Romance Choti si Bhool by Jatin (completed)

[The Immortal]

20 april 2008, se lekar 26 september 2008 tak, koyi 5 mahino mein, mere saath itna kuch ho gaya aur meri hansti khelti jeendagi barbaad ho gayi. Vo 26 september ka hi din tha jish din dipti mujhe apni itni lambi kahaani shuna rahi thi.
ush din dipti ke jaane ke baad mai ander hi ander gahre vicharo mein kho gayi. Mujhe bhi ab ye baat pareshaan kar rahi thi ki aakhir baat kya hai.
achaanak mujhe yaad aaya ki billu ne kayi baar mujh se kaha tha ki tumhe vakt aane par sab kuch pata chal jaayega. Aakhir kya pata challega mujhe, mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ??
mujhe bas itna hi pata chala tha ki sanjay aur vivek billu ko jaante the, kyo jaante the, unki kya jaan pehchaan thi, ishke baare mein mai kisi bhi nateeze par nahi pahunch paa rahi thi.
vahi vo pal tha jishmein ki maine apni choti si bhool ko ek diary mein likhne ka fainsala kiya, taaki ushe padh kar baad mein kisi nateeze par pahuncha ja sake.
Par agle hi din yaani ke 27 september ko ghar par divorce ke paper aa gaye aur mai tut kar bikhar gayi aur kuch bhi nahi leekh paayi. Din raat apne kamre mein pade pade mai aanshu bahaati rahi. ishke alaawa kar bhi kya sakti thi. jo paap maine kiya tha ushi ki saja to mujhe mil rahi thi.
mujhe andesha to tha ki sanjay shaayad aisa hi karenge aur mai khud ko mentally prepare bhi kar rahi thi, par phir bhi jab vaakayi mein aisa ho gaya to aanshuvon ko rokna mushkil ho gaya. Khud se jyada mein chintoo ke liye pareshaan thi, mere kaaran vo apne papa ke pyaar se juda hone ja raha tha.
Aaj 6 january 2009 hai aur mai peechle chaar dino se ye diary leekh rahi hun. jab peechle hafte 29 december 2008 ko sanjay se divorce ho gaya to kuch samajh nahi aaya ki kya karun. Baar baar apni kishmat ko ro rahi hun.
2 january ko mai yu hi pareshaan baithi thi ki achaanak mujhe apni table par ek diary deekhaayi di aur maine ek pen uthaaya aur apni dard bhari daastaan leekhni shuru kar di.
Aaj 6 january 2009 hai aur mai mumbai mein hun. chintoo apne naana naani ke saath delhi mein hai. abhi 15 din hi huve hai mujhe yaha aaye, ishliye yaha bilkul man nahi lag raha. Yaha settle ho kar chintoo ko thode dino baad ley aaungi
Dipti ne mujhe bataaya tha ki unki company ki sister concern zedco pvt ltd mein assisstant manager ki post khaali hai, tum chaaho to join kar lo. Par tumhe mumbai jaana padega.
Maine bahut sochne ke baad join karne ka faisala kar liya aur ish tarah mai mumbai aa gai. Ab mujhe chintoo ke liye to jeena hi tha ishliye maine join karna theek samjha. Company ne mere rahne ke liye colaba mein ek flat de diya hai par itne bade ghar mein mujhe bahut akela mahsush ho raha hai.
Abhi abhi office se aayi hun aur pehli baar itna kaam karke thak gayi hun. thoda fresh hone ke baad aage ki kahaani leekhungi..

 

[The Immortal]

ush din yaani ke 26 september 2008 ko jaate jaate dipti ne pucha, yaar ek baat puchni thi, bura to nahi maanogi ?
maine kaha, “pucho na, mai bura kyo maanungi”
“Ek baat bataao, billu mein aisa kya tha jo ki tum ushke chakkar mein pad gayi, kya tum bhi un ladies ki tarah ho jeenke liye ling ka size important hai, na ki pati ka pyar ??
“kaisi baat kar rahi ho dipti, chii, tum aisa soch bhi kaise sakti ho” ———- maine thoda gusse mein kaha.
“Tabhi puch rahi thi ki tum bura to nahi maanogi, sorry if I hurt you” —- dipti ne sorry feel karte huve kaha.
“Dipti….., billu dekhne mein bahut bhola bhala aur sharif sa lagta tha aur kaafi smart bhi tha, haan ushki baatein jaroor bahut gandi hoti thi, aur sach bataaun to mujhe khud abhi tak nahi pata ki mujhe kya ho gaya tha ki mai ushke saath paap ke daldal mein dubati chali gayi, aur shaayad mai ye kabhi jaan bhi na paaun”
“hmm… acha theek hai, sorry to hurt you, mai ab chalti hun, office ka kuch kaam bhi karna hai. tum ab kisi baat ki chinta mat karo. Bure se bura vakt bhi beet jaata hai. dekhna khusiyaan phir se aayengi. Bhagvaan ne din aur raat yu hi nahi banaaye hai. na hamesha din hota hai aur na hamesha raat rahti hai” —- dipti mere sar par haath rakh kar boli.
maine kaha, “par duniya mein aisi bhi kayi jagah hai, jahaan ki kayi mahino tak suraj nahi dikhta”
“hogi aisi jagah, par tum vaha nahi ho samjhi, come on, and hang on, you will see that, sooner or later things are getting better” —– dipti ne meri peeth thap-thapaate huve kaha.
“… theek hai, dekhte hai, thanks for being such a nice friend” ——— maine dipti ka haath pakad kar kaha.
“Mai kal manish se mil kar ushko ish kaam par laga dungi, aur jaise hi kuch pata chalega tumhe phone karungi” ——- dipti ne kaha.
Maine pucha, “kya tum manish ko sab kuch bata dogi”
“Tum chinta mat karo, manish is a nice man, par mai ushe jitna jaroori hai utna hi bataaungi, baaki vo detective hai, tum to jaanti hi ho” — dipti ne kaha
maine kaha, “theek hai, jaisa tum theek samjho, par meri baat dhyaan rakhna, mera naam nahi aana chaahiye”
“ok ritu, mai dhyaan rakhungi, tumhe phone karke sab kuch bataati rahungi, don’t worry about anything” – dipti ne jaate huve kaha.
Maine kaha, “ok bye-bye, mujhe bahut acha laga ki tum aayi, par tumhaari tragedy shun kar thoda dukh bhi huva, phone karti rahna”
Dipti chali gayi aur jaisa ki maine pehle kaha, ushke jaane ke baad mai gahre vicharo mein kho gayi
Faridabad mein to sanjay ne landline lagvaaya huva tha, ishliye kabhi mobile lene ki jaroorat hi nahi padi. Par vaha delhi mein papa ne mujhe apna mobile de diya tha aur khud dushra kharid liya tha. vahi number maine dipti ko de diya tha.
Agle din jab sanjay ne divorce paper bheje to maine unhe apne mobile se hi phone kiya tha, par unhone ek baar bhi mera phone nahi uthaaya.
Kuch din yu hi beet gaye. Mai aksar apne kamre mein hi padi rahti thi. ek baar chintoo khelta khelta mere paas aaya aur bola, “hum apne ghar kab jaayenge”
Ye aisa sawaal tha jishka ki mere paas koyi jawaab nahi tha.
maine ushe kaha, “tum khelo beta, abhi hum kuch din yahi rahenge”
Aur vo vaha se khelta huva bhaag gaya. Vo to vaise bhi vaha khus hi tha, ushe vaha school jo nahi jaana pad raha tha.
Par kyonki sanjay ne devorce case kar diya tha ishliye maine ushe vahi, delhi mein hi ek school mein admit karva diya. mai nahi chaahti thi ki ushki schooling mein break aaye.
10 october ko dipti ka phone aaya, ushne jo bataaya vo mujhe aur jyada sochne par majboor kar gaya.
“Ritu tumne kaha tha na ki billu riksha bhi chalaata hai” —- dipti ne pucha
“haan kaha tha, kyo kya huva” —- maine hairaani mein pucha
“ manish ne faridabad mein tumhaare ghar ke aash paas rikse vaalo se baat ki thi, unke anushaar vaha koyi billu naam ka riksa chalaane waala nahi hai”
maine hairaani mein pucha, “ kya !! aisa kaise ho sakta hai ? electric shop aur ushke ghar par pata kiya”
“vo ghar ushka nahi tha, vo vaha march 2008 se rent par rah raha tha. padoshiyon ko ushke baarein mein kuch nahi pata. Logo ke anushaar vo gum shum, chupchaap rahne waala ladka tha, jyada logo se baat nahi karta tha, ishliye kisi ko ushke baare mein nahi pata. Haan logo ne ye jaroor bataaya ki billu ek baar rikse mein kisi khubshurat ladki ko laya tha. shaayad vo ushi din ki baat hogi jab vo tumhe apne ghar ley gaya tha. ushke makaan maalik ne bataaya ki billu ne makaan ye kah kar liya tha ki koyi 5 ya 6 mahino ke liye chaahiye, ushke baad vo vaapas delhi chala jaayega.Ab delhi mein vo kaha rahta tha, kya karta tha abhi kuch nahi pata.” — dipti ne kaha.

