Update - 70
Mein darwaja peet-ta raha, muh se kuch nahi bola, bas darwaja peet-ta raha.. janta tha darwaje ke us taraf ankita mam khadi hai, sun rahi hai.. janti hai ki mein hun par kuch bol nahi rahi. Mein bhi kuch bolne ke liye muh kholta par phir bina kuch bole hi band kar leta. Muh band hua par hath nahi ruke, vo us darwaje ko bajate rahe aur akhir kafi der baad darwaja khula. Darwaja khul kar kuch second beet chuke the lekin meri nazar uppar nahi uthi thi. Mujhe pura yakeen tha ki ankita mam is waqt bahut gusse mein hogi, itna ki shayad aaj meri aur unki akhri mulakat hi ho. Mene soch liya tha ki mein nazre uthate hi sab kuch bata dunga, jo baat mujhe bahut pehle bata deni chahie, mein sab bata dunga, lekin jab nazre uthai to vo vahan khadi hi nahi thi.
Vo hall ke bich mein khadi kuch dekh rahi thi, kya pata nahi, is jigasya mein pair khud andar ho gaye aur andar pahunch kar samajh aya ki vo ghadi ki taraf dekh rahi hai. Mene andar akar gate band kar dia, gate band karna sirf ek bahana tha balki mein to bolne ke liye himmat ikhati karne ke liye waqt le raha tha bas. Mein unki taraf muda aur kuch bolne ki kosish ki. Dil zoron se dhadak raha tha, matlab bahut zoron se, itna zoron se ki lawda aisa laga jaise dil fat ke hath mein aa jayega aur kahega le ab chus le
" ank.. " jaban abhi puri tarah se khuli bhi nahi thi.
" get out.. " vo boli aur mein piche se use ek tuk dekhta raha. Aisa lag raha tha jaise mein ek judge ke samne khada hun aur vo mujhe saza suna rahe ho. Vo bhi tab jab abhi to meri sunvai bhi na shuru hui ho.
" par .. "
" i said .. get out.. " vahi dubara, bas do shabd aur jod die the unme unhone. Ek pal to kiya chala jaun phir kabhi baat karunga, fat to yahan ane se hi rahi thi aur abhi double... par dimag ne ye elan bhi jaldi kiya agar ab gaya to samajh lena hamesha ke liye gaya. Ek pal to dimag ko kaha ki ye pal gaya to gaya agar ek baar lawda gaya to zindagi bhar gand deni padegi lene ke to sapne mein hi lawde lag jayenge... . Himmat kari aur akhirkar ankita mam ke samne aa khada hua, umid nahi thi, bilkul bhi nahi thi.. ki kuch aisa hoga...
" abhi bhi satisfied nahi hue.. " unki ankhon se ansu utar raha tha, ye to mene dekha pehle to shayad kayi fisal chuke the. Par kyun ? mein unka bf nahi.. koi lover nahi... to phir itna bura ? ek pal man mein socha aur phir hath aage badaya taki pehle unhe rone se rok sakun par unhone bich mein hi hath pakad liya.
" touch karna hai ? to yahan kyun ... yahan karo... " unhone sidha mera pakda hath apne chatti par rakh dia. Mein filal iske mood mein bhi bilkul nahi tha aur unka ye karna mujhe aisa laga jaise mein kitna bada mujrim hun ? sahi mein ab to judge ki bhi jarurat nahi mehsus ho rahi thi. " ohh.. tumhe kapde ke uppar se kahan kuch pasand hai.. wait... " unhone mera hath chhoda aur apna top utarne lagi, mere to jism mein aisi aag lagi ki man kiya ab jal ke bhun jaun aur kisi ki chapal ki mithi mein mil jaun
" aap meri baat to suno " mene unhe kapde utarne se to rok liya par apni baat nahi keh paya.
" shut up... just shut up.... " vo cheekhi.. itni zor se to shayad mene unhe kabhi cheekhta nahi suna. Ye sab ek sapna hai, sab kuch theek ho jayega, hai na ? mene khud se baat bhi yahi aur sawal bhi kiya par mujhe aisa kuch lag nahi raha tha.
