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Next day:
Kajal had gone to attend the parent-teacher meeting at Latika’s school, and Sunil had come with me to help me to discuss some technical, internet related issues with my business. This was in a long time that Ma was finally alone in the house… Since her depression spiral, we had made it a policy to never let her be alone. Someone to accompany her, to talk to her was a great idea. The only time we left her alone was when she took her early morning long walks. Doctors assured us that it was a good thing, because she will feel more agency and more control if she does that one thing alone for now, and because exercising secretes hormones that calm mind and body.
However, in the past couple of weeks, Ma had shown remarkable progress on being her cheerful self, and that too for much longer times each day! Since she was progressing very well on emotional front, we were okay to leave her alone for some part of the day. Indeed, Ma was okay, but she felt conflicting emotions. More than anything, while at one hand she felt relieved that Sunil was not there, on the other hand she yearned for him. Each moment that she spent with him was like opening a box full of surprises.
‘What would it be like to be Sunil’s wife?’ she started to visualize.
Indeed, it would be an amazing experience. He was full of life and had so many dreams for future. He was so much fun to talk to. He was always cracking jokes. One wonders how he came to know so many of them! Yes, he was jovial, but in no way insincere. He was loving, respectful and responsible. From an early childhood, he understood that he needed to work hard to achieve something in life and take care of his mother and sister. And he was just about to achieve that objective.
He was knowledgeable. He was among one of the toppers in his class. Also, he was helping me with my business problems, which was a good thing! He had already secured a high paying job from his campus recruitment, which augured well for his career.
He was a simple person, who chased many small happiness and that is why he was always happy. He could be happy just by looking at a butterfly hovering over a flower! He was that simple! What he felt, what he thought, what he expressed, and what he said were the same things! There was no deceit in his manners. Somehow, he had found a way to live an uncomplicated life. he was spontaneous, daring and fun! He could surprise her at the drop of hat. Ma too was happy and fun-loving person… something that she lost since Dad’s death. How wonderful would it be to be like that again?
He was a good-looking man in his own way. He had dusky skin like his mother, and beautiful expressive eyes. He always kept his hair very short, almost military like, which looked good on his face and personality. Like Ma, he too was fond of long-distance running (yes, I know, Ma did not run, but walked & jogged). He was fit and he looked strong.
Oh, and his penis… it felt strong and big to touch… bigger than Dad’s. While she used to feel happy with the way Dad made love to her, those love sessions were short. They lasted only about five to ten minutes. She had not many references for usually how long lovemaking session lasted, but from what she had known (with me and Gabi, and me and Devy) she knew it could be much longer, more passionate, and more involved. She attributed these qualities of my love sessions to the size of my penis.
‘So, does it mean that he will do ‘it’ with me for long time?’
Ma wondered going by the same logic. She shuddered at that thought. It was something very different to imagine.
Standing in front of the mirror, she did a visual evaluation of herself. Her breasts were firm. There was not much visible detrimental effect of age. These days, many girls, even in their early twenties seem to have lost all their youthful firmness… all thanks to bad lifestyle, junk food habits, and undisciplined living. They grow fat and have no body shape other than being round, with huge bags of fat around the belly that look almost like tyres! Ma’s stomach on the other hand was rather flat, with just a very gentle tummy. Her legs and arms were strong, because she worked a lot and did not rest like other women. She used to do brisk walk for more than an hour and do yoga and stretches. She was fit!
‘So smooth… so strong.’ Sunil’s words flashed in her mind.
She remembered how she had devised a plan to decorate Gabi’s vagina with henna for my first night. Her feedback had been very interesting.
‘I too would do something like that.’ Unknowingly, she too was making plans for her marital future with Sunil, ‘That would be a nice surprise for him.’
‘Healthy and strong babies.’
She touched her tummy. Sunil’s words kept on flashing in her mind.
‘We will have two kids… at least. How beautiful you will look!’
She deliberately expanded her tummy to see whether she would really look beautiful with a big, pregnant tummy. She seemed to like what she saw.
‘The cradle of my future kids…’
Ma thought at gave a suppressed laugh at how eagerly Sunil wanted to impregnate her.
