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Dad: hai kaha wo manhus aaj koi use mujhse nhi bacha skata.
Dad bahar aaaye aur mujhe doodhne lage.
Abb agggeee.........
Mai bhi apne room me hi jaa rha tha tabhi dad ki nazar mujh par padi . dad mera naam chillate hue meri aur doude.
Dad: Reyanshh...
Mai dad ki jordar awaj sun kar darr gaya. Dad mere pass pohoche aur
Chaataakkkk..
Mai dar gya aur pucha
Mai : kkkya hhua dad.? (haklate hue)
Dad : mat le mera naam apni gandi zubaan se. Aaj teri manhusiyat ki wajah se meri ek important deal cancel ho gyi.
Aur phir isi ke sath
Chaataakkk.. Chatakkk....
3-4 thappad pad gye mujhe. Phir bhi dad ka gussa kam nahi hua toh belt nikal kar shuru ho gye. Wo bas bina ruke maare jaa rhe the. Meri aakhon se bass aasoon nikal rahe the. Maa, chachi, janvi waha khade the par koi kuch nhi bol rha tha. Meri bhi bass aassoon aur chikhe nikal rhi thi.
(Dadaji ghar par nhi the tab)
Mai : aahhhh... Nhhhiii... Papa... Maine. Kkkuch nhii kiyyaa.. Dadajiii..
Tabhi waha saima maa aagyi wo dad aur mere beech me aake boli
Saima maa : sahab ruk jaaiye bachcha hai
Kuch ho jayega.
Dad : naukar hai to apni aukat yaad rakh aur nikal yaha se nhi to tujhe bhi aaj hi naukri se nikal dunga.
Saima maa bichari majbur hokar waha se nikal gyi kyuki gareeb thi uska pura pariwar uske bharose tha kyuki uska pati iss duniya me rha nhi.
Dad tab tak mujhe belt sw marte rhe jabtak unka gussa thanda nhi ho gya. Mai tab tak behosh ho chuka tha. Mera pura sharir dukh rha tha har taraf se chamdi udhad chuki thi usme see khoon aa rha thaa.
Gussa thanda hone ke baad Dad, mom, chachi bina meri taraf dekhe apne room me chle gye . Unko jata dekh saima maa meri taraf aai jaise hi unki nazar meri taraf gyi unhone tezzi ke saath rona shuru kar diya.
Unhone bhaag kar mera sar apni godh me rakha aur badbadane lagi.
Saima maa : kitne nirdayi log hai mere bachche ki mar mar kar kya halat kar di. Bahgwaan kare inhe narak me bhi jagah na mile.
Phir saima maa mujhe uthake jaise taise mere room me le gyi aur mujhe bed pe ulta lita diya aur mere loya malham lene bazar chali gyi. Par koi aur bhi tha jo ye sab hote hue dekh rha tha aur roo rha tha ye aur koi nhi balki Swara thi.
Saima maa ke jaane ke baad wo chupke se kamre me aa gyi. Aur jaise hi usne mere kandhe pe hath rha mere dard ke mare chikh nikal gyi.
Mai : aaahhhhh.. Nhii... Mai ne kuch nhi kiya
Mai bad badane laga. Meri aisi halat dekh Swara ka dil roo rha tha aur apne maa baap se ghinn aa rhi thi. Wo boli
Swara : bhaiyaa apko ab koi nhi marega mai hu naa.
Swara ki awaj sun maine uss ki taraf dekha meri aakhon se aasoon nikalne lage mai bolna chah rha tha par dard ke karan meri awaj bhi nhi nikal rahi thi.usne mere aasoon ponche aur boli.
Swara : bohot dard ho rha hai kya bhaiyaa.
Mummy papa sach me bohot gande hai unhone aap ko mara. Tabhi saimaa maa aa gyi aur swara ko dekh kar boli.
Saima maa : beta aapko yaha nhi ana chahiye nhi to apko malkin daatengi aur naa hi phir reyansh ke liye achcha hoga.
Wo jana nhi chahti thi par mere bare me sunn kar chali gyi kyuki wo apne maa baap ka bartav mere sath dekh chuki thi.
Saimaa maa ne phir malham lagana shuru kiya jissee meri chikkhe nikal ne lagi par roo saima maa rhi thi. Bada hi ajeeb rishta tha unka aur mera jab sab ne aur apno ne thukra diya toh unhone apnaya aur aaj zakhm mere hai aur " DARD " unhe ho rha tha.
Unhone to har zakhm par dawa laga di par aaj zakhm sirf jism par nhi hue the aaj dad ne mere rooh par zakham kiye hai. Unhone aaj unhone meri masoomiyat ko maar dala tha.
Aaj meri jine ki ichcha hi khatam si ho gyi thi , aaj mai bas mar jana chahta tha, mai chahta tha ki ab bass hameshake liye geheri neend me chala jau. Saima maa bhi mujhe dekh kar samaj chuki thi ki ye zakhm aage chal kar nasur hone wale hai.
Dadaji bhi thodi der me aa gye saima maa ne unke jaane ke baad jo kuch hua wo sara haal keh sunaya. Phir jo dadaji dhadte hue dad ke room me pahuche aur phir karib 1 ghante tak dad aur dadaji ki behes aur jhagda hua. Phir dadji mujhe dekhne chale aaye. Mujhe dekhte hi unki aakhon me assoon aagye.
(mai tab soo rha tha)
Dadaji : maaf karde mujhe mere bachche mai kuch kar na saka, aaj mujhe khud se ghinn aa rhi hai ki maine ek aisi aulad paida ki hai jise ek masoom bachche asoon nhi dikhte, uska dard nhi dikhta.
Dadaji waise hi baith ke bohot der tak rote rhe .
Us din ke maar ke baad mai 3 din tak room se bahar nhi nikla tha.
Samay apni raftar se chalne laga. Swara ko bhi mere liye kaafi bura lagta aur uska lagav mere prati badhta hi jaa rha tha. Mujhse baat karne ke liye wo mom ki maar bhi kha leti.
