Chapter 47
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Subah ke theek saade cheh baj rahe the jab meri aankh khuli. Bedroom se koi aahat nahi aa rahi thi, poore ghar mein ek khamoshi chhayi hui thi. Maine bina koi deri kiye washroom jaakar muh-haath dhoya aur seedhe apne kamre ki table par baith gaya. Samne physics ki kitab khuli thi, aur maine poore dhyan ke sath ek-ek numerical hal karna shuru kiya. Mujhe pata tha ki aaj ka din hamare liye kitna bada aur yaadgar hone wala hai, aur main chahta tha ki Papa ko mujh par naaz ho. Main unke diye gaye har kaam ko waqt se pehle poora karke khud ko ek anushasit aur aagyakaari beta sabit karna chahta tha.
Lagbhag aath baje, mere darwaze par ek halki dastak hui aur darwaza khula. Papa andar dakhil hue, unhone abhi Abbu ki hi ek dheeli lungi aur t-shirt pehni hui thi. Apne Abbu ki lungi Papa ke jism par is tarah bandhi dekh kar mujhe ek ajeeb si halchal mehsus hui. Unka chehra bilkul taaza aur roabdaar lag raha tha. Unhone meri table par aakar meri copy ko uthaya aur mere kiye hue sawalon ko ghaur se check kiya. Kuch der dekhne ke baad, unke chehre par ek yakeen se bhari aur santusht muskurahat aayi. Unhone copy wapas rakhi, mere kandhe par apna bada haath rakh kar use thoda dabaya aur bole, "Wah Idris beta, bohot badhiya. Tumne saare sawal bilkul sahi tarike se hal kiye hain. Mujhe khushi hai ki tum apni padhai ko lekar itne serious ho." Phir unhone dabi aur bhari aawaz mein aage kaha, "Aaj tumhara imtihan hai ki tum apne naye Papa ke liye hamare suhaag-kamre ko kitna haseen saja sakte ho." Unke ye shabd sunkar mere jism mein ek sansani daud gayi, maine sir jhuka kar kaha, "Ji Papa, aap bilkul chinta mat kijiye, main kamre ko bilkul dulhan ke kamre ki tarah sajaunga."
Hum dono kamre se nikal kar dining table par aaye, jahan nashta pehle se hi lag chuka tha. Ammi kitchen se garam parathe aur chai lekar aayin aur hum dono ki platon mein parosna shuru kiya. Lekin unka dhang bilkul badla hua tha. Wo bilkul khamosh thin, unki nazarein lagatar neeche jheempte hue plate par jami thin aur jab wo chai ka cup Papa ke samne rakh rahi thin, toh unke haath kaanp rahe the. Unke chehre par sankoch aur ghabrahat ki surkhi is qadar chha gayi thi ki wo na toh Papa ki taraf dekh pa rahi thin aur na hi meri taraf. Unke nikah ke kapde jo unhone Abbu se shaadi ke waqt pehne the, aaj raat unhe Papa ke samne pehan-ne the—ye khayal unhe andar hi andar pighla raha tha. Nashte ke dauran dining table par ek ajeeb si aur bhaari khamoshi chhayi rahi, jismein sirf choodiyon ki khanak aur bartano ki aawaz sunayi de rahi thi.
Nashta khatam hone ke baad, Ammi kaafi jheempte hue apne bedroom mein chali gayin taaki parlor jaane ke liye taiyar ho sakein. Papa aur main hall ke sofa par baith gaye, aur Papa dheere-dheere muskurate hue mujhse aaj raat ki taiyariyon aur bedroom ki sajawat ke baare mein baat karne lage, jisse meri uttejna aur badhne lagi. Tabhi bedroom ka darwaza khula aur Ammi baahar nikal aayin. Unhone ek simple salwar kameez pehni hui thi, par unke haath mein ek bada kapdon ka bag tha, jismein unke nikah ka wahi haseen joda saaf dikh raha tha. Ammi ko us bag ke sath dekh kar meri nazarein us par jam gayin. Ammi ne jaise hi dekha ki main unke nikah ke kapdon ko dekh raha hoon, unka poora gora chehra laal-surkh ho gaya aur unhone jhijhakte hue apna sir aur neeche jhuka liya.
Jane se pehle, Papa ne achanak mujhse pucha, "Idris beta, kal raat Ammi ne jo paise diye the, wo tumne sambhal kar rakhe hain na?" Maine fauran apne pajama ki jeb se wo paise nikal kar Papa ko dikhaye, "Ji Papa, ye rahe." Papa ne muskurate hue mujhe dekha aur phir Ammi ki taraf ishara karte hue bole, "Saira, dekho... Idris ke paas tumhare diye hue paise hain. Aaj hamare kamre ka kya roop hoga, bed par laal chadar kaise bichegi aur gulab ki pattiyan kaise sajengi, ye sab Idris khud tay karega. Is ghar ke aur tumhare naye shauhar ke bedroom ka poora faisla aaj tumhare bete ke haath mein hai." Papa ke muh se ye roabdaar aur bebaak baat sunte hi Ammi sakte mein aa gayin. Unke liye apne hi bete ke samne apne naye shauhar ke aage poori tarah samarpan karne aur bistar ki sajawat uske haath mein dene ka ehsaas haya ki aakhri hadd thi, par unhone khamoshi se sir jhukakar unke is hukum ko tasleem kar liya.
Dopahar ke theek dedh baj rahe the jab dono ghar se nikalne ke liye taiyar hue. Baramde mein darwaze ke paas khade hokar, Papa ne achanak aage badh kar Ammi ki patli kamar ko apne bade haathon mein pakda aur unhe apne seene se chipka liya. Ammi ne jhijhak kar bechain hote hue dabi aawaz mein kaha, "Akash... please... Idris khada hai..." Par Papa ne unki ek na suni. Unhone Ammi ke chehre ko dono haathon mein liya aur unke honton ko choom kiya, aur unke kaan ke paas dheere se kuch kaha jisse Ammi ke honton se ek be-khudi bhari aah nikal gayi. Papa ne phir meri taraf dekh kar ek shararati muskurahat di aur bole, "Idris beta, hum ja rahe hain. Jab tak hum wapas aayein, bedroom bilkul taiyar hona chahiye." Ammi ne meri taraf ek behad lachaar aur sankoch bhari nazar daali, unka poora jism tharthar raha tha. Maine adab se sir hilaya, "Ji Papa, aap chinta mat kijiye." Aur wo dono ghar se baahar nikal gaye, darwaza band hote hi poora ghar bilkul sunsaan ho gaya.
Maine darwaze ko andar se lock kiya aur ghar ke sannaate mein ek gehri saans li. Apni jeb mein Ammi ke laye hue noton ko mehsus karte hi mere jism mein ek teez current daud gaya. Main fauran ghar se baahar nikal aaya aur bazaar ki taraf chal diya. Bazaar ki bheed mein chalte waqt, mere andar ek ajeeb sa garv aur chahat ka ehsaas tap raha tha. Mera dimaag lagatar bedroom ke unhi nazaaron aur suhagraat ke khayalon mein gum tha. Main tasavvur kar raha tha ki kaise meri sharmili Ammi aaj raat wahi nikah ka joda pehne hongi jo unhone Abbu se shaadi ke waqt pehna tha, aur Papa ke samne bilkul nangi hokar letengi. Inhi garam nazaaron ke chalte pajama ke andar mera lund phadakti garmi se bhar gaya aur main tezi se bazaar ki taraf badhne laga.
Main bazaar ki ek kapde ki dukan par gaya aur wahan kapdon ke dher ko dekhne ke baad, ek behad naram aur resham jaisi gehri laal bedsheet pasand ki. Chadar lene ke baad, main seedhe phool wale ki dukaan par gaya aur gulab ke phoolon ki do badi thailiyan leen, jo taza laal gulab ki pattiyon se bhari thin. Phir maine ek itr wali dukaan se chameli ka room spray kharida aur ek bijli ki dukaan se halki peeli fairy lights le leen. In sabhi samaan ko apne haathon ke thailon mein lekar jab main wapas ghar ki taraf chalne laga, toh meri uttejna aur bechaini bilkul kabu se bahar ho rahi thi.
Wapas ghar pahunch kar, maine darwaza khola aur seedhe bedroom ki taraf badh gaya. Main us bed ko dekhne laga—ye wahi bistar tha jahan Ammi aur Abbu sote the, par aaj raat main is bistar ko Papa aur Ammi ki suhagraat liye taiyar karne ja raha tha. Maine safai ka kapda uthaya, dressing table ke bade se shishe ko achhe se saaf kiya aur us par rakhi Saira aur Abbu ki purani shaadi ki photo frame ko uthaya. Maine use halka sa ponchh kar wahan is tarah set kiya ki Abbu ka chehra tasveer mein se seedhe bed ki taraf dekh raha ho, jaise wo chup-chap apni biwi ki behayaai ko dekh rahe hon. Phir maine chameli ka room spray kiya aur poore kamre mein chhidak diya, jisse hawa mein ek meethi aur garm khushboo chha gayi.
