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Mai apni maa ki ikloti santaan tha,isliye vo mujhse bahut pyaar karti thi. Mujhe naa kabhi daanta aur na kabhi mujh par hath uthaya.Hum sab 1 khushaal pariwaar ki tarah miljulkar apni zindagi kaat rahe the,lekin shayad bhagwan ko kuch aur hi manzoor tha.Jab mai 5 saal ka tha tab meri maa ko dengue ho gaya.Unki tabiyat itni kharab thi ki hume unhe hospital me admit karna pada,lekin unki tabiyat bigadti gayi aur 1 raat vo hume chhod kar chali gayi.Mai chhota tha to janam-mrityu in sabse parichit nahi tha.Mai papa se roz zid karta tha ki mujhe maa se milna hai par vo har baar yahi kehte ki maa hume chhod kar jaa chuki hai.
1 din papa se zid kar raha tha ki mujhe maa se milna hai to unhone gusse me aakar mujhpar hath utha diya aur chillakar kaha," teri maa mar chuki hai..." mai us pure din rota raha.Dheere-2 maine bhi apni maa ke bina jeena seekh liya.1 saal baad sabhi ne papa se kaha ki vo dusari shaadi kar le aur unhone sabki baat maan li aur doosri shaadi kar li.Mujhe bada dhakka laga ye sochkar ki papa ne itni jaldi meri maa ko bhula diya aur kisi aur ko meri maa ki jagah de di.Shayad papa ne kabhi meri maa se pyaar kiya hi nahi tha isliliye to itni jaldi shaadi ke liye maan gaye.Ye baat mere dil me ghar kar gayi aur yahi kaaran tha ki mai apni sauteli maa ko kabhi apna na paya.Mera vyavhar sabke prati thoda rookha ho gaya tha.Mai sirf apni dadi ko hi apni har baat bata pata tha.Kuch saal baad mere chacha ne bhi shadi kar li.Ghar aate hi chachi aur sauteli maa ki khoob patne lagi.Lekin mujhe ab ghar walon me kuch khaas interest reh nahi gaya tha. Kisi ka ghar me hona ya na hona mere liye 1 jaisa hi tha.
Kuch saalon baad papa ko 1 aur santaan hui jiska naam unhone anil rakh diya.Bhale hi anil chhota tha aur uska is sab me koi kasoor na tha,par use bhi 1 bhai ke roop me apnana mujhe gawara nahi tha.
Jaise-2 meri umar badhti gayi meri dosti class ke sabse bigade huye ladkon se hone lagi.Unke sath rehte huye mujhe cigarette ki lat bhi lag gayi.Mai thoda chidchida bhi ho gaya...jaldi gusse me aana aur kisi se lad padna,ye mere liye 1 aam baat ho gayi thi. Studies me mujhe zyada interest nahi tha.Jab bhi padne baithta to dimaag apne aap hi khayali pulao pakane lagta....kabhi dimaag kisi nayi movie par chala jata aur kabhi kisi pornstar ke baare me jiski porn maine recently dekhi ho.Isi kaaran se mai 1 baar 7th me fail ho chuka tha.Jab badi mehnat se 7th class pass ki to socha is saal padhayi achi tarah se karunga lekin aisa nahi hua aur girte-padte main 8th class pass ki.9th class me pahuncha to social science(sst) ke subject ne gaand hi faad di.8th tak sst ki sirf 3 hi books hoti thi lekin 9th me 1 aur book add ho gayi.Unhe padte-2 to gaand ke taake dheele pad gaye aur iska result ye nikla ki 9th me bhi mai fail ho gaya aur dobara se 9th class repeat karni padhi.Par is saal kuch aisa hua jo pichle saal se lakh guna better tha.1 to muje Varun jaisa acha dost mila jo studies me acha tha.Vo meri padne me help kar diya karta tha aur usse mai notes bhi le sakta tha aur doosra Aanchal bhi mil gayi.Use dekhte hi pehli nazar mein pyaar ho gaya.Uske sath dosti huyi par apne dil ki baat mai use na keh saka.Vo mujhe sirf acha dost manti thi par mere dil me to alag hi khichdi pak rahi thi.Mujhe laga tha ki ab life sorted hai lekin yahi meri galatfahmi thi. Aksar aisa hota hai ki zindagi me sab kuch sahi jaa raha hota hai par tabhi zindagi palat ke bolti hai "Aise kaise behnchod".
