UPDATE 18
I went back to kitchen made some green tea , went back to parents bedroom. I was very happy that I did with Harika. I fucked Harika. I wanted to do this since I was in 9th std. On other hand I was feeling guilty that I did with her when she was unconscious. I shouldn’t have done that no matter how tempting it was. I should have gain her trust and convinced her and then get her like a man. My chest was heavy. I was in difficult situation. I couldn’t breath properly.
I took my tea went to terrace. It was heaven for me. I felt good. Went to room , grabbed bedsheet and mattress. Prepared my bed. Laid down and closed my eyes.
I heard some voice , I was in deep sleep. I can feel someone’s hand over my chest. I tried to open my eyes. Vision was blurry. Sun was just rising. Sky was reddish yellow. Someone was sitting beside me. I rubbed my eyes. It was keerthi.
Keerthi : You slept here ? Hello sleepy head. Get up.
I looked at her.
She was saying something and trying to pull me out of my bed. She was wearing pink kurti and white leggin. I pulled her into my bed , pulled bed sheet over us. I cuddled her.
Keerthi : come on , its morning. Harika is in hangover. I will make something to eat. Let me go.
Me : I will have you for my breakfast. I want you baby.
Keerthi : Oh soo sweet , now let me go.
Me : Shhhh. Take a deep breath , close your eyes.
Keerthi followed my instructions. I was cuddling her like a child cuddling his teddy bear. I was a cozy moment. Keerthi love getting cuddled. It was just matter of time she fell asleep in my arms.
Time passed.
I felt someone kicking my butts and yelling. I woke up like a lazy panda. Opened my eyes , found keerthi sleeping like a small baby in my arms. Sun was up , sky was bright. I heard someone calling. With great difficulty I tried to turn around. But before that…”SPLASH”. Keerthi and I just jumped out of bed. We had no Idea what happened. Soon we realised we ( keerthi and I) were wet. I turned around and found harika with bucket in her hand.
Keerthi : WTF? Babe .why did you do that ? This is only spare dress I got . I have to wear this till evening.
Harika : Don’t talk. You told me you will back by 5 mins. You went to wake him around 5:30am. Now its 7am. You are sleeping with him. Seriously?
Keerthi : Actually I came to wake him up. But he pulled me onto him. Cuddled me. I think you know how good we feel when he cuddles.
Harika tried to hide her blush.
Harika : Shh…get inside you idiots. My head is spinning. I need coffee and breakfast.
Keerthi : Give me 15 mins.
Keerthi : hurried down to kitchen.
Harika wasn’t feeling well so I lifted her into my arms.
Harika : I am fine dear. I can walk.
Me : Shhh. Don’t talk. I will carry you whether you are fine or not. I will carry you.
That moment we had uninterrupted eye contact for eye few seconds. My right hand was holding her legs while left hand was supporting her waist. Her face was near my left shoulder. She threw her arms around my neck for support. Her right breast was crushed on my chest. She didn’t brush or wash her face , no makeup. It was her natural face. Typical sleepy face , messy hair. I brought her bit close to my face. She too pulled herself closer. She then closed her eyes.
Me : Harika , open your eyes.
Then she opened her eyes. I planted small peck on her lips. Took her to bedroom and made lie on bed.
Me : I will go and check keerthi.
I was about to leave. Harika held my hand.
Harika : Stay with me.
I smiled.
Harika : I need to ask you something.
Me : I know what you want to ask.
She looked at me with surprised expression on her face.
Me : DO you want answer now or tonight after keerthi leaves.
Harika : After keerthi leaves.
Me : That’s fine.
Harika : But I have one small question. I can’t wait for this.
Me : Okay .
Harika : Did you feel awkward when you saw me naked ?
I moved closer and whispered in her ears.
Me : Why would I feel awkward ? Actually I was really happy. I saw a girl naked whom I love.
When I mentioned “love” I could see sense of happiness on her beautiful black eyes.
She was breathing heavily. I kissed her cheeks.
Me : will u excuse me . Keerthi isn’t good with kitchen stuff. I will help her.
Harika nodded okay.
