Episode No 2
Khala Jamila ne shaadi k baad Punjab University se Urdu mein MA kiya tha aur mujhe Urdu k mazmoon mein hamaisha mushkil ka saamna raha tha. Khaas tor par mujhe sha’airi samajh hi nahi aati thi. Agar main khala Jamila se parrhne rozana un k ghar chala jaya karu to saara masla hal ho sakta tha. Is tarah main un k bohat qareeb reh kar un k badan ka ji bhar k mushahida kar sakta tha. Ye bhi mumkin tha k aaj ki tarah mujhe kabhi dobaara bhi khala Jamila ko thorra bohat nanga daikhne ka moqa mil jata.
Ye sochte hue mere zehan par cha’ii hui ranj ki kaifiyat taizi se khatam hone lagi. Shaam ko main apni ammi se kaha,
Main: “Ammi mujhe Urdu k mazmoon mein mushkil paish aa rahi hai kiyon na main khala Jamila se Urdu ka course parrh loon.”
Main apne school ka beg saath laya tha chuttion ka kaam jo karna tha ammi ne meri baat sunni or kaha,
Ammi: “ Haan kiyon nahi Jamila zaroor tumhe course khatam kara de gi.”
Main ne foran khala Jamila ko lendline k number se phone kiya aur Urdu k mazmoon mein un se madad chahi. Khala ne kaha,
Khala: “Koun nahi ye to achi baat hai tum roz shaam ko aa jea karo main tumhain parrha diya karaun gi bal-k apni dono behno ko bhi le aaya karna un ka bhi fa’aida ho jaiy ga.”
Main ne jaldi se kaha,
Sajid: “Unhe to koi aisa masla nahi hai jab barri classes mein ja’ain geen to dekha jaega.”
Khala: “Theek hai tum jab chaho aa sakte ho.”
Ye kaam meri marzi k mutaabiq ho gaya tha aur mere raaste mein koi aur rukawat bhi nahi thi. Ilyaas college ki cricket team ka member tha aur roz dopehar ko practice karne jaea karta tha. Us ki waapsi raat se pehle nahi hoti thi. Khalu Ahsaan bhi Bank se kaafi late waapas aate thy. Is doraan khala Jamila ghar par bilkul akeili hoti theen. Mere liye bohat munasib tha k main 3/30 baje khala Jamila k haan puhanch jaya karun. Lehaza main agle din se hi un k ghar jane laga. Khala Jamila mere saath baith kar mujhe parrhaati theen aur main barre qareeb se un k mammon aur chootarron ka mua’ana karta rehta tha. Main un k ghar 3/4 ghante guzaarta tha. Parrhai bhi ho jaati thi aur khala Jamila k qareeb rehne ka moqa bhi mil jaata tha.
Khala Jamila k liye bhi mera roz un k ghar aana kaafi faa’idamand saabit ho raha tha. Wo taqreeban saara din hi ghar mein akeili hoti theen aur mere aa jaane se unhe na sirf gup shup k liye aik saathi muyasar aa gaya tha bal-k ghar k kaamon mein bhi main barre kholoos se un ki madad kar diya karta tha. Wo apne dil mein mere liye aur ziyaada muhabbat aur shafqat mehsoos karne lagi theen kiyonk main un ka har kaam bhaag bhaag kar karta tha. Ye kehna ghalat nahi ho ga k main ne un ki zindagi aasaan kar di thi aur khala Jamila apne aap ko mera ehsaan-mand samjhne lagi theen. Wo khaas tor par mere liye khaane peene ki cheezain banateen aur har tarah se mera kheaal rakhteen.Is maamle ka aik aur nafsiyaati pehloo bhi tha. Khala Jamila ka baita Ilyaas iklota hone k bawajood un k ziyaada qareeb nahi tha. Wo yaaron doston mein magan rehne waala la-ubaali aur sar-phira larrka tha aur saari zindagi seedhe raste par chalne ki talqeen karne waali ma’an ki rok tok usssy pasand nahi thi. Khala Jamila ko hamaisha is baat ka gila raha ka Ilyaas na-farmaan hai. Shayad main ne kisi had tak Ilyaas ki kami poori kar k un k dil mein ghar kar liya tha.
