Upadte.......05
main pehle hi keh chuka hun ke ......I am a Vindictive Bastard.....mujhe kya pata tha yahi meri sachai ban jayegi.....haa yahi wo raaz thi....jiske liye yeh log mujhse aaj tak sab kuch chhupate aa rahe hai....
sahi samjhe inhe lagta hai ke mai ek Bastard hun....mane main apne bade mama ka bacha hun...kyunke Maa ko jab pata chali thi ke wo pregnant hai to Papa usse pehle 2 hafto tak ghar pe nahi the...wo apne bussiness ke silsile mein bahar gaye huye tha....
aur is bich mama aur maa ke bich sambandh ban chuke the..kyunke bade mama ko kisi ladki ne dhokha diya tha...jis liye wo bohot dukhi the....aur main pehle hi keh chuka hun...ke maa aur bade mama bachpan se hi bohot kareeb the....
to usi beech mama humare ghar mein aaye huye the....tab bhaiya thode bade the....to maa mama ko sambhalte sambhalte unke bistar tak chali gayi....aur unko apna jism deke unka dukh kam karne lagi.......
ab yeh cheej kitna kam kari thi ke nahi ...lekin itna pata hai ek abaidh sampark ka suruat ho chuki thi....jisme dono ki hi marji thi....to mama se sambandh banane ke 2 hafte mein hi maa ko pata chali ke wo pregnant hai.....jisse unhein laga ke wo mama se pregnant huyi hai....wo yeh baat kisi ko bata to nahi sakti thi....aur mama tabhi bas jawan huye the...agar yeh baat samne aayi to..unke career barbad ho sakta tha...is liye wo kuch na kehne ki sochi....
sab kuch normal hi jaa raha tha....Maa dono taraf se khush thi....ek taraf pati ka pyar ...aur ek taraf ek abaidh sampark ka josh....lekin wo yeh bhul chuki thi ke koi bhi baat chhupi nahi rehti...chahe use kitna bhi dabane ki kosish ki jaaye....
ek din papa ne apne sasural mein dono bhai behen ko range hath pakad liye...unhone gussa karne ki wajaye ..unhone dusra rasta apnaya....
unhone maa ke samne prastab rakha ke agar wo divorce nahi chahti...aur agar nahi chahti ke unke aur unke bhbai ke kartoot bahar mashor ho....to unhe papa ko bhi dusre ko chodne dena hoga....aur wo apne bhai se sari jindagi chud sakti hai...aur yahi se suruaat huyi iss pariwar mein Group sex ki...aur partner adla badli ki....
kyunke papa ne badi mausi ko chodne ka shart rakha tha...to maa ko unhe manana para.....aur dheere dheere sab isme shamil hone lage...maa ne papa ko mere baare mein bhi bata diye the....unhe bhi manna pada...kyunke sabkuch unke samne tha...
yahi to insaan karta hai....apne ek jhuth chhupane ke liye kayi aur jhut ka sahara leta hai...yeh bhul jata hai ke eventually sach sabke samne aa hi jayega....yeh log bhi jab jab pakde gaye to unko bhi apne mein shamil karte gaye...yeh na socha ke aage kya hoga....dusre ki kya soch hai...unhone insaan ki sabse badi kamjori ka fayda uthaya....hawas ka
kyunke insaan apne hawas mein sab kuch bhul jata hai...kya sahi hai aur kya galat......sabse jyada mard logo ko..wo hawas mein yeh bhi nahi dekh pata ke koi uske sath khel raha hai....unhe to bas chhut chahiye hota hai....
insaan yeh bhul jata hai ke sex se bhi aage duniya hai...sex humare jindagi ka ek part hai bas...jindagi nahi hai...samaj se birudh kaam karke koi bhi bach nahi sakta ...aur kitna bhi keh lo ke main logo ki baat nahi manta...logo ka kaam hai kehna...koi farak nahi padta...farak padta hai...bohot jayda...
khair main koi nahi hota hun kisi ko judge karne wala...sabse galti hoti hai..mujhse bhi...insaan ka dusra matlab hi hota hai galti....insaan galti se hi bane hai.....yeh sab bas mera opinion hai....unki jindagi hai ...wo kya kare ....mere liye koi bhi cheej tab tak galat nahi hai jab tak kisi ko usse nuksan nahi ho raha hai...lekin yaha ho raha hai....
mama ko video bhejne ke baad 3 hafte hujar chuke hai....aur mujhe yeh sab ke sath bohot kuch bhi pata chla hai....mujhe jab pata chala ke main ek bastard hun...to mujhe jayda kuch farak nahi pada...jaisa ke yeh log soch rahe the...hey maine kaha tha ke im not a Emotional fool...mere liye jindagi Black and White hai...mere liye emotions koi maine nahi rakhte....main logic ke basis pe chalta hun...lekin hun to ek insaan hi na...kabhi kabhi emotion mein main bhi beh jata hun....
