Ab Agee....
Us raat main aankh bandh karke maa ka kiya hua bistar me so so ke unka sparsh mehsus kar raha tha. Lag raha tha jaise woh mere ekdum pass, ek dum kareeb hai. Bas kuchh din ka faisla hai. Fir woh sundar, naram, pyari aurat, har raat mera bahon me rahenge aur main unko bahut pyar karunga. Main unko kabhi kuchh bhi dukh mehsus karne nahi dunga. Hamesha unke muskurati hui chehra dekhna chahta hun. Main ek achcha pati ka dharm nibhate huye duniya ka har khushi unke samne lake dunga. Unka tann mann me hamesha anand deke rahunga. Main in sab baton se garam hogaya tha. Fir bhi mann hi mann kasam khaya ki aaj se mera tann mann ka har khushi bhi unke sath hi share karunga. So us raat main masturbate karke akela woh sukh lena nahi chah raha tha. Main sab kuchh bas unke sath hi karna chahta hun. Aur main hamara suhagraat me unko paripurn santusti dena chahta hun.
Aur mera aankh me need kab ake mujhe ek khushi ka sagar me behke leke gaya, woh mujhe pata nahi chala.
Raat ko der need ane ke karan subha uthne me late ho gaya. Mobile ka ringing se need tut gaya. Office ka ek senior colleague ka phone. Woh kuchh urgent kaam ke liye kal chhutti le raha hai. Isliye woh kal site pe ja nahi payenge, so mujhe jane ke liye kaha. Main jaise hi unko confirm kiya woh mujhe thanks bole. Aur do char idhar udhar ka baat karke phone cut dia. Main fatafat bistar se nikal ke bathroom jake fresh hone laga. Mere andar office ka batein chal raha tha. Jab main mirror ke samne khade hoke daant brush kar raha tha tab khud ko mirror pe dekh raha tha. Achanak dimag me aya, arey main shadi kar raha hun aur chup chap shadi karke jab biwi leke MP pahuchenge tab to office me sab ko pata chalega.
Tab sab ko kaise tackle karunga? Fir socha ki thik hai jab hoga tab dekha jayega. But in sab baton se zada mera dimag me kaal raat ke baare mein yaad aya. Kal mujhe maa mili thi woh bhi ekant me. Mujhe unse bahut kuchh batana tha, bahut kuchh puchhna bhi tha, but woh jab samne ayi, main sab kuchh bhul gaya. Din bhar kitna kuchh sochke rakha tha, but unke samne ake kuchh nahi ho paya. Main ek adbhut feelings me ajata hun aur sab gadbad kar deta hun. Main samjh gaya ki mere mann ka ekdum andar jo ek turmoil pichhla teen-char din se chal raha hai , yeh usi ka phal hai. Haan....yeh baat sahi hai ki ek ladki ke liye ek ladke ka mann me jaisa pyar hota hai, unke liye mere mann me woh pyar hai. But jinko bachpan se maa ke roop me dekh ke araha hun, ab unko biwi ke roop me dekhna padega. Purana rishta bhul kar ab naye rishte mein kadam rakhna hai. Jab woh samne nahi hai, tab mann yeh sab maan ke chalta hai. But ab jab woh samne agayi tab pata chala ki mujhe vastav duniya me unke sath woh nayi rishta apnane ke liye mere andar ka bahut sare bhavnayen aur hesitation ke dur karna parega. Main mann me jor lane laga. Aaj wapas jane se pehle unse aur ek mulakat hota to dil ko thoda sukun milta. But main yeh bhi janta hun ki iska chances bahut hi kam hai.
Main jab drawing room me aya , wahan nana nani ke sath maa kuchh baat kar rahi thi. Sab ka body posture se samajh ata hai ki koi serious baat nahi, aise hi baat chit kar rahi hai. But jaise hi main drawing me entry liya woh ankh uthake ekbar mujhe dekh liya aur jaldi se sharma ke fir se nani ke taraf dekh ke kuchh boli aur turant wahan se jane lagi. Aur kitchen ke taraf door se nikal gayi. Main samjh gaya maa bhi mere jaise situation me hai. Shayad unka bhi mann chah raha hoga ki woh mujhse mile , batein kare, but unki andar ka bhavnayen aur hesitation woh sab karne me rok laga raha hai. Unko bhi mere tarah khud se jujhna pad raha hoga.
Ab tak jo unka beta tha, apna khun tha, jisko bachpan se pal posh ke ek najawan ladka banayi, jisko maa ka mamta , pyar aur sneh deke bada kiya hai, us najawan ladka ko ab unka pati ka roop me maan na padega. Usko pati ka adhikar dena padega. Apna tann mann usko sonp na padega. Ek nayi pavitra rishte me usse judna padega. Lekin unko dekh ke yeh pata chalta hai ki woh bhi jaroor yeh sab soch aur hesitation se nikalne ka koshish kar raha hai. Kyun ki unke nazar me, unke chalan me, aur unke gesture me saaf saaf pata chalta hai ki woh ab ek maa ki tarah nahi, ek akeli dukhi aurat ki tarah nahi, valki woh khud ko ek ladki ke tarah mehsus kar rahi hai. Jiss ka abhi shadi honewali hai aur woh apna honewali pati se sharma rahi hai.
