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Update Number 20
Aaj mai pata nahi kitne saalo baad subah 8 baje utha hun vo bhi apne mann se….naha dho ke sheetal ke pasand ka colour ka shirt jo kal maine office se aate time liya tha vo pehenke…daadhi thodisi trim karke..kyuki itni mehnat se maine daadhi badhayi hai ab puri trim karunga to mehnat pe paani fir jayega….and thodisi daadhi rakh ke dekhta hun..pata chal jayega sheetal ko meri daadhi vala look pasand aata hai ya nahi….mai baar baar apne baalo ko set kar raha tha…jo ki already set ho chuke the lekin mera mann bechain tha..isiliye mujhe is moment pe aur kuch suj nahi raha tha sivay ache dikhne ke…
Ab mere andar ekdum se ek excitement aagayi thi..ek powerful ya hopeful bhi keh sakte?!
Kyuki sheetal jo vapis aagayi thi meri life mai….mujhe pata tha abhi se hi mujhe ye expect nahi karna chahiye ki sheetal mujhse pehle din se thik tarah se baat karne lagegi…kya pata kal ki tarah isse aage mujhe firse ignore kar de…lekin mai himmat nahi harna chahta tha…aur mujhe pata tha ki this is my second and last chance mostly….sab kuch sahi karne ka!
Maine ek baar aaine mai khudh ko dekha…aur khudko jataya ki i can do it….aur fir room ko lock karke office keliye nikal gaya.
Office mai pohochne ke baad pehle to mera mood acha tha lekin office ke andar jab maine mere colleagues pe najar daali tab mera mood thoda off hogaya…kyuki sirf mai hi nahi jo bhi bachelors the is office mai kaam karne vale…vo sab meri tarah tayar hoke aa chuke the….vajah ek hi..sheetal ko impress karna….unke aur mere bich farak sirf itna tha ki mai apni biwi ko manane keliye ye sab kar raha tha..aur wo log jal mai machli fasane keliye….unko to ye bhi pata nahi tha ki sheetal married hai..ye baat mere mann mai aate hi mujhe unsabpar hassi aayi…kyuki un sabka sapna jald hi tootne vala hai..mai hass rah tha lekin agle hi pal mere mann mai dar ne jagah leli..kahi sheetal ke life mai koi aur to nahi hoga na jo mujhse behtar ho…..ya fir in 5 saalo mai koi mila ho usse…jisne meri jagah li ho uski life mai….nahi….aisa nahi ho sakta….please tu overthink karna band karde anvay…maine khudse hi chidte hue kahan…aur apni jagah pe jaake baith gaya…
Aap soch rahe honge ki pichle office party mai maine sheetal ko office mai mere colleagues se milaya tha….to fir unhine sheetal ko pechana nahi? To ek baat batadu vo incident 5 saal pehle hua tha..jab sheetal ek normal si..simple si ladki thi…lekin kal vali jo sheetal mere samne aayi thi….usme aur pehle vali sheetal mai bohot farak aa chuka tha….vo ab modern dress pehenne lagi thi…high heels….office wear…ek chasma bhi tha shayad….aur thoda makeup bhi kiya hua tha usne…kal….isiliye jo bhi log us samay sheetal se mile the…office party mai..vo log ek to bhul gaye honge ki sheetal kon hai…ya fir unhone uspe dhyaan nahi diya hoga…aur rahi baat monica ki to uska transfer 3 saal pehle hi dusre branch mai hua tha jo isi sheher mai tha..isiliye abhi ki situation ye hai…ki sirf mai aur sheetal jaante hai ki hum ek married couple hai…mr chopra bhii jante hai lekin wo ab yah akaam nahi karte….khair..vapis kahani pe aate hai..
Thodi der baad sheetal office mai aate hue dikhayi di…aaj bhi usne kal ki tarah hi formal wear pehna tha..lekin andar ka ji shirt tha..vo kuch jyada hi tight lag raha tha..aur white colour ka satin material type tha…jisse uske boobs usme ubhar ke dikh rahe the..sheetal apne hi dhun mai cabin ki taraf jaa rahi thi…lekin mujhe udka aise tight shirt pehenna acha nahi laga..kyuki baki ke launde aankhe faad kar usse dekh rahe the….maine khudko firse focus kiya jo kaam krne aaya hun uske liye…kyuki ab to mais usse dressing ki vajah se kuch bol to nahi sakta …shayad vo hak mai kabka kho chuka hun..khair…maine bag mai rakhe chotese bookey ko liya aur uth ke sheetal ki cabin ki aur chala gaya….maine uske cabin ke darwaje ke bahar khade hokar ek baar gehri saas li..aur chehre pe ek smile laake cabin ke darwaje ko knock karke khola…aur andar chala gaya….sheetal apne chair pe baith ke kuch kaam kar rahi thi….usne ek najar meri taraf daudayi aur firse aapna kaam karne lagi ….aur kathor swar mai boli
Sheetal: Yes?….lekin uski najre abhi bhi niche hi thi….kaam pe dhyaan de rahi thi
Mai ek pal keliye to usse dekhta hi raha kyuki 5 saal 6 mahino ke baad mai usse samne dekh raha tha..bohot hi khubsurat lag rahi thi vo is formal wear mai bhi…usne apna vajan shayad thoda ghata liya tha…kyuki ab uska figure bhi ekdum sexy lag raha tha…thodi chubbiness bhi thi…aur us..
Sheetal: How can i help u mister??
Usne thode gusse bhare swar mai kaha..jisse mera dhyaan uske chehre se hatke uske baato ki aur chala gaya….maine thoda hadbada ke usse kaha
Me: Vo…mai…tumhare liye ye bookey laya tha…umm..as a welcome gift….maine bookey uski taraf badhaya…
Sheetal abhi bhi gusse se meri taraf dekh rahi thi…badi cute dikh rahi thi uff…
Sheetal: Look mister….mujhe yahape bohot se important kaam hai ok…so first of all don't waste my time…aur dusri baat how dare you call me like that as if i am your friend or something? Tumhe apne boss se kaise baat kare ye samajh mai nahi aata? Ye tum-tum kya laga rakha hai? Apne se unche post ke vyakti se aise baat karte ho tum?