logic ke basis pe chalta hun ...iska matlab yeh nahi ke main dusro ke emotions ko nahi samajhta hun....samjhata hun isi liye to mera gussa ab inke upar kam chuka hai....khatam nahi....kaun kya kar raha hai..wo uska niji mamla hai....main usme bolne wala koi nahi hun....jo jaisa karega...use uska parinaam bhi bhugatna hoga.....bure ka bura..ache ka acha...
jab mujhe pata chala ke main ek bastard hun to mujhe mere man ne kaha ke yeh galat bhi ho sakta hai....isi liye maine DNA test karwaya ...chupke se..jisse yeh pata chala ke sabko bas galat fehmi hai....maa mama se chudne se pehle hi pregnant ho chuki thi.....aur isi karan mera gussa unke upar thoda kam hua....lekin yeh bastard wali baat unke actions ko justify nahi karti....
khair koi kisi ke actions ko justify nahi kar sakta...koi bhi nahi...lekin maine jitna in logo ke actions ko study kiya hai...mujhe inki wajah to pata hai ke yeh sab khyun ho raha hai.....
wajah bilkul simple hai...ek jhut chhupane ke liye 100 jhut ka sahara...Maa jab pakdi gayi...to unhone apne jhut ko chhupane ke liye....papa ko permission di....aur jab papa badi mausi ke sath pakdi gayi...to bade mausa ko bhi shamil kar liya gaya..jisme maa ne hi madad ki...aise hi karke pakde jaate rahe aur sab shamil hote rahe.....
kyunke koi bhi hawas ke aage soch hi nahi pata hai.....aur isi ko hatiyar inhone banaya...aur dheere dheere kareeb sara family hi yeh gande khel mein shamil ho gayi....
maine kaha kareeb sari family...kyunke kuch log abhi bhi the jo iss baat se anjaan the...jo unke sath galat ho raha tha...aur yahi baat mujhe khatak rahi hai....warna main in logo ko inke halat pe hi chhod deta...haa mera apman ka badla jaroor leta...lekin jo baat mere samne aayi hai wo mere apman se badi hai,,...khaskar mere liye....
kyunke jab meri badi mausi ki ladki humare ghar aayi thi...tab inke beech huyi baat se pata chala ke ....mere jiju mere chhote mama ko cuckold banaya jaa raha hai...khas karke chhote mama ki baatse mujhe sabse jyada gussa aya...kyunke wo mere idle hai...wo unke sath aisa kaise kar sakte hai...aur sabse badi baat....mama ke dono bache mere papa ke hai....jise mere man mein inke liye nafrat aur bhi gehri ho gayi.....
kyunke mere liye fidelity loyalty aur truth yeh teeno cheeje bohot hi jyada maine rakhti hai....aur respect bhi...main respect ka bhukha hun....jisne bhi aaj tak mera disrespect kiya hai...wo bachke nahi gyaa hai...aur yaha baat mere idle ki aa gayi hai...mere mama ke....wo yeh deserve nahi karte....unke sabse kareeb ke insaan...unka sabse acha dost..unki pati hi unke sath gaddari kar rahi hai...sath mein puri family bhi....
mujhe pata hai ke chhote mama bohot hi tagde moral wale insaan hai....wo yeh sab sehen nahi karenge....aur mujhe mera badla lene ke liye ...bas unhe sachai dikhani hogi...baaki ka kaam wo khud hi kar lenge....kyunke wo ek army wale hai...mere jaisa hi unke liye unka samman sabse jyada mayne rakhta hai unke liye.....aur kisi ko dhokha dena iska simple sa matlab hai ke ....jise dhokha diya jaa raha hai...uske liye dhokha dene wale ke man mein koi bhi respect nahi hai...'..
mere jiju sidhe insaan hai....wo bhi yeh sab sehen nahi karenge....jis liye unse bhi yeh baatein chhupayi jaa rahi hai...lekin jayda der tak nahi..kyunke inki ulti gin ti chalu ho chuki hai...inhe mere baare mein bura nahi kehna chahiye tha......
agar ek baar bhi wo dusre ke baare mein sochte ke unke actions se dusro pe kya effect padegi .....to wo yeh sab nahi karte...galti karna koi badi baat nahi hai....lekin usko chhupane ke liye aur bhi galti karna galat hai...jiska anjam inhe bhugatna hoga...koi agar shant hai...iska matlab yeh nahi ek wo darfok hai..kuch kar nahi sakta....jo chupchap aur shant rehta hai...wohi sabse khatarnak hota hia...yeh baat sab bhul jaate hai.....jo main sabko yaad dilaunga....ke galat karke koi bhi bach nahi sakta.....
