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~A LONER
Day- 1 ~Rise
I always hated the earth and when my mother passed away two weeks ago, I couldn’t bear to live in the Earth for a moment.... aur aaj mujhe is jagah se finally mukti mil rahi thi...
T- 3 Hours
ye wo samay tha jab mera safar ISS (International Space Station) ke liye shuru hua. Soyuz space Shuttle ke launch hone ke teen ghante phle, jab main, Nicodemus aur Omar launchpad ke liye nikle... hum teeno excited the. Un dono ke antarman me kya tha, main puri taarah nahi bata sakta, par yadi baat karu apni toh... I have always loved the empty space more than anything in this cursed world.
“Pilot Omar to Space Center-1 and 2... all checked and cleared...”
“Nic to Space Center-1 and 2... all checked and cleared... AF”
2 hafte pahle meri maa ke guzar jaane ke bad ekmatra yahi wo jagah thi, jaha main jana chahta tha, jaha main rahna chahta tha , jise main feel karna chahta tha ya fir kahu ki ekmatra aisi jagah jaha main rah sakta tha.
“This is Aakash to Space Center-1 and 2... all checked and cleared....”
T- 20 Minutes
“Pilot Omar to Space Center. Countdown Resumed . now, closing the Vent Valves... launch confugiration state 1.. 2.. 3.... Space Center -1 & 2. All Cleared...”
“Space Center to Soyuz... You are cleared... Go up there and fill the bloody empty space... Godspeed”
T- 10 Seconds
Aur jaise hee countdown shuru hua , main beet rahe har ek second ko apne mann me ginne laga. Shuttle ke first engine ke start hote hee dharti gunj uthi aur kanpan karte hue dheere-dheere hume upar uthane lagi. Main Engine ke start hote hee ye gunj aur bhi tej hua... Soyuz shuttle ke speed badhne ke sath-sath mere dil ki dhadkane bhi badh rahi thi. Aur jab hum speed me upar jaane lage toh aisa laga maano jaise koyi gorilla kudkar meri chhati par baitha mujhe daba raha ho...
Waise to ISS ki doori surface se sirf 400 km thi par... 17000 miles ki speed se prithvi ke chakkar lagate ISS se dock karna is doori ko bahut badha deta tha aur kayi baar toh aisa bhi hota ki kayi din lag jaate hai, ISS ko pakadna. Lekin hume din nahi lage... 15:15 ko Soyuz Prithavi se launch hua aur 21:45 ko ISS ke sath docking successful hui.
“welcome on board...”docking ke baad jab hum ISS ke andar aaye toh Aurora hum teeno se boli
Day- 8 ~Aurora
Aurora ISS me pichhale teen mahine se thi aur use kuch mahine yaha aur bitana tha. lekin uske sath wale 3 astronauts Soyuz me Omar ke sath wapas laut gaye...
Yaha kayi din lag gaye mujhe aur Nic ko ISS ke parivesh me khud ko dhaalne me. Zero gravity me sharir ke lower part ke liquid bhi brain ki taraf move karne lagte hai, jisse mera face me sujan bhi hua . Lekin jab kuch din beete toh body ne khud ko adjust kar liya.
“good morning...” jab main apne capsule se nikalkar tairate hue excersice module me gaya toh waha pahle se mauzood Aurora mujhse boli...
Aurora 35 saal ki thi. divorced, no kids. Wo ISS ke apne demonstration Video ke kaaran neeche Earth par already kafi popular ho chuki thi. Waha neeche uske laakho chahne waale the, jo uske zero gravity ki is kali duniya se uske wapas lautne ka intezaar kar rahe the. Aurora ke Laakho chahne walo ke aalawa kayi news channels wale bhi uske lautne ka besabri se intezaar kar rahe the .
Wo meri tarah hee yaha 6 mahine ke liye Space station me thi, jisme se lagbhag 3 mahine uske pure ho chuke the. Aurora research ke liye bane Destiny lab ke sath-sath hum dono ki bhi head thi. hum usi ke instructions follow karte. Hume instruction dete waqt, humse baat karte waqt wo beech-beech me jab muskurati toh Nic ke according... uski muskaan aise thi, maano north pole me sach me aurora ka dikhna... meri maa ke gujar jaane ki jo udasi mere andar thi, wo is empty space me ab dheere-dheere shant hone lagi thi. Especially jab Aurora muskura kar aurora bikherati thi aur uspar se Nick ki harkate....
“Mr. A, here...”
Nic aksar free time me ya exercise karte samay zero gravity me tairate hue apna dance move mujhe dikhaya karta tha. jo the toh bahut bakwas par zero gravity use bhi aakarshak bana deti thi.
Day-20 ~Nicomdeus
“why did you become an astronaut ? Mr. A” exercise karne ke dauran Nic ne mujhse puchha...
Exercise humare liye bahut jaroori tha . ek din me atleast 2 hours hum exercise karte the, taaki zero gravity me humare bones aur muscles fragile naa ho... jab maine koyi jawab nahi diya toh Nic ne apna sawal dohraya...
“Mr. A...?”
“you are not the fucking director, Nic... I don’t answer you... ”
“still I need an answer for my demonstration Video..”Aurora apna camera lekar tairate hue exercise module me aayi, uske ISS demonstration video me ab hum dono bhi shamil hone lage the.
“I don’t know...”
“Still I need an answer Aakash...”
“I guess, I was good at math and science...”maine jawab diya. Aurora ko main waise naa nahi kar paya jaise maine Nic ko kiya tha.
