Gyarvi Qist
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darr khuaf fikr se meri kanpati par paseene ki ek boond ubhari aur fir neeche bahti hui mere kan mein ghus gai...
sunny ke dost mera darra hua face dekh kar ankhon se hasne lage. aur dusre student jo mere pass kuch doori par khade the. zarur mere liye inna lilla padhne lag gaye honge....
life hamesha ke liye hungamon ki nazar hone wali thi... yaaa fir----???
yaaa fir-----????
lauda... lauda... lauda... bhenchod ab aisa bhi buzdil chuha nahi tha main.. shahid ko maut ke ghat utaar gaya tha apni family ki izzat ke liye.. ab bhi wahi khatra ban raha tha. izzat to meri bhi pure college mein mitti mein mil rahi thi. lanat hai fir is zindagi par. lanat hai.. lanat hai.. lanat hai..
leleti aur cele jaisiyon ka darr mere dil se nikal gaya tha. maut to mujhe wahan bhi aa sakti thi. family ke liye darr to dil se jaayega nahi. ye darr asal mein pyaar tha meri apni ammi jan aur bahno ke liye. ye darr hamesha rahne wala tha.
sunny ke dost ke hath mein meri kalai thi. aur pakad bohut strong thi. mai uski pakad aur bat sunkar darr gaya tha. mere chahre par hawaiyan udne lagi thi. jise dekh woh saale honto se muskura pade the. ankhon se hasne lage the. sabhi dusre students mere upar inna lilla padhne lage the.
mai sunny ke dost ko dekhta hua ek jhatke se apni kalai chhudwa gaya. 2 din ki malish ne hi mujhe kuch energy bakhsh di thi. lekin mujhe darra hua dekh kar sunny ke dost ki pakad kuch kamzor ho chuki thi.
mai apni kalai ko dusre hath se pakad kar sahlata hua bola -- sunny ki bahan tumhari bhi bahan hui. fir sunny mera "woh" hua to tum bhi wahi hue na fir.. isliye mere sath tameez se baat karo..
aisa bol kar maine college students ke saamne apni image bahaal kar li thi. aur sunny ke dost mujhe ghoorne lage. andr se mera darr ab bhi nahi gaya tha. lekin upar se mai ab relax ho gaya tha..
mai -- jaao ja kar apni bahna ko sambhalo. mai to yahin hon.. karachi jitna tumhara ha. utna hi mera bhi hai.. hum sab ne karachi mein hi rahna ha. bar bar milte rahna hai. aamna saamna hote rahna ha...
fir mai baat ko lightly aur funny banate hue bola -- na to mai bhag sakta hon karachi chhod kar.. naaaaaa... na hi tum sab mujhe bhagne doge..
akhri bat par woh muskura pade the. jisne meri kalai pakadi thi.. hasta hua bola -- samjhdar ho
mai bhi ek smile se bola -- jaise saale waisa jija
aur sab ab mujhe ghoorne lage. lekin ek mere pass khada raha.. dusre sab udhar jane lage. jidhar sunny aur roshana gaye the
ab mai students ko dekhne laga. jo ab mujhe hairat se dekh rahe the. mostly mere jaanne wale the. aaj se pahle mai aisa ban kabhi saaamne nahi aaya tha. mai sab ko dekh smile karne laga. sab aur bhi hairan hone lage
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roshana ro rahi thi. uski ankhon mein laad bhi tha. ye dekh aur jaan kar mai hairan rah gaya tha. ye wali roshana to koi aur hi thi
sunny aur mai hi roshana ke pass the. college ke lawn mein hum teeno bethe hue the. sunny ke dost kuch door khade hue the
sunny apni bahan ke liye gahri fikr se bola tha -- dekho.. jo hua, manta hon meri galti hai. lekin ab mai apni galati sudhaar raha hon na.. dekho, maine kabhi kisi se sorry nahi boli.. aaj tumse aur (mujhe dekh kar) hamza se sorry bolta hon.
roshana roti hui boli -- apni ana ko maar kar main bhul kr bethi. aisi hi main besharam hoti. to bohut pahle hi hamza se apne pyaar kar izhaar kar deti. tum aaye, to meri zubaan phisal gai. aur hamza ne bhi mujhe sabke saamne zaleel kar dia. ye kah kar, hamza mujhse pyaar nahi karta.