 

[Casinar]

Maine kaha, par mai tum se koyi rista nahi rakhna chaahti.
Vo bola, rista mat rakho par ek baar mujhe maaf to kar do.
Maine kaha, theek hai maaf kiya ab jao yaha se.
Vo bola, mai kaise maan lu ki tune mujhe maaf kar diya.
Maine pucha, to kya ab stamp paper par leekh kar du ?
Vo bola, nahi bas ek baar apni chut ke honto ki kiss de do.
Ye sun kar mere sharir mein beejli ki leher si daud gayi.
Maine kaha, tum jaate ho ki nahi.
Vo bola, acha bas ek baar mere lund ko apne haath mein lekar pyar se chu ley phir mein chala jaaunga.
Ye kah kar vo khada ho gaya.
Mai ajeeb si bechani liye vaha khadi rahi, samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki ushey kya kahu ab.
Vo apni zip kholne laga aur maine apni aankhe band kar li.
Ushne mera haath pakda aur ushme apna ling thama diya, aur bola lo ek baar ishe pyar se chu to lo ishne ush din tujhe khub maje diye the. Itni bhi beraham mat bano.
Maine ushka ling thaam liya, aur aankhe band kiye chupchaap khadi rahi.
mai soch rahi thi ki ab ishe chune mein harj hi kya hai. vaise bhi jab mai ushe apne ander mahsus kar chuki thi to ab haath se mahsus karne mein kya jaayega.
Vo bola, thankyou ritu, lagta hai tune sach mein mujhe maaf kar diya.
Maine kuch kahna theek nahi samjha.
Ushka ling pathar jaisa kathor mahsus ho raha tha.
Maine kaha, theek hai ab jao.
Vo bola, aankhe khol kar theek se ishke chaaro aur choo kar dekho na.
Maine na jaane kyo, aankhe khol kar uski aur dekha.
Vo bade pyar se meri aur dekh raha tha.
Vo bola, neeche dekho na, tujhe to ye dekhna acha lagta tha.
Maine dheere se najre jhuka li.
Ab meri najar uske ling par thi. maine dheere se apna haath uske charo aur ghumaya.
Vo bola, thoda neeche jao na, mere aand bhi choo kar dekho.
Maine sharmate huve haath uske ling se niche sarka kar uske aand ko haato mein thaam liya. billu ne sabhi baal saaf kar rakhe the ishliye uske aand bahut mulayam lag rahe the.
Maine kaha bas theek hai ?
Ushne kaha jaisa tum kaho.
Maine kaha, theek hai ab jao phir.
Vo kuch nahi bola aur mere aage baith gaya aur meri salwaar ke upar se hi meri yoni ko chumne laga.
Mere na chaahte huve bhi hosh ud gaye.
Maine kaha billu please ruk jao.
Par vo nahi maana aur betahasa meri yoni ko chumta raha.
Haalaanki meri yoni aur uske honto ke beech halki si kapdo ki deewar thi par uske honth mujhe bilkul meri yoni par mahsus ho rahe the.
Maine kaha billu ye sab theek nahi hai, tum ab jao yaha se.
Vo bola, bas thodi der ish jannat mein rahne do phir to yu hi narak mein bhatakna hai. aur meri yoni ko betahaasa chumta raha.
Mai madhosh hoti chali gayi. Mai ushe chaahte huve bhi nahi rok paa rahi thi. mujhe ajeeb sey ahsaas ho rahey the.
Vo bola, tum agar bura na maano to mai tumhaara naada khol dun. Teri chut aur mere honto ke beech ye salwaar maja kharaab kar rahi hai.
Mai khamoshi se vaha khadi rahi.
Na to mai ushey mana karna chaahti thi aur na hi haan karna chaahti thi. bahut hi ajeeb situation thi mere liye.
Vo shaayad meri situation samajh gaya aur mera naada kholne laga. meri saanse tej ho gayi.
Ushne dheere se salwaar sarka di aur bola, arey vaah ye to ek dum chikni hai. ek bhi baal nahi hai. sach ye to teri surat jaisi hi sundar hai.
Mai sharma gayi aur apni aankhe band kar li.
Kyonki mai naha kar aayi thi ishliye jaldi laldi mein darvaaja kholne ke chakkar mein panty pahan-na bhul gayi thi.
Billu ne apne honth meri yoni ke honto par tika diye aur ek bahut gahri kiss ki. mai bechan ho uthi aur mere haath apne aap uskey sar par chale gaye.
Vo aur jyada gahraayi se meri yoni ko chumne laga.
Phir ushne dono haatho se meri yoni ko faialaya aur apni jeebh meri yoni mein ghussa di.
Meri saanse aur jyada tej hoti chali gayi.
Mai oral sex ke baare mein to jaanti thi par aisa nahi suna tha ki vaha jeebh bhi daali ja saktu hai.
Billu apni jeebh ko meri yoni ke ander bahar karne laga aur mai uske sar ko thaame huve chupchap vaha khadi rahi.
Billu ki mulaayam mulaayam jeebh meri yoni mein ander bahar phisal rahi thi aur mujhe sex ka bharpur aanand aa raha tha.
Ye mere liye bilkul hi naya ahsaas tha.
Sanjay to shaayad meri yoni par muh lagaane se katraate the aur billu meri yoni mein jeebh phira raha tha.
mai na chaahte huve bhi sanjay se billu ko compare kar rahi thi.
Meri saanse tej hoti chali gayi aur mera dil jor jor se dhadakne laga.
Mujhe lag raha tha ki, meri yoni kisi bhi vakt barsaat kar sakti hai.
Maine billu se kaha billu bas ruk jao, mai bahney vaali hu.
Vo bola, to baha do khud ko mai teri ek ek boond peena chaahta hu. Ye kah ushne phir se meri yoni mein jheebh ghussa di aur teji se ushey ander bahar karne laga.
Maine ushkey sar ko jor se pakad liya, aur achaanak meri yoni ney paani ki nadiya baha di.
Maine billu se kaha bas ab hat jao.
Par vo nahi hata aur apne kaam mein laga raha.
Thodi der baad vo hat gaya aur bola, vaah maja aa gaya, teri chut to teri gaand se bhi jyada mast hai.
Vo khada ho gaya.
Maine aankh khol kar dekha to paaya ki uskey muh par meri yoni ke paani ki boonde thi.
Ushney pucha, aisey kyo dekh rahi ho.
Maine sharma ke najre jhuka li.
Ushney mujhe baaho mein utha liya aur pucha, tera bedroom kaha hai.
Maine kaha please mujhe utaar do mai tumhaare saath bedroom mein nahi jaa sakti.
Vo bola, mujh se ab ruka nahi jaa raha, mera bahut man kar raha hai.
Maine kaha, mujhe dar lag raha hai, koyi aa gaya to mai kahin ki nahi rahungi, please ab tum jao.
Maine ye kaha hi tha ki door bell baj uthi.
Billu ne mujhe nichey utaar diya.
Maine jhat se naada baandha aur billu se kaha tum toilet mein ghuss jao.
Vo toilet mein ghuss gaya aur mai darvaaja kholne aa gayi.
Saamne post man khada tha. ushey mere sign chaahiye the ishliye bell bajaayi thi.
Sign ley kar ushney ek letter mujhe de diya. letter sanjay ke naam tha.
Maine darvaaja band kiya aur ander aa gayi.
Mai toilet ke paas aa gayi aur dheere se billu ko aawaaj lagaayi.
Vo jhat se baahar aa gaya.
Vo bola, kon tha ?
Maine kaha, post man tha.
Vah mere karib aaya aur mere honto par apne hont rakh diye.
Mai bhi uske honto ki chuvan mein kho gayi.
Koyi 5 minut baad ushney mere honto ko choda aur bola, chal na tere bedroom mein.
Maine jheejakte huve kaha mujhe yaha dar lag raha hai. koyi phir se aa gaya to ?
Vo bola, chal phir mere ghar chaltey hai. vaha koyi nahi aayega.
Maine pucha, vo ashok kya vaha nahi hoga ?
Vo bola, tu ushki chinta mat kar, vo ab hamaare beech nahi aayega. Mujh par vishwaas kar. Vo mera ghar hai vaha meri marji ke bina koyi nahi aa sakta.
Maine time dekha to paya ki 1:30 baj chuke the.
Maine billu ko kaha par abhi mere paas vakt nahi hai. mujhe khaana bhi banaana hai, chintoo bhi school se aane wala hai.
Vo bola, to theek hai tu kal subah mere saath mere ghar chalna. Vaha kisi baat ki koyi chinta nahi hogi.
Mai asmanjas mein thi ki kya karu. Par ye sach tha ki ush vakt mai billu ke saath har sheema laangh dena chaahti thi.
Vo apni zip kholne laga.
Maine pucha arey ab ye kya kar rahe ho, ab tumhey chalna chaahiye.
Vo bola, chala jaaunga bas ek baar ishey apne honto mein ley lo.
Maine kaha, nahi baaki sab baad mein dekhenge tum please ab jao.
Ushney pucha, tum kal chalogi na mere saath mere ghar.
Maine kaha, sochungi, tum abhi jao.
Billu ne apna ling apni pant mein vaapas daal liya.
Pant mein bhi vo tana huva saaf deekhayi de raha tha.
Billu phir mere paas aaya aur mujhe baahon mein bhar liya aur apne dono haath mere nitambo par rakh kar mujhe apni aur kheenchane laga.
Vo bola, ek baat puchu ?
Maine kaha, haa.
Vo bola, jab maine ush din teri gaand maari thi to kya tujhe acha nahi lags tha kya ?
Maine kaha, mujhe nahi pata.
Vo bola, to kya ushke baad phir kabhi teri mujh se gaand marvaane ki icha huyi ?
Maine sharmaate huve kaha, ye kaisi baate kar rahe ho ab jao yaha se.
Vo bola, ek baar bata to sahi ki kya tujhe vo pal yaad aaya tha jab tu mere aage jhuki huyi thi aur mai teri gaand maar raha tha.
Mere liye aisey sawaalo ke jawab dena muskil tha.
Maine kaha, chodo mujhe ab tumhara jaane ka vakt ho gaya. Chintoo bhi ghar aane wala hai.
Vo bola, ek baat to bata do, kya tumhe aaj maja aaya.
Maine kaha pata nahi.
Vo bola, jaise tumne mera sar pakad rakha tha aisa lag raha tha ki tujhe apni chut chusvaane mein bahut maja aa raha tha.
Maine sharam se apni najre jhuka li.
Vo bola, to mai theek hi kah raha hu hai na, ye to kuch bhi nahi tha, tu kal dekhna, mai tujhe kaisa maja deta hu.
Maine kaha, theek hai, ab jaate ho ki nahi
Vo bola, tu baahar jhaank kar dekh koyi hai to nahi.
Maine darvaaja khola to paya ki dur dur tak koyi bhi deekhayi nahi de raha tha.
Maine billu se kaha koyi nahi hai tum jao.
Vo darvaaje ki taraf badha aur mere nitambo ko daboch kar bola mai aaj sho nahi paaunga, kal jaldi taiyar ho jaana, mai theek 10:30 baje tujhe lene aa jaaunga.
Vo baahar chala gaya aur mai darvaaja band kar key ander aa gayi.

