Update 38
(Varsha's dairy continue)
Ganv se aaye bhot din ho Gaye the... Ab muje viswas ki yaad aane lagi thi..
Lekin jis tarah se uski yandein aati thi.. Vo feeling mere liye anjan thi..
Itna to smj gayi thi.. Ki Jo feeling mere aandar he viswas ke liye vo Bhai vali to bilkul nahi lagti thi.. Aur Jo feeling thi usko jaanna mere bas me nahi tha..
Aaj Mai ghar ke najdik vale park me aayi thi..vese to harroj yaha aati thi..lekin subah..
Aaj pahli baar saam ko aayi thi..abhi aaye thodi hi der huyi thi ek couple ko dekha Jo hatho me hath liye chalte huye meri side se aandar ki Aur ja rahe the...
Aesa bhi nahi tha ki mene garden me pahli baar kisi couple ko dekha tha.. Harroj dekhti thi..
Lekin harroj us taraf dekhke andekha kar deti thi...
Pata nahi aaj unko dhyan se dil ki gahrayi se dekh rahi thi..
Anjane me hi aankh band karke us couple ki jagah khud ko Aur viswas ko dekh rahi thi..
Aur isi baat se dil me Jo sukun mil raha tha vo smjpana mere aasan nahi tha..
Lekin aaj jese khud KO pure hone ka ahsas ho raha tha..
Ab usi ahsas ke sath jine lagi thi me.. Lekin jab suna ki Jo me mahsus karti hu.. Usko ye samaj ye duniya yaha tak ki har ek insan galat manta he..Aur usko paap kahte he..pura samaj usko ghrinna ki najar se dekhta he...
Us waqt aesa laga khud ko khatam kar du.. Aur isko aapne aap ka jimmedar manne lagi...
Kya karu?? Aur kya nahi???? Kus smj nahi aa raha tha..nahi aapne dil ko smja pa rahi thi nahi aapne dimag KO... Dil me pyar tha.. Aur pyar ko mtana aasan nahi tha..qki ye pyar to kabka hi tha mere dil me bs smjne me der kardi thi..Aur ab pise mudna mere liye aashambhav tha.. Lekin dimag galat kah raha tha..Jo hamesha yahi kahta tha ki abhi bhi waqt he sambhlja...
Isi ulzan me thi ki usi waqt viswas mere samne aa gaya... Aur Jo pyar dil me tha.. Vo aapne aap bahar aane laga.. Badi muskil se khud par Aur dil par kabu kar rahi thi..iske chalte me uske samne bhi nahi jati thi.. Jyadatar waqt me aapne dosto ke yaha study karne ke bahane se ruk jati jisse humara aamna-samna n ho.. Aur kabhi jab vo samne aata to usko ignore kar deti thi. Ek tarah se dar rahi thi ki agar uske nazdik gayi to mera dil meri nahi sunega.. Aur us waqt kahi mene dil ki sunli to..
Is to me bahut bada aanarth ho Jaye ga... Aur pura parivaar bikhar Jaye ga...
Isliye mene faisla liya ki sabse dur chali jaungi... Janti thi ki isse sach badal nahi jayega.. Lekin sach ko rok jarur sakti thi..
Isliye mene Mummy Aur papa se baat ki..badi muskil se manaya mene.. Aakhirkar unhone bhi har mankar muje Jane ke liye permission dedi..
Vaha jakar bhi bhul nahi payi..balki mera Jo pyar to vo Aur bhi badh gaya.. Harroj usko dekhne ka dil karta tha...Aur har din raat uski yandon me aanshu bahati thi... Iske chalte mera koi dost nahi bana... Sirf ek hi dost tha Rahul...lekin usse bhi dur rahne lagi thi..jese khud KO khud me hi kaid kar liya tha...
Aur fir aaya vo manhus din...
(Note:- Jo feeling he vahi samne rakhi he..baki bato ko skip kar diya he.. Qki uska koi matlb nahi.. Aur is manhus din ka zikar flashback me hoga..)