Jis maqsad k liye main ne Khala Jamila k haan jaana shuru kiya tha wo bhi barri had tak poora ho raha tha. Ghar se baahar insaan zara zaahir-daari aur takaluf se kaam laita hai lekin ghar k andar zindagi mein be-tarteebi hoti hai aur rakh rakhao ka kheaal nahi kiya jaata. Khala Jamila k saath bhi yehi kuch ho raha tha. Jab main roz un k ghar jaane laga to rafta rafta unho ne saare takulaffaat bala-e-taaq rakh die aur poori tarah relax ho gaeen. Shuru shuru mein dopatta un k seene par hota tha lekin phir unho ne mere saamne dopatta laina bilkul chorr diya. Wo waise bhi ghar mein dopata nahi laiti theen. Khala Jamila ne dopata laina kia chorra meri to jaise mann ki muraad bar aa’i. Ab Khala Jamila k tane hue mote mamme teen chaar ghante tak mere saamne hote aur main ji bhar k un k ubhaaron aur golaaiyon ko daikh daikh kar apni aankhon ki piyaas bhujaata. Dono khala bhanja ab kaafi be-takalluf bhi ho gaiy thy.
Main ne Khala Jamila k ghar aana jaana to mehaz un k qareeb rehne k liye shuru kiya tha magar ab halaat aik nai karwat le rahe thy. Main ye jaan gaya tha k apni khala ko raam karna bhi bilkul aisa hi hai jaise kisi doosri aurat ko raam karna. Haan ye farq zaroor tha k deegar auraton k muqaable mein Khala Jamila ko phudi marwaane par raazi karna kahin ziyaada mehnat-talab kaam tha. Lekin baharhaal theen to wo bhi aik aurat hi aur un ki nafsiyaati kamzoriyaan bhi wohi theen jo baaqi saari auraton ki hoti hain.Un se apne naazuk rishte ko nazar mein rakh kar main ne hamesha barri ehtiyaat se kaam liya tha ta k khala Jamila ko ye pata na chalne pa’aiy k main un ki phudi laina chahta hoon. Main un ki nazar bacha kar hi un k mammon ya gand ko daikha karta tha. Lekin is k saath saath main barri hoshiyaari se waqtan-fa-waqtan un ki khubsurti ki tareef bhi muhtaat alfaaz mein kar diya karta tha. Yehi waja thi k mujhe un k bohat ziyaada qareeb ho jaane mein koi khaas waqt nahi laga.
Khud Khala Jamila bhi ab apne ghar mein meri mojoodgi ki aadi ho gai theen. Agar kabhi mujhe kisi waja se aane mein dair ho jaati to wo be-sabri se mera intazaar karti rehteen. Wo apne bhanje ki sohbat aur rafaaqat ko barri qadr ki nigaah se daikhne lagi theen magar is ka ye matlab nahi tha k un k dil mein mere liye koi ghalat khyaal tha. Aisa to un k weham-o-gumaan mein bhi nahi tha. Un ki parwarish jis maahol mein hui thi wahaan is qisam ki soch ki koi gunja’aish nahi thi. Lekin is k bawajood un k zehan k kisi door daraaz khufya ghoshe mein ye halka halka ehsaas zaroor mojood tha k main unhe pasand karta hoon. La-shaoori sateh par hi sahi magar ye ehsaas wajood zaroor rakhta tha. Poori dunya mein main hi wo waahid insaan tha jo har baat mein unhe wazeh tor par ehmiyat daita tha aur wo is haqeeqat se aagaah ho chuki theen k ye ehmiyat un k aur mere rishte ki waja se kam aur un ki shakhsiyat aur khoobsoorti ki waja se ziyaada thi.