Maine bed par se purani chadar ko kheench kar neeche utara aur use ek taraf rakh diya. Phir maine apne thaile se wo resham jaisi laal bedsheet nikali aur use bed par phailana shuru kiya. Chadar itni mulayam aur chamakdar thi ki mere haath us par lagte hi mere jism mein ek sansani daud gayi. Maine chadar ke konon ko bed ke gadde ke neeche kaske daba diya, taaki us par koi salwat na rahe. Iske baad, maine fairy lights nikaleen aur unhe bed ke peeche bane lakdi ke headboard par dheere-dheere lapeta. Lights ko plug-in karke jaise hi maine switch on kiya, poore bed par ek halki, garm aur peeli roshni chha gayi. Laal chadar par wo peeli roshni is tarah chamak rahi thi ki dekh kar hi dil ki dhadkan tez ho rahi thi.
Sajawat ka ye hissa khatam karke, main kitchen ki taraf gaya taaki suhagraat ke liye khas doodh taiyar kar sakoon. Maine ek bartan mein doodh garam hone rakha, aur usmein kesar, elaichi, badam aur thodi chini daal kar use dheere-dheere ubaala. Kesar ka peela rang milte hi kitchen mein ek shaahi aur garm mehak phail gayi. Maine doodh ko ek glass mein nikaala aur use lekar bedroom mein wapas aaya, jise bistar ke paas wali table par rakh diya. Phir maine gulab ki pattiyon ko laal chadar ke bilkul beech mein behad khoobsurti se phailaya, jaise kisi dulhan ke liye bistar sajaya jata hai. Main lights ke saaye mein bistar ko dekh kar bilkul hairan aur excited tha.
Shaam ke theek paanch baj rahe the jab baahar ke darwaze par aahat hui aur chabi ghumne ki aawaz aayi. Mera dil tezi se dhadakne laga. Darwaza khula aur Papa aur Ammi andar dakhil hue. Jaise hi nazar Ammi par padi, meri saansein ruk si gayin. Ammi ne wahi green aur gold heavy nikah ka salwar kameez pehna hua tha, unke baal beauty parlor se bade hi haseen dhang se taiyar kiye gaye the. Unka gora chehra dulhan ke shringar se chamak raha tha, aur unhone sone ke gehne pehne hue the. Unke chehre par ek dupatta gira hua tha jo unke sharmile roop ko halka sa chhupa raha tha. Wo un kapdon mein bilkul ek nayi dulhan lag rahi thin, aur sharm ke maare meri taraf dekh bhi nahi pa rahi thin.
Isse pehle ki Papa aage badh kar Ammi ko bedroom ki taraf le jaate, maine galiyaare mein khade hokar Papa ko roka aur adab se kaha, "Papa... please ek minute rukiye. Aap sofa par baith kar thoda aaram kijiye, main Ammi ko pehle bedroom mein bitha deta hoon. Dulhan ka swagat karne ka kaam mujhe karne dijiye." Papa ne meri is shararat-bhari aur aagyakaari chalaki par ek roabdaar muskurahat di, aur sir hilate hue bole, "Wah Idris, bohot badhiya. Jao, apni Ammi ko bitha ke aao." Papa sofa par baith gaye, aur maine aage badh kar Ammi ka kaapta hua naram haath pakda. Unke haath mein sone ki choodiyan khanak rahi thin, aur unka jism bechaini se tharthar raha tha. Main unhe dheere-dheere bedroom ke andar le gaya.
Bedroom ke andar aate hi, jab Ammi ne us laal chadar aur gulabi sajawat ko fairy lights ki garm roshni mein dekha, toh unki aankhein sankoch se phail gayin. Maine darwaza adhaa band kiya aur unhe bed ke kinare par bithaya. Phir maine table se kesar doodh ka glass uthaya aur unke haath mein diya, "Ammi... ye lijiye, aapke liye kesar doodh." Ammi ne kaapte haathon se glass pakda aur dabi aawaz mein kaha, "Idris... ye tum kya kar rahe ho... mujhe sharm se maut aa rahi hai. Apni hi shaadi ke kapdon mein... apne bete ke samne... main Akash ke samne kaise khadi ho paungi... please mujhe bachao..." Maine unke paas baith kar unke kandhe par haath rakha aur dheere se unke kaan ke paas kaha, "Ammi, aap is nikah ke jode mein duniya ki sabse dilkash aurat lag rahi hain. Papa aapko is halat mein dekh kar pagal ho jayenge. Papa ke samne aap kyun sharm kar rahi hain—wo toh aapke apne hain na? Aur aapko unse mohabbat hai na?" Ammi ne sankoch mein apni palkein jhuka leen, unka chehra tamtama utha aur unhone behad dabi aur kaapti aawaz mein kaha, "Haan..." Phir unhone jhijhakte hue doodh ke do ghoont nigle aur kaha, "Main baki doodh Akash ko pilaungi..."
Ammi ne glass wapas table par rakh diya. Unhone achanak aage badh kar mujhe gale se laga liya aur apna shringar se saja chehra mere kandhe par chhupa diya. Unke jism se meethi perfume aur gulab ki khushboo aa rahi thi. Unhone dabi aawaz mein kaha, "Idris beta... main tumse bohot pyaar karti hoon. Agar tu mere sath na hota, toh main is jhijhak aur gunah ke bojh ko kabhi nahi jhel paati." Maine unke us naram aur bhare-pure dulhan jaise jism ko baahon mein bhara, aur unke naram gaal par bade hi pyaar se choom liya. Hum dono ne ek doosre ki aankhon mein dekha—hamaare beech ek alag hi tarah ka pyaar aur rishta ban chuka tha, jismein sharm ab deewangi mein badal rahi thi.
Maine dheere se Ammi ko apne seene se alag kiya aur unhe bed ke bilkul beech mein dulhan ki tarah bitha diya. Unka dupatta neeche khinch kar ghoonghat gira diya, jisse unka shringar se saja chehra halka sa chhup gaya. Maine dheere se unke kaan ke paas kaha, "Accha Ammi, ab main chalta hoon. Papa toh bilkul chup nahi rahenge aaj raat. Main ja raha hoon unhe andar bhejne." Main bedroom se bahar nikal aaya aur darwaze ko adha khula chhod diya. Hall mein aakar maine dekha ki Papa sofa par baith kar aaram kar rahe the. Maine unhe dekhte hi adab aur shararat se kaha, "Papa, kamra aur dulhan dono taiyar hain. Aap ja sakte hain." Papa ne meri baat sunkar ek roabdaar muskurahat di, mere kandhe ko thapthapaya aur bedroom ki taraf badh gaye. Unhone andar kadam rakhte hi bedroom ke darwaze ko kaske band kar diya, aur kundi lagne ki aawaz aayi. Main seedhe apne kamre mein gaya aur kundi laga kar bed par let gaya.
Poori raat main bed par karwatein badalta raha. Unke kamre se koi aawaz baahar nahi aa rahi thi, par mere dimaag mein lagatar wahi nazaare chal rahe the jahan Papa aur Ammi suhagraat mana rahe the. Mera lund pajama ke andar aag ki tarah tap raha tha aur main use sahlaate hue bohot der baad ek bechain neend mein so gaya.
Subah jab meri aankh khuli, toh ghar mein ajeeb sa sannaata tha. Tabhi subah ke lagbhag saade saat baje mere phone par ring hui. Screen par Abbu ka naam chamak raha tha. Maine call uthayi toh Abbu ki aawaz aayi, "Idris beta, main flight mein baith gaya hoon. Ek layover hai, isliye main shaam ko theek char baje tak ghar pahunch jaunga. Apni Ammi ko bata dena aur ghar thik-thak rakhna." Abbu ki baat sunte hi mere jism mein ghabrahat chha gayi. Shaam ke char baje! Hamaare paas sirf aath ghante the, aur bedroom mein suhagraat ka poora saboot bikhra pada tha. Main seedhe bedroom ke darwaze par gaya aur khatkhatana shuru kiya. Kundi khulne ki aawaz aayi aur darwaza khula, samne Papa khade the. Unke baal bikhre hue the aur wo behad thake hue lag rahe the. Mujhe dekh kar unhone dabi hui aawaz mein kaha, "Tu kya kar raha hai yahan... sone de beta." Unhone darwaza khula chhod diya aur wapas let kar so gaye.