‘Impregnate me,’ she thought and touched her lips of her vulva, ‘... surely, it is not loose’ she thought remembering that she felt stuffed with Dad’s penis. Sunil was bigger. She tried to insert her forefinger inside her, and it pained.
‘Not loose at all,’ she thought, ‘good!’
She took bath and decided to wear a more pleasing color today and selected an apricot orange colored saree and a matching blouse. She was not wearing her usual, depressing, and sad colored, widow attire, which often included faded yellow or faded blue sarees. Thankfully, she did not wear faded white sarees, like those widowed women in old Bollywood movies, as she did not like them. She even put a very light makeup, a light orange colored lip gloss and a very small orange colored bindi to adorn her forehead. She looked at herself in the mirror, and she was very pleased to see how beautiful she looked. She had not felt so happy in a very long time.
As soon as she finished dressing up, she heard the call-bell. She thought it must be Kajal. She was surprised that the parent-teacher meeting got over so soon. Usually, it took hours to finish! Since there was no one else in the hose, she went to open the door, only to welcome... Sunil!
Ma’s heart skipped a beat!
Sunil, on the other hand, looked at Ma in sheer amazement! She looked smashingly gorgeous! She looked stunningly beautiful! He gawked at her for several seconds. He was speechless. Ma noticed the various changing expressions in his eyes and desire for her. She lowered her eyes in shame.
She definitely did not expect to find herself alone with him. What’s more, he was now seeing her like that (dressed prettily) after such a long time. She never felt so shy in a very long time. She had no idea that such a simple change in attire will have that kind of effect on him. Indeed, she was internally pleased. It was good for her in many ways. The clouds of depression had finally fully lifted from her mind. She felt better about herself and was looking forward to her future life… with Sunil.
“Suman,” Sunil started in a low whisper, when he regained his senses, “do you have any idea how beautiful you are?”
He said as he entered the house and shut the door behind him. He took two or three big steps towards Ma, who took one timid step backwards. She wanted to be close to him, but her propriety demanded that she kept some distance. He stood so close to her that he had to hold her waist. Looking into Ma’s eyes, he hummed,
“Khuda bhi, aasma se, jab zameen par dekhta hoga…
Mere Mehboob ko kisne banaya, sochta hoga…”
Kajal had gone to attend the parent-teacher meeting at Latika’s school, and Sunil had come with me to help me to discuss some technical, internet related issues with my business. This was in a long time that Ma was finally alone in the house… Since her depression spiral, we had made it a policy to never let her be alone. Someone to accompany her, to talk to her was a great idea. The only time we left her alone was when she took her early morning long walks. Doctors assured us that it was a good thing, because she will feel more agency and more control if she does that one thing alone for now, and because exercising secretes hormones that calm mind and body.
However, in the past couple of weeks, Ma had shown remarkable progress on being her cheerful self, and that too for much longer times each day! Since she was progressing very well on emotional front, we were okay to leave her alone for some part of the day. Indeed, Ma was okay, but she felt conflicting emotions. More than anything, while at one hand she felt relieved that Sunil was not there, on the other hand she yearned for him. Each moment that she spent with him was like opening a box full of surprises.
‘What would it be like to be Sunil’s wife?’ she started to visualize.
Indeed, it would be an amazing experience. He was full of life and had so many dreams for future. He was so much fun to talk to. He was always cracking jokes. One wonders how he came to know so many of them! Yes, he was jovial, but in no way insincere. He was loving, respectful and responsible. From an early childhood, he understood that he needed to work hard to achieve something in life and take care of his mother and sister. And he was just about to achieve that objective.
He was knowledgeable. He was among one of the toppers in his class. Also, he was helping me with my business problems, which was a good thing! He had already secured a high paying job from his campus recruitment, which augured well for his career.
He was a simple person, who chased many small happiness and that is why he was always happy. He could be happy just by looking at a butterfly hovering over a flower! He was that simple! What he felt, what he thought, what he expressed, and what he said were the same things! There was no deceit in his manners. Somehow, he had found a way to live an uncomplicated life. he was spontaneous, daring and fun! He could surprise her at the drop of hat. Ma too was happy and fun-loving person… something that she lost since Dad’s death. How wonderful would it be to be like that again?
