh ande bhi kam bante hain aur garbhavastha ke avsar bahut kam ho jaate hain. Lekin shaant raho pyari, isey theek karne ke tareeke hain – tumhare poora yoni drav nikaalne ke upay aur jadi booti aushadhiyan jo ise badha sakein. Lekin tumhe meri har nirdesh ko poora palan karna hoga.”

Main boli, “Guru ji, main garbhavastha ke liye kuch bhi karungi. Main bahut pareshan ho chuki hoon. Aap jo aadesh karenge main waise hi karungi.” Guru ji bola, “Achha Anita. Lekin yaad rakhna, kehna aasaan hai karna kathinaai. Sabse pehle mujhe tumhare yoni drav ki matra chahiye. Kya tum swayam krida karti ho?”

Ab main bahut pyaasi mehsoos kar rahi thi. Zindagi mein pehli baar kisi ne mujhse aisa prashn poocha tha aur main sach mein bahut zyada sharminda aur lajja mehsoos kar rahi thi. Maine kabhi aisa kuch prayas hi nahi kiya tha. Jo bhi hua woh sab swabhavik tha mere saath. Shaadi se pehle bhi drav hote the lekin woh sab swabhavik the – zyadatar swapnon ke through, kabhi kabhi train bus mein kisi ke ragadne ya chhoone se, aur phir raat ko khat par un sabko yaad karke takiye ke saath.


Lekin ab main sandeh mein pad gayi thi ki bina poori tarah uttejit hue poora yoni drav kaise ho sakta hai. Sirf kalpana se toh yeh nahi hoga. Sabse badi baat, mera pati yahan hai bhi nahi.

Main dheere se boli, “Haan Guru ji, bahut kam baar main swayam krida karti hoon aur drav bhi bahut kam hota hai.”
Guru ji ne kaha, “Anita, tumhe bilkul waise hi karna hoga jaise main kehta hoon. Mujhe tumhare yoni drav ki exact matra chahiye, uske hisaab se aage upchaar yojna hogi.”

Main boli, “Lekin Guru ji, pati ke bina… main kisi ke saath let kar…”
Guru ji muskuraye aur bole, “Anita, tum kya soch rahi ho mujhe pata hai. Kya tum yeh soch rahi ho ki main tumse kisi dusre purush ke saath letne ko kahunga poora drav ke liye? Main jaanta hoon tum ek grihini ho aur tumhari samajik seema kya hain.”
Main ne sir hila diya aur thoda vishvas mehsoos kiya. Lekin ab bhi mere dimag mein yeh nahi aa raha tha ki bina kisi purush ke saath let kar main poori tarah uttejit kaise ho paungi.
Guru ji ne kaha, “Upchaar ka pehla hissa hai mann niyantran. Tumhe sirf apne shareer par hone wale kriyaon ka swabhavik pratikriya dena hai aur baaki sab kuch dimag se nikaal dena hai. Mat sochna ki kaun saath mein hai, kahan ho, bas swabhavik pratikriya do jo paristhitiyan main utpann karunga. Apne mann ko sirf kriyaon tak seemit kar do. Yeh sab itna swabhavik hoga jaise ab hum baat kar rahe hain, isliye bilkul chinta mat lo, yeh sirf upchaar prakriya hai. Jai linga maharaj!”

Main ne Guru ji ko sir hila diya halanki mujhe ab bhi poora anumaan nahi tha ki asal upchaar kaisa hoga.
Guru ji ne sankshep mein kaha, “Sun lo Anita, yojna kuch aisi hai. Pehle aushadhi wala hissa. Yeh jadi booti aushadhi subah pehle mutra visarjan ke baad khali pet lena aur raat ko sone se pehle. Matra shishi par likhi hai, theek hai?”
Main ne sir hila kar unke haath se aushadhi shishi le li.

Guru ji ne aage bataya, “Yeh dusra jadi booti arka hai jo tum hamesha ashram se bahar jaate waqt lena. Aur yeh tel hai jisse tumhe dopahar nahane se pehle poore shareer ki malish karni hai. Har nahana jadi booti jal se hi hoga jaise diksha ke samay kiya tha. Main anubhav karta hoon tum kal se tel lagana shuru karo, aaj se nahi.”

Main boli, “Ji Guru ji. Jadi booti jal se nahane ke baad mujhe bahut taaza mehsoos hua tha.”
Guru ji bola, “Haan, yeh jadi booti arka tumhare angon aur urja star ko navikrit karta hai. Lekin yaad rakhna, jo tel maine abhi diya hai woh tumhare stanon par mat lagana. Stanon ke liye yeh alag tel hai. Ummeed hai sandeh nahi hoga – stan malish wala tel hara rang ka hai. Samajh gayi?”
Main ek aagyakaari vidyarthi ki tarah sir hila di. “Stan malish” shabd sun kar mere chuchuk stan bandhan ke andar uchal pade.
Guru ji ne kaha, “Anita, malish ke nirdesh tumhe Rajkamal se milenge. Shayad tum usse baat nahi ki hogi kyunki woh zyadatar vyast rehta hai, woh ashram ka pakwan banane wala hai.”

Main boli, “Haan Guru ji. Kal dekha tha lekin baat nahi hui thi.”
Guru ji ne aage kaha, “Aur ab mann niyantran wala hissa. Yeh bahut mahatvapoorna hai. Yeh lo vishesh absorption pad, agle do din jab bhi ashram se bahar jaogi toh ise pahen kar jaana.”

Guru ji ne mujhe ek chhota sa safed chaukor sooti pad diya jo bade rumal jaisa gundha hua tha. Main sandeh mein pad gayi ki ise kaise ‘pahenna’ hai.
Main ne poocha, “Guru ji, ise kaise pahenu?” Shayad yeh mera jeevan ka sabse moorakh prashn tha!
Guru ji bola, “Anita, maine pehle hi kaha tha ki mujhe yeh jaanna hai ki uttejit hone par tumhara drav kitna hota hai. Yeh vishesh pad hai jisme matra naapne wala litmus kagaz laga hai jo mujhe exact matra batayega. Ise apni antarvastra ke andar, apni yoni ke chhed par rakhna hoga.”
Yeh sun kar mere kaan turant laal ho gaye. Main sharm se Guru ji ki aankhon mein dekhne se bhi katra gayi. “Antarvastra” aur “yoni” shabd seedhe ek purush ke muh se sun kar meri sthiti aur kharab ho gayi. Mere chuchuk aur tight ho gaye aur meri bhari chuchiyan blouse ke andar aur zyada tight mehsoos hone lagi kyunki blouse pehle se hi tan gaya tha.

Guru ji ne kaha, “Ise antarvastra mein aise rakhna Anita ki woh shift na ho. Har ek boond ko sokhna chahiye taaki mujhe sahi matra mile. Ummeed hai tum vyavastha kar logi.”
Main jaldi se zameen ki taraf dekhte hue sir hila di aur yeh charcha jaldi khatam karna chahti thi. Lag raha tha agar yeh vishay aur chalta raha toh Guru ji mujhse sari upar karwa kar khud hi antarvastra mein haath daal kar dikha denge ki pad kaise rakhna hai.
Main boli, “Ji Guru ji. Samajh gayi.”

Guru ji bola, “Achha. Anita, aaj aur kal tumhe kam se kam do charam sukh roz paane hain. Yaad rakhna, jo bhi kriya tumhare saath hogi woh bahut asadharan lag sakta hai lekin woh tumhare upchaar ka hissa hai. Isliye ise khel ke roop mein lo aur jo swabhavik taur par hona hai hone do. Jai linga maharaj!”

Main ne bhi bola, “Jai linga maharaj.”

Guru ji ne aage kaha, “Anita, main chahta hoon tum roz ke karyon mein bhi bhag lena. Agar mann kare toh pakwan kaksha mein madad kar sakti ho. Dopahar mein yog, tairaki aadi mein bhi shaamil ho sakti ho.”

Main boli, “Ji Guru ji. Jo mujhe anukool lagega main zaroor karungi.”

Guru ji bola, “Ab jaa sakti ho Anita. Jo bhi karna hai, kahan jaana hai, sab nirdesh mere shishyon ke through mil jaayenge. Linga maharaj par vishvas rakho.”
Main boli, “Dhanyavaad Guru ji. Jai linga maharaj!”

Main unke kamre se nikal kar apne kamre ki taraf chali. Ab bhi main mann se pareshan thi. Guru ji ne kaha tha ‘charam sukh lo’, lekin vivahit stri hone ke naate bina pati ke din mein do charam sukh paane ka soch kar main pareshan thi. Aisi teevra surat sukh toh sirf shaadi ke shuru ke dinon mein hi mila tha. Phir bhi khud ko samjhaya aur koi raasta bhi nahi hai, Guru ji ko yeh jaanna zaroori hai ki main normal jhadti hoon ya nahi.
 
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Chapter 2 : Silai Ghar Ka Anokha Anubhav



Subah lagbhag das baje Nirmal mere kamre ke darwaze par thap thap karta hua aaya. Tab tak main jadi booti snaan kar chuki thi. Woh bahut taaza karne wala tha aur apne shauchalaya ke poore shareer darpan ke saamne nahana jaise mujhe aur besharm bana raha tha. Saamaanya das minute ka snaan lambe ho gaya, kyunki main wahan kuch aur samay nangi khadi rahi aur darpan mein apni jawan kaya ko niharti rahi. Usse pehle main pakwan kaksha gayi thi aur Rajkamal se parichay hua tha aur uski madad mein kuch sabjiyan kaatne mein bhi haath bataya tha.

Nirmal: Madam, kripya taiyar ho jaaiye. Guru ji ne kaha aapko silai karne wale ke paas le jaaun kyunki aapko blouse ki fitting mein samasya ho rahi hai.

Main: Lekin maine subah Guru ji ko is baare mein kuch nahi bataya tha. Unhe kaise pata chala?

Nirmal: Meenakshi ne Guru ji ko bata diya tha.

Main ne mann hi mann Meenakshi ka dhanyavaad kiya. Usne mujhe itni vyaktigat samasya Guru ji ke saamne rakhne se bacha liya. Aur Guru ji jaise seedhe prashn poochhte hain, woh phir se laal hone wala prasang hota.

Har baar is baune ko dekh kar mujhe hasi aa jaati hai. Maine dhyan diya ki uski aankhein meri shareer ke nichle hisse par zyada ghum rahi thi. Yeh jaan kar maine jaan bujh kar usse baat karte waqt peeth ghumane se parhez kiya.

Main: Silai karne wala kahan rehta hai? Kya woh ashram mein hi rahta hai?

Nirmal: Nahi Madam. Lekin bahut door nahi hai, yahan se sirf paanch minute ki paidal doori hai. Madam, main aapke saath nahi jaaunga. Uday aayega aur aapko le jaayega, kyunki woh bahar jaane ke kaam sambhalta hai.

Main: Theek hai Nirmal. Tum Uday ko bhej do.

Nirmal: Madam, bahar jaane se pehle aushadhi zaroor le lena aur pad bhi pahen lena.

Woh ek durbuddhi bhari muskurahat ke saath chala gaya. Main phir se chakit reh gayi. Yeh bewakoof bhi jaanta tha ki mujhe antarvastra ke andar pad pahenna hai!

Maine darwaza band kiya aur aushadhi matra anusaar li aur phir pad ke saath shauchalaya mein chali gayi. Chunki pad ko surakshit rakhna tha, isliye maine sari aur petticoat poori tarah utaarne ka nirnaya kiya. Is tarah mujhe phir se lagbhag bikini sthiti mein nanga hona pada kyunki main abhi snaan kar ke aayi thi. Maine apni antarvastra ko apni gori nitambon tak aadha neeche kiya aur pad ko meri yoni ke chhed par rakh kar antarvastra upar chadha di. Videshi vastu ka meri yoni par sparsh turant mujhe uttejit kar gaya. Lekin maine mann ko usse hatane ki koshish ki aur jaldi se petticoat aur sari pahen li. Mera blouse hamesha ki tarah mere tight stanon se chipka hua tha aur upar ke ankad khule hue the, lekin kam se kam mujhe vishvas tha ki mujhe ek uchit blouse mil jaayega kyunki mujhe yahan ab paanch saat din rehna tha.

Uday ki vyaktitva bahut manmohak tha, lekin uska shareer bahut mazboot tha. Usne bataya ki woh yahan yog sikhata hai aur kho kho, kabaddi, tairaki aadi khelon mein bahut sakriya hai. Koi bhi stri uske shareer ko pasand kar legi aur sach bataun toh maine bhi mann hi mann uski kaya ki prashansa ki. Hum ashram se bahar nikle aur ashram ke bahar wale bade talab ke paas se raasta liya. Maine dhyan diya ki wahan ghar bahut kam the aur bahut faile hue the.

Jaise hi main Uday ke kadamon ke saath tez chalne lagi, mujhe apni saadhaaran samasya hone lagi. Mujhe spasht mehsoos hua ki meri antarvastra meri chikni nitambon se slide ho rahi thi aur ek taraf ko shift ho rahi thi. Main jaanti thi ki agar main tez chalta rahi toh jaldi hi woh meri nitamb khand mein ghus jaayegi. Pad toh aage surakshit tha, lekin andar bahut asukoon mehsoos ho raha tha halanki yeh mere liye naya nahi tha, kyunki lagbhag saari antarvastra ke saath aisa hi hota hai. Mere paas koi chaara nahi tha sirf dheere chalna tha aur dhanyavaad bhagwan Uday ne mujhe dheere kyun chalne lagi yeh nahi poocha.


Jaldi hi hum silai karne wale ke sthan par pahunch gaye. Woh ek chhota jhopda tha. Jaise hi humne darwaza thapthapaya ek boodha aadmi bahar aaya. Woh kam se kam paanch saath saal ka hoga, lagbhag mere pita ji ki umar ka. Woh mota chashma lagaye hue tha aur lungi pahne hue tha. Woh bahut kamzor dikhai de raha tha.


Uday: Master ji, hamari Madam ko blouse mein samasya ho rahi hai, aap dekh sakte hain kya?


Master ji: Lekin abhi main ek ladki ka naap le raha hoon. Isme kuch samay lagega.


Uday: Theek hai Master ji, yeh thodi der wait kar legi.


Silai karne wale ne mujhe dekha. Uski nazar kamzor lag rahi thi kyunki usne moti shishe ke peeche se mujhe kaafi der tak dekha. Tabhi ek aur aadmi ghar se bahar aaya, woh madhyavayask tha, lagbhag chalis saal ka, bahut patla, woh bhi lungi pahne hue tha.


Master ji: Ramlal, Madam ko andar le jao. Main shauchalaya se aata hoon.


Uday ne mere kaan mein fusa fusa kar bataya ki Ramlal Master ji ka bhai hai jo uski silai mein madad karta hai aur woh sirf do ghante mein blouse sil sakte hain. Chunki hamare kasbe ki stri silai karne wali ko kam se kam ek saptah lagta tha, isliye main yeh sun kar kaafi prabhavit hui.


Uday: Madam, abhi mujhe yahan kuch kaam nahi hai. Main aapko salah deta hoon ki Master ji se naya blouse silwa lijiye. Main gaon mein jaata hoon aur ek ghante baad aapko yahan se le lunga.


Main ne sir hila diya, yeh jaane bina ki wahan mere saath kya hone wala tha aur Uday chala gaya.


Ramlal: Mere saath aaiye Madam.


Uski awaaz bahut kadak thi aur chehra bhi sakht tha. Woh zyadatar purushon ki tarah meri khadi chuchiyon ko ghoor raha tha. Usne mujhe ek bahut chhote kamre mein le gaya. Dayi taraf silai machine thi, bayi taraf ek sari tirchhi latki hui thi aur rang birange kapdon ka dher tha. Kamra nissandeh nam tha kyunki darwaze ke alawa koi hawa ka raasta nahi tha. Ek dheemi bulb kamre ko roshan kar raha tha aur ek mej pankha hawa de raha tha. Chunki main bahar se aayi thi, roshni ke anukool hone mein kuch second lage aur maine dekha ki ek ladki bhi kamre ke ek kone mein khadi thi.


Ramlal: Asuvidha ke liye kshama Madam. Yahan jagah bahut kam hai. Master ji is ladki ka naap poora kar lenge aur phir aapki baari aayegi. Aap is stool par tab tak baithiye.


Main us ladki ko dhyaan se dekhne hi wali thi jo kamre ke kone mein khadi thi, lekin upar wali baat keh kar Ramlal ne stool aage badhaya lekin usey pakde rakha. Main uske vyavhaar se kaafi chid gayi kyunki agar main ab baithungi toh mujhe apni nitamb ka hissa uski ungliyon par rakhna padega aur maine garam hokar pratikriya di.


