Update ::: 30
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saalon takk jo raah mujhe nahi dikhi thi.. wo abb dikh chuki thi.. jis manzil ko paane ke liye main salon se tadap raha tha.. us manzil ko paane k liye mujhe raatsa dikhne laga tha.. mere liye khud par kaabu pana asaan nahi raha tha..
kaabu rehta bhi kaise, maine to kabhi socha bhi nahi tha.. mai bhikari maa ka beta nahi hon, zillat bhari zindagi thi, dard tha, torture tha, lekin shanakht to thi.. laa-warsi ka leble to nahi chipka hua tha mere mathe...
fir maa ne mujhe bataya k main unka beta nahi hon, mera bhikair khandan se koi connection nahi hai... main kisi aur ka beta hon, maa mujhe kuch bataye bina hi is dunya se chali gai thi.. khud ko dhundne k liye mere paas koi raasta takk nahi tha.. itna waqt guzar chuka tha, abb jaa k kuch aisa mila tha, jisse main apni talash me nikal sakta tha.. meri halat kharab na hoti to aur kya hota..
meri halat badalne lagi to renu ne mujhe apni bahun me bhar kar apne gale se laga liya tha.. renu ke badan ki khushbu ne mujhe dheere dheere shaant karna shuru kar diya tha.. renu mere sarr ko sehlane lagi thi..
main ankhen band kiye yaadon me gumm tha,. renu ki khusbhu mere andar utri to meri halat me hbi kuch sudhar aane laga..
baba:- kya hua raja beta.. achanak se tum badal kaise gaye ho..
baba ki awaz sun kar maine apni ankhen kholen. aur baba ko dekhne laga.. baba mere paas aa gaye the.. maine nazar ghuma kar sabb ko dekha to sabb hairat bhari nazron se mujhe hi dekh rahe the.
maine zaheer ki taraf dekha to wo niche chataai par behosh pada hua tha..
main renu se alag hua..
raja:- kuch nahi baba, maa yaad aa gayi thi.. to yaadon me bohut aage nikal gaya.....
baba aur tahir baig ne mere kandhe par hath rakh diya.. main betha to chacha ji k pass hi tha.. mujhse baaten karte karte wo zaheer ko dekhne lage the, isliye pehle wo meri badli hui halat ko dekh nahi sake the..
baba:- raja beta, hota rehta hai aisa bhi kabhi kabhi.. apne kabhi bhulte bhi nahi to nahi han..baar baar yaad to aate hi rahenge.. parr aise achanak se kaise sabb yaad a gaya..
raja:- baba chachi ko dekh kar, zaheer ke liye unki tadap dekh kar mujhe bhi apni maa yaad aa gai thi....
meri baat sun kar zaheer ki maa ne mere sarr par apna hath rakh diya..
z maa:- raja beta, tum bhi to mere bete hi ho naa, jaise zaheer hai, vaise hi tum bhi mere bete ho..
chacha:- haan raja beta. tum koi gham matt karo, hume apna hi maano... hum kabhi tumse koi farq nahi karenge..
laiba:- haan bhai, aajse mere do bhai han...
raja:- anju koi churi to lana..
renu:- raja churi kaa kya karne wale ho..
raja:- renu mujhe lagta hai.. mere baazo par jo ye taweez bandha hua hai.. mujhe lagta hia isme kuch aisa hai jo mujhe meri shanakht dhundne me madad dega..
renu:- sach raja, ye to bohut achchi baat hai..
chacha:- raja beta main kuch samjha nahi..
raja:- chacha ji, meri maa ne mujhe bataya tha k wo meri maa nahi hai, mujhe kuch or batane se pehle hi wo marr gai.. maa marte samay mujhe kuch ishare de rahi thi. apne hath ko utha kar mujhe kuch samjha chahti theen... parr us waqt main samjh nahi paaya tha.. aaj achanak se hi mera dhayaan mere baazo par bandhe hue taweez par chala gaya.. mujhe lagta hai, maa is taweez ki taraf ishara kar rahi theee..
anju:- raja, ye churi.... anju ne churi meri taraf badhaai
maine anju se churi le li aur kaanpte haatho se us taweez ki dori ko kaatne laga.. sabb mujhe hi dekh rahe the.. abb baat ek naya rukh badal chuki thi, to sabb hi excited the... sabb janna chahte the, isme kuch vaisa hai, jo main samjh raha hon..
kaanpte hath se maine taweez ki dori kaati, taweez ko apne hath me liya.. aur usay bade pyaar se dekhne laga.. abb dil ki halat firse ajeeb hone lagi thi..
mujhe mere damag ne bata bhi diya tha. k mujhe isse koi na koi raasta zarur milega.. par andar se ek darr bhi tha, kahi ye sabb mera wehm na ho.. taweez ke andar se kuch bhi mere kaam ka nahi niklega..
maine taweez chacha ko de diya.. mere hath kaanp rahe the.. darr tha ise churi se kaat'te hue kahi nuksan hi na kar bethon.. abb takk sabb hi mere aas pass beth gaye the.. aur pandora box ke khulne ka intezar karne lage..
raja:- chacha ji aap hi ise kholen, mujhse ye nahi khulega.. kahi josh me kuch galt na ho jaaye mujhse... mere liye khud par kaabu pana mushkil ho raha hai.
taweez steel ka bana hua tha..
chacha ji ne churi pakdi aur taweez ko kholne ki koshish me lag gaye.. taweez saalon se band tha. aise to wo khulne se raha.. chacha ji badi ehtiyat se usay kholne ki koshish kar rahe the.. sabb ka hi dhyaan chacha ke hatho par tha..
