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nice update ..par ye armaan padhai kyu nahi kar raha samajh nahi aayaUpdate-66
"ab yahi sadta rah,jab tak tera chutiya room partner nahi aa jata, huh sale kal ke launde mujhse panga lete hai...."
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Jaise-jaise exam ke din pass aa rahe the,waise-waise thand bhi badhne lagi thi...kayi saal pahle sardi ke mausam ki ek badi asardar kahawat suni thi maine aur wo ye thi ki....sardi ke mausam me neend bahut jhakkash aati hai, ek baar jo soye to uthane ka man hee nahi karta...lekin ye jhakkas neend use hee aati hai,jiske pass rahne ke liye ghar ho aur thand se bachne ke liye Rajayi ya kambal....jiske pass ye hota hai,wo mast aaram ki neend leta hai aur jiske pass ye dono chiz nahi hoti wo aisa so jata hai ki phhir kabhi uthta nahi....mere pass rahne ke liye ghar aur oodhane ke liye kambal ,dono the...isliye mujhe to neend jhakkas wali hee aani thi.....
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us din ke baad maine ek din bhi college ke darshan nahi kiye, din bhar ya to room me pada rahta ya phhir Sidar ke sath baithkar gappe marta, is waqt na to mere Pass Esha thi, na hee deepika mam aur na hee Vibha....in teeno ka exam se kuch din pahle mere aas-pas na hona mere liye bahut fayademand sabit ho sakta tha, kyunki is situation me main sirf sota,khata ,peeta aur mutth marta...in sab kaamo ke bawzood itna samay tha ki main jabardast tareeke se har ek subject ki taiyari kar leta, lekin maine bilkul bhi aisa nahi kiya....main har din subah se sham hostel ke bahar ki hariyali me tahalta rahta aur padhne ki bajay , main kyun nahi padhta iski vajah dhoondhta raha.....
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aur jab second class test shuru hue to maine bahut jor se kulhadi apne pair par mari, maine ek bhi test nahi diya....main janta tha ki ye sab galat hai,mujhe aisa nahi karna chahiye...aisa karke main khud ko khayi ki taraf dhakel raha hoon....main sab kuch janta tha aur har tareeke se janta tha ,lekin maine phhir bhi wahi kiya jo mujhe nahi karna chahiye tha.....maine pura ka pura second internals attend nahi kiya, Arun har din exam dekar aata aur mujhe galiya bakta , lekin maine use jhooth kah diya tha ki meri tabiyat bahut kharab hai,baithane tak ki himmat nahi hai....Arun koyi dhoodh peeta bachcha nahi tha, wo janta tha ki main sirf bahana maar raha hoon,lekin wo mujhe bolta bhi to kitna,...usne mujhe dhamki bhi di ki yadi main agle paper se college nahi gaya to mere ghar call karke sab bata dega....
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jab kulhadi maar hee li thi to farsa marne me kya jata hai, abki baar maine farsa marte hue usse kaha ki ,yadi usne mere ghar call kiya to main uske ghar call karke bata dunga ki wo rojana girls hostel me chhup chhup kar jata hai.....bas phhir kya tha,baat ban gayi, humare beech ye deal fix hui ki na to main uske ghar call karunga aur na hee wo mere ghar call karega...mera exam form bhi usi ne bhara, aur exam ke do din pahle wo admit card mujhe dete hue bola...
"exam kab se hai, maloom hai na..."
"do din baad..."
"first paper Civil ka hai..."
"chal bye, thanks...aata hoon cigarette phhok ke..."
uske hath se Admit card lekar maine aise hee table par phhek diya aur room se nikal kar Senior hostel ki taraf badha....kuch din se main apne seniors ke sath raat raat bhar rahta aur bakarchodi karta...sone aur jagne ka koyi time nahi tha...jab neend lage to wo humare liye raat ho jati thi ,aur jab aankh khule to wo humari subah....us waqt maine duniya ke hisab se na chalkar ,ek khud ki personal duniya bana li thi,jisme sirf aur sirf main tha, mere man me jo bhi aata, wo main karta....mere aisa karne par dusaro par kya effect karta hai, usse mujhe koyi lena -dena nahi tha,....
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Aisa karte -karte ek din aur beet gaye aur exam shuru hone me sirf ek din bacha tha, raat ko socha ki apun to brilliant hai,ek din me khatm kar dunga....us raat main pure 12 ghante tak soya, aur subah jab neend khuli to ek ghabrahat ne mujhe gher rakkha tha...maine uthte hee Arun se, jo ki is waqt book kholkar baitha hua tha, usse maine time puchha..
"abhi subah ke 4 baje hai, aur soja...jab 12 baj jayenge tab main utha dunga...."
"abey time bata na..."
"10 baje hai..."