1 raat mai mast gehri neend me so raha tha. Sapne me bhi mai Aanchal ke sath romance kar raha tha par tabhi achanak kaise sab kuch badal gaya. Mai 1 pahad ki choti par khada tha. Charon taraf andhera chhaya hua tha aur door kahin se siyaron ke rone ki aawaz aa rahi thi. Mai kuch samajh pata ki tabhi meri nazar 1 aurat par padi. Wo choti ke bilkul kinare par khadi thi. Agar uska pair 1 inch bhi hilta to vo sidha neeche khai mai gir jati. Maine us aurat ke chehre ko dhyaan se dekhne ki koshish ki par uska chehra kuch dhundhla dikhayi de raha tha. Tabhi pata nahi kaha se waha par 1 aadmi prakat ho gaya. Usne kaale rang ke kapde pehan rakhe the. Wo dheere-2 us aurat ki taraf bada aur us aurat ko jhatke se apni baahon me le liya. Meri nazar us aadmi ke chehre par padi to mai bilkul shocked reh gaya. Vo aadmi koi aur nahi balki mere chacha the. Unhone us aurat ke honthon ko apne honthon me kas liya aur dheere-2 unhe choomne lage. Jab un dono ke honth alag huye aur dono ki nazrein mili to us aurat ki aankhon me jo vaasna thi uski jagah dar ne le li thi. Vahi dar mujhpe bhi chhane laga kyoki chacha ka chehra poora jal chuka tha aur 1 aankh bhi foot chuki thi. Tabhi achanak chacha ne us aurat ko dhakka de diya. Ye dekh ke to meri gaand hi fat gayi aur jaise hi maine palke jhapkayi to saara nazara hi badal gaya. Us aurat ki jagah ab mai pahadi se neeche gir raha tha. Lekin tabhi meri neend khul gayi. Mera poora shareer paseene se bheega hua tha aur dil ki dhadkane bhi badi huyi thi. Maine kaise na kaise kar ke apni dhadkano par kaaboo kiya aur fir se dobara let gaya. Lekin neend ab aankhon se koson door thi. Poori raat maine bina soye us sapne ke baare me sochkar nikal di. Agli subah mai sabse pehle taiyaar ho gaya aur jab papa ko ye pata chala to vo bhi shocked reh gaye kyoki roz subah mai unki gaali sunke hi uthta tha. Khair mai school jaane ke liye taiyaar tha. Tabhi daadi mere room me aa gayi.
Dadi--arre, aaj tu itni jaldi kaise taiyaar ho gaya?
Mai--kuch nahi dadi. Vo pata nahi kaise aaj jaldi aankh khul gayi.
Dadi--koi baat nahi. Ab uth hi gaya hai to nashta kar le jaake. Abhi to bahot time hai tere paas to aaram se nashta bhi kar lega varna roz to hadbadi me school jata hai tu.
Mai seedha kitchen ki taraf bad gaya nashta lene ke liye. Andar Sujata aur chachi dono hi nashta taiyaar kar rahi thi. Mai kitchen ke andar ghusta ki tabhi mujhe chachi ki 1 baat sunayi di.
Chachi--didi, vo kal raat mujhe bahot bhayanak sapna aaya tha. Maine dekhe ki mai 1 pahad ki choti par khadi hoon aur tabhi ye kahin se aa jaate hain aur mujhe apni baahon me leke choomne lagte hain. Par jab hamara chumban khatam hua to unki shakal poori jal chuki thi aur 1 aankh bhi foot gayi thi. Aur fir unhone mujhe achanak pahadi se neeche dhakka de diya aur meri aankh khul gayi.