Us manhus din 10 din baad me ganv gayai..
Vaha guruji se mili..
(Vaha unse meri Jo bhi bate huyi vo waqt par aapko pata chal Jaye ga.)
Vaha se aane ke baad mene viswas ko dhundhna suru kar diya... Harroj me usko dhundhne ki har mumkin kosis karti.. Jaha bhi lagta ki vaha hoga us har jagah me jati..
Lekin har jagah se khali hath aana padta..lekin fir bhi mene himmat nahi hari..
Aese hi ek din meri mulaqat Rudra se huyi.. Jisko dekkar aesa lagta ki mere pass mera viswas khada he...uske aane ke bad mujme change aane lage..
Jo ladki hasna aur khush rahna bhul gayi thi..vo ladki khush rahne magi...pahli baar mene kissi se dil se dosti ki thi...muje Jo hamesha viswas ki kami lagti thi vo ab nahi lagti thi.. Kahi n kahi usme muje aapne viswas ki zalak dikhti thi...
Bs aantar tha to chahere ka.... Aur dusra dono ki soch alag thi..
Aesa nahi tha ki puri tarah se soch alag thi... Bs kush bato me viswas Rudra se upar tha...
Aur vese bhi mere viswas jesa koi nahi ho sakta..
Meri Aur Rudra ki mulakat badhti gayi. Aur humari dosti Aur gahri hoti gayi..
Aaj Rudra ne muje purpose kiya...pata nahi q usko na kahte huye mere dil me ek tarah ka dard hone laga..
Aesa hi dard tab hota tha jab mera viswas mere paas hote huye bhi dur hota tha..
Na kahne ke baad muje laga kahi Rudra meri dosti bhi Tod dega... Aur us soch ke aate hi pata nahi bhut dukh ho raha tha..
Lekin jab usne aapni dosti banayi rakhi tab dil me ek khushi ki tarang laher uthi... Aur usne mujse bhi vada bhi kiya ki vo mujse mere pyar se milayega...
Lekin ab dar lagta he..jab usko pata chalega ki me jisse pyar karti hu vo koi Aur nahi balki mera hi chota Bhai he...
Tab bhi mujse dosti kayam rakhega.. Ya fir Tod dega??
Is sawal ka jawab to mere paas filhal nahi he.? Bs ek hi dua he nahi me aapna pyar viswas ko khona chahti hu nahi aapne dost Rudra ki dosti..
Baki duniya ki ab to na muje fikar he nahi koi dar.. Bs ye dono mere sath hamesha rahe..yahi meri khwahish he..
(Varsha's dairy end)
Present...
Priya aapne room se nikalkar Varsha ke room me jati he ..
Aur door knock karti he...
Varsha... Door khula he aa jao!!
Priya aandar jaati he..
Varsha..(priya ko dekh) piyu tu yaha is waqt???
Priya...q me aapni didi se Milne nahi aa sakti???
Varsha...mene aesa to nahi kaha!! Lekin is waqt??
Priya...aapse kus bate karni thi!
Varsha...isme kya he..(priya ka hath pakadkar) Yaha betho.. Vese bhi bhot waqt se humdono ne ekdusre ke sath waqt hi nahi bitaya.. Isi bahane sath waqt bita lenge...
Priya...ha vo to sach he didi!! Aap office me pura din busy rahti ho Aur me aapni study me..
Varsha... Office ka kaam to dekhana hi padega.. Varna mom akeli itna bada kaam kese sambhalegi... Aur vese bhi bacho ka kaam hi he bado ki madad Karna...
Priya...koi baat nahi didi jab meri study complete ho jayegi.. Me bhi kaam me aapka hath bant diya karungi..
Varsha...tu to humari pyari rajkumari he..Aur rajkumari ki tarah hi rankhenge.. Tuje to bilkul kaam nahi karne denge..
Priya...fir bina kaam ke kya karungi???