“and you Nic...?”Camera ka rukh Nick ki taraf modte hue Aurora puchhi...
“well, because it’s the.... fucking coolest job ever... now see this...”upar jaate hue Nic bola aur ek backflip markar khud par proud feel karne laga.
Kabhi-kabhi toh uski harkate dekhkar mujhe lagta hai ki yaha bhi management quota rahta hai kya...? wo pakka management quota ke kaaran hee yaha ISS me aa paya hai.
Day-27 ~Cupola
ISS me mera chautha saptaah. Ab meri body is zero gravity ke hisab se puri tarah adjust ho chuki hai. ab koyi bhi headache ya upset stomach jaisi problem nahi hoti aur yadi medical problem hoti hai toh JIN name ka robot use suljha deta hai. bas chirag ghiso aur JIN aapke saamne turant prakat ho jayega “kya huqum mere aaka..” wali line ke sath. Dusare shabdo me kahu toh JIN, ISS me mauzood humare Robot ka name hai aur yadi teesare shabdo me kahu toh main ab yaha khush rahne laga tha.
ISS me 27th day aur itne dino se main baitha nahi hoon, sirf tair raha hoon. Kal maine 800 pounds ka vajan apne ek hath se utha liya tha, ye sab zero gravity ka kamal hai aur isi ke kaaran hum yaha chalte nahi balki.... udte hai. kuch dino se humare radiator-1 me kuch problem ki report thi, jiske kaaran Aurora ke sath main ya fir Nic hum dono me se kisi ek ko ISS ke baahar Radiator ki repairing ke liye Spacewalk pe jaana tha. ab Ye Aurora pe depend karta hai ki wo Spacewalk ke liye kise chunti hai, mujhe ya fir Nick ko.
ISS me mera mission repairing ya parts replacement me help karna aur spacewalk ke liye bane latest spacesuit EMV-X ki testing karna tha. Taaki yadi koyi astronaut yadi spacewalk ke dauran ISS se door ho jaye toh Spacesuit me lage Thruster ki madad se 17000 miles per hour ki speed se prithavi ke chakkar laga rahe is ISS ko wapas pakad sake. Nic ka mission bhi yahi tha, hum dono ek-dusare ke backup the.
Yaha apne liye free time bahut kam hee milta hai par jab bhi milta hai toh main cupola, jaha windows ke through ISS se earth ko dekh sakte hai, waha apna samay jayan karta tha. Cupola se neeche dekhne pe jitna romanch ka anubhav hota tha, utna dar bhi lagta ki kya ho yadi ye sabhi windows achanak se toot jaaye toh...? par fir mujhe meri maam ka khayal aata hai. mujhe earth se jodne wali ekmatra wahi thi aur unke jaane ke baad ab mujhe koyi fark nahi padta tha. kyunki neeche ki neele rang ki rangeen duniya me mera jeewan puri tarah rangheen tha. naa toh koyi dost aur naa hee koyi dushman.. naa hee koyi pyar karne wala aur naa hee koyi nafrat karne wala. Waha meri zindagi ek empty space ki tarah thi , complete vacuum aur yaha is empty space me puri bhari hui...
“step aside... Aakash...”
Cupola se neeche earth ko dekhte hue meri soch me vighn daalte hue Aurora waha aayi aur Cupola ki windows se earth ke view apne camera me kaid karne lagi.
“let’s play a game.... where are we...”Camera se apni nazar hata kar neeche Earth ki taraf dekhte hue usne mujhse puchha...
“Africa...?”neeche Earth ki taraf kuch der tak dekhne ke baad maine jawab diya aur confirm karne ke liye Aurora ki oor apni najre ghumayi... mera jawab sahi tha.
“I think.. I know... why did you chose this profession...”
“really...?”Cupola ki windows se hatkar ek oor hawa me khade hote hue main chauka
“you’re A Loner... you love the empty space more than anything in this universe and that’s why... you have already applied for the future Mars Space Station Mission ~ Gateaway....”
Main waise toh bahut baat-chit karne waalo me se nahi hoon aur aksar chup hee rahta hoon... lekin Aurora ke is jawab ne mujhe sach me chup kara diya tha. aakhiri baar jiske shabdo ka mujhpar itna gahra asar hua tha wo shabd Stanford Medical Care me dum todti hui meri maa ke shabd the aur unhone hee aaj tak is pure brahmand me mujhe thik tarah se samjha tha. meri udasi aur mere akelepan ko bimari ki bajay meri kabiliyat me unhone hee tabdil kiya tha aur unhi ki badaulat main aaj yaha hoon.
Aurora dusari thi. Main uski aankho me ek pal ke liye ban rahe prithavi ke pratibimb ko dekhta raha, is ashcharya ke sath ki koyi insaan kisi dusare insaan ko itni gehrayi se kaise samajh sakta hai. wo bhi itni jaldi.... itna sateek.
Day-30 ~Mommy
“who’s she....”
Main bachpan se hee aisa tha aur jab mere dad ek American firangi ke liye mujhe aur meri Maa ko chhod gaye toh mere andar bahut gussa tha. fir ek din school me kuch ladko ne meri maa ko lekar Mazak udaya toh meri unse maar-pit bhi hui.... jisme main bahut pita aur fir gusse se School ke park ki ek bench me apna gaal fulakar gusse se baith gaya... us samay barish ho rahi thi aur Saare teachers haar maan chuke the mujhe andar bula-bula kar... kuch ne jabardasti pakad kar mujhe andar le jaane ka bhi prayas kiya, lekin main wahi zameen me lotne laga aur unke hath ko gusse se kaat bhi diya... jiske baad haarkar unhone meri Maa ko bulayaa.... jo aayi toh chhata lekar thi par mujhe bheegta dekh chhata kinare kar mere sath wahi bheegte hue us bench me mere sath baith gayi....
