Chapter-31:A Unconscious Break
Update-105
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"Nisha ne phone par kaha ki main tumhe uski email id de du aur tum usase email par baat karo..."Mere dwara chhanchhundar bole jane par wo jal-bhun kar boli...
"ye tum ladkiyo ke paas dimag nahi hota kya...ab email-email khelne ka kaun sa junoon Nisha ko sawar ho gaya hai..."
"ladkiyo ke paas tum ladko se jyada dimag hota hai aur Nisha ne aisa isliye kaha kyunki uske dad ne uspar pabandi laga rakhi hai, wo ab na to kisi se baat kar sakti hai aur na hee kisi se mil sakti hai...mera andaza sahi tha ,you are a champu "
"us dayan ki email id kya mujhe sapne me aayegi..."
"i have her email id..."apna chhati chauda karte hue Sonam aise boli jaise olympic me gold medal jeet liya ho aur na chahte hue bhi meri nazar uske seene par ja padi...
"Varun,tumhara dusara dost bhi mujhe line maar raha hai...."
"kya Arman,ek to ye teri madad karne aayi hai aur uspar tu ise uncomfortable kar raha hai..."Sonam aur mere beech khade hokar Varun ne mujhe ghura...
"main ise uncomfortable kar raha hoon ya ye mujhe uncomfortable kar rahi hai..."
"hey Mr. main koyi aisi waisi ladki nahi hoon ,samjhe..."Varun ko samne se dhakka dekar Sonam ne meri aankho me aankhe dalte hue fire kiya....
"waise mera sawal ye tha ki Nisha ki email id main kaha se laun..."maine turant topic change kiya aur mudde par aaya...
"maine kaha na ki uski email id mujhe maloom hai..."Sonam bhi mudde par aate hue boli"actually...uski email id maine hee banayi thi..."
Nisha ki email id Sonam ne banayi hai ye jaankar main thodi der tak intezaar karta raha ki ab wo mujhe Nisha ki email id degi...lekin wo chup chap khadi mujhe dekhti rahi aur jab kuchh der tak aur wo ek lafz tak nahi boli to main kheej utha...
"Nisha ki email id batane ka kya logi "
"oh , sorry..main bhool hee gayi thi.."
"apun ka style hee kuchh aisa hai ki ladkiya mujhe dekhkar sab kuchh bhool jati hai..."
"aisa kuchh bhi nahi hai..."ek kagaj par Nisha ki email id likhkar Sonam boli"ab main chalti hoon..."
"Sonam...ruko,kuchh baat karni hai tumse...akele me"
"kaisi baat karni hai tujhe
"waha mauzood teene human ne mujhse puchha...Sonam bhauchakki thi,Arun ,Sonam ko dekhkar laar tapka raha tha aur Varun aankho me angare liye bas Sonam ke jaane ka intezaar kar raha tha,taki wo meri thukayi kar sake....
"Varun,waisa kuchh bhi nahi hai mere bhai,jaisa tu soch raha hai "Varun ko ek konte me lejakar maine samjhaya ki main Sonam se Nisha ke baare me kuchh puchhana chahta hoon,jisase jo uljhan is samay mere dimag me hai ,wo sulajh jaye....
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"Kab se Nisha ko janti ho..."balcony me aane ke baad maine Sonam se pahla sawal kiya...
"lagbhag tab se jabse hum dono ne school jana shuru kiya,we are childhood friends..."
"tab to ,tum mujhe Nisha ke bare me bahut kuchh ya phhir ye kahe ki sab kuchh bata sakti ho..."
"aur tumhe aisa kyun lagta hai ki main aisa karungi..."mere thik bagal me khade hokar wo boli"main Nisha ke bare me sabkuchh janti hoon,lekin iska matlab ye nahi ki main tumhe uske baare me kuchh batane wali hoon....tumhara ye ghatiya plan flop hai..."
"yaha baat flop ,hit,superhit,blockbuster,all time blockbuster ki nahi hai...yaha baat Nisha ki hai..tumhe andaza bhi nahi hai ki is waqt Nisha kis halat me hai,isliye mujhe uske baare me sabkuchh janana jaroori hai..."
Sonam kuchh der tak waha chup chap khadi sochati rahi aur phhir deewar ki taraf jakar nakhoon se deewar ko kharochane lagi....
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"puchho...kya puchhana chahte ho..."meri taraf platkar usne kaha..
"sabse pahle ye batao ki kya tum ab bhi Nisha ke ghar jakar usase mil sakti ho..."
