I went to living room and start watching TV. Dan came back from neighbour home. He came and sat next to me. Within five minutes he made me to change the channel to cartoon. I thought of speaking with Shazia. I decided to speak about Rizwan to her but she went out of house for cleaning the lawn area. While returning back to sofa, I notice her phone kept for charging. There are some notification on phone. Initial was hesitated to check her phone but later checked her phone. I checked her WhatsApp. I saw few messages from Rizwan. The message was all about his return date and few casual chat. But there were lot of incoming and out going calls from his number. There were messages from Syed Chacha & Rahman Chacha. These name are unknown to me. I read the messages from them. These messages are little more personal and about me also. In some point of time, The message is clearly accusing me for all happenings in the life of both sisters as well as in their home. The accusation went to a level that cover religious difference, cultural difference as well as morality of me. I wonder that Shazia also agreed to certain extend on their point. She is in touch with them for past many months. I understand that she is been brain washed by them. I got a glimpse of my memory on recollecting the person complained against me in Mumbai. Syed name was there. I am not sure whether the same Syed is messaging me. She was messaging Rizwan through out the day and most of her message has the intensity of her love and affection towards him. I kept the phone back and waited for Shazia to return. I understand that, I have to interfere before turning the situation to worst.
When Shazia return, I went near to her.
Sanju: Shazia ..When is Rizwan returning?
Shazia: Why what do by knowing by his return Date?
I got angry by her tone but keep my patience.
Sanju: why you are angry ? I need to speak to him.
Shazia: About ?
Sanju: That's men talk..
I hugged her from behind. She push me back.
Shazia: What men talk. ( I understand her curiosity)
Sanju: why are you angry?
Shazia: What you want to speak with him? ( Her voice was harsh)
Sanju: Leave it.. we will speak. Come to bedroom
Shazia: Let me finish the work and will come.
I went to bedroom and Shazia joined with me after 15 minutes.
Shazia: Ok. What you want to speak with me?
Sanju: Sit next to me.
Shazia: I am tired. Let me lied down.
She went and laid in other side of bed.
Sanju: Shazia, I want to speak about Rizwan. I think your relation has crossed the limits. ( I completed the sentence in great difficulty. I really doesn't have any clue in taking this discussion healthy as well as interactive).
Shazia: What you mean by crossing limits. He is caring me and Dan very well. I am so much attached to him. He is a good person. I hope you also getting care from Crina and that's the reason you like her more than us.
Sanju: Why we will Crina in between ? I can explain you later on that topic.
Shazia: Sanju. Please don't take this discussion in one side. Crina is very important topic in our life.
Even though it is a single incident, confession to Shazia is not a good idea. I understand that discussion is going in healthy way. I keep my patience .
Sanju: You asked about Crina.. I will tell you..
Shazia: What is your relationship with Crina ?
Sanju: She is my friend
Shazia: Razia & Priya is also your friend. What happen later.
Sanju: Why you are bringing them ?
Shazia: Sanju.. You are a womanizer. I really don't have any clue about you. You are a good actor. Innocent girls will fall in your trap. You know how to make use of them and you are going with other girls later.
I really don't know hoe to answer to her. I didn't think in this angle so far.
Sanju: Priya was my love for long time. During our separation, she started loving Ajay. I was behind my career development thus ignored about giving care and love to Priya. I can't complain Priya.
Shazia: You had affair with Razia during that time proves that you are telling lies. If you are behind career development and honest to Priya, then how come you drag Razia in to your life ? You are an opportunist. You scored in the weakness of Razia. Sanju, you are forced Razia to conceive your child and expected to live with her husband. What else required to prove you character ?
I really shocked after hearing her words. The truth was not like that but what all are did myself turning back to me.
I was silent.
Shazia: You don't have any thing to say? Priya was smart enough to pick you character earlier that the reason she found some one better. I have a doubt on Priya death also. You were there during that time.
Sanju: Shut up.. ( My voice raised)
Shazia: Don't shout. (Her voice also high) Dan will get scared. I am sorry on Priya topic but what my understanding is correct. She found other man due to your character. What about Razia? If you are a true friend, you should have help her to overcome her challenges but you utilized your friendship to have sexual relationship with her.
Sanju: Is this Razia told you?
Shazia: She is innocent. She don't understand your cleverly trap.
Sanju: Then how come you know? My relationship with your sister was with mutual concern. I never though of having a child. It was a mistake happen after getting drunk. I never though of spoiling her life. Honestly, she escaped from her husband home. She help you from getting married to them as well as from your father and family. What all happen in our life , both are equally responsible. You may right, I lost Priya due to my mistake but I got better girl than Priya in my life ( I pointed Shazia)
Shazia: Mmmm!! ( Just a sound of acceptance without fully satisfaction and belief). You are still flirting with Crina. Can you promise me that you had no relationship with Crina?
I decided to confess to a certain extend.
Sanju: Crina is my friend. She always respect my family. She help me to overcome from different situations. She has some problems back in family and doesn't have much friends. She is find very comfortable with me.
Shazia: Come to the point. You had any physical relationship ?
Sanju: I was drunk one day and forced her in my incautious mind but she came out wisely. Never repeated.. Shazia, you have changed a lot during years. I really miss you as a friend.
Shazia: Sanju.. You always have some aligation or blame others for your mistake. You were not giving attention to my feelings from last few years. You are living in your world. I don't want Dan to follow your path.
Sanju: I am sorry for hurting you Shazia. I love you so much.
Shazia: You have done lot of sin in your life. Hope that won't affect in Dan's life.
Sanju: I fell that you gone so far from my life?
Shazia: Me.. ( Smiled). I am just living my life.. Just going on. ( painful voice) I hurt lot of people in my life. I am trying to return them their happiness. ( she was thinking some thing)
Sanju: Whom you hurt? You didn't do any fault. Everything was my mistake. Please don't curse yourself. ( I understand that she got influenced by Rizwan and her family)
Shazia: No. Its late for rethinking.
Sanju: What you mean by that.. I think Rizwan has influenced you.
