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maine ghar ki felames ke sath apni hisab se khulna chahta tha. dad jan ne aa kar mujhe moka chheen liya tha. lekin khair.. moke to bar bar milte rahne the. maine faisla kiyaa mai mahaul khud se banaonga. phuddi maarne ke liye mujhe khud badhiya se feeling set karni hogi. ghar ki females ke sath aise ghulna milta hoga. unke sath kuch is hisab se khulna hoga. fir jaj main unke sath dusre hisab se aage badhun to chah kar bhi mujhe rok na paayen..
mere pyar me itni aage badh jaayen. mujhe sambhayen. babu ye sahi nahi ha. ye na kahen.. bahu tum galat kar rahe ho. gunah kar rahe ho. nahi hum kuch nahi karna chahti.. mujhe sab se aisa pyar karna hoga, itni shiddat ke sath pyar karna hoga. sab mera pyar pane ke liye mere sath aage aur aage nikal jane ki aarzo pa bethen.. mere liye machalne lagen.
mai sab se baaten bhi kar raha tha. ghar ke mahaul ko samjhta hua plan bhi bana raha tha aur sabse baaten bhi kar raha tha. koi soch bhi nahi sakta tha. mere dil me sabke liye kaise khayalyat aur jazbat janam le chuke han. jab kisi ko andaza ho. tab tak mai aur wo sab bohut aage nikal chuke hon. hosh me hokar bhi hosh me rahna bhul chuke hon. tab mujhe mere maksad me kamyabi milti.
ek baat aur thi. pahle sirf mere dimag me sabke jismo ko paane ki chah zayada thi. lekin ab tab maine khul kar bolna shuru kiya tha. apne dil me sabke liye pyar aur zimmedari, respect ka izhaar karna shuru kiya tha. tab se mere andr bohut zayada change mai mahsus karne laga tha. meri zuban kya khuli mere andr se ek naya feroz bahar nikal kar saamne aane laga. aur mujhe ye naya feroz bohut pasand aa raha tha. aise feroz ke saamne aane se jahan mujhe mere maksad me kamyabi ke chances zayada nazar aa rahe the. wahin mujhe ek tarah ki khushi aur sukun ka bhi ahsas ho raha ha. mera khandan ki phuddiyon me ghusne ka andaz badalne laga. sab ko future me kaise treat karna ha. alag tarah se mere andr plan banne lage.
dinner ke bad firse sab beth kar baten karte rahe. fir apne apne kamre me jane lage. kal se mai kinza api ya mahira api ghar aane ke bad se zayada padhai par dhayan nahi de pa rahe the. mahaul kuch aisa badla tha. hum ek dusre ke karib karib rahne lage the.
hamari kothi vvip kothi ya bohut hi shandar kothi nahi ha. aap usay achhi kothi kah sakte han.14 marle ke area par giri kothi ilake me bani chand khas gini chuni kothiyon me se ek thi. hum wahan pichhle 15 saal se rahe the. dada jan ki waja se hamari hamare ilake me khub respect thi.
dinner ke bad sab apne apne kamron me gaye to mai bhi apne kamre me chala gaya. bed par let kar mai kuchh der sochta raha.. plan banata raha. ammi jan ne kaha tha. mai bohut tez raftari se aage badh raha ha. ammi jan ki baat bhi sahi thi. ab bhala mai speed se kaise na aage badhta. jis speed ke sath mai aage badh raha tha. isi speed ko sochta hon to bhi itna samjh me aata tha. asani se mujhe ghar me kisi ki bhi phuddi nahi milegi. abhi se speed pakdonga to kuchh mahino me kisi ek ko tyar kar paonga..
yehi soch maine apni speed kam na karne ka faisla liya. firse sochne laga. ab kis side rukh karun. fir kuchh soch kar mai bed se utar kamre se nikal gaya.