School me bhi kuch ladko ko pta chal gya tha ki janvi mujhse nafrat karti hai iss liye usse impress karne ke liye wo mujhe tang kiya karte par janvi ko farak nhi padta wo muh pher kar chali jati.
Aaise hi samay bit raha tha abb mujhe dadaji , saima maa aur swara ko chod kar kisi se koi matlab nhi reh gya tha kyuki divya toh waise bhi baat nhi karti thi wo sach me mujhe naukar ki aulad samajti thi. Par mere dil me aaj bhi un sab ke liye soft corner tha. Par samay ke sath dadaji ki tabiyat unka sath chod rhi thi Ab wo jadatar bimar hi rehte the . Mera samay bhi nikal jata tha school , dadaji ki sewa phir khana pina aur sona . Aise mai 10th me pahuch gaya tha.
Phir wo din bhi aa gya jab dadaji mujhe iss narak me akela chod kar chale gaye. Mai school se wapas aa rha tabhi maine dekha ghar me logo ki bhid lagi hui thi mai adar gaya aur dekha dada ji ko safed chadar oudhaye litaya gya tha . Mai ye dekhte hi zinda laash ki tarah gir gya aur behosh ho gya. Saima maa ne mujhe sambhala aur hosh me laya. Hosh me aate hi mai dadaji ki taraf dauda aur unse lipat kar rone laga aur badbada rha tha.
Mai : ye kya ho gya dadaji, aap mujhe akele yaha kyu chod kar chale gye, ab mai kiske sahare jiyunga.
Tabhi mujhe papa ne ghasit kar dadaji se alag kiya aur bole.
Dad : aaj tu mere baap ko bhi khaa gya aur jhute aasoon baha rha hai dur hat jaa mere babuji ke pass se.
Saima maa ye sun kar mujhe waha se alag kiya par mai to jaise laash hi ban gaya tha na mujhe kuch sunayi de raha tha nahi kuch dikhayi se rha tha.
Wo mujhe jaise taise waha se le gyi. Mujhe dadaji ki arthi tak ko hath nhi lagane diya gya us din dad ke liye man se bad dua nikli thi. Aise hi dadaji ka antim sanskar bhi ho gya. Mai to bas dadaji ki kursi ke pass niche baitha rehta, mujhe kuch hosh hi nhi tha.
emotional update..!!
kaise mata pita hai khudke bete ko intna dard de rahe hai..inko inki aukat apna hero hi dikhayega..aur bhai reyansh ko ab saima ma ke paas hi rehne ko bhej do waha hi woh achhe se rahega..waha usse saima ki beti bhi mil jayegi..!!
Aise hi dadaji ka antim sanskar bhi ho gya. Mai to bas dadaji ki kursi ke pass niche baitha rehta, mujhe kuch hosh hi nhi tha.
Aabb aaggeeee............
Saimaa maijhe aisi halat me dekh nhi paa rhi thi tabhi use yaad yada ji dadaji ne use ek letter diya tha aur kaha tha ki mere marne ke baad Reyansh ko de dena. Wo jaldi se dadaji ke room me gayi aur wo letter nikal kar mere pass kar mujhe diya aur boli.
Saima maa : Reyansh mere bachche aise rote nahi agar tum aise hi asoon bahaoge to upar tumhare dadaji ki atama ko taklif hogi.
Mai : mai kya karoo maa mujhe unki bohot yaad aati hai .
Saima maa : par kya aise roone se aur yaad karne se wo wapas aa jayenge?
Mai : kaash aisa hota toh mai jindagi bhar ke liye inn asoon aur "DARD" ko kabul kar leta.
Saimaa maa : aise nhi bolte beta chal asoon poch aur ye le tere dadaji kaha tha ki mai tujhe ye tab du jab wo iss duniya me na rahe aur kaha tha ki use ye akele padhne ko kehena.
Mai ye sunte hi assoon ponche aur wo letter leliya. Aur bhaag kar apne room me chala gaya. Aur room ka darwaja lock kar diya aur dadaji ki chair ke pass baith gaya aur wo letter khola.
IN LETTER
(ab mai dadaji ki taraf se bolunga)
Mera pyare pote Reyansh agar tum ye letter padh rahe ho to mai iss duniya mai nhi raha hounga. Mujhe andaza tha meri halat ka, pta tha ki ab kuch hi din ka mehman hu . Mujhe mout ka dar nhi hai mujhe dar hai ki mere jane ke bad tera kya hoga kyuki mujhe pta hai bakiyo se tere rishte sirf naam ke hai ek sirf saima hai jo tujhe samajti hai par wo bakiyo ke bich kuch bol nhi sakti isliye mai chahta hu ki ab tu khud ko badal le kyuki
" Anyay karna jitna bada paap hai usse bada paap Anyay sehna hai " .tujhe meri kasam ki aaj ke baad royega nhi. Janta hu tu bachcha hai aur mai tujhe ladakpan me Mard bana rha hu par ye zaruri hai kyuki ye duniya achche logo ko chain se jine nhi deti. Mai tujhe kuch na de saka iska afsoos mujhe marne ke baad bhi rahega par ek baat hamesha yaad rakhna ki tu ek Rajput hai aur Rajput kabhi nhi harte.
Aakir me bas ek baat kahunga ki agar tu mera pota hai to tu ek din inn sabko jinhone tujhe thukraya hai unhe aisa karara jawab dega ki wo marte dum tak yaad rakhenge.
(Letter end)
Aaj akhri baar mai roya tha, jee bhar ke roya tha par uske bad kabhi apne aasun chalak ne nhi diye.