Shazia: Please don't bring his name in between. He was very loving and caring. He loves Dan and Dan also very attached to him. Honestly Sanju, Dan is more attached to him than you. He gave him fatherly love better than you. You try with Dan once that time you will understand.
I feel like ditched by her words. I understand that, I have went so far from doing my responsibilities in life. I was thinking about my happiness and ignored others sentiments. This is the high time to change myself and reconstruct my family. I got sure that, I will lose both of them. I respect the openness of Shazia. I didn't find any fear in telling the truth.
Sanju: Oh!! I understand my mistake but honestly didn't have any intension to cheat you. I was only annoyed by the way you behaving me for past few years.
Shazia: I always love you but you should understand that a mother priority will be her child always. Many time you were forcing me to have sex with you.
Sanju: I didn't mean like that. There was restriction earlier but you started restriction after Rizwan came.
Shazia: What Rizwan did? ( Angry tone). See what I told earlier. You always have reasons to blame others.
My ego got hurt..
Sanju: You change a lot after Rizwan came.. Till that time, there was no issues.
Shazia: Sanju, You are enjoying my loneliness. You know that, I don't have any place to go. You were enjoying my situation. You have full confidence that what all you did, I will be there as your slave in your life. I ditched my family. Razia is in your influence. Might be you are right. After Rizwan came, I changed. He gave me the confidence in my life. He help me to understand my values. He gave me care and always gives me support in my bad times. Sanju, you never bothered about others happiness.
Sanju: Do you think me and my family doesn't love you?
Everyone loves you.
Shazia: I know that your family loves me. I too love them. I mean you don't find time for me or neither gave me my values. Honestly, the only reason behind my strength after living with is the love from your family. You have a wonderful family. Everyone love and value you. They are clueless about your activities. I can guarantee you, they will hate you more than love after knowing the truth about you. I become an orphan now.
This will be the problem when arguing with a girl. They are thinking in different way than us. This is the reason behind not initiating any discussion with her. I understand that, there are lot of mistake happen from my side. Honestly, I don't have the courage to open up with Shazia. I was honest with Shazia but only couple of times lost my mind. Despite all, I never thought of any other girl. To be frank, I don't find Shazia as modern girl. That is the reason behind hiding my past with her. I doubt that she was hinting me about separation of our relationship. Her relationship with my family is forcing her to live with me. I understand that there is a gap built-up between us. Rizwan is the man behind her brainwash. I decided to handle the topic without much arguments and with top care so as will give chance for Rizwan to score again.
Sanju: Shazia, we both know that how much you three sisters got trouble due to your family. Have you ever thought about the condition of Nazia?
Shazia: She is living happy. Her husband take care of her.
Sanju: How do you know that? ( I asked with bit of surprise)
Shazia: I spoke with her.
Sanju: You spoke with her. What did she told?
Shazia: Why you want to know? You have done enough damage to the reputation of their family. What is the difference you can make?
Sanju: I spoiled the reputation. What you mean by that.
Shazia: I am not telling you alone but Razia also culprit. If she was facing issues, the way she choose was not the right way. I mean get pregnant from some one. She should have get divorce and marry you.
Sanju: Have you ever discuss this with Razia ?
Shazia: I don't find it necessary. I am bothered about you only.
Sanju: You flee from your home to Mumbai on your wish and now you are blaming Razia.
Shazia: Yes, I was facing difficulty and flee from my home. I was thinking about me only during that time. I didn't think about others. Might be I was too young to understand the world. I have done lot of mistake in my life. Anyway no regrets. I am paying for what I did. Only sadness was, lot of my relatives children got affected due to my decision. ( Shazia was sad and tears start rolling from her eyes)
Sanju: Why are you crying? Shazia you are mislead by some one. Yes, we did wrong. You were aware about that before and after marriage. You only forced me to bring Razia to Bahrain. You encourage me to stay with Razia. Now you are back firing me for all. You understand one fact, I never forced your sister. She was getting treated badly by Rahim and his family. I don't think there will be difference for Nazia. I am happy for her, if she get treated well in that home. When Nazia called you? ( arguments started heat up)
Shazia: Leave it Sanju. Why we talk about them? Razia should understand the situation in our home while getting married to Rahim. Rahim father has bring a very good alliance for Nazia but Razia deliberately oppose. If she want to live her life, let her live. I don't understand, why she interfere in Nazia life. Nazia was forced to get marry to Rahim sister due to her stubborn decision. What she did , she started living in her world after separation. She did bothered to think about Nazia. She was selfish. I was also agreeing to Razia till the time, I was not aware about the truth. Nazia life also miserable in starting but we can't blame Rahim's family alone. Definitely she will be treated as Razia sister in his family and relatives.
Sanju: You mean to say that marrying me was a fault?
Shazia: I didn't mean like that Sanju. Honestly, You are only focused on you happiness. You want me to come with you to pubs, clubs, friends party, dressing etc. You always want to booze. Totally you are customizing me as per you want. Have you ever think about what I want? I am from a traditional family. My custom was different. I have some values in life.
I was cooperating with you for your happiness. I was expecting that you will change one day. You always wants your friends, sex and booze. You are not honest with anyone even with yours friends and family. You always want me in your bed same you want from Razia also. You don't have any love or care for Sara.
Hearing the words from Shazia, I was stunned. I can't deny any of the aligation. I always have pride in my life due to self bough up. Honestly, Shazia's understanding on my life was not correct but can't deny the same due to some truth is there in her words. I doubt on the delay in discussion on this topic. I cursed myself for not bringing this topic earlier.
Shazia has lot of misunderstanding about me and Razia. I doubt the intension of Rizwan. What he actually wants ? if he want to have sex with Shazia, she is her puppet now. Lot of questions came in my mind.
Why he brings her family in her life again ?
How come Rahim family came in good books of Shazia?
What is her family wants from her ?
I agreed to some mistakes made by myself. I was forcing her to change as per my wish. My intension was to bring her into my life and enjoy the life together. I never try to understand her happiness and live accordingly.
Sanju: Shazia.. I am sorry for hurting you.. I did for both happiness. Honestly, I was not aware that you are living with me by carrying all difficulties. I never had any intension to cheat you. I love you. Please forgive me.. Certain things happen in life with out our control or by loosing control. Kindly forgive me. Please don't lost your hope in me. I will definitely change myself as per you wish. Please don't think about a life away from me...