" you... man... boys... all are same... all are bloody same... " vo phir cheekhi aur phir ek dum se hasne lagi, hanste hue unhone apna hath apne sar par rakh kar baal piche kiye aur usi haste hue ankhon se ansu bhi girne lage. " mein kyun roo rahi hun ? mujhe khud nahi samajh aa raha.. why am i crying... ohh waoo.... " vo phir chup hui. Mujhe laga unke dimagi santulan mein kahin pani jam gaya aur vo sadme mein chali gayi hai, mene phir kuch kehne ke liye muh khola par unki cheekhti awaz se to meri gand hi fat gayi...
" tell me why i am crying right now..... tell me... " vo ghurte hue cheeki aur phir apne baal pakad kar zor zor se rone lagi. Mujhe bahut bura lag raha tha, had se jada, waqt se jada, khud se jada.... is dunia se jada... aur sachi.. apne lawde se jada..
" mam please... " mene unka hath pakadne ki kosish ki.
" do not touch me... do not touch me.... " vo paglon ki tarah apna hath jhadne lagi jise mein ek kadam piche ho gaya.
" i hate.. hate... myself.... chiiii.... " unke expression shabdon ke sath judte jaa rahe the.. " man kar raha hai apne is sharir ko har hisse se jala dun.. jahan jahan tumne chua hai.. ghin aa rahi hai khud par... " unka rona, unka cheekhna, unka us guse mein pagal pan mein jana sab kuch apni ankhon se mein unke chehre par dekh raha tha. Mein samjha nahi sakta, ki us waqt mein aisa feel kar raha tha jaise mera khun kar dia ho kisi ne andar se... ek pal ke liye aisa laga jaise kisi ne khade jisme se atma chura li ho.. bas sansein dil dhadkane ke liye reh gayi hai.. jiski awaz dhire dhire samne wale ke dard mein kahin khoti si jaa rahi hai.
" just get... out.. of my house... get out of my life.... just get out.... " uhone apna hath pakda aur mujhe khinchti hui bahar le jane lagi. Mene jaise abhi kaha mere andar kuch nahi tha, isliye sharir itni asani se khinch gaya jaise kuch nahi hai mere andar. Unhone mujhe darwaje par bahar chhoda aur darwaja de mara.
Darwaja band, ab mere samne ankita mam nahi thi, vo lakdi ka tukda 6X6 ka samne tha, lekin meri ankhon mein abhi bhi wahi chehra tha jisne mujhe nam banaya tha.
" get out... just get out...... " vo shayad darwaje par hi khadi ro rahi thi, unke rone ki awaz bilkul najdeek se hi aa rahi thi, itne najdeek se jaise khud ka dil hi ro raha ho.
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Mein gate ke bahar khada do hi sawalon mein uljh hua tha, pehla ye ki kya karun? dusra kya mujhe chale jana chahie aur ab is rishte ko yahin khatam kar dena chahie vaise bhi is rishte mein hai kya ? Dusra khayal sahi tha, aur bahut acha hota ki mein us khayal ko man leta lekin us pal... us pal vo khayal ne pair nahi modne die, vahan se hatne nahi dia. Par kash... us pal mein mene apne pair vahan se hata die hote..
Yun hi kab tab khada raha pata nahi chala, mujhe bas yahi lag raha tha ki ankita mam ab darwaja kholegi aur mujhe apni baat kehne ka mauka degi lekin aisa ho nahi raha tha, mera patience ab gusse mein badal raha tha, jo mera tha nahi vo unhone mujhe de dia tha, Ilzam... jo kabhi mera tha nahi... akhir mere patience ne jawab dia aur mein bahar khada hi chilla pada bina ye soche ki agar kisi ne sun liya to shayad ankita mam ki musibatein aur badh jayegi..