hamari kothi 2 manzila thi. ground floor par 5 kamre the. dada dadi ammi jan aur dad ground floot par rahte the.. mai kinza api mahira api aur bhaiya bhabhi hum sab upar rahte the. neeche 2 kamre extra bane hue the. jo khas mahmano ke liye banaye gaye the. upar bhi do kamre khali the. hamara khandan bohut bada tha. aksar mahman a jaya karte the. aur hum mahmano ka khule dil ke sath welcome kiya karte the. lekin shahri zindagi guzarne ka alag dhang hua karta ha. isliye mahman hi humen be waqt tang nahi kiya karte the. neeche ek study room bhi tha. kabhi kisi ka mann hota to wo study room me bani chhoti si library se koi na koi book utha kar wahin beth jaya karta tha.
mai apne kamre se nikal kar gournd floor par a gaya. ammi jan aur dad ke kamre ke saamne khade hokar maine to andr se sun gun li. kahin dono hamare so jane ka fayda utha kar chudai to nahi karne lag pade. lekin mujhe aisa kuch ahsas nahi hua.. tab maine door knock kar diya..
shayad ammi jan aur dad dono baten kar rahe the. jag rahe the. foran hi dad ki awaz sunaai di
dad - kon ha ?
mai - mai hon dad! babu
zarur andr ammi jan aur dad hairan rah gaye the mujhe is waqt door par ja kar.. bina zaruri kam ke ya emergency ke hum neeche aa kar unhe dicturb nahi kiya karte the.
door khul gaya. dad mujhe hairat se dekhne laga.. mai muskurata hua andr ghusne laga
dad - arre arre... bhai tumhara kamra nahi ha ye.. apne kamre me jao.
mai dhire se has pada - janta hon dad.. lekin kyaaaaaaaaa ghar ka har kamra mera kamra nahi ha. jab aap sab ke dilon me mai rah sakta hon.. to fir har kamre me ghus kar kamre wale se lipat kar so bhi sakta hon
dad peeche mud ammi jan ko dekhte hue bole - gulshan! ya to ye sach me hamara feroz nahi ha. kisi ne hamare feroz ka chahra apna liya ha. ya fir zarur iske andr... wo kyaa kahte han indian filmo me.... haann koi parayi aatma iske andr ghus gai ha
mujhe kamre me aata dekh ammi jan bed par beth gai thi. dad ki baat sun kar ammi jan ke honto par meethi muskan ubhar ai
mai ammi jan ke pas ja betha tha.. ammi jan ne mere chahre ko chum mera matha chum liya
ammi jan - aap kuch bhi kahen.. kuchh bhi samjhen. mujhe to mera ye wala feroz bohut bhaa raha ha
maine smile kar di.. dad bhi bed par bethte hue - wo sab to theek ha.. ye is waqt hamare kamre me
dad hairan the
mai dono ko dekh bed par chadha aur bed ke beech ja leta
dono aur zayada hairan hue.. mujhe wahan let te dekh ek dusre ko hairani se dekhne lage
mai - aise kyaa dekh rahe han aap... mai barson se akela so so kar bore ho gaya hon.. mere kamre me mujhe privicy to mil jati ha. lekin jo sukun aap dono ke sath lipat kar sone me mila karta tha. wo mujhse chhoot gaya ha. aaj khud ko rok nahi paya. firse dil me tamannah jaagi. ek baar firse wo waqt kyu nahi laut sakta. jab mai aap dono ke beech soya karta tha.. aa jaaiye... ammi jan aap meri right aur dad aap left side.. bohut saal aap dono mujhe kamre se bhaga kar so liye.. aaj mai firse aap dono ke beech aa gaya hon.. mann hua to roz soya karunga.. na hua to mera kamra to fr ha hi
dad - hahaha
ammi jan ka chahra sharam se kuchh daal hua. beta jawan ho gyaa tha.. adhi raat ko apne maa baap ke kamre me ghus kar sath sone ki baat kar raha tha.