sunny ne ab mujhe ghoora. saala pahle sorry bol raha tha. ab ghoorne laga
sunny -- ye bhi tumse pyaar karega roshana. tumhara siva hamza ab kisi aur se pyaar kar hi nahi sakta.
sunny ki ankhon mein basi sakhti aur lahje ki mazbuti thi.
roshana aur bhi zayada dukh se roti hui boli -- pyaar bheek mein milne wali chiz nahi ha sunny.. aaj pahli bar hamza ne mujhse baat kri. tum beech mei naa aate to zarur mere pyar ko samjh kar hamza bhi mujhse pyaar karne lagta. lekin tumne sara kam hi kharab nahi kar dia. mera pyaar bhi mujhse chheen lia. mujhe aur mere pyar ko pure college ke saamne ruswa kar dia. hamza ko bhi sabke samne zaleel kar dala.
sunny par mujhe gussa aa raha tha to roshana ki baaten sunkar mai hairaton ke samandr mein khote lagata ja raha tha.
sunny thode ghusse se bola -- to kyaa tum chahti ho. mai hamza ke pair pakad loon
aur roshana kanp uthi. firse sunny se darr gai. sath hi uski ankhon se do ansu aur tapke. sisak padi
sunny pighalne laga, machalne laga. fr mujhe dekh mera hath thaam kar sorry bolne laga
sunny -- dekho hamza.. mai aur type ka larka hon. mujhe narmi se baat karni nahi aati. mai garmi khor hon. apni bahan ke liye aaj pahli bar mai itna narm padh raha hon. tum samjh sakte ho to samjh lo
mai sunny ko dekh bola -- sunny!.. agar tum samjhte ho!.. main tumse darr gaya hon to main tumhe bata don. tum sahi ho.. mai waaki mein tumse darr gaya tha.. darr kyaa hai??.. darr to tumhari ankhon mein hai apni bahan ke liye. apnu ke liye mohabbat ki surat darr har ek dil mein hota hai.. meri nazar mein tumhari hasiyat se awara gangter larke se badhkar nahi thi. lekin is pal se tumhari image tumhari nazaron mein apni hasiyat badal chuki hai(meri samjhdari)... yahi hai tumhari asal. ab suno meri asal. roshana ki pahli nazar mein hi maine apne liye pyaar ko jan lia tha..(jhut)..... lekin main college padhne ke liye aata tha. na keh pyaar ke chakkar mein padhne ke liye. lekin kal ki roshana aur aaj ki roshana mein zameen asmaan ka fark hai....(jhut par jhut)... mai roshana ke pyaar ki kadr karta hon. aam larkon ki tarah roshana ki khoobsurati aur daulat ko dekh kar haan nahi karunga. pyaar ka izhaar nahi karunga. lekin---??
maine dono ke dilon ki dhadkane badha di thi.. sunny pahli bar mujhe hairani se dekhta mujhe dikha. roshana aas aur yass ki tasveer bani mujhe dekh rahi thi.
mai -- roshana ke pyaar ki mai kadar bhi karta hon aur ab se roshana ke pyaar ko nazar andaz bhi nahi karunga. zaruri nahi hai, payar hi ho. tabhi ek larki aur ek larka karib hote han. unki shadi hoti hai.. kya tumhare parents ki love marriage thi. yakeenan nahi hogi.. aise hi kai is college mein aise hain. jinke parents sahi se shadi se pahle ek dusre ko jante bhi nahi the. roshana life partner ki surat mere liye best se best rahegi. lekin abhi in baaton ke sochne se badhkar life mein kuchh banne ka waqt hai.. isliye in baaton ko abhi chhod dete hain. aane wale waqt ke liye rakh chhodte hain.. aaj se mai aur roshana best friend bankar jiyenge.
roshana khil uthi thi. maine jaisi chalaki se lafzon ki hera pheri ki thi. uski ana bhi zinda ho gai thi. usay uska pyaar bhi mil gaya tha. (bhale hi mujhe nahi mila tha. mujhe to isse pyaar tha hi nahi).. sunny bhi meri saaf goi par khasa impress hua.
