Update-19
Ab subah ho chuki thi. Main nashe ki haalat me wahi chat par soya hua tha. Jab Maine uthkar dekha to 9-10 baje the. Maine mobile check Kiya to Kai saare company ke calls aur emails the. Sir abhi bhi bhari sa tha.
Achanak se yaad aaya ki kal Maine aakhir kya galti kardi thi. Main tezi se niche ki taraf chaldiya. Maa apne kamre me nahi thi. Ek dar sa laga ki kahi wo gusse me gayi to nahi. Maine kitchen me bhi dekha to koi nahi tha.
Dil ki dhadkan tez ho gayi—kya woh sach mein chali gayi? Maine hall mein awaaz lagayi,
Main-"komal?"
Maine Ramesh kaka ko bhi khoja to koi nahi tha. Lekin jawab mein sirf sannata tha. Maine ek table ki taraf dekha. Table par ek chhoti si note padhi, jisme likha tha, "Bazar ja rahi hoon, jaldi aati hoon." Yeh dekh kar thodi rahat hui, lekin dil mein ab bhi ek uljhan thi.
Main sofa par baith gaya, apne haathon ko muh par rakh kar. Kal raat ki baatein dimaag mein ghoom rahi thi—mera gussa, meri zid, aur maa ka woh roti hua chehra. "Kya main sach mein galat tha?" main apne aap se poocha. Mobile pe notifications aate rahe, lekin mera dhyan bas maa par tha. Maine socha ki jab woh aayegi, to unse baat karni hogi—shayad yeh galti sudhar sakti ho. Lekin unka wo thappad bhi mujhe yaad aagaya. Shayad Maine bhi jab unhe maara tha, unke man me bhi kuch aisa hi hua hoga.
Thodi der baad darwaze ki khatkhat hui. Maa wapas aayi, haath mein thaili lekar. Unhone mujhe dekha, lekin unki aankhon mein woh gehra dard ab bhi tha. Unhone thaili table par rakhi aur kitchen ki taraf badhi, bina mujhse aankhen milaye. Main uth kar unke peeche gaya, lekin mere kadam ruk gaye. Dil mein ek himmat jagi, lekin saath hi ek dar bhi—ki woh phir se naraaz ho jaye.
Kitchen mein maa chupchap samaan sambhal rahi thi.
Maine dheere se kaha- main... Wo kal..
Lekin meri zabaan ruk gayi. Woh ruk kar meri taraf dekhi, lekin kuch nahi boli. Unke chehre par ek thakan si thi, jaise raat bhar soyi hi nahi ho. Main unki taraf badhna chaha lekin unhone meri taraf dekha Tak nahi. Aisa laga mujhe ignore karna chahti ho.
Dil mein ek gussa phir se jag gaya—kya woh mujhse baat tak nahi karegi? Lekin phir ek pal mein yeh ehsaas hua ki shayad yeh meri galti ka silsila hai.
Main hall mein wapas aa gaya, lekin dil ab bhi bechain tha. Mobile pe ek aur call aayi, lekin maine use ignore kiya—ab meri pehchan bas maa se baat karne tak simat gayi thi.
Thodi der baad, maa hall mein aayi, haath mein ek glass tha. Unhone mujhe dekha aur dheere se kaha.
Maa- "ye nimbu paani hai pi lo, aur thik Lage to mujhe batana. Main market Jana chahti hoon."
Yeh sunkar mera dil thoda halka hua, lekin uski awaaz mein woh pyaar ab bhi dard se dhak gaya tha. Maine glass liya, lekin aankhen jhuka li—shayad yeh ek chhoti si shuruaat thi, lekin rishte ki gehraai abhi bhi door thi.
Main- to aap abhi kaha thi. Aur ramesh kaka kaha hai?
Maa- unke kuch dost aaye the, wo unke saath bahar chale gaye. Isliye maine socha ki kyu na main hi kuch sabjiya lekar aa jaaun
Main- waise market..?
Maa- jab tum thik ho jaao tab batana.
Main- haa wo thoda sir bhaari hai. Lekin..main aapke saath chal sakta hoon.
Maa ne bas mujhe wo nimbu paani thana diya aur kitchen ki taraf chal padi.