Main: Yeh kya hai? Agar aap stool aise pakde rahenge toh main kaise baithungi?


Ramlal: Madam, kripya gussa mat kijiye. Mujhe nahi pata ki yeh aapka bhaar sahega ya nahi. Kal hi ek gir gaya tha aur chot lag gayi thi.


Main samajh gayi aur khud par muskurayi stool ki sthiti dekh kar.


Main: Haan, aapka stool aapke swasthya jaisa hi lag raha hai.


Woh ladki jo wahan khadi thi woh bhi mere tippani par has padi. Ramlal ne bhi badi muskurahat ke saath dant dikhaye lekin usne ungliyan stool se nahi hataayi aur mujhe us par baithna pada jabki woh usey sambhal raha tha. Main savadhan thi ki uski ungliyon par seedhe na baithun, lekin sthiti aisi thi ki uski ungliyan meri mazboot nitamb goliyon aur lakdi ke stool ke beech kuch had tak dab gayi. Main Ramlal ke anubhav ke baare mein nahi keh sakti lekin mujhe vishvas hai ki usne iss athhaais saal ki grihini ki golai ka anand zaroor liya hoga, lekin purush ungliyon ka meri chikni nitamb par sparsh turant mere dil ki dhadkan tez kar gaya. Main turant usey stool chhodne ke liye majboor ki aur khud ko us par theek se baitha liya.


Ab maine us ladki ko dekha. Woh ek kishori thi jo ghagra choli pahne hue thi. Spasht tha ki woh stan bandhan nahi pahne hui thi aur uske chuchuk patle blouse se saaf dikhai de rahe the. Maine Ramlal ki aankhon mein dekha ki kya woh unhe ghoor raha tha, lekin main chakit reh gayi jab maine dekha ki woh uske bajaye meri chhed ko ghoor raha tha! Maine turant apna pallu theek kiya jo displace ho gaya tha taaki meri chhed chhup jaaye aur us free pradarshan ko rok sakun jo mere blouse ke do khule ankadon ki wajah se ho raha tha. Is samay tak Master ji wapas aa gaye the.


Master ji: Madam, aapko wait karane ke liye kshama. Main paanch minute mein khatam kar dunga.


Phir agle paanch minute mein jo hua woh aur bhi ghinauna tha aur maine apni zindagi mein silai ki dukaan mein aisa apmanjanak kaam kabhi nahi dekha tha. Master ji us ladki ke paas gaye jo choli silwane aayi thi aur unhone sab naap apne haathon se liye, matlab ungliyan faila kar! Koi naap ki patti nahi thi halanki naap ki dori thi. Main sun sun kar stun reh gayi. Master ji ne sab naap liye – uski bazu, kandhe, peeth, kaksh aur spasht roop se uske dono cup ungliyon se aur Ramlal ne usey naap dori se verify kiya aur notebook mein note kiya. Maine dhyan diya ki woh ladki Master ji ke lagataar sparsh aur chhoone ke bawajood bilkul shaant thi. Mera dil ek pal ke liye ruk sa gaya jab Master ji ne apni anguthi se us ladki ke khade chuchuk ko exactly chhedte hue naap liya aur uski madhya ungli uske stan ke aadhar ko chhoo rahi thi.


Naap jaldi khatam ho gaya aur ladki chali gayi. Ab mujhe is silai karne wale jodi se spasht prashn poochna tha.


Main: Master ji, aap naap ke liye patti kyun nahi istemal karte?


Master ji: Madam, mujhe apne haathon par patti se zyada vishvas hai. Main battis saal se blouse sil raha hoon aur mere graahakon se bahut kam shikayat aayi hai. Madam, aap yeh mat sochiye ki main yahan rehta hoon isliye sirf gaon walon ke liye silta hoon, mere blouse shehari ilakon mein bhi jaate hain. Main das saal se antarvastra bhi silta hoon Madam aur aisi nazuk cheezon par bhi koi badi shikayat nahi aayi. Aur sab kuch meri ungliyon ke naap par hi hota hai.


Master ji mujhe apne tareeke ke baare mein samjhaane ke liye nishchit the.


Master ji: Madam, aap apni taraf us dher ko dekho. Woh saare stan bandhan aur antarvastra shehar jaayenge aur aap unhe dukaan se sundar packet mein kharidengi. Agar yeh tareeka sahi nahi hota toh kya main itne lambe samay se yeh vyavasay chala sakta Madam?


Maine rang birange kapdon ke dher ki taraf dekha jo maine kamre mein aate hi dhyan diya tha lekin dheemi roshni ki wajah se samajh nahi paayi thi aur upar se main bahar ke tej prakash se aayi thi. Ab saaf dikhai de raha tha aur maine alag alag rangon ke stan bandhan aur antarvastra ka dher dekha. Mujhe sach mein pata nahi tha ki yeh bhi blouse ki tarah sila ja sakta hai.


Main: Main toh sochti thi Master ji ki antarvastra jo hum kharidte hain woh machine se bante hain.


Master ji: Nahi Madam, sab nahi. Kuch jaise yeh haath se bhi bante hain aur yeh bhi alag alag striyon par haath se naap kar bante hain.


Woh ek pal ke liye ruke aur bole.


Master ji: Madam chunki aap kasbe se hain isliye aapko mujhe aise naap lete dekh kar sharm aa rahi hai. Lekin vishvas kijiye Madam, yeh asal mein blouse ko behtar fitting deta hai. Agar main aapko ek udaharan doon toh aap samajh jaayengi, bazaar mein bahut tarah ke dant manjjan hain na? Kuch jhuke hue upar wale, kuch tirchhe bristles wale aadi aadi, lekin Madam itne anek prakar kyun? Kyunki dant manjjan hamare danton par utna flexible nahi ghum sakta jitna hamari ungli, jo bahut flexible hoti hai.


Main ab kaautuhal se sun rahi thi, halanki woh boodha aur kamzor tha, lekin achhe tareeke se samjha raha tha.


Master ji: Yahan bhi yahi sthiti hai Madam, patti stri shareer ke naap ke liye sabse behtar upkaran nahi hai. Ungliyan aur haath ki lachilaapan behtar upkaran hai.


Main Master ji ke vivaran se kaafi vishvasit ho chuki thi aur is mudde par zyada pareshan nahi hona chahti thi. Aakhirkaar yeh sirf paanch minute ka naap lene ka satr tha.


Master ji: Theek hai Madam. Ab aapki samasya par aate hain. Aapke blouse mein kya samasya hai? Yeh bhi maine hi sila tha.


Master ji ke chehre par ab muskurahat thi. Ramlal tab tak silai machine par kuch kapda sil raha tha.


Main: Master ji halanki yeh ashram ke anusaar battis aakaar hai lekin cup mere liye bahut chhote hain.


Master ji: Ramlal, Madam ko battis chhattis aakaar ka blouse dekar try karne do.


Mujhe aascharya hua ki unhone mera blouse dekhne ki bhi zaroorat nahi samjhi.


Main: Lekin Master ji main battis aakaar pahenti hoon.


Master ji: Madam, jab aapne kaha ki cup mein samasya hai toh pehle usey theek karne do, baaki cheezein machine se ek minute mein badal sakte hain na?


Ramlal ne almari se dhoondh kar mujhe laal rang ka blouse diya. Usne kapde ko khinch kar dekha aur blouse ke cup ko dekha aur mere dono stanon par gandi nazar daali aur mujhe blouse de diya. Is badmash ki nazar kitni gandi thi!


Ramlal: Aap us sari ke peeche jaakar badal lijiye Madam.


Main: Lekin main yahan aise badal nahi sakti…


Mujhe sahi shabd nahi mil rahe the. Sari ka cover sirf mere stan star tak tha aur doosra kamra itna chhota tha ki purushon ke saamne kapde badalne ke liye bahut kareeb tha.


Master ji: Madam, kya aapne mera chashma dekha hai? Main in moti shishon se do feet door ki cheez bhi saaf nahi dekh sakta. Madam, aap yahan bilkul surakshit hain kapde badalne ke liye.


Main: Nahi nahi, main woh nahi keh rahi thi…


Master ji: Ramlal, hamare liye chai le aao.


Yeh baat mujhe vishvas dilane ke liye bahut tez thi. Mere paas ab uske shabdon ka jawab kam tha. Main aur bahas nahi ki aur kamre ke kone mein sari ke peeche chali gayi. Main jaan bujh kar deewar ki taraf muh karke khadi hui kyunki jagah bahut khuli thi. Tirchhi bandhi sari deewar ke ankadon tak kaafi cover nahi thi.


Master ji: Madam, zameen par bahut dhool mitti hai. Agar aap sari ko zameen par gira den toh behtar hoga.


Main: Theek hai Master ji.


Maine ‘theek hai’ kaha lekin mujhe ehsaas hua ki agar main pallu zameen par nahi girati toh mujhe usey ek haath se pakadna padega lekin us tarah main blouse nahi badal sakti kyunki mujhe dono haath aazad chahiye blouse ke ankad kholne aur utaarne ke liye. Mujhe ehsaas hua ki sirf ek tareeka hai pallu ko kamar mein khons kar badalna.


Maine blouse poora khol diya aur ab sirf stan bandhan mein thi. Main bahut rahat mehsoos kar rahi thi kyunki Ramlal kamre mein nahi tha aur battis chhattis aakaar ka blouse deewar ke ankad se utaar kar pahen liya. Sab ankad band karne ke baad mujhe ehsaas hua ki blouse har jagah thoda dhila tha – mere cup par, kandhe par aur stan ke aadhar par bhi aur mujhe fit nahi ho raha tha.


Pallu ko kandhe par laakar main Master ji ke saamne aa gayi halanki main achhe se jaanti thi ki Master ji mera blouse check karenge aur mujhe phir se pallu utaar kar apne upari khajane prakat karne padenge.


Master ji: Mujhe laga tha ki agar aap sari poori utaar leti toh behtar hota Madam kyunki mujhe aapka blouse check karna hai aur aapko shayad dusra try karna padega theek fitting ke liye. Har baar aapko asukoon hoga…


Vakya poora karne ki zaroorat nahi thi maine socha aur beech mein bol padi.


Main: Haan Master ji. Aap sahi keh rahe hain.


Chunki Ramlal abhi tak wapas nahi aaya tha, maine Master ji ke saamne hi sari utaar di. Main usse nikal kar bahar aa gayi aur Master ji ne meri sari ko pakad kar sambhala taaki woh gandi zameen par na lage. Main aascharya se yeh mehsoos kar rahi thi ki ek anjaan purush ke saamne bina sari ke mujhe asukoon nahi lag raha tha, khas kar Master ji ki umar aur kamzor nazar ko dhyan mein rakh kar. Ab main lagbhag us kishori ladki jaisi sthiti mein thi jise maine shuru mein dekha tha. Sirf antar yeh tha ki main antarvastra pahne hui thi, jo us ladki nahi pahne hui thi.


Tabhi Ramlal chai le kar kamre mein daakhil hua.


Ramlal: Madam, yeh chai lijiye, yeh vishesh hai…

Woh mujhe us sthiti mein dekh kar achanak ruk gaya. Meri pakki aur ubhari hui chuchiyan is badmash ke dimag ghumaane ke liye kaafi thi aur meri patli petticoat ke through woh meri achhe se bani hui janghon ko bhi dekh paa raha tha. Maine socha ki uski nazron par zyada dhyan nahi dena chahiye.


Ramlal: … adrak wali Madam.


Ramlal ne thaal ko gandi zameen par rakh diya, pehle ki main rok paati. Zameen sirf gandi nahi thi, balki maine dekha ki wahan kakroache aur chhote chuhe idhar udhar daud rahe the!


Main: Master ji, is kamre ki sthiti aisi kyun hai?


Master ji: Madam, iske liye kshama, lekin shuru ke dinon mein maine in keedon ko maarne ki koshish ki thi, lekin yeh sthan in jaanvaron ka janm sthan lagta hai aur samay ke saath main inke aadi ho gaya hoon.


Woh muskuraya halanki main us kamre mein dhool mitti aur keedon ke saath bilkul asukoon nahi thi.


Master ji: Chai pijiye Madam, phir main aapki fitting check karunga.


Yeh keh kar woh jhuka aur ek pyala utha kar chai ki chuski li. Ramlal pehle se hi machine par baith kar chai pi raha tha. Main bhi do kadam aage badhi aur zameen par rakhe thaal se pyala uthane ke liye jhuki. Jaise hi main jhuki, mujhe ehsaas hua ki mera blouse mere stanon se gap bana raha tha aur mere aam lagbhag stan bandhan ke upar se bahar jhaank rahe the. Main jaanti thi ki meri gahri chhed khul rahi thi, lekin mujhe zameen se pyala uthana tha. Isliye maine apni bayi haath se apni gehri chhed ko chhupane ki poori koshish ki aur jaldi se pyala utha liya. Mujhe aisa karte dekh kar maine dekha ki Ramlal has pada. Woh badmash.


Master ji: Theek hai Madam, ab aapka blouse check karte hain.


Yeh keh kar woh mere bilkul kareeb aa gaya, ek foot ke andar. Main halke halke saans tez le rahi thi kyunki ek purush itna paas aa gaya tha. Woh mujhse lamba tha aur jab woh mere blouse se dhake stanon ki taraf neeche dekha, har saans ke saath mere stanon ka upar ka hissa usey blouse ke upar se thoda zyada dikhai de raha tha. Main khud par thodi laal ho gayi.


Master ji: Yeh toh bahut dhila lag raha hai Madam. Main check karta hoon ki yeh kitna dhila hai.


Jaise hi Master ji mere aur kareeb aaye, mujhe unke shareer ki paseene ki gandh aane lagi. Purush paseene ki woh khushboo mere andar gehri saans lene ka kaaran ban gayi. Unhone pehle mere blouse ki bazu check ki. Unhone meri bayi bazu se shuru kiya aur ek ungli bazu ke end se andar daal kar seedhe meri bazu ko chhua. Unhone yeh kaafi der tak kiya aur meri bayi bazu par ungli ko dheere dheere ragadte hue kapde ko chhute rahe.


Master ji: Ramlal, bazu paanch dori se dhili hai. Ab peeth check karta hoon. Madam, kya aap ghum kar Ramlal ki taraf muh kar sakti hain?


Ramlal mere peeche notebook mein note kar raha tha. Ab main sharir ghuma kar uski taraf muh kar li aur woh khule roop se meri khadi chuchiyon ko ghoor raha tha. Kitna chid hone wala! Kamra chhota aur bhara hua hone ki wajah se garam bhi tha aur ab main paseena nikal rahi thi. Meri kakshen pehle se hi geeli thi aur maine neeche dekha toh blouse par kakshon ke geele nishan saaf dikhai de rahe the. Usi pal Master ji ke shabd sun kar main chaunk si gayi. Halanki maine dhyan diya tha ki Master ji ne meri peeth ki taraf abhi tak haath nahi lagaya tha jabki main ghum chuki thi, lekin main us Ramlal ki nazron ko lekar zyada chintit thi.


Master ji: Madam, kripya bura mat maaniye lekin mujhe kehna padega ki aapki antarvastra is blouse se bhi zyada kharab fitting wali hai.


Main: Kya?


Master ji: Madam, Madam, kripya mere shabdon par gussa mat kijiye. Jaise hi aap peeth ghumayi, roshni aisi pad gayi ki main aapki petticoat ke through saaf dekh paa raha hoon. Agar aap mere shabdon par vishvas nahi karti toh Ramlal ko idhar bula kar check karwa lijiye.


Main: Nahi nahi. Kuch check karne ki zaroorat nahi. Main aapke shabdon par vishvas karti hoon.


Mujhe sweekaar karna pada ki main apne silai karne wale ke shabdon par vishvas karti hoon ki usne meri petticoat ke through meri antarvastra dekh li thi aur maine Ramlal ko mere peeche aakar check karne se kisi tarah rok diya. Meri haathen swayam hi meri nitamb par chali gayi aur maine moorakhata se apni gol nitamb ko apni hatheli se chhupane ki koshish ki.


Main: Lekin aapko kaise pata…


Master ji ne beech mein hi baat kaat di kyunki mujhe asal mein pata nahi tha ki kya poochna hai.


Master ji: Madam, mujhe nahi pata aap yeh kahaan se kharidti hain, yeh toh rassi ki tarah simat rahi hai.