Main dheere-dheere bedroom ke andar dakhil hua aur jo nazaara mere samne tha, use dekh kar meri saansein ruk si gayin. Poore kamre mein chameli aur jismon ki ragad ki ek garam mehak chhai hui thi. Bed par bichi laal silk chadar poori tarah se salwaton se bhari hui thi, aur gulab ki pattiyan bikhri hui thin. Bistar ke paas table par kesar doodh ka glass khali rakha tha, aur dressing table par Abbu ki photo frame ulta gira hua tha. Ammi ka salwar kameez kursi par bikhra pada tha.
Main bed ke aur paas gaya aur meri nazarein bed par so rahi Ammi par jam gayin. Ammi bed par bilkul gehri neend mein so rahi thin, aur chadar unke jism se khisak kar neeche ho chuki thi jisse wo lagbhag ardh-nangi halat mein leti thin. Unka makeup phail chuka tha, aur unki gori gardan aur collarbone par laal rang ke gehre love bites saaf chamak rahe the. Lekin sabse sharmnaak cheez unke chehre aur maathe par sookha hua virya tha, jo unke galon aur bikhre hue baalon mein chipka hua tha. Maine bina koi deri kiye Ammi ke kandhe par haath rakha aur unhe jagana shuru kiya, "Ammi... Ammi jagiyee... jaldi uthiye." Ammi ne neend mein thoda sa karahate hue aankhein kholin. Jaise hi unhe apni halat ka ehsaas hua, unhone fauran laal chadar ko khinch kar apne jism ko kaske dhak liya. Jaldi-bazi mein uthne ke chalte unke jism mein ek teez kaanpdaun dard hua aur unke honton se ek dabi hui karahat nikal gayi, unka poora jism thakan aur dard se kaanp raha tha.
Maine unhe dekhte hue dabi aawaz mein kaha, "Ammi, jaldi kijiye. Abhi Abbu ka phone aaya tha. Wo shaam ko theek char baje tak ghar pahunch rahe hain. Hamaare paas bilkul waqt nahi hai." Abbu ka naam sunte hi Ammi ke chehre ka rang ud gaya. Unhone fauran side mein so rahe Papa ko bechain hokar dono haathon se hilana shuru kiya, "Akash... Akash jagiyee... please uthiye... wo aa rahe hain... shaam ko hi aa rahe hain..." Papa ne neend mein angdai li aur apni aankhein kholin. Ammi ke ghabraye hue chehre ko dekh kar unhone ek be-parwah muskurahat di, Ammi ke gaal par halka sa thapthapaya aur bole, "Arre Saira, itna kyun darr rahi ho. Main baahar ja raha hoon." Papa bed se uthe, aur living room ke sofa par jaakar so gaye.
Ammi jaise hi bed se utarne lagin, toh maine unhe washroom chalne ko kaha. Maine unke naram jism par ek towel lapeti aur unhe washroom le gaya. Sink ke samne khade hokar, Ammi ne sharm ke maare aankhein band kar li thin. Maine ek kapde ko garm paani mein bhigoya aur bade hi pyaar se unke gaal aur maathe par jame us sookhe hue virya ko dheere-dheere ponchh kar saaf kiya. Unka jism mere har touch par sharm se kaanp raha tha. Phir maine unke baalon mein phanse us sookhe hue dhabbon ko dheere-dheere paani se dhokar saaf kiya. Saira ke chehre par sharm ki kapkapi saaf dikh rahi thi. Saaf karne ke baad, Ammi ne aaina mein dekha toh unka dhyan unki gardan par gaya jahan dark red love bites saaf dikh rahe the. Wo ghabra gayin, "Idris... ye daag... agar unhone dekh liye toh kya hoga? Main kaise chhipaon inhe?" Maine unhe dilasa diya, "Ammi, ghabraiye mat. Aap wahi band-gale wala salwar kameez pehniye jo gale tak band hota hai, aur dupatta gale mein tight lapet lijiye." Ammi ne haan mein sir hilaya aur kapde badalne chali gayin.
Hum dono ne fauran master bedroom ki safai shuru ki. Maine bed ke peeche se fairy lights ko nikala aur bag mein rakha. Phir jhadu se gulab ki pattiyon ko sameta. Ammi ne kaapte haathon se bed par se salwaton bhari red chadar ko khincha aur fold kiya. Chadar ko fold karte waqt, mujhe us par sookhe hue virya ke dhabbe saaf dikhe. Aur jaise hi maine takiye ko uthaya, uske neeche se Ammi ka bra nikla jiske strap Papa ne jaldi mein kaske kheench kar tod diye the. Apne hi phate hue kapde ko mere haath mein dekh kar Ammi sharm se paani-paani ho gayin. Maine use khamoshi se bag mein daal diya. Hum dono ne milkar bed par purani aur aam bedsheet bicha di, aur poore kamre se suhagraat ka har ek saboot mita diya.
Dopahar ke lagbhag ek baje, living room ke sofa par so rahe Papa ki neend khuli. Wo uthe aur bathroom jaakar taiyar hue. Jane se pehle wo kitchen ki taraf gaye jahan Ammi Abbu ke liye lunch ki taiyari kar rahi thin. Unka jism thaka tha, par wo kitchen mein khadi thin. Papa ne kitchen mein aakar peeche se Ammi ki kamar ko kaske apne dono haathon mein jakad liya. Ammi ne dabi aawaz mein kaha, "Akash... please... Idris baahar khada hai... aur abhi mat kijiye..." Par Papa ne unki ek na suni. Unhone Ammi ke duppate ko peeche khinch kar unki gardan par ek aur garam aur gehra kiss kiya, aur phir unke honton par kiss kiya, "Saira... kal raat tum sach mein behad aagyakaari thin. Mujhe bohot maza aaya." Ammi ka chehra sharm se laal ho gaya. Papa ne mujhe dekh kar aankh maari aur ghar se baahar nikal gaye.
Papa ke ghar se jaane ke baad, poore ghar mein ek gehra sannaata chha gaya. Ammi kitchen se baahar nikal kar living room ki taraf aayin aur sofa par aakar baith gayin. Unka jism abhi bhi dukh raha tha. Main kitchen se ek glass thanda paani lekar aaya aur unke paas baith gaya. Maine paani ka glass unhe diya aur unke chehre ko ghaur se dekhne laga—unke chehre par thakan thi, par gaalon par halki laali thi.
Maine unka haath apne dono haathon mein liya, unki aankhon mein dekha aur dheere se pucha, "Ammi... kal raat aakhir aisa kya hua jo aap aur Papa dono itne thake hue hain? Papa toh subah se thik se khade bhi nahi ho paa rahe the, aur jab maine subah aapke chehre aur baalon se wo sookha hua paani saaf kiya tha... Papa ne wahan kyun kiya tha?" Mera ye sawal sunte hi Ammi ka chehra sharm ke maare bilkul tamtama utha. Unhone apne duppate ke aanchal se apna chehra chhipaya. Ammi ne sharmate hue apni nigahein jhukaye-jhukaye hi ek dabi aawaz mein kaha, "Idris beta... tu bhi na, kuch bhi puchta hai... wo... Akash kal raat bilkul pagal ho gaye the. Unhone mujhe poori raat sone hi nahi diya... teen ya char baar... wo baar-baar mujhe naye tarikon se bed par lita rahe the... aur wo paani... wo keh rahe the ki wo mujhe apne rang mein poori tarah rangna chahte hain... wo chahte the ki main apne aap ko unke hawale kar doon. Mujhe bhi unhe khush dekh kar acha lag raha tha."
Maine unki aankhon mein dekhte hue apna sabse gehra sawal pucha, "Aur Ammi, mujhe sach-sach batayiye... kya aap sach mein khush hain? Mera matlab... Abbu ke sath toh aisa kabhi nahi hua. Kya Papa ke sath ye sab karke aapko khushi milti hai?" Ammi ne ek pal ke liye mere sawal ki gahrai ko mehsus kiya. Unki aankhon mein ek ajeeb sa sukoon dikha. Wo dheere se boli, "Haan Idris beta... main khush hoon. Abbu ke sath... shaadi ke itne saalon mein kabhi aisa mehsus nahi hua. Akash mujhe mehsus karwate hain ki main ek aurat hoon. Unki chhuaan, unka roab... mujhe alag hi duniya mein le jata hai. Pata hai ye gunah hai, par ab... main peeche nahi hat sakti."