yahan tak padh liya hai bhai
baaki kal padhunga.....
jatin bhai ka likha adbuth hai

 

[The Immortal]

yahan tak padh liya hai bhai
baaki kal padhunga.....
jatin bhai ka likha adbuth hai

Shukariya casi bhai. Abhi aur post kar rha hun.
Thank for your support.

 

[The Immortal]

Mai ye sab shun kar chonk gayi thi
Maine dipti se pucha, “aur kuch pata chala ya phir bas itna hi pata chala hai”
“Haan, haan puri baat to shuno” — dipti jor se boli.
“ushke kamre mein manish ko ek diary mili hai. diary mein ek papar par sanjay ka naam pata sab kuch likha hai. aur to aur ush mein vivek ka bhi naam pata likha hai. hairaani ki baat ye hai ki puri diary mein bas un dono ka hi naam, pata hai” —– dipti ne kaha..
“acha aur koyi baat bhi hai kya diary mein” ? — maine utshukta mein pucha
“ush mein sanjay ke clinic aur ghar ka pura address likha huva hai, pata nahi ishka kya matlab hai. khair ye to hum jaante hi the ki sanjay billu ko jaanta hai, ye baat ab confirm bhi ho gayi. Par sabse badi baat shuno” — dipti ne kaha.
Maine kaha, “haan shunaao”
Dipti ne detail mein kaha “Diary mein tumhaare baare mein, sanjay ke baare mein aur chintoo ke baare mein kuch detail likhi thi. likha hai ki sanjay subah kish vakt clinic jaata hai, kish vakt lunch karne aata hai, aur kish vakt tak shaam ko ghar vaapas aata hai. chintoo ke baare mein leekha hai ki kish vakt school jata hai, aur kish vakt dopahar ko vaapas aata hai. chintoo ke school ka address bhi likha hai.Tumhaare baare mein kaafi detail leekhi thi. jaise ki tum kish vakt dopahar ko kitchen ki khidki se jhaankti ho, kaun se beauty parlour jaati ho, kab aksar sanjay ke saath shaam ko ghumne jaati ho….. ityaadi, matlab ki ushne tumhaare ghar ka daily routine chart bana rakha hai”
Maine hairaani mein pucha, “ yaar ye sab ushne kaha se pata kiya hoga”
Dipti boli, “Aage to shuno”
Maine kaha, “haan, haan shunaao”
“Diary mein laal aksharo mein ek baat likhi thi, jishka ki matlab abhi clear nahi ho raha. manish ke anushaar vo inshaani khun se leekhi thi” dipti ne kaha
“kya likha tha bataao to sahi” —- maine jor se pucha
dipti ne kaha, likha tha ki “doctor ki to yahi saja hai par vakil ko har haal mein marna hoga”
“ishka kya matlab hai dipti, kuch samajh nahi aaya” —- maine hairaani mein dipti se pucha.
“Vahi to mai kah rahi thi, abhi kuch nahi pata, lekin manish puri koshis kar raha hai, vo ish raaj ki gahraayi tak jaa kar rahega. Par tum ye dekho mai kah rahi thi na ki kahi na kahi kuch bhari gadbad jaroor hai” —- dipti boli.
“haan yaar par mujhe ab bahut dar lag raha hai, aisa lag raha hai jaise ki mai kishi criminal ke saath involve thi” —- maine dipti se kaha.
“Agar vo criminal tha to, vo mar chuka hai, phir ab darne ki kya baat hai” —- dipti ne mujhe dilaasa dete huve kaha.
Maine pucha “aur vo electric shop vaha kuch pata chala”
Vahi bata rahi hun, “vaha bhi vo naya naya hi laga tha. shop owner ko ushke baare mein kuch nahi pata. Owner ne bataaya ki unhone newspaper mein ek electrician ke liye advertisement nikaali thi, billu sabse pehle aa gaya aur unhone ushe rakh liya. unhe to ushke ghar tak ka nahi pata. Owner ne bhi yahi bataaya ki vo bahut kam bolta tha aur aksar chupchaap rahta tha. par vo ushke kaam se khus nahi the, kyonki unke anushaar vo aksar shop se gaayab rahta tha.”
Ye sab shun kar mai hairaan rah gayi. Ye jaroor tha ki in baato se kisi nateeze par nahi pahuncha ja sakta tha. haan par ye baat jaroor ajeeb lag rahi thi ki vo naya naya hi faridabad mein aaya tha. kya vo delhi se hi tha. kya vo delhi se hi mujhe jaanta tha, ye kuch aise sawaal the jo mujhe baar baar pareshaan kar rahe the.
Mai hairaan thi ki logo ke anushaar vo gum shum chupchaap rahta tha, par mere saath to bahut hi be-huda bakwaas karta tha, aakhir kyo ? mere liye billu ek rahashya banta ja raha tha.
Mujhe ab billu koyi bahut hi khatarnaak mujrim malum ho raha tha. maine man hi man mein socha ki acha huva ki vo maara gaya, aisey kamino ki ish duniya mein koyi jagah nahi hai.
Dipti ne kaha, “ritu, bas itna hi pata chala hai abhi tak. manish bahut mehnat kar raha hai, kah raha tha ki jaldi hi vo ish raaj ki gahraayi tak pahunch jaayega”
“Ab to mujhe bhi lag raha hai ki acha kiya tumne manish ko ye kaam de kar. Sach mein ab to saaf ho gaya hai ki daal mein kuch kaala jaroor hai” — maine gambhirta se kaha
“kuch kaala nahi, mujhe to puri daal hi kaali lag rahi hai. khair tum chinta mat karo, mera james bond sab kuch pata karke jaldi hi bata dega” — dipti ne kaha
maine hanste huve pucha, “ mera matlab, lagta hai tumhe ush se pyar ho gaya hai, hai na”
“hmm… pata nahi yaar but I like him very much” — dipti sochte huve boli.
maine kaha, “ ok, acha ye bataao tumhe kya lagta hai ki kya baat ho sakti hai.”
“pehle tum ye batao ki kya vo vivek vakil hai” ? — dipti ne pucha.
“ haan hai to sahi, par kyo” —– maine hairaani mein pucha.
Arey paagal yaad kar vo khun mein leekhi baat, “doctor ki to yahi saja hai par vakil ko har haal mein marna hoga” —- dipti jor se boli.
“Oh no, kya tum bhi vahi soch rahi ho jo mai soch rahi hun” — maine dipti se pucha.
“Tumhaara to pata nahi par mujhe lagta hai ki doctor ka matlab hai sanjay aur vakil ka matlab hai vivek. Mujhe jald se jald ye baat manish ko bataani hogi ki vivek, vakil hai, ushka kaam ashaan ho jaayega” — dipti ne kaha
“maine kaha, haan mein bhi yahi soch rahi hun par yaar tum itne yakin se kaise kah sakti ho ki ush leekhavat ka matlab sanjay aur vivek se hi hai” — maine dipti se pucha.
“Puri diary mein bas sanjay aur vivek ki hi detail hai aur kya chaahiye yakin karne ke liye. acha mai phone rakhti hun, manish ko ye baat bataani jaroori hai ki vivek vakil hai, baad mein baat karenge” —- dipti ne bye karte huve kaha.
Dipti jaate jaate mujhe bahut saare sawaal de gayi. Mai saara din yahi sab sochti rahi
16 october ko dipti ka phone aaya
vo boli, “ ritu, manish ish raaj ki gahraayi tak pahunchne waala hai. ushne mujhe kaha hai ki kal tak saari baat pata chal jaayegi. Bas ek din ki baat hai aur sachaayi hamaare saamne hogi.
maine kaha, “ theek hai, mai kal ka beshabri se intezaar karungi, mai baar baar sab kuch soch kar pareshaan ho rahi hun. jab tak mujhe puri baat pata nahi chalti tab tak mujhe chain nahi aayega.
dipti boli, “theek hai phir, kal ka intezaar karo”
dipti ne phone rakh diya aur mai be-sabri se kal ka intezaar karne lagi.
agle din yaani 17 october 2008 ko, shaam ko dipti ka phone aaya
maine jhat se phone utha liya.
“yaar ek bahut buri khabar hai” — dipti mayusi se boli
maine pucha, “ kya hai bataao to sahi”
“manish hospital mein hai, ush par jaanleva hamla huva hai, badi mushkil se jaan bachi hai, mai ush se milne faridabad ja rahi hun, mujhe dar lag raha hai” —
dipti rotey huve boli.
“Kya…. Ye kaise ho gaya. Kishne karvaaya ye hamla. Tum chinta mat karo mein bhi tumhaare saath chalti hun” — maine dipti se kaha.
“Pata nahi yaar, abhi manish ko hosh nahi aaya hai, ushke assisstant ka phone aaya tha ki vo hospital mein hai. manish hi hosh mein aakar bata sakta hai ki ye kishka kaam hai.” – dipti ne kaha
maine kaha, “hmm…. Chalo tum chinta mat karo sab theek ho jaayega, aisa karo yahi mere paas aa jao, yahi se saath saath chalenge”
“theek hai mai abhi tumhaare ghar aa jaati hun, vahi se faridabad ke liye nikal lenge” —- dipti ne kaha
Vo aisa pal tha, jab mai bhi bahut ghabra gayi thi. mai soch rahi thi ki dipti ko kah dun ki vo manish ko bol de ki band karde ye kaam. Mai nahi chaahti thi ki manish ko kuch ho. Mujhe ab dipti aur manish ki chinta ho rahi thi.
Dipti apni car ley kar 8 baje mere ghar aa gayi.
Maine pucha, kya tumhe faridabad ka rasta pata hai, nahi to koyi private taxi kar lete hai.
Dipti ne kaha, “haan, haan pata hai, mai kayi baar office ke kaam se vaha khud drive karke ja chuki hun, tumhe to pata hi hai, rasta lamba nahi hai, koyi 2 ghante mein vaha pahunch jaayenge”.