Ye sab bolke vo chup hogayi aur gusse se meri taraf dekhne lagi…
Mai to bas statue bane uski baato ko sun raha tha…bomb fatega..ye mujhe pata tha..lekin itne jaldi fatega ye expected nahi tha….khair..jokes apart….mai apna muh khol kar usse dekhta raha …
Me:…Um…vo..mai…i mean…mera vo matlab nahi tha….i mean…i am sorry….usne mujhe firse roka
Sheetal: Get the hell out of my cabin right now…..aur aainda se mera time waste karne keliye vapis mat aana…aur ye faltu ki chije….ye kehte hi usne mere haath se bookey uthaya aur ek jhatke mai pass rakhe dustbin mai dal diya…..aur kaha…ye aise faltu ke chijo keliye mere pass waqt nahi hai do you get it? Now get out right now!!! Usne dareaje ki taraf ishara kiya aur gusse se meri taraf dekh rahi thi…..
Mujhe thoda hurt hua…usne jis tarah se mera bookey dustbin mai feka bina usse dekhe….kyuki agar vo usse thik se dekhti to usse pata chalta ki uske pasand ke phool usme the…jo ab us dhul khate dustin mai pade the…mai usse kuch na kehkar uske cabin se bahar aaya..mera chehra puri tarah se utra hua tha….bahar aake maine dekha ki vahan pe baithe guard ko shayad andaja ho chuka tha ki andar kuch jyada hi serious matter ho chuka hai..usne mere chehre ki aur dekhte hue ye bat confirm kar li aur afsos bhari najro se mujhe dekhta raha….kyuki usse bhi aisi short tempered boss ko jhelna tha aage…usse bhi kabhi na kbhi aisi daant khani padegi…insult sehen krna padega jaise maine aaj sehen ki thi….mai vahan se nikalkar fir apne chair pe aake baith gaya..aur computer ki screen ko dekhne laga….
Pure din bhar mai mera mann nahi lag raha tha kaam mai kyuki mujhe sheetal se bohot saari baate krni thi aur sabse important usse maafi mangni thi…lekin waisa koi mauka hi nahi mil raha tha….lunch time mai bhi sheetal ne cabin mai hi khana mangvaya tha…isiliye canteen mai bhi usse milne-baat karne ka plan flop hogaya…..thodi der kaaam mai busy hone ke baad jab shaam ko office chuta tab sab log ek ek karke nikalne lage office se….mai bhi apna PC band kiya aur bag uthake nikalne vala tha..maine ek baar sheetal ke cabin ki aur najar daudayi to dekha ki cabin mai koi lights nahi the…aur bahar baitha guard bhi vahan nahi tha…shayad sheetal pehle hi vapis ghar chali gyai ho….jab mai bsy tha tab….mai firse niraash hoke office se bahar jane laga…aur fir apni bike nikalke room ki taraf badh gaya
Aaj mai pata nahi kitne saalo baad subah 8 baje utha hun vo bhi apne mann se….naha dho ke sheetal ke pasand ka colour ka shirt jo kal maine office se aate time liya tha vo pehenke…daadhi thodisi trim karke..kyuki itni mehnat se maine daadhi badhayi hai ab puri trim karunga to mehnat pe paani fir jayega….and thodisi daadhi rakh ke dekhta hun..pata chal jayega sheetal ko meri daadhi vala look pasand aata hai ya nahi….mai baar baar apne baalo ko set kar raha tha…jo ki already set ho chuke the lekin mera mann bechain tha..isiliye mujhe is moment pe aur kuch suj nahi raha tha sivay ache dikhne ke…
Ab mere andar ekdum se ek excitement aagayi thi..ek powerful ya hopeful bhi keh sakte?!
Kyuki sheetal jo vapis aagayi thi meri life mai….mujhe pata tha abhi se hi mujhe ye expect nahi karna chahiye ki sheetal mujhse pehle din se thik tarah se baat karne lagegi…kya pata kal ki tarah isse aage mujhe firse ignore kar de…lekin mai himmat nahi harna chahta tha…aur mujhe pata tha ki this is my second and last chance mostly….sab kuch sahi karne ka!
Maine ek baar aaine mai khudh ko dekha…aur khudko jataya ki i can do it….aur fir room ko lock karke office keliye nikal gaya.
Office mai pohochne ke baad pehle to mera mood acha tha lekin office ke andar jab maine mere colleagues pe najar daali tab mera mood thoda off hogaya…kyuki sirf mai hi nahi jo bhi bachelors the is office mai kaam karne vale…vo sab meri tarah tayar hoke aa chuke the….vajah ek hi..sheetal ko impress karna….unke aur mere bich farak sirf itna tha ki mai apni biwi ko manane keliye ye sab kar raha tha..aur wo log jal mai machli fasane keliye….unko to ye bhi pata nahi tha ki sheetal married hai..ye baat mere mann mai aate hi mujhe unsabpar hassi aayi…kyuki un sabka sapna jald hi tootne vala hai..mai hass rah tha lekin agle hi pal mere mann mai dar ne jagah leli..kahi sheetal ke life mai koi aur to nahi hoga na jo mujhse behtar ho…..ya fir in 5 saalo mai koi mila ho usse…jisne meri jagah li ho uski life mai….nahi….aisa nahi ho sakta….please tu overthink karna band karde anvay…maine khudse hi chidte hue kahan…aur apni jagah pe jaake baith gaya…
Aap soch rahe honge ki pichle office party mai maine sheetal ko office mai mere colleagues se milaya tha….to fir unhine sheetal ko pechana nahi? To ek baat batadu vo incident 5 saal pehle hua tha..jab sheetal ek normal si..simple si ladki thi…lekin kal vali jo sheetal mere samne aayi thi….usme aur pehle vali sheetal mai bohot farak aa chuka tha….vo ab modern dress pehenne lagi thi…high heels….office wear…ek chasma bhi tha shayad….aur thoda makeup bhi kiya hua tha usne…kal….isiliye jo bhi log us samay sheetal se mile the…office party mai..vo log ek to bhul gaye honge ki sheetal kon hai…ya fir unhone uspe dhyaan nahi diya hoga…aur rahi baat monica ki to uska transfer 3 saal pehle hi dusre branch mai hua tha jo isi sheher mai tha..isiliye abhi ki situation ye hai…ki sirf mai aur sheetal jaante hai ki hum ek married couple hai…mr chopra bhii jante hai lekin wo ab yah akaam nahi karte….khair..vapis kahani pe aate hai..