Main thodi der sochi aur socha ki is boodhe aadmi se sach bolne mein koi harz nahi hai aur silai karne wala hi woh ek vyakti hai jo meri antarvastra ki samasya ka hal nikaal sakta hai. Is soch ke saath, saari sharm chod kar, maine Master ji ko bata diya.


Master ji: Yeh koi samasya nahi hai Madam. Us dher ko dekho. Kam se kam tees chalis antarvastra wahan hain aur unme se ek bhi aisi nahi jo aapki tarah beech mein ghus jaati ho. Ramlal, wahan se ek laao, main Madam ko samjhaata hoon.


Main ab swabhavik sharm ki wajah se do purushon ke saamne apni antarvastra ke baare mein baat karne se kaafi ghabraayi hui thi. Maine jaldi se Master ji ka dhyan badalne ki koshish ki.


Main: Master ji, kripya meri priority samajh lijiye. Pehle mera blouse theek kijiye. Main is tarah hamesha khadi nahi reh sakti. Agar aap yeh pehle kar den toh…


Master ji: Sahi, sahi Madam, mujhe pehle aapka blouse hi khatam karna chahiye.

Main kaafi tez saans le rahi thi aur apne aap hi taangein thodi faila kar khadi ho gayi thi, kyunki mujhe mehsoos ho raha tha ki meri yoni mein halka geelapan ban raha hai. Master ji ne mere blouse ki peeth ko khinch kar dekha ki yeh kitna dhila hai. Is prakriya mein unhone apni ungliyon se meri chikni peeth ko bhi ragda. Mujhe mehsoos hua ki unhone mere blouse ki peeth ko khinch liya hai aur unki garam saans meri nangi peeth par pad rahi thi. Turant hi unke garam sparsh aur saans ne mere chuchukon ko stan bandhan ke andar uchal diya. Main soch rahi thi ki Master ji ne mera stan bandhan ka patta andar saaf dekh liya hoga, kyunki unhone blouse ki peeth ko kaafi khinch liya tha.


Main thodi asukoon mehsoos kar rahi thi aur thoda hil gayi, jisse aur gadbad ho gayi kyunki meri gol nitamb ka globa seedhe Master ji ke janghiya kshetra se takra gaya aur mujhe unki mazboot ling unki lungi ke andar mehsoos hui jo sir utha rahi thi. Unhone bhi meri bhari nitamb ki mazbooti ko zaroor mehsoos kiya hoga. Main laal ho gayi aur khud par muskurayi ki unki umar ke hisaab se unki ling ki sakhti dekh kar.


Master ji: Madam, aapki peeth par bhi kaafi dhila hai. Ramlal, peeth par saat dori U aur side par chaar dori U.


Main sahmat mein sir hila di. Master ji phir mere saamne aa gaye aur unhone apna chehra mere blouse ki taraf jhuka diya. Ab itna kareeb hone ki wajah se woh meri stanon ko upar neeche hote saaf dekh paa rahe the. Unhone fitting check karne ke bahane apna chehra mere aamon ke aur bhi kareeb kar diya. Master ji ab mujhse itne paas the ki mujhe unki saans mere stanon par padti mehsoos ho rahi thi. Mainne kuch bhi bura nahi maana kyunki mujhe pata tha unki nazar kamzor hai.


Master ji: Madam, yeh aage se bhi dhila hai.


Unhone yeh keh kar mera blouse aage se thoda khinch kar dekha ki aage se kitna dhila hai. Jaise hi Master ji ne mera blouse khinch liya, maine dekha ki woh badmash Ramlal ki aankhein bahar aa gayi kyunki drishya bahut vasna poorna tha.


Master ji: Madam, ab aap haath upar uthaiye aur isi sthiti mein rahiye jab tak main naap leta hoon.


Maine haath upar kiye aur swabhavik roop se mera mazboot stan blouse ke upar se aur zyada ubhar aaya aur meri chhed in dono purushon ke saamne aur zyada prakat ho gayi. Chunki main paseena bhi nikal rahi thi aur haath failaye hone ki wajah se aage se bhi mera stan bandhan ka baharline saaf dikhai de raha tha. Master ji ne ab apni dayi madhya ungli meri ubharti bayi stan ki side par rakhi aur anguthi lagbhag mere chuchuk par pahunch gayi. Is anokhe vasna poorna haath naap se main spasht sihar si gayi. Yeh aadmi mere saamne khade hokar mere stan ko seedhe chhoo raha tha naap ke naam par aur mujhe ise anumati deni pad rahi thi. Dhanyavaad bhagwan yeh tezi se khatam ho gaya aur phir Master ji ne madhya ungli ko mere stan ke beech laakar jahan anguthi thi, wahan se hooks tak khinch diya.


Master ji: Ramlal, cup poora ek H aur chaar hissa.


Ramlal ne usey note kiya aur Master ji ki khinchi ungliyon ko dori se naap kar note kar liya.


Master ji: Madam, ab mujhe yeh jaanna hai ki aap blouse kitna tight chahti hain taaki aapko sukoon rahe.


Main sir hila di bina jaane ki woh yeh kaise samajhenge.


Master ji: Aapko thoda ajeeb lag sakta hai, lekin pehli baar naap lene ka yahi mera tareeka hai. Madam, bas yeh soch lijiye ki mera haath aapke blouse ka cover hai. Main dheere dheere dabaoonga aur aapko sirf is samay sanket karna hai jab aapko cup par tightness sabse zyada sukoon wali lage.


Oh bhagwan! Yeh boodha badmash kya keh raha hai! Woh ab khule roop se mera stan pakadne wala hai! Aur usey lagta hai ki yeh ek vivahit athhaais saal ki stri ke liye ‘thoda ajeeb’ hai. Main kisi bhi purush ko aisa karte dekh kar thappad maar deti. Mujhe iska virodh karna pada.


Main: Lekin Master ji, kya iska koi aur tareeka nahi hai…


Master ji ne phir mujhe samjhaane ki koshish ki.


Master ji: Madam, aap ashram wale battis aakaar ke blouse se yeh samasya jhel rahi hain. Woh patli stri par naap liya gaya tha, isliye agar aap exact aakaar nahi dengi toh yeh wahan dhila ya bahut tight ho jaayega.


Main: Master ji, asal mein mujhe patti se kaam chalta toh behtar hota. Kripya.


Maine arzi bhari awaaz mein kaha. Mujhe nahi pata Master ji ke dimag mein kya aaya lekin unhone meri baat maan li!


Master ji: Theek hai, theek hai Madam, agar aap asukoon hain toh main zabardasti nahi karunga. Main aapke cup aakaar ke hisaab se sil dunga. Yeh thoda dhila ya tight pad sakta hai aur aapko usey theek karna padega.

Main bahut rahat mehsoos kar rahi thi. Aur tabhi ek bhayaanak ghatna ho gayi. Ramlal zor se chillaya aur mere paas kood pada, lagbhag mujhse takraate hue. Master ji bhi do kadam peeche hat gaye aur mera haath pakad kar mujhe peeche khinch liya. Shuru mein mujhe kuch nahi dikha, lekin jab maine darwaze ki taraf dekha toh wahan do saanp khade the.


Ramlal: Yeh nag hai Master ji. Savadhan rahiye.


Master ji: Haan, maine dekha hai. Ab koi bhi hilna nahi chahiye.


Saanp lagbhag darwaze ki raksha kar rahe the aur agar woh hamari taraf aage badhe toh kahin hilne ki jagah bhi nahi thi kyunki kamra bahut chhota tha. Saanp kaafi bade the aur dheere dheere apna sir hilate hue hum par nazar rakhe hue the. Itne paas saanp dekh kar main bahut dar gayi thi. Ramlal bhi bahut ghabraaya hua lag raha tha, lekin Master ji相对 taur par shaant the. Master ji ne kaha ki unhe yahan pehle bhi saanp dikhe the lekin kabhi kamre ke andar aise nahi.


Agle kuch minute tak Master ji ne kai tareeke try kiye jaise unki taraf badhna ya un par kuch phenkna, lekin woh saanpon ko hatane mein asafal rahe.


Ab main paseene se tar ho rahi thi, garmi ki wajah se aur dar ki wajah se bhi.


Master ji: In saanpon se chhutkara paane ka sirf ek hi tareeka hai. Hamein unhe doodh dena hoga, shayad woh peekar chale jaayen, warna kabhi bhi ham par hamla kar sakte hain.


Maine bhi socha ki yeh achha vichar hai aur shayad is bhayaanak sthiti se nikalne ka yahi ek maatra raasta hai.


Ramlal: Lekin Master ji, mujhe doodh laane ke liye bahar jaana padega, lekin woh darwaze par hain aur agar main kuch bewakoofi karne ki koshish ki toh zaroor kaat lenge.


Main: Sahi keh rahe hain Master ji. Koi bahar nahi ja sakta. Phir kya karen?


Master ji thodi der soch kar bole, “Madam, aap hi hamein is sthiti se bacha sakti hain.”


Main? Main bahut aascharya chakit reh gayi. Main is sthiti mein madad kaise kar sakti hoon?


Master ji: Madam, aapke paas swabhavik doodh hai. Kripya kuch doodh nikaliye aur in saanpon ko pilaiye, tabhi shayad saanp chale jaayen.


Main sun sun kar stun reh gayi!


Yeh boodha badmash kya keh raha hai? Mujhe apne stanon se doodh nichod kar in saanpon ko pilana hai! Main sandeh mein pad gayi. Lekin is bhayaanak sthiti ki wajah se mere dimag mein koi aur vikalp bhi nahi aa raha tha. Meri prakat chhed wale hisse par paseene ki boondein thi aur main samajh rahi thi ki is asaadhaaran sthiti ki wajah se mere poore shareer se paseena bahut zyada nikal raha tha.


Master ji: Madam, kripya shaant dimag se sochiye. Doodh in saanpon ko santusht kar dega aur hum bach sakte hain. Aapke stanon se yeh nikaalne mein sirf kuch minute lagenge.


Ramlal: Madam, kripya. Mere paas khaane ke liye ek katora hai jisme aap doodh nikaal sakti hain.


Main sthiti samajh gayi, lekin chunki main abhi tak santanheen thi, isliye mere stanon mein doodh nahi bana tha. Yeh dono purush yeh nahi jaante the. Mere paas koi aur chaara nahi tha sirf sach bataane ke alawa.


Main: Master ji, matlab err… mera abhi tak baccha nahi hua hai. Isliye aap samajh sakte hain shayad ki…


Master ji kaafi chatur the aur turant samajh gaye aur bole, “Oh! Main samajh gaya Madam, lekin phir toh akeli ummeed bhi chali gayi!”


Main bahut dhanyavaad mehsoos kar rahi thi ki Master ji ne mujhe turant samajh liya, lekin woh badmash Ramlal mere peeche pada tha.


Ramlal: Lekin Madam, maine suna hai ki agar stanon par uchit chusai ki jaaye toh kunwari striyan bhi doodh nikaal sakti hain.


Main: Bas chup rahiye! Master ji, kripya…


Master ji: Ramlal, bakwas mat karo. Tumhara matlab kya hai? Tum Madam ke stan chooso aur doodh nikal aayega? Doodh toh tabhi banega jab Madam kam se kam ek baar garbhavati hongi. Kya aapne nahi suna ki Madam abhi tak garbhavati nahi hui hain.


Main bahut sharminda mehsoos kar rahi thi kyunki Master ji ne saamaanya shabdon mein nahi kaha balki Ramlal ko mere seedhe udaharan se samjhaaya. Main ek pakki vivahit stri hone ke naate un shabdon mein chhupi garami se bach nahi paayi aur mere stanon mein striyatva ki tightness mehsoos hone lagi. Main kuch sharm ki wajah se Master ji ki taraf seedhe nahi dekh paa rahi thi aur apne bhari saans ko sahne ke liye stan bandhan ko side se samayojit kar rahi thi.


Saath hi main paseene se tar ho rahi thi aur mera safed stan bandhan ab blouse ke upar se bahut saaf dikhai de raha tha aur neeche bhi main ashleel dikhti ja rahi thi kyunki meri patli petticoat ab paseene ki boondon se bheeg kar meri janghon se chipak rahi thi. Main apni aankhon ke kone se neeche dekhi aur samajh gayi ki meri petticoat meri achhe se bani janghon se ashleel tareeke se chipak rahi thi. Maine petticoat ke kapde ko anichchha se khinch kar jhatka diya taaki yeh un purushon ko bahut spasht na lage.


Ek baat mujhe pareshan kar rahi thi ki saanp hamari taraf aage nahi badh rahe the. Woh dono sirf darwaze par hi khade the. Woh seedhe khade hokar dheere dheere apna sir hila rahe the. Aur unki is ranneetik sthiti ki wajah se kisi ke liye bhi kamre se bahar nikalna kaat liye jaaye bina asambhav tha.


Ramlal: Lekin Master ji, ab kya karen?


Kuch der tak sannata tha aur phir Master ji ke paas ek vichar aaya jo maine apni zindagi mein sabse ajeeb aur vichitra suna tha.


Master ji: Eureka!


Boodha aadmi lagbhag kood pada aur Ramlal aur main dono uski pratikriya dekh kar aascharya chakit reh gaye.


Master ji: Ramlal, kripya dhyaan se suno. Tum hamein bacha sakte ho.


Ramlal mujh jitna hi sandeh mein tha.


Master ji: Dhyaan se suno. Mere hisaab se saanpon ko doodh dene aur unhe hatane ka sirf ek hi tareeka dikhai de raha hai. Lekin chunki Madam ke stanon mein abhi doodh nahi bana hai, isliye mera yeh vichar hai.


Woh ruke. Main soch rahi thi ki woh ab kya karne wale hain!


Master ji: Madam, yeh saanp doodh aur safed drav mein antar nahi kar paayenge. Isliye mera vichar hai ki hum saanpon ko safed drav se dhokha de sakte hain jo asal mein doodh nahi hai. Ramlal, tum yahan swayam krida karo aur apna drav katore mein nikaalo aur hum us safed drav se saanpon ko dhokha denge.


Kamre mein sannata chha gaya tha, sirf saanpon ki halki si phunkaar sunai de rahi thi. Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kya kahun. Halanki maine mann hi mann vichar ki sarahna ki lekin vyavahaarik roop se bahut dar rahi thi. Ek anjaan madhyavayask nichli varg ka purush mere saamne swayam krida karega, ek athhaais saal ki pakki stri ke saamne; woh bhi vivahit!


Main ab bahut bechain aur asukoon mehsoos kar rahi thi aur virodh bhi nahi kar paa rahi thi kyunki mere paas is sthiti se nikalne ka koi aur raasta nahi tha. Saanpon ko doodh dekar unhe hatane ka vichar mujhe sabse buddhimaan lag raha tha.


Ramlal: Master ji, kya yeh kaam karega?


Master ji: Jab tak hum prayas nahi karte, kuch kaam nahi karta Ramlal. Madam, mujhe pata hai aapke liye yeh thoda asukoon hoga, lekin chunki aapke stanon mein doodh nahi hai, aap bhi samajh sakti hain…


Main: Main samajh gayi Master ji.


Aur main aur kya kehti? Is vichar ke sirf vichar se hi mujhe teevra uttejan ho raha tha aur usme aur badhotri isliye ho rahi thi kyunki main kaafi der se poori tarah se vastra pahne bhi nahi thi.


Master ji: Ramlal, samay barbaad mat karo, kabhi bhi saanp hamari taraf badh sakte hain.


Ramlal: Master ji, main ise jaldi kaise kar sakta hoon? Mujhe samay chahiye. Mujhe sochna padega.


Is tippani par main hasi rok nahi paayi aur Ramlal shayad is ‘garam’ mudde par meri sakaratmak pratikriya dekh kar utsahit ho gaya.


Ramlal: Madam, yeh aadmi toh bhool bhi gaya hoga ki usne aakhri baar ‘woh’ kab kiya tha aur yeh mujhse jaldi karne ko keh raha hai.


Main phir se uski tippani par hasi, halanki mujhe nahi hasna chahiye tha, lekin is vikas par main kaafi uttejit mehsoos kar rahi thi. Mujhe bilkul andaaza nahi tha ki Uday ke saath ashram se nikalne se pehle jo aushadhi maine li thi, uska bhi mujh par asar ho raha tha.


Master ji: Theek hai, theek hai, agar zaroorat padi toh main tumhe dikha dunga ki main ab bhi kya kar sakta hoon.


Ramlal: Aapko toh pakka dil ka daura pad jaayega Master ji. Kya main galat hoon Madam?