mein janta hun ki aap vahi khadi hai... par thik hai mat kholo gate.. lekin jo apne mujhe abhi kaha aur jis insan ke chune par apko ab ghin mehsus ho rahi hai uske muh se ye sun lo... jo apne dekha bhale hi vo sahi tha, usme katai koi juth nahi tha aur na hi ye ki mere sath jabardasti ho rahi thi .. lekin jaisa dikhta hai kabhi kabhi usme chota sa sach chupa hota hai jo ankhein nahi dekh pati.. Mere sath jabardasti nahi hui, mein apne man se sab kar raha tha ye apki ankhon ne dekha lekin sach to ye hai ki ye hamara pehli baar nahi tha, shipra mam ke sath to ye sab college function se chal raha hai bas us waqt itna farak tha ki vo mere sath jabardasti kar rahi thi aur us waqt aap jaisa koi dekhne wala nahi tha... mein ek pal chup hua mujhe nahi pata tha ki us taraf koi hai bhi sunne ke liye ya nahi.. par kya farak padta hai, jab insan par jutha ilzam lagta hai tab vo apni sachai ek baar to jarur cheekhta hai...
Shipra mam, hamare bare mein jaan chuki thi ankita mam, vo janti thi ki apka aur mera kuch hai... us din college washroom mein hamare bich jo hua unhe vo pata chal chuka tha, mein nahi janta ki kaise unhe uske bare mein pata chala lekin agar mein.... bol hi raha tha ki achanak gate khul gaya, ankita mam khadi puri ankhein khol kar mujhe dekh rahi thi. Mene jara bhi time ko aage barbad nahi kiya aur apni baat keh di.
agar mein unhe kahe anusar nahi karta to vo college mein apke bare mein news share karwa deti.. us news mein bhale hi mein nahi hota lekin apke bare mein na jane kya kya hota.. bas yahi soch kar mene unki baat man li kyun ki mein aisa kaise hone deta ki apke baree mein pura college baat kare apko gandi nazron se dekhe.. bas isi baat ke dar ne mujhe majbur kar dia ki mein han kar dun.. ye baat mein bahut waqt se apko batane ki soch raha hun par apke pass mere liye time hi kaha hai... khud ko hi dekh lo.. kuch din se kya kiya hai mene jo mere sath aisa bheave kar rahi thi aap ? Kya karta mein... ek taraf ye majburi aur dusri taraf apka rude behaviour... apko pata hai apke is behavour se hi vo jabardasti mujhe ab jabardasti lagi hi nahi... thik kaha tha apne mujhe maza aa raha tha, par isme galti kiski thi ? mene apni baat keh di thi, ab nateze ki chinta nahi thi, kehne ke baad samajh aya ki akhri blame mene ankita mam par dal dia hai jabki galti sirf unki nahi thi. Par flow flow mein jo bol gaya tha.. ab bol gaya tha.. ab karne ke liye sirf intezar tha.. par samne se koi jawab nahi aya, abhi vo sirf apni ankhon se mujhe ghur rahi thi.
Sach bolne se dunia nahi badti, par juth dekh kar jarur badal jati hai.. insan ki nazar sach par padti hi nahi..... sochte hue mein mud kar jane laga.
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" if you want me to go then i'll go, if you want me to forgot you i'll do that too, lekin is bar sachai mein koi juth nahi hai phir bhi apko juth hi dikha " ye mene kaha nahi bas socha aur sochte hue mud kar ja hi raha tha par ruk gaya ya rok liya gaya. Mud kar piche dekha to ankita mam ne mera hath pakad kar mujhe rok rakha tha.
" please.. come ... " awaz itni dhimi thi ki mere kan tak bhi mushkil se pahunchi thi. Mene unke chehre ko dhayan se dekha to paya ki vo genuinly mujhe andar bula rahi hai, sach bhale hi na dikhta par jab samajh ata hai tab uska asar ankhon se nahi chup pata. Mein attitude rakh kar hath chuda kar ja sakta hun lekin mera aisa karne ka koi irada nahi hai. Mein bina kuch bole andar aa gaya, hum dono is waqt darwaje ki dehleez par khade the. Ankita mam thoda andar hui aur mein darwaja band karte hue vahin khada ho gaya. Kuch pal tak khamoshi bani rahi, vo meri taraf ghur rahi thi full confidence ke sath par mein hi nahi dekh paa raha tha, jabki mein bilkul sahi thi lekin ek tuk unko dekhna mushkil ho raha tha mere liye.
