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Ek Katra Ishq
(Originally written by rahulinny in XP contest.)
(Originally written by rahulinny in XP contest.)
Meri nazar jaise hi unke chehre pe padi, mere liye waqt mano aik baar fir se jaise tham sa gaya ho, jaise maine unhe pahli baar dekha tha bilkul waise hi.
Maine apni zindagi mein aksar ye suna tha ki kuchh logon ko pahli nazar mein hi mohabbat ho jati hai laikin mere mamle main kuch alag hi ho gaya. Mujhe pahli nazar main mohabbat nahi balki ishq ho gaya.
Mohabbat aur ishq ka fark bilkul aisa he hai jaise darya aur samandar ka, darya chahe kitna hi vishaal kyun na ho akhir mein ja ke samandar ki baahon main panah le leta hai. Usi tarhan mohabbat chahe kitni hi shadeed kyun na ho jab tak woh ishq nahi banti tab tak us main samandar jaisi uthaan aur gahrayi nahi aati. Aur maine mohabbat ke meem se ishq ke ain tak ka safar bas us pahli hi nazar main paar kar liya tha.
Aur aaj apne ussi ishq ko dulhaan ke roop mein daikh ke shayad meri zindagi ka har sapna pura ho gaya hai, ab iske baad shayad bhagwan se aur kuch mangane ki aasha nahi rahi mere mann main.
Hum dono ki kahani tab shuru hui, jab main BE final year mein tha. Engineering main mujhe shuru se koi interest nahi tha, kyonki main ek safal playback singer banna chahta tha. Par mere mata-pita hamesha se hi mujhe ek engineer ke roop main dekhna chahte thay. Isliye maine unka dil rakhne ke liye, kisi tarah BE (Electronics and Communication) main admission le liya tha.
Pichhle 3 saal mere liye kisi nark se kam nahi guzre thay. Mujhe kabhi koi subject samajh hi nahi aaya tha. Bas kisi tarah main har subject mein passing marks le aaya karta aur lectures bhi utne hi attend karta, jitne ki exams main baithne ke liye zaroori hote.
Khair, Final year ab shuru ho chuka tha. Main khush tha ki is nark roopi BE ka ye aakhri saal tha aur main kisi tarah apne mata-pita ke sapne ko pura karne wala tha. Par andar hi andar main poori tarah se toot chuka tha aur is nark ko aur nahi jhel paa raha tha. Meri tabiyat kharaab rehne lagi. Jitna bhi main padai ke bare mein sochta utna hi aur bimar ho jaata. Main kai din tak college nahi gaya.
Phir ek din achanak, main yoon hi man maar ke, lectures attend karne ke liye pahunch gaya. Abhi professor sahab aaye nahi the. Achanak, ek behad khoobsurat si mahila, classroom mein dakhil huyi aur uuhone padhana shuru kar diya. Main hairan reh gaya, ki professor sahab kahan gaye aur ye mahila kaun hai. Maine aas-paas dekha, to koi bhi hairan nahi hua tha, siwai mere. Kyonki, aaj main kaafi dino baad college aaya tha, isiliye, main samajh gaya ki ye koi nayi teacher hain. Lecture khatam hone ke baad mere baaki students se puchhne par, is baat ki pushti ho gayi ki Professor sahab retire ho gaye hain, aur unki jagah ye nayi teacher aayi hai. Us teacher ka naam tha Kavya. Unhone Phd. ki hui thi, isliye sab unhe Dr. Kavya keh kar bulate thay.
Kya teacher thi wo !!. Jitni dekhne mein sundar, utni hi apne subject mein maahir. Main to pehli hi najar mein unpar aur unke padhane ke tareeke par fida ho gaya.
Wo umar mein kareeb mujhse 10 saal badi hogi, par kisi bhi jawan khoobsurat ladki ko sundarta mein maat de de. Itni komal thi ki haath lagate hi maili ho jaye.
Main Dr.Kavya se itna prabhavit ho gaya ki main apni sudh-budh kho baitha aur class khatam hone ke baad bhi clasroom mein 10-15 minute tak yoon hi unke khayalon mein khoya baitha raha.
Us raat mujhe achhi tarah se neend nahi aayi, kyonki main to Dr.Kavya ke khayalon mein hi dooba hua tha. Main raat bhar, subah hone ka intejaar karta raha, taaki main Dr.Kavya ko phir se dekh sakoon.
Agle din, main lectures attend karne ke liye college pahunch gaya. Pehli class shuru hui Par us din main Dr.Kavya ke khayalon mein hi dooba hua tha. Khair, doosri class bhi khatam ho gayi, aur teesri bhi.
Chautha lecture, roj ki tarah us subject ka tha jo mujhe sabse khatarnaak lagta tha, “Digital Electronics”. Mere pair college canteen ki taraf chal pade. Aakhir, pichhle chaar saal ki aadat jo thi, us lecture ko bunk karne ki. Par main jaise hi thoda aage badha, main khud par hasa ki ye mujhe kya ho raha hai, main Dr.Kavya ki class kaise bunk kar sakta hoon aur mere kadam khud-ba-khud classroom ki aur chal diye.
Jaane mujhe kya hota ja raha tha.Ye to ekdum nayi tarah ka ehsaas tha. Aisa pehle to kabhi nahi huya tha. Kuchh der baad, Dr.Kavya classroom mein dakhil huyi. Maine unhein dekha to bas dekhta hi reh gaya. Aaj to wo kal se bhi jyada khoobsurat lag rahi thi, kyonki wo ekdum bhartiya naari ki tarah saree pahan kar aayi thi aur kisi apsara se kam nahi lag rahi thi. Dr.Kavya ne padhana shuru kiya, aur unke padhane ka andaaz hi kuchh aisa tha ki, jis subject se main hamesha door bhagta raha, mujhe achanak wo subject samajh mein aane ke saath-saath mazedaar bhi lagne laga. Main Dr.Kavya ke mukh se nikalte huye ek ek shabd ko bade dhyan se sun aur samajh paa raha tha.