Mujhe ab thoda thik lagne laga tha, to maine maa se chalne ke liye kaha. Filhaal main bhi nahi jaanta tha ki kyu market Jana hai par unhe saath lekar gaya. hum dono car mein baith kar bazaar ki taraf chal pade. Raste mein khamoshi thi, lekin yeh khamoshi ek ajeeb si gehraai le kar aayi thi—na gussa, na naraazgi, bas ek bhaari sannata jo dil ko chhoo raha tha. Meri aankhen baar-baar maa ki taraf jati thi, jo apni aankhen samne rakh kar chup baithi thi. Unke haathon mein thodi si thar-tharahat thi, jaise woh bhi kuch kehna chahti ho lekin shabd na mil rahe hon. Mera dil ab bhi maa ke saath baat karne ko bechain tha, lekin yeh khamoshi mujhe rok rahi thi—kya kahun, aur kaise shuru karu?
Bazaar mein pohanch kar maa ne mujhe ek dukaan ke saamne rukne ko kaha. Yeh dukaan purani thi, jahan saree ke dhagon ki khushboo hawa mein tehri hui thi, aur dukaan wali aurat ke haathon mein rang-birange kapde chamak rahe the. Main heran tha—kya woh sach mein kuch khareedna chahti hai? Kal ki woh baatein, woh thappad, aur ab yeh bazaar?
Mera dil ek pal ke liye tham sa gaya. Dukan mein woh aurat saree dikhane lagi, aur maa ne ek Saree ke kuch sets chun liye. Mere dil mein ek ajib sa ehsaas hua—ek taraf khushi, ek taraf uljhan.
Maa ne sareeya haath mein li, uski mulayam taarif ko apni ungliyon se chhua, aur phir uski chamak ko apne chehre ke saamne rakha. Unke haath dheere-dheere hil rahe the, jaise yeh saree unke liye sirf ek kapda nahi, balki koi yaad ya faisla ho. Woh mujhe dekhi, aur unke chehre par ek halki si muskurahat thi—ek aisi muskurahat jo dard ke saath mili thi, jaise woh apne dil ki ladai jeet rahi ho. Lekin unki aankhon mein woh gehra dard ab bhi tha, jo kal raat ke aansoonon se chhupa nahi tha.
Main hairan hokar- aap... yeh aap kyun le rahi hain?"
Meri awaaz mein thodi si therav tha, jaise yeh sawal mere dil ki gehraiyon se nikla ho. Unhone kuch nahi kaha, lekin unki aankhon mein ek jawab tha—ek chhota sa ishara, jo keh raha tha ki shayad yeh unka apne roop ko sweekar karne ka kadam tha, ya shayad mera liye ek chhota sa surprise. Maine unki taraf dekha, aur dil mein ek ummeed jagi—kya yeh rishte ki ek nayi shuruaat ho sakti hai? Ya yeh sirf ek pal ki bhavna hai jo jaldi khatam ho jayegi?
Dukan wali aurat ne saree ko unfold kiya. Maa ne usse apne kandhe par rakha, jaise woh apne aap ko wapas woh Komal dekhna chahti ho jo kabhi thi. Unke haathon ki thar-tharahat ab dheemi pad gayi, lekin unki aankhen ab bhi mujhe takti rahi, jaise woh meri pratikriya dekhna chahti ho.
Main- ye acchi hai..aap ye le lijiye.
Thodi der baad, maa ne sadiyaa dukaan wali ko wapas di aur boli, "Yeh pack kar do." Unhone apni purse se paise nikale, lekin unke haathon mein ek halki si jhijhak thi.
Main- koi baat nahi, main kar deta hoon.
Maa- nahi, uski koi jaroorat nahi sujay.
Hum dukaan se bahar aaye, aur wapas car me baithkar ghar ki taraf nikal pade.
Maine phir se poocha- aapne bataya nahi aapne, yeh saadiyan kyun li?"
Unhone mujhe dekha, aur ek gehri saans li. Usne thaili ko apne haathon mein thoda aur mazbooti se pakda aur bola.
Maa- kyunki Yeh... yeh meri marzi hai, Sujay."
Yeh sunkar mera dil ek pal ke liye tham sa gaya. Aisa laga ki wo shayad abhi bhi ruthi hai . Kya yeh unka apne aap ko sweekar karne ka kadam tha? Ya yeh mera liye unka ek chhota sa tohfa? Main unki aankhon mein dekhta raha, aur woh muskurahat ab thodi aur saaf dikhayi di—ek aisi muskurahat jo dhire dhire unke atmavishwas ko badhava de rahi thi.
Raste bhar me wo khamoshi dhire dhire badhti rahi. Shayad komal ji is sawal ka jawab janti thi. Wo kal raat ki baato ko yaad karti hai.