Dadaji ke jane ke baad ab akele saima maa ke liye school ka karch uthana mushkil ho rha tha to maine ek coffee shop me part time job shuru kar di. School ka kharcha bhi nikal jata aur kuch paise bacha kar gym bhi ahuru kar di thi abb school me jab bhi koi mujhe pareshan karta to mai bhi uske pura dum laga kar marta isske karan abb wo log bhi mujhse dur rehte pta nhi kaise janvi didi ko pta chal gya ki mai coffee shop pe kam karta hu wo ek din janvi didi chachi ki beti Divya ko lekar waha pohoch gyi.
Janvi didi : waiter.. Waiter
Mai waha order lene poch gaya. Jaise hi maine janvi didi aur divya ko waha dekha mai samaj gya ye yaha meri bejjati karne aayi hai.
Divya : ek garib order likh.. Ek Cappuccino Aur ek latte.
Janvi didi : aur ha ye ganda table poch.
Mai bina kuch bole chala gya aur wapas aake order serve kiya. Phir mai dusre order lene chala gya. Wo cooffe pee chuke the phir mai bill leke waha gya. Unhone paise diye , mai bache hue paise wapas de hi rha tha ki wo bole.
Janvi : are waiter keep the change.
Divya : haa waise bhi hamare yaha garibo me dan karte rehte hain infact humne to wk garib ghar me bhi pal rakha hai.
Mai : janvi didi aur divya itna bhi niche naa giro ki khud ki nazron me hi uth na sako.
Mai uski baat samajh gya. Mujhse waha aur ruka nhi gaya iss liya mai chala gya. Mere dimaag me bus ek hi baat chal rhi thi ki " haa mai garib hu, par kya garib insan nhi hote ya unhe kuch mehsus nhi hota" . Ye sab richa bhi dekh rahi thi
(richa mere sath kaam coffee shop me kaam karti thi wo mujhe se 5 saal badi thi)
Wo mere paas aayi aur pucha.
Richa : kon thi ye Reyansh ? tumhe itna jalil kyu kar rahi thi aur tum sun kyu rahe the.
Mai : kya karu richa kisamat ke hatho majbur hu garib jo thehra agar kuch use bol deta toh wo owner ko bolti aur wo mujhe yaha se nikal deta?
Richa : par thi kaun wo?
Mai : wo ladki wo hai jiske ghar mai rehta hu.
Richa : matlab tumhari family .
Mai : mujhe jaise garib ki kahe ki family.
Richa : oye tu koi garib nhi hai tu to sabse aamir hai kyuki tera dil bada hai tu dil ka sabse amir hai samjha.
Mai: haa samajh gaya par aab kaam karo agar us budhhe ne dekh liya to nikal dega kaam se.
Abb life todha track par chal rhi thi agale mahine meri 10th ki board exam thi to sirf padai aur kaam hi shuru tha. Padhai me mai amit ki madat kar diya karta tha aakhir wo mera pehla aur aakhri dost tha kyuki school me janvi didi ne ye baat faila di thi ki mai manhus hu iss liye koi mujh se dosti nhi karta par amit ko iss baat se koi farak nhi pada.
Aise hi ek mahina nikal gaya. Maine board ke exam de diye aur result ka wait kar rha tha. Mujhe result ki tension nahi thi kyuki mai shuru se topper tha har subject me.
Ek din mai amit ke ghar gya tha hum baat kar rhe the.
Amit : aur ladke kaha maje kar raha hai aaj kal.
Mai : behenchod yaha kaam se fursat nhi milti aur tu maje ki baat kar rha hai.
Amit : bhai gussa kyu kar rha hai mai to aise hi puch liya.
Mai : bhai tujhe sab pata to hai mere baare me phir bhi maje aur kush rehene ki baat karta hai baar baar.
Amit : maaf karde yaar mai tera dil nhi dukhana chahta tha..
Mai : chal chod iss baat ko sale baat baat par senti kar deta hai . Chal abb mai bhi ghar jaa rha hu shaam ho gyo hai. Bye
Amit : bye.
Mai ghar aa rha tha. Tabhi mujhe ek khambe ke paas se dabi hui chikh sunayi di maine waha jakar dekha to jo ladke mujhe school me tang karte the unhone janvi didi ko pakad rakha tha muh band karke. Mai bhagte hue waha pohocha aur bina soche jis ladke ne janvi didi ko pakda tha us ke lund pe mukka de mara wo sidha chillate hue niche baith gaya aur janvi didi aake kaske mere sine se lag gyi. Wo 3 ladke the ek to gaya tha kaam se abb yani bache do. Unme se ek bola.
1 : reyansh chod de ise kyu bacha rha hai ye to tujhe waise bhi jalil karne me koi kasar nhi chodti.
Mai : abe oo randi ki aulad wo jaisi bhi hai meri behan hai.
Ye bol ke maine didi ko apne piche kiya aur pass me padi eet utha ke dhar diya uske sar pe dusra ye dekh ke dar gya aur undono ko wahi chod kar bhag gya. Phir mai didi se bas itna bola aur chal pada
Mai : chalo ab ghar.
Wo bhi piche piche sar jhuka kar aa rahi thi aab unke dimag me bas mere wo shabd ghum rahe the " itna bhi niche naa giro ki khud ki nazron me hi uth na sako" aur unki aakhon se asoon ane lage. Phir hum ghar pohochne wale the to mai bola.
Mai : waise ye hua kaise.
Janvi : wo main apni friend ke yaha gyi thi aur gadi kharab ho gyi to driver ise thik karne laga to mai chalte hue aane lagi par jaise hi mai pole ke pass se gujri un ldko ne pakad liya par isse aage wo kuch karte tum waha pohoch aye aur aage tumhe pta hi hai..
Ye bolke wo chup ho gyi aur aasoo bahane lagi par ab inn asoon ka mol mujhe nhi rha tha. Phir mai bola.
Mai : thik hai par ab apna huliya sudharo aur ghar me ye baat mat batana.
Janvi didi : thik hai.
Unhone apna huliya sudhara aur hum ghar gye. Mai thodi der baad gya agar unke saath jata to ghar me bakheda khada ho jata.