He was a good-looking man in his own way. He had dusky skin like his mother, and beautiful expressive eyes. He always kept his hair very short, almost military like, which looked good on his face and personality. Like Ma, he too was fond of long-distance running (yes, I know, Ma did not run, but walked & jogged). He was fit and he looked strong.
Oh, and his penis… it felt strong and big to touch… bigger than Dad’s. While she used to feel happy with the way Dad made love to her, those love sessions were short. They lasted only about five to ten minutes. She had not many references for usually how long lovemaking session lasted, but from what she had known (with me and Gabi, and me and Devy) she knew it could be much longer, more passionate, and more involved. She attributed these qualities of my love sessions to the size of my penis.
‘So, does it mean that he will do ‘it’ with me for long time?’
Ma wondered going by the same logic. She shuddered at that thought. It was something very different to imagine.
Standing in front of the mirror, she did a visual evaluation of herself. Her breasts were firm. There was not much visible detrimental effect of age. These days, many girls, even in their early twenties seem to have lost all their youthful firmness… all thanks to bad lifestyle, junk food habits, and undisciplined living. They grow fat and have no body shape other than being round, with huge bags of fat around the belly that look almost like tyres! Ma’s stomach on the other hand was rather flat, with just a very gentle tummy. Her legs and arms were strong, because she worked a lot and did not rest like other women. She used to do brisk walk for more than an hour and do yoga and stretches. She was fit!
‘So smooth… so strong.’ Sunil’s words flashed in her mind.
She remembered how she had devised a plan to decorate Gabi’s vagina with henna for my first night. Her feedback had been very interesting.
‘I too would do something like that.’ Unknowingly, she too was making plans for her marital future with Sunil, ‘That would be a nice surprise for him.’
‘Healthy and strong babies.’
She touched her tummy. Sunil’s words kept on flashing in her mind.
‘We will have two kids… at least. How beautiful you will look!’
She deliberately expanded her tummy to see whether she would really look beautiful with a big, pregnant tummy. She seemed to like what she saw.
‘The cradle of my future kids…’
Ma thought at gave a suppressed laugh at how eagerly Sunil wanted to impregnate her.
‘Impregnate me,’ she thought and touched her lips of her vulva, ‘... surely, it is not loose’ she thought remembering that she felt stuffed with Dad’s penis. Sunil was bigger. She tried to insert her forefinger inside her, and it pained.
‘Not loose at all,’ she thought, ‘good!’
She took bath and decided to wear a more pleasing color today and selected an apricot orange colored saree and a matching blouse. She was not wearing her usual, depressing, and sad colored, widow attire, which often included faded yellow or faded blue sarees. Thankfully, she did not wear faded white sarees, like those widowed women in old Bollywood movies, as she did not like them. She even put a very light makeup, a light orange colored lip gloss and a very small orange colored bindi to adorn her forehead. She looked at herself in the mirror, and she was very pleased to see how beautiful she looked. She had not felt so happy in a very long time.
As soon as she finished dressing up, she heard the call-bell. She thought it must be Kajal. She was surprised that the parent-teacher meeting got over so soon. Usually, it took hours to finish! Since there was no one else in the hose, she went to open the door, only to welcome... Sunil!
Ma’s heart skipped a beat!
Sunil, on the other hand, looked at Ma in sheer amazement! She looked smashingly gorgeous! She looked stunningly beautiful! He gawked at her for several seconds. He was speechless. Ma noticed the various changing expressions in his eyes and desire for her. She lowered her eyes in shame.
She definitely did not expect to find herself alone with him. What’s more, he was now seeing her like that (dressed prettily) after such a long time. She never felt so shy in a very long time. She had no idea that such a simple change in attire will have that kind of effect on him. Indeed, she was internally pleased. It was good for her in many ways. The clouds of depression had finally fully lifted from her mind. She felt better about herself and was looking forward to her future life… with Sunil.
“Suman,” Sunil started in a low whisper, when he regained his senses, “do you have any idea how beautiful you are?”
He said as he entered the house and shut the door behind him. He took two or three big steps towards Ma, who took one timid step backwards. She wanted to be close to him, but her propriety demanded that she kept some distance. He stood so close to her that he had to hold her waist. Looking into Ma’s eyes, he hummed,
“Khuda bhi, aasma se, jab zameen par dekhta hoga…
Mere Mehboob ko kisne banaya, sochta hoga…”