sunny -- ab main dil ki gahraiyon se tumse sorry bolta hon. tumne khul kar baat kari hai. dil mein kuch bhi nahi rahne dia. tum mujhse darr kar meri roshana se pyar ka ikrar kar lete. lekin mai bhi samjhta hon. ye tumpar jabar bhi hota aur meri bahan ko uski sachi khushiyan bhi nahi milti.
roshana ko dekh sunny bola -- lekin main dekh raha hon. tumhari saaf goi se meri bahan khil uthi hai.
roshana ne sunny ka hath pakad lia -- han sunny.. hamza ne jo ye kah kar mera dil tod dia tha. meri anaa ko thes pohnchai thi. "hamza mujhse pyaar nahi karta hai".. mere dil ke ghav bhar diye hai hamza hai.. mujhe mere pyar par pura pura yakeen ha, hamza bhi mujhse mere jitna pyaar karne lagega..
bass bala tal gai thi. lekin meri pareshani ye soch kar badh gai thi. abhi ye roshana ka matter tha. saala shahid ki waja se mere andr jaisi attration paida ho gai thi. aur najane ki kitni roshana meri zinadgi mein aane wali thi. kitni mujhpar lattu hone wali thi. aur kitniyon ke bhai meri jaan ke peeche padne wale the. abhi tak to main khandan ki larkiyon se mila hi nahi tha.. sab ki sab mere peeche pad jaati. meri bahno ke shoharon ki families ki larkiyan.. sab ek bar mere karib hoti to fir umar bhar ke liye mere karib hone ki soch jati. fr apne apne ghar walun ko force karne lagti. pressure meri bahno par badhta.. aur bahne apne ghar bachane ke liye mere aage hath jodne wali thi...
aahh saale shahid kutte ye tuney mere sath kyaa kiyaaaaa... kyaa kutti chiz tuney mujhe pila di
college mein mai khasa upset raha. lekin roshana ki smile ke badle meethi smile pass karna meri majburi thi..
college se wapsi par ghar ja raha tha. yahi sari sochen dimag mein aaye ja rahi thi...
mai dil hi dil mein shahid ko galiyan deta ja raha tha. ekdum se leleti aur cele meri sochon par kabza jama gai.. aur full traffic wale road par mai ekdum se break laga gya.. ek sath kai horn baje. kuch bikes aur cars mere left right side se badi speed se guzari
mai marte marte bacha tha.. mai ghabraya hau tha. marte marte bacha to aur ghabara gaya. jaldi se break par se paon hataya aur aage badh ek side motorcycle rok sir pakad kar rah gya
aahh leleti aur cele to meri daily maalish kar kar ke meri attraction ko aur bhi zayada badhane wali thi.. ammi jan meri ammi jaan hokar mere liye pagal hone lagi thi. baki koi aur kaise khud ko sambhal sakti thi..
ye aisi pareshankun baat thi. mujhe paseena aana laga. fir ek faisla dil mein karta hua main kick maar ghar ke liye nikal pada.. ghar pohnch maine ammi jan ko bejan lahje mein salam kia.. ammi jan hairan rah gai.
lekin mai unhe bina dekhe apne kamre mein ghusa aur door andr se kundi kar gaya
bed par ja betha aur fir se sir pakad kar beth gaya. ammi jaan aai aur door ko band jaan kar zor se peet ti hui preshani bhari awaz mein boli
ammi jan -- kyaa hua hamza.. tum kisi baat par pareshan ho naa. darwaza kholo hamza. maa sadqe. mera dil tujhe pareshan nahi dekh sakta..
ammi jan musalsal darwaze peete ja rahi thi. sath bolti ja rahi thi. unki awaz mein mere liye gahri fikr o pareshani thi. mai utha aur ja darwaze ki kundi khol kar wapis se bed par ja betha.. ammi jaan kundi khulne ki awaz par darwaza khol andr aai. mere aise chup chap se kamre mein aane, fir unse koi bhi baat kiye bina, door ko andr se kundi karke band ho jaane par bohut zayada pareshan ho gai thi.