Mai apne room me gya aur fresh ho kar niche baith gya kyuki mere room me koi bed ya sofa nhi tha ab mai baitha hi tha ki meri princess Swara dodte hue aai aur meri godh me baith gayi. ( tab swara aur divya 8 th me thi aur janvi 11th me) aur mere gal chumte hue boli.
Swara: bhaiya aaj kal meri yaad nhi aati kya aap mujhse baat hi nhi karte.
Ye bol ke usne muh fulla liya.
Mai : are meri princess naraj hai apbe bhaiya se. Par meri bhi to majburi thi kyuki meri exam chal rahi thi aur uake baad ghar me mummy bhi to rehti thi.
Swara : bhaiya aap tension bohot lete ho agar mummy kuch bolti to mai unhe keh deti ki mai aapse baat karne aai thi.
Mai : aur maar khati.
Swara : haa apke liye ye bhi sahi par mai apko maar khate nhi dekh sakti. Dekhna jab mai badi ho jaungi na tab aap ko iss ghar se bhaga le jaungi.
Mujhe uski baat pe khushi bhi ho rahi thi ki ye mujh se kitna pyaar karti hai aur haasi bhi aa rahi thi ki aapne bhai ko bhaga le jaegi.
Mujhe hasta dekh usne pucha.
Swara : bhai hass kyu rahe ho?
Mai : kyuki tu apne bhai ko bhaga le jana chahti hai... Ha... Hahaha..
Swara : to kya hua app mere ho aur aap pe sabse jada hak mera hai samjhe.
Ye bol usne mere gaal ko chumke bhaag gyi aur mai sar khujlata rha.
Wahi Janvi didi ke kamre me wo bed me sar dabaye roo rhi thi aur soch rahi thi.
Janvi didi ( man mai) : mai kitni galat thi ki mai use manhus samajhti thi wo toh itna achcha hai mai use jalil karne ke liye kya kya nhi kiya yha tak ke use pitwaya bhi phir bhi usne meri ijjat bachali. Mai usse kal maffi mang lungi apne har galti ke liye chahe mujhe uski maffi ke liye kuch bhi karna pade.
Ye soch te hue uske aakhon ke saamne wo sab chal raha tha jo usne mere sath kiya aur meri wo baat uski dimag me gunj rahi thi ki
"itna bhi niche naa giro ki khud ki nazron me hi uth na sako".
Wahi chachi ke room me kuch baat chal rhi thi.
Chachi : bhabhi bhaisahab kabtak us manhus ko iss ghar pe paloge ab to bauji bhi nhi rahe.
Maummy : par kya kare agar use ghar se nikal diya to samaj hamipe thukega.
Chachi : mai to kehti hue zeher de kar maar do uss mahus ko..
Mummy : nhi nhi mai kisi ki jaan nhi le sakti bhale hi mai use pyaar nhi karti par hai to wo mera beta hi.
Papa : mujhe lagta hai ki Kamya ( chachi) thik keh rahi hai agar hamne use zeher de kar maar diya to bahar ye keh sakte hai ki saanp ke katne se mar gya.
Chacha : chii.. Kitni nich sooch hai aap logo ki ek bachche ko marna chahte hai mai isme kabhi aap ka sath nhi doonga.
Papa : soch samajh ke bol chote. Agar sath nhi dena chachta to chup chap reh.
Pgir waha ye tey ho gaya ki kal mujhe zahar de kar mar diya jaaye.
Bahar darwaje par khada mai ye sab sun raha tha ( actually mai bahar jaa rha tha par dad ke room se apne naam ki awaj aati dekh mere kaan khade ho gye aur mai sunne laga)
Mai ye sun raha tha meri aakh me aasoon the oar maine unhe rok liya kyuki kasam khai thi. Mai bhi sochne laga kal dekh hi leta hu ki ye log kitna niche gir sakte hai..
Aise hi dadaji ka antim sanskar bhi ho gya. Mai to bas dadaji ki kursi ke pass niche baitha rehta, mujhe kuch hosh hi nhi tha.
Aabb aaggeeee............
Saimaa maijhe aisi halat me dekh nhi paa rhi thi tabhi use yaad yada ji dadaji ne use ek letter diya tha aur kaha tha ki mere marne ke baad Reyansh ko de dena. Wo jaldi se dadaji ke room me gayi aur wo letter nikal kar mere pass kar mujhe diya aur boli.
Saima maa : Reyansh mere bachche aise rote nahi agar tum aise hi asoon bahaoge to upar tumhare dadaji ki atama ko taklif hogi.
Mai : mai kya karoo maa mujhe unki bohot yaad aati hai .
Saima maa : par kya aise roone se aur yaad karne se wo wapas aa jayenge?
Mai : kaash aisa hota toh mai jindagi bhar ke liye inn asoon aur "DARD" ko kabul kar leta.
Saimaa maa : aise nhi bolte beta chal asoon poch aur ye le tere dadaji kaha tha ki mai tujhe ye tab du jab wo iss duniya me na rahe aur kaha tha ki use ye akele padhne ko kehena.
Mai ye sunte hi assoon ponche aur wo letter leliya. Aur bhaag kar apne room me chala gaya. Aur room ka darwaja lock kar diya aur dadaji ki chair ke pass baith gaya aur wo letter khola.
IN LETTER
(ab mai dadaji ki taraf se bolunga)
Mera pyare pote Reyansh agar tum ye letter padh rahe ho to mai iss duniya mai nhi raha hounga. Mujhe andaza tha meri halat ka, pta tha ki ab kuch hi din ka mehman hu . Mujhe mout ka dar nhi hai mujhe dar hai ki mere jane ke bad tera kya hoga kyuki mujhe pta hai bakiyo se tere rishte sirf naam ke hai ek sirf saima hai jo tujhe samajti hai par wo bakiyo ke bich kuch bol nhi sakti isliye mai chahta hu ki ab tu khud ko badal le kyuki
" Anyay karna jitna bada paap hai usse bada paap Anyay sehna hai " .tujhe meri kasam ki aaj ke baad royega nhi. Janta hu tu bachcha hai aur mai tujhe ladakpan me Mard bana rha hu par ye zaruri hai kyuki ye duniya achche logo ko chain se jine nhi deti. Mai tujhe kuch na de saka iska afsoos mujhe marne ke baad bhi rahega par ek baat hamesha yaad rakhna ki tu ek Rajput hai aur Rajput kabhi nhi harte.