Varsha...life ko enjoy Karna Aur kya??
Priya...chalo vo badme dekhte he... Kya me aapse kus pus sakti hu???
Varsha...tuje permission ki jarurat nahi he piyu tu Jo bhi pusna chahti he bekhuf pus sakti he...
Priya...Aur uska jawab me sach hi kahogi n????
Varsha...tujse mene kab juth bola Jo aese sawal kar rahi he!!
Priya...aaj tak to nahi bola...lekin aaj sayad juth bolo to?
Varsha...(man me) aesa kya pusna he Jo piyu aesi baat kar rahi he...
Varsha...aese kaunse sawal he tere???
Priya...pahle meri kasam khayiye ki Jo me aapko pusungi uska jawab aap sach hi degi!!
Varsha..(bina kus soche) thik he teri kasam Jo bhi tu sawal karegi uska me sahi jawab dungi...
Priya turant viswas ka letter Varsha ke hath me de deti he...
Varsha jese hi letter dekhti he to usko zatka lag jata he...
Varsha...(man me) ye..... Ye.... Letter priya ke pass kese??? Ye to meri dairy me tha... Mtlb meri dairy?????
Varsha turunt uthke khadi hoti he Aur aapna cupboard kholne vali hoti he ki ..
Priya....didi kahi(dairy samne kar) ise to nahi dhundh rahi???
Aur jese hi Varsha KO priya hath me dairy dekhti he to uska Sara sarir kampan karne lagta he.. Uska sarir uska sath sod raha ho aesa lag raha tho..uske panv dagmaga rahe the...
Vo girne hi vali thi ki priya aake usko sambhal leti he..
Aur usko thamkar vapas bed par bitha deti he... Aur side rakhe pani jug se gilas bhar ke Varsha pani pilati he..
Jisse vo thodi sant ho Jaye...
Priya...didi pani pilo..
Varsha sawaliya najro se priya ki Aur dekhne lagti he..
Priya...pahle pani pilo..Aur thoda sant ho jayiye fir baat karte he...
Varsha badi muskil se pani piti he Aur khud ko sant karne lagti he...
Aadhe ghante tak dono me se koi kus nahi bolta..
Fir na chahte huye Varsha hi baat ki suruast karti he...
Varsha...tumne puri dairy padhli???
Priya...hmmmmm
Varsha...(letter dikhte huye) tab tum viswas kaun he jaan chuki higi???
Priya....ha
Varsha....tum mujse nafrat karne lagi hogi???
Priya... Q??? Q karu me aapse nafrat???
Varsha...qki mene risto ki maryada todi he... Me us insan se pyar kar bethi Jo riste me mera bhai he..Aur jise ye log Aur ye samaj galat Aur paap kahta he...
Priya...kisne kaha aapne paap kiya he??? Aapne to sirf pyar kiya he didi!! Aur pyar ko kabse log paap manne lage!
Varsha...lekin log Aur samaj ki najar me ye paap he..yaha tak ki mom Aur dad ki najar me bhi...
Priya...ab ye sab q soch rahi ho??? Jab pyar kiya tab to aapne nahi socha!!
Varsha...me sirf ye janna chahti hu ki tum kya kahti ho??
Priya...mere kahne se kus fark padega... ????
Abhi Varsha kus bolti
Priya...nahi padega... Aur nahi padna chahiye... Qki ye aapki life he.. Aur har ek ko aapni life aapni taraf se jine ka haq he.. Bs meri aapse ek request he??? Manogi app??
Varsha...Kya????
Priya...(rote huye)viswas Bhai ko vo har khushi Dena Jo unko nahi mili.. Aur unko yaha se bhot dur leke chali Jana!!! Jaha koi aapko n janta ho!
Bs ekbaar unko mujse milva Dena!!
Varsha bhi rone lagti he Aur vo rote huye priya ko gale laga leti he...