Shazia: Sanju, I understand where the topic is going to.
You mean to know my relationship with Rizwan ? I know that having sex with Rizwan is not an issue for you. ( she smiled at me ) You always believe and taught me that sex is the desire of two people. It happen when two bodies & mind care each others.
You have shown & prove me the same in your success life ? (despair in her voice) I am happy with my life now. I will not make your family shame like how you and Razia did with my family and Rahim family.
I don't find any positive outcome by continuing the discussion. This was more than my expectation. I understand that Shazia has changed a lot and she has only limited intimacy towards me. I understand that, I need to change a lot to regain her confidence and love.
I was about to get up. Suddenly Shazia told.
Shazia: Sanju, I am planning to go to my home next month. Its a long time, I never met anyone. Everyone want to see Dan also.
Sanju: Good. I will also join.
Shazia: I don't know, how many of them accept me. With you, I have zero chances. Any way , nothing is planned. I just told you.
Sanju: I have fear that they may hurt you.
Shazia: After all they are my parents. How can you think like this. I spoke with couple of my relatives. Everyone is telling me to come and meet my parents. They are aged and sick. They are mentally down due to reputation loss made by we two sisters. I am sure that they will forgive me after seeing me.
Sanju: Then whom you are talking ?
Shazia: I am talking to my father brother and Rizwan father. Both of them assured me.
Sanju: Rizwan father is not your father brother ?
Shazia: He is not my immediate relatives but he have a great attachments to my family. He is a well wisher and advisor of my family for long time.
Sanju: ( I want to ask her. Whether Razia marriage with Rahim also arranged by this well wisher? I know that asking this question will only backfire me. Now she is sympathetic to all) Still I can't let you go alone.
Shazia: we will plan as per the situation. Any way, Rizwan will be with me. I am confident in him. He is the person behind bridging the gap between my family.
Sanju: Rizwan is not your brother ?
Shazia: Not exactly but technically yes. Sorry for introducing you as brother. He was the only person came for me after so many years. I was not sure that you will entertain him after knowing distance cousin.
I cursed myself for not asking Razia about Rizwan.
Sanju: Shazia. You understand one fact. I gave freedom for Rizwan in my house because I am also want you to get a relative of your own. Don't you think that, I also want to meet your parents?
Shazia: so far from the way you behaving, I never feel so. But now taking your words in consideration, I will try to include you also.
Sanju: I can't let you go alone..
Shazia: Rizwan is there with me..He take care of me better than you.
I didn't argue on the topic.
Sanju: When he is coming back?
Shazia: Tomorrow.
Sanju: I hope Rizwan can help us in fixing the problem. I guess from his advances so far. ( I mean it in double meaning)
Shazia didn't understand my double meaning. She replied me innocently.
Shazia: I will try or you can tell him directly.
Sanju: Ok.
I really can't make a conclusion on the intension of Rizwan . I can understand that spying on me and follows me for gaining the confidence of Shazia but what is gain in taking Shazia to India and reuniting the family. If he is behind his sexual satisfaction, loneliness of Shazia is best for him. I really doubt on his intension.
I decided to keep an eye on him with specialised team (Private detectives).
Dan came to room.
Sanju: Hai.. How was your friend ?
Dan: Yes Dad.. She is fine..
Shazia: He is same like his father. Always like to be with girls.
Dan: Mom.. When is Rizwan uncle coming? Why he is not coming home to meet me ?
Shazia: (Looking at my eyes) Uncle will come tomorrow. He went to India for meeting your grand parents. I mean you have two grandparents. One is your father parents and other one is your mom's parents. He went to see your mom's parents. Soon we can go and meet them.
Dan: Oh!! Can I go and ride my bike outside.
Shazia: No. Have food first.
She got up and went with Dan to kitchen.
I skipped the topic of Rizwan. I understand that she is truly and madly his devotee. My words will back fire me. I made my mind believe that there is no physical relationship happen between both.
I found Shazia little relaxed after our conversations. Next day was Sunday, in afternoon we went to airport and picked Rizwan. I found a surprise in his face after seeing me in airport. Shazia went and hugged him. He also hugged her by looking at my face expression. We took him to our villa promising him to drop in his flat in evening. He tried to give some excuses but Shazia and Dan called him to our villa. While driving back home, I was asking him about his relatives and happenings in Rajasthan. I saw his surprised face after hearing my questions. Rizwan is giving me the reply without much confidence. I understand his confusion stage while replying to me. He understand that Shazia has disclosed tome. He was not sure about the level of discussion happen between Shazia and me. I can see his doubtful and false eyes. I tried to make eye contact with him but he purposefully avoid.
Sanju: Rizwan.. I really need your help
Rizwan: My help ? For..
Sanju: Can you convince your father for welcoming me with your trip with Shazia.
Rizwan: ( Shocked) What you mean ?
Sanju: Shazia told me that your family welcome her to your home. I also want to join. We will stay in hotel but kindly convince her parents for giving the permission to meet them once.
I can see that Rizwan want to turn back and look Shazia but he was scared due to my presence. I looked at Shazia through rear mirror. She was sitting with her innocent face.
Rizwan: I will try..
Sanju: No. I am sure that you can.. Please do it for me..
I end the topic. I decided to appoint the detective tomorrow itself. Rizwan was not talkative like earlier in home. Shazia guessed his silence due to missing his family. Without troubling him much, we drop him in his flat. Shazia has packed the dinner for him.
I appointed a detective for watching Rizwan. They asked about the level of investigation. They have different pricing tariff. Casual queries, detailed investigation with photo and videos, premium report with person detailed background check and his activities. Premium reports are giving by joint team of detectives. I went for their premium report. This is a reputed company and information will be strictly confidential. I want to his background from India. They promised me to give the primary report in a weeks time.