Aakir me bas ek baat kahunga ki agar tu mera pota hai to tu ek din inn sabko jinhone tujhe thukraya hai unhe aisa karara jawab dega ki wo marte dum tak yaad rakhenge.
(Letter end)
Aaj akhri baar mai roya tha, jee bhar ke roya tha par uske bad kabhi apne aasun chalak ne nhi diye.
Dadaji ke jane ke baad ab akele saima maa ke liye school ka karch uthana mushkil ho rha tha to maine ek coffee shop me part time job shuru kar di. School ka kharcha bhi nikal jata aur kuch paise bacha kar gym bhi ahuru kar di thi abb school me jab bhi koi mujhe pareshan karta to mai bhi uske pura dum laga kar marta isske karan abb wo log bhi mujhse dur rehte pta nhi kaise janvi didi ko pta chal gya ki mai coffee shop pe kam karta hu wo ek din janvi didi chachi ki beti Divya ko lekar waha pohoch gyi.
Janvi didi : waiter.. Waiter
Mai waha order lene poch gaya. Jaise hi maine janvi didi aur divya ko waha dekha mai samaj gya ye yaha meri bejjati karne aayi hai.
Divya : ek garib order likh.. Ek Cappuccino Aur ek latte.
Janvi didi : aur ha ye ganda table poch.
Mai bina kuch bole chala gya aur wapas aake order serve kiya. Phir mai dusre order lene chala gya. Wo cooffe pee chuke the phir mai bill leke waha gya. Unhone paise diye , mai bache hue paise wapas de hi rha tha ki wo bole.
Janvi : are waiter keep the change.
Divya : haa waise bhi hamare yaha garibo me dan karte rehte hain infact humne to wk garib ghar me bhi pal rakha hai.
Mai : janvi didi aur divya itna bhi niche naa giro ki khud ki nazron me hi uth na sako.
Mai uski baat samajh gya. Mujhse waha aur ruka nhi gaya iss liya mai chala gya. Mere dimaag me bus ek hi baat chal rhi thi ki " haa mai garib hu, par kya garib insan nhi hote ya unhe kuch mehsus nhi hota" . Ye sab richa bhi dekh rahi thi
(richa mere sath kaam coffee shop me kaam karti thi wo mujhe se 5 saal badi thi)
Wo mere paas aayi aur pucha.
Richa : kon thi ye Reyansh ? tumhe itna jalil kyu kar rahi thi aur tum sun kyu rahe the.
Mai : kya karu richa kisamat ke hatho majbur hu garib jo thehra agar kuch use bol deta toh wo owner ko bolti aur wo mujhe yaha se nikal deta?
Richa : par thi kaun wo?
Mai : wo ladki wo hai jiske ghar mai rehta hu.
Richa : matlab tumhari family .
Mai : mujhe jaise garib ki kahe ki family.
Richa : oye tu koi garib nhi hai tu to sabse aamir hai kyuki tera dil bada hai tu dil ka sabse amir hai samjha.
Mai: haa samajh gaya par aab kaam karo agar us budhhe ne dekh liya to nikal dega kaam se.
Abb life todha track par chal rhi thi agale mahine meri 10th ki board exam thi to sirf padai aur kaam hi shuru tha. Padhai me mai amit ki madat kar diya karta tha aakhir wo mera pehla aur aakhri dost tha kyuki school me janvi didi ne ye baat faila di thi ki mai manhus hu iss liye koi mujh se dosti nhi karta par amit ko iss baat se koi farak nhi pada.
Aise hi ek mahina nikal gaya. Maine board ke exam de diye aur result ka wait kar rha tha. Mujhe result ki tension nahi thi kyuki mai shuru se topper tha har subject me.
Ek din mai amit ke ghar gya tha hum baat kar rhe the.
Amit : aur ladke kaha maje kar raha hai aaj kal.
Mai : behenchod yaha kaam se fursat nhi milti aur tu maje ki baat kar rha hai.
Amit : bhai gussa kyu kar rha hai mai to aise hi puch liya.
Mai : bhai tujhe sab pata to hai mere baare me phir bhi maje aur kush rehene ki baat karta hai baar baar.
Amit : maaf karde yaar mai tera dil nhi dukhana chahta tha..
Mai : chal chod iss baat ko sale baat baat par senti kar deta hai . Chal abb mai bhi ghar jaa rha hu shaam ho gyo hai. Bye
Amit : bye.
Mai ghar aa rha tha. Tabhi mujhe ek khambe ke paas se dabi hui chikh sunayi di maine waha jakar dekha to jo ladke mujhe school me tang karte the unhone janvi didi ko pakad rakha tha muh band karke. Mai bhagte hue waha pohocha aur bina soche jis ladke ne janvi didi ko pakda tha us ke lund pe mukka de mara wo sidha chillate hue niche baith gaya aur janvi didi aake kaske mere sine se lag gyi. Wo 3 ladke the ek to gaya tha kaam se abb yani bache do. Unme se ek bola.
1 : reyansh chod de ise kyu bacha rha hai ye to tujhe waise bhi jalil karne me koi kasar nhi chodti.
Mai : abe oo randi ki aulad wo jaisi bhi hai meri behan hai.
Ye bol ke maine didi ko apne piche kiya aur pass me padi eet utha ke dhar diya uske sar pe dusra ye dekh ke dar gya aur undono ko wahi chod kar bhag gya. Phir mai didi se bas itna bola aur chal pada
Mai : chalo ab ghar.