"No...yadi maine aisa kiya bhi to uske maa-baap meri khatiya khadi kar denge..."
"maine thik aisa hee socha tha,ab ye batao ki kya tum Sonam ke sath college me padhti thi..."
"haan,hum dono ek dusare ke best friend the..."
"to phhir Mujhe ye batao ki Vishwakarma aur Nisha ka kya relation tha..."
"tum Vishwakarma ko jante ho... "
"kal hee use jana hai..."
"Nisha hamesha se hee akeli rahi thi,uske maa-baap sirf name ke maa-baap the...wo aksar mujhse kahti ki use koyi pyar nahi karta...jabki usne kisi ke sath kabhi jara sa bhi galat nahi kiya aur phhir uski Zindagi me Vishwakarma name ka ek toofan aaya ,jisne pahle shanti se Nisha ko apne jaal me phhasaya aur phhir Nisha ko badnaam karne laga...usne pure class ke samne Nisha ko randi kaha tha, Vishwakarma ke dhokhe se Nisha lagbhag puri tarah mar chuki thi...lekin college ke aakhiri dino me kuchh chamatkar sa hua, Nisha ko dekhkar aisa lagne laga...jaise ki use jeene ki koyi vajah mil gayi hai,jaise ki usne apne liye ek sahara dhoondh liya ho,wo sahara tum the Arman...yadi tum Nisha se na mile hote to shayad wo ab tak zinda nahi bachti...yadi tum uski zindagi me nahi aaye hote to shayad abtak wo ghut-ghut kar mar gayi hoti ya phhir suicide kar leti..."
"phhir usne mujhse jhooth kyun kaha ki uski zindagi me main pahla ladka hoon..."Nisha ke ateet ne jab mere dil ko cheer dala tab maine apna agla sawal kiya...
"Arman,koyi shaks nahi chahega ki uski ek galti ki vajah se uske aaj aur aane wala kal par bura prabhav pade aur shayad isiliye Nisha ne tumse aisa kaha...Vishwakarma,Nisha ke zindagi ki sabse badi galti thi jiski saza wo bhugat chuki hai...aur ab wo nahi chahegi ki uski zindagi ka sabse bura daur uske aaj ke achchhe daur ko khatm kar de..."
"thanks,ab tum ja sakti ho..."balcony ke bahar aasman ki taraf dekhte hue maine Sonam ko jaane ke liye kaha...
"Arman..."waha se jate hue Sonam boli"yadi tumne zindagi me kabhi koyi galti ki hogi to tumhe iska ahsaas jaroor hoga...aage tumhari marzi..."
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Sonam ke jane ke baad main bahut der tak aasman ko niharta raha...aaj bahut din baad suraj ne apne darshan diye the,badalo ko bhedati Suraj ki kiran mere andar ek naya josh ,ek naya utsah bhar rahi thi...maine table par rakhe us kagaj ko uthaya jispar Nisha ka email address tha aur turant Nisha ko mail kar diya ki, main Sonam se mil chuka hoon.....
Ab mujhe wo sab beete pal yaad aa rahe the,jab Nisha har waqt mere peechhe paglo ki tarah padi rahti thi...main samajh chuka tha ki uska wo rubab sirf ek dikhawa,sirf ek chhalawa tha...taki main ye na jaan paun ki wo mujhe dil-o-jaan se pyar karti hai...shayad use dar tha ki kahi main uski mazboori ka Vishwakarma ki tarah fayda na uthau...lekin main aisa nahi tha..beshak mujhme kayi burayi hai lekin main dusaro ke armano ki kadra karna janta hoon..isiliye shayad mera name Arman pada ya phhir yun kahe ki mere name Arman hone ki vajah se main is shabd ki paribhasha,is Arman shabd ka matlab samajh paya...aur mujhe maloom hee nahi balki iska ahsas bhi hai ki adhure Armano ka gam kya hota hai.... Pahle jaha main Nisha ki call ko ignore karta tha wahi ab main chahta tha ki ab wo mujhe ek call kare to main uski aawaz sun loon...pahle jaha main kisi na kisi bahane Nisha ke messege ko taal deta tha ab main wahi computer screen ke samne pichhale ek ghante se apni email id kholkar uske messege ka intezaar kar raha tha...main dekhna chahta tha ki wo apni khushi ko shabdo me kaise bayan karti hai...mere liye apne left side me dhadak rahe dil ki dhadkano ko wo kis tarah shabdo me utarti hai...aur yadi in short kahe to "now,i am madly love her "
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Update-105
.