Mujhe is nichli varg ki gandi baatcheet par muskurana pada aur sir hilaana pada. Ramlal ab shuru hone wala tha aur mera dil zor zor se dhadak raha tha kyunki mere chuchuk stan bandhan ke andar poori tarah sakht ho chuke the. Ramlal deewar ki taraf muh karke lungi utaar di, ab woh sirf apni janghiya aur baniyan mein tha. Maine dekha ki usne dono haath apni janghiya ki taraf le jaakar deewar ki taraf muh karke prakriya shuru kar di. Woh baar baar sir ghuma kar darwaze par saanpon ko bhi dekh raha tha.


Kuch palon baad usne haqiqat sweekaar ki.


Ramlal: Master ji, mujhe kuch bhi soch nahi aa raha. In saanpon ki wajah se dar mere dimag mein bahut hai. Meri ling khadi nahi ho rahi Master ji.


Sannata chha gaya. Ramlal ab hamari taraf muh karke tha aur woh apni ling ko janghiya ke andar pakde hue tha aur main uski sthiti saaf dekh paa rahi thi. Uski janghiya patle kapde ki thi aur maine dekha ki uski ling bade kele ki tarah latak rahi thi.


Master ji: Hmm. Ab kya karen? Madam?


Mere paas kuch nahi tha bolne ko aur main kuch bol paati usse pehle Master ji ne mujhe chakit kar diya.


Master ji: Theek hai Ramlal, ek kaam karo. Tum Madam ki taraf dekho aur swayam krida karne ki koshish karo. Ek stri ko dekhne se tumhari madad ho sakti hai.


Main: Kya?


Master ji: Madam, agar aapko dekhne se uski madad hoti hai toh hone do. Hamein doodh chahiye bas.


Main: Lekin Master ji yeh bilkul…


Main itni sharminda mehsoos kar rahi thi ki meri awaaz ruk gayi. Meri kamzor virodh in purushon ko rokne ke liye kaafi nahi thi.


Master ji: Madam kripya sahayog kijiye. Madam, agar aapko bahut sharm aa rahi hai toh aap ek kaam kar sakti hain, aap deewar ki taraf muh karke khadi ho jaaiye aur Ramlal aapko peeche se dekh kar swayam krida karne ki koshish karega.


Ramlal: Haan Madam, main yeh try karunga.


Woh badmash ab bahut durbuddhi bhari muskurahat ke saath muskurane laga. Koi aur vikalp na dekh kar maine haan kar di aur deewar ki taraf do kadam badh kar Master ji aur Ramlal ki taraf peeth karke khadi ho gayi.


Main bilkul chup thi kyunki main pehle kabhi ya shaadi ke baad kabhi aisi sthiti mein nahi thi. Main sadak par ya ikattha mein purushon ko meri khadi chuchiyon ya hilti nitamb par dekhte zaroor dekhti thi lekin aisa jaan bujh kar kabhi nahi hua tha. Ramlal ab meri bhari nitamb ko ghoor raha hoga kyunki main deewar ki taraf muh karke khadi thi. Mujhe yaad aaya ki ek baar jab main apne shayan kaksha mein baal sanwaar rahi thi tab mere pati ne petticoat se dhaki meri nitamb ko dekh kar kaha tha ‘bahut bada pakka kaddu lag raha hai pyari’. Mujhe nahi pata ki Ramlal bhi wahi soch raha tha. Meri petticoat ki nada meri kamar aur kati ke curve par bandhi hui thi. Kaash aaj maine usey thoda upar nabhi ki taraf bandhi hoti. Meri ubhari nitamb goliyan bahut aakarshak dikh rahi hongi aur usme aur badhotri isliye ki meri antarvastra bahut pehle hi meri nitamb khand mein rassi ki tarah ghus chuki thi.


Ramlal: Madam, aap peeche se bahut sundar lag rahi hain. Dhanyavaad bhagwan, aapne sari nahi pahni hai, woh toh aapke khajane ko bahut chhupati hai.


Master ji: Madam, Ramlal bilkul sahi keh raha hai. Aapki peeth bahut aakarshak hai.


Master ji ab Ramlal ke saath milkar meri kaya ki prashansa karne lage. Mere paas kuch nahi tha bolne ko aur main sirf keh saki, “Kripya jaldi kijiye.”


Kuch second ke gap ke baad us badmash Ramlal ki taraf se ek aur prarthna aayi.


Ramlal: Madam, ab bhi mera dhyan nahi ban paa raha, yeh saanp itna sir hila rahe hain ki meri aankhein unki taraf chali ja rahi hain.


Main: Isme main kya kar sakti hoon?


Main ab thodi chid gayi thi, lekin Master ji ne jaldi sthiti ko sambhal liya.


Master ji: Ramlal, tum Madam ke kareeb aa jao aur main saanpon par nazar rakhta hoon. Dar mat. Madam, aap bhi uski thodi madad kijiye taaki woh jaldi swayam krida kar sake.


Main: Aur main kya karun?


Master ji: Madam, aap bahut kuch kar sakti hain. Abhi toh aap murti ki tarah khadi hain Madam. Mere vichar se agar aap thoda sahayog karengi aur bas err… matlab agar aap apni kamar ko taal se hila dengi toh Ramlal ke liye kaam aasaan ho jaayega.


Main: Aapka matlab kya hai Master ji?


Master ji: Madam kuch zyada nahi. Jaise saanp lagataar sir hila rahe hain aur hum par nazar rakh rahe hain, aap bas deewar ko pakad kar apni kamar ko nrityaangi ki tarah taal se hilaiye. Madam, kripya Ramlal ki sthiti ko bhi samajhiye – peeche zehreele saanp aur hum usse keh rahe hain ki…


Main: Theek hai, theek hai main samajh gayi.


Aur maine kya samajha? Ki mujhe apni petticoat se dhaki kati ko taal se hilana hai taaki yeh badmash Ramlal uttejit ho aur uski ling khadi ho jaaye. Maine socha ki ab samay barbaad karne ka koi fayda nahi aur Master ji ke kaha anusaar shuru kar diya. Maine dono haathon ko apni aankhon ke star tak thoda upar uthaya, deewar pakdi aur apni kati ko pravahit tareeke se hilane lagi. Mujhe apne vidyalaya ke din yaad aa gaye jab main nritya kaksha mein jaati thi aur aaj woh anubhav kaam aa raha tha!


Master ji aur Ramlal dono ne meri kati ke hilne par sakaratmak pratikriya di aur mujhe unhe batana pada ki mere kishoravastha ke dinon mein main nritya seekhti thi. Maine ek pal ke liye sir ghuma kar dekha aur dekha ki Ramlal ab bahut kareeb aa chuka tha aur uski aankhein meri hilti nitamb par atki hui thi. Main ab yeh sab karte hue bahut garam mehsoos kar rahi thi. Main apni kamar ghumati rahi aur peeche se Ramlal ki gehri saanson ki awaaz sun rahi thi kyunki kamre mein aur koi awaaz nahi thi. Main khud bhi ab uttejit hoti ja rahi thi aur stan bandhan mein tightness mehsoos kar rahi thi kyunki ek purush ko swayam krida karne ke liye apni nitamb nrityaangi ki tarah hilane ka vichar hi bahut uttejit karne wala tha!

Kuch palon baad jab mujhe kuch awaaz nahi aayi toh main bechain ho gayi aur Master ji aur Ramlal ki taraf ghum gayi. Mujhe ehsaas hua ki is asaadhaaran lekin vasna poorna sthiti se utpann tapish ki wajah se meri yoni se drav behna shuru ho gaya tha. Ramlal ki khadi ling ko uski janghiya ke andar ubhari hui dandi ki tarah dekh kar main laal ho gayi. Woh dono haathon se lagataar usey ragad raha tha. Woh drishya mujhe bahut lubhanee lag raha tha aur kisi bhi pakki stri ke liye yeh bahut swagat yogya drishya tha. Ramlal meri taraf ghumte dekh kar thoda chakit reh gaya aur hichkichaate hue bola.


Ramlal: Abhi err… nahi hua Madam.


Main is sthiti se ab anand mehsoos kar rahi thi aur mujhe badmaashi karne ka mann kar raha tha. Mujhe aascharya ho raha tha ki mere andar yeh kya ho raha hai? Main itni grihini hoon, kapdon aur vyavhaar mein itni rakshatmak, pradarshan se itni sharmili, purush sparsh aur malish se itni sanskrit; mujhe pata hi nahi tha ki woh aushadhi ab bhi mere indriyon ko niyantrit kar rahi thi. Ramlal ki aankhon mein shayad pehli baar seedhe dekh kar main muskurayi.


Main: Ramlal, isme aur kitna samay lagega?


Master ji: Madam, mere vichar se usey aapki thodi aur madad ki zaroorat hai.


Main: Bataiye Master ji, main jyotishi toh hoon nahi, uske mann ko nahi padh sakti.


Main Ramlal ki khadi ling se apni nazar hata hi nahi paa rahi thi. Us ‘tai yaar dandi’ ko dekh kar main sach mein bahut garam ho rahi thi aur tez saans le rahi thi, meri athhaais saal ki jawan kaya us ling ke liye tan rahi thi.


Master ji: Madam, aap apni aadhe nritya wali sthiti jaari rakhiye aur kripya Ramlal ko aapki… par chhoone ki anumati de dijiye.


Master ji jaan bujh kar vakya adhura chhod diye taaki meri pratikriya dekh sakein. Woh anubhavi purush the aur turant samajh gaye ki ab mujhe koi vishesh virodh nahi tha kyunki main ab poori tarah striyatva ki ‘tapish’ mein thi.


Master ji: Madam, main vaada karta hoon woh aapko aur kahin nahi chhuega. Mere vichar se isse uska drav jaldi nikal aayega.


Saadhaaran paristhitiyon mein agar koi purush meri nitamb ko chhoone ki baat kare toh main tight thappad maar deti, halanki yeh bilkul anjaan nahi tha ki purushon ne kabhi meri nitamb par haath nahi lagaya ho. Bhari train aur bus mein maine shak nahi ki unhone meri sari ya salwar ke upar se meri mazboot goliyon par haath lagaya ho, upar aur neeche dono jagah, lekin aaj ki ghatna se uski tulna nahi ho sakti.


Sach bataun toh ab mujhe chhooye jaane ka mann kar raha tha. Kamre ki garmi aur shareer ki tapish ki wajah se mujhe apna blouse aur stan bandhan poora utaar dene ka bhi mann kar raha tha. Isne sirf mere stan bandhan ko paseene se geela nahi kiya tha balki meri ubharti mansal cheez stan bandhan ke bandhan todne ki koshish kar rahi thi. Maine turant us prastav ko maan liya lekin spasht roop se yeh dikhane ki koshish ki ki main asahmat hoon.


Main: Theek hai Master ji, jaise aap kahen, lekin kripya jaldi kijiye.


Main phir deewar ki taraf muh karke khadi ho gayi aur saamne deewar pakad kar nrityaangi ki tarah apni kati hilane lagi. Is baar main is kriya ko karne ke liye aur zyada utsuk thi aur apni kati ko golakar mein aur tez hilane lagi. Main bahut gandi lag rahi hongi – ek athhaais saal ki pakki kaya wali stri blouse aur petticoat pahne hue apni kati ko aise hila rahi hoon, isliye swabhavik roop se Ramlal bhi turant taiyar ho gaya aur mujhe turant hi mehsoos hua ki usne meri dayi nitamb goliya par apni pakad bana li hai.


Ramlal: Kya nitamb hai aapka Madam. Kitni chikni aur mazboot hai.


Master ji: Jab dekhne mein itni achhi hai toh swaad mein bhi achhi hogi.


Maine Master ji aur Ramlal ki hasi suni. Ramlal har baar jab main apni kati dayi aur bayi taraf hilati, tab meri nitamb goliyon par zor se chot maar raha tha. Uske chot mere nitamb goliyon par pad rahi thi jo sirf patli petticoat se dhaki hui thi kyunki meri antarvastra bahut pehle hi meri nitamb khand mein ghus chuki thi aur mujhe poora vishvas tha ki Ramlal apni ungliyon se yeh mehsoos kar raha hoga ki sirf patle kapde ki ek parat uski ungliyon aur ek pacchees saal se upar ki stri ki nangi nitamb goliyon ke beech hai.


Master ji: Madam, aap peeche se bahut vasna poorna lag rahi hain. Ramlal, tum bahut bhagyashali ho.


Ramlal: Master ji, aap is umar mein yeh sab cheezein nahi dekhte aur behtar hoga ki saanpon par nazar rakhen.


Hum teeno uski tippani par has pade. Main besharm tareeke se has rahi thi, apni gol nitamb hila rahi thi aur us badmash ke random choton ko apni nitamb par lene de rahi thi. Mujhe soch rahi thi ki agar koi meri petticoat ko kamar tak upar kar de toh meri nitamb goliyan is zor daar choton se laal ho chuki hongi. Meri yoni ab poori tarah geeli ho chuki thi aur bahut bhari matra mein drav beh raha tha. Jaldi hi mujhe ehsaas hua ki Ramlal ne apni dono haathon ko apni ling se hata liya hai aur ab meri nitamb ko ragad raha hai. Usne meri har nitamb goliya ko apni ek ek hatheli mein pakad kar air horn ki tarah dabane laga tha jabki main uske sakht sparsh ki wajah se aur zor se apni nitamb hila rahi thi.


Master ji: Ramlal, jaldi karo, saanp aage badh rahe hain!


Master ji ki taraf se chetavni aayi. Mujhe nahi pata Ramlal ne yeh suna bhi ya nahi kyunki woh poori tarah meri nitamb ko dono haathon se masalne mein vyast tha. Main us purush sparsh se jo mere atyant sanskrit angon par ho raha tha, usse anand ki leheron mein kasak rahi thi aur surat peeda mein halke halke moan kar rahi thi. Tabhi mujhe mehsoos hua ki Ramlal ne apni hatheliyan meri nitamb se hata li hain aur maine socha ki shayad usne Master ji ki chetavni sun li hogi.


Bilakul nahi. Ramlal ab aur zyada maang raha tha! Abhi tak woh mujhe chhoo aur daba raha tha aur ab bina kisi anumati liye usne meri petticoat ko peeche se upar khinchana shuru kar diya aur meri gori taangein prakat kar di.


Main: Yeh kya kar rahe ho. Ruko. Ruko. Master ji!


Main uske kapdon ke upar se chhoone ka har ansh anand le rahi thi lekin ab achanak is badmash ke dwara molested hone se dar gayi. Main koi badi virodh kar paati usse pehle usne mere peeche hone ka fayda uthaya aur meri petticoat ko lagbhag meri janghon tak upar utha diya aur apni khurduri hatheliyon se meri janghon ko pakad liya. Uski ungliyan meri madhya jangha ki nangi chamdi ko chhoo rahi thi aur usne apna chehra meri gol nitamb par rakh diya. Mere liye yeh bahut vasna poorna sthiti thi. Ek purush peeche se mujhe pakde hue, meri poshaak ghutnon tak upar kiye hue, meri mazboot janghon par haath lagaye hue aur saath hi apna chehra meri nitamb par ragad raha tha! Master ji ne beech mein nahi roka aur mujhe is samajhauta sthiti mein kaafi der tak nimn virodh karti hui rahna pada.


Aakhir mein main chillayi jab us badmash ne meri petticoat ke upar se hi meri mazboot nitamb goliya par kaat liya aur apni moti naak meri nitamb khand mein ghusa di. Meri antarvastra wahan pehle se hi ghus chuki thi aur ab woh apni naak zor se wahan ghusa raha tha aur sach bataun toh yeh bahut zabardast anubhav tha. Saath hi uske haathon ne meri petticoat ke neeche meri nangi janghon ko ghera.


Main: Uuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhh! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!


Main aur sah nahi paayi aur zor zor se jhadne lagi. Mera poora shareer surat anand mein kasak raha tha aur meri antarvastra ke andar ka pad ab poori tarah geela ho chuka tha. Mera virodh kamzor padta ja raha tha aur Ramlal ne avsar dekhte hue bina der kiye apni ungliyan meri resham jaisi janghon par ferte hue upar upar chadh gaya aur mere sabse niji ang ko chhoo liya. Halanki meri nitamb aur aage petticoat se achhe se dhaki hui thi lekin Ramlal ke haathon ne andar mujhe nanga kar diya.