“are you waiting for the rainbow to show up..? Aksh..”muskurate hue meri maa mujhse puchhi...
“I didn’t do the homework and for that they punished me...”saaf jhooth bolte hue gaal fulakar maine apna chehra dusari taraf kar liya...
“or you are punishing yourelf for what your father did to us...?”
“why am I so weak and different , Mommy...”
“no.. no... Aksh”mujhe apne seene se chipkate hue meri maa boli “You’re not weak... if next time anyone call you weak... just show them, your strong muscles... ok and you are very special and special people always tend to be a bit different...”
“I Love you, Mommy....”
“I Love you too, Aksh....”
Meri maa mere sapno ke duniya ke andhkaar ko door karne wali roshani thi, jinka daaman pakad kar main bada hua... unke aanchal ne jab mujhe thand lagi toh grami pradan ki aur jab main khud se ya kisi baat se gussa hua toh unke aanchal ne mujhe sheetalta pradan ki....
Aur wo din bhi aaya jab meri maa Standford Center me apni aakhiri saanse le rahi thi aur fir wo pal bhi aaya jab unhone apni aakhiri saans li... main wahi unke paas baitha unhe dekhta raha , unke chale jaane ke ghanto baad room andar se lock karke wahi unke paas baitha raha aur tab tak baitha raha jab tak hospital staff ne gate todkar mujhe waha se door nahi kiya.... do hafte baad ISS ke liye mujhe ravaana hona tha par apni maa ko aise, is haalat me dekh maine apna naam wapas lene ka soch liya tha... lekin Meri maa ne apna jeewan hee tyaag kar mere sapno ko jaate-jaate bhi apna sahara de diya tha... main cheekh-cheekh kar roya toh nahi , par jab hospital staff mujhe meri maa se jabardasti door le jaa rahe the toh meri jubaan se sirf ek line....
“I Love You...... Mommy....”
Par aaj hamesha ki tarah dusari taraf se koyi jawab nahi aaya aur jaise hee maine ek aakhiri baar Mommy kaha, meri baanyi aankh se aansu ki ek boond apne aap nikal gayi.
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“who’s she....”mere screen me ek photo dekhkar Aurora mujhse puchhi...
“My Mommy... who devoted her life to me...”
Day-40 ~Spacewalk
“why are you so blue...?”
Finally wo din aaya , jiske liye main yaha aaya tha. Spacewalk. Aurora ne Nic ki bajay mujhe apne sath Spacewalk ke liye chuna tha . ISS ke Radiator-1 ki heat release karne ki capacity me complaint kayi din se thi aur aaj waha neeche se Center dwara clearance milne ke baad hum puri tarah taiyar the.
Spacewalk ke experience ko shabdo me bayan nahi kiya jaa sakta, matlab earth me jaha 60-70 miles per hour ki speed se drive karna illegal hota hai wahi Earth se itni door 17000 mph ki speed se chal rahe ISS ke bahar, jaha ek dust particle bhi yadi takra jaaye toh injured kar de... waha ye legal tha. Tether rope se khud ko attach karke Aurora ne hatch khola aur ISS se bahar nikli... uske peechhe-peechhe main bhi uske nakshe kadam par ISS se baahar aaya. Hum dono Radiator-1 ke paas pahuche. Jis latest EMV-X suit ki testing ke liye mujhe yaha bheja gaya tha, uski bajay main normal EMV suit me hee spacewalk par tha.. ye farman upar se hee aaya tha.. mera matlab neeche se. jiske kaaran main thoda udas bhi tha.
“why are you so blue...?”Cooling panel ke paas jaate hue Aurora mujhse puchhi...
“I’m fine...”
“you’re broken up over director for not letting you use the EMV-X..”
Aur main ek baar fir se shant ho gaya, isliye nahi ki mujhe baat-chit karna pasand nahi. balki isliye ki koyi insaan , kisi dusare insaan ki mansik sthiti ko itna kaise samajh sakta hai. Aurora ye kaise jaan gayi ? wo bhi is vishal empty space me tairte hue sirf mere chehre ke expression se...? is it that obvious...? shayad mujhe bhi dost banana chahiye tha. Tab shayad main ye samajh pata. Main sunglass ki chamkili layer pure helmet me chadhate hue muskuraya, jisse Aurora mere chehre ke expression ko naa dekh paaye... uske saamne toh ab sirf ek chamkili layer thi.
“I’ve seen your ISS demonstration videos on youtube..”
“really...? did you subscribe to my channel...?”
“yep... have you ever thought about the flat Earthers ? I mean... your videos are destroying their whole belief”
“well, they can pretend that they didn’t see that or they can tell themselves that, it’s all fake and CGI...”
Day- 53 ~The Kiss
“hey, Mr. A... you now hindi.... Right...? what does it mean... Lau..Laura kabal.. Laura ka baal...”
Mujhe bhale hee hee prithavi utni pyari naa ho lekin prithavi khud me ek miracle thi, ispe mujhe kabhi koyi aitraaz nahi raha. Lekin yaha zero gravity me us miracle ka extended version dekhne ko milta hai... kyunki yaha kisi bhi chiz ki koyi limit nahi thi.