" i m sorry... " bolte hue vo mere chehre ke najdeek ayi aur unki ankhon se ansu side se niche gir gaya, unka chehra utha hua tha isliye ansu chehre se girne ki bajaye side se gir gaya. " please... " unhone mere hath majbuti se pakad liya tha.
" you won't be sorry.. par please think .. mein nahi chahta ki aap khud se ghin karo mujhe chu kar.. " mera intention tha ki mein unhe savdhan karun par unhe ye tanna laga.. kya mene galat kaha tha
" i m sorry ankit.. mein janti hun mene jo kaha vo bahut galat tha, i am really sorry.. " unhone mera chehra pakad liya, vo sach mein bahut bura feel kar rahi thi, unki awaz, unki ankhon se nikalte ansu. Sala dil mein chub gaya, dusri baar aisi feeling ayi jaise koi apna hai samne.. koi genuinly apna .. jo kadar karta hai meri..
" we can end this... now.. sahi mauka hai apke liye .. kyun ki mein nahi chahta ki future mein apki life ki koi bhi problem ki vajah banu.. " vo meri baat sun mujhe ajeeb si nazron se ghurne lagi lekin mene ye baat bhi unke bhale ke liye kahi thi kyun ki i know.. deep inside .. i know myself.. i know.. who i am.. i don't think nobody ever will know.. but i know.. who i am.. i am...
" mein sirf apki life better chahta hun.. kahin mein hi us better na banne ki vajah na ban jaun... isliye keh raha hun.. shayad.. yahi sahi time hai.. is dil mein jo nafrat hai use nafrat hi rehne do... asani hogi... "
" nafrat hi rakhni thi to sach kyun bataya ? " rone ki vajah se jo farak awaz mein tha vo jahlak raha tha.
" taki meri importance na kam ho jaye.. " mera maksad unk chehre se ansu hatane ke the, vo sun kar halka sa muskura padi. Na jane kyun unke sawal ka jawab nahi tha mere pas, jab mein unse dur rehna chahta tha to sach kyun kaha, bina sach kahe unki zindagi badal sakta tha lekin selfish insan ka sabse bada dost hota hai jo marte dum tak sath rehta hai.
" you are important to me.. and always.. " vo rote hue muskurai, na jane kyun unki is pyare se chehre ko dekh kar meri ankhon mein ansu aa gaye, kyun ? sawal ka jawab mere andar tha aur vo mujhe mil raha tha, jise samajhne ke baad hi aisa hua tha, janta hun sab iska jawab chahte hain lekin jawab to waqt rehte hi milna tha. Unhe bhi shayad umid nahi tha ki meri ankhon se bhi ansu nikal sakta hai. Emotion shayad insan ka ek aisa switch hai ki jab bhi vo on hota hai ansu complimentary mein nikal ate hai.
" mad.. " ansu unki ankhon se bhi nikla par pocha unhon mere chehre se.
" ek baar phir soch lo.. " mene akhri baar kaha, par unhone na mein sar hilaya aur mere chehre ke behad kareeb aa gayi, vo mere honton ke uppar apne honth hi rakhne wali thi..
" ek min... "
" ab kya hua.. " honth nahi mile the par vo bilkul najdeek the.
" thank you.. "
" kisliye ? "
" aaj apne mujhe thapad nahi mara... " mein muskura dia aur meri baat sun kar vo bhi aur uske baad unhone apne honth mere honton par rakh diye, dono ki ankhein band hui, ankhon se ansu unke bhi nikle aur mere bhi.. uske baad hum dono bas ek dusre ke honton ko chuste rahe....