Varsha...pata he vo sabse jyada pyar tujse karta tha... Qki jab mom-dad Aur yaha tak ke me bhi jab usse nafrat karti thi ek tum thi jisne usko pyar diya...
Priya...pata nahi kab vo vapas mere paas aayenge... Muje to unka chahera bhi yaad nahi...
Varsha...(alag hoke) kya tum dekhna chahti ho???
Priya...aapke paas he unki photo???
Varsha...ha uske janamdin par tum dono ki sath li huyi photo he mere pass!!
Vese to bhot photos he lekin vo Jo band room he usme he...
qki vo uska room tha...
Priya...mtlb vo band kamra Bhai ka he??
Varsha... Ha
Priya...aesa kya hua tha ki vo hum sub ko sodkar chale Gaye.??? Aur meri yaddast kese gayi thi didi???
Varsha...vo q sodkar chala gaya uski vajah to nahi malum!!! Aur tumhari yaddast ke bare me bhi jyada nahi pata..
Varsha...papa ke mutabik tumhara,viswas Aur Dada-dadi ka accident ho gaya tha...
usme hi Dada-dadi ki maut ho gayi Aur usi accident me tumhare dimag par huyi chot ke karan hi tumhari yaddast gayi thi...
Baki muje nahi pata.. Qki me accident hua tab bahar thi..
Fir varsha photo nikalkar priya ko dikhati he..
Jise dekhke na chahte huye bhi priya ki aankho se aanshu bahne lagte he...
Priya...didi kya ye photo me rakh sakti hu??? Plz....
Varsha...thik he...
Priya...tnx didi.... Aap duniya ki sabse achi didi ho!!!
Varsha....pagal .. Aapni didi ko tnx bolti he... Aur vese bhi viswas pe sabse jyada haq tumhara he..
Priya.. OK didi..
Aur vo photo leker kamre se bahar ki Aur Jane ko hoti ki vapas mudkar..
Priya....didi ek Aur sawal he mere dimag me!! Kya pus sakti he???
Varsha...abhi thodi der pahle kya kaha tha!!? Ki tum behichak pus sakti ho Jo pusna chahti ho!
Priya...didi aap viswas Bhai se pyar karti ho to Rudra Bhai ka naam q liya???
Varsha....vo meri majburi thi...varna dad mera rista Rahul se tay kar dete...
Priya...fir bhi Rudra Bhai ka naam q????
Varsha... Qki muje uspar yakin he vo meri madad kar sakta he..Aur usne muje vada bhi kiya he.. Ki vo meri madad jarur karega.. Aur jaha tak me janti hu to vo aapna vada nibhane ke liye vo meri har mumkin madad karega...
Priya...Rahul to aapka bachpan ka dost he.. Vo bhi to aapki madad kar sakta he..
Varsha...pata nahi q piyu jab bhi mene bhi socha tha ki vo meri madad karega... Lekin us par me kabhi aapna yakin nahi kar payi us par...
Priya...Rahul aapka dost he fir bhi us par aapko yakin nahi... Jisko aap kus Dino se janti ho us par itna yakin???
Varsha... Iska ahsas to muje bhi nahi he... Lekin muje mere dil ne kaha ki Rudra meri madad jarur karega...
Aur Rahul ke waqt har baar mera dil mujko ROK deta tha...
Priya.... Ha vo to he... Vese muje bhi Rahul bilkul acha nahi lagta.. Usko dekhkar hi muje gussa aa jata he...
Varsha...tum bhi kus bhi bolti ho... Ab Jake aapne room me so ja... Yaha abhi bhi tere sawal baki he...
Priya...nahi di ab koi sawal nahi he... Fir bhi aaj me aapke pass sona chahti hu.. Kya yaha so saktihu aapke pass!
Varsha...thik he aaja...
(Note:- 3 update ke baad fir se flashback suru ho Jaye ga Aur aapke sare sawalo ke jawab bhi mil jayenge... Fir kahani sirf hero Aur villain ke bich hi chalegi..)