“Mr. A tum aisa kar sktaaa kya....”mujhse hindi me baat karne ki koshish karte hue Nic bola aur ISS ke andar tair rahe water bubble ko apne muh se bahar nikal kar kuch der ke liye use hawa me tairne diya aur thodi der baad fir usi water bubble ko pura gatak kar ISS ke ceiling ki taraf upside down jump karte hue apni aankhe band kar li....
Zero gravity me rahne ka ek aur fayda ye hai ki hum bats ki tarah ISS ki chhat se ulta latak kar so sakte hai... par bats ki tarah sone se pahle Nic ne mujhse ek do sawal aur puchhe....jaise ki..
“hey, Mr. A... you now hindi.... Right...?”
“well, My Parents were Indians..”
“ what does it mean... Lau..Laura kabal.. Laura ka baal... an indian guy said it to me...”
“it means... you are handsome...”
Aurora ke demonstration Video me ab hum bhi aane lage the aur Nic ko kisi indian ne Laude ka baal kah diya tha... kyun kaha pata nahi.
“and what does it mean... Behan ka laure......?”
“it means.. your sister are handsome too... I mean.. beautiful.”
“oh... let me thank him. You Indians are so sweet...”
“yep.. we really are...”
Ye humara free time tha aur free time me main aksar ya fir kahu ki hamesha cupola ki khidkiyo se Earth ko dekhkar apni maa ko yaad kiya karta tha. Earth mujhe meri maa ki yaad dilati thi aur jab main apni maa ko earth se symbolize karta tha toh mujhe thoda bahut samajh aata ki hum earth ko Mother Earth kyun kahte hai... par fir bhi ...
“Aakash...? how much does it cost to send an astronaut to ISS...”Nic ke jaane ke baad Aurora waha aayi
“more than 50 Million dollars per astronaut , I guess...”
“so, sometimes I wonder why we spend that much money on Space Exploration when we have so many probems already on earth....? Have you...? ever.....? I mean.. more than 50 million dollar , that too for one person... yet we do it...”Aurora Cupola ki khidkiyo se bilkul satkar meri taraf apna chehra karke puchhi....
“we do it, because......... whenever a time comes where we have to leave the earth, we could ... that’s why ”
Aurora mera jawab sunkar bilkul chup ho gayi aur main toh waise bhi chup-chap rahne wala hee jeev tha... uska naa toh ye sawal galat tha aur naa hee mera ye jawab... usne wo puchha kyunki wo uske mann me tha aur maine ye kaha kyunki ye mere mann me tha. maine on the spot , on the moment jo jawab mere mann me aaya wo de diya... lekin mere us jawab ke baad Aurora mujhe kuch der ke liye dekhti rahi aur main uski aankho me ban rahe neele pratibimb ko... fir usne zero gravity me apne lahrate hue julfo ke sath apni aankhe band karke apna chehra meri taraf badhaya.. maine bhi waisa hee kiya. Maine bhi apni aankhe band ki aur apne honth uski taraf badhaya.... par
“hey, ,Mr. A .. do you know why Einstein was great....?”Nic wapas aaya
“no..”khud ko sambhalte hue maine apna chehra Aurora se turant door kiya...
“because his hair defied the gravity on earth...”
Kuch seconds lage mujhe ye samajhane me . Nic, Einstein ke photos me unke lahraate hue baal ki taraf ishaara kar raha tha , jisme unke baal waise hee lahrate the maano wo ISS me ho.
Day-70 ~EMV-X
“what do you like most about ISS, about being here...”Aurora mujhse puchhi...
Ammonia leakage ki problem ek baar fir se shuru ho gayi thi , jiske kaaran hum ek baar fir spacewalk pe the. Pahli baar jab main Spacewalk par Aurora ke sath aaya tha toh main nervous adhik aur excited kam tha lekin is baar ye equation bilkul ulti thi... abki main excited jyada tha , jiski ek vazah ye bhi thi ki main ordinary EMV spacesuit ki bajay EMV-X me tha. ordinary EMV me apne body ko fit karne ke liye jaha kayi ghante lagte hai, wahi EMV-X me ye kaam chand minutes me ho jaata hai. iske aalawa isme kamar ke paas Oxygen cylinder ke neeche extra thruster bhi laga tha... taki kabhi kisi accident ke kaaran yadi koyi astronaut ISS se door ho jaaye toh wapas ISS par aa sake. Ye kaam Ordinary EMV me chest ke paas laga SAFER bhi karta tha. par uski power EMV-X ke mukabale negligible thi.
Leakage ek baar fir Radiator-1 me hua tha, jiski repairing humne pahle ki thi, ye leakage itna jyada tha ki jis din ye leakage shuru hua uske kuch hee ghanto baad hume repairing ke liye, spacewalk pe jaana pada. Waise bhi ye Earth thodi hai, ye toh space hai... yaha zero gravity me bhala kya galat ho sakta hai. Empty space toh mera ghar hai. aisi meri maansikta thi.
