Jaisa ki Maine Aap logo ki bataya mein baramula se Hun aur Yaha Delhi mein Maine college ki hai . Toh yahi mujhe Apne college ke sathi Sanjiv Raina Se Ishq ho Gaya aur hamane shadi karli . Meri height 5feet 10 inch hai aur rang dudh mein mile kesar SA bilkul gora . Nainnaksh tikhe , jism gundaj aur Har Tarah SE fit . Main figure conscious Nahi Hun but mujhe fit rehna Pasand tha so Apne Aap ko well maintain Kiya tha . Shadi ke waqt Mera figure 34 26 35 tha Jo ab thoda sa heavy jarur hua tha. Ab bhi main 34 28 36 Hun . Hum dono Ka ek bachcha hai Sagar .
Mere shouhar Sanjiv Raina Bhi Jammu Kashmir se the aur ab Delhi me settle ho Gaye the . Unki family mein sirf unki mom aur ek bahen thi . Shadi ke bad mujhe meri family ne na sirf bedakhal Kar diya , mujhse Sare rishte Bhi Tod diye . Lekin mujhe us baat Ka Kabhi afsos Nahi Raha q ki meri saans mujhse behad pyar karaati thi. Aur utni hi respect Bhi deti thi. Hamare Yaha aksar hota Hota hai ki Kashmir se bahar ke state mein marriage ke bad hame wahase bedakhal Kar Diya jata hai .
Khair Jo hua so hua Maine Uske bad Kabhi Bhi Pichhe mud ke Nahi dekha . Mere nikah ke waqt main 21 Saal ki thi aur apna bura bhala Sab samajhti thi . Mere husband Sanjiv Raina mujhe beintiha mohabbat karte the . Aur Apni palko pe baitha Kar rakhe the lekin khuda Ko pata Nahi kya manzoor tha ? Kyo unhone meri mohabbat ko mujhse chhina ?
Shadi ke kuchh Saal badi khusi se Kate , unhone mujhe unki nishani Di ek bate ke roop me . Hamari shadi ke 2 Saal bad maine ek Sanjiv ke bachche ko Janam Diya jiska naam unhone Sagar rakha . Zindagi maze se kat rahi thi . Phir ek din Woh manhoos Raat aayi . Sanjiv jo karobar ke silsile mein London Gaye the , us Raat wapis loaut rahe the. Main behad khud thi aur unka intazaar Kar rahi thi . Airport se aate waqt Woh mujhse mobile pe baat Kar rahe the ki pata Nahi kya hua car bekabu ho gayi . Bahut hi khaufnak accident hua tha . Unki spot par hi maut ho gayi . Mujhe laga ki meri toh duniya hi ujad gayi . Sagar tab sirf 3 Saal Ka tha . Agar mujhe uski fikra na Hoti toh shayad Sanjiv ke Bina main jinda Bhi na reh pati . Lekin mujh pe jimmedari thi. Apne bete ko bada Karna tha. Mom Yani meri saans ko sambhalna tha .unka Bhi toh beta Nahi Raha tha. Unki bahen rima ki shadi Karni thi. Itna Kuch tha . Paise ki hame Kabhi koi kami na thi. Unhone aur mere sasur ne Hamare liye bahut Kuch chhod rakha tha . Lekin meri Zindagi ab ujada hua Woh baagicha thi jaha koi fool Phir Kabhi na khilna tha .
Maine unke bad muskil se apna pariwaar sambhala . Business sambhalna mere bus ki baat Nahi thi aur partnership Karna mere liye thik nahi rehta so humne use bandh Karna munasib samjha . Sahi sauda Kar ke humne bech Diya . Hamare guzare ke liye kafi kuchh pehle se hi tha aur or aagaya . Mujhe ab sirf Apne bete ko achchi talim deni thi . Sanjiv ki maut Ka sadma MERI sans bardas na Kar saki aur unhone bistar pakad liya . 1 Saal bad unki maut ho gayi . Pariwaar me ab hum 3 reh Gaye . Rima Sagar ki parvarish me Mera hath batati aur mera khayal rakhti . Lekin Sanjiv ke Bina Mera jina duswaar tha . Main bilkul hi chip si rehne lagi thi . Tab rima ke manane pe maine college mein padhana shuru Kiya . Mere sauhar ki pehchan aur Meri digree ke sahare mujhe ek achche se school me teacher ki job mil gayi aur mera samay guzarne laga . Bachcho ki padhane mein aur Phir aakar Sagar ki parvarish mein samay kaha guzarjata pata hi Nahi chalta tha . Yun hi din bitate Gaye aur Phir
maine rima ki shadi Kar Di . Woh Apne sasural chali gayi toh mein bilkul akeli ho gayi . Sagar ab 6 Saal Ka Hogaya tha . Rima ab bhi mere khayal rakhti thi. Aur mera hosala Bhi badhati . School me man laga rehta tha lekin Raat Kaha katani thi. Ek bewa ki halat sirf Woh hi samajh Sakti hai. Sanjiv ke Bina mujhe Kuch achcha nahi Lagta tha . Rima ke kehne par hum be Sagar ki bording mein bhej Diya . Maine pehle toh mana Kiya tha lekin mujhe rima ki baat aakhir me Sahi lagi. Achche education aur samjh ko viksit Karne ke liye use self independent banane ke liye Woh jaruri tha . Sagar ke hostel Jane me bad toh main Puri Tarah se akeli ho gayi. Ab Maine time pass ke liye samko 2 ghanto tution classes Bhi chali kiye . Rima me mujhe dusri shadi ke liye kafi baar samjhaya but mujhe Sanjiv ke alawa Kuch sujhta hi Nahi tha . Mere liye unke bad Sab Kuch khatm tha . Lekin man ko manana alag baat Hoti hai aur jismaani pyas alag chij hai...