Maine unke gaal par ek narm kiss kiya aur kaha, "Ammi, aapki khushi hi mere liye sab kuch hai. Main is raaz ko hamesha chhupa kar rakhunga, aur Abbu ko kabhi kuch pata nahi chalega." Ammi ne haan mein sir hilaya aur unki aankhon mein mere liye ek alag hi bharosa chamakne laga. Phir unhone duppate ko apne gale ke aaspas aur kaskar lapet liya.
Char bajne mein ab sirf das minute baki the. Ghar bilkul shant aur saaf-suthra tha, suhagraat ka koi saboot baahar nahi tha. Ammi living room ke sofa par baithi thin, aur ghadi ki suiyon ki aawaz ko sun rahi thin. Theek char baje hallway ke darwaze par chabi ghumne aur lock khulne ki aawaz aayi. Hum dono ne ek-doosre ki taraf dekha aur khade ho gaye.
Darwaza khula aur Abbu apne travel bag ke sath andar dakhil hue. Main fauran aage badh kar unka bag pakad liya, "Asalamu alaykum, Abbu." Abbu ne thake hue lahze mein jawab diya, "Waalaykum assalam, Idris beta." Tabhi Ammi kitchen se baahar nikal aayin. Unhone apne duppate ko apne gale ke aaspas behad kaskar lapeta hua tha taaki love bites ka koi bhi hissa bahar na dikhe. Abbu ne Ammi ki taraf dekha aur bade hi aam dhang se sir hilaya, "Saira, chai bana do... flight mein neend thik se nahi aayi." Ammi ne sir jhuka kar dheere se kaha, "Ji, main abhi lati hoon." Maine Abbu ke is thande aur aam dhang ko dekha, toh mere zehan mein fauran kal raat ka Papa ka wo roabdar aur junooni roop ghum gaya. Papa jab bhi aate the, unki ek nazar hi Ammi ko sharm se pighla deti thi, par Abbu ke aane par poora ghar wapas usi purani, be-jaan routine mein laut chuka tha.
Agle kuch dinon mein ghar ka mahaul bilkul badal gaya. Akash ab mere tutor nahi the, aur Abbu ke aane ke baad unka ghar aana bilkul band ho chuka tha. Wo hamari zindagi se ek baar phir poori tarah dur ho gaye the. Lekin unka wo anushasan aur padhane ka dhang mere andar bas chuka tha. Main chahta tha ki Papa ko mujh par naaz mehsus ho. Isliye maine apna poora dhyan apni studies par laga diya. Main ghanton apni desk par baith kar numericals aur equations ko solve karta rehta. Jab bhi mera dimaag bhatakne lagta aur mujhe laal chadar par so rahi Ammi ka jism yaad aata, toh main khud ko kaske padhai mein jhonk deta taaki Abbu ke samne main bilkul ek aagyakaari aur padhaku beta bana rahoon.
Lekin is routine mein ek cheez jo sabse zyada badal chuki thi, wo thin Ammi. Ammi din bhar ghar ke saare kaam kartin, par unke chehre par ek ajeeb si khamoshi aur udaasi chhayi rehti thi. Maine kai dafa dekha ki jab Abbu baahar hote, toh Ammi chup-chap master bedroom ke darwaze par khadi ho jatin aur bed ko ek-takat nihaarti rehtin. Wo usi bed ki laal chadar aur gulab ki pattiyon ke nazaaron ko yaad karti thin jahan unhone Papa ke aage apne aap ko poori tarah unke hawale kiya tha. Unki aankhon mein ek gehri tadap aur khaalipan saaf dikhta tha. Wo roti nahi thin, par unki khamoshi unki bechaini ko saaf zahir kar rahi thi.
Raat ke waqt, jab Abbu ghar hote, toh Ammi unke sath bilkul ek aam aur farz nibhane wali biwi ki tarah paish aatin. Wo Abbu ko khana parostin, unhe chai detin, par unki aawaz aur dhang mein koi utsah nahi hota tha. Wo Abbu ki baaton par sir hila deti thin, par unka dimaag kahin aur hota tha. Ek raat maine bedroom mein jaate waqt dekha jab Abbu ne unka haath pakda, toh Ammi ne bade hi aam dhang se haath chhudaya aur sone chali gayin. Abbu ke samne wo bilkul be-jaan aur kheechi-kheechi rehti thin, aur unke andar ka wo garam roop ab sirf Papa ke liye hi zinda tha.
Ek dopahar, jab Abbu office gaye hue the, main kitchen mein paani peene gaya toh maine dekha ki Ammi wahan khamosh baithi thin. Unka sir neeche tha aur wo apne duppate ke kone ko ungliyon se lapet rahi thin. Main unke paas gaya aur unka haath pakdkar dheere se pucha, "Ammi... kya baat hai? Aap bohot shant hain." Ammi ne meri taraf dekha, unki aankhon mein halki nami thi. Unhone achanak mera haath kaske pakad liya aur behad dabi, kaapti hui aawaz mein boli, "Idris beta... ye ghar mujhe bilkul kaatne ko daudta hai. Mujhe... mujhe Akash ki bohot yaad aati hai. Unke jaane ke baad se mujhe lagta hai ki jaise mere andar sab kuch khatam ho gaya ho. Main unki us chhuaan aur unke gusse ke bina ek pal bhi chain se nahi reh paa rahi hoon."
Ammi ne dheere se apne kapde ka collar aur duppate ko thoda peeche khincha aur mujhe apni gardan dikhayi. Unki gardan par bane laal nishaan ab dheere-dheere pheeke pad chuke the. Ammi ne kaapte honton se kaha, "Dekho Idris... ye daag bhi ab mitne wale hain. Mujhe darr lagta hai ki jaise-jaise ye daag mitenge, mera wo haseen khwab bhi mujhse hamesha ke liye chheen jayega. Main kaise jiyungi unke bina..." Maine unke us kapkapate jism ko sahara diya, unhe dilasa diya, "Ammi, aap ghabraiye mat. Papa wapas aayenge. Hamara ye rishta aur ye raaz hamesha rahega. Main aapko unse milwane ka koi na koi rasta zaroor nikalunga."
Agle kuch din isi bechaini aur intezar mein guzar gaye. Ghar ka mahaul bilkul shant aur neeras ho chuka tha. Ammi subah se shaam tak ghar ke kaamon mein busy rehtin, par unke chehre par ab wo pehle jaisa rang nahi tha. Wo behad kam bolne lagi thin aur unka gora chehra udaas dikh raha tha. Kai dafa maine dekha ki wo kaam karte-karte achanak kho jatin aur khidki se baahar sunsaan gali ki taraf takti rehtin. Akash ke chale jaane aur unke is tarah dur hone ka asar Ammi ke jism aur dimaag par saaf dikh raha tha.
Apne room mein baith kar jab main apni padhai karta, toh baar-baar Ammi ke usi udaas chehre ki taraf chala jata. Mujhe apne wo wade yaad aane lagte jo maine Ammi aur Papa dono se kiye the. Main apni aankhon ke samne Ammi ko is tarah din-ba-din murjhane nahi de sakta tha. Maine tay kiya ki ab mujhe khud hi kuch karna hoga aur unhe is takleef se baahar nikalna hoga.
Dopahar ke lagbhag do baj rahe the. Abbu office gaye hue the aur ghar mein sirf main aur Ammi the. Maine living room mein baithe-baithe hi apna phone nikala aur Papa ka number dial kiya. Mera dil tezi se dhadakne laga. Do-teen bells ke baad doosri taraf se Papa ki wahi bhari aur roabdar aawaz aayi, "Haan Idris beta, bolo." Maine adab se kaha, "Papa... main bas pooch raha tha ki aap kab tak aayenge? Ammi aapko..." Isse pehle ki main poori baat kehta, Papa ne mujhe beech mein hi tokte hue kaha, "Idris beta, main abhi apni padhai aur aane wale exams mein bohot busy hoon. Mera abhi wahan aana bilkul mushkil hai. Tum apni padhai par dhyan do."
Papa ki baat sunkar mere andar ek teez bechaini chha gayi. Main Ammi ko aur tadapta nahi dekh sakta tha. Maine gidgidate hue kaha, "Papa... please aisa mat kijiye. Ek baar aa jayiye na. Ammi aapke bina bilkul toot chuki hain, wo din-bhar bilkul udaas rehti hain. Main unhe is halat mein nahi dekh sakta. Aap jaise kahenge main sab kuch waise hi karunga, please Papa... bas ek baar unse mil lijiye." Meri is guzarish aur aagyakaari gidgidahat ko sunkar Papa ke mardaana guroor ko sukoon mila. Wo thodi der chup rahe, aur phir unki aawaz mein wahi roabdar lahza laut aaya, "Theek hai, agar tum itni guzarish kar rahe ho... par main tumhare ghar nahi aaunga. Tum kal dopahar do baje apni Ammi ko lekar mere flat par aa jao."