The week gone like a month for me. I was really excited and curious to know about Rizwan. I thought of avoiding Shazia's name but doing this is just fooling me only. The detectives will defeatedly find Shazia and her detail on their investigation. They will find my name and details also. Still I didn't give the name because their detectives are not going to see me in personal. All communication with me is from the assigned coordinator of my case. All the detectives report are sending and submitting to him. No other person is going to know their client details. I really impressed by the way they handle. None of their detectives are coming to their office. They have a separate office for detectives. Clients are not permitted in that office.
I reached the detective office after my office hours. I was welcomed by Mr. Jack the officer in charge. He took me to the closed meeting room. He closed the door after entering. My heart started beating hard due to anxiety. He offer me drinks. I asked for a cup of coffee. He immediately ordered coffee through intercom.
Jack: Hi.. How was your day.
Sanju: I am good.
Jack: Seems little nervous.
Sanju: Yes..
Jack: Happens.. There are some interesting facts.
I heard a bell ringing inside. Jack went outside. He bring the trolley with coffee. He didn't let the person to come inside the room. I started drinking coffee and he started explaining about the progress of investigation. I was really impatient to hear about his company goodwill.
Jack: Seems.. Sanju is eager to hear about Rizwan.
Sanju: To be honest. Yes....
Jack: Sanju.. This is all about his personal details. After this you can decided on the major focus area.
He switched on the Monitor in meeting room. Firstly they showed the detail biodata about Rizwan, Parents, siblings , education, school and college name etc.. They have more information than we know. I notice his small work profile in Mumbai.
Sanju: Do you know where he is working in Mumbai?
Jack: Noted.. if you think that is important. We will include in next report. Do you need any further add on from Mumbai.
Sanju: Yes. If you can, place he stay as well as any frequent visit place as well as his friends.
Jack: Sanju.. Converting you can be to possibilities is our job. Leave it to us. We have good connection in Mumbai. We have specialised detectives who engaged in souring information from India. We have so many Indian clients.
I understand that we are only bothered about finding our wife illicit relationship. I feel ashamed of myself. Even though I am enquiring about Rizwan. I am eager to know about Shazia also.
Jack continue his next slide. This slide mention about Rizwan home back ground. Rizwan father married twice. He has two daughters in his first wife. Rizwan mother has two kids. In total he has has three sisters. All three are married. Both of his elder sisters are married and stays in Mahim with their husbands. His immediate sister was married to a Hindu boy after her college and settled in Delhi. That was not an arranged marriage. After Rizwan college, he went and stayed with his sisters in Mumbai and worked in a small finance company for a year.
Jack: Sanju.. Now your question is half solved. He stays with her sister in Mahim. More details will include in next report.
Jack continues, His family is not rich. His father doesn't have any permanent job or business. He earned money from his daughter marriage. I mean he got Mahar. Both of his sisters got married to business family in Mumbai. There is no education loan for Rizwan. The initial funding for his London studies is made from Mumbai. In first view, Rizwan brother in laws might funded for him.
Sanju: Excuse me. Can I send a message.
Jack : Sure. Take your time.
I messaged Razia about Rahim address and business details. I didn't mention about Rizwan name. I remember that Shazia has informed about Rizwan to Razia. Razia didn't pay much attention or neither asked about Rizwan.
Razia: Why .. why you want to know..
Sanju: Just send me.. please don't ask much questions. You don't believe me.
Razia: She send the details in message. In last she wrote. I don't care about the reason. Please don't remind me about that bastard.
Sanju: I send a smiley to her..
Jack please continue.
Jack: I hope you also doing a parallel investigation from your end.
Sanju: No jack.
Jack: Do you have any specific points to enquire.
Sanju: yes. Person funded for Rizwan. More details about Rizwan brother in law and complete address.
Jack: Sure ..Noted.
He move to next slides. This slide was more about his social media network , college, studies and college friends. I didn't find any interest in that. Next slide about his personal details. Rizwan studied his college in Jaipur. He was staying in hostel. He had an affair with his classmate. She was behind Rizwan beauty and he was behind her money. Both went for some private trips during college but broke up after college. Rizwan have an affair with a married women in Mumbai. He was using her for his benefits. She moved to London with her husband few years before. Her husband works for a company and mostly travelling outside. Rizwan lives in London near to her villa.
Jack: Sanju. We can guess, she can be his initial funding person.
Sanju: When she came London ?
Jack: The date is not mention but two year before.
Sanju: Rizwan came earlier.
Jack: Ok . Point noted. Any further details other than funding?
Sanju: Yes.. His affair with lady after coming London.
Jack : Ok
Next slide.
This slide is having the photo of Rizwan with the girl.
Jack: You answer..
This is the women. He still continue with his relationship. There are many photograph of Rizwan with that lady. I saw her in mid of 30s. She is average looking women but her rich attire give an attention to her. The photograph including both entering her villa.
Jack: You mean. You want the further clips from inside home.
Sanju: yes
Jack: I hope you are aware about the policy of our company. We will only show you here. We will not share any clips and photograph until and unless you have to submit in court as an evidence. That also will be submitted by our team.
I understand the meaning of his words.
Next clip about me and Shazia
Rizwan is a frequent visitor of this house. The girl Shazia seems to his relative. Husband is not from his religion. We found him in their home when husband is at home. We saw him getting dropped by husband and wife in his home. The full details about me and Shazia is mention in report. We found Shazia with him London mall three days ago. There are some photograph of Shazia with Rizwan in London Mall. I saw the picture of Shazia holding his arms and roaming in mall. Rizwan was with her during her purchase in inner wear specialized shop. Rizwan took the car from Sangeetha ( Married lady) and drive to her villa.
Jack played the video. The video shows from driving the car from Sangeetha home till my home. He parked the car before my home. I can see that my maid is coming out of my house and waiting for bus. Shazia came out of house after my maid catches the bus. I understand that Rizwan is giving instruction to her. When Shazia came out, he drive near to her and she entered into car. He drove her to London Mall. Next video started from London mall and end in my home. Dan school bus is dropping in front of my villa. Rizwan left the home after an hour later. Photograph of Rizwan and Shazia till entering the home and few snaps of returning time. Dan photograph also clicked. Rizwan returns the car to Sangeetha.
In the report it is clearly mention that. Rizwan is making numerous calls to Shazia and Sanggetha.