Bhanje ka apni khala se posheeda ishq dheere dheeary parwaan charrh raha tha. Ishq saare hi haijaan-khaiz hote hain lekin us ishq ki haijaan-khaizi hazaar guna barrh jaati hai jise dunya gunaah ka naam de. Har mamnooa cheez ko jald-az-jald paane ki khaahish karna insaan ki fitrat hai. Main bhi ab be-sabra hota ja raha tha. Jismaani milaap se pehle aurat ka badan bhi deegar nasha-aawar ashya jaisa hi hota hai. Pehle pehal thorri miqdaar se bhi theek thaak saroor aa jaata hai magar phir rafta rafta us saroor ko qeum rakhne k liye dose barrhaana parta hai. Kuch din pehle tak Khala Jamila dopatte mein bhi mere dimaagh ki choolain hila diya karti theen. Phir un k ghar aane jaane se mujhe un k mammon ko dopatte k baghair daikhne ka moqa mila to mera nasha do-aatisha ho gaya. Magar ab main is se bhi aik qadam aage ja kar unhe bilkul nanga daikhne ka khahishmand tha. Roz-ba-roz ye khaahish barrhti ja rahi thi.
Khala Jamila ghar ka kaam khatam kar k roz nahaea karti theen. Main ne socha k agar main kisi tarah ghusal khaane mein jhaank saka to unhe bilkul nanga daikh sakta hoon. Khala Jamila k ghusal khane mein plastic ka aik chota exhaust fan laga hua tha jo andar ki hawa bahar sehan ki chatt par nikaalta tha. Agar main exhaust fan ki jaali hata laita hoon to kisi ki nazar mein aa’iy baghair barri aasaani se unhe nahaate hue daikh sakta hoon. Aik din main ne chatt par charh kar fan ki jaali nikaal li aur us k taar kaat di. Ab fan chal nahi sakta tha. Agle din Khala Jamila nahaane k liye ghusal khane mein gaeen to main sehan ki chatt par charrh gaya aur exhaust fan k gol soorakh se andar jhaanka.
Khala Jamila apne baalon se clip khol kar utaar rahi theen. Phir unho ne apni kameez ka daaman aage se upar uthaea aur ussey ulat kar utaar diya. Main ne daikha k un k mote mote mammon k ubhaar neele rang k aik barre se bra mein band thy. Un k bhaari mamme bra k andar barre saleeqe se tane hue nazar aa rahe thy lekin un k size ki waja se bra mein bohat ziyaada khinchao nazar aa raha tha. Bra ki banaawat aisi thi k Khala Jamila k aadhe se ziyaada mamme nange thy. Bra k dabaao ne dono mammon ko upar utha diya tha aur un k aapas mein jurr jaane se aik barri gehri aur lambi lakeer ban gai thi. Un k bra k upar neele rang k hi phool ubhre hue thy. Bra k straps chorre aur kaafi barre thy. Ye us bra ki achi quality ka hi kamaal tha k Khala Jamila k bhaari aur be-qaaboo mamme us k andar kisi qisam ki harkat nahi kar pa rahe thy. Sang-e-mar mar jaise khubsurat, chikne aur safaid badan par un k mote taaze mamme niswaani husan ka behtareen namoona thy.Khala Jamila ne apni ungliyon mein pehni hui do angoothiyan utaar kar sink par rakheen aur apne dono haath peeche kamar ki taraf le ja kar bra ka hook khola aur ussey apne mammon se juda kar diya. Do mote mote gol aur bhaari mamme taqreeban uchal kar mere saamne aa ga’iy. Meri aankhain phatti ki phatti reh gaeen. Waaqai Khala Jamila k mamme be-intiha mote aur barre thy. Main xxx movies main bohat si auraton k rang barange mamme daikh chuka tha lekin phir bhi apni khala k nange mamme daikh kar main hairat-zada reh gaya. Zindagi mein kabhi itne mote, barre aur bharpoor mamme meri nazar se nahi guzre thy. Khala Jamila k phoole hue mammon ki wazni golaiyaan un k seene par barre gharoor se phaili hui