Phir to ye meri roj ki hi dincharya ban gai. Main roj Dr.Kavya ke lecture ki wait karta. Jis subject se main sabse jyada door bhagta tha, wo ab mera sab se pasandeeda subject ban chuka tha, aur usey padhane wali teacher, meri pasandeeda teacher ban chuki thi, ya phir yun kahein ki mujhe unse ishq ho chuka tha.
Ek din Dr.Kavya ka lecture khatam hone ke baad, jab sab students classroom se nikal gaye, to Dr.Kavya ne mujhe apne paas bulaya,”Rahul, zara idhar aao”.
Main ekdam se bhochaka sa reh gaya aur main unke paas gaya aur bola,” Ji, Dr.Kavya.”
Dr.Kavya boli, “Maine abhi pichhle saalon ke results aur attendence check kiye to pata chala, ki tum har subject mein har saal badi mushkil se paas huye ho aur tum lectures bhi kabhi kabhi hi attend karte they.”
Main thoda sa sharmate huye bola, “Ji Dr.Kavya.”
Dr.Kavya boli, ”Par kucchh dino se tumne meri koi class miss nahi ki. Aisa kyon?”
Main Dr. Kavya ko chah kar bhi ye bolne ki himmat nahi juta saka ki mujhe unse ishq ho gaya hai aur ye jawab de diya ki unke padhane ka tareeka hi itna achha hai, ki mujhe ab unka subject achha lagne laga hai.
Ye sun kar Dr.Kavya bahut khush hui aur mujhse boli “Good, Rahul. Aise hi man laga kar padhte raho. Tumhe jitni bhi madad chaiye hogi, main karungi. Bas lectures zaroor attend kiya karo.”
Us din Dr.Kavya se baat kar ke mujhe bahut achha laga, par thoda sa afsos bhi hua ki main chahte huye bhi apna hal-e-dil unhe bayaan nahi kar paaya. Par mujhe aaj Dr. Kavya ko prabhavit karne ka tareeka mil chuka tha. Us din, maine apne aap se ek waada kiya ki chahe jo bhi ho jaaye, main itne achhe marks laoonga ki mera dakhila usi college mein M.Tech mein ho jaaye. Maine ye soch liya ki mujhe ek safal engineer banna hai, tabhi main apne mata-pita ke sapne ko poora kar paunga aur saath hi Dr. Kavya ko paa sakunga.
Main din-raat padhai mein doob gaya.Waise bhi, mujhe ab Dr Kavya ke saath-saath unke subject se bhi ishq ho chuka tha. Mera lakshya ab mere saamne tha, Bas ab use pane ki hi der thi. Wo ek katra ishq meri zindagi ban chukka tha, ussi ko pane ke liye ab main bechain tha.
Saal ke din yun hi guzarte gaye. Main baki subjects ke lectures bunk kar bhi leta, lekin Dr. Kavya ke lectures bunk karne ki ab main kabhi sapne mein bhi nahi sochta tha. Kabhi-kabhi, ekaant mein, mujhe khud bhi hairani hoti thi ki main itna badal kaise gaya, aur main jitna sochta, mere man mein Dr.Kavya ke prati ijjat aur badh jaati, kyonki, unki wajah se hi to ye sab mumkin ho paya tha. Unke prati mere ishq ne, na kewal mera hosla badaya tha balki mujhe zindagi ki sachi raah bhi dikha di thi.
Mera hosla jab bhi tootne lagta, main Dr. Kavya se baat karta. Wo meri padhai main har tarah se madad karti aur apni councelling se mera hosla mazboot kar deti. Mujhe ab unki adat si ho chuki thi. Main roz kisi na kisi bahane unke paas pahunch jaata, aur wo har baar bina kisi swaarth ke meri madad bhi kar deti.
Ek din baaton hi baaton main maine unse pooch liya ki unhone ab tak shaadi kyon nahi ki. Dr. Kavya Boli, “Mere mata-pita ab is duniya main nahi hain. Unka sapna tha ki main ek Professor banu, isliye kabhi shaadi ke bare main socha hi nahi.”
Unki is baat ne mera hosla aur bada diya. Ab main bhi apne mata-pita ko ek safal engineer ban kar dikhana chahta tha. Meri, Dr kavya ke prati izaat ab charam seema tak pahunch chuki thi.
Maine khud ko padhai mein aur jyada vyast kar liya, aur jab kabhi meri himmat tootne lagti, main Dr.Kavya ko yaad karta, aur unko yaad karte hi main itna utsahit ho jaata, ki ek baar phir poore josh ke saath padhai karne baith jaata.
Main jee-jaan laga kar padhta raha, aur pata hi nahi chala ki kab imtihan ka waqt aa gaya. 10 din tak lagatar, mere imtihan they aur akhiri imtihan tha Digital Electronics ka. Imtihan hote rahe. Main roj sirf 2-3 ghante hi so pata. Aakhiri imtihan se ek din pehle, main bade josh se padhai karne baith gaya, par main us din tak itna thak chukka tha, ki kuchh bhi mere dimaag mein ghus nahi raha tha. Phir bhi, main kisi tarah apne aap ko jaga-jaga kar padhta raha. Kuchh samjhne ke liye der raat maine Dr. Kavya ko phone kiya aur fir se Dr. Kavya ne meri madad ki aur hosla badaya.