Jack: any further details.
Sanju: detail conversation and clips from my home. Detailed report on his relationship with Shazia and Sangeetha
Jack: Noted. Are you sure ?
Sanju: Yes..
next clips is more about his affair with hookup girls, partying with friends ,course in London and about his room mate.
Next clips was about his last travelling to India.
They mention like that. Rizwan visited his home town a month back. He was mostly in Mumbai during his vacation. He returned a week before.
I was totally stunned by their report. I got to know the hiding face of Rizwan. I confirmed my instincts on Rizwan.
I left the place. I want the time to go fast and become next week as early as possible.
When Shazia return, I went near to her.
Sanju: Shazia ..When is Rizwan returning?
Shazia: Why what do by knowing by his return Date?
I got angry by her tone but keep my patience.
Sanju: why you are angry ? I need to speak to him.
Shazia: About ?
Sanju: That's men talk..
I hugged her from behind. She push me back.
Shazia: What men talk. ( I understand her curiosity)
Sanju: why are you angry?
Shazia: What you want to speak with him? ( Her voice was harsh)
Sanju: Leave it.. we will speak. Come to bedroom
Shazia: Let me finish the work and will come.
I went to bedroom and Shazia joined with me after 15 minutes.
Shazia: Ok. What you want to speak with me?
Sanju: Sit next to me.
Shazia: I am tired. Let me lied down.
She went and laid in other side of bed.
Sanju: Shazia, I want to speak about Rizwan. I think your relation has crossed the limits. ( I completed the sentence in great difficulty. I really doesn't have any clue in taking this discussion healthy as well as interactive).
Shazia: What you mean by crossing limits. He is caring me and Dan very well. I am so much attached to him. He is a good person. I hope you also getting care from Crina and that's the reason you like her more than us.
Sanju: Why we will Crina in between ? I can explain you later on that topic.
Shazia: Sanju. Please don't take this discussion in one side. Crina is very important topic in our life.
Even though it is a single incident, confession to Shazia is not a good idea. I understand that discussion is going in healthy way. I keep my patience .
Sanju: You asked about Crina.. I will tell you..
Shazia: What is your relationship with Crina ?
Sanju: She is my friend
Shazia: Razia & Priya is also your friend. What happen later.
Sanju: Why you are bringing them ?
Shazia: Sanju.. You are a womanizer. I really don't have any clue about you. You are a good actor. Innocent girls will fall in your trap. You know how to make use of them and you are going with other girls later.
I really don't know hoe to answer to her. I didn't think in this angle so far.
Sanju: Priya was my love for long time. During our separation, she started loving Ajay. I was behind my career development thus ignored about giving care and love to Priya. I can't complain Priya.
Shazia: You had affair with Razia during that time proves that you are telling lies. If you are behind career development and honest to Priya, then how come you drag Razia in to your life ? You are an opportunist. You scored in the weakness of Razia. Sanju, you are forced Razia to conceive your child and expected to live with her husband. What else required to prove you character ?
I really shocked after hearing her words. The truth was not like that but what all are did myself turning back to me.
I was silent.
Shazia: You don't have any thing to say? Priya was smart enough to pick you character earlier that the reason she found some one better. I have a doubt on Priya death also. You were there during that time.
Sanju: Shut up.. ( My voice raised)
Shazia: Don't shout. (Her voice also high) Dan will get scared. I am sorry on Priya topic but what my understanding is correct. She found other man due to your character. What about Razia? If you are a true friend, you should have help her to overcome her challenges but you utilized your friendship to have sexual relationship with her.
Sanju: Is this Razia told you?
Shazia: She is innocent. She don't understand your cleverly trap.
Sanju: Then how come you know? My relationship with your sister was with mutual concern. I never though of having a child. It was a mistake happen after getting drunk. I never though of spoiling her life. Honestly, she escaped from her husband home. She help you from getting married to them as well as from your father and family. What all happen in our life , both are equally responsible. You may right, I lost Priya due to my mistake but I got better girl than Priya in my life ( I pointed Shazia)
Shazia: Mmmm!! ( Just a sound of acceptance without fully satisfaction and belief). You are still flirting with Crina. Can you promise me that you had no relationship with Crina?
I decided to confess to a certain extend.
Sanju: Crina is my friend. She always respect my family. She help me to overcome from different situations. She has some problems back in family and doesn't have much friends. She is find very comfortable with me.
Shazia: Come to the point. You had any physical relationship ?
Sanju: I was drunk one day and forced her in my incautious mind but she came out wisely. Never repeated.. Shazia, you have changed a lot during years. I really miss you as a friend.
Shazia: Sanju.. You always have some aligation or blame others for your mistake. You were not giving attention to my feelings from last few years. You are living in your world. I don't want Dan to follow your path.
Sanju: I am sorry for hurting you Shazia. I love you so much.
Shazia: You have done lot of sin in your life. Hope that won't affect in Dan's life.
Sanju: I fell that you gone so far from my life?
Shazia: Me.. ( Smiled). I am just living my life.. Just going on. ( painful voice) I hurt lot of people in my life. I am trying to return them their happiness. ( she was thinking some thing)
Sanju: Whom you hurt? You didn't do any fault. Everything was my mistake. Please don't curse yourself. ( I understand that she got influenced by Rizwan and her family)
Shazia: No. Its late for rethinking.
Sanju: What you mean by that.. I think Rizwan has influenced you.
Shazia: Please don't bring his name in between. He was very loving and caring. He loves Dan and Dan also very attached to him. Honestly Sanju, Dan is more attached to him than you. He gave him fatherly love better than you. You try with Dan once that time you will understand.
I feel like ditched by her words. I understand that, I have went so far from doing my responsibilities in life. I was thinking about my happiness and ignored others sentiments. This is the high time to change myself and reconstruct my family. I got sure that, I will lose both of them. I respect the openness of Shazia. I didn't find any fear in telling the truth.
Sanju: Oh!! I understand my mistake but honestly didn't have any intension to cheat you. I was only annoyed by the way you behaving me for past few years.
Shazia: I always love you but you should understand that a mother priority will be her child always. Many time you were forcing me to have sex with you.