Thodi der baad sheetal office mai aate hue dikhayi di…aaj bhi usne kal ki tarah hi formal wear pehna tha..lekin andar ka ji shirt tha..vo kuch jyada hi tight lag raha tha..aur white colour ka satin material type tha…jisse uske boobs usme ubhar ke dikh rahe the..sheetal apne hi dhun mai cabin ki taraf jaa rahi thi…lekin mujhe udka aise tight shirt pehenna acha nahi laga..kyuki baki ke launde aankhe faad kar usse dekh rahe the….maine khudko firse focus kiya jo kaam krne aaya hun uske liye…kyuki ab to mais usse dressing ki vajah se kuch bol to nahi sakta …shayad vo hak mai kabka kho chuka hun..khair…maine bag mai rakhe chotese bookey ko liya aur uth ke sheetal ki cabin ki aur chala gaya….maine uske cabin ke darwaje ke bahar khade hokar ek baar gehri saas li..aur chehre pe ek smile laake cabin ke darwaje ko knock karke khola…aur andar chala gaya….sheetal apne chair pe baith ke kuch kaam kar rahi thi….usne ek najar meri taraf daudayi aur firse aapna kaam karne lagi ….aur kathor swar mai boli
Sheetal: Yes?….lekin uski najre abhi bhi niche hi thi….kaam pe dhyaan de rahi thi
Mai ek pal keliye to usse dekhta hi raha kyuki 5 saal 6 mahino ke baad mai usse samne dekh raha tha..bohot hi khubsurat lag rahi thi vo is formal wear mai bhi…usne apna vajan shayad thoda ghata liya tha…kyuki ab uska figure bhi ekdum sexy lag raha tha…thodi chubbiness bhi thi…aur us..
Sheetal: How can i help u mister??
Usne thode gusse bhare swar mai kaha..jisse mera dhyaan uske chehre se hatke uske baato ki aur chala gaya….maine thoda hadbada ke usse kaha
Me: Vo…mai…tumhare liye ye bookey laya tha…umm..as a welcome gift….maine bookey uski taraf badhaya…
Sheetal abhi bhi gusse se meri taraf dekh rahi thi…badi cute dikh rahi thi uff…
Sheetal: Look mister….mujhe yahape bohot se important kaam hai ok…so first of all don't waste my time…aur dusri baat how dare you call me like that as if i am your friend or something? Tumhe apne boss se kaise baat kare ye samajh mai nahi aata? Ye tum-tum kya laga rakha hai? Apne se unche post ke vyakti se aise baat karte ho tum?
Ye sab bolke vo chup hogayi aur gusse se meri taraf dekhne lagi…
Mai to bas statue bane uski baato ko sun raha tha…bomb fatega..ye mujhe pata tha..lekin itne jaldi fatega ye expected nahi tha….khair..jokes apart….mai apna muh khol kar usse dekhta raha …
Me:…Um…vo..mai…i mean…mera vo matlab nahi tha….i mean…i am sorry….usne mujhe firse roka
Sheetal: Get the hell out of my cabin right now…..aur aainda se mera time waste karne keliye vapis mat aana…aur ye faltu ki chije….ye kehte hi usne mere haath se bookey uthaya aur ek jhatke mai pass rakhe dustbin mai dal diya…..aur kaha…ye aise faltu ke chijo keliye mere pass waqt nahi hai do you get it? Now get out right now!!! Usne dareaje ki taraf ishara kiya aur gusse se meri taraf dekh rahi thi…..
Mujhe thoda hurt hua…usne jis tarah se mera bookey dustbin mai feka bina usse dekhe….kyuki agar vo usse thik se dekhti to usse pata chalta ki uske pasand ke phool usme the…jo ab us dhul khate dustin mai pade the…mai usse kuch na kehkar uske cabin se bahar aaya..mera chehra puri tarah se utra hua tha….bahar aake maine dekha ki vahan pe baithe guard ko shayad andaja ho chuka tha ki andar kuch jyada hi serious matter ho chuka hai..usne mere chehre ki aur dekhte hue ye bat confirm kar li aur afsos bhari najro se mujhe dekhta raha….kyuki usse bhi aisi short tempered boss ko jhelna tha aage…usse bhi kabhi na kbhi aisi daant khani padegi…insult sehen krna padega jaise maine aaj sehen ki thi….mai vahan se nikalkar fir apne chair pe aake baith gaya..aur computer ki screen ko dekhne laga….
Pure din bhar mai mera mann nahi lag raha tha kaam mai kyuki mujhe sheetal se bohot saari baate krni thi aur sabse important usse maafi mangni thi…lekin waisa koi mauka hi nahi mil raha tha….lunch time mai bhi sheetal ne cabin mai hi khana mangvaya tha…isiliye canteen mai bhi usse milne-baat karne ka plan flop hogaya…..thodi der kaaam mai busy hone ke baad jab shaam ko office chuta tab sab log ek ek karke nikalne lage office se….mai bhi apna PC band kiya aur bag uthake nikalne vala tha..maine ek baar sheetal ke cabin ki aur najar daudayi to dekha ki cabin mai koi lights nahi the…aur bahar baitha guard bhi vahan nahi tha…shayad sheetal pehle hi vapis ghar chali gyai ho….jab mai bsy tha tab….mai firse niraash hoke office se bahar jane laga…aur fir apni bike nikalke room ki taraf badh gaya
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Update No. 21
Wo kehte hai na ki andhere mai agar jarasi bhi roshni dikhe to uspar depend hoke log us andhere se bahar nikal sakte hai....wo tiny hope....meri zindagi bhi ab usipe chal rhi thi....aur mere life mai wo tiny si hope thi sheetal....meri life ki situation is samay kitni bhi bikat ho lekin sheetal ke life mai wapas aane se ab mere andar ek chotisi ummed ki kiran najar aa rahi thi....ki pata nahi kal ko agar sheetal mujhe mafa kar de aur hum dono firse as a couple rehne lage....shayad!
Isi hope ke sahare mai har subah ek naya josh leke office pohochta tha...aur pehle din ki tarah sheetal mujhe kisi na kisi chij ko lekar mujhpe chillaya karti sabke samne ya fir meri insult karti...aur mai vo sab hasi hasi sehen kar leta ...kyuki akele reh kar dub marne se acha hai iski itni gaaliyan zhel lun...us karan hi sahi sheetal mujhse bata to karti hai daily….