Baat karu apni aur Aurora ki toh Nic ne baad me mujhe bataya tha ki us din cupola me humare beech jo kiss hote hote rah gaya uske liye wo bahut sharminda hai... uska kahna tha ki meri tarah Aurora ki bhi aankhe band thi aur uske honth meri taraf ahista ahista badh rahe the. Ab mujhe Nic bhi bhane laga hai. matlab ye bhi kitna ironical hai ki 7.5 billion ki abaadi waale grah me jaha pag-pag par jeewan vyapt hai, mujhe jeewan us-se door yaha is vacuum me mila, Jaha jeewan ka koyi naam-o-nishan tak nahi hai. Aurora aur maine uske baad naa toh kabhi us bare me koyi baat ki aur naa hee humare beech fir aisa koyi moment aaya... par ab hum aksar ek-dusare ki niji zindagi ke bare me sawal puchhte.. ek dusare ke sath aksar ISS me udte... Aurora ke kaaran ab mujhe Earth ki khoobsurati jo pahle bejaan si lagti thi, ab mera man moh leti thi...
“so, what do you like most about ISS... about being here.” Aurora ne apna sawal repeat kiya...
“no one could get bored here ... I mean, suppose.. you’re bored.. hell, no problem.. you can always go for a fly...like a superman...”
“I think... the question should have been.. who do you like most in ISS.. Right , Mis. A..?”Nic beech me bol pada, jo Radiator ke badhte temperature me ISS ke andar se nazar rakhe hue tha...
“just Shut up, Nic....”
Aurora ISS me ab sirf 20 din ki aur mehman thi... uske 6 mahine pure ho rahe the aur isi ke sath hee use prithavi par wapas lautna tha. mera vash chale toh main humare 6 mahine ke mission ko 6 saal me badal du ya fir 60 saal me... jab tak ki retirement ki age naa ho. par humari body sath nahi deti... mujhe Earth ko dekhkar wahi feeling aati hai jo dusare planet ko dekh kar ya fir sunkar.... mere liye Earth , is vast space ke samundar me tairta hua sirf ek khoobsurat pind hai... ghar toh ye ISS hai.
“leakage fixed... I think....”Aurora meri taraf dekh kar boli....
Jaise-jaise Aurora ke wapas jaane ke din najdeek aa rahe the, mere mann me ek sawal tha.. jo main usse yaha jaane se pahle hee puchh lena chahta tha... kyunki baad me mujhe bharosha nahi tha ki ye puchhne ka mauka mujhe milega bhi ya nahi.. isliye uske baaki bache 20 din pure hone ke pahle hee main ye sawal usse karna chahta tha. par mujhe wo shabd nahi mil rahe tha.. jo ki mere is sawal ko sawal ka roop de sake...
“Leakage fixed... Nic, check the Temperature parameter....”Aurora Radiator-1 se door hote hue boli...
“will you go to the Mars with me on Gateway Mission...?”aakhirkar maine puchh hee liya
Ye sawal tha toh bahut normal.... bahut normal.. atleast mere liye. par iska saaf-saaf matlab tha ki ...~ Aurora, will you marry me and will spend rest of your eternity with me wandering around the red planet ~...
Us bade se helmet ke peechhe Aurora ke chehre ke badalte expression ko main us vishal vacuum me bhi dekh sakta tha, par wo expressions positive the ya negative ... ye main nahi samajh paya. us waqt toh bilkul bhi nahi... itni samajh hee nahi thi mere andar. Aur fir.....
Nic: Leakage is not fixed.... I Repeat... Leakage is not fixed... Radiator-1 can not dissipate the heat any more...
Nick ki ye warning humne sun li thi par us samay hum dono ki situation aisi thi ki kuch samay lag gaya wo warning hume samajhne me... Aurora mujhe dekhti aur main use.... fir jab Nic ek aur baar chillaya tab Aurora ka dhyan toota, usne Radiator-1 ki taraf dekha... jaha se ammonia gas ki steam Radiator se bahar aate hue saaf dikh rahi thi aur fir ek halki si lau bhi....
“Zvezda Module gonna explode.... Aksh, I need you to go inside the Zvezda module and break all the connection with the Radiator-1...”
“I think, it’s too late...for that...”Nic bola...
“I think that, too... the only way to overcame this situation is repair the leak or bomb the Radiator-1... manually...”
“just go inside of freaking Zvezda Module and break all the connection with Radiator-1. now go... what are you staring at.... do not be dumb, just fucking go... right now... just gooooo”
Meri saari practice, saari study, saari samajh Aurora ke is instruction ke khilaf thi... par jab usne is tarah se mujh par dabav banaya toh.... waise bhi Zvezda module hee aisa ISS ka part tha jaha station ki life support systems aur backup fuel stored tha. Radiator-1 , Zvezda module ki radiation se generate hone wale heat ko control karta tha. par ab wo heat kam karne ke bajay , adhik kar raha tha... jisse life support system fail ho sakte the, store fuel explode ho sakta tha... ab sirf do raaste the yaa toh leakage ko wapas fix kiya jaaye ya fir Radiator ko manually explode kiya jaaye taki Zvezda Module fail naa ho... hume prithavi par sikhaya bhi yahi gaya tha, VR simulation me.
“Fucking go.....i will try to fix the leakage...”Aurora ek baar fir helmet ke andar se cheekhi....
Aur main Zvezda module ki taraf badha...
“Nic, Switch off Aurora’s mic....”
Aurora: what.. why..Nooo...”
Nic: it’s off, Mr. A...”
“what’s your opinion... what should I do...”
Nic: leakage can not be fixed... it’s too late... Manual explosion is our only way...”
“connect her...”
Nic: she’s on line...”
Aurora Radiator-1 se nikal rahi steam ki oor badh rahi thi.
“Aurora, do not ... Aurora... please....”
Aurora: I am doing what should I do, Aksh.... It’s not about you and me... it’s about the.....”
Nic: She is not trying to fix the leakage but ....