Sanju: I didn't mean like that. There was restriction earlier but you started restriction after Rizwan came.
Shazia: What Rizwan did? ( Angry tone). See what I told earlier. You always have reasons to blame others.
My ego got hurt..
Sanju: You change a lot after Rizwan came.. Till that time, there was no issues.
Shazia: Sanju, You are enjoying my loneliness. You know that, I don't have any place to go. You were enjoying my situation. You have full confidence that what all you did, I will be there as your slave in your life. I ditched my family. Razia is in your influence. Might be you are right. After Rizwan came, I changed. He gave me the confidence in my life. He help me to understand my values. He gave me care and always gives me support in my bad times. Sanju, you never bothered about others happiness.
Sanju: Do you think me and my family doesn't love you?
Everyone loves you.
Shazia: I know that your family loves me. I too love them. I mean you don't find time for me or neither gave me my values. Honestly, the only reason behind my strength after living with is the love from your family. You have a wonderful family. Everyone love and value you. They are clueless about your activities. I can guarantee you, they will hate you more than love after knowing the truth about you. I become an orphan now.
This will be the problem when arguing with a girl. They are thinking in different way than us. This is the reason behind not initiating any discussion with her. I understand that, there are lot of mistake happen from my side. Honestly, I don't have the courage to open up with Shazia. I was honest with Shazia but only couple of times lost my mind. Despite all, I never thought of any other girl. To be frank, I don't find Shazia as modern girl. That is the reason behind hiding my past with her. I doubt that she was hinting me about separation of our relationship. Her relationship with my family is forcing her to live with me. I understand that there is a gap built-up between us. Rizwan is the man behind her brainwash. I decided to handle the topic without much arguments and with top care so as will give chance for Rizwan to score again.
Sanju: Shazia, we both know that how much you three sisters got trouble due to your family. Have you ever thought about the condition of Nazia?
Shazia: She is living happy. Her husband take care of her.
Sanju: How do you know that? ( I asked with bit of surprise)
Shazia: I spoke with her.
Sanju: You spoke with her. What did she told?
Shazia: Why you want to know? You have done enough damage to the reputation of their family. What is the difference you can make?
Sanju: I spoiled the reputation. What you mean by that.
Shazia: I am not telling you alone but Razia also culprit. If she was facing issues, the way she choose was not the right way. I mean get pregnant from some one. She should have get divorce and marry you.
Sanju: Have you ever discuss this with Razia ?
Shazia: I don't find it necessary. I am bothered about you only.
Sanju: You flee from your home to Mumbai on your wish and now you are blaming Razia.
Shazia: Yes, I was facing difficulty and flee from my home. I was thinking about me only during that time. I didn't think about others. Might be I was too young to understand the world. I have done lot of mistake in my life. Anyway no regrets. I am paying for what I did. Only sadness was, lot of my relatives children got affected due to my decision. ( Shazia was sad and tears start rolling from her eyes)
Sanju: Why are you crying? Shazia you are mislead by some one. Yes, we did wrong. You were aware about that before and after marriage. You only forced me to bring Razia to Bahrain. You encourage me to stay with Razia. Now you are back firing me for all. You understand one fact, I never forced your sister. She was getting treated badly by Rahim and his family. I don't think there will be difference for Nazia. I am happy for her, if she get treated well in that home. When Nazia called you? ( arguments started heat up)
Shazia: Leave it Sanju. Why we talk about them? Razia should understand the situation in our home while getting married to Rahim. Rahim father has bring a very good alliance for Nazia but Razia deliberately oppose. If she want to live her life, let her live. I don't understand, why she interfere in Nazia life. Nazia was forced to get marry to Rahim sister due to her stubborn decision. What she did , she started living in her world after separation. She did bothered to think about Nazia. She was selfish. I was also agreeing to Razia till the time, I was not aware about the truth. Nazia life also miserable in starting but we can't blame Rahim's family alone. Definitely she will be treated as Razia sister in his family and relatives.
Sanju: You mean to say that marrying me was a fault?
Shazia: I didn't mean like that Sanju. Honestly, You are only focused on you happiness. You want me to come with you to pubs, clubs, friends party, dressing etc. You always want to booze. Totally you are customizing me as per you want. Have you ever think about what I want? I am from a traditional family. My custom was different. I have some values in life.
I was cooperating with you for your happiness. I was expecting that you will change one day. You always wants your friends, sex and booze. You are not honest with anyone even with yours friends and family. You always want me in your bed same you want from Razia also. You don't have any love or care for Sara.
Hearing the words from Shazia, I was stunned. I can't deny any of the aligation. I always have pride in my life due to self bough up. Honestly, Shazia's understanding on my life was not correct but can't deny the same due to some truth is there in her words. I doubt on the delay in discussion on this topic. I cursed myself for not bringing this topic earlier.
Shazia has lot of misunderstanding about me and Razia. I doubt the intension of Rizwan. What he actually wants ? if he want to have sex with Shazia, she is her puppet now. Lot of questions came in my mind.
Why he brings her family in her life again ?
How come Rahim family came in good books of Shazia?
What is her family wants from her ?
I agreed to some mistakes made by myself. I was forcing her to change as per my wish. My intension was to bring her into my life and enjoy the life together. I never try to understand her happiness and live accordingly.
Sanju: Shazia.. I am sorry for hurting you.. I did for both happiness. Honestly, I was not aware that you are living with me by carrying all difficulties. I never had any intension to cheat you. I love you. Please forgive me.. Certain things happen in life with out our control or by loosing control. Kindly forgive me. Please don't lost your hope in me. I will definitely change myself as per you wish. Please don't think about a life away from me...
Shazia: Sanju, I understand where the topic is going to.
You mean to know my relationship with Rizwan ? I know that having sex with Rizwan is not an issue for you. ( she smiled at me ) You always believe and taught me that sex is the desire of two people. It happen when two bodies & mind care each others.
You have shown & prove me the same in your success life ? (despair in her voice) I am happy with my life now. I will not make your family shame like how you and Razia did with my family and Rahim family.