theen. Un k mamme chamakte hue safaid rang k thy jin k beechon beech surkhi-ma’ail halke brown rang k bilkul gol paiwand thy jo 3 ya 3 ½ inch barre zaroor hon ge. In dono paiwandon k beech mein aik aik mota aur ubhra hua nipple akarr kar kharra tha. Khala Jamila ne saamne lage hue aa’eene mein apne chehre ka ja’aiza laite hue apne dono mammon par haath phaira to wo barre tabah-kun andaaz mein hilne lage. Phir unho ne apna aik mamma uthaea aur us k neeche haath phaira. Mujhe apni saans band hoti mehsoos hui.Main ne Khala Jamila k pait ko bhi barre ghor se daikha. Un ka pait gudaaz, gol aur bhara bhara sa tha. Pait ki halki halki larzish bata rahi thi k wo naram-o-nazuk aur muleam hai. Mammon se neeche patli kamar ki waja se un ka pait bhi zara chota tha lekin chootarron ki taraf jaate jaate chorra aur barra ho jaata tha. Naaf ka garrha kaafi barra aur gol tha magar aise lagta tha jaise kisi ne ussay chutki se pakarr kar upar ki taraf khainch diya ho. Isi liye un ki naaf gol se ziyaada baizvi shakal ki thi. Khala Jamila ki naaf un k mote mammon k barre barre nipples k saath mil kar aik ajeeb tarah ki tikon ya musalas banaati thi jis se un ka pait aur bhi khubsurat lagta tha. Hairat angaiz tor par un ka pait saaf shaffaaf tha aur us par kisi qisam ki koi shikan ya nishaan nahi tha.
Un ki shalwaar laastic waali thi jise unho ne neeche khaincha aur apne pa’aon us mein se nikaal liye. Ab main Khala Jamila k chootarr, raanain aur phudi ko bilkul nanga daikh sakta tha. Aaj meri samajh mein aaya k hourglass badan kis qyamat ka naam hai. Khala Jamila ki kamar un k mammon aur gand k muqaable mein barre wazeh tor par patli aur choti thi. Un k chootarron aur kamar k size mein bohat farq tha. Un ki taangain badan k upari hisse ki lambai k lihaaz se barri mutanaasib theen. Gol aur mote chootarron ka rang barra ajeeb tha. Taiz lashkaare maarta hua safaid. Khala Jamila k kase hue chootarron par kahin kahin surkhi si ubhri hui nazar aa rahi thi. Wo qadam uthaateen to un k chootarron mein gol gol gharrhe parrne lagte. Side se daikhne par un k chootarr kaafi ziyaada baahar nikle hue dikhai daite thy. Bohat koshish k bawajood main un ki gand ka soorakh nahi daikh saka jo un k chootarron k andar kahin chupa hua tha. Raanain moti theen jinki gehrai mein mojood un ki phudi bhi mujhe poori tarah nazar nahi aa rahi thi. Naaf se chand inch neeche chote chote lekin be-had ghane kaale siyaah baal thy jo neeche un ki phudi tak chale jaate thy. Un ki poori phudi inn baalon ne dhaamp rakhi thi. Thorri dair mazeed un k khoobsoorat nange badan ka nazaara karne k baad main barri khaamoshi se neeche utar aaya. Us raat mere muth maarne mein be-panaah josh aur walwala tha.
Us se agle din parrhai khatam karne k baad main aur Khala Jamila baithy coke pi rahe thy. Main ne kaha,
Main: “Khala jan aap deit coke kiyon peeti hain mujhe to ye karrvi si lagti hai.”
Khala Jamila ne hans kar jawaab diya,
Khala: “Baite wazan kam karne k liye cheeni se parhaiz karti hoon. Itni moti sandi jo hoon. Deit coke mein cheeni nahi hoti isi liye peeti hoon.”
Main: ““Khala jan aap moti bilkul nahi hain. Aap ki haddiyaan barri barri aur chorri hain aur is laiy badan bhi thorra bhaari hai lekin barra kasa hua hai latka hua aur be-hangum nahi. Aisa badan to larrkiyon ka bhi nahi hota.”