Nanaji nasta ke baad nikal gaye panditji se milne. Shadi ka shubh din, shubh muhurat janne ke liye. Woh hamara jan-pehchan logon se dur, Ahmedabaad city me jake koi achcha pandit ji se milnewale hai. Is liye unko wapas ane me time bhi lag raha hai. Main drawing room me baith ke TV dekh raha tha. Lekin mera mann fut raha tha maa ke sath baith ke baat karne ke liye, unki khubsoorat chehra apni hathon se pakad ke, ankhon me ankh dalke dekhne ka chahat me. But yeh sambhav nahi ho paraha hai.
Halaki hum sab jante hai ki yeh rishta ke liye dono hi raji hai, aur bas kuchh hi dinon me hum pati patni ka pabitra bandhan me judnee ja rahe hai. Lekin main ab itna besharam bhi ban nahi pa raha hun ki nani ke samne hi maa ke sath yeh sab karun. Nani maa ko kitchen me akela chhodke ake mera side me rakha sofa chair me baithe. Fir woh mere se baat karne lagi. Main TV off karke unke taraf ghuma aur unka baat sunne laga. Woh mujhe wahi sab kal raat wali baat puchhte rahi. Mumbai me jo resort me shadi hoga, usme booking kitna din pehle lena padta hai. Ab to shadi ka season anewala hai. Agar sab booked hai to kya karenge.
Yehi sab sawal jawab chal raha tha. But mera mann kitchen me jahan maa akeli khana bana rahi hai, wahan pada hai. Nani bahut seriously batein kar rahi hai. Mere sath maa ka is nayi rishta se nani ji bahut khush hai. Unka ek laute beti ka zindagi keval dukh se bhara hai. Ab zindagi unko ek dusri mauka de raha hai khushi se, shanti se jeene ke liye. Pati ka pyar ke sath, ek nayi family banake zindagi jeene ka ek sapna pura hone ja raha hai. Nani ji bhavuk ho gayi. Unka aankh gila hone laga. Woh jhuk ke mera hath unke hath ke andar pakad ke kehne lagi
"Beta , main tum dono ko mera dil bharke ashirwad karta hun. Tum log ek dusre ko zindagu bhar pyar karte rehne. Hasi, khshi, anand aur shati ke sath jeete rehna. Apni family, apni bachchon ke sath ek naya duniya banake khush rehna. ...."
Nani ka annkh me paani bharne laga. "Beta, hamara sab ka bhalai ke liye, tumhara apna family ke liye, tum ne aaj jo kar rahe ho, is ke liye main kaise tumhaha......"
Nani aur bol nahi payi. Unka gala bandh hone aya. Bas woh mere taraf ek pyar aur mamta bhara, kritagyata ke nazar se dekh rahi hai. Main bhi bhavuk ho gaya. Main unke hath mera muththi me leke , thoda dabake mera acknowledge jataya aur bola
" Nani ji...aap bilkul pareshan mat hoiye. Aap ka beti ko main khush rakhunga. Aur hum sab milke khush rahenge"
Nani ji ka hoth pe ek muskurahat ane laga. Aur fir thoda haske mera gaal pe pyar se ek halka sa chata marke boli
" Pagal ladka...mujhe ab nani kuyn !!!....mummy to bol"
Woh hasne lagi aur main sharam me duba ja raha tha.
Lunch ke time situation kuchh aur tha. Nanaji panditji se milke ake carelessly apna shirt khol ke unka bed room me kursi ke upar rakh diya tha. Jab nanaji nahane gaya tha tab nani us shirt ko hanger me dalke tangne gaya. Aur tabhi shirt ki pocket se ek packet cigarette mila. Nanaji nani se chhupa ke yeh sab karta hai. But aaj galti se yeh bhul gaya woh. Aur pakda gaya. Aur tab se nani nanaji ko datna suru kar diya.
Aise toh woh bolti bahut zada, upar se aaj yeh point milgaya aur bhi bolne ke liye. Nanaji chup chap chor jaise table me baithke khana kha raha tha. Main bhi zada interfare na karke khane laga. Nani jab nana ko dat te hai, tab jo bhi nana ko support karega, usko nani se reham nahi milega. Bachpan se yehi dekh te aya. Main khana kha raha tha aur beech beech me ankh uthake un dono ko dekh raha tha. Achanak mera nazar unlogon ke pechhe kitchen door pe pada
. Main dekha ki maa kitchen door ke pichhe chhupke straight mujhe gaur se dekh rahi hai. Unka ankh me jo khushi ka jhalak tha , aur hothon pe pyar bhari muskan, woh mujhe dikh gaya. But jaise hi unke sath mera nazar mila , woh jhat se andar chup gayi. Jaise koi teenage girl apni premi ko dekh ke sharam se chhupte hai. Mere chhati me paani ka tarang jaisa koi ek anubhuti mera dil ke andar jake dil ko chhune laga. Main nana nani ka is jhagde ka beech me baithke bhi ek sukhanubhuti se bund hoke khane laga.