Chachi ki baat sunke mai ekdum shocked ho gaya. Ye kaise ho sakta hai. Ye sapna to kal raat mujhe bhi aaya tha. Ye possible nahi hai. 2 logon ko 1 jaisa sapna kaise aa sakta hai. Kuch to gadbad hai. Tabhi achanak chachi ne fir se kuch kaha.
Chachi--didi, vo kal raat mujhe bahot bhayanak sapna aaya tha. Maine dekhe ki mai 1 pahad ki choti par khadi hoon aur tabhi ye kahin se aa jaate hain aur mujhe apni baahon me leke choomne lagte hain. Par jab hamara chumban khatam hua to unki shakal poori jal chuki thi aur 1 aankh bhi foot gayi thi. Aur fir unhone mujhe achanak pahadi se neeche dhakka de diya aur meri aankh khul gayi.
Aur ab ki baar to doguna shocked ho gaya. Ho kya gaya hai ye chachi ko. Madarchod pagla gayi hai kya. 1 hi baat do baar kyon bata rahi hai Sujata ko.
Sujata--arre tu ye sapna chhod aur jaldi se nashta taiyaar kar. Abhi vo maaji ka rajkumar aata hoga nashta maangne. Nikamma kahin ka.
Sujata ki yeh baat sun ke mera khoon khaul gaya lekin mai kuch kar bhi nahi sakta tha. Mujhe pata tha ki mai ise kuch bol dunga to ye papa se bol degi aur papa to bina meri baat sune meri hi gaand maarenge. Aakhir ye aurat choot jo deti hai unhe. Mai kiitchen me gaya aur apna nashta leke dining table par nashta karne laga. Nashte ke baad mere paas kuch time bacha tha to maine socha kyon na is sapne ki gutthi suljhayi jaye. To mai sidha apne kamre me gaya aur apna computer on karke Google baba ki sharan me gaya. Maine google par bhi search kiya ki 2 logon ko 1 jaise sapne aane ka kya matlab hota hai par ghanta google baba bhi meri madad na kar sake. Thak-haarkar maine computer ko band kiya aur apna bag utha ke school ki taraf nikal pada. School pahochkar mai apni school ki seat par baith gaya aur apne sapne ke baare me sochne laga. Lekin tabhi mere aaspaas bahot shor hone laga jisse mere sar me dard ho raha tha. Jab tak mai bardasht kar sakta tha maine kiya fir thak haarkar mai zor se chilla pada.
Mai(chillate huye)--abbe chup ho jao. Jab dekho pakar-pakar. Dheere baat nahi kar sakte kya. Saale aise chilla rahe hai jaise bhed bakriyon ke jhund ne sher ko dekh liya ho.
Unpar chillane ke baad mera dimaag thoda shant hua hi tha ki tabhi mujhe mere classmate Raman ki aawaz sunayi di.
Raman--sala chutiya kahin ka.
Mujhe gussa aaya aur maine raman ke paas jaake uske gardan pakad li. Mere is tarah karne se Raman ki gaand fatt gayi.
Mai--saale kya bola tune. Mujhe chutiya bola tune.
Raman--par maine to kuch kaha hi nahi.
Mai--saale zabaan ladata hai.(1 zor ka thappad uske gaal par maarte huye) Madarchod ab bol.
Raman ki shakal rone jaise ho gayi thi aur mai thodi der uski gardan aur pakad ke rakhta to vo sach me ro padta. Uski shakal dekh ke mujhe bhi uspe taras aa gaya aur maine use chhod diya. Apni seat par waapis baithne ke baad mai fir se apne sapne ke baare me sochne laga ki tabhi aake kisi ne meri gardan par 1 halki si chapat laga di. Mera shaant hua gussa fir se ufaan pakadne laga lekin jab maine us shaks ki taraf dekha to gussa utni jaldi shaant bhi ho gaya.
Varun--kaisa hai bhosdike.
Mai--aa gaya madarchod.