Maine apne pati ke saath surat sukh zaroor anubhav kiya tha lekin yeh poori tarah alag tha, ek naya surat anubhav jaise is asaadhaaran paristhiti aur logon ki wajah se. Ramlal ne bhi turant hi apni ling se drav nikaal diya aur is baar mujhe uski ‘ling darshan’ bhi mila jab usne woh garam safed drav katore mein daala. Yeh pehli baar tha jab main apne pati ke alawa kisi purush ki ling dekh rahi thi! Us kaali dandi se safed drav tapakta dekh kar mera dil zor zor se dhadak raha tha. Oh! Kya drishya tha! Saari striyan iska anand leti hain lekin yeh waste hone ke bajaye unke madhu kosh mein jaaye.


Main ab Guru ji ke subah diye gaye mann niyantran ka prayas karne lagi. Main Guru ji ke anusaar do dinon mein chaar charam sukh mein se apna pehla charam sukh already paa chuki thi. Maine jaldi se apne vastra samayojit kiye, halanki ab samayojit karne ko zyada bacha bhi nahi tha. Ramlal wahan aadha nanga khada tha, uski ling phir se kele ki tarah latak rahi thi kyunki drav nikalne ke baad uski sakhti chali gayi thi. Meri sthiti bhi Ramlal ki ling jaisi thi – poori tarah thaki hui.


Master ji ne ab Ramlal se katora liya aur surakshit doori banaye hue us drav ko saanpon ko prastut kiya aur mere aascharya ke beech saanp usey peene lage! Lekin kuch pi kar unhone apna sir katore se upar uthaya aur dhanyavaad bhagwan wapas muh karke shaant tareeke se kamre se bahar chale gaye. Hum teeno bahut rahat mehsoos kar rahe the aur poori ghatna yahin khatam ho gayi.


Uske baad zyada kuch nahi hua sirf Master ji ne notebook mein note kiye naapon ke anusaar mujhe behtar fitting wala blouse de diya aur maine us blouse ko in dono purushon ke saamne pahna – apna purana blouse utaar kar unhe apni gori chikni peeth aur madhya shareer ka spasht drishya dete hue, jisme sirf mera stan bandhan ka patta cover tha, phir maine apni sari pahni aur jaane se pehle…


Master ji: Theek hai Madam, jo achha ant mein khatam hota hai woh sab achha hota hai. Hum saanpon se bach gaye. Aapke sahayog ke liye dhanyavaad. Lekin agar is naye blouse mein koi samasya mehsoos ho toh mujhe bata dena. Main Uday ke through do aur bhej dunga.


Main: Dhanyavaad Master ji.


Master ji: Aur Madam, jab ashram se dopahar mein samay mile toh yahan aa sakti hain, main aapki antarvastra ki samasya bhi hal kar dunga.


Main ne sir hila diya aur kamre se bahar aa gayi. Main kaafi thaki hui thi aur abhi jo kuch is silai karne wale ke kamre mein hua tha uske baare mein kaafi sharminda bhi mehsoos kar rahi thi.

Uday das minute baad phir silai karne wale ke sthan par aa gaya aur tab tak mujhe Ramlal ki meri jawan kaya par ghoorti nazron ko sahna pada. Ashram laut kar sabse pehle maine snaan kiya aur jadi booti jal ne mujh par chamatkar kar diya. Main phir se bahut taaza mehsoos kar rahi thi aur sach bataun toh mujhe dobara charam sukh paane ki ichchha ho rahi thi. Usse pehle Nirmal pad lene aaya jo main apni antarvastra ke andar pahne hui thi. Usne bataya ki Guru ji har bahar jaane ke baad naya pad de denge. Dopahar mein bhojan ke baad maine vishraam kiya aur baar baar Master ji aur Ramlal ke saath jo hua tha usey yaad kar rahi thi. Master ji ka mera blouse naap lena, Ramlal ke swayam krida ke liye mera aadha nritya karna aur ant mein Ramlal ka mere nichle angon par sakht sparsh — in sab sochon se mere kaan laal ho rahe the. In vasna poorna vicharon ki wajah se mujhe theek se neend nahi aa rahi thi.
 
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Chapter 3 : Auto Mein Triveni


Lagbhag saade paanch baje Meenakshi mere kamre mein aayi.
Meenakshi: Madam, kya aap bahut thaki hui hain?
Main: Nahi nahi. Ulte main kaafi…
Main ek pal ke liye ruk gayi. Kya usey pata hai silai karne wale ke sthan par kya hua tha? Jab main Uday ke saath wapas aayi thi tab woh kuch nahi jaanta lag raha tha kyunki usne mujhse kuch nahi poocha tha. Main Meenakshi se seedhe poochhne mein bahut sharmila mehsoos kar rahi thi halanki woh stri thi.
Meenakshi: Toh theek hai Madam. Aap mela dekhne ja sakti hain, jo yahan bahut prasiddh hai. Woh thoda door hai lekin agar aap abhi nikalengi toh koi samasya nahi hogi.
Main: Kaunsa mela bol rahi ho?
Meenakshi: Madam, yeh saalana mela hai jo paas ke gaon mein lagta hai. Yahan hum sab vyast rahenge, aapko bore ho sakta hai.
Maine socha ki yeh bura vichar nahi hai kyunki abhi ashram mein mere paas kuch vishesh kaam nahi tha. Guru ji aur baaki log bhi vyast rahenge kyunki bahar se bhakt darshan ke liye aane wale the. Isliye maine turant haan kar di.
Meenakshi: Theek hai Madam, yeh lo aapka naya pad. Kripya aushadhi bhi le lijiye. Main paanch minute baad Uday ko bhej dungi jab aap taiyar ho jaayengi.
Meenakshi apni bhari nitamb hilate hue chali gayi. Sach mein is stri ki nitamb bahut aakarshak hai, yeh maine mann hi mann socha. Maine darwaza band kiya aur shauchalaya mein chali gayi. Har baar yeh pad badalna mujhe pareshan kar raha tha. Jaise sab striyan, main bhi baar baar apni antarvastra neeche karne mein bilkul anand nahi le rahi thi. Maine aushadhi li aur shauchalaya mein gayi jahan main ratri vastra badal kar chehra dhoya aur paanch minute mein taiyar ho gayi. Uday phir se mera saathi tha.
Uday: Madam, mela yahan se thoda door hai aur paidal jaane layak nahi hai.
Main: Phir jaane ka kya prabandh hai?
Uday: Madam, hum bail gaadi se jaayenge. Woh abhi aa jaayegi kyunki maine pehle hi usey suchit kar diya tha.
Main: Theek hai. Lekin kitna samay lagega?
Main kabhi bail gaadi mein nahi baithi thi isliye usme baithne ke liye utsuk thi. Gaadi aa gayi aur hum usme baith gaye.
Uday: Madam, isme kuch samay lagega aur raaste mein aap gaon ka drishya anand le sakti hain.
Yeh anubhav bura nahi tha halanki gaadi bahut dheere chal rahi thi. Bahar ka drishya bhi bahut achha tha aur thandi hawa mujhe bahut taaza mehsoos kara rahi thi. Main Master ji ka dhanyavaad kar rahi thi kyunki yeh blouse mere stanon par bahut achhe se fit baith raha tha. Isliye samagra main bahut sukoon mehsoos kar rahi thi.
Uday mujhe mela aur gaon ki itihaas bata raha tha. Lekin aadhe ghante baad bhi jab hum wahan nahi pahunche toh main bechain hone lagi.
Main: Uday, aur kitna samay lagega?
Uday: Madam, humne abhi aadha raasta hi tai kiya hai. Gaadi tez nahi chal sakti isliye kuch samay aur lagega.
Shuru mein theek tha lekin ab ghutne mod kar baithne ki wajah se meri kamar aur ghutnon mein halki peeda hone lagi. Saath hi sadak bahut ubaar khabar wali hone ki wajah se mere stan bra ke tight pakad mein bahut zyada hil rahe the aur har pal mujhe shak ho raha tha ki meri peeth wala stan bandhan ka ankad khul jaayega. Maine apne upari khajane par sari ka pallu theek se lapet liya taaki purush ke saamne savadhani barat sakun. Gaadi ke andar jagah bhi kaafi kam thi aur Uday bhi kareeb baitha tha isliye main zyada hil nahi paa rahi thi aur isi sthiti mein baithi rahi.
Aakhirkaar hum mela pahunch gaye aur wahan pahunchne mein ek ghanta lag gaya. Meri poori kamar aur nitamb mein dard ho raha tha. Maine dekha ki Uday gaadi se utarte hi kuch mukt haath vyayam kar raha tha. Main stri hone ke naate woh sab khule mein nahi kar sakti thi jo Uday kar raha tha. Mere ghutnon, kati aur kamar mein dard tha aur maine socha ki agar main pehle shauchalaya jaaun toh wahan thoda stretch kar sakti hoon taaki mela mein jaane se pehle sukoon mehsoos kar sakun.
Main: Uday, main pehle shauchalaya jaana chahti hoon.
Uday: Theek hai Madam, lekin yeh gaon ka mela hai, mujhe sandeh hai ki alag shauchalaya hoga. Main kisi se poochta hoon.
Uday wapas aaya aur uska jawab nakaratmak tha.
Uday: Madam, yahan aisa koi ‘shauchalaya’ nahi hai, striyan saamaanya taur par dukaanon ke peeche jaati hain.
Main sandeh mein pad gayi kyunki main Uday ko ab yeh nahi bata sakti thi ki main mutra visarjan nahi karna chahti balki khud ko stretch karna chahti hoon. Usne mujhe ek dukaan ke peeche le gaya.
Uday: Madam, main yahan khada rahunga, aap wahan jaakar kar lijiye.
Main poori tarah aascharya chakit reh gayi. Yeh purush mujhse khule sthan par mutra visarjan karne ko kaise keh sakta hai?
Main: Main yahan kaise kar sakti hoon?
Main bilkul vishesh chakit thi. Main das saal ki bachchi toh hoon nahi jo aise mutra visarjan kar sakun? Dukaan ke peeche ek jhaadi thi jiski unchai sirf meri ghutnon tak thi aur shaam ka samay hone ke bawajood drishyata bahut saaf thi. Iske upar meri chinta yeh thi ki sirf Uday hi nahi balki wahan idhar udhar khade kuch gaon wale bhi meri mutra visarjan ki spasht drishya dekh sakte the.
Uday: Madam, yeh gaon hai, sharmaiye mat.
Main: Aapka matlab kya hai? Sirf isliye ki yeh gaon hai, kya aap keh rahe hain ki main yahan khule sthan par apni sari kamar tak upar kar lun aur sharmaun nahi?
Uday: Madam, Madam, kripya gussa mat kijiye. Gaon mein aapko shahar jaisa surakshit shauchalaya nahi milega. Kripya samajhiye.
Main: Uday, dekho, yahan itne log hain. Main yahan besharm hokar baith nahi sakti. Kshama. Chaliye mela dekhte hain.
Uday ne mujhe us khule sthan par mutra visarjan karne ke liye aur samjhaane ki koshish nahi ki aur main ek aur apmaanjanak sthiti se bach gayi. Mela chhote kshetra mein laga tha aur gaon walon se kaafi bhara hua tha, phir bhi kuch alankar, vastra aadi ki dukaanein thi jo mujhe rochak lagi. Mela dekhne mein lagbhag ek ghanta lag gaya kyunki bheed bahut thi. Bheed ki wajah se mujhe Uday ke bahut kareeb chalna pad raha tha aur baar baar meri ‘hamesha khadi’ mazboot chuchiyan uski kohni se ragad rahi thi. Shuru mein maine ise bachane ki koshish ki lekin chalti bheed ki wajah se baad mein maine ise ignore kar diya.
Kuch der baad yeh mere liye samasya ban gaya. Ab mujhe mehsoos ho raha tha ki Uday jaan bujh kar yeh kar raha tha aur apni kohni ko mere blouse se dhake stanon ke sath lagaye hue tha aur chunki stan bandhan ke andar hone ki wajah se woh bahut mazboot the, woh lagataar unhe kohni maar raha tha. Uday ne shayad socha ki main jaan bujh kar uske kareeb chal rahi hoon taaki meri achhe se bani chuchiyan uski kohni se chhuein, lekin asal mein yeh bheed ki wajah se ho raha tha. Sach bataun toh main bhi thoda anand le rahi thi lekin samay ke saath mujhe ehsaas hua ki Uday ab zyada kar raha tha chunki hum jahaan tha woh sarvajanik sthan tha.
Main uske dayi taraf chal rahi thi aur Uday ne ab apni dayi bahon ko mere dayi kandhe par rakh diya jaise bheed se bachane ke liye. Meri poori kaya ab uske purush shareer se lagbhag chipki hui thi. Jaldi hi mujhe samajh aa gaya ki woh kya karne wala hai. Uday ab apni dayi bahon se mujhe kandhe par ghere hue tha jo ab meri stan se sirf ek inch door tha, jaise bheed se bachane ke liye. Aur har aane wale purush ke takraav ka fayda uthate hue woh ab meri chuchiyon ko chhoone aur mehsoos karne laga.
Ek pal mein main kuch bol paati usse pehle Uday ne phir se meri dayi stan ko pakad liya! Is baar woh bahut vishvasi lag raha tha aur mujhe turant aag mein jhonk diya kyunki woh chalte hue apni ungliyan meri stan par rakhe hue tha. Maine neeche apni stan ki taraf dekha aur sharm se dekha ki uski ungliyan mere blouse ke upar se lagbhag dusre parat ki tarah thi. Ab jab bheed aur badh gayi toh Uday ne poora fayda uthaya aur lagbhag apni hatheli se meri gol chuchiyon ki malish karne laga. Is lagataar purush sparsh ki wajah se main ab kaafi uttejit ho rahi thi. Yeh kuch minute tak chalta raha aur samay ke saath Uday ke dabav aur sakht hote ja rahe the aur woh lagbhag mere blouse se dhake mans ko khel raha tha. Ek baar mujhe mehsoos hua ki woh apni ek ungli se mere chuchuk ko blouse aur stan bandhan ke upar se trace karne ki koshish kar raha tha. Maine dhyan diya ki hamare paas se guzarne wale har purush ki nazar Uday ke haath aur meri stanon par thi.
Main aur sah nahi paayi aur sarvajanik sthan par aisa karne dene ke liye bahut sharminda mehsoos kar rahi thi. Ek athhaais saal ki pakki stri hone ke bawajood main uske sparsh ka anand le rahi thi aur meri yoni geeli ho chuki thi lekin yeh maryada ki seema paar kar raha tha kyunki hum khule mein the. Aaj subah jab maine maryada ki saari seema paar ki thi tab bhi main band kshetra mein thi. Mujhe Uday ko uske aage badhne se rokna pada.
Main: Uday, kripya apne aap par niyantran rakho.
Uday: Kshama Madam, lekin bheed bahut badtameez hai, woh aapke shareer par aa rahi hai.
Uday ne apna bahana diya aur main us par bahas nahi karna chahti thi lekin ab mere shareer ki tapish ki wajah se mujhe mutra visarjan ki ichchha hone lagi thi.
Main: Uday, main ek baar shauchalaya jaana chahti hoon. Us samay main nahi…
Maine socha ki vakya poora karne ki zaroorat nahi hai. Uday ne pehle hi apna haath meri stan kshetra se hata liya tha aur ab mujhe ek dukaan ke peeche le gaya. Ab shaam hone ki wajah se andhera ho chuka tha halanki mela mein bijli ke bulb jal rahe the. Maine dekha ki woh sthan poora andhera toh nahi tha lekin door se mela wale log kuch saaf nahi dekh sakte the. Lekin yahan samasya yeh thi ki wahan koi achhi jhaadi bhi nahi thi jiske peeche main baith sakun. Isliye main phir se thodi hichkichayi.
Uday: Madam, ab aap kya wait kar rahi hain?
Main: Kya aap dekh nahi rahe ki yahan ek jhaadi bhi nahi hai.
Uday: Lekin Madam, is andhere mein koi aapko dekh nahi raha hai. Aap us kone mein jaakar…
Main: Kaunsa andhera? Main aapko saaf dekh sakti hoon.
Uday: Madam, chaliye. Theek hai main aapki taraf nahi dekhunga jab aap…
Woh bahut arthapurn tareeke se muskuraya lekin maine uske chhedne ko ignore kiya aur poori tarah sure hone se pehle aur kisi apmaan se bachna chahti thi.
Main: Aur agar koi yahan aa gaya toh?
Uday: Madam, kitna samay lagega? Yeh toh sirf kuch second ki baat hai!
Main bilkul vishvasit nahi thi kyunki mujhe pata tha ki mujhe kuch samay lagega kyunki dusri striyon ki tarah sirf sari upar kar ke baithna aur mutra visarjan kar dena kaam nahi chalega. Mujhe apni antarvastra bhi neeche karni padegi jo kisi stri ke liye jaldi nahi hoti aur uske upar pad bhi theek se rakhna padega.
Uday: Madam, agar aap yahan aise khadi rahengi toh koi sach mein aa sakta hai. Isliye us kone mein jaakar baithiye, main aapki raksha karunga.
Uday itne saadhaaran swar mein bol raha tha jaise uski maujudgi mujhe bilkul matter nahi karti. Mujhe yeh baat achhe se samajh aa gayi ki woh is avsar ko dekhne ka mauka nahi chhodna chahta. Koi bhi purush ek pacchees saal se upar ki stri ko apne saamne mutra visarjan karte dekhne ka avsar zaroor pakad lega. Paristhiti aisi thi ki main bilkul laachaar thi kyunki mujhe kam se kam usey wahan khada rakhna tha taaki dekhe ki koi aa toh nahi raha.
Maine Uday ki aankhon mein chamak dekhi jab usne akhirkaar dekha ki main uske saamne mutra visarjan karne ke liye taiyar ho gayi hoon. Main dukaan ke paas wale kone mein gayi jo Uday se lagbhag das bara feet door tha. Main aur aage nahi ja sakti thi kyunki wahan dusri dukaanon ki roshni aa rahi thi. Maine dheere se Uday ki taraf peeth karke khadi hui aur sach mein bahut sharm mehsoos kar rahi thi lekin mere paas koi aur chaara nahi tha. Main thoda jhuki aur dono haathon se jaldi se apni sari aur petticoat ko kamar tak upar utha diya. Thandi halki hawa mere prakat janghon par pad kar mujhe sihar si de gayi. Meri janghen shareer ki rangat se zyada gori thi jaise zyadatar striyon ki hoti hain aur kaafi achhe se bani aur moti thi. Main ek baar peeche dekhne se khud ko rok nahi paayi ki Uday kya kar raha tha.
Uday: Madam, peeche mat dekhiye. Jaldi kijiye.
Uday meri prakat taangon ko dekh raha tha aur mujhe aadesh de raha tha. Maine dekha ki uska baya haath apni janghiya par tha; woh shayad ek vivahit stri ko aisi samajhauta sthiti mein dekh kar apni ling ragad raha hoga. Maine aur samay barbaad nahi kiya aur jo karna tha kar diya. Maine jaldi se apni antarvastra ghutnon tak neeche ki aur ek haath mein pad pakad kar jab main yeh kar rahi thi tab meri poori nitamb lagbhag prakat thi aur Uday ko meri nangi nitamb ka bhavya drishya mila hoga halanki maine apni sari ko nitamb kshetra par cover banane ki poori koshish ki thi. Jab main baithi toh mujhe pata tha ki meri badi nangi nitamb Uday ke chehre ke saamne poori tarah prakat thi kyunki woh kareeb tha.
Mere mutra visarjan ki phunkaar awaaz meri sharm ko aur badha rahi thi. Main phir peeche dekhne lagi ki koi aa toh nahi raha aur Uday kya kar raha tha lekin aascharya ki baat yeh thi ki maine Uday ko wahan khade nahi dekha! Main us baithi sthiti mein apna sir zyada ghuma nahi sakti thi. Mera mutra visarjan lagbhag poora ho chuka tha aur main bahut rahat mehsoos kar rahi thi kyunki meri mutra visarjan ki phunkaar awaaz mujhe aur sharminda kar rahi thi.
Uday: Madam, savadhan!
Main chakit aur bhayaanit reh gayi jab Uday ki awaaz mere kaan ke bilkul paas sunai di. Main usey ek pal pehle apni peeth par nahi dekh paayi thi kyunki woh ab mere saamne aa chuka tha. Main usey apne saamne dekh kar stun reh gayi kyunki meri poori yoni saath hi meri taangein aur janghen bilkul prakat thi aur main ab bhi mutra visarjan kar rahi thi. Uday meri yoni ke chhed ko upar wale ghane baalon ke saath bahut saaf dekh paa raha tha. Bhagwan! Main apni zindagi mein kabhi aise apmaan ka samna nahi kiya tha. Mera chehra bhi mere utter aascharya aur sharm ko darsha raha tha jab maine Uday ko meri nangi yoni ko khule roop se dekhte dekha.
Uday: Madam, Madam, ghabraaiye mat. Aap asal mein chiunti ke dher par baithi hain isliye main aapko chetavni dena chahta tha.
Main: Aap pehle yahan se hat jaiye.
Uday: Madam, aapne unke dher ko paani de diya hai ab chiuntiyan bahut nikalengi. Isliye bahut savadhan rahiye.
Woh ek inch bhi nahi hata aur uski aankhein apni zindagi ke sabse bade drishya ka anand le rahi thi – saamne se ek pakki stri ko mutra visarjan karte dekhna. Main aur us tarah baithi nahi reh sakti thi aur ab bhi mere chhed se mutra ki boondein nikal rahi thi aur jaldi se apni sari neeche ki jabki main apne daye haath mein pad pakde hue thi. Uday ne mujhe us chiunti ke dher se bahar kheench liya aur maine dekha ki woh jo keh raha tha woh bilkul sach tha. Laal chiuntiyan poori jagah fail chuki thi jo mutra se uttejit ho kar bahar nikal rahi thi.
Main theek se chal nahi paa rahi thi kyunki meri antarvastra ab bhi ghutnon ke aas paas thi. Mujhe usey upar karna tha aur pad bhi theek se rakhna tha.
Main Uday ki aankhon mein nahi dekh paa rahi thi kyunki kuch minute pehle jo hua tha. Ab bhi main yeh digest nahi kar paa rahi thi ki usne asal mein mujhe baithi hue sthiti mein mutra visarjan karte dekha tha. Mujhe nahi pata uske dimag mein kya chal raha tha lekin woh kaafi saadhaaran lag raha tha!
Uday: Madam, ab dheere dheere der ho rahi hai. Hamein lautna chahiye.
Main: Haan, main bhi yahan aur samay nahi bitana chahti.
Maine yeh kaha halanki main soch rahi thi ki Uday ke saamne kaise kahu ki meri antarvastra ab bhi meri taangon ke aadhe neeche hai sari aur petticoat ke andar.
Uday: Theek hai Madam, toh aap yahan ya alankar ki dukaan ke paas wait kijiye, main bail gaadi le aata hoon.
Main: Nahi nahi Uday. Phir se us ghonghe jaisi gaadi mein nahi. Meri kamar aur ghutnon mein kaafi dard ho chuka hai.
Uday: Lekin Madam…
Maine uski baat kaat di kyunki mujhe yeh jaanna tha ki kya koi aur vaahan ka prabandh ho sakta hai.
Main: Aap koi anya vaahan ka prayas kyun nahi karte?
Uday: Madam, maine aapko bata diya tha ki is raaste par kuch vishesh upalabdh nahi hai.
Mere lagataar aagrah karne par Uday anya vaahan dhoondhne chala gaya aur mujhe alankar ki dukaan ke paas wait karne ko kaha. Maine apne se kaha ki agar Uday anya vaahan na la paaya toh phir se us gaadi mein ek ghanta safar karna bahut dard bhara hoga. Ab jab Uday door chala gaya tha toh main bhi apni antarvastra theek karna aur pad rakhna chahti thi. Maine dekha ki kuch log wahan ja rahe the jahan main kuch minute pehle mutra visarjan kar chuki thi isliye mujhe jagah chhodni padi aur ek surakshit sthan dhoondhne lagi.
Main chhote chhote kadam utha kar chal rahi thi kyunki meri antarvastra jo ghutnon ke aas paas thi, mujhe aaraam se chalane nahi de rahi thi. Jaldi hi mujhe dusri dukaan ke peeche ek sthan mila jahan bahut kam roshni thi aur koi tha bhi nahi, maine usey surakshit samjha. Maine ek kone chuna aur jaldi se apni sari aur petticoat ko kamar tak upar utha diya aur apni antarvastra ko yoni kshetra ki taraf dhakel di. Main phir se thandi hawa ko apni nangi janghon par mehsoos kar rahi thi aur jab main apni antarvastra mein pad rakhne hi wali thi tab mujhe do awaazen sunai di. Main bilkul jam si gayi kyunki tab meri jawani ka poora nichla hissa prakat tha. Maine idhar udhar dekha lekin koi dikha nahi lekin mujhe pakka vishvas tha ki maine do awaazen suni thi. Kuch palon baad jab andhere mein mujhe koi dikha nahi toh maine apna kaam jaari rakha aur pad ko antarvastra mein rakh kar sari neeche ki aur jab main apne stanon par pallu samayojit kar rahi thi tab phir se mujhe awaaz sunai di.
“Kripya, kripya, koi aa jaayega.”
“Wahan koi nahi hai. Chinta mat karo.”
Andhere ki wajah se meri aankhon ko anukool hone mein kuch samay laga aur ab main saaf dekh sakti thi ki kuch gaj door ek ped ki aad mein ek purush aur ek ladki kareeb khade the. Woh apne mein vyast the aur unhone dekha nahi ki main bhi wahan andhere mein thi. Main thoda aage badhi taaki spasht drishya dekh sakun. Purush madhyavayask tha lekin ladki kishori thi. Ladki ghagra choli pahne hui thi jo yahan striyon ka saamaanya vastra tha. Drishya sach mein teji se garam hota ja raha tha kyunki purush ne ladki ko gale lagaya hua tha aur uske honthon par chumban karne ki koshish kar raha tha aur ladki apna sir hilate hue uske honthon se bach rahi thi. Maine dekha ki purush ne ab uske ek stan ko uski choli ke upar se pakad liya tha aur ladki ka virodh kamzor padta ja raha tha. Jaldi hi ladki purush ke baalon mein ungliyan pher rahi thi aur dono honthon se lipat gaye the. Chumban karte hue maine dekha ki purush ne ab apna ek haath uske stan se hata kar uski chhoti nitamb ko uski ghagra ke upar se pakad liya. Itne kareeb se aise garam drishya dekh kar mere chuchuk turant sakht ho gaye. Main is chhup kar dekhne se bahut anand le rahi thi. Jab purush ladki ke jawan stanon ko zor zor se daba raha tha tab mera daya haath bhi swabhavik roop se mere tight stanon ki taraf gaya aur mere chuchukon ko chhua. Maine dekha ki ladki ab lagbhag saans chhod rahi thi kyunki purush uske honthon se neeche stanon ki taraf utar aaya tha. Woh uske stanon ko uski choli ke upar se kaat raha tha aur apne gale lagaye haathon se uski ghagra ko uski janghon tak upar utha raha tha. Main apne stan bandhan aur blouse ke upar se apne chuchukon ko chhedte hue rok nahi paayi. Turant mujhe mehsoos hua ki meri yoni mein bhi drav ka sanket hone laga hai aur is ‘live’ drishya ko dekh kar bahut pyaasi mehsoos kar rahi thi.
“Paro, Paro, tu kahan hai?”
Ped ke peeche wali jodi aur main dono hi us awaaz se jam gaye. Maine dekha ki ek boodha aadmi shayad us ladki ko dhoondh raha tha uska naam pukarte hue, shayad uska pita ya koi rishtedaar. Jaise hi woh boodha aadmi hamare paas se surakshit door chala gaya, maine dekha ki ladki ne apna vastra theek kiya aur turant bhag gayi aur purush viprit disha mein chala gaya. Main us boodhe aadmi ko shraap de rahi thi kyunki main drishya bahut anand le rahi thi aur ab sab khatam ho gaya tha. Main andhere se nikal kar apna stan bandhan thoda samayojit kar ke saans aaraam se lene ke liye aur alankar ki dukaan ki taraf Uday ka intezaar karne chali gayi.