Isi tarah se 2 months gujar gaye…aur ab office ke bohot se log sheetal ko achi tarah se jan chuke the…kuch female colleagues to uski dost bhi ban gyi thi ….mostly uske chehre pe serious expression rehte lekin kabhi kabar haste hue bhi dikhai deti hai jisse dekhkar mera mood bhi thik hojata hai…
Office mai jab bhi meri aur sheetal ki mulakat hoti...to vo pehle 1 month keliye to meri taraf galti se bhi dekhti nahi thi.…lekin ab jab hum aamne samne aate hai.…ya fir ye kehsakte...ki mai jab jan buch ke uske samne chala jaata hun...tab wo mujhse kuch kehti to nahi hai but meri taraf ab dekhti to hai...uski najre jaise hi mere chehre pe padti hai...mai use ek smile pass kar deta hun.…lekin vo hamesha ki tarah kuch react nahi karti hai aur mujhse opposite direction mai chali jaati hai...
Wo sab pichle kuch dino se chal raha tha lekin ab mujhe jald se jald sheetal se baat karni thi.…isiliye maine ek plan banaya.…mujhe pata tha ki sheetal dopher ke 2 se 4 baje tak apne cabin mai kaam karne baithti hai...aur uske baad bahar jati hai...isiliye maine aaj decide kiya ki usi samay mai kuch reason nikalke usse baat krne jaunga...
Jab 2 baj gaye tab maine ek file uthayi aur uske cabin ki aur chala gaya...jaise hi maine door open kiya to dekha ki vo laptop pe kuch kaam kar rahi thi.…maine fir door close karke uske paas chala gaya aur uske samne jaake khada hogaya...pehle 2 min tak to maine kuch nahi kaha...kyuki usne abhi tak meri taraf dekha nahi tha...usne abhi glasses use karna start kar diya tha.…badi cute lag rahi thi kaam karte hue.…ye mai kya kya bol rha hun...chya.…khair...
Jab maine 2 min tak kuch nahi kaha tab usne meri taraf sawal bhari najro se dekha...aur isharo se hi pucha kya hai?….main ab firse hosh mai aagaya...aur sidha point pe aate hiue kahan...
Me: Mujhe pata hai tum abhi mujhpe gussa ho kyuki maine.…….mai aage ki baat complete nahi kar paya kyuki uske expression itne jaldi se change hogaye...aur ab vo mujhe thoda gusse se. Dekh rahi thi.
Me: Mai bas yehi kehna chahta hun ki.…i am extremely sorry for everything i have done.…. please mujhe maaf kardo.…
Ab room mai bas diwar pe tange ghadi ke tick-tick ki aavaj aa rahi thi...silence aur suspense dono hi badhta jaa raha tha.…mai bas yehi dua kar raha tha ki ye mujhse saare nate na tod de.…kyuki pichli baar jab mai isse baat karne aya tha tab maine iska gussa experience kiya tha....aur ab shayad vo mujhse baat bhi krna nahi chahti ho.…yehi sab chijo ko overthink karte hue mai vaha khada raha...tabhi sheetal ne apna gala clear kiya aur mujhse kahan..
Sheetal: Office ke baad parking lot mai milna.…waha baat karenge.…ab mujhe apna kaam krne do.…..
Wow.…mai ye to jara bhi expect nahi kar raha tha.…mujjhe laga gusse se kuch ulta sidha keh degi ..lekin isne to shant swar mai …lekin thoda strictness dikhate hue mujhse jo bhi kahan...usse mai ashcharya se use dekhta raha.…aur thoda turn on bhi hogaya...ye bossy sheetal mujhe kuch jyad hi lasand aa rahi thi.…mai ab muh khula rakhe usse dekh raha tha.…lekin agle hi minute maine wo file uthayi aur uske cabin se bahar aagaya.…thoda khush bhi tha...ki aaj shaam sheetal se baat krne ka chance milega... clearly aur thoda tension mai bhi tha …jo ki obvious si baat thi.…mai fir apne chair pe jaake baith gaya...aur kaam oe dhyaan dene laga.
Jab office khatam hua to mai jhat se apna saman pack krke niche parking lot ki taraf daudta hua jaane laga.…sablog mujhe confusion bhari najro se dekh rahe the..lekin mujhe unki parva nahi thi...are bhai meri biwi ne order diya hai to usse follow krna padenga...nahi to apun ka vanda hoyenga aaye.…khair...
Mai jaise hi parking lot pohcha.…to dekha ki sheetal abhi tak yaha aayi nahi thi..maine fir jaldi se apne bike ki taraf jaate hue...apne baal thik jar liye...aur ek do baar bike ke aaine mai apna chehra dekha...fir apne muh se apne hatah fe ek phook maari jisse mujhe pata chale ki kahi mere muh se smell to nahi aa rahi.…lekin fir bhi backup keliye bag mai se maine ek centrefresh nikali aur apne muh mai dalke chabane laga.…aur firse sheetal ka wait krne laga.…
10min wait krne ke baad sheetal neeche aagayi...ab tak to pura parking lot khali ho chuka tha...isilye bas meri aur sheetal ki gaadi yaha khadi thi.…mai sheetal ko dekhne laga...wo dhire dhire chalte hue apne haath mai mobile liye meri tarah aa rhi thi...mai bhi thoda aage badha.…wo mere pass aagayi aur mujhse kahan ki office ke pass vale cafe mai jake baat krte hai..maine bhi thumbs up ka ishara kiya...aur jaldi se bike nikalke aur apna helmet pehen ke us cafe ki taraf badh gaya.…sheetal apni car leke aage chal rhi thi aur mai dhire speed rakhte hue uske piche...hum log cafe pohoch gaye...abhi office chutne ka time hogaya tha isiliye cafe khachakhach bhara pada tha.…hume fir bhi luckyly ek corner table mil gaya.…hum log vaha jaake baith gaye...sheetal ne apne liye ek coffee order kr di...jab waiter ne meri taraf dekha to maine usse kahan jo bhi inhone kaha vahi mere liye bhi laaye...kyuki mujhe ab coffee se jyada important yaha hone vaali baat thi...
Thodi der tak sheetal apne mobile mai dekhti rahi...mai bas chupchap baith ke usse dekhta raha...fir hum dono ki coffee aagayi.…coffee peena ke baad usne meri taraf dekha...aur mujhse kahan
Sheetal: Hmm..bolo.…kya kehna chahte ho?