Khala: “Phir bhi Sajid baite mein wazan kam karna chahti hoon magar kaamyaabi nahi hoti.”
Unho ne apni tareef sun kar khushi mehsoos ki magar us ka izhaar karne se guraiz kiya. Main ne kaha,
Main: “Aap kisi had tak dubli to ho sakti hain magar aap k badan ka har hisa chota nahi ho sakta.”
Khala: “Wo kiyon?”
Main ne dopatte k baghair Khala Jamila k mote mote mammon ko daikhte hue kaha,
Main: “Khala jan aap k seene aur chootarron ka size kaafi barra hai aur ye itni aasaani se kam nahi hon ge.”
Khala Jamila ka chehra apne mammon aur chootarron k zikar par halka sa laal ho gaya. Khala Jamila thorra sharmate huye,
Khala: “Baite inhi hisson ko to chota karna chahti hoon.”
Main: “Mushkil hai khala jan k aap ka seena kam ho sakay.” main ne duhraea. “Waise aap kis number ka bra istimaal karti hain?.”
Is sawaal par Khala Jamila aik lamhe k liye garrbarra gaeen lekin phir boleen,
Khala: “Zaahir hai large size ka. Aur mujhe kon sa number poora a’aiy ga.”
Main ne mehsoos kar liya tha k Khala Jamila meri baatain sun kar ghuse mein nahi aa raheen bal-k mehaz halki si sharm mehsoos kar rahi hain meri himmat aur barrh gai. Main ne kaha,
Main: “Lekin khala jan aap kiyon apne badan k sab se khubsurat hisse ko chota karna chahti hain. Aap ki tarah k mammon k liye to auratain America aur England mein hazaron dollar kharch karti hain.”
Main ne ab saaf tor par un k mammon ka tazkira taareefi andaaz mein kiya tha. Unho ne hans kar ghair iraadi tor par gardan neeche kar k apne mammon par nazar daali aur kaha,
Khala: “Ha’e Sajid pata nahi wo kaisi auratain hain mein to barri tang hoon. Chobees ghante bila-waja itna wazan kon utha’iy phire.”
Wo is guftagoo se nervous ho rahi theen. Main bilkul normal lehje mein baat kar raha tha. Main ne kaha,
Main “Aap k mamme large size se bhi barre hain khala jan. Aap ko large se bhi barra bra poora aata ho ga.”
Khala: “Nahi, nahi Sajid baite ab maire itne barre bhi nahi hain jitna tum samajh rahe ho.”
Main: “Khala jan shart lagi k aap k mamme kam az kam 45 inch k hain.” Main ne zara pur-josh andaaz mein apne dono haathon ko aik doosre k qareeb laate hue un k mammon ka size banaya.
Ab main unhe kaise bataata k main ne nahaate hue un k mammon ko khoob achi tarah daikh liya tha.
Khala: “Mein koi bhains hoon kia jo mere itne barre hon ge?” Unho ne be-tahaasha hanste hue kaha.
Un k safaid khubsurat daant qataar-andar-qataar mujhe nazar aa rahe thy. Main ne barre wasooq se kaha,
Main: “Bilkul hain. Mein hazaar rupe ki shart lagaata hoon k itne hi barre hain.”
Khala: “Nahi Sajid baite aisa ho hi nahi sakta. Ye barre zaroor hain magar itne bhi nahi.” Khala Jamila ne bhi meri naqal karte hue haathon se ishaara kiya.
Un k gol, sidool bazoo hawa mein lehra’aiy. Pata nahi kiyon unhe hansi aa’aiy ja rahi thi.
Aisa lagta tha jaise wo in baaton se beak-waqt khush bhi ho rahi theen aur kuch be-chaini bhi mehsoos kar rahi theen. Aag aur paani ka khail jaari tha. Main ne kaha,
Main: “To chalain khala jan naap kar daikh laite hain. Abhi pata chal ja’aiy ga.”
Ye keh kar main utha aur taizi se us almaari ki taraf barrha jahan darziyon waala aam feeta rakha hota tha. Main ne feeta almaari se nikaala aur wapas Khala Jamila ki taraf aa gaya. Unho ne haath utha kar mujhe rokne ki koshish.