Wo bhi piche piche sar jhuka kar aa rahi thi aab unke dimag me bas mere wo shabd ghum rahe the " itna bhi niche naa giro ki khud ki nazron me hi uth na sako" aur unki aakhon se asoon ane lage. Phir hum ghar pohochne wale the to mai bola.
Mai : waise ye hua kaise.
Janvi : wo main apni friend ke yaha gyi thi aur gadi kharab ho gyi to driver ise thik karne laga to mai chalte hue aane lagi par jaise hi mai pole ke pass se gujri un ldko ne pakad liya par isse aage wo kuch karte tum waha pohoch aye aur aage tumhe pta hi hai..
Ye bolke wo chup ho gyi aur aasoo bahane lagi par ab inn asoon ka mol mujhe nhi rha tha. Phir mai bola.
Mai : thik hai par ab apna huliya sudharo aur ghar me ye baat mat batana.
Janvi didi : thik hai.
Unhone apna huliya sudhara aur hum ghar gye. Mai thodi der baad gya agar unke saath jata to ghar me bakheda khada ho jata.
Mai apne room me gya aur fresh ho kar niche baith gya kyuki mere room me koi bed ya sofa nhi tha ab mai baitha hi tha ki meri princess Swara dodte hue aai aur meri godh me baith gayi. ( tab swara aur divya 8 th me thi aur janvi 11th me) aur mere gal chumte hue boli.
Swara: bhaiya aaj kal meri yaad nhi aati kya aap mujhse baat hi nhi karte.
Ye bol ke usne muh fulla liya.
Mai : are meri princess naraj hai apbe bhaiya se. Par meri bhi to majburi thi kyuki meri exam chal rahi thi aur uake baad ghar me mummy bhi to rehti thi.
Swara : bhaiya aap tension bohot lete ho agar mummy kuch bolti to mai unhe keh deti ki mai aapse baat karne aai thi.
Mai : aur maar khati.
Swara : haa apke liye ye bhi sahi par mai apko maar khate nhi dekh sakti. Dekhna jab mai badi ho jaungi na tab aap ko iss ghar se bhaga le jaungi.
Mujhe uski baat pe khushi bhi ho rahi thi ki ye mujh se kitna pyaar karti hai aur haasi bhi aa rahi thi ki aapne bhai ko bhaga le jaegi.
Mujhe hasta dekh usne pucha.
Swara : bhai hass kyu rahe ho?
Mai : kyuki tu apne bhai ko bhaga le jana chahti hai... Ha... Hahaha..
Swara : to kya hua app mere ho aur aap pe sabse jada hak mera hai samjhe.
Ye bol usne mere gaal ko chumke bhaag gyi aur mai sar khujlata rha.
Wahi Janvi didi ke kamre me wo bed me sar dabaye roo rhi thi aur soch rahi thi.
Janvi didi ( man mai) : mai kitni galat thi ki mai use manhus samajhti thi wo toh itna achcha hai mai use jalil karne ke liye kya kya nhi kiya yha tak ke use pitwaya bhi phir bhi usne meri ijjat bachali. Mai usse kal maffi mang lungi apne har galti ke liye chahe mujhe uski maffi ke liye kuch bhi karna pade.
Ye soch te hue uske aakhon ke saamne wo sab chal raha tha jo usne mere sath kiya aur meri wo baat uski dimag me gunj rahi thi ki
"itna bhi niche naa giro ki khud ki nazron me hi uth na sako".
Wahi chachi ke room me kuch baat chal rhi thi.
Chachi : bhabhi bhaisahab kabtak us manhus ko iss ghar pe paloge ab to bauji bhi nhi rahe.
Maummy : par kya kare agar use ghar se nikal diya to samaj hamipe thukega.
Chachi : mai to kehti hue zeher de kar maar do uss mahus ko..
Mummy : nhi nhi mai kisi ki jaan nhi le sakti bhale hi mai use pyaar nhi karti par hai to wo mera beta hi.
Papa : mujhe lagta hai ki Kamya ( chachi) thik keh rahi hai agar hamne use zeher de kar maar diya to bahar ye keh sakte hai ki saanp ke katne se mar gya.
Chacha : chii.. Kitni nich sooch hai aap logo ki ek bachche ko marna chahte hai mai isme kabhi aap ka sath nhi doonga.
Papa : soch samajh ke bol chote. Agar sath nhi dena chachta to chup chap reh.
Pgir waha ye tey ho gaya ki kal mujhe zahar de kar mar diya jaaye.
Bahar darwaje par khada mai ye sab sun raha tha ( actually mai bahar jaa rha tha par dad ke room se apne naam ki awaj aati dekh mere kaan khade ho gye aur mai sunne laga)
Mai ye sun raha tha meri aakh me aasoon the oar maine unhe rok liya kyuki kasam khai thi. Mai bhi sochne laga kal dekh hi leta hu ki ye log kitna niche gir sakte hai..
Aise hi dadaji ka antim sanskar bhi ho gya. Mai to bas dadaji ki kursi ke pass niche baitha rehta, mujhe kuch hosh hi nhi tha.
Aabb aaggeeee............
Saimaa maijhe aisi halat me dekh nhi paa rhi thi tabhi use yaad yada ji dadaji ne use ek letter diya tha aur kaha tha ki mere marne ke baad Reyansh ko de dena. Wo jaldi se dadaji ke room me gayi aur wo letter nikal kar mere pass kar mujhe diya aur boli.
Saima maa : Reyansh mere bachche aise rote nahi agar tum aise hi asoon bahaoge to upar tumhare dadaji ki atama ko taklif hogi.
Mai : mai kya karoo maa mujhe unki bohot yaad aati hai .
Saima maa : par kya aise roone se aur yaad karne se wo wapas aa jayenge?
Mai : kaash aisa hota toh mai jindagi bhar ke liye inn asoon aur "DARD" ko kabul kar leta.
Saimaa maa : aise nhi bolte beta chal asoon poch aur ye le tere dadaji kaha tha ki mai tujhe ye tab du jab wo iss duniya me na rahe aur kaha tha ki use ye akele padhne ko kehena.