Meri to halat patli hogayi thi ab tak...kyuki pichle 15 minute se jo mere pasine chute hai..by god...itna nervous to mai apne pehle interview keliye bhi nahi hua tha...jitna aaj hi rha hun.…aur upar se sheetal se itne saalo baad face to face ek ache mahol mai baat ho rhi thi.…
Maine fir khudko sambhalte hue ek lambi saas li...aur usse kaha
Me: Mai bas yehi kehna chahta hun ki maine jo bhi galtiya ki thi...past mai.…unke liye mai sharminda hun.…aur maine tumhe us waqt jitna hurt kiya hai.…isiliye i am extremely sorry.…mujhe please maaf kardo.…
Maine firse vahi baat dorahi jo maine usse cabin mai kahan tha...aur ab mai thoda guilty bhi feel kar raha tha.
Sheetal firse 2 minute tak shant baithi...aur fir kaha
Sheetal: Okay
Uska ye jawab sunte hi mai itna confuse hogaya...
Me: Okay?
Sheetal ne haan mai sir hilaya...
Me: Matlab?
Sheetal ne fir na mai sir hilaya...wo soch rhi hogi kitna bada bhuddhu hun mai...
Sheetal: Maine tumhe maaf kar diya.…
Bhaisahab….uski ye baat sunke mai jo statue bane baitha tha.…dimaag sun pad chuka tha.…yaar mai kya kya expect kar raha tha...jo ki situation ke hisaab se vaisa hi hona chahiye tha.…like...sheetal mujhse baat nahi karegi...fir mujhe bura bhala kahegi...fir mai usse manane ki koshish karunga.…ye sab.…lekin yaha to kuch aur hi ho raha tha.…bouncer pe bouncer aa rahe the samne se.…aur sheetal ke expression bhi ekdum normal the.…
Me: Lekin.….tum.…mai.…vo.….tum mujhse gussa nahi ho?
Sheetal ne na mai sir hilaya.…
Me: Lekin kyu?
Ye chaman chutia.…itna acha chance mila hai...is sawal ko puchke sab kuch bigad dega...mere dimaag ne mujhse kaha
Sheetal bhi thoda confuse hogayi.…aur boli
Sheetal: Tum khush nahi ho ki maine tumhe maaf kar diya?
Me: Are nahi nahi.…wo baat nahi hai...mai khush hun.…bohot khush hun...lekin.…mujhe kaha tum mujhpe gussa karogi...mujhe bura bhala kahogi.…
Sheetal thodasa hassi.….uff yaar...iski smile ek din maar dalegi mujhe.…kitne saalo baat usse smile krte hue dekh raha tha...vo bhi mujhse baat krte hue...
Sheetal: Nahi.…mai aisa kuch nahi kehne vali tumse.…infact mujhe tumhe thankyou kehna chahiye.…
Mai uski yee baat sunke aur chaunk gaya.…bhai aaj ho kya raha hai?? Ye sab jaise mere dimaag mai chal raha tha vaise to ho hi nahi rha.…mai kahi firse sapna to nahi dekh raha? Mujhe ab kuch samaj mai nahi aa raha tha...mai usse confused hoke dekhta raha...fir pucha...
Me: Thankyou?? Lekin kyu???
Sheetal: Thankyou isliye.…kyuki agar tumne us din mujhe hurt nahi kiya hota to aaj mai is mukam tak na pohochti.…agar vo din na hota to mai aaj bhi dasvi pass sheetal hi rehti...jisne life mai kuch haasil na kiya ho …usne confidently kahan.…
Mai uski baat sunke firse guilty feel krne laga..aur maine apni najre niche krke dekhne laga.…
Sheetal mere expression dekh ke samaj gayi...
Sheetal: Are..tum khudko doshi mat thehrao.…haan mai hurt hui thi us din.…lekin tumne agar mujhe us raat utna savkuch bola na hota to mai khudko motivate kaise karti? Khud ko prove krne keliye...
Mera mood ab pura down ho chuka tha..us raat ko yaad karke.…sheetal mujhse positively baat kar rahi thi...lekin mera mood down hone se mujhe uski baat bhi negative lag rhi thi.…mere pov se.…maine usse kahan..
Me: Matlab ab mai tumhari life mai villain ban chuka hun?! Hmm?
Sheetal: Are nahi yaar.…tum kyu villain banne lage mere life mai.…maine kahan na mai tumse gussa nahi hun.…jab mai vapas apne ghar chali gayi thi.…tab maine bohot dino tak apne andar jhak ke dekha...aur fir mujhe asal baat pata chali.…mere life ki villain to mai khud thi.…kyuki aaj ke life mai har ek ladki ko apne pairo pe khada hona chahiye... independent hona chahiye.…isiliye maine decide kar liya ki chahe kuch bhi hojaye...mai life mai kuch ban kar dikhaungi …iska matlab ye nahi ki mai tumhe dosh de rahi thi...balki tumne bhi meri help ki hai mujhe aaina dikha kar.…isiliye maine thankyou kahan...
Uski baat to sahi thi...lekin mera mann manne keliye hi tayar nahi tha.…
Me: Lekin mai...
Sheetal ne meri baat katte hue kahan..
Sheetal: Acha chalo...vo sab chodo...ab vo sab past mai hai.…aur uska jo bhi effect tha vo to positive hi nikal kar aaya na...khair.…tum ye batao...ki tum kaise ho?
Uski baat sunke mujhe acha laga.…kyuki itne saalo mai mujhse kisi ne pucha nahi tha ki mai kaisa hun.…..lekin jaise hi maine pichle 5 saalo mai jhanka.…to mujhe loneliness ke alawa kuch nahi dikha.…mere muh se ek hassi chut gayi...
Me: Mai to thik hi hun i guess.…actually nahi.…mai bilkul bhi thik nahi hun yaaaar.….ye kehte hi mere aankho se kab aansu aane lage mujhe oata hi nahi chala.….mai bilkul akela pad chuka hun.…tumhare jaane ke baad.…..