Raat ke kareeb 2 baje, achanak padhte-padhte kab meri aankh lag gayi, mujhe ye pata hi nahi chala. Jab subah kareeb 8 baje, meri neend khuli, tab mujhe is baat ka ehsaas hua. Mere haath- pair phool gaye. Imtihan subah 10 baje tha aur mujhe tayyar hone aur college pahunchne ke liye bhi kam-se-kam ek ghanta chahiye tha, aur abhi to meri revision bhi kaafi baki thi. Mujhe apne sapne bikharte huye dikhai dene lage. Maine Dr.Kavya ko yaad kiya, aur jitna bhi waqt mere paas tha, padhne baith gaya. Main jitna bhi padh paya, padh liya, aur phir main pareshan hota hua college ki taraf chal diya.
Jab main college pahuncha, tab tak imtihan shuru ho chukka tha, kyonki main kareeb 10 minute late ho gaya tha. Khair, maine question paper liya, aur imtihan dene baith gaya. Shuru mein to mujhe, kisi bhi prashn ka uttar nahi soojh raha tha. Meri aankhon se paani behne laga. Maine apni aankhein band kar li. Mujhe aisa mehsoos hua ki Dr.Kavya mujhse keh rahi ho ki jaao apne sapne ko poora karo, paa lo apni manzil, yun himmat na haro. Maine apni aankhein kholi, aur mahsoos kiya ki mere andar ek nayi sfurti aa gayi hai. Main ek-ek karke sabhi sawalon ke uttar deta chala gaya aur main hairan reh gaya, ki mera exam waqt se kareeb 10 minute pehle hi khatam ho gaya. Maine apni answer sheet de di aur examination hall se bahar aa gaya.
Aakhir results ka din bhi aa gaya. Main subah-subah ghabrate huye college pahunch gaya. Ek jagah bahut bheed lagi hui thi. Main bhi bheed mein ghus gaya.Saamne board par results lage huye they. Main ye dekh kar bahut khush hua ki main sabhi subjects mein achhe marks se paas ho gaya hoon. Aur Dr. Kavya ke subject mein to mujhe 100 mein se 99 number mile hain. Main jaldi se staff-room ki taraf dauda.
Jaise hi main staff-room mein ghusa, Dr.Kavya apni kursi se khadi ho kar, taali bajane lagi, aur boli, “Mubarak ho Rahul, tumne poori university mein top kiya hai. Mujhe tum par garv hai.” Unki ye baat sun kar main khushi se phoola nahi samaya aur mujhe apni manzil mere saamne khadi dikhai dene lagi.
“Ye sab aapki wajah se hi mumkin hua hai madam” Maine Dr.Kavya ko kaha.
“Nahi, ye sab to tumhari mehnat ka fal hai, Rahul,” Dr.Kavya ne haste huye mujhe kaha.
Us din main bahut khush tha ki main Dr. Kavya ko khush karne mein kamyab hua aur man-hi-man socha ki ab main unko apne dil ki baat aasani se keh paoonga.
Maine agle hi din, M.Tech ke liye apne college mein application daal di. Kuchh dino baad, mujhe apne hi college mein M.Tech mein daakhila bhi mil gaya, aakhir maine university mein top jo kiya tha.
Main bahut khush tha kyonki Dr.Kavya, M.Tech ke lectures bhi deti thi. M.Tech shuru ho gaya aur main roj Dr.Kavya ke lectures attend karne laga.Wo bhi meri mehnat se bahut khush thi. Ab main bhi unse thoda khulne laga tha, aur bina kisi hichkichahat, unse baat kar leta tha. Ab mujhe lagne laga ki mujhe Dr.Kavya ko apne dil ki baat bata hi deni chahiye. Maine ek do baar baaton hi baaton mein koshish bhi ki par unhein apne dil ki baat batane ki himmat na juta paaya, ye soch kar ki na jaane, unki kya pratikriya hogi, aakhir mujhme aur unme 10 saal ka antar jo tha.
Phir agla Valentine’s day bhi aa gaya aur maine nishchay kar liya ki aaj to main unhein apne dil ki baat keh kar hi rahunga. Us din lectures ke baad, main seedha Dr.Kavya ke paas gaya aur unse keh hi diya ki main unse kuchh baat karna chahta hoon.
“Kaho, Rahul “, Dr.Kavya boli.
Main bola “Nahi, yahan nahi, kahin baahar.”
Meri ye baat sun kar Dr.Kavya thoda sa chaunki, par phir unhone kaha ki “Theek hai. Shaam ko college ke baad mujhe baahar milna.”
Main khushi-khushi wahan se chala gaya. Shaam ko jab college khatam ho gaya, to main college ke main-gate ke paas unka intezaar karne laga. Main thoda bechain tha ki apne dil ki ye baat unko kaise bataunga ki tabhi mujhe samne se Dr.Kavya aati dikhai di.
Wo mere paas aa kar ruk gayi aur phir mujhse boli, “Kaho Rahul.Tum mujhse kya kehna chahte the?”
Maine himmat juta kar unhein keh hi diya, “Main aapki bahut izzat karta hun, pata nahi kaise kahun, par ye sach hai ki main aapse ishq kar baitha hun, aur main apni baaki zindagi aapke saath guzarna chahta hun. I love you, Dr.Kavya.Will you marry me?”
Meri ye baat achanak sun kar, Dr.Kavya ke chehre ke bhaav main pareshaani aur chinta jhalakne lagi.
Wo mujhse boli, “Rahul, agar tum ye proposal kisi bhi ladki ko dete to wo tumhein mana nahi kar paati. Tum dikhne mein achhe ho, itne honhaar ho, aur kya chahiye kisi ladki ko. Par………..”
Unka ye Par sun kar main thoda pareshan ho gaya.