khair maine seduce karna band kar diya hai...kyunke mujhe in sab mein shamil nahi hona hai...sabse badi karan hai.....dusre ko cuckold banana...aur dusra yeh sab galat hai..agar main chahun to...kisi ko bhi apne niche laa sakta hun..lekin phir inmein aur mujhmein kya hi farak reh jayega....
behti ganga mein hath dhona galat nahi hai...lekin abhi ganga ki bhi paani gandi hai...aur mujhe apne hath gande karne ka koi irada nahi hai...
main phirse kehna chahunga....mujhe inke relation se koi problem nahi hai...yeh inki marji hai...lekin mujhse problem iss baat se hai ke yeh log ...sabka majak udate hai..jo inmein shamil nahi hai....khas karke mera chhote mama aur jiju ka.....jo mujhe bilkul bhi pasand nahi hai.....
are tumhe jo karna karo na yaar....lekin hawas mein itne bhi andhe mat ho jao ke..samne wale ke feelings ko hurt karo....khas karke mardo se yeh baat kehna chahunga...mujhe pata hai ..mard jaat dominating hona pasand karte hai....sab humesha se alpha male banke rehna chahte hain...jiski bnaat sab mane aur sab jhuke.....lekin sabko apni baat manane ke liye unka bharosa jeetna padta hai....agar tumeh asani se sab kuch mil raha hai..iska yeh matlab nahi ke tum sabse bade ho...iska matlab hai koi tumhare sath khel raha hai...aur jo bhi mil raha hai...usme kuch to gadbad hai....
yahi baat papa aur is khel mein shamil baaki mardo pe bhi laagu hoti hai...unhe lag raha hai ke wahi is khel ke masters hai...lekin nahi...sachai mujhe pata chali..ke aurate unhe apne ungliyo pe nacha rahi hai..khas karke maa...
unka kya jaata hai...agar unhone papa ko kisi dusre ko chodne diya to ...unka hi fayda hai....unko naya naya land jo milega...aur papa ka bhi muh band rahega...jisse unhe koi problem nahi hogi....isi liye unhne yeh sab kiya...take wo apni hawas mita sake....
papa ko jab mere bastard hone ki baat pata chali to...wo mujhse dur hone lage...kyunke koi bhi kisi dusre ke bache ko palna nahi chahta...koi bhi nahi....lekin maa pehle mujhse bohot pyar karti thi....lekin jab unhe laga ke main alag hun...jo main sachme hun...to unka mere upar se interest dheere dheere khatam hota gaya..kyunke main unke mutabik...bas shareer se hi taqatwar hun...man se hi nahi...main ek wimp hun...unke mutabik....
boy o boy...kitne galat hai wo...apni galti nahi dekhi...unhone hi mujhe morals aur sahi galat ka path padhayi...aur ab unhe hi yeh baat achi nahi lagti.....kitni badi hypocryt hai wo...
khair 2 din baad family gathering hai...aur mujhe papa ne nahar bhejne ka intejam kar liya hai...take wo sab hawas ke nanga nach kar sake.....lekin maine apna pehla humla kar diya hai...mama aur jiju ko unke patniyo ke karnamo ke video full detail ke sath bhej diya hai...aur gathering ka sachayi bhi bataya hai....
baaki sab isi galat fehmi mein hai ke us din unhe ek nayi jawan chhut milegi...Reshma ka....lekin kitne galat hai na wo...kyunke Reshma kabhi aane hi nahi wali...wo usdin mere sath rehne wali hai,....
kyunke maine use Hawas se bahar ka duniya dikhaya...aur yeh samjhaya ke uska actions se kya ho sakta hai...use yeh bhi samjhaya ke yeh baat kabhi chhupi nahi rahegi...aur jab bahar aayegi to use suicide karne ke alwa koi aur rasta nahi bachega....
tab usne batayi ke woh mujhse bachpan se pyar karti hai....aur wo isiliye raaji huyi thi..kyunke badi mausi ne usse kahi thi ke,,,main bhi unmein shamil hun....aur main hi uska first banunga....aur wo mere sath uski shadi bhi karayegi....jab wo mere papa ke sath apne ghar mein pakdi gayi thi...chudayi karte huye...
Reshma bhi mujhe paane ke lalach mein maan gayi thi...lekin jab maine use asliyat se wakif karaya..tab use realize huya ke...wo kitni galat hai....aur main kabhi uska first banne wala hi nahi tha...uske bajaye...mere bhaiya uske first banne wale the...jiska prrof bhi use dikhaya ....
meri taiyari puri ho chuki hai....agar sab kuch mere plan ke hisab se hua....to in logo ko inke jindagi ka sabse bada jhatka lagne wala hai.....
to be continued.......