Mai ye sunte hi assoon ponche aur wo letter leliya. Aur bhaag kar apne room me chala gaya. Aur room ka darwaja lock kar diya aur dadaji ki chair ke pass baith gaya aur wo letter khola.
IN LETTER
(ab mai dadaji ki taraf se bolunga)
Mera pyare pote Reyansh agar tum ye letter padh rahe ho to mai iss duniya mai nhi raha hounga. Mujhe andaza tha meri halat ka, pta tha ki ab kuch hi din ka mehman hu . Mujhe mout ka dar nhi hai mujhe dar hai ki mere jane ke bad tera kya hoga kyuki mujhe pta hai bakiyo se tere rishte sirf naam ke hai ek sirf saima hai jo tujhe samajti hai par wo bakiyo ke bich kuch bol nhi sakti isliye mai chahta hu ki ab tu khud ko badal le kyuki
" Anyay karna jitna bada paap hai usse bada paap Anyay sehna hai " .tujhe meri kasam ki aaj ke baad royega nhi. Janta hu tu bachcha hai aur mai tujhe ladakpan me Mard bana rha hu par ye zaruri hai kyuki ye duniya achche logo ko chain se jine nhi deti. Mai tujhe kuch na de saka iska afsoos mujhe marne ke baad bhi rahega par ek baat hamesha yaad rakhna ki tu ek Rajput hai aur Rajput kabhi nhi harte.
Aakir me bas ek baat kahunga ki agar tu mera pota hai to tu ek din inn sabko jinhone tujhe thukraya hai unhe aisa karara jawab dega ki wo marte dum tak yaad rakhenge.
(Letter end)
Aaj akhri baar mai roya tha, jee bhar ke roya tha par uske bad kabhi apne aasun chalak ne nhi diye.
Dadaji ke jane ke baad ab akele saima maa ke liye school ka karch uthana mushkil ho rha tha to maine ek coffee shop me part time job shuru kar di. School ka kharcha bhi nikal jata aur kuch paise bacha kar gym bhi ahuru kar di thi abb school me jab bhi koi mujhe pareshan karta to mai bhi uske pura dum laga kar marta isske karan abb wo log bhi mujhse dur rehte pta nhi kaise janvi didi ko pta chal gya ki mai coffee shop pe kam karta hu wo ek din janvi didi chachi ki beti Divya ko lekar waha pohoch gyi.
Janvi didi : waiter.. Waiter
Mai waha order lene poch gaya. Jaise hi maine janvi didi aur divya ko waha dekha mai samaj gya ye yaha meri bejjati karne aayi hai.
Divya : ek garib order likh.. Ek Cappuccino Aur ek latte.
Janvi didi : aur ha ye ganda table poch.
Mai bina kuch bole chala gya aur wapas aake order serve kiya. Phir mai dusre order lene chala gya. Wo cooffe pee chuke the phir mai bill leke waha gya. Unhone paise diye , mai bache hue paise wapas de hi rha tha ki wo bole.
Janvi : are waiter keep the change.
Divya : haa waise bhi hamare yaha garibo me dan karte rehte hain infact humne to wk garib ghar me bhi pal rakha hai.
Mai : janvi didi aur divya itna bhi niche naa giro ki khud ki nazron me hi uth na sako.
Mai uski baat samajh gya. Mujhse waha aur ruka nhi gaya iss liya mai chala gya. Mere dimaag me bus ek hi baat chal rhi thi ki " haa mai garib hu, par kya garib insan nhi hote ya unhe kuch mehsus nhi hota" . Ye sab richa bhi dekh rahi thi
(richa mere sath kaam coffee shop me kaam karti thi wo mujhe se 5 saal badi thi)
Wo mere paas aayi aur pucha.
Richa : kon thi ye Reyansh ? tumhe itna jalil kyu kar rahi thi aur tum sun kyu rahe the.
Mai : kya karu richa kisamat ke hatho majbur hu garib jo thehra agar kuch use bol deta toh wo owner ko bolti aur wo mujhe yaha se nikal deta?
Richa : par thi kaun wo?
Mai : wo ladki wo hai jiske ghar mai rehta hu.
Richa : matlab tumhari family .
Mai : mujhe jaise garib ki kahe ki family.
Richa : oye tu koi garib nhi hai tu to sabse aamir hai kyuki tera dil bada hai tu dil ka sabse amir hai samjha.
Mai: haa samajh gaya par aab kaam karo agar us budhhe ne dekh liya to nikal dega kaam se.
Abb life todha track par chal rhi thi agale mahine meri 10th ki board exam thi to sirf padai aur kaam hi shuru tha. Padhai me mai amit ki madat kar diya karta tha aakhir wo mera pehla aur aakhri dost tha kyuki school me janvi didi ne ye baat faila di thi ki mai manhus hu iss liye koi mujh se dosti nhi karta par amit ko iss baat se koi farak nhi pada. Aise hi ek mahina nikal gaya. Maine board ke exam de diye aur result ka wait kar rha tha. Mujhe result ki tension nahi thi kyuki mai shuru se topper tha har subject me.
Ek din mai amit ke ghar gya tha hum baat kar rhe the.
Amit : aur ladke kaha maje kar raha hai aaj kal.
Mai : behenchod yaha kaam se fursat nhi milti aur tu maje ki baat kar rha hai.
Amit : bhai gussa kyu kar rha hai mai to aise hi puch liya.
Mai : bhai tujhe sab pata to hai mere baare me phir bhi maje aur kush rehene ki baat karta hai baar baar.
Amit : maaf karde yaar mai tera dil nhi dukhana chahta tha..
Mai : chal chod iss baat ko sale baat baat par senti kar deta hai . Chal abb mai bhi ghar jaa rha hu shaam ho gyo hai. Bye
Amit : bye.