Papa ka ye hukum sunte hi mere jism mein ek teez romanch daud gaya. Maine fauran kaha, "Ji Papa, main kal do baje Ammi ko lekar aapke flat par pahunch jaunga." Papa ne mujhe apne flat ka address likhwaya aur taakeed di, "Dhyan rakhna ki aate waqt tum par kisi ki nazar na ho. Aur sab kuch khamoshi se hona chahiye." Maine haan mein sir hilaya, "Ji Papa, aap chinta mat kijiye." Aur call cut ho gayi.
Maine phone pocket mein rakha aur seedhe kitchen ki taraf gaya jahan Ammi chai bana rahi thin. Unka sir jhuka tha aur wo bilkul udaas lag rahi thin. Maine jaise hi unka haath pakda, unki rangat thandi thi. Maine unke kaan ke paas dheere se phusphusaya, "Ammi... maine Papa ko call kiya tha. Wo busy hain, isliye unhone kaha hai ki kal dopahar do baje main aapko lekar unke flat par aaon." Mera ye phusphusana sunte hi Ammi ke haath se chammach chhoot kar gir gayi. Unki aankhein hairat aur darr se phail gayin, aur unka poora gora chehra sharm ke maare ek hi jhatke mein bilkul laal ho gaya. Unhone kaapti aawaz mein kaha, "Idris... ye... ye tum kya keh rahe ho... unke flat par? Main... main wahan kaise ja sakti hoon? Agar kisi ne dekh liya toh..."
Maine unke kaapte haath ko sahlate hue kaha, "Ammi, ghabraiye mat. Dopahar ke waqt Abbu office mein hote hain, toh ghar par koi nahi hota. Aur aapko koi bahana banane ki bhi zaroorat nahi hai. Main khud aapke sath ja raha hoon, toh main aapka sahara hoon. Kisi ko lagne hi nahi wala ki koi galat baat hai. Sab sochenge ki aap mere sath baahar shopping ya checkup ke liye gayin hain." Mera ye baat sunte hi Ammi ke chehre par darr ki jagah ek ajeeb sa sukoon aur teez romanch chha gaya. Unhe mehsus hua ki unka beta unke sath hai, toh wo bilkul mehfooz hain. Unka murjhaya hua chehra ek hi pal mein khil utha. Wo sharmate hue kitchen ka platform tezi se saaf karne lagin aur unhone kaha, "Theek hai Idris beta... tu kehta hai toh... main chalungi. Main kal ke liye apne kapde abhi nikal leti hoon." Hum dono ne ek-doosre ki taraf dekha—Ammi ki sharm ab deewangi mein badal rahi thi aur hum dono kal dopahar do baje unke flat par jaane ke intezar mein pal-pal gin rahe the.
Agle din, subah theek nau baje Abbu apne office ke liye nikal gaye. Unke jaane ke baad poore ghar mein ek bechaini chha gayi. Hum dono ke paas ab dopahar do baje tak ka waqt tha. Har ek ghanta hamare liye ek saal ke barabar guzar raha tha. Main baar-baar ghadi ki taraf dekhta, aur Ammi kitchen mein kaam karte-karte achanak ruk jatin aur gahri saans lene lagtin.
Dopahar ke lagbhag barah baje, Ammi apne room mein gayin aur almirah khol kar apne kapde chunte lagin. Maine dekha toh unke paas gaya. Wo apni wahi sidhe-saadhe, dheeli salwar kameez nikal rahi thin jo wo aamtaur par kisi rishtedaar ke ghar pehenti thin. Maine unhe tokte hue kaha, "Ammi... aap wahan bhi wahi purane aur dheele kapde pehan kar jayengi kya? Papa ke flat par ja rahi hain, kuch alag aur modern pehniye na."
Ammi ne ye sunte hi hairat se meri taraf dekha, unka gora chehra fauran sharm se laal ho gaya. Unhone kapde bistar par rakhte hue dheere se kaha, "Idris beta... ye kya keh raha hai? Main... main is umar mein modern kapde kaise pehan sakti hoon? Aur waise bhi, mere paas aise kapde kahan hain... agar kisi ne baahar dekh liya toh log kya kahenge?"
Maine unhe samjhate hue unka haath pakda aur kaha, "Ammi, baahar koi nahi dekhne wala. Aur aapki figure itni achhi hai, aap bilkul jawaan lagti hain. Papa aapko is naye roop mein dekh kar kitne khush honge, aap soch bhi nahi sakti. Aur aap chinta mat kijiye, aapke almirah mein wo tight leggings aur short kurti padi hain na jo Akash ne gift ki thin par aapne kabhi baahar nahi pehni? Aaj wahi pehniye. Aur main toh aapke sath ja hi raha hoon, main aapka sabse bada sahara hoon, toh darr kis baat ka?"
Ammi ne thoda jheempte hue, muskurate hue meri baat maan li. Unka dil bhi shaayad Akash ko surprise karne ke liye bechain tha.
Dopahar ke lagbhag ek bajkar pandrah minute par, jab Ammi bedroom se baahar aayin toh main unhe dekh kar bilkul hairan reh gaya. Unhone wahi leggings aur ek modern, dark red color ki kurti pehni hui thi. Unke jism ka ek-ek ang us chust kapdon mein bilkul saaf dikh raha tha. Unka gora jism aur unki bhari hui kamar us modern roop mein behad khubsoorat aur jawaan lag rahi thi. Ammi sharm ke maare apne dupatta ko sabhalne ki koshish kar rahi thin kyunki dupatta is outfit par poori tarah fit nahi baith raha tha. Unhone ghaur se meri taraf dekha aur sharmate hue pucha, "Idris... main... main thik lag rahi hoon na? Mujhe bohot ajeeb lag raha hai..." Maine unka haath pakda aur bade pyaar se unke gaal ko sahla kar kaha, "Ammi, aap bilkul Papa ki girlfriend ki tarah behad hot lag rahi hain. Wo aapko dekhte hi deewane ho jayenge." Unke chehre par sharm aur khushi ka ek pyara sa nikhar wapas chamak utha.
Hum dono ne khamoshi se ghar ko lock kiya aur dhyan rakhte hue baahar nikal gaye. Gali se thoda aage jaakar maine ek auto rickshaw kiya aur hum dono us address ki taraf chal pade jo Papa ne likhwaya tha. Safar ke dauran Ammi behad nervous thin. Unhone auto ke andar mera haath kaskar pakda hua tha aur unki garam saans aur tez dhadkan main mehsus kar sakta tha. Wo baar-baar apne kapdon ko theek kartin aur apna dupatta thoda kaske lapet letin.
Lagbhag aadhe ghante ke safar ke baad auto ne hume ek building ke samne drop kiya. Maine address check kiya toh mujhe fauran samajh aa gaya ki ye building aur flat alag hai. Mujhe yaad tha ki pehli baar main peechhe-peechhe Akash ke jis flat par gaya tha, wo doosri jagah tha. Lekin maine Ammi ke samne apni zabaan bilkul band rakhhi aur bilkul anjaan bana raha taaki unhe shak na ho ki mujhe us flat ke baare mein pehle se pata hai. Hum dono seedhiyon se hote hue doosri manzil par pahunche aur address ke mutabiq darwaze par dastak di. Dastak dete hi mera dil tezi se dhadakne laga tha.
Kucch hi seconds mein darwaza khula aur Papa humare samne khade the. Wo ghar ke aam t-shirt aur shorts mein the, par jaise hi unki nazar Ammi ke is modern roop par padi, unki aankhein deewangi se phati ki phati reh gayin. Unka bhari jism wahi jam gaya aur wo bina palak jhupkaye Ammi ke naye roop ko ek-takat nihaarne lage. Unki nigahein Ammi ke badan par jam si gayi thin.
Papa ne hume andar aane ka ishara kiya aur darwaza andar se lock kar diya. Wo bade hi roabdar lahze mein bole, "Ye mera apna chhota flat hai... yahan main bilkul akela rehta hoon." Papa ki ye baat sunte hi mere aur Ammi ke jism mein ek alag hi sansani daud gayi. Ammi ne sharm ke maare apna dupatta thoda set kiya aur mere peeche hone ki koshish karne lagin. Papa ka is tarah bilkul akele is flat mein rehna is poori jagah ko aur bhi zyada gupt aur shant bana raha tha. Hum dono samajh chuke the ki is band darwaze ke peeche ab hum aur Papa ke alawa koi nahi aane wala tha.