"Nisha ne phone par kaha ki main tumhe uski email id de du aur tum usase email par baat karo..."Mere dwara chhanchhundar bole jane par wo jal-bhun kar boli...
"ye tum ladkiyo ke paas dimag nahi hota kya...ab email-email khelne ka kaun sa junoon Nisha ko sawar ho gaya hai..."
"ladkiyo ke paas tum ladko se jyada dimag hota hai aur Nisha ne aisa isliye kaha kyunki uske dad ne uspar pabandi laga rakhi hai, wo ab na to kisi se baat kar sakti hai aur na hee kisi se mil sakti hai...mera andaza sahi tha ,you are a champu "
"us dayan ki email id kya mujhe sapne me aayegi..."
"i have her email id..."apna chhati chauda karte hue Sonam aise boli jaise olympic me gold medal jeet liya ho aur na chahte hue bhi meri nazar uske seene par ja padi...
"Varun,tumhara dusara dost bhi mujhe line maar raha hai...."
"kya Arman,ek to ye teri madad karne aayi hai aur uspar tu ise uncomfortable kar raha hai..."Sonam aur mere beech khade hokar Varun ne mujhe ghura...
"main ise uncomfortable kar raha hoon ya ye mujhe uncomfortable kar rahi hai..."
"hey Mr. main koyi aisi waisi ladki nahi hoon ,samjhe..."Varun ko samne se dhakka dekar Sonam ne meri aankho me aankhe dalte hue fire kiya....
"waise mera sawal ye tha ki Nisha ki email id main kaha se laun..."maine turant topic change kiya aur mudde par aaya...
"maine kaha na ki uski email id mujhe maloom hai..."Sonam bhi mudde par aate hue boli"actually...uski email id maine hee banayi thi..."
Nisha ki email id Sonam ne banayi hai ye jaankar main thodi der tak intezaar karta raha ki ab wo mujhe Nisha ki email id degi...lekin wo chup chap khadi mujhe dekhti rahi aur jab kuchh der tak aur wo ek lafz tak nahi boli to main kheej utha...
"Nisha ki email id batane ka kya logi "
"oh , sorry..main bhool hee gayi thi.."
"apun ka style hee kuchh aisa hai ki ladkiya mujhe dekhkar sab kuchh bhool jati hai..."
"aisa kuchh bhi nahi hai..."ek kagaj par Nisha ki email id likhkar Sonam boli"ab main chalti hoon..."
"Sonam...ruko,kuchh baat karni hai tumse...akele me"
"kaisi baat karni hai tujhe
"waha mauzood teene human ne mujhse puchha...Sonam bhauchakki thi,Arun ,Sonam ko dekhkar laar tapka raha tha aur Varun aankho me angare liye bas Sonam ke jaane ka intezaar kar raha tha,taki wo meri thukayi kar sake....
"Varun,waisa kuchh bhi nahi hai mere bhai,jaisa tu soch raha hai "Varun ko ek konte me lejakar maine samjhaya ki main Sonam se Nisha ke baare me kuchh puchhana chahta hoon,jisase jo uljhan is samay mere dimag me hai ,wo sulajh jaye....
.
"Kab se Nisha ko janti ho..."balcony me aane ke baad maine Sonam se pahla sawal kiya...
"lagbhag tab se jabse hum dono ne school jana shuru kiya,we are childhood friends..."
"tab to ,tum mujhe Nisha ke bare me bahut kuchh ya phhir ye kahe ki sab kuchh bata sakti ho..."
"aur tumhe aisa kyun lagta hai ki main aisa karungi..."mere thik bagal me khade hokar wo boli"main Nisha ke bare me sabkuchh janti hoon,lekin iska matlab ye nahi ki main tumhe uske baare me kuchh batane wali hoon....tumhara ye ghatiya plan flop hai..."
"yaha baat flop ,hit,superhit,blockbuster,all time blockbuster ki nahi hai...yaha baat Nisha ki hai..tumhe andaza bhi nahi hai ki is waqt Nisha kis halat me hai,isliye mujhe uske baare me sabkuchh janana jaroori hai..."
Sonam kuchh der tak waha chup chap khadi sochati rahi aur phhir deewar ki taraf jakar nakhoon se deewar ko kharochane lagi....
.
"puchho...kya puchhana chahte ho..."meri taraf platkar usne kaha..
"sabse pahle ye batao ki kya tum ab bhi Nisha ke ghar jakar usase mil sakti ho..."