Mai ghar aa rha tha. Tabhi mujhe ek khambe ke paas se dabi hui chikh sunayi di maine waha jakar dekha to jo ladke mujhe school me tang karte the unhone janvi didi ko pakad rakha tha muh band karke. Mai bhagte hue waha pohocha aur bina soche jis ladke ne janvi didi ko pakda tha us ke lund pe mukka de mara wo sidha chillate hue niche baith gaya aur janvi didi aake kaske mere sine se lag gyi. Wo 3 ladke the ek to gaya tha kaam se abb yani bache do. Unme se ek bola.
1 : reyansh chod de ise kyu bacha rha hai ye to tujhe waise bhi jalil karne me koi kasar nhi chodti.
Mai : abe oo randi ki aulad wo jaisi bhi hai meri behan hai.
Ye bol ke maine didi ko apne piche kiya aur pass me padi eet utha ke dhar diya uske sar pe dusra ye dekh ke dar gya aur undono ko wahi chod kar bhag gya. Phir mai didi se bas itna bola aur chal pada
Mai : chalo ab ghar.
Wo bhi piche piche sar jhuka kar aa rahi thi aab unke dimag me bas mere wo shabd ghum rahe the " itna bhi niche naa giro ki khud ki nazron me hi uth na sako" aur unki aakhon se asoon ane lage. Phir hum ghar pohochne wale the to mai bola.
Mai : waise ye hua kaise.
Janvi : wo main apni friend ke yaha gyi thi aur gadi kharab ho gyi to driver ise thik karne laga to mai chalte hue aane lagi par jaise hi mai pole ke pass se gujri un ldko ne pakad liya par isse aage wo kuch karte tum waha pohoch aye aur aage tumhe pta hi hai..
Ye bolke wo chup ho gyi aur aasoo bahane lagi par ab inn asoon ka mol mujhe nhi rha tha. Phir mai bola.
Mai : thik hai par ab apna huliya sudharo aur ghar me ye baat mat batana.
Janvi didi : thik hai.
Unhone apna huliya sudhara aur hum ghar gye. Mai thodi der baad gya agar unke saath jata to ghar me bakheda khada ho jata.
Mai apne room me gya aur fresh ho kar niche baith gya kyuki mere room me koi bed ya sofa nhi tha ab mai baitha hi tha ki meri princess Swara dodte hue aai aur meri godh me baith gayi. ( tab swara aur divya 8 th me thi aur janvi 11th me) aur mere gal chumte hue boli.
Swara: bhaiya aaj kal meri yaad nhi aati kya aap mujhse baat hi nhi karte.
Ye bol ke usne muh fulla liya.
Mai : are meri princess naraj hai apbe bhaiya se. Par meri bhi to majburi thi kyuki meri exam chal rahi thi aur uake baad ghar me mummy bhi to rehti thi.
Swara : bhaiya aap tension bohot lete ho agar mummy kuch bolti to mai unhe keh deti ki mai aapse baat karne aai thi.
Mai : aur maar khati.
Swara : haa apke liye ye bhi sahi par mai apko maar khate nhi dekh sakti. Dekhna jab mai badi ho jaungi na tab aap ko iss ghar se bhaga le jaungi.
Mujhe uski baat pe khushi bhi ho rahi thi ki ye mujh se kitna pyaar karti hai aur haasi bhi aa rahi thi ki aapne bhai ko bhaga le jaegi.
Mujhe hasta dekh usne pucha.
Swara : bhai hass kyu rahe ho?
Mai : kyuki tu apne bhai ko bhaga le jana chahti hai... Ha... Hahaha..
Swara : to kya hua app mere ho aur aap pe sabse jada hak mera hai samjhe.
Ye bol usne mere gaal ko chumke bhaag gyi aur mai sar khujlata rha.
Wahi Janvi didi ke kamre me wo bed me sar dabaye roo rhi thi aur soch rahi thi.
Janvi didi ( man mai) : mai kitni galat thi ki mai use manhus samajhti thi wo toh itna achcha hai mai use jalil karne ke liye kya kya nhi kiya yha tak ke use pitwaya bhi phir bhi usne meri ijjat bachali. Mai usse kal maffi mang lungi apne har galti ke liye chahe mujhe uski maffi ke liye kuch bhi karna pade.
Ye soch te hue uske aakhon ke saamne wo sab chal raha tha jo usne mere sath kiya aur meri wo baat uski dimag me gunj rahi thi ki
"itna bhi niche naa giro ki khud ki nazron me hi uth na sako". Wahi chachi ke room me kuch baat chal rhi thi.
Chachi : bhabhi bhaisahab kabtak us manhus ko iss ghar pe paloge ab to bauji bhi nhi rahe.
Maummy : par kya kare agar use ghar se nikal diya to samaj hamipe thukega.
Chachi : mai to kehti hue zeher de kar maar do uss mahus ko..
Mummy : nhi nhi mai kisi ki jaan nhi le sakti bhale hi mai use pyaar nhi karti par hai to wo mera beta hi.
Papa : mujhe lagta hai ki Kamya ( chachi) thik keh rahi hai agar hamne use zeher de kar maar diya to bahar ye keh sakte hai ki saanp ke katne se mar gya.
Chacha : chii.. Kitni nich sooch hai aap logo ki ek bachche ko marna chahte hai mai isme kabhi aap ka sath nhi doonga.
Papa : soch samajh ke bol chote. Agar sath nhi dena chachta to chup chap reh.
Pgir waha ye tey ho gaya ki kal mujhe zahar de kar mar diya jaaye.
Bahar darwaje par khada mai ye sab sun raha tha ( actually mai bahar jaa rha tha par dad ke room se apne naam ki awaj aati dekh mere kaan khade ho gye aur mai sunne laga)
Mai ye sun raha tha meri aakh me aasoon the oar maine unhe rok liya kyuki kasam khai thi. Mai bhi sochne laga kal dekh hi leta hu ki ye log kitna niche gir sakte hai..
Dekhte hai aagee kya hota hai.......Shandar likhate ho