Aurora: You’re right, Nic. I’m gonna Bomb the Radiator-1. Standard Procedure. I just needed to get Aakash away from the explosion area. Testing EMV-X is most important for the Agency, so are you and Aakash...”
“Aurora... Listen to me... You can’t do iiittt...”
Nic: What the fffff
Jiske baad Zvezda Module ka hatch pakade hue mujhe aag ki lapte dikhayi di aur un aag ke lapto me samata Raadiator-1. us explosion ke kaaran ISS buri tarah Vibrate hua aur main Zvezda Module ke hatch se jor se takraya... par Aurora.... Aurora explosion ke bilkul karib thi... infact usi ne ye explosion initiate kiya tha...
“thrust cylinder leaked..... Nic...”
“Nic...?”
Nic: my head is bleeding....
“where is Aurora, Nic”
Nic: She is....oh god...”
Aurora ke dwara kiye gaye Explosion ke kaaran tether rope toot kar tukdo me tabdil ho gaya tha aur explosion ke kaaran jo thrust generate hua uska impact itna jyada tha ki wo ISS se door prithavi ki oor pushed hui... par wo neeche nahi gir rahi thi , balki ISS ki tarah hee ISS se door apne hee ek orbit me Prithavi ke charo oor ghoom rahi thi..... Nic ne jab mujhe ye bataya toh , peechhe mudkar maine Aurora ko dekha aur use ISS se door dekh turant EMV-X ka main thruster on kiya..
Nic: Aakash..? what are you doing...?
“testing the EMV-X...”
Nic: Your Thruster has leakage... you won’t be able to...
“just guide me through all of this....”Thruster on karke khud ko tether rope se detach kar main Aurora ki oor khud ko push kiya....
Nic: you can’t do it... she is at the end of zero gravity orbit. Your thrusters will push you beyond that towards The Earth... You can’t do it , A...”
“I have to....”
Aurora ISS ke parallel hee dusare orbit me thi... mera us tak pahuchna jitna mushqil tha usse bhi jyada, use lekar ISS ko wapas pakadna... upar se thruster bhi leak ho chuka tha... neeche prithavi par VR Simulation me maine kayi baar ye kiya tha.. lekin aksar Thruster ki power jyada hone par, mera khud par control nahi rahta tha aur main apne aim ke aage nikal jaata tha... lekin aaj ye option nahi tha. aaj ye nahi hona chahiye tha. isliye main thruster sirf thodi-thodi der ke on karke khud ko Aurora ki taraf halka push karta ... maine aisa kayi baar kiya aur jab mujhe laga ki iske baad main aage nikal jaunga yaani, toh thruster band kar diya
“she is not awake.....?”
Nic: her helmet is depressurized.... She may be dead already. Mr. A, come back to ISS....
Nic: Mr. A, our mission is beyond her life... do not boost your thrusters... Mr. A, please do not boost your main thruster. It will push you beyond the Zero Gravity Space. Earth’s Gravity will burn you alive...
“How far is she from me....”
Nic: 20 ...
“and now...”Turant thruster on karke off karke maine khud ko Aurora ki oor push kiya....
“it’s 8... no.. 7... Mr. A, please do not boost your thruster....”
Maine apna hath Aurora ki taraf kiya... Aurora mera hath pakad leti yadi wo hosh me hoti ... maine bahut koshish ki, apne sharir ki puri taqat jhok di bina thruster on kiye khud ko Aurora ki taraf push karne ki... lekin wo ab bhi door thi...
Nic: SAAAFEERRRRR.....
“SAFER...?”
Nic: It has low boosting power....
SAFER....? yes... main apne ek hath ko dheere-dheere apne chest ki taraf le gaya aur spacesuit me seene ke beecho-beech lage SAFER ko boost kiya , jiske kaaran main fir Aurora ki taraf push hua.... Aurora stable nahi thi... wo apne aap me hee bahut tej gati se gol-gol ghoom rahi thi..
Nic: six... five... four... three... two.... off your SAFER.
Aurora ab meri pahuch me thi , par wo itni tej gati se gol-gol ghoom rahi thi ki uska hath jo meri pakad me aa raha tha, wo turant uske round-round ghumne ke kaaran chhut jaata... kuch der tak aise hee kabhi Aurora ka hath ek pal ke liye mujhse touch hota, toh kabhi uska helmet toh kabhi uske sharir ka koyi aur hissa....
“I can’t hold her...”
Nic: Do not.....
Aurora ko aim karke Maine SAFER ko fir se halka boost kiya aur seedhe usse jaa takraya aur turant EMV-X ke main thruster ko on Karke ISS ki oor muda...
Aurora ka hath maine apne ek hath se pakda aur apne dusare hath se EMV-X ka thruster boost kiya. lekin ab ISS ko pakadne bahut mushqil tha. Maine Thruster on kiya aur khud Aurora ko pakad kar ISS ki oor badha.....
“how much power left, Nic...”
Nic: 20 %... 18... 15... Leakage is becoming wide...
Nic: 10 %
Nic: come on, come onnnnn.... Mr. A
par Thrusters beech me band ho gaye aur fir ek jhatke se main , Aurora ke sath wapas ISS se door jaane laga... main thruster band hote hee maine chest ke paas SAFER ko bhi boost kiya, jisne kuch doori tak fir se mujhe ISS ki oor push kiya... par thodi der baad wo bhi band ho gaya... SAFER ke band hote hee main samajh gaya ki ye mera ant hai, ye humara ant hai. maine apni aankhe surya ke kshitiz me dekhte hue dheere-dheere band ki aur ek hath ISS ki taraf badha kar, apne ant ko swikar kar liya....