 

[The Immortal]

Maine kaha, “theek hai chalo phir”
Papa ghar par nahi the, maine jaate jaate mammy ko bata diya ki mai dipti ke saath jaroori kaam se jaa rahi hun.
Man mein faridabad jaate huve apne ghar ki yaad aa rahi thi, soch rahi thi ki kaash kisi tarah se sanjay kahin mil jaaye. Par aisa nahi huva.
Hum koyi 10:30 pm par faridabad pahunch gaye.
Manish ek privete hospital mein tha, jo ki sanjay ke clinic se kaafi dur tha.
jaise hi hum hospital pahunche, baahar hamein manish ka assisstant rahmaan mil gaya.
Dipti ne rahmaan se pucha, “kaisa hai manish ab”
Vo bola, abhi abhi hosh aaya hai, right leg mein frecture aaya hai, rod daalni padi hai, doctor ne kaha hai ki vo 2 ya 3 mahine chal nahi sakenge.
“oh my god, itna jyada serious hamlaa tha kya” — dipti ne rahmaan se pucha.
“Haan madam, mai bhi ush vakt unke saath hi tha, hum aaj subah prinstin mall ki aur ja rahe the. Mai footpath par baithe ek cigrate vaale se cigrate lene laga ki achaanak ek car ne manish sir ko takkar maar di” — rahmaan ne kaha
“ par tum to kah rahe the ki hamlaa huva hai, ye to accident lag raha hai” —- dipti ne rahmaan se pucha.
“Ek takkar maarne ke baad vo car phir se, mud kar manish sir ki aur aa rahi thi, jaise ki ek aur takkar maarni ho, par maine jaldi se manish sir ko vaha se hata liya” —- rahmaan ne kaha
“tumne kisi ka chehra dekha ki kaun tha car mein” —- dipti ne pucha
“ nahi madam car mein black screen lagi huyi thi, ander kaun tha, kuch nahi deekh raha tha” —- rahmaan ne bataaya.
“hmm…. Chalo theek hai, hum manish ke paas chalte hai, kaun se kamre mein hai vo” dipti ne rahmaan se pucha.
“Ji, room no 7…… aap chaliye mai jara apna phone recharge karaane jaa raha hun” — rahmaan ne dipti se kaha.
Jaise hi hum room no 7 mein ghusse hamne dekha ki manish, kinhi gahre vichaaro mein khoya huva hai, aur bistar par pade huve room ki chhat ko ghoor raha hai.
Hamein dekhte hi vo uthne ki koshis karne laga, ushke chehre par dard ke bhaav saaf deekh rahe the.
“Arey lete raho utho mat, dekho tumse milne kaun aaya hai” —– dipti ne manish se kaha.
Manish ne mujhe ek najar utha kar dekha aur wish karke apni najre jhuka li.
Bahut kam aadmi ek aurat ko aisi respect de paate hai. jyada tar log to kisi bhi ladki ko upar se neeche tak havash bhari nazro se dekhte hai.
Mujhe tab ahsaas huva ki, really manish is a nice man
“Sorry ritu ji aapka kaam pura nahi ho paaya par mujh par bharosa rakhiye, mai theek hote hi aapko puri sachaayi bata dunga” — manish sorry feel karte huve bola.
“mujhe koyi jaldi nahi hai, aap apna khyaal rakhiye, mere saath to jo hona tha, so ho chuka” —– maine manish se kaha.
“Par kya tumhe kuch pata chala ki ye hamlaa kishne karvaaya hai” —- dipti ne manish se pucha
“dekho abhi bahut kuch uljha huva hai, kuch nahi kah sakte ki kaun aisa karva sakta hai, haan itna jaroor hai ki koyi hai jo nahi chaahta ki hum kuch jaan paayein” — manish ne kaha.
“Kaun ho sakta hai vo” — dipti ne pucha
“koyi bhi ho sakta hai, billu ka koyi saathi ho sakta hai, ya phir……” —- manish ne kaha.
“Ya phir matlab” – dipti ne manish se pucha.
‘Matlab ki koyi bhi ho sakta hai, abhi kuch clear nahi hai” —- manish ne kaha.
Mai chupchaap sab kuch shun rahi thi.
“Acha tum to kah rahe the ki kal tak sab kuch pata chal jaayega, kya tum ish raaj ke bahut karib pahunch gaye the” —- dipti ne manish se pucha
“mujhe parso ek phone aaya tha, kisi veena joseph ka, unhone mujhe aaj subah 10 baje pristine mall ke baahar milne ko kaha tha, mai rahmaan ke saath vahin ja raha tha ki ye sab ho gaya.” — manish ne dipti ki aur dekhte huve kaha.
“ab ye veena joseph kaun hai, ushka ish sab se kya lena dena hai” —- dipti ne manish se pucha.
Veena ka naam shun kar mai chonk gayi thi, ushe mai jaanti thi. vo sanjay ke clinic mein nurse thi. ushki umar koyi 40 ya 42 saal ki hogi.
“Vahi to pata karne mai ja raha tha, mujhe billu ke ghar ke paas rahne waale ek padoshi ne bataaya tha ki ek-dau baar ushne veena joseph ko billu ke ghar aate jaate dekha tha. mai veena joseph ke ghar ka pata laga kar, ushke ghar pahunch gaya , par vo ush vakt ghar par nahi mili. mai ek chit veena joseph ke ghar chhod aaya tha ki jab vo free ho to mujhe phone karein, mujhe billu ke baare mein kuch baat karni hai. maine apna phone no chit par leekh diya tha” — manish ne kaha
“mai kuch kahun” ? maine manish aur dipti kau rokte huve kaha
dipti boli, “haan haan kaho kya baat hai”
“ek veena joseph ko mai jaanti hun, vo kerala se thi, umar koyi 40 ya 42 saal, aur abhi ek saal pehle tak vo sanjay ke clinic mein nurse thi” —– maine un dauno se kaha
“Acha ye baat pehle kyo nahi bataayi” —- dipti ne mujh se pucha.
“Arey bhai, mujhe kya pata tha ki ushka ish maamle se koyi lena dena hai” —- maine dipti ki aur dekhte huve kaha.
“Aap theek kah rahi hai” —- manish meri aur dekhte huve bola.
“acha ab kya hoga” — dipti ne pucha.
“Mujhe yakin tha ki veena joseph se mil kar saare raaj khul jaayenge, par…..” — manish ne gahri saans ley kar kaha.
“Par kya, ush se hum mil lete hai ya phir rahmaan mil lega, ish mein pareshaani waali kya baat hai” — dipti ne manish se kaha.
Manish ne apni jeb se ek kaagaz nikaala aur dipti kau dete huve bola, “abhi kisi ne, ek nurse ke haato, ye mere kamre mein bheezwaya tha, padho tum khud samajh jaaogi”
Vo kaagaz padh kar dipti ke chehre ka rang ud gaya
Maine ushke haath se vo kaagaz ley kar padha, to mere pairo ke neeche se bhi jamin nikal gayi
Ush mein leekha tha
“ abey detective, bahut hoshiyaar samajhta hai kya khud ko, chupchaap ye bekaar ki inquary band kar aur yaha se rafa dafa ho jaa. Jish se tum aaj milne jaa rahe the, vo veena joseph bhi maari ja chuki hai. tumhaari kishmat achi hai ki tum aaj bach gaye, par agar yaha se nahi gaye to agli baar nahi bachoge”
maine rotey huve kaha. “Please band karo ab ye sab, ish sab se milne waala bhi kya hai”
“lagta hai tum theek kah rahi ho ritu, manish ish kaam ko foran band karo, aur jaldi yaha se chalo, yaha mujhe ab dar lag raha hai” dipti ne kaha.
Ushke kahne ke andaaz se saaf lag raha tha ki vo kaafi dari huyi hai.
manish bola, “maine aaj tak aisa case nahi dekha. Aaj tak kisi ki himmat nahi huyi ki koyi mujhe yu hospital mein pahuncha de. Par mai apna koyi kaam adhura nahi chhodata. Ab vaise bhi ye mera personal kaam ho gaya hai. jisne bhi mere saath aisa kiya hai, ushe mai nahi chhodunga”
Dipti boli, “apni haalat dekho manish, tum abhi 2 ya 3 mahine tak chal nahi paaoge, baad mein sochenge ki kya karna hai ish baare mein, philhaal yaha se nikalte hai”.
hum manish ko convince karke jaise taise vaha se delhi ley aaye.