“Par kya madam?” main bola.
Dr.Kavya boli, “ Rahul, maine tumhe kewal apne ek student ke roop mein hi dekha hai, upar se main tumse 10 saal badi hun. Aisa nahi ki main tumhe pasand nahi karti par hamari shaadi kisi bhi haal mein mumkin nahi hai. Please tum ye sab apne dimaag se nikal do.”
Main bola, “Ishq mein Umar ka kya lena-dena, Dr. Kavya. Ishq umar dekh kar to nahi hota!”
Is par Dr. Kavya Boli, “Agar tum mujhse sacha ishq karte ho aur mujhe ek achha guru maante ho to tum mujhe aaj meri Gurudakshina de do.”
Main bola, “Gurudakshina. Main kuchh samjha nahi”.
Dr.Kavya boli, “Dekho,Rahul.Main tumhara dil nahi todna chahati, par meri Gurudakshina ka samay ab aa gaya hai. Aasha karti hun tum use zaroor poora karoge.”
Main bola, “Theek hai, madam. Aap jo kahengi main wohi karunga, batayiye aap kya chahti hain?”
Dr.Kavya boli, “Rahul, meri gurudakshina ye hai, ki tum mujhe hamesha ke liye bhool jao, kyonki meri mangni pehle hi kisi ke saath ho chuki hai aur hamari shaadi bhi hone wali hai.”
Meri aankhen bhar aai aur wo ek katra ishq, meri aankhon main ashq ban kar aa gaya, par maine use behne na diya. Bhaari swar main mein unse bola “Theek hai. Dr.Kavya, main aapki izzat karta hoon. Mujhe ye gurudakshina manzoor hai.”
Ye bol kar main wahan se jaane laga. Dr.Kavya mujhe piche se pukarti rahi, par maine unhein mud kar nahi dekha. Mere sapne toot chuke thay. Agle kuchh dino tak main college bhi nahi gaya. Kuchh dino baad jab main college pahuncha, main Dr.Kavya ko nazrein utha kar dekh tak nahi paa raha tha.
Jab lecture khatam hone ke baad, main jaane laga, Dr.Kavya ne mujhe pukara. Main unke paas gaya.
Wo mujhse boli, “Rahul, tum samajhne ki koshish karo. Main tumhara dil yun todna nahi chahti thi, par main majboor hoon.”
Main bola, “Nahi madam. Ab main theek hoon.”
Ye keh kar main wahan se nikal gaya.Waqt guzarta gaya aur aaj ye din bhi aa gaya. Aaj Dr. Kavya ki shaadi thi. Wo kuchh doori par dulhan ke roop mein khadi thi aur kisi apsara se kam nahi lag rahi thi. Unko issi roop main dekhne ki meri chahat aaj puri ho chuki thi. Par mere dil par ek gehra sa zakhm lag chuka tha.
Main apne dard ko bardasht nahi kar paaya aur wahan se bahar chala gaya aur ek kone main baith kar sochta raha ki aisa mere saath hi kyon hua.
Shaam apne charam par pahunch gayi. Dr.Kavya aur unke hone wale pati ne ek dusre ko Var-mala pehnai. Sab logon ki khushi aur badahiyon ka shor bahar tak mere kaano main padne laga, wo shehnai ki madhur dhwani mere kaano se hote huye mere seene ko chhalni kar rahi thi. Wo ek katra ishq meri aankhon mae ashk ban kar aa gaya, par maine use is baar bhi behne na diya.
Kuchh der baad maine kisi tarah se himmat jutai aur waapas marriage-hall main pravesh kar gaya. Maine dono ko badhai di aur Dr.Kavya ko bouquet dete huye bola, “Shaadi ki bahut-bahut badhai ho.Main aapke ujjwal bhavishya ki kamna karta hoon.Main aapko kabhi nahi bhool paoonga.Ye mera saubhagya hai ki mujhe aap jaisi kabil teacher ke dwara padhne ka mauka mila aur aapki wajah se hi main apne mata-pita ka sapna poora kar saka.
Mera itna hi kehna tha ki Dr.Kavya ke pati ek dum se Dr.Kavya ko hairani se bol pade, “Teacher!, Tum kab se padhane lag gayi?”
Main unki baat kuchh samajh pata, is se pehle hi Dr. Kavya jor-jor se hasne lagi aur mujhe kehne lagi, “Apni shakal to dekho tum. Kaise hairan-pareshan se khade ho. Zara peeche mud kar to dekho.”
Maine mud kar dekha to wahan bhi Dr.Kavya hi khadi thi. Is se pehle ki main kuchh samajh paata, wo mere paas chal kar aayi aur boli, “Hairan mat ho, Rahul. Main hi hoon Dr.Kavya. Wo jo stage par khadi hai, wo meri judwa behan Kamya hai.
Main stabdh khada sab kuchh sun raha tha. Dr.Kavya phir boli, “Rahul, maine ye sab jhooth tumhari pariksha lene ke liye kaha tha. Main ye janna chahti thi, ki jise tum ishq kehte ho, wo sach mein ishq hi hai, ya sirf aakarshan. Ishq ka matlab hi qurbaani hota hai. Tabhi to tumne mere kehne par mujhe itni aasani se wo gurudakshina de di. Tum meri pariksha mein 100 fisidi ankon se paas ho gaye ho aur ab main nisankoch keh sakti hoon, ki I love you too, Rahul. Will you marry me?”
Itna sunte hi, wo ek katra ishq aakhirkar meri aankon se chhalak hi gaya aur seedha Dr. Kavya ki hatheli main sama gaya. Mujhe meri poori duniya hi mil gayi thi. Ab iske baad shayad bhagwan se aur kuch mangane ki aasha nahi rahi mere mann main. Maine Dr.Kavya ko apne seene se laga liya, khud se phir kabhi na juda karne ke liye.