Mujhe maloom tha ki ab main apni aankhe band karke agli baar jab kholunga toh... toh saamne meri maa mujhe dikhayi degi aur shayad... Aurora bhi. maine us pal SAFER ke band hote hee is sach ko swikar kar liya tha aur mujhe koyi malaal bhi nahi tha. bas mere kuch sawal mere sath hee is empty space me dafan ho rahe the... mujhe Aurora ka spacewalk ke dauran muskurata hua chehra dikhayi diya aur usse Mars Gateway mission me apne sath chalne ke liye puchhta hua main... uska jawab kya hota...? par ab in sab ka koyi matlab nahi tha.... maine Aurora ka ek hath pakde hue khud ko ISS se door jaata mahsoos kiya... kyunki meri body me badhti hui disturbance mujhe iska aabhas kara rahi thi . par mujhe khushi bhi thi ki agli baar jab main apni aankhe kholunga toh mujhe meri Maa dikhayi degi.. muskurate hue, mera intezaar karte hue, apna hath mujhe pakadne ke liye aage badhate hue... maine khud ko is waqt us baarish me, bheegta hua, us school ke us bench par paya... bas intezaar tha toh sirf meri maa ka... jo waha thodi der baad aur usne mera hath bhi pakda... mujhe iska jab aabhas hua toh maine apni aankhe kholi....
aur jab maine apni apni aankhe kholi toh saamne meri maa nahi balki Nic tha.. wo bhi EMV-X me. Jiske thrusters fully charged the, Without any leakage. Usne mera hath kaskar pakda aur mujhe, Aurora ke sath ISS ki taraf le jaane laga....
Nic ne seedhe medical module ka hatch khola aur hume andar le gaya... Aurora ka helmet crack hone ke kaaran depressurized ho gaya tha... wo behosh thi aur CPR dene ki condition me naa toh main tha aur naa hee Nic + radiation ka bhi khatra tha. isliye Nic ne Aurora ko destiny lab me seal kar diya aur JIN Aurora ko hosh me laaya....
Day-78 ~Aftermath
Ek saptaah beet chukka hai jab humara Radiator-1 explode hua tha aur Radiator-1 ke explode hone ke baad ab Ammonia leakage ki bhi koyi problem nahi hai. Zvezda module Radiator-2 se connect kiya jaa chuka hai. lekin Aurora... wo ab pahle ki tarah nahi hai... uske chehre ka rang har beet-te samay ke sath badal raha hai.... wo ab puri tarah hosh me hai par most of the time... apni aankhe band kiye hue Destiny lab me sealed yaa toh leti rahti hai ya fir ... ya fir... sach me soti rahti hai... main us-se baat kar sakta hoon, use dekh sakta hoon. Par uske paas nahi jaa sakta, Radiation ke dar se use chhu nahi sakta. Aisa upar se order aaya hua hai , mera matlab neeche se. kabhi-kabhi baat karte hue uski jubaan bhi ladkhadane lagti hai. JIN din me do baar Aurora ki report Space Center bhejta hai aur Space Center ki mane toh Aurora ki haalat me koyi sudhar nahi hai aur Radiation ke kaaran din-ba-din uski haalat bigadti jaa rahi hai
Par ye radiation nahi hai, puri tarah nahi... kyunki ye yadi Radiation hota toh Aurora itne din tak zinda nahi rahti. Wo kabhi-kabhi mujhse baat karti hai. par jyada der ke liye nahi... this is fucking disturbing... I’m signing out.
Day-85: ~Yes...?
Ab khali samay milne par main Cupola ki khidkiyo se earth ka nazara nahi dekhta , balki har pal Aurora par nazar rakhe rahta hoon. Uski sharir me yadi ek bhi harkat hoti hai toh main hil jaata hoon. Wo yaha nahi bach payegi... use jald se jald prithavi par wapas bhejna hoga.
Pure do hafte lage us explosion ke baad Space Center ko Soyuz ko ISS ke liye taiyar karne me.... aur aaj Soyuz , Aurora ke liye aa raha tha. Pilot is baar bhi Omar hee tha. Soyuz me ek alag vyavstha ki gayi thi Aurora ko rakhne ke liye, jo ki sealed tha... taaki bakiyo par Radiation ka koyi asar na pade. Aurora ke sath, Nic bhi wapas jaa raha tha, lekin mere liye yahi rukne ka aadesh tha. unhe EMV-X ki further testing ke liye koyi ISS me chahiye tha. itna kharcha jo kiya tha aur EMV-X Mars Spaace Station~ Gateway se related bhi tha aur maine khud ko enroll bhi kiya tha Mars Mission ke liye... isliye main unke liye perfect candidate tha.
jab Aurora ko Soyuz me le jaaya jaa raha tha toh Aurora hosh me nahi thi par ghuti hui aawaz me lagatar kuch bole jaa rahi thi... uski is awaz me kisi ne dhyan nahi diya .. maine khud ne bhi nahi, par fir se jab Aurora ke sharir me harkat hui toh....
“yes...”mujhe sirf itna sunayi diya...
Nic: is she talking to you...?
“yes.. I will spend.... the rest of..... my eternity.... with you.... around the Red Planet.... yes , Aakash... I will....Spend .. the rest o.... iiii Love you... I am sorry”
Kahna toh main bhi bahut kuch chahta tha, par main jo kuch bhi kahta wo Aurora ke kaano tak nahi pahuchta... wo is samay kuch bhi bole jaa rahi thi... isliye main chup hee raha. Soyuz 2:12 AM ko Aurora ko lekar ISS se launch hua aur 5:30 AM ko Soyuz ka main Parachute emerge hua....