 

[The Immortal]

abhi tak kahaani vahi ki vahi latki huyi hai. manish ke ghaav bhar gayein hai par vo abhi bhi theek se chalne ki haalat mein nahi nahi.
ye sab baate thi jinke kaaran maine ye diary leekhne ka fainsala kiya. Sanjay se devorce ke baad, frustration mein maine apni ab tak ki kahaani leekh di hai. dekhte hai ki aage kya hota hai.
vaise mai ab sab kuch bhula kar, nayi shuruvaat karna chaahti hun.
aaj mai sapno ke sehar mumbai mein hun, nayi shuruvaat karne ki ish se achi jagah aur kya ho sakti hai.
………………………………
Date : 8-01-09
aaj mujhe office mein koyi aisa mila jishki ki mujhe bilkul ummid nahi thi. sidharth ko vaha dekh kar mai chonk gayi thi
“arey ritu, tum yaha, kaise” — sidharth ne pucha
“mai yaha assisstant manager hun” — maine jawaab diya.
“acha phir to tum meri client huyi” — ushne hanste huve kaha.
“Vo kaise sidharth” — maine hairaani mein pucha.
“Vo aise ki mai tumhaari company ka CA hun, saare financial matters mai hi to sambhaalta hun, khaaskar tax se related” — sidharth ne mujhe samjhaate huve kaha.
Mere liye sanjay se pehle sidharth ka hi rista aaya tha, mujhe vo bahut pasand aaya tha aur maine papa ko ushke liye haan kah di thi. sidharth ne sabhi ke saamne kaha tha ki “mujhe ritu bahut pasand hai, mai ritu ko apni patni bana kar khud ko khusnasib samjhunga”
Hum ne nazro hi nazro mein ek dushre ke liye bahut saare khawaab bun liye the.
Par kishmat ko ye rista manzoor nahi tha.
Sidharth ke papa ne hum dono ki kundali par bawaal khada kar diya.
Unhe kishi jyotishi ne bata diya tha ki ish ladki ke aapke ghar mein aate hi, aap ke ghar mein tabaahi aa jaayegi.
Ishliye rista bante bante bigad gaya.
Ushke baad sidharth ka kayi baar ghar par phone aaya aur vo baar baar mujh se maafi maangta raha.
Vo apne papa ke kaaran bahut sharminda mahsush kar raha tha.
Ek baar ushne mujhe phone kiya aur bola, ritu ek kaam karte hai”
Maine pucha, “kya”
“Mai tum se abhi shaadi karne ko taiyaar hun, bhaad mein jaaye ye kundali ka chakkar. mujhe in baato par bilkul vishvaas nahi hai, chalo kisi mandir mein jaa kar shaadi kar lete hai” —- sidharth ne bade pyar se kaha
ek pal ko mujhe bhi laga ki mujhe ushke saath chal dena chaahiye
par mai apne papa ke khilaaf nahi ja sakti thi.
maine papa ko bata diya tha ki sidharth shaadi karne ke liye taiyaar hai, hamein kya karna chaahiye
papa ne mujhe samjhaaya “tumhaare liye hazaar riste hai beta, tum ushe bhul jao, baat sirf tumhaari aur sidharth ki nahi hai, shaadi mein dau parivaar ek dushre se judte hai. ish tarah jabardasti shaadi karke kuch haansil nahi hoga. Sidharth ke papa tumhe kabhi swikaar nahi karenge”
Maine sidharth ko badi mushkil se mana kiya tha.
“sidharth mere papa nahi maan rahe hai aur mai unki marji ke bina kuch nahi kar sakti” —- maine mayusi mein sidharth se kaha tha
“theek hai ritu, mai tumhe majboor nahi karunga, par tum hamesha mere dil ke karib rahogi” —- sidharth ne emotinal ho kar kaha tha
maine rotey huve phone kaat diya. ush vakt yahi karna theek lag raha tha
ek dam se sidharth ko aaj saamne dekh kar mujhe samajh nahi aaya ki mai kaise react karun, par itna jaroor huva ki ushki yaade meri aankho mein ghum gayi.
maine sidharth se jyada baat nahi ki aur chupchaap apne cabin mein aa gayi. Mai nahi chaahti thi ki vo mujh se meri jeendagi ke baare mein koyi sawaal kare aur mai kisi uljhan mein fans jaaun.
Par thodi der baad sidharth mere cabin mein jhank kar bola, “may I come in ritu madam”
Mai kya karti, ushe ander aane ko kahna hi pada. Vaise bhi vo hamaari company ka CA tha ishliye ush se mujhe milna julna to tha hi.
“Haan to aur bataao kaisi chal rahi hai tumhaari shaadi shuda jeendagi” — sidharth ne pucha.
“Mera divorce ho gaya hai, sidharth” —- maine nazre jhuka kar kaha
“kya, kish bevkoof ne tumhe divorce de diya, tumne diya hai ya phir tumhaare pati ne diya hai” —- sidharth ne pucha.
“Ush se kya farak padta hai, sidharth, sachaayi ye hai ki mera divorce ho chuka hai, bas” maine sidharth ki aur dekhte huve kaha.
“ohh, sorry to hear that” —- sidharth ne chehre par sorry ke bhaav laa kar kaha.
Mai sidharth ke saath ush vakt uncomfortable mahsush kar rahi thi, kyonki mujhe dar tha ki kahi vo divorce ka kaaran na puch ley, kyoni sach bolna mere liye mushkil tha aur jhut mai bol nahi paaungi.
Par achaanak sidharth ka mobile baj utha aur ushne mujhe kaha, “oh mujhe jaana hoga, ek dushre client ka phone aa raha hai.
Ushne jaate jaate kaha, “ritu mai tumhe aaj tak bhula nahi paaya, pata nahi tumhe aaj mujh se mil kar kaisa laga, par mai to bahut bhaavuk ho raha hun”
Maine sidharth ki aankho mein dekha unmein aaj bhi mere liye vahi pyaar nazar aa raha tha.
Maine dheere se pucha, “tumhaari shaadi kaha huyi hai sidharth”
“Kahin nahi, maine ab tak shaadi nahi ki, koyi tumhaare jaisi mili hi nahi” — sidharth ne meri aur dekhte huve kaha
Ye kah kar vo muh pher kar chala gaya, shaayad ushki aankho mein aanshu the.
Mujhe ab ye lag raha hai ki mai kaise roj-roj sidharth ka saamna kar paaungi. Kabhi na kabhi to vo mere divorce ke baare mein puchega hi.
……………………..
date : 15-01-09
aaj jab mai office mein thi to dipti ka phone aaya
ushne mujhe bataaya ki manish kal achaanak faridabad chala gaya.
Maine ush se pucha, “tumne ushe kyo jaane diya, abhi to vo theek se chal bhi nahi pata”
Vo boli, “chalne to vo laga hai, par taango mein abhi bhi kaafi weakness hai, vo bina bataaye vaha chala gaya hai, vaha pahunch kar hi ushne phone kiya tha. mujhe to dar lag raha hai”
“ Dar to mujhe bhi lag raha hai, mai to yahi chaahti thi ki ish investigation ko yahi khatam kiya jaaye” —- maine dipti se kaha
“chaahti to mai bhi yahi hun, par manish ab ishe personally ley raha hai, vo ish case ko solve kiye bina nahi maanega” — dipti ne kaha.
Maine ushe dilaasa diya ki honsala rakho, sab kuch theek hoga.
Mujhe himmat dene waali ladki aaj khud himmat haarti nazar aa rahi thi. ye sab manish ke kaaran hai. vo ushe bahut pyar karne lagi hai.
Jaise hi maine dipti se baat karke phone rakha to sidharth mere cabin mein aa gaya.
Ushne pucha, “aaj shaam ko kya tum free ho”
Maine pucha, “kyo, kya baat hai”
“Kuch nahi soch raha tha aaj tumhe mumbai darshan karva dun, tum pehli baar aayi ho na yaha” —- sidharth ne hanste huve kaha.
Maine kaha, “aaj mera ghumne ka man nahi hai sidharth, phir kabhi dekhenge”
“Kya tum mere liye itna bhi nahi kar sakti, bas tumhaare man ki hi to baat hai, mujhe khusi hogi agar tum mere saath chalo” —- sidharth ne kaha
maine ushe bahut samjhaya par vo nahi maana aur shaam ko office ke baad vo mujhe gate way of India ley gaya.
Vaise gate way of india mere flat ke karib hi tha par jab se mein mumbai aayi thi tab se vaha jaane ka moka hi nahi laga tha.
Sidharth mere liye ice-cream ley aaya aur hum hotel taj ke saamne ghumte huve ice-cream khaane lage. Lag hi nahi raha tha ki taj hotel par kabhi terrorist attack huva tha. sabhi log vaha shaanti se ghum rahe the.
Vo ice-cream khaate khaate mujhe hi dekhe jaa raha tha.
Achaanak ushne kuch aisa pucha ki mai ice-cream khaana bhul gayi.
“ritu, mujh se shaadi karogi” —– ushne mujhe rok kar pucha
mere haath se ice-cream chut kar sadak par gir gayi.
Maine ushki aur dekha, ushki aankhe nam ho rahi thi
“Mai tumhe aaj bhi utna hi chaahta hun, mujhe nahi pata ki tumhaare pati ne tumhe divorce kyo diya aur na hi mai jaan-na chaahta hun, mai bas itna jaanta hun ki mai tumhe pyar karta hun, agar tum ush vakt maan jaati to tum aaj meri hi patni hoti” —– sidharth ne apne rumaal se mere honto par se ice-cream puchte huve kaha.
“Sidharth mai aisa nahi kar sakti, tumhe kaise bataaun….” —- maine ushe samjhaate huve kaha
“kyon nahi kar sakti ritu, tum aaj akeli ho, mai bhi akela hun, mere papa bhi aaj ish duniya mein nahi hai, phir kya dikkat hai. hamaare beech ab koyi nahi hai. please come in my life” — sidharth ne bhaavuk ho kar kaha
“sidharth mai tumhe kaise bataaun, aaj mai vo ritu nahi hun, jish ritu ko tum jaante the, vo ritu kab ki mar chuki hai” —- maine bhaavuk ho kar kaha.
Ye kahte kahte meri aankho mein aanshu aa gaye the
“Ritu ye kya kah rahi ho, please rona band karo, kya mai jaan sakta hun ki baat kya hai” — sidharth ne pucha.
“Maine apne pati ko dhoka diya tha, sidharth, ishliye unhone mujhe divorce de diya hai” — maine nazre jhuka kar kaha.
“Ye kya kah rahi ho ritu, mujhe tumhaari baat par yakin nahi hai, tum phir se koyi bahaana bana rahi ho hai na, par tum chaahe kuch bhi kaho, mai tumse shaandi karne ke liye taiyaar hun” —- sidharth ne hairaani bhare shabdo mein kaha
maine kaha, “chaahe tum jo kaho par sach yahi hai, sidharth, chaaho to tum mere pati sanjay se phone karke puch sakte ho”
sidharth ne kaha, “mujhe kisi se phone karke nahi puchna samjhi, I love you and my love is beyond anything”
mujhe bahut rona aa raha tha, mai sidharth ko kuch bhi samjhaane ki haalat mein nahi thi. vo meri baat shun-ne ko taiyaar bhi nahi tha
maine ushe kaha, “sidharth mujhe ghar jaana hai, baad mein baat karenge theek hai, mai abhi bahut pareshaan hun”
mai taxi ley kar ghar aa gayi aur jab se aayi hun, tab se baar baar mujhe sidharth ka marriage proposal yaad aa raha hai.
ek shaadi to mai theek se neebha nahi paayi fir dushri shaadi ke baare mein kaise soch lun.
Aisa lag raha hai ki vaakayi mein meri kundali mein koyi daush hai, tabhi maine sanjay ki jeendagi barbaad kar di. Ab mai aisa sidharth ke saath nahi kar sakti. ushe kisi aur se shaadi kar leni chaahiye. ishi mein ushki bhalaayi hai.
………………………….