lekin........ aahh wahi gadbad firse ho gai. mere karib aane par ammi jan ki mere liye pareshani azeem chahat mein badal gai. wo jo pal bhar pahle preshani bhare lahje mein mujhse meri pareshani baare poochhne wali thi. mere sath lag kar bethi aur japhi daal kar, apne mumme mere side bazu aur chhaati ke sath kassti hui mere gaal ko chum kar boli
ammi jan ke lahje mein chahat ka samandr maujzan tha -- mera beta kis baat par pareshan hai. mai kis liye hon. mera pyaar mere bete ki har pareshani ko door kar dega
aur ammi jan ke lahje mein hamesha se badhkar apne liye chahat dekh mere toote udne lage. college mein aisi hawaiyan nahi udi thi mere chahre par. jaisi ab udne lagi
ammi jan mere ek gaal par hath rakh lovers ke jaise ungliyan ferti hui dusre gaal par hont rakh chumti hui boli -- ek to tu mere karib aane par pata nahi ghabrane kyun laga hai. bidakne lagta hai. kyaa mera pyaar tujhe pyaar karna pasand nahi hai..
ammi jan ye lafz aam routine ke hisab se bolti to dukh bhara hota ammi jan ke lahje mein. lekin yahan to maamla hi ulat tha. ammi jan gahri chahat bhar kar bole ja rahi thi. mujhe thanda paseene aane laga
ammi jan meri halat dekh muskurai.mere gaal par ek baar firse kiss kari. fir mujhe bed par lita kar mere upar jhuk gai. aur meri ghighi bandh gai. ammi jan jhuki to unke saare hi mumme khule greban se jhalakte dikhai dene lage
mai dekhne laga. ammi jan pyaar bhari khafgi aur ek hasi ke sath boli
ammi jan -- maa ke yahan nahi dekhte hai hamza beta
aur ammi jan aur bhi zayada jhuk kar mere mathe par kiss kar gai. ammi jan ke latakte mumme jo shayad bra se azaad the. mere seene par lage to kanton se chubhne lage mujhe..
ammi jan ke honto ki hilawat aaj kuch alag hi thi. ammi jan mere mathe ko chum kar mere dono gaalon par ko bari bari chumne lagi. fir sir aur mumme uthaye to meri nazar firse unpar pad gai. mai ekdum se hi khud ke kabu se bahar hone laga tha.. mere hont aur mera gala sookhne laga. gore mumme mai pahli bar live itne karib se dekh raha tha. wo bhi apni ammi jan ke.. chudai ke lund ko adat si padne lagi thi mood mein aane ki. so wo ammi jan ke mumme dekh mood mein aane laga
aur ammi jan mere gaal par hath fer mujhe meethi nigah se ghoor boli -- tum fir dekhne lage. kaha na bete nahi dekhta maa ke seene
mai thuk nigalta hua bola -- fir bhi beta dekh le. bar bar dekhna chahe to
aur ammi jan ki ankhon mein khushi bhari chamak ubhar aai -- to mai apne bete ko mana to nahi karungi..
sharam ki surkhi bhi thi ammi jan ki ankhon mein. lekin meri attraction.. aahh
aaj ammi jan bhi out of control hui ja rahi thi aur main bhi.. mera lund speed se akadne laga. aur underwear phaad kar bahar nikalne ke liye betab hone laga
ammi jan mujhpar puri tarah se chhaaii mere pure chahre ko chumne lagi..
aur main nahi jaanta tha. aaj wo tufan aane wala hai. jo mere andr ki dunya ko pura ka pura hi badal dene wala tha.. aaj first sudden encounter with ammi jan hone wala tha..
uske bad woh hone wala tha.. jo na to maine socha tha aur na ammi jan ne... sharam wali ammi mere pass hi aa kar be kabu hua karti thi. door ho jane par uski sochen aur hua karti thi. bete ke sath physical hone ke baare mein wo soch bhi nahi sakti thi..
lekin beda gharak ho mar chuke shahid ka.. kutte kameene ne meri zindagi mein bhuchal laa dia tha.. ammi jan bar bar apne latakte mumme mere seene par dabati mere upar jhuk kar mere pure chahre ko chumne lagi.
ammi jan madhoshi bhari chahat bhari awaz mein bol thi rahi thi -- aaj main mere bete, meri jaann ki sari pareshaniyan door kar dungi.
pareshaniyan dooor kar dengi??????????????????????. kyaaaa sach mein!...
yaaaaaaaa firrrrrrrrrrr------???????????