I was leaving , before I left bedroom . I turned around to see harika. She was looking at me.
I gave her flying kiss. She blushed , smile and hid her face with pillow.
I was 100% sure that Harika is into me. Its just few days I will make her jealous by ignoring her and that when his is frustrated and desperate for attention. She will exhibit her jealousy and confront me for not giving her attention. Then I will propose her.
I first I was afraid what she will ask me this night. I can’t lie to her , if she asks me when I penetrated into her pussy. She knows me very well. She will know if I lie to her. I reached kitchen where keerthi was preparing bread omelette with great difficulty.
I slapped Keerthi ass.
Keerthi : Ah…ouch!
Me : You go and stay with Harika. I will come.
Keerthi : Okay. By the way congrats.
Me : for what ?
Keerthi hit my bicep .
Keerthi : You did what you wanted. But you shouldn’t have done that yesterday night.
I stopped and looked at her.
Keerthi : Yes, Harika wanted you to take her like a real man. She might not be impressed if she finds out.
Me : she wants to ask something tonight.
Keerthi : Let me guess.
Me : Yes . I am afraid she might ask whether I fucked her on beach.
Keerthi : Ha. What you gonna answer.
Me : I didn’t fuck her. Just penetrated for once n removed.
Keerthi : I saw you pounding her , like you pound me. I know how it feels.
I was speechless.
Keerthi : Don’t lie to her.
Me : She will get mad. She won’t talk to me anymore. I am afraid I will lose her.
Keerthi : Yes you may lose her you dumb fuck. I already told you that she loves you and proceed. But look what you did.
Me : Oh shit.
Keerthi : Look tell her everything. Let her get mad. She has right to get md for what you did. She was dreaming for first sex encounter from guy she loved. And surprise , you ruined it.
Let her get mad. She may not talk to you for a while. I will slowly calm her down and make her speak with you. I till now you had chance for cakewalk. But after I convince her to be good and start talking with you. I can’t say whether you both will be on same terms or she may still have desire to love you. Tomorrow after college we both gonna talk about Harika’s situation. How you will get harika back is completely upto you. I am not mad with you for what you did. I am mad at you how you did it. She loves you and you took her like a coward when she was unconscious.
Keerthi left me alone in kitchen and went to Harika. I prepared breakfast and coffee. Keerthi and Harika sat on bed while I sat infront of them on chair. All time Harika was stealing glances at me. Everytime I caught her she used to blush. Everytime she blushed I felt like someone stabbed in my heart with dagger. Oh god what I did ? Keerthi was right. Harika is into me. I am very close to make her my partner and she is willing too. I was afraid everything will be washed away after she learns what I did. I felt like crying. I completed my breakfast and I left by excusing that I have to wash our car. Its full of trash , sand from beach and beer bottles.
It took me an hour to clean the car. I came to my room. Harika was talking shower. Keerthi was on call with her dad. They will be reaching this evening. I grabbed my fresh clothes n towel, went to parents bedroom to have shower. My mind wasn’t working properly. My brain is clogged with thoughts about how Harika would react . I was literally begging god to save me or give me better lying skills ( I am not good at lying though). I was using detergent bar instead of bathing soap. I somehow to bath. I was feeling super lazy , energy level was almost hitting zero. My blood pressure became high, I started to feel dizzy. I couldn’t hear anything. I was experiencing a blackout which happens when a person suffers with sudden spike in BP. I remember that I was trying to wear pant. It blacked out. I woke up when two chicks sprinkled water on my face.
Keerthi : What happened ? We were trying to wake you for a long time. Y don’t you respond ?
Harika : You never slept this bad. You would wake up if I try to woke you from deep slumber sleep. Do you know how worried we are ? What happened ?
Me : Hmm…nothing I just had nice shower. I am tired so feel asleep.
Harika : Put on your clothes. I have to take care of laundry.
As soon as Harika left keerthi asked.
Keerthi : What happened ?
Me : I don’t know.
Keerthi : What do you mean you don’t know ? Nobody sleeps that hard. Tell me?
Me : I don’t know what happened but I didn’t feel good.