 

[The Immortal]

Date : 22-01-09
21 january meri jeendagi mein ab tak ka sabse bhayaanak din ban gaya hai. aur sab se chonkaane wala din bhi…kal jo mere saath huva vo mai sapne mein bhi nahi soch sakti thi…
kal ki ghatna ko leekhte huve mere haath kaanp rahe hai.
kal shaam ko koyi 6 baje mai office se nikal rahi thi ki achaanak mere saamne ek car aakar ruki.
“Arey ye to vivek hai, ye yaha kya kar raha hai” – maine man hi man mein socha.
Ushne car ka darvaaja khola aur bola, “bhabhi, aapse sanjay ke baare mein kuch baat karni thi, kya aap mere saath chalengi, kahi kisi restaurant mein baith kar baat karte hai”
Mujhe ushka vaha hona man hi man mein khatak raha tha, par na jaane kyo sanjay ka naam shun kar mai utshuk ho gayi thi.
Maine pucha, “kya baat hai, bataao”
Pehle aap baith to jao bhabhi, kahin baith kar araam se baat karenge.
Mera man pata nahi kyon baar baar mujhe kah raha tha ki kahin na kahin kuch gadbad hai, ishke saath mat jao, ye yaha mumbai mein kya kar raha hai, par sanjay ke baare mein jaan-ne ke liye mai jhejakte huve ushke saath baith gayi.
Jaise hi mai ander baithi vo car teji se yaha vaha se nikaalte huve ek shunshaan sadak par ley aaya.
Maine pucha, kitne restaurant nikal gaye vivek tum kaha ja rahe ho.
Maine ushki aur dekha to ushke chehre par bahut hi bhayaanak hansi thi.

 

[The Immortal]