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Insan chahe time travel ki theory apply kar le ya phir warmhole bana kar dusri dunia mein travel kar le ye sab theory ko vo possible bana sakta hai lekin ek aurat ke dimag mein chal rahi theories ko kabhi judge nahi kar sakta aur mein to kehta hun kosish bhi mat karo..... because time travel is far more easy to achieve rather than to read a women's mind . Ye baat mein isliye nahi keh raha kyun ki mein kuch jada samjdar hun balki isliye keh raha hun kyun ki ye ek fact hai..... you don't believe right ? to yaad hai mene shayad ye baat kahi thi ki ankita mam ko kabhi bhi sucking pasand nahi ... she just hate.. matlab itna hate ki samajh lo had se jada hate.... par aaj.. abhi.. is moment... is pal....
" aahh... ankita mam... i'll cum.. aaah.. " mein chahta to apne lawde se unke muh ko puri tarah chapet lena tha lekin mera nikalne wala tha aur mein nahi janta tha ki agar mera unke muh mein nikal gaya to vo kaise react karegi isliye mein unka sar piche dhakel raha tha, ye jante hue ki mujhe jabardast maza mil raha hai aur mein bina chudai ke sirf is awesome blossom gandusam lawda chusayam mein hi jhadne vala hun.
" aahh-hh " sar to piche nahi hua par lawde ki grilling se uska vajan halka ho gaya, dmag ko sukun aur lawde ka junun utarne par shanti to bahut mili par jab junun utra to samajh aa gaya ki gali padni hai par sab halki ankhein khol kar niche dekha to nazare kuch aur hi the, screen par dikh rahi porn abhi reality mein thi, ankita mam mera cum gatak chuki thi aur abhi pura lawda jeebh se saaf kar rahi thi. Waaoao.... aaj pehli baar ankhon se dil nikalne wala smily yaad aa raha tha...
Kaha tha na mene aurton ke dimag ko koi nahi pad sakta.. even time-travels can't shit to get this thing done... par abhi kahani thodi si baki hai
Sab kuch thik tha... bas ankita mam ki halat thodi thik nahi thi, washroom se jo ultiyun ki awaz ayi hai use mein sofe par baith kar sunta raha, jab vo bahar ayi to pura chehra lal aur ankhon se behta vo pani jisne chehre par kajal aur faila dia tha, sach mein bechari par daya to bahut aa rahi thi lekin mein to hans hans kar pagal ho gaya.
" you... " Us din mene ek baat notice kar li jab aurat bhadki ho tab bilkul mat hanso varna bahut bure lawde lagte hai.. i mean had se jada , do din tak kamar sidhe karke nahi chala mein.. Mein hi janta hun kaise kaise bahane banane pade hai mujhe...
2 days later.... Mahol padai ka tha, exam najdeek the isliye sara time mein ankita mam ke ghar hi rehta tha.. padai ke sath aur dusre mahol bhi ban jaya karte the isi bahane... par ....
" jada tez lag gayi.. " garam pani ki bottle mere lawde ke uppar rakh kar bagal mein baith gayi.
" puch rahi ho ya bata rahi ho ? "
" bhadakta kyun hai bachu... aww.. " mera gaal khinchte hue boli aur tek laga kar apne gile baal sukhane lagi, itna gussa aya mujhe ki kya batau..
" kisi ki chadi almost tod dene ke baad uske malik se puchna ki kaisa dard hota hai.. voldemort se puchna ki chadi na milne ka dard kaisa hota hai tab pata chalega.. " Meri baat sun kar vo bahut hansi.. lekin mein nahi... mene apna dhayan hata kar book par laga dia.
Dhire - Dhire time beeta and time heals all the jhakhm... mera lawda pehle ki tarah apne uppar khada hone laga tha, ek aad exam bhi jaa chuke the.
15 din later....
Kal ke exam mein fat ke hath mein aa chuki thi aur na jane kyun ankita mam ko masti si suj rahi thi, mein jab jab book lekar kuch padta, vo mere hath se book chin kar faink deti aur mere kan kat leti.. ya phir mere honth chus leti...