"No...yadi maine aisa kiya bhi to uske maa-baap meri khatiya khadi kar denge..."
"maine thik aisa hee socha tha,ab ye batao ki kya tum Sonam ke sath college me padhti thi..."
"haan,hum dono ek dusare ke best friend the..."
"to phhir Mujhe ye batao ki Vishwakarma aur Nisha ka kya relation tha..."
"tum Vishwakarma ko jante ho... "
"kal hee use jana hai..."
"Nisha hamesha se hee akeli rahi thi,uske maa-baap sirf name ke maa-baap the...wo aksar mujhse kahti ki use koyi pyar nahi karta...jabki usne kisi ke sath kabhi jara sa bhi galat nahi kiya aur phhir uski Zindagi me Vishwakarma name ka ek toofan aaya ,jisne pahle shanti se Nisha ko apne jaal me phhasaya aur phhir Nisha ko badnaam karne laga...usne pure class ke samne Nisha ko randi kaha tha, Vishwakarma ke dhokhe se Nisha lagbhag puri tarah mar chuki thi...lekin college ke aakhiri dino me kuchh chamatkar sa hua, Nisha ko dekhkar aisa lagne laga...jaise ki use jeene ki koyi vajah mil gayi hai,jaise ki usne apne liye ek sahara dhoondh liya ho,wo sahara tum the Arman...yadi tum Nisha se na mile hote to shayad wo ab tak zinda nahi bachti...yadi tum uski zindagi me nahi aaye hote to shayad abtak wo ghut-ghut kar mar gayi hoti ya phhir suicide kar leti..."
"phhir usne mujhse jhooth kyun kaha ki uski zindagi me main pahla ladka hoon..."Nisha ke ateet ne jab mere dil ko cheer dala tab maine apna agla sawal kiya...
"Arman,koyi shaks nahi chahega ki uski ek galti ki vajah se uske aaj aur aane wala kal par bura prabhav pade aur shayad isiliye Nisha ne tumse aisa kaha...Vishwakarma,Nisha ke zindagi ki sabse badi galti thi jiski saza wo bhugat chuki hai...aur ab wo nahi chahegi ki uski zindagi ka sabse bura daur uske aaj ke achchhe daur ko khatm kar de..."
"thanks,ab tum ja sakti ho..."balcony ke bahar aasman ki taraf dekhte hue maine Sonam ko jaane ke liye kaha...
"Arman..."waha se jate hue Sonam boli"yadi tumne zindagi me kabhi koyi galti ki hogi to tumhe iska ahsaas jaroor hoga...aage tumhari marzi..."
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Sonam ke jane ke baad main bahut der tak aasman ko niharta raha...aaj bahut din baad suraj ne apne darshan diye the,badalo ko bhedati Suraj ki kiran mere andar ek naya josh ,ek naya utsah bhar rahi thi...maine table par rakhe us kagaj ko uthaya jispar Nisha ka email address tha aur turant Nisha ko mail kar diya ki, main Sonam se mil chuka hoon.....
Ab mujhe wo sab beete pal yaad aa rahe the,jab Nisha har waqt mere peechhe paglo ki tarah padi rahti thi...main samajh chuka tha ki uska wo rubab sirf ek dikhawa,sirf ek chhalawa tha...taki main ye na jaan paun ki wo mujhe dil-o-jaan se pyar karti hai...shayad use dar tha ki kahi main uski mazboori ka Vishwakarma ki tarah fayda na uthau...lekin main aisa nahi tha..beshak mujhme kayi burayi hai lekin main dusaro ke armano ki kadra karna janta hoon..isiliye shayad mera name Arman pada ya phhir yun kahe ki mere name Arman hone ki vajah se main is shabd ki paribhasha,is Arman shabd ka matlab samajh paya...aur mujhe maloom hee nahi balki iska ahsas bhi hai ki adhure Armano ka gam kya hota hai.... Pahle jaha main Nisha ki call ko ignore karta tha wahi ab main chahta tha ki ab wo mujhe ek call kare to main uski aawaz sun loon...pahle jaha main kisi na kisi bahane Nisha ke messege ko taal deta tha ab main wahi computer screen ke samne pichhale ek ghante se apni email id kholkar uske messege ka intezaar kar raha tha...main dekhna chahta tha ki wo apni khushi ko shabdo me kaise bayan karti hai...mere liye apne left side me dhadak rahe dil ki dhadkano ko wo kis tarah shabdo me utarti hai...aur yadi in short kahe to "now,i am madly love her "
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