Vivek ko ish roop mein maine kabhi nahi dekha tha. mujhe bahut dar lag raha tha ushe yu hanste dekh kar. vaise mai ushe itna jaanti bhi kaha thi. jab se sanjay se shaadi huyi thi tab se mushkil se koyi 5 ya 6 baar hi ush se meri mulaakat huyi thi. mera swabhaav vaise bhi jyada logo se milne julne ka nahi hai. ishliye jab kabhi vivek sanjay ke saath ghar aata bhi tha to mai aksar apne bedroom mein hi rahti thi.
Maine vivek se pucha, “vivek kya mai jaan sakti hun ki hum kaha jaa rahe hai” ?
Vivek ne meri aur dekha aur bola, “aap bataao bhabhi ki aapko kaha jaana hai, vahi chal padenge, aap ki baat hum kaise taal sakte hai”
“Kya matlab ? tum to kah rahe the ki sanjay ke baare mein baat karni hai, restaurant chalte hai, kaun se restaurant ley jaa rahe ho tum mujhe” — maine hairaani bhare shabdo mein pucha.
“Restaurant bhi chalenge bhabhi aap chinta mat karo, pehle aapse jaroori baat karni hai” —- vivek ne meri aur dekhte huve kaha.
Ye kah kar vivek ne car sadak ke ek taraf rok li. Rasta shunshaan tha, aur dur dur tak koyi bhi nahi deekh raha tha.
“Vivek ye kya kar rahe ho, yaha rukne ka kya matlab hai, aur saaf saaf kaho ki baat kya hai, mere paas jyada vakt nahi hai” —– maine vivek se thoda gusse mein kaha
“bhabhi mujhe aapse ek shikaayat hai, bura na maane to kahun” —– vivek ne kaha
“kya shikaayat hai, mai kuch samjhi nahi” — maine hairaani mein pucha.
Ushki baate mujhe bahut ajeeb lag rahi thi, vo mujhe majaakiya mud se ghur raha tha. ushke chehre par abhi bhi ajeeb si hansi thi.
“Bhabhi aapne mere saath bahut nainsaafi ki hai, aapko aisa nahi karna chaahiye tha” —- vo meri taraf dekh kar bola
“kya matlab vivek, aakhir tum kahna kya chaahte ho ? aur sanjay ke baare mein tumhe jo baat karni thi, vo baat karo mere paas faaltoo vakt nahi hai” —- maine ushki aur dekh kar kaha
“faaltoo vakt mere paas bhi nahi hai bhabhi, pata hai mai faridabad se yaha special aapke liye hi aaya hun, aur aap hai ki aisi baate kar rahi hai” —- vivek ne kaha
ab mujhe dar lagne laga tha, ushke iraade mujhe theek nahi lag rahe the. Ushki car mai baithne se pehle jo mujhe andesha ho raha tha vo sach hota nazar aa raha tha.
“ye kya ghuma fhira kar baat kar rahe ho vivek saaf saaf kyo nahi kahte ki baat kya hai, aur yaha se chalo ish shunshaan sadak par rukne ka kya matlab hai” —– maine jor se pucha
“chalo ab saaf saaf baat karta hun bhabhi, aap ye bataao ki sanjay mein kya kami thi ki aapne ushe itna bada dhoka diya, aapko aisa nahi karna chaahiye tha” —- vo gambhir ho kar bola.
“tumhaara ish sab se koyi lena dena nahi hai vivek, ye mere aur sanjay ke beech ki baat hai, tum kaun hote ho mujh se ye sab puchne waale, kya sanjay ne tumhe yaha bheja hai” — maine ushe gusse mein kaha
“lena dena kyo nahi hai bhabhi, mai sanjay ka khaas dost hun, ushke bhale bure ki mujhe chinta rahti hai. aap ye bataao ki kyon aapne sanjay ko dhoka diya, mujh se ushki haalat dekhi nahi jaati, pata hai vo din raat pareshaan rahta hai, aajkal clinic bhi theek se nahi chala paa raha.” —- vivek ne kaha
ye shun kar meri aankho mein aanshu bhar aaye aur maine pucha, “kya sanjay bahut jyada pareshaan hai”
“pareshaan kyon nahi hoga bhabhi, ushne aapko teen-teen logo ke saath ayaashi karte huve apni aankho se dekha tha, aap se aisi ummid nahi thi. aap bataao to sahi ki kya kami thi sanjay mein jo ki aap ish had tak gir gayi” —- vivek ne pucha.
Aisa lag raha tha ki vo aisi baate karke mujhe humiliate kar raha hai, kyonki aisi baate karte vakt ushke chehre par gambhirta ke bajaaye ek ghinoni si mushkaan thi.
Maine kaha, “vivek chalo yaha se, mujhe ghar jaana hai, mujhe kishi restaurant mein nahi jaana aur na hi tumhaare saath koyi baat karni hai, yaha se jaldi chalo”
“Bhabhi kya aisa hai ki aapka ek aadmi se man nahi bharta aur aapko apne chaaro aur bheed chaahiye, taaki aap havash ka nanga naach khel saken” —- vo apne chehre par vahi bekaar si hansi ley kar bola.
maine apne kaano par haath rakh liye aur jor se ushe kaha, “ vivek band karo ye bakwaas aur chup ho jao, tumhe sharam aani chaahiye mujh se aisi baate karte huve”
Vo mushkuraate huve bola, “bhabhi mai to sanjay ke liye puch raha tha, jaakar ushe bataaunga ki ushki barbaadi ka kaaran kya hai, aap detail mein bataao na ki kaise aap un logo ke saath gayi, kaise unke saath sab kuch kiya, bataao na bhabhi”
ab mujhe yakin ho gaya tha ki vo jaan bujh kar ye baate kar raha tha. bahut kamina najar aa raha tha ush vakt vo
“dekho sanjay se mera divorce ho chuka hai, ishliye na mai ab unki patni hun aur na tumhaari bhabhi, mai ye soch kar tumhaare saath aayi thi ki tum mujhe sanjay ke baare mein kuch bataaoge. Mai bas jaan-na chaahti thi ki vo kaise hai. tum bekaar ki baate kar rahe ho. Mai ab chalti hun” —– maine vivek se kaha
“arey nahi ruko bhabhi aap to bura maan gayi mai to bas yu hi baat kar raha tha, vaise aap ko meri baat shun-ni hi padegi, mai yu hi faridabad se mumbai nahi aaya hun” —- vo gambhir ho kar bola.
“kyo shun-ni padegi vivek, meri aisi koyi majboori nahi hai samjhe, aur ye bhabhi bhabhi kahna band karo” —- maine gusse mein kaha
Tabhi ushne na jaane kaha se ek pistol nikaal li aur pistol ko meri aur karke bola, “mera deemaag khraab ho rakha hai bhabhi, aap ya to meri baat shunogi ya phir ish pistol ki shaari ki shaari goliya aapke bheje mein daal dunga, aap hi bataao ki aapko kya chaahiye”
“Ye kya paagalpan hai vivek ishe dur hataao, mujhe dar lag raha hai” — maine vivek se gusse mein kaha
aaj tak maine pistol ko itne najdeek se nahi dekha tha. vo pistol ko meri aur karke mushkura raha tha.
“bhabhi agar aap chupchaap cooperate karengi to mai kuch nahi karunga, ye leeziye pistol ek taraf rakh di” — vivek pistol ko apne paanv ke paas neeche rakhte huve bola
maine kaha “vivek lagta hai tum abhi hosh mein nahi ho, tum abhi jao, baad mein araam se baat karenge”
“bhabhi baat to aapko abhi karni padegi, aap ye bataao ki agar sanjay aapko santust nahi kar pa raha tha to humein bol diya hota hum aa jaate aapki pyaas bhujaane” —- vo besharmi se bola.
“ye kya bakwaas hai vivek tameez se baat karo” — maine gusse mein cheella kar kaha
“aap shaayad bhul rahi hai ki, mere paas pistol hai, maine vo ek taraf rakh di hai to ishka matlab ye nahi hai ki aap mujh se cheella kar baat karengi, mera deemaag ghum gaya na to abhi ke abhi bheja uda dunga” —- vo bhayaanak awaaj mein bola.
meri aankho mein aanshu aa gaye, maine vivek se pucha, “tum ye sab kyo kar rahe ho vivek please mujhe jaane do”
“jaane dunga, jaroor jaane dunga, pehle aap ish baat ka jawaab do ki mai kya mar gaya tha jo aap ajnabi logo ke aage apna naada khol kar jhuk gayi, aapko pehle mujhe moka dena chaahiye tha, kasam se mai aapki shaari havash meeta deta” —- vo meri aur dekhte huve bola.
maine apni gardan dushri taraf ghuma li, meri aankho se lagaatar aanshu bah rahe the. Ushki baate aur jyada gandi hoti jaa rahi thi.
Ush vakt mai yahi soch rahi thi ki hey bhagvaan ye kaun se paapo ki saja mil rahi hai mujhe ki mujhe itna kuch shun-na pad raha hai. mai to mumbai ek nayi shuruvaat karne aayi thi par phir se mujhe mere past ne gher liya tha.
“Bhabhi boliye na aapne mujhe moka kyo nahi diya. sanjay kah raha tha ki, aap kisi ladke se apne ghar ke peeche ki jhaadiyon mein pata nahi kya kya karva rahi thi. aur to aur baaki ke koyi dau log apni baari ka intezaar kar rahe the, itni bhuk thi sex ki to mujhe bol diya hota mai aapki un logo se jyada ache se leta par aapne to mujhe koyi moka hi nahi diya. ab aap hi bataao, hai na ye galat baat. Jo aapke apne hai vo pyase rahein aur ajnabi log maja karein ye kaha ka insaaf hai” —- vivek ne mere kandhe par haath rakh kar kaha.
“Vivek please chup ho jao, mai mar jaaungi, mai khud pareshaan hun, mujhe aur pareshaan mat karo, mujhe mere kiye ki saja mil chuki hai, ye sab kahne ki bajaaye tum mujhe goli maar do to acha hai” — maine rote huve kaha.

 

[The Immortal]