Khala: “Ha’aiy nahi nahi ye kin chakaron mein parr gaiy ho Sajid baita dafa karo.”
Main ne unhe chirraane waale andaaz mein kaha,
Main: “To phir aap shart haar gaeen na khala jan.”
Khala: “Mein khud naap le kar tumhe bata doon gi. Abhi to tum aaraam se baitho.”
Un k lehje se saaf lag raha tha jaise wo ab is mozoo par mazeed baat na karna chahti hon. Main apni baat par arra raha.
Main: “Nahi khala jan ab to aap ko naap daina hi parre ga. Aap kharri to hon.”
Khala Jamila ko chaar-o-nachaar kharra hona hi parra. Main ne feeta un ki kamar k gird ghumaea aur un k mote mote mammon k saamne le aaya. Main ne un k mammon k ubhaaron ko daikhte hue kaha,
Main: “Khala jan app apne dono bazoo seedhe kar k side par rakhain.”
Unho ne aisa hi kiya. Feeta un k dono barre barre mammon ki sides mein dhansa hua tha. main feete ko pakarr kar un k mammon k bilkul beech mein le aaya. Main ne unhe thorra muztarib hote hue daikh kar kaha,
Main: “Khala jan seene k naap laine ka sahi tareeqa ye hai k feeta nipples k upar a’aiy warna naap ghalat ho jaata hai.”
Unho ne sar hila diya. Feeta un k seene par theek karte karte main ne yak-lakht Khala Jamila ka aik mota mamma haath mein pakarr liya. Main aisa zaahir kar raha tha jaise darust naap laine k liye feete ko un k mammon par sahi jagah rakh raha hoon. Un k mammon mein narmi k saath saath bhaari-pan aur lachak thi. Main ne un k mamme ko haath mein pakrre pakrre zara zor se dabaea. Yehi wo surkh line thi jo mujhe aboor nahi karni chahie thi.
Khala Jamila foran samajh gaeen k mere dil mein kiya hai. Unho ne ghuse se feeta mere haath se khainch kar le liya aur khud chand qadam peeche hat gaeen. Unho ne kaampti hui awaaz mein kaha,
Khala: “Sajid ye kiya be-hoodgi hai.? Mein tumhe aisa nahi samajhti thi. Maire liye to tum Ilyaas jaise ho.”
Mere liye un ka rad-e-amal zaroorat se ziyaada shadeed tha. Main sannaate mein aa gaya. Mujhe foran andaaza ho gaya k na sirf teer kamaan se nikal chuka hai bal-ke nishaana bhi khata ho gaya hai. Khala Jamila k tund-o-taiz lehje ne mere hosh gum kar die thy. Main dharrakte dil k saath mujrimon ki tarah sar jhukaiy khaamosh kharra raha. Khala ne kaha,
Khala: “Maira dil chah raha hai k jooton se tumhaari murammat karoon. Sharm aani chahie tumhe. Jo kuch tum kar rahe thy wo intihai darje ki bad-tameezi hai.”
Khala Jamila ke lehje mein ab bhi bala ki sakhti thi. Main ne pehle kabhi unhe itne ghuse mein nahi daikha tha. Main ne un ki taraf daikha aur meri aankhon se tap tap aansoo girne lage aur main hichkiyaan le le kar rone laga. Shayad Khala Jamila k munh se apne liye aise sakht alfaaz sun kar mujhe dukh hua tha ya shayad range haathon pakrre jaane par pashaimaani thi.
Mujhe bachon ki tarah rote daikh kar Khala Jamila foran chup ho gaeen aur mujhe hairat se daikhne lageen. Main ne apni kameez ki aasteen se aankhain ponchte hue barri mushkil se kaha.
Main: “Mein maafi chahta hoon Khala jan. Mein ne bohat zaleel harkat ki.”
Phir is se pehle k Khala Jamila kuch kehteen main ne apni kitaabain uthaeen aur sar jhuka kar taiz taiz qadmon se chalta hua ghar k main darwaaze se bahar nikal gaya.