"MC, kal paper hai, aur abhi tak kuch padha nahi....tu ek kaam kar, main jab tak bathroom se aata hoon,tu meri book pakad aur important questions mark kar de..."
"hello...."main bistar se neeche utar hee raha tha ki Arun bola"mere pass itna time nahi hai...abhi pura ka pura 3 unit baki hai..."
"ek unit me mark kar de, 1 min. Lagega..."bolte hue main room se bahar aaya...
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Us din ek nayi chiz mujhe pata chali...aur wo ye ki main ratti bhar bhi hoshiyaar nahi hoon, ek question ek ghante me yaad ho raha tha aur uske baad yadi aage ke do char padh lo, to sala peechhe kya padha hai,ye nahi maloom tha....beech beech me main book ke writer ki,class ki teacher ki maa-bahan karta aur jab man phhir bhi nahi bharta to Arun ko gali deta....iska nateeza ye hua ki Arun ne kaan me headphone lagaya aur phhir padhne laga....meri halat bahut hee bekar thi,shaam ke 7 baj gaye the,lekin abhi sirf ek hee chapter yaad hua tha, aur usme bhi koyi gurantee nahi thi ki us chapter ke question yadi exam me aaye to ban hee jayenge......wakayi me us waqt mujhe wo din yaad aane lage ,jise maine yun hee barbaad kar diya tha,ab mujhe ahsaas hone laga tha ki kal ke paper me main Zindagi me pahali baar fail hone wala hoon.....
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"Fail..."ye aisa ek shabd tha, jisse mujhe nafrat to nahi thi,lekin phhir bhi ye mujhse aaj tak door hee raha,...maine kayi ke marksheet me laal syahi se ye word chhapa hua dekha,lekin apne karib kabhi nahi paya,...us waqt mujhe sirf aur sirf exam nazar aa raha tha, deepika mam, Vibha aur Esha ka yadi khayal bhool ke bhi aa jata to main chilla -chilla kar in teeno ko gali deta aur kahta ki saliyo ne mera pura samay barbaad kar diya...na ye teeno mujhe dikhti aur na hee main aise lafde me phhansta....BC teeno ka murder kar dena chahiye....
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us ek waqt main sach me thoda pagal ho gaya tha, jaha mujhe Mediation ki jaroorat thi maine waha galiyo aur cigarette se kaam liya,..kayi baar to ye khayal aaya ki kahi bhag jata hoon aur seedhe exam ke baad aaunga, lekin iska koyi fayda nahi tha...kyunki next semester me mujhe 12 papers dene padte,us waqt maine padhne ke siwa sab kuch kiya, padhayi me dhyan lage isliye aankhe band karke teen-teen baar Gayatri mantra, Saraswati Mantra bhi padha...lekin sab bekar....jaise jaise raat ho rahi thi, main us raat ki gahrayi me paglo ki tarah chilla raha tha, us waqt main aisa ban chuka tha ki yadi koyi mujhe mera naam lekar bhi pukare to main us sale ki wahi on the spot ,hatya kar doon.....lekin uske pahle meri hatya karne ke liye ek call aaya....
"kal se exam shuru hai..."
"haan..."
"sab kuch padh liya..."
"nahi last ka kuch portion bacha hai...."
Ye meri mom ki call thi, jinhone exam ke thik 43 hazar 200 seconds pahle mujhe call kiya tha, yani ki raat ke 10 baje...us waqt le deke kaise bhi karke maine 2 chapter complete kiya tha...lekin halat aayaram aur gayaram wali thi...yani ki us waqt ek question koyi puchh de to uska jawab dene ke liye mujhe book dekhna pade....
"maa kasam kya halat ban gayi hai meri...."main us waqt bhool gaya tha ki line par dusari taraf bhi koyi hai...
"kya hua Arman..?"
"kuch..kuch nahi..."ghabrate hue maih bola"sab thik hai, "
"thik hai phhir,achchhe se paper dena aur haan ,wo Pandey ji ki beti se jyada number lana.."
"ok.....aur kuch.."
"aur sun, "iske baad unki us line ne mera kaleza faad ke rakh diya ,"badnaam mat karna, kal hee tere papa apne dost ke samne teri badayi kar rahe the ki tu abhi tak apne school me top marte aaya hai..."
"haaaa....."
"chal thik hai...khana khaya..."
"na...haan..na...dhat teri, haan kha liya...ab rakhta hoon, "
Uske baad jaise jism me bahta khoon sookh gaya ho, meri halat aur kharab ho gayi aur main apne baal nochkar jor se chillaya....maine room ke saare cigarette ke packet ko ek jagah rakkha aur uspar machis maar di , us waqt main un sabko factors ko dosi karar de raha tha,jinhone mujhe abhi tak padhne nahi diya tha....siway khud ke, jabki is machine ko kharab karne wala main factor main khud tha.
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