Ghar par pahunchkar mene usha ko samjha diya ki maa ko shaq nahi hona chahiye ki kuch hua hai ok … kuch dino baad dheere dheere hum bta denge …usne kaha sahi kaha bhaiya … phir dinner ke dauraan maa ne kaha beta …mein laut jau ghar ….mera yahan mann nahi lagta ..wahan gaon ki aurato ke saath acha time pass ho jata hai ……usha ne kaha ..phir to maa m bhi business ke silsile se videsh nikal jaati hu … bhaiya aap chaloge mere saath … maa ne kaha haan chala jayega ye ….meine kaha thik hai usha ……kab jaana hai .. usha ne kaha bhaiya maa niklegi uske baad hi chalete hain…meine kaha its ok
Phir m sone ja hi raha tha ki usha ka call aaya .. meine kaha hello usha .. usne kaha bhaiya terrace par aa jao kuch baat karni hai … meine kaha m aaya ….m jaise hi gaya …wo chatt par khadi thi aur kuch soch rahi thi meine kaha kya soch rahi ho usha ….bhaiya mujhe us insaan se jaldi se jaldi chutkara paana hai …aap madad kariye meri .. usha wo to thik hai par tumhare bête ayaan ka kya hoga …bhaiya ayaan ko m apne pass rakhungi … meine kaha wo to thik hai par kya ayaan ke hote hue tum apne pati ko bhul paogi ..kya sab kuch bhulakar aage life m badh paogi ?.. wo thoda soch m pad gayi …phir uske baad uski aankhon m aansoo aa gaye ….usne kaha bhaiya aap hi batao m kya karu … meine kaha usha aise faisle kabhi gusse m nahi kiye jaate …….agar tum use alag ho rahi ho to tumhe ayaaan ko bhi alag karna hoga …aur koi connection nahi hona chahiye tumhara aur uska ….jab divorce hoga to batwara ho jayega property ka .. to tumhe wo property bhi bechkar kahin use alag business start karna hoga agar tum business m interested ho toh ….(ye m nahi meri aatma bol gayi kyunki kahin na kahin m apni behan ki khusi se jyada apni khusi dhoond raha tha m sayad is pal swarthy ban gaya tha kyunki m usha se pal bhar bhi dur nahi hona chahta tha )
Usne kaha thik hai bhaiya aap bhi mera bhala hi chahoge jaisa aap kahoge m waisa hi karungi bas mujhme abhi himmat nahi ho rahi ye bhaag daur ki bhaiya m mental peace chahti ho wo ye kehkar sisak sisak kar rone lag gayi… meine kaha usha sambhalo apne aapko aur use gale lagaya …usne bhi mujhe kaskar pakad liya … mere bhi haath thoda kaste chale gaye ye apne aap hi ho raha tha …ab ye stithi aa chuki thi ki meine use bilkul chipka liya tha …..abtak itna close hum nahi aaye the ab mujhe uska jism ekdum pura feel ho raha tha ….wo ab bhi roye ja rahi thi … mene uske baalo par haath firaya aur use samjhate hue bola ….jo ki m upar ke mann se bol raha tha (usha abhi tumhari umra hi kya hai koi acha sa ladka dekhkar tumhari shaadi kar denge ….meine bahari dikhawe ke liye kaha jisse mujhe pata chal sake ki wo kya ray rakhti hai is bare m …wo foran hi alag hui aur boli bhaiya ab mujhe saadi byah par viswaas nahi raha ….plzzz aaj ke bad aisi baat mat karna …m kamjor nahi hu jee lungi apni zindagi ….meine usko samjhate hue kaha …thik hai gussa mat karo jaisa tum kahogi waisa hi hoga aur mene usi awastha m use kar liya … usne kaha sorry bhaiya meine appar gussa kiya … lekin aap hi ho jisse mujhe sukoon hai ..warna mujhe marna padta .. meine kaha shhhh plzz aisa mat bolo tumne bhi to mujhe sambhala tha …mera bhi sahara tum ho ….meri bhi ankhon m aansoo aa gaye ..uske ye kehne ke baad …meine use aur kas liya …wo bhi roye ja rahi thi .. meine apne haath se uska chehra uthaya ….ye samay tha jab hamare chehre ek dusre ke itne paas the ..meine bade dhyan se use dekh raha tha use ankhon se aate aansoo ko saaf kiya … hamari nazreee jaise atak si gayi …hum karib ek dusre ho karib 5 min tak dekhte rahe ..phir meine badi himmaat karke kaha …ek baat kahu usha …usne kaha kya … meine kaha tum bahut khoobsoorat ho usha …usne kaha bhaiya sayad ye sach nahi hai … meine kaha ye sach hai usha ..aur pata nahi mujhe kya hua …..mere hoth uske hoth ki taraf badhne lage wo ye baad dhyan se dekh rahi thi ..uski aankhein bhi band hoti ja rahi thi ..jaise hi usey dhyan aaya ..wo ek dum se hadbada kar hat gayi aur boli bhaiya sambhalo apne aap ko … aur phoran hi neeche chali gayi ……mein to sunn sa hi khada reh gaya thodi derbaad mujhe pata chala kya hua hai …phir m thodi der wahin ruka …aur baad m apne room m aakar bed par late gaya aur sochne laga jo kuch bhi hua tha abhi ..
Jisse mujhe ek baat clear hui ki jo m itne din m uljhan m tha ki usha ….mujhe mil payegi ya nahi ..kabhi mera mann haan kehta tha kabhi na par aaj wale wakiye se ..ek baat clear ho gayi thi sayad usha bhi bhavisya m mujhe mil jaye kyunki ye jo paristhiti thi usne hume itne karib le ayi thi ..ye samay ki taakat hi thi jo hume itni jaldi itne karib le aayi thi kyunki samay hi hai jo sabse jyada takatwar hota hai jiske aage hum kuch bhi nahi hain … mein apna mind tay kar chukka tha ki m koshish jarur karunga agar hum mil payen to aur baaki bhagwan ki marzi hai