Kal raat ke sannate mein Komal tasveer ko apne haathon mein daboch kar baithi thi, jaise yeh tasveer unki zindagi ka aakhri sahara ho. Woh tasveere jise sujay ne apne paas rakhi thi. jaise ek khoi hui yaad unke aankhon se baat kar rahi ho. Aansoon unke chehre par gir rahe the, har ek boond unke dil ke zakhm ko aur gehra kar rahi thi, lekin unke andar ek alag ehsaas jag raha tha—ek ajeeb si aasha, jo dard ke saath lad rahi thi.
Sujay ki baatein—"aap us saree mein khubsurat thi"—unke dimaag mein goonj rahi thi, har shabd unke dil ko chhoo kar ek naye roop ki tasveer bana raha tha. Woh apne aap ko wapas us roop mein dekhne lagi, jaise ek khoi hui tasveer phir se roshan ho rahi ho.
Ek pal ke liye unhone apni aankhen band ki, aur unke samne woh yaade aa gayi—jab Sujay chhota tha, komal ko dekh hamesha unki khubsurti ki taarif karta, ki uski maa kitni pyaari aur khubsurat hai. Wo pal unhe aisa lagta hai, jaise woh apne bete ke saath wapas woh samay jee rahi ho.
Komal ne khud ko woh aurat samajhna chaha—ek aurat jo zindagi jeene ke haqdaar thi, jo apne roop se pyar karti thi, jo khushi ke liye apne dil ko khol sakti thi. Tasveer mein unki woh muskurahat—ek aisi muskurahat jo Sujay ke chhote chehre ko hamesha muskura deti thi. Wo tasweere unke dil ko chhoo gayi, jaise koi purana geet phir se baj utha ho. Ek chhoti si ummeed unke seene mein jagi, ek halki si roshni jo andhere mein chamak rahi thi. "Shayad Sujay sahi hai," komal ne apne aap se socha, apne dil ki gehraiyon se ek awaaz sunte hue, "Shayad main wapas woh khushi mehsoos kar sakti hoon—na sirf uske liye, balki apne liye bhi."
Yeh soch unke chehre par ek thandi si hawa ki tarah chhayi, jaise woh wapas apne aap se pyar karna seekhna chahti ho.
Komal ne ek pal ke liye kuch socha, Woh uthi, aur almari khol kar wohi royal blue saree aur mangalsutra nikal liya jo exhibition mein pehna tha. jo Sujay ne unke liye chuna tha. Unhone use apne haathon mein liya, jaise yeh unke naye atmavishwas ka pehla kadam ho, lekin unke dil mein woh duvidha bhi thi—kya yeh Sujay ke pyar ke liye hai, ya kuch aur..
Unke haathon mein thar-tharahat thi, lekin unki aankhon mein ek nayi chamak aayi—ek aisi chamak jo Sujay ki aankhon se unke roop ko pehchanne ki koshish kar rahi thi, lekin unke dil mein ek sawal bhi tha—kya yeh sahi hai?
Woh aaine ke saamne gayi, saree ko apne kandhe par rakha, aur mangalsutra ko apne gale mein chhua. Ek pal ke liye komal ne khud ko Sujay ki nazar se dekha—ek maa jo uske liye khubsurat thi, lekin unke dil mein woh sujay ke un baato ehsaas unki saanson ko tez kar raha tha. Unhone apne haathon se apne baal sulajhe, jaise woh Sujay ki aankhon mein apne roop ko mehsoos kar rahi ho, aur ek chhoti si hasi uske honthon par aayi.
Lekin phir woh pal guzar gaya, aur unke dil mein ek aur toofan aaya. Woh saree aur mangalsutra ko bed par rakh kar apne haathon se apna muh chhupa li, jaise woh apne aap se lad rahi ho. "Kya main yeh kar sakti hoon?"
Komal ne socha, "Kya main Sujay ki aankhon se khud ko wapas wo dikh sakti hoon, jab mere dil mein uljhan?"
lekin sujay ke wo shabd aap khubsurat thi. Yeh shabd unke dil ko choo gaye, aur woh phir se saree aur mangalsutra utha kar apne haathon mein daboch li.
Komal ne phir se khudko aaine me dekha, aur ek gehara faisla liya.
Komal- shayad haa wo main ban sakti hoon. Wo aurat ho kabhi paripurn thi. Jo kabhi apne aur parivar ke saath thi. Jo Sujay ki aankho me khubsurat thi. Main kal saree pahnungi aur main sujay ki aankho me dekhungi. Uski aankhe mujhe batayengi ki "kya main wahi wahi aurat hoo jo Sujay dekhna chahta hai, ko Sujay chahta hai ki apne tarikese jiye. Apne tarikese is khushiyon ko apna le. Main sujay ko kabhi akela nahi hone de sakti....kabhi bhi nahi. Main hamesha uske saath rahungi.
End of update-19