Maine usse sab kuch bata diya jo bhi in 5 saalo mai meri life mai hua tha...ye sab sunnke sheetal ke ankhe bhi bhar gayi...vo emotional hoke mujhe dekh rhi thi.…kyuki use ye to pata chal chuka tha meri baato se ki mai khudko doshi thera rha tha itne saal...lekin uske pov se baat kuch alag thi..lekin jaise hi usne maa aur papa ke baare mai sunna uske expression change hogaye.…
Sheetal ab tk jo soft ho chuki thi firse strict lehje mai aagayi aur kaha
Sheetal: Mai tumse isiliye naaraj nahi hun kyuki tumne mujhe hurt kiye.…mujhe bas ek baat achi nahi kagi ki tum maa aur papa se kaise behave krte ho.…kuch kuch din to tumhe unse baat karte hue ye bhi yaad nahi rehta tha.…ki vo tumhare maa baap hai.…
Wo un dino ki baat kar rahi thi jab mai kisi baat se gussa hota tha aur usse gusse se apne maa baap se jhagadta tha..kisi bhi baat par.…tab sheetal kuch kehti nahi thi.…shayad darti ho mujhse...lekin aaj ka din alag tha.…aaj vo mujhe khul ke keh sakti thi ki mai kahan galat hun...aur kahan sahi.…ye change mujhe acha lag raha tha.…ye sheetal mujhe achi lagne lagi thi.…
Me: Vo baat mujhe in 5 saalo mai realise hui.…ki mai kitne galat tarike se unse behave kar rha tha.…ab koi fayda nahi hai lekin.…kyuki ab to vo mujhse baat tak nahi karte.…
Hum dono firse shanta baith gaye.…fir sheetal ne time dekha...aur mujhse kahan...
Sheetal: Chalo.…8 baj gaye hai...ab mujhe ghar jana padega ….
Uski yee bat sunte hi mujhe ek sawal yaad aya...
Me: Ghar??…Tum kahan reh rahi ho? Kahan hai tumhara ghar?
Sheetal ne ek baar mujhe dekha...aur ek smile pass ki.…lekin ye normal vali smile nahi thi...
Sheetal: Is sheher mai mera bas ek hi ghar hai.…ye kehte hi usne fir mujhe ankho mai dekha...aur wait krne lagi.…
Pehle to mai confuse hogaya...lekin baad mai mujhe click hua.….uska ghar.…yani ki mera ghar...humara ghar.…Vo ghar jahan mai ab shayad hi vapas ja saku.…
Meri aankhe firse bhar aayi.…
Mere expression dekhke sheetal thodi der dekhti rahi...fir apna purse aur mobile leke khadi hogayi.…aur mujhe bye kehte hue cafe je bahar chali gayi.…lekin mai bas abhi apne khayalo mai dube...guilt mai dube samne dekhta raha.….mujhe pata hu nahi chala sheetal kab yahase chali gayi hai.…fir thodi ser baithne ke baad mai bhi utha aur apne room ki taraf badh gaya
Wo kehte hai na ki andhere mai agar jarasi bhi roshni dikhe to uspar depend hoke log us andhere se bahar nikal sakte hai....wo tiny hope....meri zindagi bhi ab usipe chal rhi thi....aur mere life mai wo tiny si hope thi sheetal....meri life ki situation is samay kitni bhi bikat ho lekin sheetal ke life mai wapas aane se ab mere andar ek chotisi ummed ki kiran najar aa rahi thi....ki pata nahi kal ko agar sheetal mujhe mafa kar de aur hum dono firse as a couple rehne lage....shayad!
Isi hope ke sahare mai har subah ek naya josh leke office pohochta tha...aur pehle din ki tarah sheetal mujhe kisi na kisi chij ko lekar mujhpe chillaya karti sabke samne ya fir meri insult karti...aur mai vo sab hasi hasi sehen kar leta ...kyuki akele reh kar dub marne se acha hai iski itni gaaliyan zhel lun...us karan hi sahi sheetal mujhse bata to karti hai daily….
Isi tarah se 2 months gujar gaye…aur ab office ke bohot se log sheetal ko achi tarah se jan chuke the…kuch female colleagues to uski dost bhi ban gyi thi ….mostly uske chehre pe serious expression rehte lekin kabhi kabar haste hue bhi dikhai deti hai jisse dekhkar mera mood bhi thik hojata hai…
Office mai jab bhi meri aur sheetal ki mulakat hoti...to vo pehle 1 month keliye to meri taraf galti se bhi dekhti nahi thi.…lekin ab jab hum aamne samne aate hai.…ya fir ye kehsakte...ki mai jab jan buch ke uske samne chala jaata hun...tab wo mujhse kuch kehti to nahi hai but meri taraf ab dekhti to hai...uski najre jaise hi mere chehre pe padti hai...mai use ek smile pass kar deta hun.…lekin vo hamesha ki tarah kuch react nahi karti hai aur mujhse opposite direction mai chali jaati hai...
Wo sab pichle kuch dino se chal raha tha lekin ab mujhe jald se jald sheetal se baat karni thi.…isiliye maine ek plan banaya.…mujhe pata tha ki sheetal dopher ke 2 se 4 baje tak apne cabin mai kaam karne baithti hai...aur uske baad bahar jati hai...isiliye maine aaj decide kiya ki usi samay mai kuch reason nikalke usse baat krne jaunga...
Jab 2 baj gaye tab maine ek file uthayi aur uske cabin ki aur chala gaya...jaise hi maine door open kiya to dekha ki vo laptop pe kuch kaam kar rahi thi.…maine fir door close karke uske paas chala gaya aur uske samne jaake khada hogaya...pehle 2 min tak to maine kuch nahi kaha...kyuki usne abhi tak meri taraf dekha nahi tha...usne abhi glasses use karna start kar diya tha.…badi cute lag rahi thi kaam karte hue.…ye mai kya kya bol rha hun...chya.…khair...
Jab maine 2 min tak kuch nahi kaha tab usne meri taraf sawal bhari najro se dekha...aur isharo se hi pucha kya hai?….main ab firse hosh mai aagaya...aur sidha point pe aate hiue kahan...
Me: Mujhe pata hai tum abhi mujhpe gussa ho kyuki maine.…….mai aage ki baat complete nahi kar paya kyuki uske expression itne jaldi se change hogaye...aur ab vo mujhe thoda gusse se. Dekh rahi thi.