Maine apni zindagi mein aksar ye suna tha ki kuchh logon ko pahli nazar mein hi mohabbat ho jati hai laikin mere mamle main kuch alag hi ho gaya. Mujhe pahli nazar main mohabbat nahi balki ishq ho gaya.
Mohabbat aur ishq ka fark bilkul aisa he hai jaise darya aur samandar ka, darya chahe kitna hi vishaal kyun na ho akhir mein ja ke samandar ki baahon main panah le leta hai. Usi tarhan mohabbat chahe kitni hi shadeed kyun na ho jab tak woh ishq nahi banti tab tak us main samandar jaisi uthaan aur gahrayi nahi aati. Aur maine mohabbat ke meem se ishq ke ain tak ka safar bas us pahli hi nazar main paar kar liya tha.
Aur aaj apne ussi ishq ko dulhaan ke roop mein daikh ke shayad meri zindagi ka har sapna pura ho gaya hai, ab iske baad shayad bhagwan se aur kuch mangane ki aasha nahi rahi mere mann main.
Hum dono ki kahani tab shuru hui, jab main BE final year mein tha. Engineering main mujhe shuru se koi interest nahi tha, kyonki main ek safal playback singer banna chahta tha. Par mere mata-pita hamesha se hi mujhe ek engineer ke roop main dekhna chahte thay. Isliye maine unka dil rakhne ke liye, kisi tarah BE (Electronics and Communication) main admission le liya tha.
Pichhle 3 saal mere liye kisi nark se kam nahi guzre thay. Mujhe kabhi koi subject samajh hi nahi aaya tha. Bas kisi tarah main har subject mein passing marks le aaya karta aur lectures bhi utne hi attend karta, jitne ki exams main baithne ke liye zaroori hote.
Khair, Final year ab shuru ho chuka tha. Main khush tha ki is nark roopi BE ka ye aakhri saal tha aur main kisi tarah apne mata-pita ke sapne ko pura karne wala tha. Par andar hi andar main poori tarah se toot chuka tha aur is nark ko aur nahi jhel paa raha tha. Meri tabiyat kharaab rehne lagi. Jitna bhi main padai ke bare mein sochta utna hi aur bimar ho jaata. Main kai din tak college nahi gaya.
Phir ek din achanak, main yoon hi man maar ke, lectures attend karne ke liye pahunch gaya. Abhi professor sahab aaye nahi the. Achanak, ek behad khoobsurat si mahila, classroom mein dakhil huyi aur uuhone padhana shuru kar diya. Main hairan reh gaya, ki professor sahab kahan gaye aur ye mahila kaun hai. Maine aas-paas dekha, to koi bhi hairan nahi hua tha, siwai mere. Kyonki, aaj main kaafi dino baad college aaya tha, isiliye, main samajh gaya ki ye koi nayi teacher hain. Lecture khatam hone ke baad mere baaki students se puchhne par, is baat ki pushti ho gayi ki Professor sahab retire ho gaye hain, aur unki jagah ye nayi teacher aayi hai. Us teacher ka naam tha Kavya. Unhone Phd. ki hui thi, isliye sab unhe Dr. Kavya keh kar bulate thay.
Kya teacher thi wo !!. Jitni dekhne mein sundar, utni hi apne subject mein maahir. Main to pehli hi najar mein unpar aur unke padhane ke tareeke par fida ho gaya.
Wo umar mein kareeb mujhse 10 saal badi hogi, par kisi bhi jawan khoobsurat ladki ko sundarta mein maat de de. Itni komal thi ki haath lagate hi maili ho jaye.
Main Dr.Kavya se itna prabhavit ho gaya ki main apni sudh-budh kho baitha aur class khatam hone ke baad bhi clasroom mein 10-15 minute tak yoon hi unke khayalon mein khoya baitha raha.
Us raat mujhe achhi tarah se neend nahi aayi, kyonki main to Dr.Kavya ke khayalon mein hi dooba hua tha. Main raat bhar, subah hone ka intejaar karta raha, taaki main Dr.Kavya ko phir se dekh sakoon.
Agle din, main lectures attend karne ke liye college pahunch gaya. Pehli class shuru hui Par us din main Dr.Kavya ke khayalon mein hi dooba hua tha. Khair, doosri class bhi khatam ho gayi, aur teesri bhi.
Chautha lecture, roj ki tarah us subject ka tha jo mujhe sabse khatarnaak lagta tha, “Digital Electronics”. Mere pair college canteen ki taraf chal pade. Aakhir, pichhle chaar saal ki aadat jo thi, us lecture ko bunk karne ki. Par main jaise hi thoda aage badha, main khud par hasa ki ye mujhe kya ho raha hai, main Dr.Kavya ki class kaise bunk kar sakta hoon aur mere kadam khud-ba-khud classroom ki aur chal diye.
Jaane mujhe kya hota ja raha tha.Ye to ekdum nayi tarah ka ehsaas tha. Aisa pehle to kabhi nahi huya tha. Kuchh der baad, Dr.Kavya classroom mein dakhil huyi. Maine unhein dekha to bas dekhta hi reh gaya. Aaj to wo kal se bhi jyada khoobsurat lag rahi thi, kyonki wo ekdum bhartiya naari ki tarah saree pahan kar aayi thi aur kisi apsara se kam nahi lag rahi thi. Dr.Kavya ne padhana shuru kiya, aur unke padhane ka andaaz hi kuchh aisa tha ki, jis subject se main hamesha door bhagta raha, mujhe achanak wo subject samajh mein aane ke saath-saath mazedaar bhi lagne laga. Main Dr.Kavya ke mukh se nikalte huye ek ek shabd ko bade dhyan se sun aur samajh paa raha tha.