“Goli kab maarni hai vo mai decide karunga bhabhi abhi aapko mere kuch sawaalo ka jawaab dena hai” — vo haath mein pistol utha kar bola.
“mere paas tumhaare in be-huda sawaalo ka koyi jawaab nahi hai. mai ja rahi hun, goli maarna chaahte ho to maar do, I am ready to die” —– maine ushki aur dekh kar gusse mein kaha
ye kah kar mai car ka darvaaja kholne ki koshis karne lagi, par vo nahi khula, shaayad ander se lock tha.
“bhabhi kaha jaa rahi ho, meri marji ke beena aap kahin nahi jaayengi, aaj aap meri mehmaan hai.bahut maje ley liye logo ne aapke saath, aaj meri baari hai. chaliye mai aapko apne hotel ley chalta hun. aapki havash bhi meet jaayegi aur meri saalo ki tamanna bhi puri ho jaayegi” —- vivek ne hanste huve kaha
mere purse mein mera mobile tha, mai ye soch rahi thi ki chupchaap kisi tarah police ko 100 no par phone kar deti hun, par ushka pura dhyaan mere upar hi tha. upar se ushne meri taraf pistol taan rakhi thi.
achaanak maine dekha ki ushka dhyaan dushri taraf hai, maine foran mobile nikaala aur 100 no par dial kiya.
par maine abhi dial kiya hi tha ki ushne mobile cheen kar kaat diya aur bola, “galat baat… bhabhi, aap mujhe bhi dhoka de rahi hai, lagta hai, dhoka dene mein expert ho gayi hai aap. Sanjay ne to kuch nahi kaha aapko par mai aapko aaj saja dunga. Ye saja ish baat ki hogi ki aapne mujhe ignore karke dushre logo ko apni jawaani ke maje diye aur mai yu hi aapko dur se dekh dekh kar apna dick masalta raha. aaj vakt aa gaya hai ki aapke holes ko mai bhi check kar lun, dekhun to sahi ki kitne gahre hole hai aapke. Vaise mai ek baat bata dun ki mera dick bada hai aur aapke jaisi slut ke liye hi bana hai.
mere sabar ka bandh tut gaya aur maine gusse mein ushke gaal par inti jor se chaanta maara ki ushka chehra laal ho gaya. Ushke haath mein jo pistol thi ushki bhi maine koyi parvaah nahi ki. jyada se jyada vo kya karta, mujhe goli hi maarta. aisi jeendagi se mujhe maut jyada pyari nazar aa rahi thi
“you bicth, tumhaari itni himmat mai pyar se baat kar raha tha aur tumne chaanta maar diya, ab tum nahi bachogi, bahut ho gayi pyar se baate” — vo gusse mein jhalla kar bola.
ye kah kar ushne meri kanpatti par pistol rakh di aur bola, “bata deti hai kya araam se ya phir tera ** karun. Aaj mai kishi bhi had tak jaa sakta hun”
maine pistol pakad kar kaha maaro goli vivek, tum wait kish baat ka kar rahe ho, bhul jao ki mai tumhaare jaise neech ke jhaanse mein aaungi. Come on do it” maine cheella kar kaha
pata nahi mujhe kya ho gaya tha. mai maut ke dar se ajaad ho gayi thi. kishi ne sach hi kaha hai ki jab inshaan maut ke dar ko bhula deta hai to kuch bhi kar sakta hai. aisa hi kuch mere saath ho raha tha.
vivek ne achaanak mere sar par jor se vaar kiya aur mai chakkar kha kar behosh ho gayi. Behosh hote hote maine apne sar par haath laga kar dekha. Mere sar se khun bah raha tha. agle hi pal mai gahri neend mein sho gayi.
Jab meri aankh khuli to maine khud ko vivek ke haato mein jhulte huve paaya. Vo mujhe dono haato mein utha kar chale ja raha tha. maine chaaro taraf dekha to mere rongate khade ho gaye. Har taraf jhaadiya hi jhaadiya thi. vo mujhe kishi jangal mein ley aaya tha.
Maine cheella kar kaha, “chhodo mujhe vivek, ye kaha ley aaye mujhe, jaldi chhodo varna mujh se bura koyi nahi hoga”
“Ye jangal hai bhabhi, yaha charo taraf jhadiya hi jhadiya hai, aapko to jhadiyon mein marvaane ka bada shonk hai na, apne ghar ke peeche jhadiyon mein hi to karva rahi thi ush din aap un logo se. ishliye mai aapko jangal mein ley aaya. Kya pata aapka man ban jaaye. dekh leeziye aur apni man pasand jhadiya chun leeziye, vahi jaakar aapki chut maarunga” —- vo chalte-chalte hanste huve bola.
mai ushki bahon mein jor jor se chatpatta rahi thi.par ushki bhujaao mein kaafi bal tha. vo badi majbuti se mujhe thaame huve tha.
ush vakt mujhe bahut dar lag raha tha. mere haath paanv kaanp rahe the. Ye sab ishliye tha kyonki mai nahi chaahti thi ki mere saath ** ho.
** kisi bhi ladki ke liye maut se bhi badi saja hoti hai. ** ke baad aurat ki dignity aur ushke aurat hone ka garv ushki jeendagi se cheen jaata hai.
Maine kabhi sapne mein bhi nahi socha tha ki mere saath ** hoga, par mai ush vakt aise haalaat mein thi ki mera bachana naamumkin nazar aa raha tha.
Vivek ne mujhe ek ghani jhaadi ke peeche ley jaa kar patak diya. mera muh seedha jamin par laga. jamin par ghaas nahi thi aur charo taraf mitti hi mitti thi. jaise hi mera muh jamin par laga meri aankho mein mitti ghuss gayi.
Shaam ka vakt tha, andhere ki chaadar charo taraf failne lagi thi. bas halki halki roshni baaki thi. upar se shunshaan jangal ki vo badi badi jhaadiyan. Aisa lag raha tha ki jaise kisi horror movie ka daraavana scene chal raha ho. itna bhayaanak scene maine jeendagi mein nahi dekha tha.
Par maine man hi man mein himmat na haarne ka fainsala kiya. Mai aakhri dam tak ladna chaahti thi. ** mujhe kisi bhi haalat mein manjoor nahi tha.
Maine upar ki aur karvat li to dekha ki vivek apni pant utaar raha hai.
Jaise hi ushne apni pant utaar kar ek taraf rakhi maine apni right leg se jor se ushke testicle par parhaar kiya.
“Oooohhhh, saali kamini, kuttiya teri itni himmat, aaj tak kisi ki mere saath aisa karne ki himmat nahi huyi” —- vo dard se cheellate huve bola aur mere baal pakad liye.
“vivek jo tum chaahte ho, vo mai kabhi nahi hone dungi” —– maine jor se cheella kar kaha.
Haan haan tujhe to bas vo kamina billu hi chaahiye. billu mar chuka hai meri jaan, aao na ab mai tumhaari pyaas bhujaata hun. khusi se nahi dogi to jabardasti dogi, deni to tumhe padegi hi, soch lo kaise dena chaahti ho.
Maine ushke muh par thuk diya
Aur agle hi pal ushne mere chehre par thappad barshaane shuru kar diye.
Vo bahut der tak mere gaal par thappado ki bochaar karta raha.
Ushne mujhe itna maara ki mai chakkar kha kar gir gayi.
Ushne mujhe ghuma kar apne neeche ulta kar diya.
Mai pet ke bal mitti par padi thi, aur vo mere upar khada tha.
Ushne meri jeans ke button khol kar ushe neeche sarka diya aur mere nitambo par jor se thappad maar kar bola, “pehle tumhaari gaand hi maarta hun,……. aayi mujh par thukne waali”
mera shrir jawaab de chuka tha par phir bhi maine uthne ki koshis ki par ushne meri peeth par ek laat maari aur mai dhadaam se jamin par vaapas gir gayi.
Ish baar mera maatha seedha dhul bhari jamin se ja takraaya aur meri aankho mein aur jyada mitti bhar gayi.
Aisa lag raha tha ki ab mera ** ho kar rahega.
Maine man hi man mein kaha, hey bhagvaan agar ye mere paapo ki saja hai to sach kahti hun ki bahut badi saja hai, mujhe nahi lagta ki kisi ko bhi aisi saja milni chaahiye.
Vivek mere upar late gaya aur mere baalo ko pakad kar kheenchte huve bola, laat maarti hai mere lund par huu……, dekh mai teri gaand kaise phaadta hun.
Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki ab kya karun. Mai bas vaha pade pade chatpata rahi thi.
Maine ek aakhri koshis ki.
Maine ushe rote huve appeal ki, “vivek please ruk jao, aisa mat karo, tum to aise nahi the, tumhe aaj kya ho gaya hai, tum mujhe goli maar do par ye sab mat karo please, mai maanti hun maine sanjay ko dhoka diya hai, par….”
Ushke baad kuch aisa huva jishki maine sapne mein bhi kalpana nahi ki thi. mujhe vaha kisi aur ki awaaj shunaayi di
“Ye aisa hi hai ritu, tum ish haraami ko nahi jaanti ye aisa hi hai”
ye awaaj shun kar mai ek dam se chonk gayi, kyonki vo mujhe jaani pehchaani si lagi. Mai man hi man mein soch rahi thi ki jishki ye awaaj hai ushka vaha hona namumkin hai.
“kaun ho tum chhodo mujhe varna” — ye vivek ki awaaj thi. vo gidgida raha tha.
achaanak mujhe mahsush huva ki vivek mere upar nahi hai. ushe mere upar se kheench liya gaya tha.
phir maine mahsush kiya ki koyi meri jeans upar chadha raha hai.
mujhe bachaane vaha jangal mein kaun aa gaya, yahi sawaal mere man mein ghum raha tha.
maine gardan ghuma kar dekha. Abhi tak puri tarah se andhera nahi huva tha aur roshni ek tarah se theek thaak thi. par meri aankho mein itni mitti ghussi huyi thi ki, mai theek se dekh hi nahi paayi ke vaha vivek ke alawa dushra kaun hai
mujhe bas itna hi deekha ki koyi vivek ko buri tarah maar raha hai. vivek mere paas hi pada huva maar kha raha tha.
aaahh no….vivek ki cheenkh pure jangal mein gunj rahi thi.
“saale teri itni himmat aaj tujhe jeenda nahi chhodunga mai” — phir se vahi awaaj aayi
mai itni utshuk ho rahi thi ki foran himmat karke vaha se uthi aur maine apni aankho par se mitti hata kar dekhne ki koshish ki.
jo maine dekha ush par vishvaas karna mushkil tha.
meri aankho ke saamne billu, vivek ko buri tarah maar raha tha.
ushe vaha dekh kar mujhe apni aankho par vishwaas nahi ho raha tha. mai bas ushe ek tak dekhe ja rahi thi.
vo jeenda kaise hai ? vo vaha kaise aaya ? mumbai mein vo kya kar raha hai ?
ye kuch aise sawaal the jo mere deemag mein billu ko vaha dekh kar ek dam se ghum gaye
yahi kal ki sabse chonkaane waali ghatna thi.
Billu ko vaha dekh kar mai gahre shock mein thi. yahi sawaal man mein uth raha tha ki aakhir vo bach kaise gaya.
Mai soch rahi thi ki agar vo jeenda hai to vo kaun the jo neha ke anushaar ashok ke saath maare gaye the.
Khair vo meri aankho ke saamne tha aur vivek ko buri tarah maar raha tha.
Koyi bhi agar aise haalaat mein aapki ijjat bachayega to aap ushka ahshaan maanenge
Par aap kya kahenge ush inshaan ko jo pehle to aapko barbaad karta hai aur phir aapki ijjat bachaane aa jata hai.
Samajh nahi aa raha tha ki billu ko vaha dekh kar mai kaise react karun. Ushke kaaran mera sab kuch barbaad ho chuka tha. aur ab vo mere saamne mera ** karne ki koshis karne waale vivek ko maar raha tha.
agar vivek mere sharir ka ** karna chaahta tha to, billu ush se bhi badh kar mere charitra ka ** pehle hi kar chuka tha.Ishliye mai billu ko apna rakhvaala kaise maan sakti thi.
Aakhir vahi to tha vo, jishne badi chaalaaki se mujhe paap ke daldal mein fansaya tha.
Vaha khade khade, mujhe yaad aaya ki kaise ushne ek din apne paanv mein chicken ka blood laga kar mujhe badi chaalaki se mere ghar ke peeche bulaaya tha. kah raha tha paanv mein chot lagi hai, khun bah raha hai, kuch karo na. aur phir ushke baad ushki vo emotional baatein.