UPDATE 25
Kutiya me baitha hua mai soch raha tha kya ye sab sach hai jo swami ji ne bataya, kyan wakayi mai hi surya hu, lekin mera to chehra bhi badal gaya hai kahi aisa to nahi ki swamiji ne pehchanne me koi bhool ki ho kyoki agar mujhme itni shaktiya hoti to mujhe awashya pta hota.
Fir mujhe dhyaan aaya ki swamiji ne kaha tha ki shaktiyo ko bhi supt awastha se jagana hai. Kya jamela hai yaar. Fir mera dhyaan Kiran ki aur gaya uska chehra , wo aansu par wo aansu mujhe kisi dukh ya peeda k to nahi they, kya wo bhi mere ateet se judi hai.
Tabhi bahar ek khatka sa hua, mujhe laga koi shishya bhojan k liye bulane aaya hai to maine uth k dwar khola, bahar Kiran khadi thi. Uska chehra kisi khushi se jagmaga raha tha. palke abhi bhi namm thi.
K – t…. tum…. Tum mmm mere….. I mean tum…. Tum sachmuch surya ho……. Kya tumhe…. Tumhe sachmuch kuch bhi yaad nahi….
S – relax Kiran …. Aap aao yahan baitho….
K – nn nahi…. mai theek hu…. Lekin agar tum hi surya ho to tumhara chehra kaise badal gaya. Aur ab tak they kahan tum.
S – look mujhe sachmuch kuch yaad nahi apne past ka aur mai behoshi aur ghayal awastha me kuch logo ko mila tha jinhone mera na sirf meri plastic surgery karwayi balki coma k dauraan mera dhyan rakha, sath hi theek hone k baad apne mare hue bete ki jagah aur naam bhi diya.
K – m… mai… mai aaj bahut khush hu ki ishwar ne meri sun li aur tumhe wapas bhej diya.
S – kya tum mere baare me sab janti ho, tum mujhe mera ateet bta sakti ho ?
K – haan mai…… nahi…. Mai abhi kuch nahi bta sakti, pitaji ne kaha hai ki wo sab tumhe khud yaad aana chahiye aur jald hi aayega bhi. Mujhe bhi besabri se us waqt ka intzaar rahega.
S – hmmm… achha mai jara bhojan kar aaun..
K – tum ruko yahi mai swayam tumhare liye bhojan lekar aati hu.
Kehkar wo bhagkar chali gayi. Thodi der baad woe k thaal me bhojan le kar aa gayi. Main baithkar bhojan karna shuru karne laga tabhi maine poocha – tumne bhojan kiya
K – aaj to meri bhookh pyaas sab khushi k mare ud hi gayi h, fir bhi mai baad me bhojan kar loongi abhi tum shuru karo surya
Mai chupchap bhojan karne laga, wo baar baar mujhe aise ‘vaari jau’ wale andaaz me dekh rahi thi k bas…. Uski najaro se mai baicheni se feel kar raha tha par kuch bola nahi. Mere bhojan karne k baad wo juthe bartan aadi le kar chali gayi.
Bhojan karne k kuch der baad mai swami ji se milne gaya. Unhone mujhe dhyan aur kundalini jagran k Vishay me kaafi kuch bataya. Aur agle din prathkaal se pratidin dhyaan karne ko kaha.
Mai unhe pranaam karke apni kutiya me aa gaya aur aane wale kal k baare me sochta hua so gaya taaki subah jaldi uthkar dhyaan kar saku.