Keerthi closed bedroom door.
Keerthi : Tell me.
Me : I messed up keerthi. I messed up. I should’ve done that with Harika.
Keerthi : I am asking about what happened now.
Me : I was thinking about how she would react. I can’t live without her.
Keerthi : Did you feel like everything going blurred?
Me : yeah. Why? Is that bad?
Keerthi : You had blackout. Must be high BP. I need to talk to you now.
Me : Harika might hear.
Keerthi : Okay . Just listen. Don’t over think okay. No matter what happens Harika won’t leave you. She loves u. Okay ? Now atleast try to act as if everything is okay. Can you do that ?
Me : I am good at acting.
Keerthi : Then act as if you are good. My parents will be here by 4pm. Harika and I will go to my house by 3pm because my house is closed for few days.
Me : Yeah your father has dust allergy . Okay take her. Don’t send her before 7pm. I need time to think.
Keerthi : again , don’t think. If she gets mad let her. Let her stop talking to you for few days. She will come back to you. Last time you both had argument before she went to Hyderabad. She returned for you without spending one full night at Hyderabad. You are her destiny. She will come back to you. What you did is not small mistake. She might talk to you for amonth or so. I will try my best to bring her back to you.
Me : Okay.
Keerthi : Shall we have another round ? ( she winked).
Me : I want to but I don’t have mood right now keerthi. I am sorry.
Keerthi : No need to apologise. Take rest. I will inform you around 12pm. Order food for us. Only veg. Since yesterday our lunch n dinner was heavy. I want something light. Like Fried rice.
Me : For both of you ?
Keerthi : I will ask her and tell you.
Keerthi left.
I got dressed . House was in mess. No cleaning for last 3 days. I cleaned house while Keerthi n Harika did their job on washing machine. We ordered lunch i.e veg fried rice for girls n egg fried rice for myself. We kept chit chatting for a while. I dozed off while keerthi and Harika kept giggling and chit chatting.
At 3pm both left for keerthi’s home. As I requested Keerthi managed to keep Harika till 7 pm. I didn’t have guts to face her. I wanted to delay as much as I can. I know what she gonna ask me.
At 7pm Harika called me and asked me to pick her up from Keerthi’s home.
I picked her up. After reaching home.
Harika : I will be on terrace. Come fast.
Me : Oh fuck. How come she remember.
I parked my bike. My heart started to thump very hard. I was sweating profusely. Every step I climb , I feel like I am getting closer to my slaughter house. I stepped out on terrace.
Harika : Why are you standing there ? Come sit.
Harika was sitting on terrace by talking support of wall. I sat on her right side. As soon as I sat beside her , she kept her head on my shoulder and hugged my left arm like this.
My elbow got brushed against her breast. I moved my arm to avoid brushing her tit but to my surprise she again took my arm. I was enjoying brushing her soft tender boobs. She started to talk about here and there things. Then she came to point.
She got up sat in my lap facing me. It was dark I can’t see her expressions.
Harika : This morning you said that you loved watching a girl naked and you love that girl. What you meant ?
Me : I love you Harika. I am not kidding. I love you. Yes its same kind love what I have with Keerthi. I like you Harika. I want to make you my girl. I will be you support everything. I will never think that you r burden…never.
I wished I turned on the terrace light so that atleast I could have seen her expressions. It is pitch dark here.
She was trying to tell something. I interrupted her. I couldn’t take this guilt anymore. I just blurted out.
Me : But you don’t deserve a scum bag like me harika . You deserve better guy than me.
Harika : Who are you to tell me what you are?
Me : I am sorry Harika. I did a mistake which I shouldn’t had done. You trusted me but I betrayed you.
Harika : What are you talking bunny ? You never betrayed me. Never you can’t do that. Right now you just confessed that you love me. You are not that kinda man who will harm or betray someone you love the most.
Me : Yes I did.
Harika : What is wrong with you ? What you did tell me?
Me : I violated you. I raped you Harika. ( I couldn’t stop crying)
Harika was stunned. She didn’t understand how I raped her . She was confused.