Main us raat ko apne zehan mein is waqie k har pehloo ka baareek-beeni se ja’aiza laita raha. Mujhe Khala Jamila ka apne saath rawea ghair-zaroori tor par sakht laga. Apni be-izzati ka mujhe itna dukh nahi tha jitna is baat ka k ye be-izzati us aurat ne ki thi jis ki muhabbat main aik arse se apne dil mein chupaiy baitha tha. Main ne un k mamme ko zaroor haath lagaya tha magar koi khuli hui ghair-akhlaaqi harkat nahi ki thi. Khala Jamila ye nahi keh sakti theen k main ne unhe chodne ki koshish ki thi. Lekin is k bawajood un ka radd-e-amal is qisam ka tha jaise main ne beech bazaar unhe nanga kar diya ho. Wo mujhe behtar tareeqe se bhi to samjha sakti theen.
Main musalsal soche chala ja raha tha. Kia Khala Jamila khud kisi had tak is waqie ki zimadaar nahi theen? Agar wo apne mammon k zikar par hi mujhe rok daiteen to baat yahaan tak na puhanchti. Unho ne bhi to mujhe aise ishaare die thy jinhe main ne ghalat samjha. Meri baaton par un ka hansna aur chehre par surkhi. Wo sab kia tha. Agar wo is qisam ka koi ishaara daiti hi na to ye nobat kiyon aati. Unho ne bila-waja itni si baat ka batangarr bana diya. Aur aisa karte hue unhe meri koi naiki bhi yaad nahi rahi. Main ne barre dukh k saath socha. Mayoosi, be-chaargi aur mehroomi ne mil kar mere zehan par zabardast yalghaar kar di thi. Mere halaq mein jaise dhuwaan sa bharne laga.
Main ye to jaanta tha k Khala Jamila kisi se is baat ka tazkira nahi karain gi kiyonke is se khud un ki apni subki hone ka andaisha tha lekin masla ye tha k main a’ainda un ka saamna kaise kare ga. Mujhe tasleem karna parra k aaj jo kuch hua tha us ka asal zimedaar to baharhaal main khud hi tha. Mere dil mein na to apni khala ki muhabbat honi chahie thi aur na hi unhe chodne ki khahish. Is liye bunyaadi ghalti to meri hi thi. Main ne faisla kiya k main Khala Jamila ko apni zindagi se hamesha hamesha k liye nikaal doon ga. Aaj se wo mere liye mar gai theen aur main un k liye. Meri nazar saamne maiz par rakhi hui apni Urdu ki kitaab par parri aur main achanak apne aap ko barra halka phulka mehsoos karne laga.
Mere saath Khala Jamila ki jharrap ko ab chaar din beet chuk thy. Main is doraan un k ghar nahi gaya tha. Wo ab phir pehle ki tarah raat tak ghar mein akeli hoti theen. Aik din us kamre ki safai karte hue jahaan main un se parrha karta tha wahan unhain sofe k neeche zard rang ka aik ball point pen nazar aaya. Unho ne socha k ye pen yaqeenan Sajid ka hoga jo us din wo yahaan chorr gaya hoga. Wo pen utha kar bedroom mein aa gaeen aur apni dressing table par rakh diya jahaan un ki lipsticks, perfumes aur isi qisam ki doosri cheezain parri hoti theen. Unho ne dressing table k barre a’aine mein apne aap ko naaqidaana nigaahon se daikha.
Usi din shaam ko unho ne apni ammi (meri naani) k ghar phone kiya aur meri ammi yaani apni behan se baat ki. Baaton baaton mein unho ne mera poocha aur phir mujh se baat karne ki khahish ka izhaar kiya. Main apni ammi k saamne Khala Jamila se baat karne se inkaar nahi kar sakta tha. Mujhe phone par aana hi parra. Khala Jamila ne mujhe kaha,
Khala: “Tum kal dopehar k baad mere ghar aana mujhe tum se zaroori baat karni hai.”