Kuch minute baad Uday muskurate hue wapas aaya.
Uday: Madam, aap apne bhagya ka dhanyavaad kijiye. Aapko ab bail gaadi mein nahi jaana padega.
Main yeh sun kar bahut khush ho gayi bina jaane ki agle ghante mein mere saath kya hone wala tha. Main kabhi soch bhi nahi sakti thi ki yeh auto rickshaw ki yatra bhi silai karne wale ke sthan par Master ji aur Ramlal ke saath hue anubhav jaisi yaadgaar ban jaayegi.
Main: Dhanyavaad Uday. Tumne kya prabandh kiya hai?
Uday: Auto rickshaw Madam.
Main: Bhagwan ka shukr hai Uday.
Uday: Lekin Madam, is ilake mein log rickshaw mein aise nahi safar karte jaise aap shehar mein karti hain. Yahan yeh mool roop se maal gaadi hai. Isliye aapko us vaahan mein rakhe maal ki wajah se thodi samasya ho sakti hai.
Main: Phir bhi yeh us dheemi gaadi se sau guna behtar hai aur pakka kam samay mein pahuncha degi.
Uday: Bilkul Madam. Isme sirf pandrah-bees minute lagenge.
Hum mela chhod kar bahar nikle aur maine Uday se woh baat karne ki zaroorat nahi samjhi. Rickshaw mela ke thoda door khadi thi. Mela kshetra ke bahar roshni kaafi kam thi aur aasman mein chandra bhi nahi tha. Main saaf dekh sakti thi ki rickshaw ke upar aur uske dono tarafs maal rassi se bandha hua tha.
Uday: Madam, yeh Mishra ji hain. Yeh unki auto hai. Soubhagya se woh hamare ashram ki taraf hi ja rahe hain.
Mishra ji boodhe aadmi the, dikhte mein mota shareer wale aur pakke pachpan saal se upar ke. Unka sir poora ganja tha. Woh dhoti aur bush shirt pahne hue the. Uday ne mujhe unke saath parichay karaya.
Mishra ji: Beti, mujhe samajh aa raha hai ki aapko thodi kathinaai hogi kyunki mere rickshaw mein maal ki wajah se jagah bahut kam hai, lekin agar aap mujhe aur meri rickshaw ko pandrah minute sah sakti hain toh aap ashram pahunch jaayengi.
Maine unke shabdon par muskurakar jawab diya aur unki umar aur mujhe ‘beti’ kehne ki wajah se rahat mehsoos ki. Aage ki seat par bhi paket bandhe hue the isliye baithne ke liye driver ke sthan ke alawa kahi jagah nahi thi. Isliye Uday, main aur Mishra ji teeno rickshaw ki peechhe wali seat par baith gaye. Mishra ji pehle baith gaye, uske baad main. Jaise hi main baithi maine dekha ki Mishra ji ke pairon ke paas kuch kala baitha hua tha.
Mishra ji: Yeh mera paltoo kutta Moti hai. Main jahan jaata hoon yeh mere saath chalta hai. Lekin yeh koi shor nahi karega, beti aap nishchint rahiye.
Main unke paas baith gayi aur unka kutta mujhe upar dekh raha tha. Dhanyavaad bhagwan Moti chhote aakaar ka kutta tha, lekin main uski nasal nahi samajh paayi halanki main ghar ke paltoo kutte bahut pasand karti hoon. Kutta dikhte mein achhe vyavhaar wala tha aur anjaan chehron ko dekh kar kuch pratikriya nahi de raha tha. Maine dhyan diya ki seat par bhi do teen packet rakhe hue the kyunki rickshaw mein unhe rakhne ki aur koi jagah nahi thi. Swabhavik roop se baithne ki jagah bahut tang thi, aur upar se Mishra ji ke bhari shareer ki wajah se aur bhi.

Mishra ji: Beti, aap mera shareer dekh sakti hain. Is chhoti jagah mein baithne mein aapko kathinaai ho sakti hai aur iske liye aap mujhe poori tarah dosh de sakti hain. Shayad isse main kuch kilo kam kar lun aur agli baar jab main kisi ko meri rickshaw mein baithne dunga toh use behtar yatra mile.
Hum teeno uske mazak par has pade, driver bhi. Sach bataun toh Uday ke liye peechhe wali seat par baithne ke liye bahut kam jagah thi. Maine maryada banaye rakhne ke liye jitna ho sake Mishra ji ki taraf se door khiskne ki koshish ki lekin phir bhi Uday apni nitamb ko seat par sirf halke se rakh paa raha tha. Rickshaw turant chal padi. Mujhe jagah dene ke liye Mishra ji ne apni bayi bahon ko mere sir ke upar seat par rakh diya aur ab mera chehra unki kaksh ke itna kareeb tha ki mujhe unki shirt se unke paseene ki gandh saaf mehsoos ho rahi thi.