1.5" ka taweez churi se nahi khul raha tha..
baba:- ye aise nahi khulega.. anju beta mujhe aari la ke dena...
anju jhat uthi aur kuch hi der me aari le kar aa gai..
chacha ji ne taweez baba ko dia.. baba ne usay niche rakha aur aari se unke lock ko kaatne lage.. chhota sa taweez tha, badi mushkil ho rahi thi.. steel aari se to katne se raha.. bass kuch ragar hi chahiye thi.. aur baba shayad yahi kar rahe the...
kuch der me hi baba ki mehnat rang laai.. aur taweez ke lock par jama zang hattne laga.. aise 4 lock the chhote chhote.. baba ek ek karke sabhi se zang utaarne lage..
20 mint me hi taweez khul kar baba k hath me tha.. aur sabb aise dekh rahe the. jaise andar se kisi heeron ke zakhire ka naksha nikalne wala ho...
mere liye to ye heeron k dher se bhi badh kar tha.. shayad isse mai khud ko dhund paaon.. aur jaan sakun mere maa baap kaun hai.. mai kiska khoon hon..
baba ne taweez mujhe dia aur maine usay baba se le kar chacha ji ko de diya..
raja:- chacha ji dekhen uske andar kya kuch hai.. main padha likha nahi hon..
chacha ji ne teweez khola.. andar se ek choti si theli nikli.. usay achchi tarha se dhaage se lapeta hua tha.. dhaaga kamzor ho chuka tha, jaise hi usay hath laga wo jaga jaga se toot kar alag hone laga..
dhaga hata to ek chhoti si plastic ki theli saamne aai. aur us theli me ek kagaz tha.. main apne honto par zubaan ferte hue renu ko dekhne laga.. renu pehle taweezz ki taraf hi dekh rahi thi.. mere dekhte hi renu ne mujhe dekha.. renu ka chehra bhi josh se bhara uha tha.. wo bhi jaanna chahti thi.. andar se kya kuch nikalta hai... halat to sab ki hi ek jaisi hi.. par renu ki aur meri halat sabb se zayada kahrab thi..
us theli ko alag kiya gaya to.. uske andar se jo kagaz nikla uski halat dekh kar to ek baar dil ki dhadkan hi thamm si gai.. wo kagaz bhi ghage ke jaise hi apni taqat kho chuka tha.. paani to usay nahi laga tha.. par itne saalon band rehne ki waja se uski umar khatam ho gai thi..
chacha ji ne bohut dhayan se us kagaz ko kholna shuru kiya.. kagaz ke tukde hone shuru ho gaye the.. parr chacha ji ne pure kagaz ko khol hi diya.. aur fir usay niche rakh kar set karne lage.. kagaz k tukde ek sath jod kar uspar likha hua padhne ki koshish karne lage..
19 saal guzar chuke the.. to likha hua sahi kaise reh sakta tha.. 4x4" ka wo kagaz tha..
chacha:- raja beta ispar likha hua to sabb nahi pada ja raha.. par kuch kuch samjh aa raha hai..
raja:-chch..chacha ji...aap..padh..kar..batayen..kya..likha..hai..
bolna mere liye asaan nahi tha.gala khush hone laga tha... jo khushi mujhe pehle mili thi. wo puri nahi ho paayi thi.. kagaz par likha hua mujhe bhi dikh raha tha.. aur jaga jaga se likha hua mita hua tha.. sabb pata chalna mumkin nai raha tha..
renu bhi sabb dekh rahi thi.. renu ne mera hath pakad kar daba dia.. renu mujhe hosla de rahi thi..
chacha:- raja beta jitna samjh me aa raha hai, wo main padhta hon..
udai...........rana................singh................beta.......................sab.......................................................