Phir to ye meri roj ki hi dincharya ban gai. Main roj Dr.Kavya ke lecture ki wait karta. Jis subject se main sabse jyada door bhagta tha, wo ab mera sab se pasandeeda subject ban chuka tha, aur usey padhane wali teacher, meri pasandeeda teacher ban chuki thi, ya phir yun kahein ki mujhe unse ishq ho chuka tha.
Ek din Dr.Kavya ka lecture khatam hone ke baad, jab sab students classroom se nikal gaye, to Dr.Kavya ne mujhe apne paas bulaya,”Rahul, zara idhar aao”.
Main ekdam se bhochaka sa reh gaya aur main unke paas gaya aur bola,” Ji, Dr.Kavya.”
Dr.Kavya boli, “Maine abhi pichhle saalon ke results aur attendence check kiye to pata chala, ki tum har subject mein har saal badi mushkil se paas huye ho aur tum lectures bhi kabhi kabhi hi attend karte they.”
Main thoda sa sharmate huye bola, “Ji Dr.Kavya.”
Dr.Kavya boli, ”Par kucchh dino se tumne meri koi class miss nahi ki. Aisa kyon?”
Main Dr. Kavya ko chah kar bhi ye bolne ki himmat nahi juta saka ki mujhe unse ishq ho gaya hai aur ye jawab de diya ki unke padhane ka tareeka hi itna achha hai, ki mujhe ab unka subject achha lagne laga hai.
Ye sun kar Dr.Kavya bahut khush hui aur mujhse boli “Good, Rahul. Aise hi man laga kar padhte raho. Tumhe jitni bhi madad chaiye hogi, main karungi. Bas lectures zaroor attend kiya karo.”
Us din Dr.Kavya se baat kar ke mujhe bahut achha laga, par thoda sa afsos bhi hua ki main chahte huye bhi apna hal-e-dil unhe bayaan nahi kar paaya. Par mujhe aaj Dr. Kavya ko prabhavit karne ka tareeka mil chuka tha. Us din, maine apne aap se ek waada kiya ki chahe jo bhi ho jaaye, main itne achhe marks laoonga ki mera dakhila usi college mein M.Tech mein ho jaaye. Maine ye soch liya ki mujhe ek safal engineer banna hai, tabhi main apne mata-pita ke sapne ko poora kar paunga aur saath hi Dr. Kavya ko paa sakunga.
Main din-raat padhai mein doob gaya.Waise bhi, mujhe ab Dr Kavya ke saath-saath unke subject se bhi ishq ho chuka tha. Mera lakshya ab mere saamne tha, Bas ab use pane ki hi der thi. Wo ek katra ishq meri zindagi ban chukka tha, ussi ko pane ke liye ab main bechain tha.
Saal ke din yun hi guzarte gaye. Main baki subjects ke lectures bunk kar bhi leta, lekin Dr. Kavya ke lectures bunk karne ki ab main kabhi sapne mein bhi nahi sochta tha. Kabhi-kabhi, ekaant mein, mujhe khud bhi hairani hoti thi ki main itna badal kaise gaya, aur main jitna sochta, mere man mein Dr.Kavya ke prati ijjat aur badh jaati, kyonki, unki wajah se hi to ye sab mumkin ho paya tha. Unke prati mere ishq ne, na kewal mera hosla badaya tha balki mujhe zindagi ki sachi raah bhi dikha di thi.
Mera hosla jab bhi tootne lagta, main Dr. Kavya se baat karta. Wo meri padhai main har tarah se madad karti aur apni councelling se mera hosla mazboot kar deti. Mujhe ab unki adat si ho chuki thi. Main roz kisi na kisi bahane unke paas pahunch jaata, aur wo har baar bina kisi swaarth ke meri madad bhi kar deti.
Ek din baaton hi baaton main maine unse pooch liya ki unhone ab tak shaadi kyon nahi ki. Dr. Kavya Boli, “Mere mata-pita ab is duniya main nahi hain. Unka sapna tha ki main ek Professor banu, isliye kabhi shaadi ke bare main socha hi nahi.”
Unki is baat ne mera hosla aur bada diya. Ab main bhi apne mata-pita ko ek safal engineer ban kar dikhana chahta tha. Meri, Dr kavya ke prati izaat ab charam seema tak pahunch chuki thi.
Maine khud ko padhai mein aur jyada vyast kar liya, aur jab kabhi meri himmat tootne lagti, main Dr.Kavya ko yaad karta, aur unko yaad karte hi main itna utsahit ho jaata, ki ek baar phir poore josh ke saath padhai karne baith jaata.
Main jee-jaan laga kar padhta raha, aur pata hi nahi chala ki kab imtihan ka waqt aa gaya. 10 din tak lagatar, mere imtihan they aur akhiri imtihan tha Digital Electronics ka. Imtihan hote rahe. Main roj sirf 2-3 ghante hi so pata. Aakhiri imtihan se ek din pehle, main bade josh se padhai karne baith gaya, par main us din tak itna thak chukka tha, ki kuchh bhi mere dimaag mein ghus nahi raha tha. Phir bhi, main kisi tarah apne aap ko jaga-jaga kar padhta raha. Kuchh samjhne ke liye der raat maine Dr. Kavya ko phone kiya aur fir se Dr. Kavya ne meri madad ki aur hosla badaya.