I don't find any positive outcome by continuing the discussion. This was more than my expectation. I understand that Shazia has changed a lot and she has only limited intimacy towards me. I understand that, I need to change a lot to regain her confidence and love.
I was about to get up. Suddenly Shazia told.
Shazia: Sanju, I am planning to go to my home next month. Its a long time, I never met anyone. Everyone want to see Dan also.
Sanju: Good. I will also join.
Shazia: I don't know, how many of them accept me. With you, I have zero chances. Any way , nothing is planned. I just told you.
Sanju: I have fear that they may hurt you.
Shazia: After all they are my parents. How can you think like this. I spoke with couple of my relatives. Everyone is telling me to come and meet my parents. They are aged and sick. They are mentally down due to reputation loss made by we two sisters. I am sure that they will forgive me after seeing me.
Sanju: Then whom you are talking ?
Shazia: I am talking to my father brother and Rizwan father. Both of them assured me.
Sanju: Rizwan father is not your father brother ?
Shazia: He is not my immediate relatives but he have a great attachments to my family. He is a well wisher and advisor of my family for long time.
Sanju: ( I want to ask her. Whether Razia marriage with Rahim also arranged by this well wisher? I know that asking this question will only backfire me. Now she is sympathetic to all) Still I can't let you go alone.
Shazia: we will plan as per the situation. Any way, Rizwan will be with me. I am confident in him. He is the person behind bridging the gap between my family.
Sanju: Rizwan is not your brother ?
Shazia: Not exactly but technically yes. Sorry for introducing you as brother. He was the only person came for me after so many years. I was not sure that you will entertain him after knowing distance cousin.
I cursed myself for not asking Razia about Rizwan.
Sanju: Shazia. You understand one fact. I gave freedom for Rizwan in my house because I am also want you to get a relative of your own. Don't you think that, I also want to meet your parents?
Shazia: so far from the way you behaving, I never feel so. But now taking your words in consideration, I will try to include you also.
Sanju: I can't let you go alone..
Shazia: Rizwan is there with me..He take care of me better than you.
I didn't argue on the topic.
Sanju: When he is coming back?
Shazia: Tomorrow.
Sanju: I hope Rizwan can help us in fixing the problem. I guess from his advances so far. ( I mean it in double meaning)
Shazia didn't understand my double meaning. She replied me innocently.
Shazia: I will try or you can tell him directly.
Sanju: Ok.
I really can't make a conclusion on the intension of Rizwan . I can understand that spying on me and follows me for gaining the confidence of Shazia but what is gain in taking Shazia to India and reuniting the family. If he is behind his sexual satisfaction, loneliness of Shazia is best for him. I really doubt on his intension.
I decided to keep an eye on him with specialised team (Private detectives).
Dan came to room.
Sanju: Hai.. How was your friend ?
Dan: Yes Dad.. She is fine..
Shazia: He is same like his father. Always like to be with girls.
Dan: Mom.. When is Rizwan uncle coming? Why he is not coming home to meet me ?
Shazia: (Looking at my eyes) Uncle will come tomorrow. He went to India for meeting your grand parents. I mean you have two grandparents. One is your father parents and other one is your mom's parents. He went to see your mom's parents. Soon we can go and meet them.
Dan: Oh!! Can I go and ride my bike outside.
Shazia: No. Have food first.
She got up and went with Dan to kitchen.
I skipped the topic of Rizwan. I understand that she is truly and madly his devotee. My words will back fire me. I made my mind believe that there is no physical relationship happen between both.
I found Shazia little relaxed after our conversations. Next day was Sunday, in afternoon we went to airport and picked Rizwan. I found a surprise in his face after seeing me in airport. Shazia went and hugged him. He also hugged her by looking at my face expression. We took him to our villa promising him to drop in his flat in evening. He tried to give some excuses but Shazia and Dan called him to our villa. While driving back home, I was asking him about his relatives and happenings in Rajasthan. I saw his surprised face after hearing my questions. Rizwan is giving me the reply without much confidence. I understand his confusion stage while replying to me. He understand that Shazia has disclosed tome. He was not sure about the level of discussion happen between Shazia and me. I can see his doubtful and false eyes. I tried to make eye contact with him but he purposefully avoid.
Sanju: Rizwan.. I really need your help
Rizwan: My help ? For..
Sanju: Can you convince your father for welcoming me with your trip with Shazia.
Rizwan: ( Shocked) What you mean ?
Sanju: Shazia told me that your family welcome her to your home. I also want to join. We will stay in hotel but kindly convince her parents for giving the permission to meet them once.
I can see that Rizwan want to turn back and look Shazia but he was scared due to my presence. I looked at Shazia through rear mirror. She was sitting with her innocent face.
Rizwan: I will try..
Sanju: No. I am sure that you can.. Please do it for me..
I end the topic. I decided to appoint the detective tomorrow itself. Rizwan was not talkative like earlier in home. Shazia guessed his silence due to missing his family. Without troubling him much, we drop him in his flat. Shazia has packed the dinner for him.
I appointed a detective for watching Rizwan. They asked about the level of investigation. They have different pricing tariff. Casual queries, detailed investigation with photo and videos, premium report with person detailed background check and his activities. Premium reports are giving by joint team of detectives. I went for their premium report. This is a reputed company and information will be strictly confidential. I want to his background from India. They promised me to give the primary report in a weeks time.
The week gone like a month for me. I was really excited and curious to know about Rizwan. I thought of avoiding Shazia's name but doing this is just fooling me only. The detectives will defeatedly find Shazia and her detail on their investigation. They will find my name and details also. Still I didn't give the name because their detectives are not going to see me in personal. All communication with me is from the assigned coordinator of my case. All the detectives report are sending and submitting to him. No other person is going to know their client details. I really impressed by the way they handle. None of their detectives are coming to their office. They have a separate office for detectives. Clients are not permitted in that office.
I reached the detective office after my office hours. I was welcomed by Mr. Jack the officer in charge. He took me to the closed meeting room. He closed the door after entering. My heart started beating hard due to anxiety. He offer me drinks. I asked for a cup of coffee. He immediately ordered coffee through intercom.
Jack: Hi.. How was your day.