.......................shirdi................ach................dush........................goliy..............................................judwa...
naina aur tumhe kid. .......................rana...................singh.............. .............. ..................... ............. .............jatin......us.....laila...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... shirdi............... house number
chacha:-raja beta yahi sabb likha hai ... jo maine samjha hai.. wo main tumhe detail me bata deta hon....... udaipur me hi kahi rana family hai.. jin ke tum chashmo chiragh ho.. tumhari puri family shirdi shehar ke kisi mandir me puja ke liye aai hogi.. tabb tumhare papa ke dushmano ne sabb par hamla kar diya hoga.... tumhe aur tumhari judwa behen naina ko aghwa kiya gaya hoga.. ya aghwa karna ki koshish ki gai hogi.......... aage shirdi shehar me hi kisi house ka ek number likha hua hai....... shayad wahan se tumhe kuch pata chal sake... jatin aur laila ka naam bhi likha hua hai.. parr main jatin aur laila ke baare kuch samjh nahi saka..... isliye main is baare me kuch nahi keh sakta..
chacha ji ne letter kya padha tha.. ek bomb phhod diya tha.. itna bada dhamaka hua tha... jisne andar se meri aatma takk ko jhanjhod daala tha.. itna sabb kuch hua tha meri family k saath.. wahi se main sabb se alag ho gaya tha..
kitni badi khushi mili hogi unhe, jo sabb ek saath itni door mandir me khushi manane aaye hoge.. aur dushmano ne achanak se ghaat laga kar unpar hamla kar diya hoga... meri judwaa behen naina uska kya bana hoga.. wo bhi meri hi tarha se dunya me laa-waris ghoom fir rahi hogi, ya usay aghwa hone se bacha liya hoga.
mera dil andar se khoon k aansu rone laga.... sabb k sabb hi ek dumm se shaant se pad gaye the, khamosh to sabb hi the, parr abb mere saath aur meri family ke saath hue incident eko jaan kar sab hi dukhi ho gaye the..
kaise main abb apni family ko dhundoga.. udaipur me kaise mai unhe dhund paaonga.. kaise adhure naamo se main sahi naamo takk pohnch paanga.. kaise pata lagaonga.. wo sabb kaha rehte han.. jaisi un sabb ki dushami thi.. na-jaane kya hua hoga us kaand k baad.. kahi meri hi tarha se koi aur na bichhad gaya ho.. kahi us roz chalne wali goliyon me kisi ki jaan na chali gai ho.. kitne vichaar aa rahe the mere mann ne....... ye sabb sochte sochte mere damag ne kaam karna chhod diya tha...
baba:- raja beta, khud ko sambhalo, abhi tumhe ek lamba safar karna hai, kya tum abhi se hi thak kar baith jaaoge.. khud ko shaant rakho.. shaant renhe se hi sabb samjh me aayega.. abhi sabb pata bhi to nahi hai naa hume.. adhe se zayada to mit chuka hai..
renu:- raja tum pareshan kyun ho rahe ho, baat to dukh ki hi hai, parr wo sabb to beet chuka, guzre waqt ko wapis bhi to nahi laaya ja sakta naa..
ek baat achchi bhi to hui hai, pehle tum sabb baaton se anjaan the.. abb to bohut kuch pata chal chuka hai.. jab itna pata chal hi gaya hai to baaki ka bhi pata chal hi jaayega.. raaste to mil hi gaye han naa.. to dukhi hona chhodo.. aur aage ka socho..
chacha:- raja beta kagaz par adhe se zayada mita hua hai, aur akhir ki teen line to puri tarha se hi mit chuki hai, ho sakta ha, kuch aisa ho jo tumhare liye achcha ho.. jo address likha hua hai.. wahi se baaki ka sabb pata kar sakte ho..
achche ki ummeed rakho.. aur dil chhota matt karo..
sabb mujhse aisi hi baaten karte rahe... sabb mujhe hosla dene ki koshish kar rahe the.... parr ye sabb itna bhi asaan nahi tha.. abhi taza taza zakhm aaye the, khud par kaabu paane me time to lagna hi tha.. dil ki halat itni jaldi to sambhalne wali nahi thi......
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TIME:09:40:PM:
maina ur renu is waqt ek alag jhonpdi me the... zaheer ki family ko bhi ek alag jhonpdi de di gai thi... shaam takk hum baba k paas hi rahe the.. zaheer ko sham ko kuch hosh aaya tha, parr baba ne use firse behosh kar diya tha.. zaheer abb suba se pehle nahi uthne wala tha.. raat ko agar zaheer ko hosh aata hai to baba ne tahir baig ko kuch diya tha, jisse zaheer ko firse behosh kiya ja sakta tha.. baba ne ek droper me zaheer ki ankh k liye kuch tahir baig ko de diya tha... zaheer ki tension ek baar to khatam ho hi gai thi...
main aur renu khatiya ko chhod kar niche zameen par chataai bichha kar lete hue the.. renu ka sarr mere seene par tha, aur hum dono hi kuch der se khamosh the.
main aur renu wahi letter wali baat ko lekar hi soch rahe the.. wo sabb hamare damag se jaa hi nahi raha tha.. itna kuch jo hua tha, guzre hue samay me.. kitna kuch jhela hoga meri maa ne mere papa ne, meri family ne ... aur meri naina wo kis haal me hogi... naina k liye mera dil kuch zayada hi machalne laga..
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