Raat ke kareeb 2 baje, achanak padhte-padhte kab meri aankh lag gayi, mujhe ye pata hi nahi chala. Jab subah kareeb 8 baje, meri neend khuli, tab mujhe is baat ka ehsaas hua. Mere haath- pair phool gaye. Imtihan subah 10 baje tha aur mujhe tayyar hone aur college pahunchne ke liye bhi kam-se-kam ek ghanta chahiye tha, aur abhi to meri revision bhi kaafi baki thi. Mujhe apne sapne bikharte huye dikhai dene lage. Maine Dr.Kavya ko yaad kiya, aur jitna bhi waqt mere paas tha, padhne baith gaya. Main jitna bhi padh paya, padh liya, aur phir main pareshan hota hua college ki taraf chal diya.
Jab main college pahuncha, tab tak imtihan shuru ho chukka tha, kyonki main kareeb 10 minute late ho gaya tha. Khair, maine question paper liya, aur imtihan dene baith gaya. Shuru mein to mujhe, kisi bhi prashn ka uttar nahi soojh raha tha. Meri aankhon se paani behne laga. Maine apni aankhein band kar li. Mujhe aisa mehsoos hua ki Dr.Kavya mujhse keh rahi ho ki jaao apne sapne ko poora karo, paa lo apni manzil, yun himmat na haro. Maine apni aankhein kholi, aur mahsoos kiya ki mere andar ek nayi sfurti aa gayi hai. Main ek-ek karke sabhi sawalon ke uttar deta chala gaya aur main hairan reh gaya, ki mera exam waqt se kareeb 10 minute pehle hi khatam ho gaya. Maine apni answer sheet de di aur examination hall se bahar aa gaya.
Aakhir results ka din bhi aa gaya. Main subah-subah ghabrate huye college pahunch gaya. Ek jagah bahut bheed lagi hui thi. Main bhi bheed mein ghus gaya.Saamne board par results lage huye they. Main ye dekh kar bahut khush hua ki main sabhi subjects mein achhe marks se paas ho gaya hoon. Aur Dr. Kavya ke subject mein to mujhe 100 mein se 99 number mile hain. Main jaldi se staff-room ki taraf dauda.
Jaise hi main staff-room mein ghusa, Dr.Kavya apni kursi se khadi ho kar, taali bajane lagi, aur boli, “Mubarak ho Rahul, tumne poori university mein top kiya hai. Mujhe tum par garv hai.” Unki ye baat sun kar main khushi se phoola nahi samaya aur mujhe apni manzil mere saamne khadi dikhai dene lagi.
“Ye sab aapki wajah se hi mumkin hua hai madam” Maine Dr.Kavya ko kaha.
“Nahi, ye sab to tumhari mehnat ka fal hai, Rahul,” Dr.Kavya ne haste huye mujhe kaha.
Us din main bahut khush tha ki main Dr. Kavya ko khush karne mein kamyab hua aur man-hi-man socha ki ab main unko apne dil ki baat aasani se keh paoonga.
Maine agle hi din, M.Tech ke liye apne college mein application daal di. Kuchh dino baad, mujhe apne hi college mein M.Tech mein daakhila bhi mil gaya, aakhir maine university mein top jo kiya tha.
Main bahut khush tha kyonki Dr.Kavya, M.Tech ke lectures bhi deti thi. M.Tech shuru ho gaya aur main roj Dr.Kavya ke lectures attend karne laga.Wo bhi meri mehnat se bahut khush thi. Ab main bhi unse thoda khulne laga tha, aur bina kisi hichkichahat, unse baat kar leta tha. Ab mujhe lagne laga ki mujhe Dr.Kavya ko apne dil ki baat bata hi deni chahiye. Maine ek do baar baaton hi baaton mein koshish bhi ki par unhein apne dil ki baat batane ki himmat na juta paaya, ye soch kar ki na jaane, unki kya pratikriya hogi, aakhir mujhme aur unme 10 saal ka antar jo tha.
Phir agla Valentine’s day bhi aa gaya aur maine nishchay kar liya ki aaj to main unhein apne dil ki baat keh kar hi rahunga. Us din lectures ke baad, main seedha Dr.Kavya ke paas gaya aur unse keh hi diya ki main unse kuchh baat karna chahta hoon.
“Kaho, Rahul “, Dr.Kavya boli.
Main bola “Nahi, yahan nahi, kahin baahar.”
Meri ye baat sun kar Dr.Kavya thoda sa chaunki, par phir unhone kaha ki “Theek hai. Shaam ko college ke baad mujhe baahar milna.”
Main khushi-khushi wahan se chala gaya. Shaam ko jab college khatam ho gaya, to main college ke main-gate ke paas unka intezaar karne laga. Main thoda bechain tha ki apne dil ki ye baat unko kaise bataunga ki tabhi mujhe samne se Dr.Kavya aati dikhai di.
Wo mere paas aa kar ruk gayi aur phir mujhse boli, “Kaho Rahul.Tum mujhse kya kehna chahte the?”
Maine himmat juta kar unhein keh hi diya, “Main aapki bahut izzat karta hun, pata nahi kaise kahun, par ye sach hai ki main aapse ishq kar baitha hun, aur main apni baaki zindagi aapke saath guzarna chahta hun. I love you, Dr.Kavya.Will you marry me?”
Meri ye baat achanak sun kar, Dr.Kavya ke chehre ke bhaav main pareshaani aur chinta jhalakne lagi.
Wo mujhse boli, “Rahul, agar tum ye proposal kisi bhi ladki ko dete to wo tumhein mana nahi kar paati. Tum dikhne mein achhe ho, itne honhaar ho, aur kya chahiye kisi ladki ko. Par………..”
Unka ye Par sun kar main thoda pareshan ho gaya.
“Par kya madam?” main bola.