dad - gulshan abhi feroz ke aane se pahle hum kyaa baaten kar rahe the.. yehi na.. feroz me ajab tabdeeli aa rahi ha.. lekin ye nahi socha tha.. tabdeeli is had tak aayegi
ammi jan - feroz beta. tumme aaj hamare sath sone ki kyu sochi
mai - kyaa bethe bethe baaten karenge aap dono.... aaiye let jaaiye.. ya mai ye samjhun... aap ko mujhse sharam aa rahi ha
dad - arre isme sharam ki kyaaa baat ha
ammi jan kashmakash me rahi
mai - ammi jan kashmaksh me.. lagta ha mujhe jana chahiye..
ammi jan jaldi se - nahi.. nahi.. wo to mai kuch aur soch rahi thi beta.. tumse kyu mai jane ke liye kahungi.
mai - to fir aaiye let jaaiye.. aap har dusre teesre din kahti rahti han. bachhe jitne bhi bade ho jaayen.. ek maa ke liye wo aise hi hote han.. jaise abhi bhi uski god ke bachhe han. ammi jan.. mai god ka bacha rahun ke na rahun.. lekin khud ko har waqt aapki god me aap ki aaghosh me pana chahta hon.
dad ne der nahi kari aur mere left side a kar let gaye. dad mujhe smile se dekh rahe the. warna hona to ye chahiye tha. maine dad ki ek raat rangeen sangeen bana dali thi..
ammi jan ki sharam bhi jayaz thi. umar ki is stage par, jab sare bachhey jawan ho gaye the. ek bete ki shadi ho gai thi. ek bahu ghar aa gai thi. fir bhi alag kamre me apne shohar se lipat kar soti han.. aisi bat har dusre ghar me aam ha. lekin jab beta kamre me ghus jata ha. tab maa ko kuchh zayada hi aise khayal aane lagte han.
fir ammi jan bhi mere right side aa kar let gai..
mai - no jhijhak.. chaliye aap dono mere dono gaal bari bari se geele kariye.. mujhe bachpan ki purani sari raaten yaad karni ha.. mujhe bachpan ka wo sara pyar firse pana ha. firse mujhe utna hi sukun mahsus karna ha.. samjh len ye mere diesel ka kam karega...
dad - hahaha.. gulshan dekh rahi ho.. ye feroz ab humen pareshan karne par utar aaya ha... ise kyaa pata.. hum is ki harkaton par tang nahi aayenge.. hamara to pyar badhega
ammi jan ka chahra go keh sharam se rang badal chuka tha. lekin yahan aur jhijhakti ya sharam karti to galat hota..
ammi jan ne mere gaal par kiss kar di - ek maa ka dil to har pal apne bachhon se pyar karne ko machalta rahta ha. ek maa ko kyu preshani hogi bhala. uska koi bhi bachha jab bhi uske paas aaye. usay koi preshani kaise ho sakti ha. hamara feroz to fir bhi special ha
dad - sahi kaha gulshan tumne
dad nahi jante the. unka jo maal tha. ab uske bete ki nazar unke maal par aa atki thi. ammi jan nahi janti thi. unka feroz jahan se nikla ha. wahin jane ki soche betha ha. nahi janti thi. unke jigad kar tukda ek maa ke jism ke jis hisse ko kabhi dekh nahi sakta. feroz ek tha. lekin maa ke jism ke un hisson ko dekhna hi nahi chahta tha. un hisson me bane surakhon ke andr ghusta hua andr tak sama jana chahta hai... isi maksad ke chalte wo karib se karib tar hone ka koi bhi moka hath se jane nahi dena chahta. bada chalak ho gaya ha unka beta
lekin barson bad ammi jan aur dad ke beech let kar mai present me nahi rah saka. maa thandi chhaan hoti ha. dad aur ammi jan ke beech aa kar letne se, itne karib se dono ke lams ko paane se mujhe sach me bachpan ki ek ek raat yad aane lagi. mai pyar wo shiddat jisse anjan ban gaya tha. wo shiddat mai ek bar firse mahsus karne laga.. mere dil se sare ulte seedhe khayal nikal kar mere dil ko dhote chale gaye..