Me: Mai bas yehi kehna chahta hun ki.…i am extremely sorry for everything i have done.…. please mujhe maaf kardo.…
Ab room mai bas diwar pe tange ghadi ke tick-tick ki aavaj aa rahi thi...silence aur suspense dono hi badhta jaa raha tha.…mai bas yehi dua kar raha tha ki ye mujhse saare nate na tod de.…kyuki pichli baar jab mai isse baat karne aya tha tab maine iska gussa experience kiya tha....aur ab shayad vo mujhse baat bhi krna nahi chahti ho.…yehi sab chijo ko overthink karte hue mai vaha khada raha...tabhi sheetal ne apna gala clear kiya aur mujhse kahan..
Sheetal: Office ke baad parking lot mai milna.…waha baat karenge.…ab mujhe apna kaam krne do.…..
Wow.…mai ye to jara bhi expect nahi kar raha tha.…mujjhe laga gusse se kuch ulta sidha keh degi ..lekin isne to shant swar mai …lekin thoda strictness dikhate hue mujhse jo bhi kahan...usse mai ashcharya se use dekhta raha.…aur thoda turn on bhi hogaya...ye bossy sheetal mujhe kuch jyad hi lasand aa rahi thi.…mai ab muh khula rakhe usse dekh raha tha.…lekin agle hi minute maine wo file uthayi aur uske cabin se bahar aagaya.…thoda khush bhi tha...ki aaj shaam sheetal se baat krne ka chance milega... clearly aur thoda tension mai bhi tha …jo ki obvious si baat thi.…mai fir apne chair pe jaake baith gaya...aur kaam oe dhyaan dene laga.
Jab office khatam hua to mai jhat se apna saman pack krke niche parking lot ki taraf daudta hua jaane laga.…sablog mujhe confusion bhari najro se dekh rahe the..lekin mujhe unki parva nahi thi...are bhai meri biwi ne order diya hai to usse follow krna padenga...nahi to apun ka vanda hoyenga aaye.…khair...
Mai jaise hi parking lot pohcha.…to dekha ki sheetal abhi tak yaha aayi nahi thi..maine fir jaldi se apne bike ki taraf jaate hue...apne baal thik jar liye...aur ek do baar bike ke aaine mai apna chehra dekha...fir apne muh se apne hatah fe ek phook maari jisse mujhe pata chale ki kahi mere muh se smell to nahi aa rahi.…lekin fir bhi backup keliye bag mai se maine ek centrefresh nikali aur apne muh mai dalke chabane laga.…aur firse sheetal ka wait krne laga.…
10min wait krne ke baad sheetal neeche aagayi...ab tak to pura parking lot khali ho chuka tha...isilye bas meri aur sheetal ki gaadi yaha khadi thi.…mai sheetal ko dekhne laga...wo dhire dhire chalte hue apne haath mai mobile liye meri tarah aa rhi thi...mai bhi thoda aage badha.…wo mere pass aagayi aur mujhse kahan ki office ke pass vale cafe mai jake baat krte hai..maine bhi thumbs up ka ishara kiya...aur jaldi se bike nikalke aur apna helmet pehen ke us cafe ki taraf badh gaya.…sheetal apni car leke aage chal rhi thi aur mai dhire speed rakhte hue uske piche...hum log cafe pohoch gaye...abhi office chutne ka time hogaya tha isiliye cafe khachakhach bhara pada tha.…hume fir bhi luckyly ek corner table mil gaya.…hum log vaha jaake baith gaye...sheetal ne apne liye ek coffee order kr di...jab waiter ne meri taraf dekha to maine usse kahan jo bhi inhone kaha vahi mere liye bhi laaye...kyuki mujhe ab coffee se jyada important yaha hone vaali baat thi...
Thodi der tak sheetal apne mobile mai dekhti rahi...mai bas chupchap baith ke usse dekhta raha...fir hum dono ki coffee aagayi.…coffee peena ke baad usne meri taraf dekha...aur mujhse kahan
Sheetal: Hmm..bolo.…kya kehna chahte ho?
Meri to halat patli hogayi thi ab tak...kyuki pichle 15 minute se jo mere pasine chute hai..by god...itna nervous to mai apne pehle interview keliye bhi nahi hua tha...jitna aaj hi rha hun.…aur upar se sheetal se itne saalo baad face to face ek ache mahol mai baat ho rhi thi.…
Maine fir khudko sambhalte hue ek lambi saas li...aur usse kaha
Me: Mai bas yehi kehna chahta hun ki maine jo bhi galtiya ki thi...past mai.…unke liye mai sharminda hun.…aur maine tumhe us waqt jitna hurt kiya hai.…isiliye i am extremely sorry.…mujhe please maaf kardo.…
Maine firse vahi baat dorahi jo maine usse cabin mai kahan tha...aur ab mai thoda guilty bhi feel kar raha tha.
Sheetal firse 2 minute tak shant baithi...aur fir kaha
Sheetal: Okay
Uska ye jawab sunte hi mai itna confuse hogaya...
Me: Okay?
Sheetal ne haan mai sir hilaya...
Me: Matlab?
Sheetal ne fir na mai sir hilaya...wo soch rhi hogi kitna bada bhuddhu hun mai...
Sheetal: Maine tumhe maaf kar diya.…
Bhaisahab….uski ye baat sunke mai jo statue bane baitha tha.…dimaag sun pad chuka tha.…yaar mai kya kya expect kar raha tha...jo ki situation ke hisaab se vaisa hi hona chahiye tha.…like...sheetal mujhse baat nahi karegi...fir mujhe bura bhala kahegi...fir mai usse manane ki koshish karunga.…ye sab.…lekin yaha to kuch aur hi ho raha tha.…bouncer pe bouncer aa rahe the samne se.…aur sheetal ke expression bhi ekdum normal the.…
Me: Lekin.….tum.…mai.…vo.….tum mujhse gussa nahi ho?
Sheetal ne na mai sir hilaya.…
Me: Lekin kyu?
Ye chaman chutia.…itna acha chance mila hai...is sawal ko puchke sab kuch bigad dega...mere dimaag ne mujhse kaha
Sheetal bhi thoda confuse hogayi.…aur boli
Sheetal: Tum khush nahi ho ki maine tumhe maaf kar diya?
Me: Are nahi nahi.…wo baat nahi hai...mai khush hun.…bohot khush hun...lekin.…mujhe kaha tum mujhpe gussa karogi...mujhe bura bhala kahogi.…
Sheetal thodasa hassi.….uff yaar...iski smile ek din maar dalegi mujhe.…kitne saalo baat usse smile krte hue dekh raha tha...vo bhi mujhse baat krte hue...