Mishra ji: Beti, ab aap thodi behtar mehsoos kar rahi hain?
Maine sir hila diya aur unke aur ek inch kareeb khisk gayi, lagbhag unke shareer se chipak kar, taaki Uday ko thodi jagah mil jaaye aur ab woh meri janghon aur seat ke beech apni nitamb rakh paa raha tha. Is prakriya mein mujhe mehsoos hua ki uski dayi kohni meri dayi stan se takra chuki thi aur uski komalta mehsoos kar rahi thi. Main unke saamne kuch bhi protsahit nahi karna chahti thi isliye apni bayi haath se dheere se uski kohni ko dhakel diya.
Mishra ji: Hum teeno ke paas gaadi park karne ke liye bade bade garage hain.

Uday is tippani par has pada lekin mujhe samajh nahi aaya ki woh boodha aadmi kya keh raha tha.
Main: Main aapki baat samajh nahi payi Mishra ji.
Mishra ji: Beti, mera matlab hai hum teeno ke nitamb bhari hain isliye jab hum is seat mein gaadi park karte hain toh hum sabko apne… park karne ke liye badi jagah ki zaroorat padti hai.

Vakya poora karne ki zaroorat nahi thi aur hum teeno is tippani par zor se has pade. Mujhe kehna padega ki is boodhe aadmi mein mazak ka achha ehsaas tha. Hasne ke dauran mujhe mehsoos hua ki Uday phir se andhere ka fayda uthate hue mujhe kohni maar raha tha. Is baar maine uska virodh nahi kiya kyunki mela mein dekhe vasna poorna drishya ab bhi mere dimag mein tha. Jaise koi tel ke pyale mein ungli dubo raha ho, Uday ne dekha ki main uske haath ka virodh nahi kar rahi thi toh usne apni dayi kohni ko meri rubber jaisi tight stan ki gehraai tak dubona shuru kar diya.

Hamari auto bayi taraf mud gayi aur hum chal pade. Chunki yeh sadak mukhya sadak nahi thi, yahan roshni kaafi kam thi aur sadak aur bhi ubaar khabar wali thi. Mere bhari stan ab bra ke andar kaafi zyada uchal rahe the. Uday ne sabse pehle is sthiti ka fayda uthaya. Ab uski dayi haath meri peeth ke peeche thi, har jhatke ke saath woh mujhe aur tight gale laga raha tha. Maine aankhon ke kone se Mishra ji ki taraf dekha aur dhanyavaad bhagwan woh apne kutte ke saath vyast dikhai de rahe the. Uday ab meri dayi stan ko poori azaadi se chhoo raha tha kyunki mera daya haath upar tha aur woh apni haath meri peeth ke peeche se mujhe gale laga raha tha. Woh ab bahut aasaani se meri sari ke pallu ke neeche meri surakshit dayi stan ko pakad kar daba raha tha. Main iska poora anand le rahi thi halanki main savadhan thi ki pallu theek jagah par rahe taaki woh boodha aadmi kuch dekh na sake.
Achanak auto rickshaw ne ek ubhaar ya kuch aur dekh kar brake maar di, lekin iska asar mere liye bahut sharminda karne wala tha. Jaise hi vaahan ne brake maara, Uday asal mein meri dayi stan ko neeche se pakde hue tha; achanak brake ki wajah se uski ungliyan meri stan mein ghus gayi. Mishra ji ki dayi haath kutte ke sir par mod kar rakhi hui thi jo meri stan se sirf kuch inch door thi; achanak brake ki wajah se unki hatheli bhi seedhe meri stan par aa gayi. Jaise do purush meri ek stan ko pakde hue hon aur un dono ke haath us achanak brake mein mil gaye hon!
Mishra ji: Yeh kya bakwas hai? Dheere chala aur aankhen khuli rakh. Koi jaldi nahi hai.
Mishra ji ne driver ko daanta aur usne kshama maangi. Lekin us achanak jhatke mein meri stan ko chhoone ke liye kisi purush ne mujhe kshama nahi maangi. Is samay tak Uday ne apna haath meri stan se hata kar meri kandhe par peeth ki taraf rakh diya tha. Main is tareeke se uske approach se kaafi sukoon mehsoos kar rahi thi. Mishra ji ki ungliyan ab bhi meri dayi stan ki side line ko halke halke chhoo rahi thi kyunki kutta us jhatke se thoda shift ho gaya tha.
Mishra ji: Beti, aap theek hain na? Kahin chot toh nahi lagi?
Main sandeh mein pad gayi thi kyunki ab yeh boodha aadmi mujhse baat kar raha tha aur mujhe mehsoos ho raha tha ki unki ungliyan mere blouse ke cup ko chhoo rahi thi. Maine mann hi mann khud ko daanta ki is boodhe aadmi ke baare mein ‘galat’ soch rahi hoon. Woh itna caring hai!
Main: Nahi nahi. Main bilkul theek hoon.

Auto rickshaw dheere speed se chalne lagi. Uday ek pal bhi shaant nahi tha. Woh ab meri peeth par blouse ke upar se malish kar raha tha aur mera bra ka patta trace kar raha tha. Jaise hi usne mere kandhe se bra ka patta pakad kar neeche ki taraf meri peeth par hooks ki taraf le jaane laga, main sihar si gayi. Main saadhaaran baat karne ki koshish kar rahi thi taaki woh boodha aadmi samajh na sake ki mere paas kya ho raha tha.
Main: Moti, idhar dekho. Tu tu tu tu… Kya tum mujhe pasand karte ho?
Mishra ji: Moti sir hilaao.

Jab yeh sab bakwas kutte ke charon taraf chal rahi thi, Uday ki madhya ungli aur anguthi asal mein mere bra ke patte ko pakad kar thoda thoda upar se khinch rahi thi. Woh uske saath khel raha tha, har jhatke ke saath khinch kar chhod deta tha. Koi bhi stri aaraam se nahi baith sakti jab koi uske bra ke patte ke saath aisa khel rahe ho, lekin phir bhi main apni poori koshish kar rahi thi kyunki main in kriyaon se uttejit ho rahi thi. Uday shayad kuch der baad isse thak gaya aur apni dayi haath ko mere blouse ke neeche meri nitamb ki taraf le gaya. Main thoda aage khisak gayi jaise Moti ko pyar karne ke liye, jisse usey meri peeth aur seat ke beech haath rakhne mein madad mili. Mujhe mehsoos hua ki uska haath meri reedh ki haddi ko trace karte hue neeche meri kamar ki nada tak pahunch gaya tha.

Is beech main Moti ko pyar karne ki koshish kar rahi thi taaki Mishra ji ko Uday ke karname ka pata na chale. Mishra ji mere dayi taraf the aur unhone apni dayi haath kutte par lagbhag gale lagane wali sthiti mein rakh rakhi thi, jisse unki ungliyan meri dayi stan ke bahut kareeb thi. Chunki mera daya haath unki peeth par jagah dene ke liye tha, unki ungliyan har jhatke ke saath meri dayi stan ko chhed rahi thi. Shuru mein maine ise unki umar ki wajah se ignore kiya, lekin ek baar mujhe mehsoos hua ki unki anguthi mere chuchuk par blouse aur bra ke upar se ragad gayi. Maine socha ki yeh anjaane mein hua hoga, lekin us sparsh se mere chuchuk sakht hone lage the.
Mishra ji: Beti, Moti ko apni god mein le lo. Lagta hai woh wahan aaraam se baith jaayega.

Main: Nahi nahi. Agar woh kaat liya toh?

Mishra ji: Beti, us par vishvas rakho. Woh aapke… kaatega nahi, aakhir woh aapka pati toh hai nahi.
Yeh sun kar main laal ho gayi. Mishra ji zor se has pade shayad mujhe aaraam dene ke liye.
Mishra ji: Ummeed hai beti, mere badmash shabdon se aapko bura nahi laga.
Main: Koi baat nahi. Aapka mazak ka ehsaas bahut achha hai.

Main is boodhe aadmi ke saamne ab bhi laal ho rahi thi. Maine apna daya haath Mishra ji ki peeth se hata kar Moti ko dono haathon se lene ki koshish ki. Unhone Moti ko meri god mein rakhne ki koshish ki lekin kutta anjaan god mein aakar bechain ho raha tha, isliye main thodi ghabraayi hui thi.
Mishra ji: Beti dar mat. Moti bahut achhe vyavhaar wala hai. Chu. Chu. Moti, shaant ho ja.

Boodhe aadmi ko ab thoda meri taraf ghumna pada aur dono haathon se woh ab bhi kutte ko pakde hue the kyunki woh meri god mein bechain ho raha tha. Mujhe mehsoos ho raha tha ki Mishra ji meri ungliyon par haath laga rahe the jab hum dono kutte ko pakadne ki koshish kar rahe the. Uday ne dekha ki Mishra ji meri taraf ghum gaye hain toh usne apna haath hilana band kar diya. Woh meri kamar ke aas paas chhoo raha tha aur meri petticoat mein ungli ghusaane ki koshish kar raha tha. Dhanyavaad bhagwan maine petticoat ki nada bahut mazboot bandhi thi isliye woh ungli andar kaafi gehraai tak nahi ghusa paa raha tha.

Mishra ji: Beti, main Moti par ek haath rakhe rakhta hoon taaki agar woh koi shararat kare toh main usey niyantrit kar sakun.

Main kya jawab deti? Halanki boodhe aadmi ka approach bahut namrata poorna tha, lekin isse asal mein unhe meri khadi ubhari chuchiyon ko lagataar chhoone ka mauka mil jaata. Maine sir hila diya aur is baar unhone kaafi meri taraf ghum kar mujhe aur kareeb khiskne ko kaha taaki woh apne kutte ko aasaani se sambhal sakein. Main aur kahan khisakti soch rahi thi? Agar main aur kareeb khiski toh unki sthiti ke hisaab se mujhe unki god mein baithna padega! Phir bhi unke aagrah par main thoda khisak gayi aur ab meri resham jaisi mazboot nitamb goliyan lagbhag unki janghon par thi aur woh meri badi nitamb ki golai ko achhe se mehsoos kar rahe the. Sach bataun toh mujhe laga ki unke mann mein koi bura vichar nahi tha kyunki yeh sab paristhiti ki maang thi.

Mishra ji: Ab behtar hai beti. Lagta hai aap sukoon mehsoos kar rahi hain.
Haan, ek pacchas saal se upar ke purush ki janghon par lagbhag baithne wali athhaais saal ki stri ke liye yeh ‘sukoon’ hi hona chahiye. Maine sahmat hone ka sanket diya aur is baar main unke bold movement se thodi sihar si gayi. Kutta sirf kuch palon ke liye shaant tha aur phir bechain hone laga. Mishra ji jitna zyada kutte ko niyantrit karne ki koshish kar rahe the, utna hi zyada meri doodh wali stanon ki malish ho rahi thi.

Mishra ji: Beti, lagta hai Moti aapki god mein aaraam se nahi baith paa raha. Aap usey zameen par utaar do.
Main: Haan. Woh ek pal ke liye bhi shaant nahi baith raha.
Mishra ji: Shayad Moti ke liye yeh tapte tave se bhaathi mein jaane jaisa hai.

Uday is tippani par zor se has pada. Usne meri sari ke upar se meri nitamb par ek tez chot bhi maari taaki is mazak ki sarahna kar sake. Main bhi besharm tareeke se has padi.
Lekin jaise hi maine Moti ko zameen par utaara, usne aisa kuch kiya jiska mujhe bilkul anumaan nahi tha. Kutta utsah se meri taangon ko soonghne laga aur jaldi hi apna sir meri sari ke andar ghusa diya. Mere liye yeh bahut khatarnak sthiti thi. Uday bhi yeh dekh kar chakit reh gaya kyunki usne meri makhani nitamb ko chhedna band kar diya.
Mishra ji: Moti, Moti, tu kya kar raha hai pyare?

Moti apne malik ke aawazon ki bilkul parwah nahi kar raha tha aur mujhe mehsoos ho raha tha ki meri sari ke neeche meri nangi taangon par uski geeli naak pad rahi thi aur bhayaanak tareeke se woh upar ki taraf badh rahi thi.
Main: Aai!
Mishra ji: Kya hua beti?
Moti ab apne pairon se meri ghutnon ko halke halke kharoch raha tha aur meri nangi janghon ke andaruni hisse ko soongh raha tha. Mujhe Mishra ji ko jawab dene ki zaroorat nahi padi kyunki meri sari ke neeche kutte ka sir ab mere taangon ke beech bahut spasht dikhai de raha tha. Uske geele sparsh se main itni garam ho rahi thi ki shayad main us ehsaas ko express bhi nahi kar sakti. Kutta ab meri janghon ke andaruni hisse par paseene ki boondon ko chaat raha tha.
Main: Ooooooooh! Aaaaaah! Kripya ise bahar nikaliye.

Mishra ji: Beti, chinta mat kijiye. Main ise bahar nikaal raha hoon.
Uday: Madam, zyada mat hiliye, kutta aapko kaat sakta hai.
Mishra ji: Moti, Moti. Idhar aao achhe bacche.
Mujhe lag raha tha ki kutta apne malik ke aawaz sun kar bhi meri sari aur petticoat ke neeche soonghne aur chaatne mein zyada vyast tha. Mujhe mehsoos ho raha tha ki kutte ki geeli naak meri nangi janghon par thi aur chaatne ke dauran uski laar meri nangi chamdi par lag rahi thi jo mujhe surat sukh jaise sihar de rahi thi. Meri yoni ab geeli hone lagi thi aur drav aur tez bahne laga tha.
Mishra ji: Beti, woh meri baat nahi sun raha. Aap apni sari thodi upar kijiye taaki main apne Moti ko pakad sakun.
Main: Jo bhi karna hai kijiye lekin ise bahar nikaliye. Ooooooooh!
Kutta ab dheere dheere meri yoni kshetra ki taraf badh raha tha kyunki woh meri sari ke andar upar ki taraf ghus raha tha. Meri janghen ab uski thandi naak aur garam zubaan se poori tarah geeli ho chuki thi, yeh mishran mujhe paagal kar raha tha. Meri janghen ab bahut tapish utpaad kar rahi thi aur main is kutte se uttejit hone mein kisi purush se kam nahi thi!

Mishra ji: Theek hai, theek hai.

Ab jaise maine us boodhe aadmi ko apni sari upar karne ki anumati de di!
Mishra ji: Beti aap shaant rahiye, main aapki sari upar karke Moti ko bahar nikaalunga.
Main ab do purushon ke saamne bahut gandi sthiti mein thi aur auto rickshaw ki seat par theek se baithne ke liye sangharsh kar rahi thi, lagbhag is badmash kutte ke karname se anand ki leheron mein kasak rahi thi. Mishra ji thoda jhuke aur meri sari ko meri taangon se upar ki taraf khinchne lage saath hi petticoat bhi. Uday ne meri sthiti dekh kar apni bayi haath se mera haath pakad liya aur apni dayi haath seat ke upar se mere charon taraf laga diya. Sahare ke saath main uske shareer par jhuk gayi aur usne is avsar ko miss nahi kiya aur phir s
e meri stanon ko pakad liya. Lekin chunki Mishra ji mere saamne the, woh chatur tha aur pallu ke neeche haath daal kar meri bhari chuchiyon ko dheere dheere chhedne laga.
Mishra ji ne meri gori taangein turant prakat kar di aur meri sari ko ghutnon ke aas paas gundh diya. Moti Mishra ji ke pakadne ki koshish dekh kar aur upar ki taraf badhne ki koshish kar raha tha. Lag raha tha jaise kutte ke liye yeh khel ban gaya tha aur is prakriya mein woh mujhe besharm tareeke se prakat kar raha tha aur saath hi mujhe uttejit bhi kar raha tha. Mishra ji ka sparsh ab bilkul pita jaise sneh se shunya ho chuka tha aur woh ek caring pita jaise vyakti se badal kar ek laalchi boodhe aadmi ban chuke the. Mishra ji ke liye ek pakki grihini ki sari upar karne ka avsar bahut badi jeet tha. Unhone sirf sari aur petticoat ko ghutnon tak nahi gundha balki meri gori aur sundar taangon ko tez tareeke se sahla rahe the. Unhe kutta bahar nikaalne ki koi ichchha nahi dikhai de rahi thi aur ab woh meri sari ko zor se ghutnon ke upar khinchne ki koshish kar rahe the taaki meri nangi jawani aur zyada dekh sakein.