Dr.Kavya boli, “ Rahul, maine tumhe kewal apne ek student ke roop mein hi dekha hai, upar se main tumse 10 saal badi hun. Aisa nahi ki main tumhe pasand nahi karti par hamari shaadi kisi bhi haal mein mumkin nahi hai. Please tum ye sab apne dimaag se nikal do.”
Main bola, “Ishq mein Umar ka kya lena-dena, Dr. Kavya. Ishq umar dekh kar to nahi hota!”
Is par Dr. Kavya Boli, “Agar tum mujhse sacha ishq karte ho aur mujhe ek achha guru maante ho to tum mujhe aaj meri Gurudakshina de do.”
Main bola, “Gurudakshina. Main kuchh samjha nahi”.
Dr.Kavya boli, “Dekho,Rahul.Main tumhara dil nahi todna chahati, par meri Gurudakshina ka samay ab aa gaya hai. Aasha karti hun tum use zaroor poora karoge.”
Main bola, “Theek hai, madam. Aap jo kahengi main wohi karunga, batayiye aap kya chahti hain?”
Dr.Kavya boli, “Rahul, meri gurudakshina ye hai, ki tum mujhe hamesha ke liye bhool jao, kyonki meri mangni pehle hi kisi ke saath ho chuki hai aur hamari shaadi bhi hone wali hai.”
Meri aankhen bhar aai aur wo ek katra ishq, meri aankhon main ashq ban kar aa gaya, par maine use behne na diya. Bhaari swar main mein unse bola “Theek hai. Dr.Kavya, main aapki izzat karta hoon. Mujhe ye gurudakshina manzoor hai.”
Ye bol kar main wahan se jaane laga. Dr.Kavya mujhe piche se pukarti rahi, par maine unhein mud kar nahi dekha. Mere sapne toot chuke thay. Agle kuchh dino tak main college bhi nahi gaya. Kuchh dino baad jab main college pahuncha, main Dr.Kavya ko nazrein utha kar dekh tak nahi paa raha tha.
Jab lecture khatam hone ke baad, main jaane laga, Dr.Kavya ne mujhe pukara. Main unke paas gaya.
Wo mujhse boli, “Rahul, tum samajhne ki koshish karo. Main tumhara dil yun todna nahi chahti thi, par main majboor hoon.”
Main bola, “Nahi madam. Ab main theek hoon.”
Ye keh kar main wahan se nikal gaya.Waqt guzarta gaya aur aaj ye din bhi aa gaya. Aaj Dr. Kavya ki shaadi thi. Wo kuchh doori par dulhan ke roop mein khadi thi aur kisi apsara se kam nahi lag rahi thi. Unko issi roop main dekhne ki meri chahat aaj puri ho chuki thi. Par mere dil par ek gehra sa zakhm lag chuka tha.
Main apne dard ko bardasht nahi kar paaya aur wahan se bahar chala gaya aur ek kone main baith kar sochta raha ki aisa mere saath hi kyon hua.
Shaam apne charam par pahunch gayi. Dr.Kavya aur unke hone wale pati ne ek dusre ko Var-mala pehnai. Sab logon ki khushi aur badahiyon ka shor bahar tak mere kaano main padne laga, wo shehnai ki madhur dhwani mere kaano se hote huye mere seene ko chhalni kar rahi thi. Wo ek katra ishq meri aankhon mae ashk ban kar aa gaya, par maine use is baar bhi behne na diya.
Kuchh der baad maine kisi tarah se himmat jutai aur waapas marriage-hall main pravesh kar gaya. Maine dono ko badhai di aur Dr.Kavya ko bouquet dete huye bola, “Shaadi ki bahut-bahut badhai ho.Main aapke ujjwal bhavishya ki kamna karta hoon.Main aapko kabhi nahi bhool paoonga.Ye mera saubhagya hai ki mujhe aap jaisi kabil teacher ke dwara padhne ka mauka mila aur aapki wajah se hi main apne mata-pita ka sapna poora kar saka.
Mera itna hi kehna tha ki Dr.Kavya ke pati ek dum se Dr.Kavya ko hairani se bol pade, “Teacher!, Tum kab se padhane lag gayi?”
Main unki baat kuchh samajh pata, is se pehle hi Dr. Kavya jor-jor se hasne lagi aur mujhe kehne lagi, “Apni shakal to dekho tum. Kaise hairan-pareshan se khade ho. Zara peeche mud kar to dekho.”
Maine mud kar dekha to wahan bhi Dr.Kavya hi khadi thi. Is se pehle ki main kuchh samajh paata, wo mere paas chal kar aayi aur boli, “Hairan mat ho, Rahul. Main hi hoon Dr.Kavya. Wo jo stage par khadi hai, wo meri judwa behan Kamya hai.
Main stabdh khada sab kuchh sun raha tha. Dr.Kavya phir boli, “Rahul, maine ye sab jhooth tumhari pariksha lene ke liye kaha tha. Main ye janna chahti thi, ki jise tum ishq kehte ho, wo sach mein ishq hi hai, ya sirf aakarshan. Ishq ka matlab hi qurbaani hota hai. Tabhi to tumne mere kehne par mujhe itni aasani se wo gurudakshina de di. Tum meri pariksha mein 100 fisidi ankon se paas ho gaye ho aur ab main nisankoch keh sakti hoon, ki I love you too, Rahul. Will you marry me?”
Itna sunte hi, wo ek katra ishq aakhirkar meri aankon se chhalak hi gaya aur seedha Dr. Kavya ki hatheli main sama gaya. Mujhe meri poori duniya hi mil gayi thi. Ab iske baad shayad bhagwan se aur kuch mangane ki aasha nahi rahi mere mann main. Maine Dr.Kavya ko apne seene se laga liya, khud se phir kabhi na juda karne ke liye.