dil ka dhulne se ikatha hone wala pani meri ankhon ke raste garm pani bankar meri ankhon se bahta hua mere kano me ikatha hone laga. ammi jan aur dad dono mujhse bachpan ki dher sari baaten kiye ja rahe the. aur mai haal se maazi me travel karta ansu bahane laga...
dono bhi shayad bachpan ki yaadon me ja khoye the. fir ammi jan ki awaz sunaai di
ammi jan - feroz beta.. tum ro kyu rahe ho
dad bhi mujhe dekhte hue - ennn.. arre feroz beta.. tumhari ankhon me ansu..
mai bheegi ankhen khol kar dono ko bari bari dekh dono ke hath pakad kar apne seene par rakhta hua bola -- ye wo pani ha ammi jan.... dad.. jo barson se ankhon ke peeche jama pada tha. aap dono ke pyar ki shiddat pa kar sara jama hua pani pighal kar ankhon ke raste bahar nikal pada.. acha ha.. nikal jaaye.. nikal jayega to ankhen bhi saaf ho jayegi.. yehi pani dil ko bhi dho dalega. aur dil me jo sukun itne barson nahi utar saka tha. wo bhi gahrai tak utarta chala jaayega.. ye sukun pane ke liye to mai chal kar yahan aaya hon. ek beta is sukun se door hokar dunya ke sard o garam me gum hokar rah jata ha. milne wali zimmedariyon ke janjal me phans kar rah jata hai.. mai kuch bhi karun. zindagi me kuch bhi ban jaaon.. bass mujhe aap dono ka aisa pyar hamesha pana ha. mai bacha nahi raha. jawan ho gaya ha.. mujhe aisa kuch nahi sunna ha ammi jan.. dad.. mujhe dunya se alag jeena ha. jab aap dono ka pyar mere liye ha.. to kyu umar ke fark ko sochte hue hum woh pyar samet kar rakhen.. nahi mai aisa nahi hone dunga.. bachpan me jab bhi moka mila karta tha. ap dono mujhe khud se alag nahi karte the. aaj firse mai aap dono ke beech hon.. ap bhi bhul jaaiye.. mai jawan hon.. bas yehi sochiye.. aap han to mai hon.. papa aap ka khun meri ragon me daud raha aur ammi jan aap ka doodh papa ke khun ke sath sath meri puri body me travel kar raha ha. hum bade hue han to kyaa hua... hum jo aapke bachhe han aap ke hi jism ke alag hue hisse han.. is umar me aap ko agar jhijhak aati ha.. to ajib lagega... apne hi ang se jhijhakna galat ha ammi jan... dad mai bass yehi show karwane aaya hon... mai na pahle kabhi aap dono se alag tha.. na hi kabhi hone wala hon..
meri ankhon se ansu the keh thamne ka naam hi nahi le rahe the.. fir ammi jan tadap kar sisakti hui mere sar ko thaam apne seene me chhupa gayi.. ammi jaan ro rahi thi.. ammi jan ke bhi ansu nikal pade the. mai dad ko dekh nahi sakta tha. lekin andaza tha unki bhi ankhen nam ho gai hongi.. wo pathar ke to nahi the.... insan tha. aur pyar to pathar ko bhi reza reza hone par majbur kar dene ki salahiyat rakhta ha...
mai feelding set kra raha tha.. lekin kudrati taur par feelding automatic kuch zayada hi fantastic tarike se set hoti ja rahi thi.. mai sacha bankar sabke samne khul kar aana tha. aur mere jazbat mere iradon se bhi badhkar shiddat ke sath apni sachi ka izhaar kar rahe the. mere dil me kuchh bhi tha.. lekin pyar sabhi ke liye mere dil me sacha tha.. inteha gahrai tak tha..
der tak ammi jan mere sar ko apne garm naram mummon ke sath lagaye sisakti rahi..