Chunki main Moti ko apni taangon ke beech letaye baithi thi, isliye mujhe taangein kaafi failani padi thi aur is wajah se Mishra ji lagbhag seat se bahar aa gaye the. Isliye unke liye meri sari aur upar khinchana aasaan nahi tha. Boodha aadmi itni aasaani se haar maanne wala nahi tha aur main unki umar mein unki taakat dekh kar hairaan reh gayi, unhone apni bayi haath se meri gol nitamb ke side ko pakad kar meri taang ko thoda upar uthaya aur sari ko upar khinch diya.
Main: Aai! Kripya mat…

Halanki yeh meri swabhavik striyatva ki pratikriya thi lekin main har ansh ka anand le rahi thi. Main ab apni kamar ke dayi taraf se lagbhag nangi ho chuki thi boodhe aadmi ke gandi haathon ki wajah se. Aakhirkaar Moti meri sari se bahar nikal aaya. Mujhe drav nikaalne ka samay diye bina Mishra ji ne meri baaki bachi sari ko bhi Uday ki taraf se mere bayi jangha ke upar tak utha diya taaki main kamar se neeche poori tarah nangi ho jaaun. Dhanyavaad bhagwan main antarvastra pahne hui thi warna main chalti hui auto rickshaw mein do purushon ke saamne bina dhaki yoni ke saath baithi hoti!
Mishra ji nahi ruke, na Moti ruka, na Uday!

Moti ab bhi apne soonghne ke kaam mein vyast tha aur ab meri prakat chamdi par woh upar tak bina rok ke pahunch gaya aur meri antarvastra ko soongh raha tha. Kutte ki laar meri bilkul nangi achhe se bani janghon par thi aur jab main use pochhne ki koshish kar rahi thi tab Mishra ji ne mera haath pakad liya. Phir unhone apni azaad haath se meri chikni resham jaisi janghon ko pochha. Unki khurduri hatheli meri poori tarah nangi janghon par pad rahi thi jo mujhe paagal kar rahi thi aur yeh boodha aadmi bahut vasna poorna tareeke se apni hatheli ghuma raha tha – ghutnon se shuru karke dheere dheere meri janghon par upar ki taraf aur meri antarvastra tak. Mujhe spasht mehsoos ho raha tha ki kutte ki naak aur Mishra ji ki ungliyan meri antarvastra par chhed rahi thi. Dhanyavaad bhagwan Guru ji ka pad mujhe meri yoni par seedhe sparsh se bacha raha tha.
Jaise jaise auto rickshaw dheere speed se chal rahi thi, do purushon aur ek kutte ke haathon mera apmaan jaari raha. Mujhe ehsaas hua ki ab mere dono haath pakde hue the, ek Uday ke aur dusra Mishra ji ke, isliye main sharirik roop se kuch virodh nahi kar paa rahi thi. Moti ab poori tarah meri nangi janghon par baith gaya tha, wahan baith kar meri yoni kshetra ko soongh raha tha aur upar ki taraf meri ubhari chuchiyon ki taraf bhi naak badha raha tha. Mishra ji meri nangi namkin janghon ko sahlaane aur ragadne se kaafi santusht lag rahe the aur apni bayi haath meri nitamb ki taraf le gaye. Unhone mujhe thoda upar uthne ke liye majboor kiya aur ek pal mein meri baaki bachi sari aur petticoat ko meri bhari nitamb ke neeche se peeche seat ki taraf khinch diya. Ab meri kamar se neeche sirf meri chhoti antarvastra hi cover thi aur jaise hi main uthi hui sthiti se baithi, mujhe thandi seat meri poori tarah nangi nitamb goliyon par mehsoos hui. Meri antarvastra hamesha ki tarah meri nitamb khand mein ghus chuki thi. Seat par meri nangi nitamb goliyon ko mehsoos kar main lagbhag phir se jhadne wali ho gayi.

Main: Ooooooooooooooh! Kripya. Kripya. Yeh kya kar rahe hain aap?
Mujhe ab kuch toh bolna hi pada kyunki baatein bahut aage badh chuki thi. Lekin kaun meri baat sun raha tha mujhe sandeh tha.
Main: Kutta bahar nikaliye. Bas itna hi chahiye mujhe.

Ab jo Mishra ji aur unka paltoo kutta ne kiya usse main poori tarah jhad gayi aur mujhe poora charam sukh mila. Uday ne sirf sahayak bhumika nibhayi. Woh abhi tak meri dayi stan ke alawa aur aage nahi badha tha lekin usne us stan se saara ras nichod liya tha. Moti ab upar ki taraf badh raha tha aur uski naak lagbhag meri stan kshetra tak pahunch gayi thi. Uday ke lagataar dabav aur chhedne aur hone wali baaton ki wajah se meri sari ka pallu apni jagah se displace ho gaya tha aur meri bayi stan prakat ho chuki thi. Uday ne kripa kar ke meri dayi stan par pallu rakha hua tha halanki uski hatheli ab kaafi der se uska behtar cover ban chuki thi.
Mishra ji ne ab mera haath chhod diya jo woh pakde hue the aur apni bayi haath meri peeth ki taraf le gaye. Main chakit reh gayi ki woh seat ke upar nahi ja rahi thi balki meri antarvastra dhaki nitamb ki taraf ja rahi thi. Unhone apni dayi haath se mujhe thoda upar uthne ke liye kheencha aur seedhe apni bayi hatheli meri dayi nitamb goliya ke neeche rakh di.
Main: Aai!
Boodhe aadmi ne mujhe ab apni hatheli par baitha liya tha aur is vasna poorna sthiti ka poora anand le rahe the. Har jhatke ke saath main unki hatheli par kasak rahi thi aur unka haath meri bhari nitamb goliyon aur auto seat ke beech sandwich ho raha tha. Main apni zindagi mein kabhi aisi sthiti mein nahi thi ki kisi purush ki hatheli par baithi hoon! Lekin sach bataun toh yeh swargiya anubhav tha. Meri yoni se ab drav bahut tez bah raha tha. Moti bhi apne malik ki tarah mauke ka fayda uthate hue meri blouse se dhaki bayi stan ko chaatne laga.

Main: Uday is kutte ko rok lijiye. Agar yeh wahan kaat liya toh…
Main thrill mein vakya poora nahi kar paayi. Boodhe aadmi ka haath meri poori tarah nangi nitamb ke neeche mujhe satva swarg pahuncha raha tha. Main is threesome ka poora anand le rahi thi aur khas kar kisi purush ki hatheli par baithne ka!
Mishra ji: Main aapko cover karne ke liye yahan hoon beti, chinta mat kijiye.
Yeh keh kar unhone meri coffin par aakhri kil thok di aur apni hatheli ko kutte ki zubaan ke saamne rakh di jo meri blouse ko chaat rahi thi. Unhone ek pal bhi waste nahi kiya aur meri azaad bayi stan ko pakad liya jo ab pallu se poori tarah prakat thi. Unhone usey pakda aur bahut zor se dabaya aur do alag alag purushon ka meri stanon par haath padna mujhe charam sukh tak le gaya. Mera shareer do purushon ke haathon mein kasak utha aur kutta ab dekh raha tha. Aakhirkaar Moti ne apni naak aur zubaan mere shareer se hata li!
Main: Ooooooooooooh! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh! Kripya rok dijiye.
Sach bataun toh kutte ke paas ab meri shareer ka koi antarang hissa soonghne ko nahi bacha tha kyunki main charam sukh ki choti par pahunch chuki thi. Mishra ji aur Uday ne meri chuchiyon ko bahut mazboot tareeke se pakad rakha tha; Mishra ji ka dusra haath meri bhari nitamb goliya ke neeche dab gaya tha jabki main unki hatheli par baithi thi. Uday ka dusra haath ab meri antarvastra ke aage ki taraf jaakar usey chhed raha tha. Dono purush is avishvasniya avsar ka poora fayda utha rahe the ki ek vivahit stri ko prakat karke uska shoshan kar rahe the. Mujhe mehsoos ho raha tha ki Mishra ji ki saans mere kandhe ke paas bahut tez ho rahi thi, shayad unki umar ke liye yeh bahut zyada tha. Main zor zor se jhad chuki thi aur apni azaad haath se Moti ko apni stan se pakad liya.

Kuch palon baad maine apne madhu ka har boond Guru ji ke pad mein chod diya aur mera shareer is asaadhaaran ashleel surat uttejan ke baad thak chuka tha. Maine dekha ki Uday ne dheere dheere apna haath meri dayi stan se hata liya aur mujhe mehsoos hua ki mera stan bandhan uske dabav ki garmi se poora geela ho chuka tha. Mishra ji meri stan se haath hatane ke liye thoda anichchuk the, woh ab bhi meri bayi stan ki mazbooti ko mehsoos kar rahe the. Unka haath ab bhi mere neeche tha aur meri bhari nitamb goliya har jhatke ke saath unki hatheli ko daba rahi thi aur woh sach mein meri nitamb ki golai aur mazbooti ko pehle kisi aur ki tarah parakh rahe the.
Auto rickshaw driver ne chetavni di ki hum phir mukhya sadak par aa gaye hain. Saubhagya se maal ki wajah se woh mujhe dekh nahi paa raha tha.
Mishra ji: Beti apni sari theek kijiye, warna viprit disha se aane wala koi bhi driver durghatna kar sakta hai.
Uday is tippani par has pada aur main bhi muskurayi kyunki main ab saari sharm chod chuki thi. Maine neeche apne shareer ki taraf dekha aur lambi saans li apni sthiti dekh kar halanki main bahut santusht mehsoos kar rahi thi. Main thodi sandeh mein pad gayi thi ki itna teevra uttejan aur charam sukh milne ke bawajood mujhe chudai ki itni zabardast ichchha kyun nahi ho rahi thi. Saadhaaran paristhitiyon mein agar main in logon ko itni azaadi de deti toh main unhe majboor karti ki mujhe chod dein ya khud chod deti, jo koi bhi stri itni unchi vasna ki choti par pahunch kar karti. Mujhe soch rahi thi ki shayad Guru ji ki aushadhi kuch asar kar rahi hai kyunki is chalti hui auto rickshaw mein jo hua tha woh Guru ji ke mann niyantran ke updesh ko pakka nikaal deta. Subah main poori tarah uttejit zaroor thi lekin main pakke taur par un nichli varg ke logon jaise Ramlal ya Master ji ke saath aur aage badhne se rok leti.

Maine jaldi se apne aap ko samayojit kiya kyunki mujhe ehsaas hua ki hum sadak par the. Lekin meri sari Mishra ji ki hatheli mein atak gayi thi jiske upar main ab bhi baithi thi. Kisi purush ki hatheli par baithne ka vichar mujhe ab bhi laal kar raha tha, haan ab bhi, itni besharm vyavhaar ke baad bhi aur maine apni nitamb thodi upar uthayi aur boodhe aadmi ne turant apna haath bahar nikaal liya aur Moti ko meri god se utaar diya. Moti phir se woh achhe vyavhaar wala kutta ban gaya jaise shuru mein tha jab main auto mein baithi thi! Maine jaldi se apni sari neeche ki aur apni poori tarah prakat janghon aur taangon ko cover kiya. Main mann hi mann dhanyavaad kar rahi thi ki meri sari ka pallu ab bhi meri stanon par chipka hua tha. Maine apne blouse se dhake khajane ko uchit tareeke se cover kiya aur saath hi dekha ki Mishra ji apni dhoti ke andar apni janghiya samayojit kar rahe the, shayad apni ling ko ragad kar shaant kar rahe the aur us free chudai ko miss karne ke liye dilasa de rahe the! Main apne gande vichar par khud par muskurayi.
Mishra ji: Beti lagta hai aapke stanon se doodh tapak gaya hai. Kya main aapko rumal doon pochhne ke liye?
Main: Nahi, yeh doodh nahi hai, yeh aapke kutte ki zubaan ka kaam hai.
Uday: Madam abhi tak santanheen hain Mishra ji isliye Guru ji ke paas aayi hain.
Mishra ji: Oh kshama beti. Lekin Guru ji ka upchaar aapko garbhavastha zaroor dilayega.
‘Garbhavastha ke baare mein toh nahi pata lekin agar main anjaan purushon ko apne shareer ko itni azaadi se chhoone deti rahi toh jaldi hi main vesya ban jaungi’, maine mann hi mann socha.

Auto rickshaw ki yatra jaldi khatam ho gayi kyunki hum ashram pahunch gaye. Mishra ji ne mujhe vidai di aur jaise hi main vaahan se utarne lagi, ek aakhri baar mujhe bahut spasht mehsoos hua ki unhone meri gol nitamb ke mans ko apni hatheli se pakad liya jaise mujhe utarne mein madad kar rahe hon. Main Uday ki aankhon mein nahi dekh paa rahi thi aur seedhe apne kamre mein chali gayi aur shauchalaya mein ghusi. Ek palak mein maine apni sari shareer se utaar di kyunki mujhe bahut zaroorat thi snaan ki. Meri petticoat bhi jaldi se zameen par aa gayi aur maine apni antarvastra bhi neeche ki, jiska peechhe wala hissa meri nitamb khand mein atak chuka tha. Isliye mujhe apni bhari nitamb goliyon ko hilana pada taaki use neeche kar sakun, jo ab shauchalaya mein snaan ya mutra visarjan ke liye antarvastra neeche karne ka lagbhag niyamit kaam ban chuka tha.

Tab achanak mujhe ehsaas hua ki mere blouse ka ek ankad toot kar latak raha tha, jo maine auto rickshaw ke andhere mein dhyan nahi diya tha. Woh upar wala nahi tha, balki upar se teesra ankad tha, shayad Uday ke mere stanon par kiye gaye atyadhik dabav ki wajah se. Maine yeh bhi dekha ki mere blouse ka patla kapda us jagah se phat bhi gaya tha, jaise kisi ne ungli ghusa kar phaad diya ho. Main apni zindagi mein kabhi itna lambe aur lagataar dabav apni stanon par nahi sah chuki thi jitna aaj mila tha, aur yeh vishvas nahi ho raha tha ki blouse itna sah sakta hai! Mujhe ise Master ji se theek karwana padega. Mera stan bandhan bhi paseene se geela ho chuka tha aur use utaar kar poori tarah nangi hone par mujhe bahut rahat mehsoos hui. Maine geele pad ko sukhe sthan par rakh diya aur bahut lambe snaan kiya, poore din grihini hokar jo dosh ikattha hua tha usey pochhne ki koshish karte hue.


Uske baad zyada kuch nahi hua aur sach bataun toh main aur kuch ummeed bhi nahi kar rahi thi! Nirmal ek baar pad lene aaya aur mujhe bhojan bhi serve kiya. Meenakshi aayi aur poocha ki mela kaisa raha, uski aankh ki jhapki se mujhe samajh aa gaya ki usey mere vasna poorna shaam ke apmaan ka pata tha. Sanjeev spare blouse ki jo di ke saath aaya, jo Master ji ne mere aakaar ke anusaar bheje the aur saath hi sandesh tha ki mujhe subah chhah baje tees minute par Guru ji ke paas pahunchna hai. Ek hi din mein do baar poori tarah jhadne ke baad, itne bhaari pradarshan aur purushon ke jaan bujh kar kiye gaye haathon ke chhedne se main itni thak chuki thi ki apne niyamit kaamon ko poora karne ke baad main turant khat par let gayi.


Main itni garam mehsoos kar rahi thi ki maine lagbhag apni ratri vastra ko pet tak upar kar liya aur bina kisi antarvastra ke bahut khule hue soyi. Main jaldi so gayi, jo bahut swabhavik tha, aur sach mein bahut gehri neend aayi. Us raat maine sapna dekha, lekin woh bahut be tarteeb tha aur main usme kuch samajh nahi paayi halanki sapne mein saanpon aur Mishra ji ke kutte ke saath maujudgi yaad thi.
 
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Actually, mujhe is story ke already exist karne ka bilkul pata nahi tha. Maine sirf original writer ki adhoori si kahani padhi thi aur socha tha ki ise complete kar doon. Par ab jab mujhe pata chala ki yeh story forum pe pehle se hi hai, toh main confuse ho gaya hoon.


Ab aap hi bataiye, aap kya chahte hain? Kya main is kahani ko continue karun, ya ise yahin band karke ek bilkul nayi story upload kar doon?


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Yeh version zyada natural, polite aur flowy lagta hai. C
 
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AviJain21 said:
Actually, mujhe is story ke already exist karne ka bilkul pata nahi tha. Maine sirf original writer ki adhoori si kahani padhi thi aur socha tha ki ise complete kar doon. Par ab jab mujhe pata chala ki yeh story forum pe pehle se hi hai, toh main confuse ho gaya hoon.


Ab aap hi bataiye, aap kya chahte hain? Kya main is kahani ko continue karun, ya ise yahin band karke ek bilkul nayi story upload kar doon?


Please share your honest opinion. ❤️



Yeh version zyada natural, polite aur flowy lagta hai. C
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