“She’s not responding... She’s not responding... She’s no more....”
Jab Soyuz earth par land hua toh ye aawaz mere kaano me padi aur maine turant line disconeect kar diya.....
Day-100 ~The Kiss-2
“Line is Private now, Sir... you can talk to Mr. Aakash....”
“Really...? No one can hear us..? ok.. thanks... hey, Mr. A. it’s Nic... how is the Weather up there....”
“it’s raining flowers today. Why did you call me...?” Maine rukhe mann se kaha... ab main fir se wahi ban chuka tha.. jo main pahle tha.
“because I wanted to...”
“anything else...?”line disconnect karne kke liye maine apna hath aage uthaya
“they released her body and today is her funeral... is there anything you want to say to her... I will say on your behalf...”
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14 din ho chuke hai, par mere kaano me ab bhi wo shabd gunjte hai, infact is samay bhi gunj rahe hai... jo Aurora ne yaha se jaate waqt mujhse kaha tha. par uske agle hee pal mujhe wo shabd bhi sunayi dete jab Soyuz Earth par land hua tha....
“She’s motionless... I’m seeing dark-blue patches on her face. There is some blood coming out of her nose and ears. She is not responding... I repeat... she’s not responding...”
Hum sab yahi maan rahe the ki Aurora ki jo halat hui wo radiation ke kaaran thi, lekin jab Earth me uska test hua.. mera matlab... uski dead body ka ... toh... pata chala ki use prion protein namak koyi bimari ho gayi thi. Ye bimari genetic hoti hai aur rare me bhi rare type ki bimari thi. Jiske genes Radiator-1 ke explosion ke dauran jab Aurora Radiation ke contact me thodi der ke liye aayi toh activate ho gaye the. Ise detect nahi kiya jaa sakta aur naa hee iska koyi ilaaz hai . Aurora ki maut landing ke dauran dum ghutne se hui... matlab landing ke dauran ek-ek pal.... ghut-ghut ke... jab ek gorilla jitna weight chest par feel hota hai, usne apna dum tod diya.
“something was preventing her from breathing, her hands were on her head . her body was still warm when doctor gave her artificial respiration but she never woke up... Mr. A. Post mortem report also indicates brain haemorrhaging with lesser amount of bleeding...”jab main kuch nahi bola toh Nic dusari taraf se bola.... “you want to say something to her Mr. A , I will say on yourrr....”
“just say... iiii... will wait for her on the Red Planet and she owes me a.. a... cupola kiss...”
Day-121 ~A LONER
“Aakash to Space Center-1... Spacewalk-3... copy...”
“Please proceed......”
Kuch din lage mujhe wapas pahle ki tarah emotionless banne me aur ab jab Aurora hee nahi rahi toh empty space ke liye mera pyaar fir se jaag gaya. Main fir se usi masikta ka shikar tha, jis mansikta ke sath main yaha aaya tha. jo ki prithavi se door football ke ground jitney bade Internation Space Station me akele rahne ke liye jaroori bhi tha.
By the way, I have always loved the empty space more than anything in this cursed life and after Aurora , this is the only thing I want to see, I want to know or I want to feel....
“Day 121... Spacewalk-3... Aakash to Space Center-1... EMV-X Testing... No Pressure leakage.. Thrusters fully loaded and working fine... SAFER is loaded and it seems good too... though I won’t need it this time. Detaching the Tether Rope.... Tether rope detached... I’m on my own... Aakash to Space Center-1 & 2... Spacewalk-3... copy...”
“Please proceed... what is the code Name...”
ISS ki truss se neeche vishal aur kabhi na khatm hone waale andhkkaar me ulta girte hue maine apni aankhe band ki aur bola....
“A..... LONER...”
Ek baat me lekhak mahoday se puchna chahta hu ki kya maja aata hai har story ka sad end kar ke, nahi dikkat kya hai, pehle ki 8 semester, shivam or kuch short stories hi dekhlo usme bhi hero ke aas paas ke sab last me gayab ho jaate hai reh jaata hai sirf hamara hero A..... LONER 
story shuru me thodi si slow lagi but dheere dheere flow badne laga jese aurora ki akash ki baat bina kahe samaj jaana, spacewalk, or fir akash ka mars mission ke liye puchna (propose karna) ek romantic story type lag rahi thi lekin Yug Purush bhau ko toh romantic happy ending se sakt nafrat lagti hai
isme bhi heroine tapka di, story bole toh ek dum rapchik thi bole toh apne ko vese hi space related saari topics pasand aate hai toh ye story padke bhi utna hi maja aaya, vese is plot ke upar ek badi story likhi ja sakti hai kya kehte hai 
story shuru me thodi si slow lagi but dheere dheere flow badne laga jese aurora ki akash ki baat bina kahe samaj jaana, spacewalk, or fir akash ka mars mission ke liye puchna (propose karna) ek romantic story type lag rahi thi lekin Yug Purush bhau ko toh romantic happy ending se sakt nafrat lagti hai
isme bhi heroine tapka di, story bole toh ek dum rapchik thi bole toh apne ko vese hi space related saari topics pasand aate hai toh ye story padke bhi utna hi maja aaya, vese is plot ke upar ek badi story likhi ja sakti hai kya kehte hai