Maine aur Ammi ne flat ke andar charo taraf dekha. Ye sach mein ek behad chhota studio flat tha—ek hi kamra tha jismein ek side par bed, ek table-chair, aur ek almirah rakhi thi. Alag se koyi deewar ya parda nahi tha, bas ek washroom tha. Poore kamre ka naksha aisa tha ki bistar par hone wali har ek cheez poori tarah dikh rahi thi. Ammi is layout ko dekh kar nervous mehsus karne lagin.
Papa ne bed ki taraf ishara karte hue hume baithne ko kaha, "Yahan koi kursi nahi hai, tum dono bed par hi baith jao."
Hum dono bistar par baith gaye. Ammi beech mein baithin aur main unke thoda side mein baith gaya. Ammi apni kurti aur leggings ke chalte kaafi sharma rahi thin aur apne dupatta ko kaskar apne badan par set karne ki koshish kar rahi thin. Papa humare samne aakar khade ho gaye. Unki nigahein Ammi ke badan par jam si gayi thin. Wo dheere se bed par Ammi ke bilkul paas baith gaye, jisse bed thoda dab gaya. Papa ne Ammi ki jaangh par apna bhari haath rakhha aur bade roabdar lahze mein bole, "Saira, aaj tum is modern kapdon mein sach mein behad hot lag rahi ho... maine jo leggings gift ki thi, wo tum par bilkul fit baith rahi hai."
Papa ki ye chhuaan aur unki ye khuli tareef sunkar Ammi ka chehra sharm se bilkul tamtama utha. Unhone sharmate hue apni nigahein jhuka leen aur unke haath kaapne lage. Unhone bilkul dabi aur kaapti hui aawaz mein Papa ke kaan ke paas dheere se kaha, "Akash... wo... Idris bhi yahan hai... kya aap use thodi der ke liye baahar galiyaare mein khade hone ko keh sakte hain? Mujhe... mujhe uske samne bohot sharm aa rahi hai."
Papa ne ye sunkar ek halki si hansi di aur fauran mana kar diya, "Nahi Saira, baahar galiyaare mein bohot zyada garmi aur ghutan hai. Main Idris beta ko is garmi mein baahar khada nahi rakh sakta. Wo isi kamre mein rahega."
Ammi ne ye sunkar hairat aur sharm se mujhe dekha, par wo Papa ki baat ko taal nahi sakti thin. Papa ne tabhi meri taraf dekha aur bade hi aam par roabdaar dhang se kaha, "Idris, tu yahan bed ke kone par baith ja. Agar tujhe kabhi bhi ajeeb ya sharm mehsus ho, toh tu doosri taraf sir ghumakar baith sakta hai... par tu baahar nahi jayega."
Maine haan mein sir hilaya aur bed ke bilkul kone par baith gaya, par mera dimaag aur meri aankhein unhi par jami thin. Papa ne phir mujhe hukum dete hue kaha, "Jara apni Ammi ke shoes utaro aur unhe aram hone do."
Maine fauran bed se thoda neeche jhuk kar Ammi ke naram pairon se unke shoes utare aur unhe side mein rakh diya. Ammi ne sharm ke maare apni aankhein band kar leen jab unka beta unke pair sahla raha tha aur unke shoes utar raha tha.
Shoes utarne ke baad, Papa ne Ammi ka dupatta pakda aur use dheere se khinch kar bistar par ek taraf rakh diya. Ammi ne halka sa mana karne ki koshish ki, "Arre Akash... nahi, please..." par Papa ne unki ek na suni. Unhone Ammi ki kamar par apna haath kassa aur unhe apni taraf khinch liya. Papa ne Ammi ki thodi ko pakad kar unka chehra upar uthaya aur unhe majboor kiya ki wo pehle unhe dekhein, aur phir ek nazar meri taraf daalein. Ammi ki aankhon mein sharm aur deewangi ka ek ajeeb sa toofaan tha.
Papa ne bina kisi deri ke Ammi ke surkh honton par apne hont rakh diye aur unhe behad gahraee se chumna shuru kiya. Ammi ki sharm aur unki jhijhak unke is chumban ke samne bilkul mom ki tarah pighal gayi. Unhone apne dono haath Papa ke baalon mein daal diye aur wo bhi unhe paas khinch kar chumna shuru kiya. Maine ye sab kuch apne samne, bilkul kuch inches ki doori se dekha. Ammi ka wo deewana aur behaya roop mere samne chal raha tha jo wo Abbu ke samne kabhi nahi dikhati thin.
Chumban khatam hone ke baad, Papa ne Ammi ko bed par peeche ki taraf dhakel diya aur wo khud unke upar aage badhte hue unke jism par let gaye. Ammi behad tezi se saansein le rahi thin aur unka badan bechaini aur garmi se kaap raha tha. Papa ne unke upar let kar meri taraf ek nazar daali aur dheere se kaha, "Idris... dekhta reh." Maine bina palak jhupkaye un dono ke is garam roop ko dekhna shuru kiya, aur mera dimaag is deewangi ko dekh kar bilkul sunn ho chuka tha.
Papa ne Ammi ke dono haathon ko unke sir ke upar kaskar pakad liya, aur phir apna doosra haath Ammi ke laal kurti ke neeche daala. Unhone dheere-dheere kurti ko upar khinchna shuru kiya. Jaise-jaise kurti upar khinchti gayi, Ammi ka gora pet aur unki nangi kamar mere samne bilkul saaf dikhne lagi. Ammi ne sharm ke maare apna chehra bed par takiye ki taraf mod liya aur apni aankhein kaskar band kar leen.
Papa ne unhe is tarah sharmate dekha toh unhone Ammi ke baalon ko dheere se par kaskar khincha aur unhe majboor kiya ki wo apna chehra bilkul meri taraf ghumaayein. Papa ne bade hi roabdar lahze mein Ammi se kaha, "Saira, apni aankhein kholo aur apne bete ki taraf dekho. Idris ko dekhne do ki tum mere sath kitni khush ho... aur Idris, tu bhi apni aankhein khuli rakh aur dhyan se dekh."
Ammi ne rote-sharmate hue dheere se apni aankhein kholin aur kaapti hui nigaahon se meri taraf dekha. Unki aankhon mein behad sharm aur jhijhak thi, par sath hi ek deewangi bhi dikh rahi thi. Maine unki aankhon mein dekha aur chup-chap baitha raha. Papa ne kurti ko aur upar khinch kar Ammi ke chehre tak pahuncha diya, jisse unka kaala bra poori tarah mere samne saaf dikhne laga. Wo bra sach mein behad fitted aur sexy tha jo Papa ne hi unhe gift kiya tha. Papa ne unke kapkapaate jism ko dekhte hue apne dono haath unke bra ke upar unke seene par rakh diye aur unhe dheere-dheere dabaane lage. Ammi ke muh se ek be-bas aur garam karah nikli, "Ahhh... Akash..." Unka jism unki chhuaan ke samne poori tarah pighal chuka tha, aur wo meri maujoodgi ko bhool kar Papa ke chhuaan ka maza lene lagin thin.
Papa ne tabhi meri taraf dekha aur hukum diya, "Idris beta, aage aao. Apni Ammi ki kurti ko unke kandhon se khinch kar poori tarah baahar nikalo."
Papa ka ye hukum sunte hi mere jism mein ek teez romanch daud gaya. Main bed par thoda aage khisak gaya aur Ammi ke paas aakar ghutno ke bal baith gaya. Maine apne kaapte haathon se Ammi ke kandhon par se kurti ke naram kapde ko pakda aur use dheere-dheere neeche khinchna shuru kiya. Mere haath ghaur se Ammi ke naram aur gore jism ko chhoo rahe the. Jaise hi mere haathon ki chhuaan unhe mehsus hui, Ammi ka jism ek jhatke mein shihar utha aur unhone sharm ke maare apna sir doosri taraf ghuma liya. Unke hont kaap rahe the, par unhone mujhe mana nahi kiya.
Maine kurti ko poori tarah unke jism se alag kar diya aur use bed se neeche rakh diya. Ab Ammi mere aur Papa ke samne bilkul apne kaale bra aur chust leggings mein leti hui thin. Unke jism ka ek-ek ang is modern kapdon mein behad hot aur dilkash lag raha tha. Papa ne unhe dekh kar ek gehra saans kiya aur Ammi ke gale aur seene par apne honton se chumna aur kaatna shuru kiya. Ammi maze se karahne lagin aur unhone Papa ke sir ko kaskar apne jism se chipka liya. Papa ne meri taraf dekha aur dheere se kaha, "Idris beta, dekh kaise main teri Ammi ke jism ko apne rang mein rang raha hoon... ye nishaan ab hamesha ke liye is par rahega." Maine bilkul chup-chap, bina ek bhi palak jhupkaye unke is garam khel ko bilkul paas se dekhna shuru kiya.