Sheetal: Nahi.…mai aisa kuch nahi kehne vali tumse.…infact mujhe tumhe thankyou kehna chahiye.…
Mai uski yee baat sunke aur chaunk gaya.…bhai aaj ho kya raha hai?? Ye sab jaise mere dimaag mai chal raha tha vaise to ho hi nahi rha.…mai kahi firse sapna to nahi dekh raha? Mujhe ab kuch samaj mai nahi aa raha tha...mai usse confused hoke dekhta raha...fir pucha...
Me: Thankyou?? Lekin kyu???
Sheetal: Thankyou isliye.…kyuki agar tumne us din mujhe hurt nahi kiya hota to aaj mai is mukam tak na pohochti.…agar vo din na hota to mai aaj bhi dasvi pass sheetal hi rehti...jisne life mai kuch haasil na kiya ho …usne confidently kahan.…
Mai uski baat sunke firse guilty feel krne laga..aur maine apni najre niche krke dekhne laga.…
Sheetal mere expression dekh ke samaj gayi...
Sheetal: Are..tum khudko doshi mat thehrao.…haan mai hurt hui thi us din.…lekin tumne agar mujhe us raat utna savkuch bola na hota to mai khudko motivate kaise karti? Khud ko prove krne keliye...
Mera mood ab pura down ho chuka tha..us raat ko yaad karke.…sheetal mujhse positively baat kar rahi thi...lekin mera mood down hone se mujhe uski baat bhi negative lag rhi thi.…mere pov se.…maine usse kahan..
Me: Matlab ab mai tumhari life mai villain ban chuka hun?! Hmm?
Sheetal: Are nahi yaar.…tum kyu villain banne lage mere life mai.…maine kahan na mai tumse gussa nahi hun.…jab mai vapas apne ghar chali gayi thi.…tab maine bohot dino tak apne andar jhak ke dekha...aur fir mujhe asal baat pata chali.…mere life ki villain to mai khud thi.…kyuki aaj ke life mai har ek ladki ko apne pairo pe khada hona chahiye... independent hona chahiye.…isiliye maine decide kar liya ki chahe kuch bhi hojaye...mai life mai kuch ban kar dikhaungi …iska matlab ye nahi ki mai tumhe dosh de rahi thi...balki tumne bhi meri help ki hai mujhe aaina dikha kar.…isiliye maine thankyou kahan...
Uski baat to sahi thi...lekin mera mann manne keliye hi tayar nahi tha.…
Me: Lekin mai...
Sheetal ne meri baat katte hue kahan..
Sheetal: Acha chalo...vo sab chodo...ab vo sab past mai hai.…aur uska jo bhi effect tha vo to positive hi nikal kar aaya na...khair.…tum ye batao...ki tum kaise ho?
Uski baat sunke mujhe acha laga.…kyuki itne saalo mai mujhse kisi ne pucha nahi tha ki mai kaisa hun.…..lekin jaise hi maine pichle 5 saalo mai jhanka.…to mujhe loneliness ke alawa kuch nahi dikha.…mere muh se ek hassi chut gayi...
Me: Mai to thik hi hun i guess.…actually nahi.…mai bilkul bhi thik nahi hun yaaaar.….ye kehte hi mere aankho se kab aansu aane lage mujhe oata hi nahi chala.….mai bilkul akela pad chuka hun.…tumhare jaane ke baad.…..
Maine usse sab kuch bata diya jo bhi in 5 saalo mai meri life mai hua tha...ye sab sunnke sheetal ke ankhe bhi bhar gayi...vo emotional hoke mujhe dekh rhi thi.…kyuki use ye to pata chal chuka tha meri baato se ki mai khudko doshi thera rha tha itne saal...lekin uske pov se baat kuch alag thi..lekin jaise hi usne maa aur papa ke baare mai sunna uske expression change hogaye.…
Sheetal ab tk jo soft ho chuki thi firse strict lehje mai aagayi aur kaha
Sheetal: Mai tumse isiliye naaraj nahi hun kyuki tumne mujhe hurt kiye.…mujhe bas ek baat achi nahi kagi ki tum maa aur papa se kaise behave krte ho.…kuch kuch din to tumhe unse baat karte hue ye bhi yaad nahi rehta tha.…ki vo tumhare maa baap hai.…
Wo un dino ki baat kar rahi thi jab mai kisi baat se gussa hota tha aur usse gusse se apne maa baap se jhagadta tha..kisi bhi baat par.…tab sheetal kuch kehti nahi thi.…shayad darti ho mujhse...lekin aaj ka din alag tha.…aaj vo mujhe khul ke keh sakti thi ki mai kahan galat hun...aur kahan sahi.…ye change mujhe acha lag raha tha.…ye sheetal mujhe achi lagne lagi thi.…
Me: Vo baat mujhe in 5 saalo mai realise hui.…ki mai kitne galat tarike se unse behave kar rha tha.…ab koi fayda nahi hai lekin.…kyuki ab to vo mujhse baat tak nahi karte.…
Hum dono firse shanta baith gaye.…fir sheetal ne time dekha...aur mujhse kahan...
Sheetal: Chalo.…8 baj gaye hai...ab mujhe ghar jana padega ….
Uski yee bat sunte hi mujhe ek sawal yaad aya...
Me: Ghar??…Tum kahan reh rahi ho? Kahan hai tumhara ghar?
Sheetal ne ek baar mujhe dekha...aur ek smile pass ki.…lekin ye normal vali smile nahi thi...
Sheetal: Is sheher mai mera bas ek hi ghar hai.…ye kehte hi usne fir mujhe ankho mai dekha...aur wait krne lagi.…
Pehle to mai confuse hogaya...lekin baad mai mujhe click hua.….uska ghar.…yani ki mera ghar...humara ghar.…Vo ghar jahan mai ab shayad hi vapas ja saku.…
Meri aankhe firse bhar aayi.…
Mere expression dekhke sheetal thodi der dekhti rahi...fir apna purse aur mobile leke khadi hogayi.…aur mujhe bye kehte hue cafe je bahar chali gayi.…lekin mai bas abhi apne khayalo mai dube...guilt mai dube samne dekhta raha.….mujhe pata hu nahi chala sheetal kab yahase chali gayi hai.…fir thodi ser baithne ke baad mai bhi utha aur apne room ki taraf badh gaya