Yahan gand fati padi hai aur inhe lawde ki padi hai.. sach kaha hai hum engineeron ne ki ek teacher kabhi exams ki thukai ke dard ko nahi samajh sakta jiske gand pad padti hai uske kulhon ko hi uske lal hone ka ehsas hota hai... Oh this fuck chick....
Jab unhone jada ched khani ki to mene bhi tay kiya ki aaj inki sare surur ko dhwast kar dunga... mene unhe wahi pakda, vo mujhse chudwane ki bahut kosish karti rahi... hanste hnste unki ankhon se pani behne laga lekin mene unhe aisi position mein laiata dia ki unka pajama mere hath mein aa gaya jise mein kab se utarne ki kosish kar raha tha aur kab se isi liye bach rahi thi. Pajama mere hath mein aur vo mujhse chudawati hui piche hui to pajama bhi niche bas uske baad kya tha... vo adhi zameen par thi, mein sofe par aur unke pair mere kandhe par.
Mene bhi unki chut is tarah se chusni shuru ki ki..unki ankhon ke aage lawde ghumne lage.... unki siski.. uska orgasm is baat ka gawah tha.. vo last mein mujhse chodne ki bheek mangti rahi bahut kosish bhi ki par apne pair na chudwa saki.... first orgasm ke baad dhili padi lekin mera badla kahan pura hua tha.. mene unko tab tak nah chhoda jab tak unka second orgasm nahi ho gaya. Second orgasm ke baad to unka sharir aise ho gaya jaise sharir se atma nikal gayi ho. Muh khula hua, chehra sukh chuka tha, ankhein khuli aur dimag ki nasein chamak rahi thi.
Mene apne chehre se unke ras ko saaf kiya aur unke pair chhod die, vo badhawas mein padi rahi. Mujhe khud par garv ho raha tha.. hanfte hue mein bhi unhi ki tarah lait gaya unke bagal mein.
" kyun maza aya na ? mujhse panga lene ka anjam dekha.. " unhone meri taraf nazre ki aur kuch pal dekhti rahi.. aur phir ek dum se mere se aa lagi. Mein nahi janta unhone aisa kyun kiya lekin jab kiya tab kuch aur hi hua mere sath... Mene bhi unhe apni bahon mein kas kar lock kar lia. Ankita mam ko apne sine se lock karne ke baad uppar chal raha pankha jo ki bahut speed mein chal raha tha na jane kyun meri ankhon mein vo ek dum slow ho gaya.. Achanak se kaise ?
Exam ka silsila to yun hi chalne laga, 20 days later.......
" koi dekh lega.... you are mad .... last time tumhari zid ke chakar mein hi shipra ko hamare bare... " ankita mam ke honton par ungli rakhte hue mene unhe chup rehne ka ishara kia aur dhire dhire niche baithte hue unki nightie uppar utha kar unki chut chatne laga.. vo moan karti hui mere balon ko pakad baithi.
" aah-hh aahhhh.. " apartment mein vo apne muh par hath rakh kar idhar udhar dekh rahi thi kyun ki mein unke apartment ke chawk par khada kar kar ke piche se unki chut mein apna lund pel raha tha.. Unka dar sahi tha par shart bhi to vahi hari thi mujhse jo unhone aaj ke exam ke chalte mujhse lagai thi.
" aaahhh-hh ankit.. you will screw me one day... " vo sisakte hue boli..
" i am doing the same now.... " mene bhi dhakon ki speed badai aur akhirkar apna cum unke andar bhar dia. Cum inside her bum...
Jis din ankita mam se patchup hua tha.. i mean jis din hamara jhadga hua tha... i mean shipra vali baat vala din... bc itni confusion us din ki hui chudai aur aaj ki chudai milakar mein unhe 28 din mein lagbhag 56 baar chhod chuka tha shayad.. meri maths par bharosa nahi hai vaise