Papa ne Ammi ke gale aur collarbone par thode aur nishaan banaye, aur phir unhone Ammi ke jism par se unki leggings ko thoda neeche khinch diya. Papa ne tabhi apna sir uthaya aur meri taraf dekha, "Idris beta, aage aao aur apni Ammi ki is chust leggings ko unke pairon se bilkul alag kar do. Inhe bilkul aazad hone do." Maine fauran haan mein sir hilaya aur unke dono naram pairon ki taraf badha. Ammi ne sharm ke maare apni dono aankhein kaskar band kar leen aur unke gore gaal ek baar phir bilkul laal ho gaye. Maine unki leggings ko unke takhno se pakda aur use dheere-dheere unke naram pairon se khinch kar bilkul alag kar diya. Maine kapdon ko khamoshi se fold kiya aur bed ke paas rakhi table par rakh diya.
Leggings ke hatne ke baad, Ammi ab sirf apne kaale bra aur matching panty mein bed ke bilkul beech mein leti thin. Apne hi bete ke samne is tarah bilkul kam kapdon mein hone ki wajah se unka poora jism sharm aur thartharahat se kaanp raha tha. Unhone sharm ke maare apni dono taangon ko kaske aapas mein chipka liya aur unke haath bechaini se bistar ke bedsheet ko mutthi mein dabane lage. Unki nasheeli aankhein band thin, aur unke hont thode khule the jahan se garam saansein baahar nikal rahi thin.
Papa ne unke is sharmile roop ko dekha toh unke chehre par ek mardaana aur roabdaar muskurahat chamak uthi. Wo bed par ghutno ke bal thoda aur aage khiske aur Ammi ke bilkul upar let gaye, bina apna poora vajan unpar daale. Unhone apne bade haathon se Ammi ke naram aur gore pet ko sahlaate hue unke bra ke cups par apna haath rakha. Papa ne bra ke strap ko kandhe se neeche khincha aur cup ko dheere se neeche khisakte hue unke gol aur naram stanon ko poori tarah nanga kar diya. Ammi ke muh se ek behad dabi hui karahat nikli aur unka seena tezi se upar-niche hone laga jab Papa ne unke nipples ko apne haathon mein lekar masalna shuru kiya.
Papa ne tabhi unke baalon ko kaskar apne haath mein liya aur unke chehre ko thoda upar uthate hue majboor kiya ki wo apni aankhein kholein. Papa ne bilkul roabdar aur dabi aawaz mein kaha, "Saira... apni aankhein kholo aur apne bete ki taraf dekho. Idris ko batao ki kya tumhe mere is flat mein, uske samne is tarah nangi hokar mere chhuaan ka maza lena pasand aa raha hai?" Ammi ne sharmate hue apni aankhein kholin aur unki kaapti hui nigahein seedhe meri taraf gayin. Unke chehre par haya aur deewangi ka jo toofaan tha, wo dekh kar main bilkul sunn tha.
Ammi ne ek pal ke liye mere chehre ko dekha, unki aankhon mein sharm ke maare halki nami thi. Papa ke roab aur unki mardaana chhuaan ke aage wo bilkul majboor ho chuki thin. Unhone kaapte honton se, dabi aur bilkul nasheeli aawaz mein kaha, "Haan... Idris beta... mujhe... mujhe Akash ka ye gusse wala roop aur unki ye chhuaan bohot pasand hai... mujhe inke aage apna sab kuch haar jana achha lagta hai..." Apni hi maa ke muh se apne samne aisi bebaak baatein sun kar mere jism mein ek teez current daud gaya aur main bilkul agyakaari ban kar unhe dekhta raha.
Papa ne Ammi ke is iqraar ko sunkar ek muskurate hue sir hilaya aur phir unhone apni pant aur underwear ko neeche khinch diya. Unka mota, kaala aur lohe ki tarah sakht lund hawa mein phadak raha tha. Papa ne apne lund ko pakda aur use Ammi ke surkh honton aur gaalon par ragadna shuru kiya. Papa ne hukum diya, "Saira, ise chaato." Ammi ne apne samne us mote aur sakht lund ko itne paas dekha, aur phir meri taraf dekha, toh unki sharm bilkul kabu se bahar ho gayi. Unhone jhijhakte hue apna sir peeche khincha aur dabi aawaz mein kaha, "Nahi... Akash... please... Idris ke samne ye sab... mujhe bohot sharm aa rahi hai... main nahi kar sakti..."
Ammi ko is tarah mana karte dekh kar, maine aage badh kar unka naram haath pakda. Maine unki aankhon mein dekha aur bilkul dheere se, samjhate hue kaha, "Ammi... aap kyun sharma rahi hain? Papa ne aadesh diya hai na, aur aap unhe khush dekhna chahti hain. Aapne khud kaha ki unki khushi hi aapka sukoon hai. Please, Papa ki baat maan lijiye aur jaise wo keh rahe hain, waise kijiye. Main toh bas yahan aapki madad ke liye hoon." Mera ye samjhana aur pyara sa roop dekh kar Ammi ke chehre par sharm ke sath ek ajeeb sa samarpan chamak utha. Unhone ek thandi aur garam saans li, meri taraf dekh kar sir hilaya, aur phir aagyakaari bankar aage badh kar Papa ke us mote lund ke tope ko apni jeebh se chaatna aur kiss karna shuru kiya. Main bed ke bilkul kone par baitha bina palak jhupkaye unko bilkul paas se dekh raha tha.
Kuch der muh se chhedchhaad karne ke baad, Papa ne lund ko Ammi ke muh se baahar nikala aur unhe bed par doggy style position mein aane ka hukum diya, "Saira... bed par apne haath aur ghutne tikao aur apni hips ko meri taraf karo." Ammi ne jheempte hue, aagyakaari bankar apne haath aur pair bistar par tike aur doggy style mein khadi ho gayin, jisse unki nangi aur gori hips bilkul mere aur Papa ke samne khul gayin. Papa ne Ammi ki nangi kamar ko pakda aur apne mote lund ko unki geeli choot ke muh par set kiya. Wo use andar daalne ke bajaye sirf unki choot ke honton par ragadte hue unhe tarsane lage, jisse Ammi bechaini se machalne lagin aur dabi aawaz mein gidgidane lagin, "Akash... please... ab aur mat tarsao... daal do..." Papa ne meri taraf dekha aur ek proud smile di, jabki Ammi maze aur sharm ke is aakhri mukam par bechain aur behaya hokar karah rahi thin.
Ammi ki choot pehle se hi bohot geeli ho chuki thi, par Papa sirf unke maze lene aur unhe aur tadpane ke liye thoda ruke. Papa ne tabhi meri taraf dekha aur hukum diya, "Idris beta, aage aao aur mere is lund par do-teen baar thooko." Ammi ne jab ye hukum suna, toh unke kaapte honton se dabi aawaz nikli, "Akash... nahi... please..." Par maine aagyakaari bankar aage badhkar Papa ke us garam aur khade lund par do-teen baar thook diya.
Papa ne tabhi ek aur hukum diya, "Ab apne haath se mere lund par is thook ko achhe se upar-niche phaila do." Maine aagyakaari bankar apna haath Papa ke mote aur garam lund par rakha aur thook ko unke poore shaft aur tope par upar-niche malte hue phaila diya. Lund mere haath ke neeche bilkul geela aur chikna ho chuka tha. Ammi apne hi bete ke haath se Papa ke lund ko is tarah chikna hote dekh kar sharm se bilkul pighal rahi thin aur unki saansein aur tez ho gayi thin.
Flat mein bohot garmi aur ghutan thi, aur hum teeno ke jism par paseena chamakne laga tha. Papa ne bed par rakhi ek notebook ki taraf ishara kiya aur mujhe hukum diya, "Idris beta, table se wo notebook uthao aur hum dono par hawa karo. Hum dono ko garmi lag rahi hai." Maine fauran table se notebook uthayi aur bed ke kone par baith kar un dono par pankha jhalne laga.
Papa ne Ammi ki gori aur nangi kamar ko dono haathon se kaske pakda aur ek hi zordar jhatke mein apna geela aur chikna lund unki choot ke andar jhad tak dhasa diya. "Aaaah... Akash...!" Ammi ke muh se ek behad tej aur kapkapati hui aah nikli aur unhone apna sir bedsheet par neeche gira diya. Chikne lund ke andar jaane ki geeli aawaz kamre mein goonj uthi. Maine bilkul paas se un dono par notebook se hawa karna jaari rakha, aur bina palak jhupkaye Papa ke lagatar lag rahe gehre aur taqatvar jhatkon ko dekhna jaari rakha, jismein Ammi maze aur sharm ke is aakhri mukam par lagatar karah rahi thin.