Sanju: I am good.
Jack: Seems little nervous.
Sanju: Yes..
Jack: Happens.. There are some interesting facts.
I heard a bell ringing inside. Jack went outside. He bring the trolley with coffee. He didn't let the person to come inside the room. I started drinking coffee and he started explaining about the progress of investigation. I was really impatient to hear about his company goodwill.
Jack: Seems.. Sanju is eager to hear about Rizwan.
Sanju: To be honest. Yes....
Jack: Sanju.. This is all about his personal details. After this you can decided on the major focus area.
He switched on the Monitor in meeting room. Firstly they showed the detail biodata about Rizwan, Parents, siblings , education, school and college name etc.. They have more information than we know. I notice his small work profile in Mumbai.
Sanju: Do you know where he is working in Mumbai?
Jack: Noted.. if you think that is important. We will include in next report. Do you need any further add on from Mumbai.
Sanju: Yes. If you can, place he stay as well as any frequent visit place as well as his friends.
Jack: Sanju.. Converting you can be to possibilities is our job. Leave it to us. We have good connection in Mumbai. We have specialised detectives who engaged in souring information from India. We have so many Indian clients.
I understand that we are only bothered about finding our wife illicit relationship. I feel ashamed of myself. Even though I am enquiring about Rizwan. I am eager to know about Shazia also.
Jack continue his next slide. This slide mention about Rizwan home back ground. Rizwan father married twice. He has two daughters in his first wife. Rizwan mother has two kids. In total he has has three sisters. All three are married. Both of his elder sisters are married and stays in Mahim with their husbands. His immediate sister was married to a Hindu boy after her college and settled in Delhi. That was not an arranged marriage. After Rizwan college, he went and stayed with his sisters in Mumbai and worked in a small finance company for a year.
Jack: Sanju.. Now your question is half solved. He stays with her sister in Mahim. More details will include in next report.
Jack continues, His family is not rich. His father doesn't have any permanent job or business. He earned money from his daughter marriage. I mean he got Mahar. Both of his sisters got married to business family in Mumbai. There is no education loan for Rizwan. The initial funding for his London studies is made from Mumbai. In first view, Rizwan brother in laws might funded for him.
Sanju: Excuse me. Can I send a message.
Jack : Sure. Take your time.
I messaged Razia about Rahim address and business details. I didn't mention about Rizwan name. I remember that Shazia has informed about Rizwan to Razia. Razia didn't pay much attention or neither asked about Rizwan.
Razia: Why .. why you want to know..
Sanju: Just send me.. please don't ask much questions. You don't believe me.
Razia: She send the details in message. In last she wrote. I don't care about the reason. Please don't remind me about that bastard.
Sanju: I send a smiley to her..
Jack please continue.
Jack: I hope you also doing a parallel investigation from your end.
Sanju: No jack.
Jack: Do you have any specific points to enquire.
Sanju: yes. Person funded for Rizwan. More details about Rizwan brother in law and complete address.
Jack: Sure ..Noted.
He move to next slides. This slide was more about his social media network , college, studies and college friends. I didn't find any interest in that. Next slide about his personal details. Rizwan studied his college in Jaipur. He was staying in hostel. He had an affair with his classmate. She was behind Rizwan beauty and he was behind her money. Both went for some private trips during college but broke up after college. Rizwan have an affair with a married women in Mumbai. He was using her for his benefits. She moved to London with her husband few years before. Her husband works for a company and mostly travelling outside. Rizwan lives in London near to her villa.
Jack: Sanju. We can guess, she can be his initial funding person.
Sanju: When she came London ?
Jack: The date is not mention but two year before.
Sanju: Rizwan came earlier.
Jack: Ok . Point noted. Any further details other than funding?
Sanju: Yes.. His affair with lady after coming London.
Jack : Ok
Next slide.
This slide is having the photo of Rizwan with the girl.
Jack: You answer..
This is the women. He still continue with his relationship. There are many photograph of Rizwan with that lady. I saw her in mid of 30s. She is average looking women but her rich attire give an attention to her. The photograph including both entering her villa.
Jack: You mean. You want the further clips from inside home.
Sanju: yes
Jack: I hope you are aware about the policy of our company. We will only show you here. We will not share any clips and photograph until and unless you have to submit in court as an evidence. That also will be submitted by our team.
I understand the meaning of his words.
Next clip about me and Shazia
Rizwan is a frequent visitor of this house. The girl Shazia seems to his relative. Husband is not from his religion. We found him in their home when husband is at home. We saw him getting dropped by husband and wife in his home. The full details about me and Shazia is mention in report. We found Shazia with him London mall three days ago. There are some photograph of Shazia with Rizwan in London Mall. I saw the picture of Shazia holding his arms and roaming in mall. Rizwan was with her during her purchase in inner wear specialized shop. Rizwan took the car from Sangeetha ( Married lady) and drive to her villa.
Jack played the video. The video shows from driving the car from Sangeetha home till my home. He parked the car before my home. I can see that my maid is coming out of my house and waiting for bus. Shazia came out of house after my maid catches the bus. I understand that Rizwan is giving instruction to her. When Shazia came out, he drive near to her and she entered into car. He drove her to London Mall. Next video started from London mall and end in my home. Dan school bus is dropping in front of my villa. Rizwan left the home after an hour later. Photograph of Rizwan and Shazia till entering the home and few snaps of returning time. Dan photograph also clicked. Rizwan returns the car to Sangeetha.
In the report it is clearly mention that. Rizwan is making numerous calls to Shazia and Sanggetha.
Jack: any further details.
Sanju: detail conversation and clips from my home. Detailed report on his relationship with Shazia and Sangeetha
Jack: Noted. Are you sure ?
Sanju: Yes..
next clips is more about his affair with hookup girls, partying with friends ,course in London and about his room mate.
Next clips was about his last travelling to India.
They mention like that. Rizwan visited his home town a month back. He was mostly in Mumbai during his vacation. He returned a week before.
I was totally stunned by their report. I got to know the hiding face of Rizwan. I confirmed my instincts on Rizwan.
I left the place. I want the time to go fast and become next week as early as possible.
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