Papa ne Ammi ke hips ko dono haathon se kaske jakda aur lagatar gehre aur ek-saman jhatke lagana shuru kiya. Har jhatke ke sath bed se geeli thap-thap aur geeli aawaz pehle se aur tej ho gayi thi. Studio flat ke andar bohot garmi aur ghutan thi, aur un dono ke gore jismon par paseene ki boondein dim light mein motiyon ki tarah chamak rahi thin. Papa ne thodi der jhatke lagane ke baad ek pal ke liye jhatkon ko halka sa dheema kiya aur meri taraf dekhte hue hukum diya, "Idris beta, table par ek chhota towel rakha hai. Use uthao aur apni Ammi ki peeth aur hips par se paseene ko achhe se ponchh do taaki wo phisel na sakein."
Maine aagyakaari bankar haan mein sir hilaya, table se wo chhota towel uthaya aur bed par un dono ke bilkul paas ghutno ke bal baith gaya. Maine towel ko Ammi ki gori aur nangi peeth par rakha aur dheere-dheere unki kamar aur hips par se paseene ko saaf karna shuru kiya. Mere haath towel ke zariye Ammi ki nange jism ko ponchh rahe the. Apne hi bete ke is madadgar chhuaan aur Papa ke lagatar lag rahe strokes ke beech Ammi sharm ke maare bilkul sakte mein pad gayi thin, aur unhone takiye ko aur kaske apni mutthi mein jakad liya. Unke hont kaap rahe the aur unki saansein aur tej chalne lagi thin.
Papa ne Ammi ki peeth ko saaf dekh kar unke bikhre hue baalon ko dheere se par kaskar peeche khincha, jisse Ammi ka chehra thoda upar uth gaya. Papa ne bilkul roabdar aur dabi aawaz mein unse pucha, "Saira... batao, kya tumhara shauhar tumhe kabhi is tarah nanga karke is maze ka ehsaas karwata hai? Kya uske thande chhuaan mein ye garmi hai? Apne bete ke samne bol kar batao." Ammi ke chehre par sharm aur maze ka ek ajeeb sa toofaan tha. Unhone bechaini mein apni kamar ko Papa ke har jhatke par dhakelte hue chillakar kaha, "Nahi... Akash... please... wo... wo mujhe kabhi is tarah khush nahi kar paate... aapka ye gusse wala roop aur unki ye chhuaan hi mujhe ek aurat banati hai... aaah... please..." Apni hi maa ke muh se apne samne aisi bebaak baatein sun kar mere jism mein ek teez current daud gaya aur main bina palak jhupkaye dekhta raha.
Kuch der doggy style mein jhatke lagane ke baad, Papa ne lund ko Ammi ke andar se baahar nikala. Lund par Ammi ke jism ka paani chamak raha tha. Papa ne mujhe hukum diya, "Idris, notebook side mein rakho aur apni Ammi ko peeth ke bal bed par seedhe letne mein madad karo. Aur unke dono pairon ko bed ke kinare par kaske pakad lo." Maine aagyakaari bankar notebook ko side table par rakha aur Ammi ke naram haath ko pakad kar unhe peeth ke bal bed par seedhe letne mein madad ki. Papa ne Ammi ki baazuon se unka bra bhi poori tarah nikal kar bed se neeche phenk diya, jisse Ammi ab mere aur Papa ke samne bilkul nangi leti thin. Maine aage badhkar unke dono naram pairon ko unke takhno se pakad liya aur bed ke dono konon par kaske pakad liya taaki Papa bina kisi rukawat ke jhatke laga sakein.
Papa ne mujhe pair pakde dekh kar ek proud smile di aur Ammi ke bilkul upar missionary position mein aa gaye. Unhone ek hi gehre jhatke mein apna geela lund wapas Ammi ke andar jhad tak dhasa diya. Ammi ke muh se ek be-khudi bhari aah nikli aur unhone apne dono haath Papa ke baalon aur peeth par daal diye. Papa ne unke stanon ko masalna aur unke gaalon par kiss karna shuru kiya, aur lagatar jhatke lagane lage. Bedroom mein unke jisho ki ragad aur geeli aawazein—thap-thap—phir se goonjne lagin. Kuch der lagatar jhatke lagane ke baad, Papa ke jism mein ek kapkapi daud gayi aur unka roabdar chehra charam-seema ki garmi se laal hone laga. Unhone meri taraf dekha aur hukum diya, "Idris beta, dhyan se dekh... kaise main teri Ammi ke andar apna veerya chhod raha hoon."
Maine bina ek bhi palak jhupkaye unke is charam-seema ko bilkul paas se dekhna shuru kiya. Papa ne do-teen behad bhari aur gehre jhatke lagaye aur apne mote lund ko Ammi ke andar jhad tak daba diya. Unhone apna poora garam veerya Ammi ki tight choot ke andar chhod diya. Ammi maze ke maare apne pairon ko jhatakne ki nakaam koshish karne lagin, par maine unhe kaske pakda hua tha. Ammi ne ek tej cheekh ke sath Akash ka naam pukara aur phir bilkul shant ho gayin. Papa thak kar Ammi ke nange jism par let gaye, aur dono ki bhaari saansein chal rahi thin. Main bed ke kone par khada un dono ke is naye aur gupt rishte ke aakhri saboot ko dekhte hue ek gehri saans li. Kuch der bistar par bilkul shanti chhai rahi, kamre mein sirf un dono ki saansein chalne ki aawaz aa rahi thi. Maine aagyakaari bankar Ammi ke pairon ko aazad kiya aur bed ke paas khada ho gaya. Papa dheere se bed se uthe aur khamoshi se apne kapde pehan-ne lage. Unke chehre par ek mardaana aur roabdaar sukoon tha. Unhone meri taraf dekh kar sir hilaya aur hukum diya, "Idris, washroom se garm towel lekar aao aur apni Ammi ke jism ko saaf kar do."
Maine aagyakaari bankar washroom se garm paani mein bhiga towel liya aur bed par Ammi ke paas aakar ghutno ke bal baith gaya. Maine towel ke zariye Ammi ke pet aur jaanghon par se veerya aur paseene ko dheere-dheere saaf kiya. Apne hi bete ke is madadgar chhuaan ko Ammi ne bina kisi ghabrahat ya jhijhak ke, bilkul shanti se swikar kiya. Unka jism abhi bhi halka sa kaanp raha tha, par unki aankhon mein ab wo purana panic nahi tha. Maine unhe table se unki red kurti aur leggings pakdayi, aur unhe pehan-ne mein madad ki. Ammi ne kapde badal kar aaina mein apne bikhre baalon aur gardan par bane Papa ke naye love bites ko dekha, par unke chehre par pehle jaisa darr nahi, balki ek ajeeb sa sukoon aur thahraav dikh raha tha.
Papa hume galiyaare tak chhodne aaye. Unhone mere kandhe par ek vafadar sathi ki tarah haath rakha aur ek proud muskurahat di, aur Ammi ke maathe par aakhri baar bade pyaar se kiss kiya. Hum dono khamoshi se building ki seedhiyon se neeche utar aaye aur dhoop ke beech maine ek auto-rickshaw rukwaya. Hum dono auto ki piche ki seat par ek-doosre ke paas baith gaye, aur auto flat se door chalne laga.
Safar ke dauran auto ke shor ke beech hum dono ke darmiyan ek gehri aur bhaari khamoshi chhai rahi. Hum dono ne ek doosre se ek shabd bhi nahi bola. Ammi khidki ke baahar behti hawa ko mehsus kar rahi thin. Unhe ehsaas ho chuka tha ki samaj aur rishton ki jo banawati seemaayein unhe bandhe hue thin, wo ab poori tarah toot chuki hain, aur ye azaadi unke liye sukoon ban chuki thi. Wahin doosri taraf, main unke haath aur apne wajood ko dekh raha tha. Main samajh chuka tha ki main ab sirf ek beta nahi, balki is varjit rishte ka sabse bada rakhwala hoon. Seemaayon ka tootna mere liye darr nahi, balki ek teez romanch lekar aaya tha. Jaise hi auto hamari gali ke qareeb pahuncha—jahan humari aam zindagi aur Abbu hamara intezar kar rahe the—Ammi ne dheere se apna naram haath mere haath par rakh diya. Hum dono ne ek-doosre ki taraf dekha aur bina kuch bole unki aankhon mein sab samajh gaye. Humari purani duniya wahi thi, par hum dono ke beech ka rishta hamesha ke liye badal chuka tha.